I Am The Worst

So when we look at ourselves I guess we want to see positive.  Want to know what I always always see??  The bad.  I have been looking at it for a long long time.  Is that normal??  Do people typically only believe the good in themselves??

Perhaps A List:

• I think I get angry more often than ever before now...
• I think I suffered through stuff in life for a reason, and good should come from it.
• The good takes longer than I thought.  
• That is frustrating.
• Am I impatient??
• Are people afraid of what they see??
• I guess it is hard not knowing what is going on with people.
• I don't feel people are as open as they could be.
• I am not sure why.
• scared?? afraid??  
• Show me someone who is tough in life.
• For some reason I think you know this
• You aren't acting on it though.
• I think when you try to show all good, you show very bad.
• All good is not real
• Do you know this??
• I am pretty shocked, and disappointed at some.  to be honest.  

For that I say I am the worst!!  I have always looked at my bad though, and have for a long time.  It was scary, and it was hard, and I was freaking like 24 years old, and I am 44 now.  20 years ago!!  I let you know all about a lot of stuff too.  A lot.  Some of you give me some, and I let you know via comment, and sometimes you give me nothing, and I let you know with no comment  (bloggers)

So yeah, I am a jerk, and some things frustrate me, but I don't sugarcoat it, unless you are real sweet.  :)  lol

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

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p.s. I have the day off, so I may go back to bed for a bit before coffee.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)