I'd Hate To Break My Streak, Cuz Of No Title

Monday was okay. I got everything done I wanted. I weeded my tomato garden, and remulched it. Finished mulching the garden I worked on yesterday, and watered everything. I just have one more garden to weed. Where do these weeds come from?  Sheesh. I got my workout in too. The days still are busy. I see no end. There always is stuff to do. 

I think once I weed the last garden, and cut the grass, that should be good. It is going to be pretty hot outside all week. I have to take the dogs for a walk today, add a little bike ride after work too, and dinner. Today will be flat out busy. 

We had one positive virus test yesterday in our county, so hopefully that is the direction we are headed. I see pretty soon every company will be boycotting spending advertising money on Facebook. Kinda a reverse protest. I guess it shows people are sick of seeing shit that divides. Life is short enough to be angry all the time. I blocked or defriended right wing protestors in my feed. I don't need to see it. 

That wasn't a big deal to me really. I was living a covid-19 lifestyle even before the virus came, so I don't have any friends anyway. I am weeding my stupid gardens instead of going to happy hours. 

I finished yesterday feeling accomplished I guess. I was busy pretty much the whole day. We picked up something easy for dinner. I crashed, so I'll have to go back and rewatch the last part of the 2nd episode of Perry Mason. I have Saturday the 4th off, and we are working on Sunday instead. Normally I'd have the whole weekend off, but production is down,  and the company I work for are only working 4 people during the week, so I still have to work. Money coming in though is always good. 

Outside that not much. It's just my boring life. Boring from the outside that is. I am fine with it. I have no idea what other people do. Not a clue. I am pretty sure either this post or one of the previous ones was 30 days in a row.  30 days is a goal you should never partake of. So pointless. Like this blog. 

Laterzzzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.        :)))

The End Of The Day

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was okay. I actually got a haircut. I just checked my app, and it was a 9 minute wait. Sweet, I signed myself up, and I am normal again. Normal looking anyway. My growing out my hair idea was not going in a very good direction.  :)  I looked ridiculous. We got some stuff for our yard. We made a new sitting nook in the back. I had lunch with my dad. That was fine. I felt safe at the restaurant. 

After lunch,  I weeded one garden, and added more mulch. I'll weed another today. We did the nook area. I got my grocery shopping done earlier too. Such a boring day on the outside, but I liked it fine. All my clothes got cleaned,  and put away, and the kitchen cleaned. We did tacos for dinner. My day was busy. I got some labor done. Today will be busy. I have to work out, and weed and water, and do dinner. We turned our air on again,  and it will stay on for at least a week. 

So yeah, another day. It was fine. If I get those other two gardens weeded today, I'll be done for a while. Nothing major to do. I guess there is always something to do. 

Life goes on. Today is a work day. There will be plenty of labor today. I slept like a champ last night. Ready to start the week. 

I got nothing I guess. I don't know how most people view their life. My dad is in his final years, as am I for all I know. I just grab out of each day what I am alotted. Work,  eat, sleep. I am fine with that. What I did yesterday is what I want on my day off. Pretty much what I want on my days on too. Finish the day with some labor to it. I am under no responsibility to fill up another person's day. Free in that regard. 

Anyway I spose. 

Laterzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeeee.     :)))

Starting Again

Somehow I lost my post I already started. Long story short, my blood pressure is good. Only 71 miles last week. my muscles are repairing themselves, and I feel much better. I definitely need time for muscle rest, and muscle recovery. 

I gained another pound last week, and body fat stayed the same as a percentage. Today I am going to do a few things. Nothing crazy. I am going out to lunch with my dad. Clean and water, the usual. 

I take my temperature every Saturday before work as a covid-19 check in precaution thing. I think I didn't have it under my tongue correctly. I was always reading in the 95s. I just took it now, and it said 97.6. For the last two months I was 95-something always. I checked it out. Made sure the thermostat was rested under my tongue correctly. Wallah. 97.6. 

Overall I am healthy I'd say. I have a checkup in two weeks. Really I monitor a lot of  things. Temperature every week for work. I monitor my sleep,  my steps. My blood pressure. and my resting heart rate. I got sucked in to wanting to know this information somehow. I can definitely be a number fanatic. 

Other than that not much. I am glad I took this weekend off. Glad my muscles are repairing. and I am not so sore. It's good to get sore, but also it's good to recover. I wasn't letting myself recover. 

All in all I guess I am doing fine. I have my daily routine, which I guess is more like a weekly routine. I feel relatively safe from covid-19. I don't feel I am high risk. I wear a mask when going shopping. Work is pretty much always an exercise in social distancing anyway. To be safe we are going to wear masks again in the back of the bakery. Front of the house always did, and we didn't have to. Just like you see in a pharmacy or whatever. Since this thing is obviously not going away we are going back to masks in the back too. It's just smart. 

Next week will be busy, just cuz I will have to water everything every day. Gotta do dinners too, and stuff. I'll be starting with fresh, and recovered muscles though. Maybe I'll have a pep in my step. 

I did check on some things. I won't be running 30 days in a row obviously,  but I am approaching 30 days in a row of blogging. Not sure if I ever did that. Maybe in the younger years of blogging I did. My life is so much different now. 

I cannot even imagine what kind of a *name* I have from blogging. Perhaps a creep.  :)  I see the viewpoint better of normal people. I see more like them now. 

Whatever. The people don't really matter too much for me I guess. Blogging I still do. Not sure what that means though. Not sure what a typical person thinks of that. 

People don't blog anymore for whatever reason. People lost an avenue to bare their souls kinda. To share their life. To get support when they are frustrated, and maybe feeling like less of a saint. Now what do people do?  I don't know. Blogging may be outdated, but I think there is a desire for people to want to be seen and known. 

Blogging was an avenue to get past the pictures of picnics, and first days of school and whatnot. 

Maybe people just talk and text more. I don't know. 

Anyway for this thing I am approaching 30 straight days. I'd rather it was running, cuz who gives a fuck about 30 days of blogging?  I barely gave a shit about 30 days of running. It definitely was harder than I thought it would be though.  

Laterzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee.     :)))

One Day Is Unlike The Other

I slept around the same time the last two nights. Today I feel well rested. Not tired like yesterday. I didn't work out yesterday. I just want to recover from soreness. I am taking the weekend off. My miles will be down quite a bit this week too. Lemme check.  I will probably be 72 miles. maybe 73, or 74. My down week happens to be last years goal number. 

Outside that not much. I didn't go with my dad last night. Kinda dozed through it. I'll call him this morning,  and we can do something after work. Get a burger or something. With Florida,  and Texas shutting things down it has me wary of eating at restaurants. A wimp I know,  but what are you going to do. The risk of living with some shitty fever for two weeks is not worth eating out. Especially since my county had a good amount of cases yesterday. One of those weird things. All week it's been like 4 or 5 or something low, and yesterday 17.  

Its why I never make plans. The end of the day I just wanna do what I wanna do. Basically nothing. Another thing I should remember about myself, kinda like my left knee. 

Anyway today is a day. It should be fine. Next week is July 4th week,  so I will be busy at work, and probably for the next 6 weeks. 

There will be some financial pain showing its ugly head. 2nd quarter earnings will be starting soon. Nike posted a bigger than expected loss yesterday. The extra $600 runs out pretty soon. Another month. Manufacturing is down. I don't see it on the news, but I know. I know just by my Saturday job. A good amount of people just don't know yet how dire their financial position is. 

I guess the escalation in cases makes everything bad again. If we had this under control by now maybe it would be okay. Its worse now than before. We cannot shut things down again. 

The budgets at State level will be slashed. That's police, fire,  and Education. Slashed budgets mean slashed jobs. Vendors at stadiums.  

I get the feeling we are in a paradigm shift. The World is different. What we do will be different. Say my knee was fine, and I got in good running shape. Maybe I'd like to run a distance race. There are none.  :)  

Things will be different it seems. To what extent I don't know. The World today is different than the one I grew up in. Young kids just wanting to go out and party on the weekends may be putting people at risk. 

You give a young me the opportunity to go out, and maybe hook up with a girl, man that's just what we did. It was fun. 

Anyway, guess I'll get ready for work. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.   :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeee.       :)))

I Am Tired

I feel like I could sleep more. I am doing this instead.  I did get 7-1/2 hours of sleep. I woke up at 1:00 AM for a while, and eventually fell back asleep. My problem I guess is my alarm went off while I was in a deep sleep. 

Anyway I learned something new yesterday. I did a short little time trial after work. It was hard. It's been forever since I've put in any kind of non-transportation like effort on the bike. I pretty much blew my load in the first 30 seconds. I couldn't get the same push from my legs. My heart rate was up a great deal, and it was fun. It makes me think maybe biking always played a role in me getting in shape. 

My knee felt much better yesterday. Almost like I can already run again. There is some pain when I bend my leg,  but really I am so toast. I am sore everywhere. I know why people get sports massages. Holy cripes I need one. 

Other than  that not much. Yesterday was a horrible day as far as the virus goes. I have nothing to say about it. It's bad out there I guess. I need a haircut,  but oddly I may see how my basically white hair looks long. Basically I don't really care about my hair. My hair is full, and that will never end. I am just really gray. Probably worse now cuz of the sun. 

A quick look in myself, I don't feel angry about anything. Nothing terribly important going on in my noggin. Just this tired feeling. I have to drive today, cuz of rain I guess. 

I told my dad I'd take him out to dinner tonight. That was such a horrible idea on my part. I'll get no enjoyment out of it. That's for sure. 

I am going to  try and nap for a bit. 

Laterzzzzzzz.     :)

xoxo.      :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.     :)))

Had To End It At 24

I couldn't run yesterday. I tried, but every step hurt. I had a feeling. If it hurts to walk it hurts to run. My old rule of running I made up. I hate that rule. It doesn't mean I am done running, but I have to accept this shortcoming in myself. At least til the next time I forget about my stupid knee. 

Yesterday was busy anyway. Challenging busy. Work was work, but I had plans for dinner. I had to water, the kitchen was a mess, I still had  to work out too. 

After about 5 steps of running, I  just walked Hope the rest of the way. I cleaned the kitchen first thing, and plugged away on the other stuff. I got everything in. I even  did 5 sets of the pullups,  and dips. Dips are getting easier now. My 5th set I doubled my normal reps. 

Outside of doing all this I was contemplating my next challenge. I am limited in running. It seems to me I need another physical challenge. Nothing really comes to mind yet. I thought of riding my bike after work. Like maybe a 6 mile time trial is ~ 2 miles  of running is the first thing I thought of. Add longer runs too on other days. I don't know what I will do. I have a love hate I guess with this type of thing. I didn't always enjoy having to run every day, but when it was taken away yesterday, I surely didn't like it. 

Anyway, I did get  everything done yesterday, and cooked chicken on the grill. A productive day feels good. A challenge conquered. Lisa going back to work is going to be good for me. Just having to get dinner ready adds to my timeline. I should research new recipes. Summer eating is boring to me. The only thing I really felt like was grilled chicken. I am doing tacos tonight. 

In search of a new challenge, I feel the world is open to me. Also I know I cannot do all the things. Not gonna make that mistake. 

Outside that not much. As regards to my remarks yesterday, I think Georgia is a tough judgement. They weren't doing horrible at all as compared to others like Michigan, New York,  and New Jersey. Why not try, and get a jump start on a ravaged Economy?  Also the protests and stuff. 

We had an opportunity to kick this early. We failed. Europe tackled it, along with Eastern Countries. Now this thing is going to linger. People are still willing to pack in groups without a care in the World. Lucky for me, I lived a covid-19 lifestyle before it was cool. 

I don't need to do stuff. I am happy at home. Happy with work,  eat, sleep. Personally I don't feel real concerned. A little sometimes, but not much. I am busy, and I have stuff to do each day. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeee.         :)))

It Is 59° Outside

A little reprieve from the heat.  An interesting note from yesterday. Our current President held a rally indoors at some mega-church yesterday in a State with spiking rates of infection. On the same day I heard the EU is going to put the US along with Russia,  and Brazil among other Countries on their not allowed to travel to an EU country list. In this respect we are being treated as one of the dumber nations, we could not get this under control. We do really look dumb. We've acted dumb. We continue to act dumb.  

So we are a nation filled with dumb people. We've known it a while, but I guess it takes some time for those true colors to shine. Next up for Michigan is migrant workers. Blueberry season will be upon us. We have many farms in Ottawa County so we will see how that affects things.  So far Michigan is doing okay, but we've had a little uptick lately. Not like Florida, Georgia, Texas,  California,  Arizona, the Carolinas etc...   Georgia will probably overtake us today. They probably would have been 10s of thousands less than us, but they opened up early. Monday morning quarterbacking is easy, but Georgia gambled the info we were getting was wrong. It was a gamble too. One that should lead him to the unemployment lines once his term is up. That is what is at stake. 

You cannot instill reason into people who are blinded by politics though. You may as well not talk about such things. Still though people being blinded by politics is a thing to marvel at. 

Anyway I got run 24 done yesterday with a little knee issue started the day before. Yikes.  Can't have that. I believe I should be able to run no problem. This knee should not affect me. I've run thousands of miles before. See how I am too?  Evidence suggests I may have a left knee issue when I run consistently. I turn a blind eye to evidence, and don't believe it. I can run, and will have no issues is what I think. So I gamble there is no issue. 

Its okay I play the fool. It's just me running, and my stupid knee. I am not gambling thousands of people may get sick every day, and dozens every day die. My gamble has little meaning, except to me.  

That is what I felt when I saw those people cramming inside like sardines to hear our current President speak. A gamble with the health of many people at stake.  The reward if the gamble works?  Nothing really.  Only bad pretty much can come from it. The audacity to gamble with peoples lives. Those lives don't matter. It's like being a general on the battlefield.  Lives will be taken. Probably not the general's life. All for whatever people are fighting for that day. 

It is a true statement of History that no lives matter. The people in power believe that their lives matter, and they will gamble and sacrifice the lesser lives to fulfill whatever they feel their purpose is. 

You should throw away your obedience to your *leader*  your life doesn't matter to him or her. Have some courage.  Find your own truth. Or are you in the middle of living happily ever after?  

Anyway, life is back to a bit of normalcy for us. Lisa is working. I gotta start having meals ready. I still have to run, and workout,  and water stuff. Life will not slow down for me. 

Anyway, I spose.  

Laterzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.           :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.        :)))

I Am Like A Normal Person

So, last night I crashed. I got over 7 hours of sleep. I was tired too when my first alarm went off. 1 hour and 15 minutes later than it used to. Pretty sure that waking up at 2:30 AM to run before work is over. How I even did it for so long is beyond me. 

Yesterday was busy. Not only did I have to go shopping after work, but I got a call from the police yet again. My dad ran out of gas. I was just going to ignore the cops call, but they called Lisa too. I guess they have both our numbers now. The cop drove him to our house, and I drove him with gas can to his car. He was over on the North side of town,  which I never go to. I ran before I took him,  cuz for some reason I cannot imagine fucking up my 30 days of running. I did my workout after. 

I have no idea why this 30 day of running is a big deal. There aren't no prizes. It isn't even some kind of great accomplishment. I am running ~1.5 milers. People have run marathons 30 days in a row. Probably not while working full time is my guess, but what I am doing is no accomplishment at all. Yet I still do it. 

It is harder than I thought it would be. My legs are always in a constant state of being fatigued and sore. It seems my back is too from working out. This is the worst. Being sore all the time. I did feel good on my run yesterday. Felt like I could keep going and going.  Unfortunately,  or maybe fortunately I guess I had to take my dad to his car. I am taking him out to dinner Friday. I figure i would probably like him better if I see him outside of the cops calling me again for whatever he is doing. 

I am a Pejchl. The ladies have been dead since forever,  so I am not one of your typical family is important type of people. It could just be I am who I am. Accepted. I don't need to rely on current customs like hallmark holidays and stuff. I don't give a fuck about them. I really don't give a fuck about much. I have my day to day. I have the ability to be my base self I guess. A saint I am not. 

I can be honest about this stuff, cuz i am accepted. I don't need affirmations from others,  because they matter not one bit to me. That is confidence from being accepted.  It also is strength being accepted. It also is knowing the truth. As I am now it is impossible for me to be a saint. That part of the story is not in my hands, and actually very little was. Perhaps the only part was me decades ago overcoming myself. I was told that is why I'd be rescued out of every entanglement I got into. So I guess that is my little part of the story. 

Anyway, like i said that 30 day of running thing I am doing is baffling. I cannot imagine why it is something I am so disciplined to do.   

Gotta go. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.       :)))

Strange Sleep

For about the first time in forever I couldn't fall asleep. A pretty strange thing for me. I finally did sleep non stop from like 1-5:00 AM. I was pretty out of it when my alarm went off. 

I got everything done yesterday I wanted to, except cook a meal. I had frozen pizza. I did cut the grass, trim, and water. I also weeded the gardens. I got my run in. After today I only have 7 days left. Then I will probably have to run real runs. 3, 4, 6 milers. Start building again. I have no idea how that will turn out. I wanted to do a track workout too. I am nervous for all those kinda. I've only been running ~1.5 milers. 

Today is a workout day. Also I should go shopping. I should really start doing it on Sundays again. My Sundays are not filled with a ton of labor. I have time. 

Our movie theaters are opening soon. I haven't been charged for my monthly thing. I may keep it for a bit. I wouldn't mind doing movies again. I may cancel it, but not right away. I hope to get in a groove again. Lisa goes back to work tomorrow.  :)  After so much time off. She is going to be tired. Not working is different than working. It takes a bit to get it back. 

Really not much going on with me. Just living out my days. Trying to get the running thing back. Being busy. I live the way I like to I guess. In all things I guess I am in a good spot.  I get to fill the day as I choose. It usually is with labor. My yard will get sprayed with weed~n~feed today or the next. I'll water everyday it doesn't rain. My yard looks pretty good. It will even get better. 

Now comes the relaxing part of Summer. I do not have any real projects to do. Lisa is working,  so I'll probably go paddle boarding some.  It's a pretty good time of year I guess. 

I really don't have much on my mind. Nothing too stressful going on with me. I don't have much to worry about. I have no idea what to do for meals this week. Not much even sounds too great in the Summer does it?  Winter is definitely the eating months. 

I don't feel like beef, except in tacos. I wouldn't mind grilled chicken. Hamburgers, and brats are boring. 

Oh well. 

I guess I'll get ready for work. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeee.        :)))

Tired At The End Of The Week

Today couldn't start out any worse. I don't feel I slept great last night. My BP is running a little higher than normal. Also I gained .4 pounds, and .2 of a percent of body fat.  WTF?  Dammit. I don't care about gaining weight but the body fat percentage is bullshit. 

My run yesterday was really hot. I saw several people walking their dogs. Hope is an ass, so that was annoying. I think it was 21 days though. I figured I'd have a drink with it being Saturday. I had one, and wasn't feeling it. I watched a couple movies,  and started another. I ended up with 82 miles last week. This week Lisa goes back to work. 

As I am having my coffee, I am starting to feel better. More ready to get shit done today. I do have to cut the grass for sure. I think the lawn people may be coming tomorrow. Early in the week for sure. I have to do laundry,  and some cleaning. Have to get my  run in. I think I'd like to make something good for dinner. Not sure what though. Winter is so much better for that type of stuff. 

Really not a lot on my mind. The virus is a stickler. I don't think we took it serious enough. Still don't think we are. Some States are being brutalized. Many already were. Politic season is soon to be upon us. Tensions may run high. I don't know. I think I'll just do my thing.  Try, and get my BP down a bit. Stay busy. There is always something with me. First there was a cough. Now my BP. Plenty of shit to worry about day after day. 

I really got nothing. 

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.       :)))

It Is Going To Be A Hot One Today

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was okay. My run was okay. I was mentally in it.  I changed places. Sped up a bit here and there. Embraced the heat, knowing I've run in it many times before. It was okay. I can't say I am in shape. but I assume I'll get there. My heart is in it. I am not doing it just to do it. I'd say a lot of the time the last few years I was just running Hope for Hope. Not really for me. 

I forgot I had to workout too after my run. That's kind of a drag, when you weren't even stoked about going to run. I got them both in, and definitely felt good about it.  I have two days off from working out now, which should be good. Let my muscles rest. Today will be 21 days of running in a row.  It has turned out to be more challenging than I thought. You think 30 days short miles big deal. I didn't take into consideration how much I use my legs without running. Also I didn't know I was a beginning runner. Also it mostly has been pretty warm, which puts me at the position of being even more of a beginning runner. 

What do I do afterwards?  What kind of running plan do I come up with?  How many days, and how many miles?  Days off?  Shit, I'll probably have to cross train on my bike. The real question is can I actually become a runner again with these crazy miles I put in just in my regular day to day. At 54 I think it's a pretty good thing to try. 

Other than that not much. I see the virus isn't ending anytime soon. Summer might not be the best time to have this type of thing. People go out more. They travel and stuff. Trump is going to start throwing rallies. Those will definitely be for his benefit. He needs that high I guess, but he is throwing caution to the wind. The SC cases this week taught me much about him. They were cases justices decided with reasoning, and Law etc...  a lot of thought went into the decisions. Trump thought the decisions were all about him. The justices didn't think once about him while making the decisions. 

The World view it seems Trump has is him having a very big picture in the whole picture. Everything else as being small. He has a following too, which is pretty remarkable to me. 

I saw FB is going to have a thing where you can block political adds. I've already blocked or unfriended right wing posters. That is one thing I never need to see. Now I can block all political ads.  You know I probably only check FB once or twice each day. Social media has definitely changed for me.  Geesh, I do this, and I like it. My little updates. It doesn't need to be on social media really. 

For all I know I could be  the only one who reads it. That is fine with me too.  I do my life thing. Busy busy. I don't know what purpose blogging does, but I still enjoy doing it. Weird right?  

Anyway, better get ready for work.  

Laterzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.     :)

Byeeeeeeeee.       :)))

It Seemed Like A Rest Day

It kinda seemed like a rest day. After work, and my run I sat it seems more than usual. I still ended up with close to 14 miles,  and a good chance I hit 80 miles for the week. After work my legs were trashed I mentally prepared myself for a tough run. It helped. I think being mentally in my run will help me do better. I was always a just go out and run la 🎵🎶 la la 🎶🎵.  Not really thinking of running. I have no idea of where me running will lead if anywhere. Running in the heat after work does not give me confidence any of this is helping me get in shape. 

I am hoping to eventually add distance. Hoping to get to the point where I impress myself with miles.  I do believe the novelty of that has run dry. I sometimes think maybe I should bike more, but reality hits. You know, I am pretty busy as it is. Lisa goes to work next week, so I really have to start planning meals and stuff. Lately its work work work. Oops look, it is time to eat. We eat something easy or pick up something. I do crave the ability to go out for a 6 mile run like it is a walk in the park. I think me being mentally up for the challenge of running will help me get that back again. After a certain time you think you'd never lose it. I did lose it. You lose it you start from the beginning. I had no idea I'd ever be starting from the beginning. 

Beginning running is brutally hard. Speed work is hard for experienced running, but nothing will ever be as hard as beginning running. A beginning runner cannot fathom the marathoner. It's what made me want to do them. 

Anyway as I am pondering running i am kinda getting excited for running. Getting back to how i used to be. Maybe even come up with a plan. So much stuff in life. I have a lot of stuff to do each day,  but I think I will put a priority on running. It would be fun huh?  

Today will be a workout day. Trying to be mentally in my workouts to make them easier is what made me want to start being mentally into my runs.  So I wake up,  and ponder what can be. 

Maybe this blogging is good for me. It really is alone time with me and my thoughts, and desires and such. Most important thing today is running as a priority. Kinda exciting right?  

Anyway I spose. I may do a 2nd cup of coffee. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.           :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.      :)))

That Day Filled Up

Yesterday was a full day. I worked my full shift. I got my run in which was sluggish. My workout seemed tough too. It was hot outside which could explain the run. Not sure. Not enough sleep too?  Of course I felt fine waking up. 

That wasn't the end of the day either. I had mulch to do. I got a good amount of that done,  and watered the grass, and gardens. We ate dinner outside,  and I went to bed. That's a full day. Over 14 miles total. However long I've had my fitbit, like 2 years 4 months or something,  I've walked enough miles to travel the Earth's core. I think 77,000 miles. It also said my average daily steps was like 24,800. There is no way that happens if I didn't walk a lot at work. 

Today should be a relatively easy day. I have to work, run, and pick weeds in my tomato garden. That should be about it. Thursdays are typically long work days. 

I really think things start chilling out as far as stuff that needs to get done. Probably not. There is always shit that needs to get done. Summer is so busy. You basically open up your whole outside with work to do. Not just the hour or so to occasionally run your snowblower, and roof rake. Every day there is stuff. What is crazy is our yard. So full of stuff. Then it will die, and our yard will be bare. Then it will fill up again. It's a neat cycle. 

My blood pressure is staying steady. Just above what I want it to be. :)  

I guess in life we do what we enjoy. I enjoy the end of my days me being tired. I enjoy having a good amount of labor in. When I am up in the morning I really look forward to a full day. I don't want leisure. I don't want to watch tv all day, or watch movies. I don't even  want to read all day. I want activity, and that's what I get. 

Sitting at a beach doesn't do it for me. My life on  the outside is boring as heck I am sure. My heart is fine with it though. I suspect people seek for the activities that will make them happy. My heart is happy,  and then I start my activities. I am happy to wake up and go to work. I think more than anything I wake up, and I am happy. Even on my days off I think of all the things to be done. 

Anyway, I spose.  

Laterzzzzzzzzz.        :)

xoxo.            :)

xxoo.           :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.      :)))

Boy Oh Boy The Days Keep Coming

Good morning. How's it going?  I am okay. I slept for 5 hours only again. I feel fine too. I wonder if at the beginning of the warm season being outside for long periods takes a lot out of you, but then you acclimate. 

I was busy after work. I got my run in, I used my truck to pull out a stump. We had a decorative tree get a disease,  so we chopped it, and replaced it with a different type of tree. It was pretty cool using the truck to pull out a stump. It was a decorative tree so not a huge one. 

I watered the front, and weeded one of my gardens. One more to go. We decided we need another yard of mulch. The work never ends. It is fine I guess, cuz activity is better than no activity. I've been complaining about having fatigued muscles. One way to stretch is to pick weeds in the garden. You have  to get down low to the ground. Hammies, and if you kneel you can stretch other muscles. Weeding the garden is not exciting work, but you plug along, and it gets done. It felt more positive of an activity instead of doing nothing. 

I started watching season 1 of 30 rock. It's okay. I started falling asleep,  and had to call it a night. I still fall asleep no problem.  

Really not much going on. I guess I was thinking as age starts creeping up you really need to worry about your health. Pay more attention I guess, not so much worry. There is a big guy at work,  and I think he is retaining water in his ankles/lower legs. Yikes. do you tell him?  That would be a big fear factor to me. 

I saw a lot of big people wearing those circulation socks at the workout place. Not a lot. but some. Age, and heavy weight seems pretty bad. It's not like they can go out, and run for 30 days. My first two weeks had some tough runs. I only took a few months off, and had years of running under my belt too.  

I think big people carry a badge too. It has a stigma to it too I guess. It is lifestyle. If you are over 50 it has been your life after HS basically. Maybe even before HS. We had 3 cooks who used to work at our bakery,  and I am pretty sure they never were in shape. It's hard to have so much flab,  and so little muscle if you had some type of workout base in your younger years. 

Life will be hard for bigger people. Just the  body cannot keep up, and shit starts falling apart. Shit might fall apart anyway. There is an older lady by my house. She is in good shape for her age. Skinny, and does a lot of yard work. I saw her walking in her house with her right hand looking like a claw. I figured arthritis. Shit looked pretty painful. You would think she broke a finger or two, cuz they didn't look like they could move. 

Anyway, I guess I got 3 busy days ahead of me. I think is there no end?  Then again I'd rather be busy than not. 

I spose.  Better make my salads.  

Laterzzzzzz.     :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeee.    :)))

A Perfect Storm

I had my day cut out for me. First there was work. I had to run,  and workout. Lisa, and I were going to the plant store plus I had to get groceries. I didn't go on Sunday again, mostly cuz I've been cutting the grass every Sunday. So I got the run in before shopping. I was tired, and my legs are  really feeling my activity lately. The run was fine. In the end everything worked out fine. I am happy I have that couple years of working out under my belt. I was tired, but I can get my workout in when tired. 

My muscles feel the activity. That is good on one hand, but a nuisance too. I don't know how all of a sudden your day gets away from you. I even finished watching the end of my mini series on HBO. 

I did have my first bad sleep in a while. Like 4:59 hours. I woke up around midnight, and couldn't fall asleep. I think my fatigued muscles actually kept me up. It's what I was thinking about.  :)

I think the first thing I do after my 30 days is 4-800s. Might as well try and turn this into something right?  I think the track makes regular runs easier,  and faster. Speed work really. I could do the 800M hill by my house. 4 hard ups,  recover downs. I think I'll hit the track first. I am definitely not looking forward to that. 

It does work for me though. A jog to my local high school is ~1 mile. Warm up, and recovery. 

I got my application for voting by mail. I think I'll just do that from now on. It's easier. I'd vote more too. We have some kind of primary coming up on Aug 4. I have no idea what that is about. I'd never vote for it, but by mail why not. 

I think there was a demonstration in Michigan for people burning their mail in applications.  :)  All because the Trumpen-a-tor said something derogatory about it. That mail in voting is a liberal plot to steal the election or something. 

It does get out more votes,  and I can see that to be a problem for one who has no chance of getting the majority of votes. Actually it will be a problem for the right for the foreseeable future. On a National scale anyway. I feel Trump opened the battlefield for more States to be involved in the decision. He's just a bad President. It happens. 

Anyway, not much besides that. Today, I only have to run thankfully. I do like working out though. Yesterday I felt I was getting stronger, and that's always good. It's a good feeling. 

Yesterday was 16 days in a row of running my 1-1/2 mile route. It's getting better, but my legs are fatigued. Probably from the amount I use them regularly anyway. I definitely need to get in a better stretching routine. 

Anyway, I gotta run. 

Laterzzzzzzzzz.     :)

xoxo.           :)

xxoo.           :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.         :)))

Everything Done On A Sunday

Good morning. How's it going? Me, I am fine.  I got everything done yesterday I wanted. Clothes all done,  folded,  and put away. Dishes all done, and put away. Microwave, and stove cleaned. Not even on my list. Grass cut, and watered,  gardens watered. Cleaned the truck, which wasn't on the list, and made my cucumber sauce,  so we had gyros last night. I had a ton of REM sleep too. I even got a late start. I started a stupid game on my phone, so that took up a few hours. Got my run in too, which actually felt really easy. I thought maybe my pace was faster, but I am usually 11:xx per mile. I remember when an easy run was like 8:45. Those were the days huh?  

Anyway my blood pressure is good. Not perfect,  but it's okay. Not much else. Today starts Lisa's last week before going back to work. I think it was March something when it started. So 3 months off. A lot has been done with the house. I think the city offices open up this week, so we can get a dump pass. The last thing really on our to do list. Well besides some honey-do shit I have no interest in tackling.   

My life is easy I guess. I have to workout today, and I needed those two days off let me tell you. I still felt a bit sore this morning when I got up. I am surprised I could run yesterday. My legs are sorta tired, but they can go on a run. I don't know how that works. 

I don't have much planned this week. My days fill up fine though. I am always busy, and always active. By the end of the summer I bet I can be in pretty good shape. I like Mondays. A start of the week. Seems like this week should be fine. 

I guess that's it. I got nothing.  

Laterzzzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeee.       :)))

Til This Day I Am A Dumb White Guy

Geesh, there are still a ton of protests going on. In my past I have been so angry that slavery existed,  and angrier still about words how great our Country is or was. Wealthy yes relative to other countries.  Great?  Um, no. Not really.  The Marshall plan was great. Truman doctrine,  not so much. Stalin was in power though how do you deal with one monster when you just defeated another?  Not through Neville Chamberlain type diplomacy,  that's for sure. In the end the Truman Doctrine cost many lives. Without it who knows what the late 40s and 50s would be like. 

Anyway about the protests going on I am dumb. I saw the cop in Minnesota, and it is disgusting. Also I  understand this is not an uncommon thing. It is bad. I remember facing this problem in a Law class. How can you make things equal for blacks?  

You can't. You are looking at what 160 years after the emancipation proclamation. Schooling for black people was no way equal in the south. North  either for that matter. You are looking at multiple generations of keeping blacks not equal. You don't fix that overnight. It takes

generations to fix that. As to the questions of equality no we are not there. 

I am a dumb white guy. I have no idea the black person's walk. They carry a badge as noticeable as a yellow star, cuz they were born with it. Can never take it off. I am a dumb white guy I don't know what that is like. How do you fix the inequity of 160 plus years, not to mention however long slavery was before that. 

The only thing powerful enough to overcome such injustice is forgiveness. Us white people,  well I'd say those of us who look at these types of things sure are sorry. We cannot fix the wrongs done. The power is all in the hands of the injured party. They've been dealt a bad hand. Us white people in america have been dealt a pretty good hand, and we didn't do anything great with it. I don't think peace is achievable for us lowly humans. We are not smart enough for such an enlightened way of life. 

So, I don't try and change the World. In the end I am not even powerful enough to change myself. A Saint I would have liked to be, but I am not able. I live in a World too where most/all think they are Saints due to some characteric(s) they may possess. 

So I work, eat, sleep. Tryna get in shape too. I gained another pound last week, and lost more body fat as a percentage. I've gained 5 pounds in the last 5 weeks, and lost 2 percentage points of fat. a pound each week too. I'd still like to be closer to 160, but I am active, and I spose I am building annoying heavy muscle. Also, I cannot stop eating.   :)  Last week I was at 79 miles. I don't see that going down anytime soon. 

Anyway it is Sunday. I have a lot to do. Today will be day 15 in a row of running. Halfway there. If you ever see someone do something for 30 days straight, and it motivates you to do something for 30 days straight.  Don't do it. Not unless you are the type of person who likes to wear a noose around your neck. I don't see many,  and actually any people doing that. Still though it's good for me. 

Remember when I was worried weighing 158. I am doing pretty good now. 

Laterzzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.        :)))

I Definitely Got Time

Good morning. How's it going?  I am doing fine. I am at 68 miles with another full day of work ahead. Plus another run. My run yesterday was better. I could feel the start of me getting in running shape. I'd say there was around a decade of me running distance, and wow, how did that work?  The starting runner cannot fathom those things. I don't even know where this is leading. I've run 13 days in a row no less for the ware. Is that the saying?  I do not kneel down as easy, so I really have to stretch more.  Remember how I started the year?  

I did an extra set of pullups,  and dips. I did the last set after 4- tens of the knee to chest. The last one burned. Doing better on form with the dips. Just go slow and steady. When you are a kid of 125 pounds or something it seems you just zipped them along. An old person of 165 pounds there will be no more zipping dips. at least for a while yet. Gotta get my muscles used to it. 

So, I am at the beginning of things. Beginning running, and the future is uncertain. Are greater, and better things in store?  Can I use my insane normal work activity as a stepping stone to bigger and better things?  That's the question we will answer as we move on. 

I don't feel I have the time to be a real exercise weenie, but when you resistance train that stuff gets easier,  and you can do more. My pushups were surprisingly easy yesterday. Actually the pullups were harder, and usually the reverse happens. 

As always when I look in the morning the future is unlimited. I am always ready to get after it. Fatigue does take away some of the sparkle I have when I first wake up. Really though right now I feel excited. I feel great things can happen potentially.  As far as me running, and getting in really good shape. 

Lisa goes back to work one week from Tuesday. She will get on a regular schedule. She really likes staying at home, luckily she likes her job and the people,  so it will be good. 

Outside that not much. The World moves on. We are in a stretch of good weather. I am in a good stretch of living. Being active. Starting next week I foresee 80 miles being my norm, just cuz we will be in full swing. Lisa picked up icecream from the bakery. I had her get me an ice cream sandwich. We are a bakery, and we make cookies. It is a good idea, and I had chocolate ice cream with two peanut butter cookies, and mini peanut butter chips sprinkled on the side. That shit will take off I feel. It was really good. 

The thing about it though is I make the cookies. Fill the bakery with cookies, two for each ice cream sandwich, also when funerals start ordering again, it is a lot of work. Plus getting the ice cream sandwiches packaged is work too. I won't be involved with that too much. It will take a while as most things do, but I feel it will take off. Can't wait to try the macadamia white chocolate cookie with strawberry ice cream. How good does that sound?  

Anyway, I guess things are going good. I feel pretty good about stuff. A lot of good things going on with me. There is even talk of another stimulus in late Summer early Fall. Can you imagine?  How did I end up so lucky coming out of this thing better off?  I doubt I am in the majority. I guess its good to be able to live comfortably on very little. 

Anyway, I gotta run. 

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeeeeee.      :)))

Sluggish

So, my 12th run sure was sluggish. The weather was fine too. I know you cannot take too much stock in me  running every day for such a short run, but yesterday sure sucked. I definitely expected better. Most runs are done having 10 miles in my legs which doesn't help. I guess I really want my easy runs to feel easy. My heart rate doesn't go up to extremes, but yesterday did not seem easy. 

It is this fact that starting to run at the age of 53 would be a tough thing to do for someone who hasn't run since high school. I didn't think it was easy in my late 30s to start. I'm kinda trying it again at 53, having taken a couple months off. 

In other news I still am eating eating eating. I swear I eat a banana, and I am hungry 30 minutes later. Eat a sandwich, afterwards I am looking for food in the not too distant future. Its ridiculous. I came home, and had two slices of bread and butter. Plus l ate cherries,  and a cinnamon roll. (Mini)  fruit salad after my run. For dinner I had salmon, baked potato, and salad. 

I switched my salad thingy. I'll make one big salad. One big salad equates to two work salads. That should last for like 4 dinners. At work,  I am going to make each day just a tomato,  and cucumber salad. Just cuz making that is easy. It takes no time,  and i love it as much as anything. So if i don't feel like making a big salad the night before work (always) i don't have to. I can make it as i am making dinner, and have it for like 4 dinners. I will be interested to see my weight this week. 

Other than that not much. I did do some weeding yesterday, and i have to do another spot too. Nothing real significant happened yesterday. I didn't think of anything real significant. Life continues to move on. I see the virus is taking hold in Florida, Arizona,  Texas, North Carolina, etc... South Carolina too. Pretty brutal this thing is. In Michigan we are letting down our guard, as our numbers are dwindling. Yesterday was over 200 though after probables taken into consideration. Texas is a big State. Very spread out. In Florida it is all old people,  so that may be troublesome.  What is it going to be like in the Fall?  How did China stop it so easy?  I saw it may be because it is so natural for those in the East to wear masks. There definitely is no push back when mask wearing is requested. America is filled with a bunch of cowboy wannabes. 

Potentially this thing can get bad again I think. Los Angeles still is horrible,  plus they had those protests.  This thing is a big deal.  We survived the initial outbreak with New York, New Jersey, and Michigan. It expanded,  and now it is expanding again.  It is travel season too, so that *may* be worrisome.  

We can say for certainty this thing is here to stay for a bit. 

Anyway, I gotta go.  

Laterzzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeee.         :)))

Time Keeps Moving

Another day done. It was busy, I was active. My run was definitely a struggle. It wasn't 94, but it was definitely 84, but

the humidity was through the roof. I felt like I was doing speed work,  and the pace showing up proves I definitely wasn't doing speed work. I did get it in, plus my resistance training. I am to my regular sets of pushups,  and have been doing the regular sets of pullups. dips went okay. The spacing is a tad wide to my liking so my dips are semi wide spaced dips.  I did my knee to the chest things. 7, but obviously I want to move up to 10 quickly. 4 sets. Maybe some Fridays I can do extra sets. Blow it up a bit with Saturday,  and Sunday off. Also I'd like resistance training to get easier. I remember when I went to the gym it did get easier. I want to increase reps eventually. 

Anyway besides that not much. I slept good last night. The weather today will be so much better for getting my run in. It is actually chilly this morning. Work will be busy. Thursday is consistently our hardest day. I have to get my run in, and that's about it. 

There isn't much of significance going on in my life right now. Just doing the day by day thing. I know at one point long ago I thought my life was hard. I was full of failures. and vices and stuff. I was just one person in this World, and I had to find my way in it. As we all do I spose. Maybe when we are young we are attracted to confident people. my college girlfriend Katrina was really hot, but it was her confidence I admired. I just figured that out. Afterwards I dated Natalie. I was at my lowest point. Remember I was empty,  and had no energy. I think I went from like 130 pounds to 170. 170 for young me was fat. 170 for old me is fine. Weird how the body develops. I fell for Natalie too, and as I am just figuring it was her confidence that drew me. Why?  Cuz we want to attach ourselves to something solid. Secure. Something with a good foundation. Cuz we want to feel secure. Security I have. I did attach myself to a good foundation. In the end it wasn't a person,  or money, or carving out an esteemed name in society. After living terrified I wanted security more than anything. Going through heimleblog days, and even Steve's journey I did too. I got it though. Overcoming 2 of 3 times I was given security. Then I wait. For what now I am not sure. Waiting for people to be ready for what's next I guess. How that works I have no clue. 

Anyway security is a great thing. A thing to be valued. We sought it out when we were young. We sought it out in personalities pretty much. Money was supposed to be security, but money doesn't have an end. True security has an end to striving as a sidekick.  Money can never have an end to striving as its sidekick. Those two things don't work like that. 

Wouldn't you like to be on the side of true security?  I don't even know how to bring you along. There  was a time I thought my blog had a purpose. I was doing stuff with it. Now I just do it. I don't think it really does anything. 

I still like to do it most days. Obviously I've been doing it a while.   :)    hahaha. I bet I am approaching 15 years soon.  Geesh.  

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.           :)))

  

10 In A Row

I don't know how hot it got yesterday. Did I see 94°?  Anyway, I got my run in, and it wasn't horrible. It was what you expect a hot, and humid run to be. Mine are short though, but they are helping me. I am 1/3 of the way done with 30 days in a row. Also 9 of 10 days not drinking, or 12 of 15. My resting heart rate fell another tick, and my BP is just a tad high. Today is workout day,  so I have just more to do. 

We did get a good shower yesterday, so I don't have to water anything. Yesterday, and today. I started watching a new show on HBO. Well, new for me. I read some of my book, but I really am tired when I go downstairs. Another 12 + miles yesterday. Life continues to move on. In a favorable direction as far as I can tell. I made a really simple meal last night too. It was an easy day I guess. Busy, active, and easy. 

Our Corona numbers are dropping drastically. 120 or something yesterday. Life is what it is now. Changed. Just move forward,  and make the most of it. I am lucky I know. My finances haven't really changed. My future outlook remains the same for us, and we even were recipients of a little windfall, is that the term?  Extra money not planned for?  

Also I cancelled some monthly fees. Got rid of the old people workout place yesterday. I wasn't being charged while closed, but I feel my power tower thing really helps give me everything I need. I still may get weights, but those are in short supply with shipping still jacked. Not sure if I should just get a curl bar. A bench, and dumbbells, or a full set. Not gonna worry too much now. I have a good circuit,  and if I really feel like turning into an exercise weenie, I can always add later. 

The thought of becoming an exercise weenie may seem like fun, but it is work. I don't dread my runs anymore, but I probably wasn't excited about my 5th one. Also my jump from pullups to dips to pullups to dips was challenging. A circuit with little rest is work,  no matter how excited you are to workout. One  thing I noticed is I am eating a lot. Constantly throwing shit in my mouth. Not really shit. Fruits and veggies, chips,  and salsa,  pickles. Whatever, I constantly am throwing food in my mouth. 

So, life goes on. Another day starting today, and it should be fine. Life doesn't seem to different now that I am not drinking. It is still busy. I am not in a hurry to get my shit done so I can start having my drinks. I am probably slowly becoming more productive. I still go to bed around the same time. It shows how much I drank too. I get the same amount of sleep roughly,  and don't feel much different in the morning. Except my heart rate is way down,  so in that way I feel more relaxed kinda. My resting heart rate is down 13 bpms from when I drank every day. Honestly in the morning down 20 bpms at any one time. That is significant. 

I spose.   

Laterzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeeee.         :)))

I Can Be A Number Weenie

Good morning. How's it going?  Me. I am fine. Yesterday was pretty normal. I worked, ran, worked out. Added to my workout were dips,  and the ab knee raise thing. 4 sets of 5 dips,  and 4 sets of 7 knee raise thingies. I'd like the dips to move up hopefully,  but that was my first time. I gotta make sure I get my form down too. There is a little balance, and stuff at play in dips. it's been a while. I had a dip machine at the old people's work out place, but it's different. 

I watered my plants, went shopping after work. I cooked steak and potatoes on the grill. watched my HBO show, and read my book a bit. My  blood pressure was 138 this morning. I'd really like it to be lower. My resting heart rate went down a couple ticks. Normal, and busy day I guess. 

I don't know what is going on with the covid numbers in Michigan. Looks like Louisuana had their day yesterday. It seems there may be probable cases in the past the cdc and Michigan Dept. of Health and Human Services might not agree on perhaps. our numbers the last two day were in the 100s. Looks like cdc added them both yesterday, but unassigned. No clue. Our daily numbers are down,  but no clue what the 5500 Sunday numbers come from. Like how long ago?  I'm a number weenie, and I am getting weird numbers. 

I wonder how the restaurants did yesterday. A lot of old people eat out for some reason. Like all their meals. Something with their generation I guess. I am not even sure how bars are supposed to work. I am not going to find out anytime soon either. 

Running is getting easier kinda. I wouldn't expect to see a huge difference til I get another 3-4 runs in. I'll be around the halfway point of 30 days of short runs. Legs are cooperating on the running part. 

Really nothing else going on with me really. Not a lot on my mind either. Just living life seeing how it all plays out. 

I guess people typically find themselves getting caught up doing more and more. Getting sidetracked with however many different activities. My life ended up being simple. One of the best things is owing no one anything. Not money, but I don't owe people my time, and I don't have to be anything to anyone. I just live out my days. 

I can't really explain it. I don't have a lot of stress I guess. 

Anyway gotta run. 

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeee.       :)))

Something New

Yesterday I washed and waxed my truck. It's been years. Remember before my black truck, I had a '94 Ranger.  Obviously I never washed that thing. Also before Covid-19 I just paid for unlimited washes. We weren't sure of the working situation, so that is one of the monthly fees we gave up. We will do it again, but for Winter. It doesn't really take very long to wash and wax. 

I also ran again, and cut the grass did laundry. Instead of weights I bought what they call a power tower. I think that's what they call it. You can do pullups,  ab knee raises,  and most importantly dips. So for like $130 I can do more exercises. I like the idea of ab work,  but really it is the dips that I wanted. Lifting that body weight in a different way than just pullups.  

The cdc made some type of typo on Michigans covid numbers. They said our daily total for yesterday was like 5500 +, and it was like 140. Saturdays was like 200 and something. Our numbers should be ~58,000 according to multiple sources, and the cdc has it at 64,000.  So, I guess now we will get a day of -5000 cases.   :)   I did do a double take, cuz around us we had free testing. I was going to try and go yesterday, but didn't make it. Still though, I was like wtf?  

Oh, i went to amazon prime last night to look for a show. An amazon original starring Janelle Monét, however you spell it.  Um yes please.   ;)  I've had a crush on her since she did that video with Fun. The "We Are Young" song. 

I saw her in the movie Tubman I think, and maybe something else.  Pretty sure I am just the guy who can make her become straight.   It's a good show. Its called homecoming,  and it is based on a podcast. 

Other than that not much. My blood pressure read a little high. 143/85 i think. I am not worried at that number though. Yesterday was a non drinking day, and my resting heart rate fell back 3 bpm again. Really i do want my top number to be below 140. BP is weird though, I can take it now, and it might read 135/something. When drinking every day i think it was reading 160, and higher,  so I stopped checking it cuz i was afraid to see a bad number. When your blood pressure is high you can feel your heart beating. 

Restaurants and bars open up today, but from what I understand you can't sit at a bar, you  just sit at a table I guess. Not positive how that works. Obviously I won't be going to drink so it doesn't matter to me. I am not even going to go out to dinner. I don't do it a lot anyway. 

I spose I will have a typical day. Work,  run workout, not much else besides that. 

Laterzzzzzzzzzz.    :)

xoxo.            :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeee.         :)))

Running Is Hard For A Non Runner

Running sure is a hard thing to do if you haven't run in a while. I know I stopped at some point during my coughing problem. It's been a while,  and I have no idea how long. Long enough you could consider me a non runner. I am putting in 11:00-12:00 minute paces in my ~1.5 mile route. It isn't exactly easy either. My lungs are not used to this cardio thing. I rode my bike for transportation a lot, but it isn't the same. My commute is super short,  and I don't time trial it at all. I don't go slow, but I don't try and kill it. 

So, basically I start as a non runner, and I'll tell you what.  People who want to be runners have a steep hill to climb. It just isn't easy at all. Luckily I already know how the other side is, so I won't get frustrated. running 30 days in a row is a grind though. I've only done it 7 days so far. 

I drank last night. Just my usual. I don't plan on doing it again til maybe next Saturday if I feel like it. Like I told you the addiction is gone, so I did it for the heck of it. I thought it would be a good way to relax at the end of my week. At the expense of reading my book, and doing other stuff. I was tired, and beat. 77 miles last week was my total. Running after my Saturday job is not ideal, but I had to get it in. It was then I realized or re-reremembered how hard running really is. I did my pushups,  and pullups too. 

I gained another pound last week. 164.7, and I continue to lose body fat as a percentage. Lemme check. 23.2% was my high,  and I am at 21.5%   my goal is a random 15%  obviously body weight does not fluctuate a ton. Mine had been going down steadily over the last month or so. Not a ton,  but a bit. 

Oh, I slept almost 10 hours last night. I got an 80 score. It wasn't higher cuz my REM was only 1.5 hours, not 2.5 like it should be with that amount of sleep. Drinking fucks up your sleep too. My BP was fine this morning, as I assumed it would be. One day of drinking will not necessarily have bad health repercussions if it is just one day per week.  Every day is bad. Trust me. I tried everything to have my cake and eat it too, or whatever that saying is. My resting heart rate went up 3 BPM though,  that you cannot escape,  but still way down from when I drank every day. 

I have to cut the grass again, and I think I am going to Dicks Sportting Goods to buy exercise equipment. I think I'll do the home gym. Obviously the old peoples workout place isn't a social activity for me. It's just do my work, and call it good. I can do that at home without a monthly fee. I figure one year of that monthly fee will pay for my equipment. Also I know I'll use it. Plus I can add squats to my repertoire,  so that would be good. I can't do all the exercises I did at my workout place,  but I can still do all the muscles plus different stuff. I am excited about that actually.  

Besides that not much. Today will be a busy day. A lot to do kinda. It will be a good day though. Another stretch of not drinking starts again. Also more running, and more working out. I eat like a guinea pig throughout my work day. An orange here, an apple there. Cherries if I have them. Those are so good. I eat a salad, and a sandwich too. Also i have unsalted cashews too. I eat non stop at work. I kinda have to too. 

Anyway, i love a day of sleep recovery.  Pretty awesome.  

Laterzzzzzzzzz.    :)

xoxo.       :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.         :)))

I Know, I know, It Is Saturday

One thing I rarely, and actually probably never do is not drink on a Friday. I didn't drink last night, so I guess I have time to blog. You may think I might get a high from being sober on a Saturday morning, but I am not. I am happy my resting heart rate is down another notch,  and my BP reading is good. Not a feeling of oneupsmanship over my previous self. I would love to have that. It would be awesome.   :)

You may wonder how I know my addiction to drinking is over. I can't really explain it. I just know. It's not like I have  recovered from addictions before, but I just know. I am not even sure how major of an addiction it was, since I was fully functional. if my BP wasn't my low point I probably would have no reason to quit. It is though,  and I quit,  and its fine with me. 

I did quit smoking cigarettes once. I smoked for about a year a million years ago. I never ever could quite get up to 20 ciggarettes in a day. After a while it is just too nasty. The semi addiction I walked away from like that,  and never looked back. You kinda get a distaste for it after you quit. Same with alcohol. I don't crave alcohol, and actually the opposite. I have a distaste for brandy, and the less than stellar buzz I'd get. When you are done with addiction you just know. Before that it's a battle I guess. I cannot explain. 

Life goes on. I will probably be around 76 miles this week, so activity is definitely up to previous norms, and will only continue to grow. Today will be day 7 of not drinking, and I have to run after work for day 7. Running every day would be fine if I didn't already have a lot of miles on my legs. We will see what it can turn into though. I kept thinking what was my other 30 day thing?  It was smoking. Since I don't smoke I assume ciggarettes to be ~$7/pack so I put $7 each day into a savings account. I just have an automatic transfer set up for $49/week, so I don't have to do it. I think I'll set up a Brandy account to do the same. $49/month for all the Brandy I don't drink. Before covid-19 I was putting $100 each week into my Discover anyway, and $100 into my investment account, so it ain't no thing. I have yet to add to my investment account. I don't trust the market really. Yesterday's job news doesn't scream huge day for WS to me. Maybe cuz I know firsthand manufacturing jobs took a hit. We have a lot of manufacturing jobs in West MI, and I know there were real layoffs. Not furloughs if you will. 

I don't think it was all of the virus doing it either.  I can always have them go more conservative from now on too. I am more interested in capital preservation with a small rate of return, than the big bang, big bust plan. I have my job you know?  Paychecks every week from both my jobs, so that adds money to my pot each week. We don't really have much we need to spend money on either besides the basics. I do like getting my accounts bigger though. I'll probably add to my investment account again soon. 

What else?  Not too much. I am older,  and more and more disinterested it seems. I do realize you cannot do all the things. Being a Jack of all trades takes a ton of time. My routine is pretty busy. Plus I have to run, and do my resistance training during the week. Gardens, and grass need to be cared for. Summer is busy. I go to bed tired. I wanna read my book more. but man my eyes are just ready for sleep at the end of my day. I guess that is a good thing. 

Oh, one thing I learned from not drinking is I have to get up and pee a couple times each night. I still drink a ton of water even when I don't drink. I think I just like the taste. Maybe it's just cuz in the past I always was sipping some type of beverage.  I don't know, but I do love water. 

I spose. Better get ready for work.  

Laterzzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeee.       :)))

That Is Good

My first BP read was a false one I believe. 119/79, or something ridiculous like that. 2nd one was 133/83. That is definitely pretty good. Going in the right direction for sure. As I expected drinking  *could* be my miracle cure, or not drinking really, and it appears to be the case. The trick though is to beat the addiction. Turns out that you need persistence and luck I spose. Persistence to keep trying after you for sure will fail many times. Luck that eventually the addiction just leaves. Somehow the mental part of the addiction is no longer. 

Drinking definitely is a young man's game. Once you turn 50 it is probably time to let it go. At least if you have BP problems like me. My next addiction may be a health addiction. I hate those weenies too.  :)

I'll take the good BP, and the good blood work that goes with not drinking. My triglycerides were my only bad part of my blood work. High from alcohol consumption I am sure. That should drop. 

So anyway yesterday was a busy day. Approaching 13 miles busy. Plus my little run, and pushups, and pullups. Actually got shit done around the house too. Dishes put away, fill the dishwasher, put those away later. I made my 2 salads, and made dinner too. Only had enough rest time to read like a chapter of my book. 

Florida left us in the dust in covid-19 numbers. Texas, Florida, and Georgia all opened up their states due to political reasons instead of scientific reasons, so I was interested to see how they would do. Not good these days. That being said California has been in lock down very early, and they still suck. Illinois too, but they may be recovering. A weird little virus right?   So for our State of MI it seems things were handled okay. Nearby governors got together and worked out a plan. Our plan seemed to work for us. 

Death to covid-19 seems unlikely if you are healthy. Let's look at me. When this first started I stopped working. We did some shit around the house, but my sleep was fucked. I was drinking every day too. Blood pressure was high probably, and that cough I've had for 6 months or so. I feel so much better about myself now, and the direction I am headed. 

Covid-19 compared to the flu. I am not going to expose myself to any flu. Getting sick sucks.  I'd still go see a movie, and people go to hockey games etc... with just a flu scare. This virus is pretty brutal though.  It won't kill most of us, but how sick would we get?  A small business gets a pocket, and that business is in trouble. If say 5 people got sick at the bakery, we'd be in a World of hurt. A flu lasts a day or two. Covid-19 is much worse. So you see the dilemma. 

Funny thing about the food industry too is from what I've seen, the percentage of people who smoke in this industry is probably several percentage points higher than the country as a whole, for whatever reason. Covid-19 may affect smokers harder I guess if their respiratory system is already at a little higher risk. 

Anyway as to the shut down it was brutal. We have no idea how brutal. Covid-19 was an unknown. We didn't know the death rate we'd be looking at. Turns out it was small, but as a percentage. A lot of people still died as a total number. With Florida spiking,  and all the old people there it is surely going to go higher. Monday morning quarterbacking is easy. Real time decisions are different. Add in a Presidential election year, and much was at stake. Those who made decisions based on politics will likely get their walking papers next time around. 

Politics and health don't really mix so great. Politics makes us blind with hate and fury, and every other emotion. Health decisions based on science are just small talking truth bombs. Things like "we will have to take a biopsy of that lump sir or madam" is just scary words. There is no view of politics when one confronts their mortality with a health issue. 

You see?  Politics had the potential to turn us all into screw balls, cuz we lead by emotion based on our side got it right. No side gives one flying fuck if you die of cancer. That's your shit to deal with. Maybe you have a couple friends, and some family who may give a shit, but that's about it. 

I'd say a lot of people invested way too much of their time in politics. During my life I invested way too much time in alcohol. I wouldn't change a thing about it either. When it was time for me to give it up, as an objective health decision I did.  After several start and fails that is. 

Anyway, I spose.  

Laterzzzzzzzz,        :)

xoxo.           :)

xxoo.           :)

Byeeeeeeeee.       :)))

Four Is Better Than Three

So day 4 running went better than day 3. My legs were fine. Running is still hard'ish due to not being in running shape,  and one could argue not in any kind of cardio shape. My legs weren't sore though. Being tired after work,  and then running is hard. Just hard to get out there. You can always run when you are tired, you just have to get out there. I would say by next Monday my cardio will be vastly improved. 

My blood pressure was 143/85 this morning. On my first try, so 2nd probably would have been lower. I will be very interested to see what it does next week. If I was drinking it would read much higher. Now you see the fear. When I took my original miracle medication my BP was fine. After a couple years it was great, but a cough developed. Uncontrollable. A side effect. So I am using different stuff that works differently. Really though it is the not drinking that will be the miracle cure. Plus a little more cardio, and continue with resistance training, which I have to do again today. 

Florida made a huge jump yesterday and overtook us. Whitner did good by us. We were one of the worst States. She had armed militia come to protest at our Government buildings even. We were bad, we locked down, and now we are much better. There is no doubt we were hit hard, and today retail stores open up fully,  and Monday bars and restaurants open at 50% capacity. The timing for stuff in Michigan is spot on. No doubt a success story for our new Governor in her 1st year.  :)

Still plenty of shit to worry about though. For me, I guess I continue to do my thing. I still am busy. I added running to my repertoire again. That will ultimately potentially take away some after work productivity. Maybe not, but my guess is it will. 

At 40 I learned i could run marathons. Running marathons meant i could do whatever i want. Eating and drinking wise anyway. 50, and I am unhealthy. BP high, and cholesterol high. I wasn't worried. I drank too much though. Pretty much a pint of Brandy each day. I turned that into less than a pint each day. After a while in my 40s I could not stay healthy running. 40s there isn't anything to worry about. 50s you actually do pay attention to your health. 

It is a new day for me finally. The most important thing missing now is the mental side of addiction. The desire that comes from falsely imagining the euphoric feeling I would have if I drank. The power of that is gone. Really it is fine being in my mind without alcohol. For me it was more a lesson in persistence rather than a lesson in perfection,  or strength. 

I failed time and again with alcohol. Just this past year too when I really wanted it. Life is fine without it. Not to mention running is back in. Health too. All positives really. 

Anyway, I spose.  

I really like this new me. I wanted to start another show yesterday. Not sure which one. Was gonna search, but I picked up my book. It is so good. My 3rd Dean Koontz book, and I loved them all so far. I hate sleeping, and having to put it down,  but when I am ready for bed, I am ready. These eyes have no way to stay open. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.        :)

xoxo.           :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.        :)))

I Spose

I just took my blood pressure. It was a little high. I didn't take it a 2nd time, which usually reads lower yet. It was an acceptable level, plus it is working it's way down I believe anyway. My previous medication was magic I guess. I could have my cake and eat it too. I would cough like a hyena though, especially in the morning. It is better not having my cake though. Better for me, I just had to battle I guess to get that addiction out of me. I think it is mostly beaten into submission. After numerous tries and fails. The weekend hasn't popped up yet. After all my tries though,  I definitely started liking alcohol less and less. 

Maybe addiction is a keep trying til you get it type of thing. You fall down, just try and get back up. It helped I did live in fear of my escalating heart rate, and bad BP readings. Your body still has to overcome the addiction. Much of it dopamine that gets triggered in your mind that makes you feel good while doing the addiction. Then there is your mind lying to you just imagining the euphoria you get from doing so called addiction. 

One thing surprised me yesterday. I was watering the lawn with my tractor sprinkler. Sitting outside watching it go. No drink in hand, just sitting in the sun watching it go. I wasn't bored. I didn't need a drink for this to be an okay time. I had no idea that was possible. That type of thing was always a drinking activity. That surprised the heck out of me. 

My heart rate acted a little funny last night. I don't fell it got down as low as the night before. My resting heart rate still went down. What I think happened is I ran for a 3rd straight day. On legs not used to running. I think my body was busy repairing,  so maybe the whacky heart rate. My body was busy while I was sleeping. Also I do worry about my legs running 30 days in a row, when the legs are breaking down at 3.   :)    I have just the beginning running problem. Legs not used to the pounding. I do bet I recover better without alcohol. 

My State and county look to be doing good with covid-19. I don't think my area code has had a positive in a while,  and the county is way down along with the State. As it would have it we are opening up at the perfect time for our state. Other states are different. We got hit pretty hard due to direct flights to China I think. New York I believe had Italy flights too. We shut down. Took our lumps,  and it is time for us to open up. 

Lisa starts work either Tuesday or next Tuesday. She is not excited.   :)  she likes the time off, but she will like going back too. The kids go back tentatively July 1.  I will miss that little income kick we got with Lisa's extra $600 + unemployment. We are fine though. We've grown our little nest egg more. Plus I feel no pressure like I should travel. You know?  Like I should take a vacation somewhere. Maybe I will next year somewhere,  as long as there are no pandemics, and race riots and stuff. 

Yesterday was a good day. No desire to drink. Got a good amount done. Enjoying sitting outside doing nothing, without drinking. I watched the rest of my run series on HBO. The actress was pretty perfect. Attractive sometimes,  but not always. You know that girl who doesn't have the perfect body, but the face is pretty sometimes?  Not hot really,  but as things go you find her kinda hot?  That's her to me, while I watched the show. 

You never know with us guys.   :)

Laterzzzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.            :)

xxoo.            :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.          :)))

It Is A Different Kind Of Sleep

I slept for like 7 hours and 10 minutes last night. My sleep score was 84, which is unheard of for me. I feel different. My heart rate starts the day 20-30 BPM lower than if I was drinking the night befire. That is crazy in itself. With my heartrate down I don't start right away fully awake. Coffee is pretty much awesome in this state. With alcohol, it isn't needed. The difference of life between drinking and not drinking is pretty big. The health benefits for me at 53 is kinda a big deal. 

Yesterday I did my Sunday shopping, cuz my Sunday was too busy. We got out at noon yesterday, so it worked out good. I took Hope out for our run when we got home. My heart rate was in cardio for most of the  run. It was even at peak for 3 minutes. It is why running is good for the heart. Nothing else gets your heart rate up so easily. I have no  idea if my knee will let me run 30 days in a row, but so far so good. I'd say it felt better yesterday than the first day. 

I am excited about my run today,  and pushups,  and pullups too. Michigan opens up this week. Retail on Thursday, and restaurants and bars on Monday. Smart to do the bars on Monday. Personally, I am happy with how our Governor did things. She stepped with caution in the great unknown. it looked really bad for Detroit, and MI in general. Remember we were #3 for a long while. 

The financial strain all will deal with we will see. It's going to be brutal. Financial strain with tensions already high due to another race thing is not good. You can see the potential for bad. Add in a President who is so not the voice of reason, but actually the voice of escalation, and November 3rd cannot come fast enough. If that is the right date. It potentially can get really bad out there. 

I have my 30 days. I know I know I can potentially become one of those Health freaks. I had one vice. Not necessarily bad, but for my biology eventually a death sentence. I watched my HBO show last night, and started one called RUN. It was good. I watched 3 episodes. I watered my gardens, and made dinner too. 

It was an okay day. I am really pretty blown away about my heart rate. I can feel the difference in me. 

Anyway, I guess that's about it. Today should be okay. Work,  eat, sleep. Plus I don't have to make a salad today, so that's like a half hour of not having to prep a ton of veggies. 

Laterzzzzzzzzz.        :)

xoxo.            :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.          :)))

Just Another Sunday

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I really got a lot done yesterday. Yard mowed, ALL the mulch is done, gardens watered,  laundry cleaned folded put away, pushups,  pullups,  and run. Add on no drinking. It was a good day. Of course overnight my heart rate was way lower than if I drank. Easily a 20 BPM difference at any one point. 

I know the World is all screwy. How racist are we?  I know our President is a bad one. I know he's not viewed bad by those on the right, and maybe because he hated Obama so much. This weekend I finally got rid of my last right wing poster. I just cannot do it anymore. Is he racist?  I don't think so. 

I was born in the Suburbs of Chicago. My leanings as I grew older were definitely to the right. I read different books though. Ones that questioned the greatness of our past. You add in a President who was quick to go to War, although when it was his turn he was quick to hide. 

As an 18 year old,  I would have had no desire to go to war. As someone in charge later in my life, I would be hesitant to send 18 year old kids to do what I wasn't willing to do. 

Life is unfair. Reading those other History books removed the scales from my eyes. The writing exam i took to graduate College is still true today. How racist are we?  I have absolutely no idea. I have no idea how it is to be a black man born in this Country. A white guy can disappear. A black man always is showing he looks different than a lot. I know there is a good amount of dislike for brown people too. They stole the American dream from us somehow is what I gather. 

Inside us all is anger. Hate is here too. We all have that in common. Unrealistic expectations that life is supposed to be this great thing is probably the root of much of our evils. 

Life is not this great thing. Even Solomon said it would be better if you were never born,  or were aborted before birth. So the Bible argues for abortion. It's not exactly a blessing you walk in these parts, and many probably will find out too late the opposite is true. 

I don't know how racist we are?  My guess is if you are a black person born in the south side of Chicago your life will be quite different than my Northwestern Suburb upbringing. I can't even say growing up for me was easy. I did have peer pressure, and I was insecure.  I didn't have peer pressure to join a gang, or peddle drugs. my Dad was around, and actually the Mom was missing. I had a step mom though. 

In the end I found myself not happy. I wasn't happy about  the World. I wasn't happy I was in this World. No point to it. I was just going to die. What's the point?  

So I did what I did. I went my route. A route you cannot see. One you cannot understand. I saw clearer and clearer the truth of our existence. Geesh, I even went in the wilderness again too. I needed help to be able to go there again.  My heart was not willing, so it had to be changed to do such a thing. 

People are mad, and people are divided. A lot of shit to worry about these days. We are only so far from catching a nasty virus. The pain this Economy will have to endure has not been felt yet. 

I don't give money to homeless people. I did before. In doing this I found I can pretty much help no one. In living my life I found I could not help myself. I needed help to go the route I took. I need help to finish it. So the worth of me alone is basically nothing. The story I will live though I guess is what has value. The story I was willing to make at the expense of all the greatness I would have become if I didn't.  

At 53 it seems like such an easy decision. At 26 or whatever things looked different. 

Anyway, one of my failures yesterday, is I didn't make my salads.  Gotta run. 

Laterzzzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeee.        :)))