Monday, March 30, 2015

As You Can See...

As you can see I can do this or not do this. These days it makes absolutely almost no difference to me. I have my story, and I have my life. I am done. It is over for me except for one little trip I must make. In order for me to become perfect I have to go and follow the one who went before me as others did, and as it is written.

How do I do that??  Well that summer long ago I tried to make it happen. I want I want I want the one way trip to suffering so I can be remade into the best of the best. That was the wrong way and the wrong path. I was led down that horrible path that summer I guess so I knew my own worth. To suffer day after day so when the "good" days returned again I would trust the correct things.

I learned to trust my way, and trust is almost perfected in me save one more little thing I must do. As it so happens it is my job to wait for you people. You may think being tied to you people is the cruelest joke of all, but it also is so I know how people have always been.

You aren't special. You are not strong. Your heroes are of this world, and their end will NOT be good. You cling to false teachers and false truths, because you need to see something to believe in it. You cling to the wisdom of the foolish whose wisdom does not go any further than what is on this earth.

You want your medals in the hall of fames that amount to exactly zero points. You cling to all the activities under the sun, and those also equate to zero points. You are sitting with one coin thinking it is worth a trillion dollars, and what am I supposed to think when I know the true value?? I am supposed to be impressed with the wisdom of the foolish??

You people are wrong. Your whole being is not good because you cling to the world, because it makes you feel "safe". You have no trust, and you are not strong, and your hearts are not right with who it matters most. You would rather cling to some sort of fabulousness even though you will look like complete shit when you are 6' under.

You are not special. You are numbered as the pebbles of the sand of the sea. I offer you a better path. It is a path of meekness and truth. A way to be special.  This is sorta the way it has to be I guess just so I can see people haven't improved at all throughout the ages. They just hide their crap in different ways.

It's a silly World. Not one I call my home. I am currently just a stranger in a strange land. Doing the job asked of me, because my heart was made for this.

As you can see this ain't no thing for me. This isn't either.

That is it for today!!!   :)

And all that other stuff.


Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Take It Or Leave It.

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I started my new job (same company) job last night. It was supposed to last 3 weeks, but my new permanent job they want me to start on Monday. So basically just filling in this week.  Still it is all pretty exciting though you know??  New stuff.

Any way the take it or leave it is me blogging. The mojo is gone, and I don't know if I'll get it back. It's been many years you know??  Tough stuff has been put on here, and everything is so outta my hands anyway. There is nothing I can do you know??

Life is this crazy thing, and I feel people are in the middle of a whirlwind. It is your life right??  I said your life is worth one coin just like everyone else's. That is a hard thing to ACCEPT cuz you have to be a special coin right??  Judged against all others you have to be one of the best right??  Solomon warned us that all was folly, and you can gain the World, but it leads you nowhere.

What do we seek??  We seek honor, and we seek worth, but as humans we seek it in this a World, when in actuality it is something we will find in other places. Geesh I am sure we seek many other things too right?? Security, courage, and caring hearts, and really just the ability to be the type of person we want.

It's gotta drive you crazy too, because you have a brain, and you can learn things, and the things you need to learn are given to you, and out of your reach by 100%. How can we be human and you know have these thumbs and brains. We can communicate and stuff, but when it comes to making this one coin more than one everything about that is out of our hands, save one small, but seemingly huge turn.

The path is hard PERIOD, and that is because it isn't yours. It isn't one you thought up, and it isn't from your own fabulousness that you gain entrance. It is a humble journey, because to get to know us is a very humbling story. I say there ain't nothing wrong with that.

Anyway I wasn't going to blog today, but the temp says 22 degrees. :). It is supposed to get up to the mid 40s. My knee hurt at work last night too. Doesn't mean I cannot run though, because sometimes it loosens up. My knee ain't perfect so I keep to my shorter distances. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope a Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  I think today I'll just run a little 2 + miler

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH!!!   :)

Saturday, March 21, 2015

Being Blah, and a Bit Off.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  I am doing okay. I feel I have been a bit blah, and a bit off the last couple of days. Like nothing interests me blah. I mean I go to work, which I like doing, but like last night when I got home, I poured myself a drink, and sat on the couch in dark silence. I didn't want to turn on the tv or do anything. It was just me and my thoughts, and none of them were all that interesting.

I realize what I do here is open up to people. It may be good it may be bad. I may seem foolish or maybe not.  I don't know. I typically don't get a lot of understanding to what I write. If I am the fool so be it, but I suspect more times than not I don't playboy he fool. Who knows though??

This thing probably goes best when others are going good. Not in winning races or excelling in hobbies, but doing the things you are supposed to. Taking proper steps, having courage, taking a proper view of yourself, and showing the true nature of you.

All that is hard shit, because none is so strong to show our weak side. If there is a way to show a socially acceptable side to us that is what we lean toward.

Enslaved to the World huh??  People don't save, and societies don't save, but those are the things we cling to for our salvation huh. Our whole being is tied up into the propaganda of the day. The worst part is you don't know it. You cannot see it. The gifts you need of better vision are not yours for the taking.

The courageous heart you need to do the tough stuff is not yours for the taking. There is only one thing you can do to see you on the proper path, but your life is all tied up in you. That is because you don't trust.

The path isn't easy, and it surely isn't all fun and games, but if is worth 800 million more trillion coins than the silly worthless crap you think of. Life is a choice, and you have a big one. Worst part is you have good information. Many fall without the good info. I don't know the price of those who have the good info.

The mistakes we make are blind ones. That is why people ask for forgiveness for those who know not what they do. The shoes you stand in are no different than the rich guy. You know what you do.

This is hard stuff, and always has been. That is why there are stories of Noah, because a lot is expected of you. Not perfection and great deeds, but to be humble invite ways you should go, and by all means you should have fear. I lived in fear my whole life, especially during the active days. Up until the end of the journey, and the start of the wait. My work was done, and I was accepted.

I was given a courageous heart to do the things I must. Even now I stand not on the strength of this person who once was a little kid, but on the strength of the gifts given.

The labor is hard, and the forces at work are bad. Only one can overcome the ways of the World. It isn't you. Soooo soooooi many things that tie us down.  Yet people hold onto some pretty petty and silly things huh??

Yeah it is all a bit crazy.


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I have today and tomorrow off. Going to take the hopester now.

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH!!!    :)

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

You Never Know Day To Day...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  I am doing okay, except once again I only slept for like 2 hours, so I'll nap. Yesterday after I ran I was tired, so hoping the same happens today.

Today I am blogging as a take it or leave it, and maybe that is how my life is. All the things that may have been important at one time just aren't as important. I am kinda a blog shmog, who cares type of person, or maybe tomorrow I care about it again. I don't know.

Anyway, what is going on with me??  Not much. Just doing this life thing, and unfortunately I see life for what it is all about. There is very little to life that is important and significant, and actually maybe nothing is important and significant. Even if the history books are to write your stories, I can pretty much guarantee you won't give a shit when you are 6' under.  All the striving after wind we do seems so important, cuz effort matters right??

In life you gotta do stuff, and effort does matter in ways, but you'll get no points from it. Points only come when you humble yourself, and let one guide you on the path of points.

To be human is to have some kinda screwy idea of how to get points.  Make money, work hard, blow people up, be a CEO who pays a good dividend. You name it if we are putting effort in something, than we in all our ignorance are counting our rewards in Heaven. To be Human is to be misguided like that.

I have come along, and taught you the only true way, because it is my job. I asked for none of the things in my path. I was guided to do a bunch of hidden crap.  Suffer a ton if crap where only one could see what was happening. I blogged almost every day for years, because no matter what I suffered throughout the day I always woke up strong. That was the miracle of my heart. Then one day I was done. It was over, except for the waiting.  While waiting I realized, or learned I guess the impossible task laid before me. It is impossible, because of people just like you. You are no different than the ones who have come before you. We all were born into the same weakness. It takes a lot to be made a better you, and I had no idea what I did long ago was THIS hard.

I get it though. Who am I??

No kidding.

Anyway so you know, I am running short runs mostly. It helps me run frequently, and stay healthy.  :)  also I have big changes at my main job. On Monday I will be working at some different buildings, and another account opened up so I'll be doing my own thing I guess.

It is work, and I like doing work typically. You know me, I don't like a ton of days off, and I am excited about the new changes. It should be fun.

Anyhooo, I guess that is good.

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.   I had something for a ps, but now I can't remember.  Hmmm,   Oh well.  I thought of something. The triple smile is almost always something I forget. Always add it later.  :)))   Lol

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D      :D

MWAH!!!!     :)

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Just Sitting Here Watching The Wheels Go Round And Round

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am up early, drinking coffee, and I have the whole day off today. Actually I don't have to be back at work til 8:00 PM tomorrow. So that is good.

I am blogging now, cuz I have been on a pretty good roll as of late. Still using my phone, so excuse typos. Also I have pretty much nothing on my mind, so this may be about nothing.

I have realized as this thing goes on and on it brings out tougher and tougher stuff. The crappy truth is just that. It is crappy. Lived with some crappy knowledge for decades.  Me vs. you = I know the truth, and you hold onto whatever, because you need something right??  There must be some purpose to you right??

So you keep going ahead to carve out some kind of life for yourself. My life, and I want I want I want.

I come along and tell you there is a better way. I tell you to trust, because you are not the author of this way. You don't believe, you don't trust, and you keep thinking going your own route is the best way, because you know better??  You are already a Saint??  Your vision is better than all??

You are wrong. You are bad.  You are not perfect. There is so much available to make you the kind of person you want to be. For some screwy reason to be Human= thinking you hold a trillion dollar coin instead of what it really is.

Your whole being lies to you, because your demons are way the Hell stronger than you. It ain't a simple thing to overcome yourself. I did that decades ago, and it sure didn't take me years to do it.

You people are crazy.  :)

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  the best that you can be is something you can't see now. It is something you can't make yourself either.

Love You All   Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxo xoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

MWAH!!!   :)

Saturday, March 14, 2015

Nothing Really Lasts...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am going to have a cup of coffee, get a bit of a run in, and go work for a few hours. I have tomorrow off, and that will be my first day off on like a month.

The reason for my title is nothing does last.  The things I place importance on are vanishing completely from my life. That is our end too. The realization that in the end none of this mattered. You take no parts of your life with you.

Sheesh I used to even place importance on this thing, and that is leaving me too. Perhaps a disconnect from me and you is I don't care. I don't need any of this stuff. If I carry nothing with me in the end, than I guess I don't need anything with me now.

As you are now it is impossible for you to stand in my shoes. Sadly I have been in your shoes, and I know what that is like. The choice to be either me or you is a no brainer.  I would not want to be you. I've already done that. I remember being told to remember my story, because you will not be doing it again.

As it so happens my story was hidden for a couple decades. It was brought back at the time it was needed. To serve some type of purpose I guess, but even now I realize it didn't do much. Maybe all this is the way it is so I place the proper amount of importance in me.  (Very little)

I am not a significant person, although my life was pretty big to me before.  I know the true value of my deeds. (Not much). I do know the value of the things done for me is a lot. Hard to really see and tell as I've collected none of it yet. My rewards are in safe keeping.  They are in good hands so to speak.

Then there is you. A lost and misguided soul, because that is what we were born into. Seeking your way in this big world, and when the answer comes right to you, it is ignored. Lack of faith, and lack of belief is really the downfall of all I guess. At least for those who received good information. I cannot imagine the multitudes, and multitudes of people who fell prey to the false teachers.

Such a big World, and to you your life seems really big, and the truth of everything is your life is insignificant. You are unimportant, and this World is not a great place. Humans make up this World, and humans don't do anything good.

Funny how we are just one big lie huh??  Somehow we are great, at least that is what we are supposed to think, but we are horrible people. If there is a good heart or noble deeds to be done the last thing we would do is anything selflessly.

All deeds we do that may be considered good we are doing, because we are counting our own screwed up vision of what our reward is.

People are not that great, but there is a way for your little life to be worth more than what it is now. Ya gotta go all in though, because you have no idea how bad your vision is. You have a huge log in your eye, and you cannot see crap.  That is because that is what it is like to be human. Bad vision, and a crappy heart.

Dont worry though you are not alone. All are in the same boat as you.

Oh well time for a run, and then work.  :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a great and Awesome day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  I am phone blogging so if there are typos it is because it is a pain in the ass to proofread like this.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really cya cya cya   :D     :D

MWAH!!!   :)

Friday, March 13, 2015

Sometimes... Screw It. That's A Pretty Good Title There.

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I realize when I go a long time without blogging, (February). It is easy for me not to blog. It has been several years where I have been a pretty consistent blogger. I usually can come up with some kind of shit almost everyday.   So that is that.

Where do we stand now??  We stand in the same spot we have been in for a long time. I am here on the other side of life asking you to come with, and I have absolutely no idea what you people are doing.

How's the life thing going for you??  Before I read any of your FB statuses saying contrary to what I know is true, think about it.  It seems to me people speak with their mind and totally ignore their heart. Maybe that is why my blog probably isn't the worst. I let you see my heart, and it leaves me open to judgement. You mostly speak with your mind, cuz you are way the Hell smarter than me. You know what the Fuck people will think. They'll think you are off your fucking rocker.

So what is in people's minds besides religion, flags, guns, babies, and Apple pie, and baseball, and stuff. A bunch of stuff that doesn't mean shit.

You clothe yourself in these things, because in it you will find acceptance from people. I offered you a path for an acceptance that means more than people. While here on Earth you have to come to terms with you and all your imperfections. You throw away your whole ledger of deeds, because they matter not.

To stand confidently open in front of all with all flaws showing takes a strength you do not have. So crazy how fucking great we think we are as Humans, except I see the truth. I know how weak and pathetic we are, and how we need to clothe ourselves in such Bullshit, because it is the only thing that props us up.

Such a sad state of affairs, and what can one do??  Especially since I know the truth, what with having to suffer to learn these things.

So now what??  How long can you possibly hold onto all the stuff that doesn't matter. When do you finally say I want more than this.  This cannot be it, because this mostly sucks.  :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  If I run today it will be my 5th day in a row.  Still doing short mile runs.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

MWAH!!   :)

Monday, March 9, 2015

Cuz This Ain't No Thang.

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I left this thing for dead. I was done. I didn't want to do it anymore. It doesn't work. It doesn't do what it is supposed to. Things like that. There is a story, and a job that needs to be done. It is not in my power. It is not my story. I have little to no say. Typically I am how I am. Accepted for the miserable creature I am, because of the story of my life. For the ways I was led to overcome with help all the things I have.

I'd like to say your path is easy, but it isn't. It is actually made harder by you. You have fear to accept where you stand. Deny it. Look to the virtues inside you that make you worth more than one coin. A person deserving of something you aren't.

The truth is a scary thing, because the World will have you believe in your greatness, and the truth leads you in much meeker paths. I get it. We all want to be special, and we want this life thing we've been doing to mean something.

Life has a bad ending. There is only one way in which it is worth anything. Sadly the World has poisoned our minds since the beginning if us.

This shit ain't easy. Your story isn't easy. There are no points for anything you have done under the sun yet.

To be human is to suck and be less than perfect. Acceptance in the eyes of humans is one thing. There is an acceptance in the eyes of one who really matters. That is the path, and that is your journey. Miserable you to be able to stand naked without shame. It is like living in a garden before any apples were ever eaten.

It is such a different story than what you've been taught by all your false teachers. They know not what they do. That also sucks. It sucks bad for them.

Oh well, I blogged today cuz it ain't no thang. I am running a bit later. The weather is great, and I am starting my new work week with 8 bonus hours already.  Yay.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  Time to switch the laundry and maybe get a cup of coffee

Love You All.  Xoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxo xoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

MWAH!!!!    :)

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Back From The Dead???

I don't know.  I have gone a long time without blogging, and I really didn't give a shit.  I am very much a person who does as they feel, and I didn't feel like blogging.   I wake up, and my heart tells me I don't give a fuck.

In this blog you may be an important person, but you have work to do.   I am pretty sure there is nothing in my life I cannot walk away from.  I am free like that.   If that summer of way long ago is any indication, I have been made to not be enslaved to this World.

As of right now you very much are a slave to this World.   You are enslaved to all the teachings, and all the bullshit you were born into.

You continue to seek out the ways in which you are "special", but you aren't.  You and your life are as significant as a pebble of sand.  That is the number of people who came before you, and all were very much like you.  Trying to find their way in the World, and doing the "important" things of the day many of them.

Your value you place on yourself is based on judging others who don't measure up to the excellence you have attained.

One day you will wake up, and life may only have weeks left perhaps. It is there where truth lives. Truth does not live in the stupid day to day bullshit you pass the time with.

You are very much fucked up, because you are a slave to this world. What???   As moses was a type of him who was to come, you dont think slavery was a type of thing to be set free from??

 Yes, in a manner of speaking you are still enslaved to Egypt/this World.  Your heart is wrong, and you place importance in things that have none. Only way out is a turn. You OBVIOUSLY are way tooooooooooo important for that crap.  The worst part is you have been given good information, and you still dont do shit.  Many have toiled on this Earth without the good info.  That is some serious shit.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  running is going good.  :)

Love you all  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH!!!    :)