Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Change Is For The Young

I don't know if any of you people read Kelly Dunleavy's site or not, but her last post said unemployment in Spain for people her age is 40%.  I assume that to be 30'ish.  So people in Spain of that age are screwed.  So many people, "Everyone" puts so much faith in society, and you know of those 40% are some hard workers.  Some people who if given the chance would do a great job.  Things outside of their control have made their life hard.  We also tend to put faith in people too.  Dress them up in nice suits, and they have these great smiles, but even those on the highest perches when they fall turn into just little human beings like we all are.  See pictures of Gadhafi, and Hussein after their fall. 

I think anyone can follow society off the cliff.  What was the correct and right thing to do if you were a German of the age of 30 in 1942.  What was your job??  What if you were a police officer in Mississippi in the 1960's.  What did you do??  I think there is a higher wisdom, and a higher knowledge than having the best budget, and the best groceries.  It is a shitty world out there in many cases, and that is truth.  We tend to get blinded by the people in suits who talk to us on the tee vee.  We also tend to get blinded by the people who are in suits as they make speeches. 

Inside us all though is a bright light called the truth, and it is within our grasp, and within our reach to find it and look at it.  The truth you see is not all fun and games.  Within the truth are some harsh and hard lessons.  Truth you see is not for the weak, and timid.  Nope, truth is for the strong.  I guess in a way there is some security in not looking at the truth, and get wrapped up in some other stuff, but that won't lead to happiness.  Happiness is found by getting to know yourself.  It is by getting to find out who you are, and what you are in relation to the world and all.  All this can be done throughout the day doing whatever it is you do.  You see the Atheist is just as close-minded as the religious.  Their closed minds make them hate each other.  The light and truth is inside them both.  They have that in common.  In other words we all have to find our way, but with that we have help.  Just gotta find our inner light/truth. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  just a bike to work and back, and a short run, that was shorter due to poopy issues.  ;)   Can anyone relate to that???   :)   We are doing our longer one tonight.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras again.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

I Am Such An Ass!!

Ha Ha!!   I don't really have much today I don't think, but yesterday was a pretty good day.  I woke up did my thing, and instead of getting ready to run to work, make my lunch, etc... I got tired again, so slept in.  No biggie I just decided to run home from work.  That was great btw.  I feel like I am getting in shape, so that is good.  I really didn't want to do anything, so I really relaxed the rest of the night.  I read a bit, and paid some bills, and glam stuff like that.  It wasn't too bad for a Monday.  Perhaps I turned a corner, because some days I get home, and I look out the window, and grab a drink.  Not this Monday so that is good.  I felt pretty good. 

Maybe I should tell you some things about me, which you probably will never guess.  I don't do rejection well, and it is not like I can go bopping around being the most confident person in the world.  If I feel weak internally, you know like people don't like me or whatever, I shrink my little world into more comfortable surroundings.  That is with wife and close friends, and that is trust.  The ability to go out and support is really based on a confidence, and a trust in myself, and my surroundings, etc...  I sometimes feel like I am an ant.  I am building this thing up, and sometimes something will make me feel low, and the thing I have been building gets crushed.  But being the good ant I am I start rebuilding right away. 

In other words I am not that strong, although I believe in myself.  I am not always outgoing, although I always feel confident.  This thing has come a long ways too, because I have been sharing about me for a while. 

Anyway wanna know something I am thankful for??  Let's see, I am thankful I am healthy, and that life every day is a new day to reinvent yourself, or be active or start new things.  This year got sloppy at times, and none of us were perfect that is for sure, but I feel pretty good now, and hope you all do too.  :)  Been a pretty good year huh??  Got to know a lot of people, and hope to continue on that path.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Tuesday is a run night, and another 4 day in a rower.  I love it.  :)  plus I'll bike to work and back.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras tooo.   :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Monday, November 28, 2011

I Didn't Forget. :)

Well first off I am adding another person to xoxoxoxoxo.  It is a person I work with.  errrrr worked with.  Her name is Latoya.  She has one of the BEST personalities ever.  As good as Doreen, and Olga, and Jules etc...  Really really one of the best.  She has a great smile, and she is as fun as they come, but also like "all" people has her quiet time where she ponders life, and wonders about things.  Everyone has these things, but you can see it in her.  The serious real side of life.  There ain't anyone stronger than her, and yes even she needs support.  If an Olga, Doreen, Jules need support then even she does too.  I love her tons for all the realness she brings to the table.  :)

Other than that I ran yesterday, and watched the Bears lose.  I don't take those losses well, and end up being an asshole.  :)

Life goes on though, and today is another run day for me.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  A person who had the best life seemingly killed himself the other day.  He was a National Soccer coach for Wales.  People suffer from depression, and not feeling all that.  EVERYONE DOES!!  Don't fucking pretend you are always on, cuz none of us are.  Like  Kelly Dunleavy said you fakers do more harm than good. and your assholes deep down, because you are liars.  That was just a p.s. p.s. btw.  :)   This one isn't   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.   MWAH!!!   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen cuz I love her.   :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga cuz I love her :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jules cuz I love her.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Latoya cuz she is strong and honest and real.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga's twin sister for the same reason.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   HA HA

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D  :D

Sunday, November 27, 2011

A Day Unplanned...

Well on Saturday there would only be two things planned.  The run, and the Michigan game.  Michigan played their arch-rival, and Michigan hasn't beaten them in a while.  I didn't really plan on watching the game at the bar, but I thought I'd go there for atmosphere.  Lisa had to work.  Michigan finally won.  One thing about being at New Holland, and I didn't think of this til later.  When I was leaving I told Katy good bye and I luv ya.  I mean it was the most natural thing in the world, and she said it back.  I thought of it later, and thought hmmmm... maybe not everyone does that.  :)   LOL. 

On the run not much to note, other than it felt like a good one.  We ended up doing the 6+ mile route, and I have to say I felt pretty good on it.  I really feel now like I want to want to get in shape.  We talked of marathons, and those things seem to be crazy things.  It has been a while since I have run long, but I remember how when you are in the swing of it 16 miles doesn't seem like a long run at times.  I am not there yet obviously, but I will get there.  That is pretty exciting.  For the record Jerry, Jim, and Ken went with on the run.

After New Holland I stopped over to Beau and Charity's to shoot the shit for a bit to see how they were doing.  I didn't really feel like drinking anymore so I went home, and watched t.v. napped, and watched t.v.  :)  Just laying low.  I'll have to get some shit done around the house today.  Not much, but just laundry and stuff.

Nothing real heavy on this post.  :)  You know I never really know what I am going to write anyway, I just pop it out. 

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Johnny won his fight, beat the dude in the dude's home town.  That is a big win for him fo sho!!!  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I am adding Mindee to the Michigan girl thing.  She had a year a lot like Alili, not all fun and games, and hit some low spots.  I like her a lot.  :)  I don't know why I didn't before.  She is funny, and has a great personality, and also has some hard stuff she has been dealing with.  Not to mention she moved from, Wisconsin to NYC.  Even things like that are stressful.  Just want to add her to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, cuz she could use support too, and like I said I like her a lot.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I'll give extras for Doreen, cuz I love her.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Let's Talk About Football!!

Well, my blog got all messed up again.  yay.  So I will have to fix that.  Shouldn't be a big deal, because I trust everyone that was on my list,  just went through another bad spell, where I think people misunderstood me, and meant they did not trust me.  The problem with it too is it ends up doing more damage.  We've done this long enough, that I think you can trust this thing to get done right.  Remember though I have a bad little voice in me that CAN VERY EASILY make me think the worst. 

People struggle with stuff, and a lot of you people are really important people.  I like to put names on this thing too, and some people lack confidence, and I'd like to couple them with confident people so they know they are important too.  People don't always feel great about themselves, and it is nice to know some of us think about you, and think you are important. 

This blog is going to get weird time to time, because that is part of the plan, just like me doing this blog is part of the plan.  I have been doing it a while, so sometimes I am shocked that this seems weird to people.  :)  I guess I have said some crazy things though huh?? 

Oh shit I was going to talk about football.  I just want to say here and now I think this year has been great for College and Pro Football.  I think I have enjoyed it more than most years.  You really cannot tell who is going to win on any given day.  It makes it fun to watch. 

You know what is kinda great though??  I have no problem adding everyone back.  I feel comfortable with them all.  So that is good.  :)



That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Johnny Garcia has his biggest bout to date.  He is fighting in Cincinnati against another undefeated boxer who is from Cincinnati.  Think positive thoughts for him.  Remember he has that extra gear.  The I got this gear.  I don't have that gear that is for sure.  I have a It got me gear.  :)   LOL

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for me.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   nah nah!!!!   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D  

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Some People Lack Confidence!!

That is what I notice sometimes.  I guess out in the world people dislike all kinds of different people.  Many times internally going down some slippery slope to think the most ludicrous things of people.  Republicans and Democrats have the potential to hate each other so much in our country we forget we are all just people.  I know in my life as I was looking and looking, and this would have been early 90's btw.  I was looking what is a good thing to do with ones life??  Now my life was being steered in a direction.  A direction in which my vision was not liking what it saw.  Do you know what happened on my birthday on a August 15th.  My girlfriend and I Katrina broke up.  She did it.  Now my step mom was already dead.  I had a degree in College.  It was a B.S. in Business Administration, and yeah I def think the B.S. part is quite aproppos.  :)  I don't know if you remember or not, but I was relieved.  I am on my own, my own life to do my own thing.  So I worked, and read the bible every day, because I wanted to be a good person.  My Grandpa died a couple days later the 18th of August maybe.  I was like hmmmm.  I got in trouble for not telling Katrina.  She was mad.  I told her well we were broken up, I figured you wouldn't care.  Us guys are dumb.  We don't understand the capacity of women to care for people.  We don't understand, cuz many times we are not the most compassionate/ caring people. 

Anyway, what I noticed is I was not becoming a better person.  I had a "view" of what a good person is, and I failed.  I looked into the mirror, and judged myself into what I felt a good and decent person is and was.  If there was a way to make a person into a good person, I was all in.  That is what I wanted.  We all are in the same boat.  Everyone in the world.  I don't care what country you are from, you are going to fuck up, and you aren't perfect.  Killing brown people overseas is pointless, cuz they are imperfect.  Brown people killing us on our own soil is stupid too, because we are imperfect.  Like the lesson of Noah too, if God wanted to kill people he don't need our help.  There are no holy wars so to speak.  Although the lesson of Noah also was he wanted to save people, not kill them.  Not many believed though. 

Anyway since it is Thanksgiving I wanted to mention something about my own little special Thanksgiving blogger Dee.  I think she is  brave, and honest, yet inside at times feels not so confident.  She doesn't get a lot of support either I don't think.  No one really understands her complex personality.  She wants to be skinny, but struggles with diet.  Are 90% of girls  like that??   I have no idea what she looks like btw.  She it seems to me is a 100 percenter.  She would love to boil her life to just focus on one thing 100 percent of the time, and give it her all.  Many athletes are like that.  Trying to find the path that leads to happiness is really what we are all about.  Not all life is happy though. 

Oh well just blogging about.  My Signature line is to help build up o.k.  If I use your name in this thing then in my world that is an honor, cuz not everyone makes it on here a lot. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Enjoy your day today everyone.  I hope some of you have to work.  ;)   j/k   :)  Ha Ha 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I Did A Little Math!!

Okay Okay, so I gots me this here crazy little blog, and like I said this is what I do.  I wake up early, and do this for whatever reason, and I have been doing it a while.  As a matter of fact it is my 3rd blog, because I deleted the other 2.  When my stuff came out, there was no support, and no blog, and a shortened list of who I read.  Yet I still survived, with help.  How I started back up after heimleblog, I have no idea.  I still needed to get stuff out, and there came the Journey.  I many many days during both those blogs would feel bad throughout the day.  I mean actually horrible about myself, but always always always woke up strong the next day.  I think it helped to have Becky write every day.  I have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on with her either.  She had a kid what a year or so ago??  Probably still cheering for her Shitty Jets team.  :)  Does she still work out 8 hours/day???   I have no idea.  We communicated via our blogs kinda every day as friends, and now nothing.  Life goes on, but I sure haven't thought of her in a while til now.  Oh yeah, I forgot.  That I blog almost every day mentions her.  No one is as consistent as her, but no one is as crazy either.  :)   j/k.  Life has many changes huh?? 

Anyway if any of you noticed the little change yesterday you will notice there are two people lumped together in my signature line.  Steve R's thing,  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo,  and Blogger on my RHS.  Yep,  Leigh is still on my RHS, and Jen Gray is the only other person to be like that.  I kinda like that.  :) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  just ran to work and rode my bike home yesterday.  It still was Monday.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Monday, November 21, 2011

Keep Me Away From Politics.

Man, I can get fired up.  It is people who see everything in black and white that really get me.  That dude on 60 Minutes last night does so much harm.  He is a divider not a uniter, and damn if everyone isn't that these days, but he really drives a wedge.  Fine everyone you want no deficit.  CUT DEFENSE spending.  Obvious what we spend on defense doesn't win wars, or we would have won in Afghanistan already.  Why must a nation such as ours spend so much money trying to find different ways to kill people.  Haven't we been doing that enough?? 

Okay, I am done.  Killing people is not the answer, and I AM NOT ON BOARD, and will never be on board.  So I remain aloof.  Let the world fight their own battles, because that is what they are going to do.  There will be wars, and revolutions, and whatnot, and things will still be messed up.  I worship no flag, because it is made of cloth.  Dress me in words, not silly childish things we were taught to believe in Kindergarten, and most never questioned the validity of it.  How many false idols do you hold onto?? 

So there.  I am cleaning up my blog.  Or adding some things.  I said blogger Leigh can be added to whatever, but I thought she should blog.  Well, she has a lot going on, and so does her hubby Chris.  I didn't know, so I am adding them both to Tia, and Tammy's thing.  That is Steve R's thing, and xoxoxoxoxoxo.  Chris had some health issues, and Leigh is pregnant, so that is tough.  Tia is pregnant too. 

I remember a long time ago when Leigh was going through her loss, I wanted to take her sadness, and deal with it myself.  This is the weird stuff btw.  I have done that before.  I really wanted to do that for her, but she is too strong.  She can handle all her own stuff.  I really tried too, but obviously it isn't me who does it.   I wanted to take Gina's too, a long time ago, but she was too strong too.  Strange I take people who I don't know, like that old dude, and even Lisa's Mom.  Remember me looking out her window.  I knew someone as unhealthy as her was alive for a reason.  Folks that is and was a SHITTY life. 

You know what that 60 Minutes dude is??  arrogant.  Now no people I know are like that, but it isn't good for me to see people like that.  Good thing I stay away from tv except for silly stuff, and sports games.  Arrogant people bring out all kinds of bad things.  I am sure there is some stuff written in Proverbs about that. 

I said before Doreen could give xoxoxoxoxo's to anyoone as if they were from me, so I will be adding her sis Jen to xoxoxoxoxo.  :)  I am sure she would want it that way.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Just ran my little 3 miler yesterday, and am running to work.  No coffee today though, because I don't feel like I need it. 


Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D

Extras for Doreen.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jules too.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Sunday, November 20, 2011

This For Sure Will Be About Nothing.

OMG, I am almost thinking of blogging.  I can't imagine I have anything to say.  I slept til like 7:00 am, so slept late, but I'll put something down for the heck of it.  :)

You know the routine.  Coffee first.  :)  brb.

Looks like we have a nice sunrise happening.  :)  You know orange pink and red.

I'd take a picture, but cannot be bothered to get out from under my afghan.  :)

So yesterday Jerry and I ran the 6.2 mile run.  We were thinking of adding, but I had to go #2.  It was one of those where I tried to go before the run, but I couldn't, and I knew it was going to pop up.  Oh well, maybe I'll run just a tad bit longer today.  My week will end up just a tad below 25 miles probably so a good week.  Also I plan on running to work tomorrow, so another 4 days in a row with Tuesdays run.  I am starting to get back into it, so that is good.  :)

Now there is a lot of crazy stuff I can tell you about me, but much has been said before.  If you have fear, or if you have doubts don't worry about that.  Fear was my blanket of protection during my horrible summer.  Remember I had very little good times, and WOW, why did I have to do that.  I always had bad dreams that there were bad fish, dangerous fish in the sea.  With horrible teeth.  Not sure what that meant.  Maybe the time for me to do whatever I am supposed to do was not yet.  The road had to be paved so to speak, and who knew it would take me this long.

This is what I do.  My blog.  For whatever reason, I do this almost every day.  I am glad I developed a liking to running, because it is healthy, and it is something to strive for.  It is not something I am totally 100% running is my life type of thing, because you know I am never going to win a race.  Not in the genes, but I can improve, and get better, and get faster.  You know my goal would be to break 22:00 in a 5K.  I could run a zillion miles a year, and doubt I could break 20:00.  Maybe if I weighed 120 lbs, but that ain't happenin either.  :)

So you know this is what I do.  This blog.  I work, and view life, and run, and hang out, but my blog is what I do.

Keep it real folks.  Your lives ain't perfect, so don't pretend they are.  I'll keep mine real.

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I sorta know 4 people doing IM AZ  Good luck to them.  Charisa, M. Tanner,  Jenny Harrison, and Molly, who is a great commenter on sites.  We were almost friends once, and then I got blocked.  I have no idea why, but good luck to them.  Not that they will see it, before their race, but that I am thinking of them.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Oh hey, I am adding Faith to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo  too.  She already gets mentioned every day, but wanna add her to xoxoxoxoxo.  She has a hard life, and could use support too.  :)

Extras for Olga.   :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen.   :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Faith.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for the 4 doing IM AZ   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D


Oh shit.  Jessica is running a marathon today.  Extras for her too.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Have a good one all.   MWAH!!!!   :)

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Blog About Nothing = List

I think  I will make a list, because I pretty much have nothing to write about, and stuff, so why not??

  • I have to get some coffee first.  All lists should start with that first bullet.  IMHO.  :)
  • I love Doreen.  :)   I love Olga too.  :)
  •   Hee Hee Hee,  it is my blog, and I can put whatever I want.  :)
  • I could stop there.  :)
  • Today we are running, and that will make a pretty good week for me, when I add Sunday
  • I think Barbara Davies has the best outlook on life.  So cheerful.  I love it.  :)  xxx
  • I think it is a good idea to trust your thoughts.  They will steer you in the right direction??
  • Know why, because the one with the best eyes can see your thoughts.  Trust them.
  • Do you find yourself blocking some thoughts because you think they are wrong?
  • They are still there.  
  • I think people have been turtles for a long time, and with their head in their shell. 
  • Now you are taking a look, and realize the world is vast, and a lot out there.  
  • You tried boxing yourself in, and say this is me.  AND YOU NEVER KNEW YOU
  • Now you will find who you are, and trust me, you will never believe it.  
  • It is cwazy!!  :)
  • I am curious what will happen this Thanksgiving, because it has been a big day the past couple years.  
  • I think it will be more about you this time though.  Or maybe nothing.  
  • Remember my 5K, and the Sophie B. Hawkins night??
  • Last year was the dream, of me winning the race.  I went where no one else can go, but I was alone, so not happy...
  • That I have another year to do stuff is good and bad.  
  • Good in so many ways, but sometimes life sucks really bad still.  
  • I love Doreen though...
  • I love Olga too.  :)--- and her sister Nancy, although I don't understand Nancy at all.  
I love the rest of you too.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  run, and football today.  Is there anything better?? 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga cuz she cannot run all the time.  :(   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen cuz she is Doreen.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Friday, November 18, 2011

Do You Ever???

Get tired of blogging, and feel what you have to say is boring??  I think I am kinda going through a bit of that funk right now.  Oh well.

Anything important happen yesterday to me??  Nah not really.  I worked and ran home.  Instead of running home 3.5 miles, I tacked on a couple more miles.  So I ran a little over 5 miles. Then that was it.  Maybe this is interesting maybe not.  It is 3:00.  Now what??  I haven't been into books lately... for some reason.  I go through spurts.  You know me, I barely can stand t.v. unless it is a 70's Show, or a Seinfeld, or Football or something. I don't do it.  So I have a couple cocktails, and get a little crazy.  You have to forgive my antics, because I know when I am in my moment I am an assface, and I can get a little PG-17, or worst maybe,  BUT  If the chips are down I would hope I'd be there for you. 

That is one thing you can guarantee yourself about life too.  You will have your low spots.  You will not escape that.  That pill to make us 100% happy and 100% in a good mood has not been made, and will never be made.  You all will fuck shit up here and there too. 

Life is supporting people, and sharing.  The rest is just stupid bull shit to keep us busy. 

That is my opinion.  :)   BEEOTCHES!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has  a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  May have to come back to that.  Got nothing right now.  still don't... 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga  :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen who is under the weather.  :(   boooozies.   :(  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Christie too, cuz she always comments on my site, and none of you others do.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


 Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I Forgot To Drink Coffee Yesterday, and I Forgot To Eat Lunch.

I know what the heck, what the heck???  I did have a pretty productive day though.  I am having a pretty good 3 days off.  A little run on Monday turned into a fun night,  what with the help of bloody marys.  Remember the last time I went for bloody marys and I said I only had 2 instead of 4??  No way can I drink 4.  Holy crap.  I had 2 on Monday, and it was perfect.  When I got home the wine was perfect too.  ;)

Anyhoo yesterday was a pretty productive day like I was saying.  I finished all the rest of the leaves with the lawnmower, and bagger.  Our trees are done too.  No more leafing for me.  Nice to get that shit done before the first snow fall.  That is not always the case.  We lucked out this year. 

I did get a couple good workouts in too.  I took advantage of the weather, and rode my bike for 2 hours.  Not giving the distance.  ;)  We then did our 6 mile loop.  Jerry ran an early extra one so he went over 7 miles, and I just ran 6.  I wanted to quit at 4.5  miles.  We hit a stop light, and after the 10 second rest I felt better.  So I finished the 4th loop, and the 4th loop felt great.  So that is a pretty good workout day for me. I stopped after the run to have a couple beers, because I never get to do that on a Tuesday, due to work the next day.  It was something to do.  :)  Came home and went to bed pretty much.

Today I have to get inside work done.  Laundry, and Dishes.  I think I am going to treat myself to lunch, and make a dinner.  Tomorrow is my Monday.  Thank God Friday won't be so far off.  :)

Have a good one all!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I filled up my growler too.  Should be a fun day.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga for the heck of it.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D 

MWAH!!!   :)

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

A Change!!

Well good morning folks.  I have a change of plan.  It appears to me that this blog really isn't that important to people.  I always felt people should read my blog if I am going to read theirs.  I don't think that happens, and that used to make me MAD.  I always think what I do here must be important, because I have been doing it a while, and I still wake up early most days to do it.  I have had my struggles in life, but I keep plugging on and on. 

I used to be more disciplined in my workouts, and that seems to be when I could swim,  which I cannot.  Whatever back problem I had that stopped me is still there.  That being said I did drive to Saugatuck yesterday for bloody marys after my run.  I looked at my biking route on the way home, and thought..... hmmmmmmm.  It is supposed to be close to 60 tomorrow, maybe I'll take my bike out before my run. 

I don't really have much to say today, but I will say for those of us who run, we help support each other.  Those who do tri's help support each other, and this blog here, is to help support those in life.  Not all who read this are healthy, and not all can run, but it don't mean you ain't an important person. 

I don't know what it takes to make my signature line.  It is something that hits me inside.  I do know it is important if you see someone down.  Do NOT pretend you don't see it.  Step in and help support.  That is called "winning" 

Have a good one all!!!  :)   Luv ya's!!!  :) MWAH!!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Oh yeah,  I got a little 3 miler in last night, and felt like a million bucks after.  Those who can should.  It is good for you.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

cya laterzzzz  gaterzzzzzzzzzzzz    MWAH!!!   :)  xoxo   :D

Monday, November 14, 2011

Monday Looks Different When You Don't Have To Work!! :)

Woo Hoo, I have the next 3 days off.  Where will this entry go??  I don't really have anything serious to say I don't think.  Yesterday was a pretty good day.  I got a bit of a run in, and walked Cammie, then watched football.  I played Bejeweled a lot on my phone.  :)  Then Football and Tacos and stuff.  Some wine.  :) 

I think it is healthy and a good idea to look at life from point A to point B.  Birth to death.  We all have that in common.  If you don't look at a point B then you lose out on a lot of life.  It doesn't have to be a depressing thing, it can be a positive.  We get caught up in such stupid stuff of every day life we lose track of the big picture.  Let's face it too, every day life can be pretty boring.  Some pretty shitty jobs out there.  :) 

Ehhhh screw it.  I got nothing today.  Just stopping by to say hi.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  nothing there either.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Even more extras toooooooo.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Have a fab day all.  MWAH!!!   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Sunday, November 13, 2011

I Am Thankful I Feel Like This Most Mornings.

It really does feel good, when you wake up, and have a happy heart.  I still don't know what happened last weekend.  Why??  I hit that empty feeling, and I don't know why.  Did you see how mean I was, and I wanted people to feel how bad I felt.  You know I think about that Penn State dude.  You know in his mind he knows what he did was wrong.  No one thinks that is right, or they would tell people about it.  For most people you have to be thankful you don't have those urges, and for the ones who do, YIKES!!  Sometimes the things which make us imperfect are pretty powerful things. 

I guess a look at the totality of life a lot is hard.  We are not always who we'd like to be.  I keep thinking of what I have been saying in comments around the internets.  Our own personal closets.  See we have this shell, and we like to keep it waxed, and looking good, and we have other stuff in our personal closets that make us sad.  Make us sometimes not be all who we want to be.  I think back to my brother Jim, and he never dealt with his personal closet til the end.  I don't know if he wanted to be strong for people, but he was unhappy, but always said he was happy.  He blamed all imperfections in his life on other things.  Imperfect childhood, and what not.  Well we all have that. 

I have a lot of crazy things I can tell you.  I mean really wacko type stuff.  My energy is one thing, I have hinted at that before, but I do know where it comes from.  I ain't telling you.  It is nutsy.  We all have this stuff inside us.  Our own little personal closet, and we have to look at it, and deal with it to be healthy.  The thing is that dude from Penn State did nothing he can not apologize for to the one who forgives the most.  The world hates him for what he did, but there is one who would hear his cries of guilt, and shame, and remorse, if he were led down that path. 

I guess if I were to say something.  Who cares what we eat, and what we drink, etc...  Realize there are a lot of unhappy people out there who are sad, and not happy with how they are, and would really really like to feel good about themselves, but feel like they are bad people.  Remember when I said if you have a mirror, and you look at yourself in it, then that is a good path.  If you turn the mirror toward others, it will just bring about hate, and anger, and all kinds of other stuff.  Trust in your thoughts as they are directed toward you, because that is the path you have been given.  A look at yourself.  Remember I asked for the mirror a long time ago.  As for me, I am open.  I hide nothing like Adam did pre-fall.  That was my journey.  To walk many many years, and get to a point where I trust , and yeah I trust. 

You want to know why Olga makes it so much.  Trust.  Doreen too.  It is why they are the best of the best. 

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am pretty excited about Oscar Shutt's marathon today.  I get more nervous for his than anyone else's  Isn't that crazy??   LOL 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen, and Jules, and Brandy.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Of course Olga.  I love her.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all.  Luv ya all.  :)   MWAH!!!!


Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Oh shit, I ran 6.1 miles yesterday, and I'll double up on something today too.  :)  MWAH!!!   :)

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Marathon Goals...

They are something huh??  It is a 26.2 day.  Most "human" people can get in top form probably twice/year for a 26.2 race.  I know some people run like a million each year, but most people can go for their goal once in the spring and once in the fall.  At least that is how I see it.  I am lucky that I had that 40 year old wish list thing to do one.  I was hooked right away.  It wasn't a once and done thing for me, it became a lifestyle.  It seems a big part of my life over the last 5 years or so is marathon training.  For a person like me that definitely has its ups and downs.  Will I stay healthy, will I get my fitness.  I love love love that I always have the desire.  I mean I wake up and if the legs feel good they want to run. 

What made me think of marathons is it is Laura Chihak's birthday today.  I know a lot of you read her blog post about Rudy breaking 3 hours, and how many times it took. Cousins of mine btw.   If I have new readers let me link to it again.  Hold on.  Here it is.   If you read this you will see it is a great tribute from sister to brother.  I don't know them well, or at all, but on FB, but a quick story.  I became friends with her on FB a long time ago, and the first thing I ever saw her do was link to some dance thingy to the Coldplay song "Yellow"  She is a dancer, and ... or at least was, and the youtube video was a dance thingy.  The Yellow song always makes me think of that.  :)  Why who knows.  Well anyway since it is her birthday I think it aproppos I hit that link again.  There were only 2 blogs I commented with my heimleblog up and running.  Laura's blog thing she did for school, and Don Kerns.  I really was afraid to show people my stuff back then.  Look how far we've come huh??   LOL.  

This weekend is another big marathon goal thingy for a guy I have read on and off again.  I believe his goal is 3:10, but really he is sub:3:00 fast.  He is patient... now... and hoping to not have cramping problems.  Marathon goals are pretty fricken exciting.  You know marathon goals are a journey in themselves, because it takes miles and miles, and sometimes years to be able to withstand the beating to hit your 26.2 goal.  I get to follow along on one this weekend.  :)  yay. 

It is Saturday morning so today I run.  5.5 hours from now.  :)  Ha ha!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I was bored last night and went to bed at like 6:00  :)   Ha ha!! 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D   oh and I hope Olga feels better.  She is sick.  :(   booooooooooooooo

Luv ya's alllllzzz  MWAH!!!   :)

Friday, November 11, 2011

Friday Morning yayyyyy!!! :)

So how's it all going then??  Me I am doing pretty good.  I don't really have much important today, but I'll just go with whatever comes up.  First off I have a crush on Olga.  :)  You know she has made my blog for as long as I can remember, and I never really had a picture of her.  Just a half picture on her Twitter profile.  She showed a couple updated ones yesterday.  I had no idea she looked like that.  :)  So anyway now I have even more of a crush on her.  ;)   LOL.  She looks really healthy, so glad to see she is doing good.  I think I will add a picture of me.  Just so you know what I look like.  I think my eyes are closed, as I don't take good pictures, and don't really like taking pictures of myself, but here goes...

Hiya, that is me.  :)


So anyway I did run to work yesterday, and biked home.  Run was low 9:00 pace.  It felt pretty good.  One thing I noticed is I am starting to get used to the cold.  I think it was 37 or so when I ran, and I ran in shorts.  It does take a while to acclimate to the cold weather.  I think it was colder riding the bike home, and I did get cold there, due to being against the wind the whole way. 

I went over to Beau and Charity's after work.  I drank some wine, and played uecker with them, and Beau's mom.  Beau and I lost.  Got our asses kicked both games.  They got all the jacks.  Fuckers.  :)  We just hung out.  Charity just had back surgery, but she looks to be doing great.

Other than that not much going on.  Just doing this thing.  You want to know the highlight of my day??  Seeing Olga's picture.  Isn't that strange??  Boy she went on and on and on and on about how much she eats sweets and stuff.  She is tiny.  :)  LOL.  When I ride home sometimes I look at the trees, and I wish I remembered my camera to show the colors.  I am such a bad blogger that way.  Oh well. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  After today I have the next 5 days off.  :)  Bloody Mary Monday???   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 Extras for Doreen xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

silly ain't I???   :)

Luv Ya's   MWAH!!!!   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Wednesday Hump Day

Well well well.  I had a real great day yesterday.  I woke up in a great mood.  I woke up early, and had time to get my run in.  I ended up going somewhere between 6-6.5 miles before work.  I didn't map it.  Instead of doing my normal 3.1 mile loop before heading to work, I crossed over to South Shore street instead of looping back to my house.  South Shore I take to work, and running back home is going out of the way, so not really sure how long it was.  I do have a couple notes though.  6+ miles before work, before walking on the concrete should fatigue my legs.  I felt great the whole day.  Maybe I am finally starting to get my runner legs back.  I mean I will be able to run to work again today too. 

So anyway, as I think about yesterday's post I think man we are not always "on" are we??  I mean somedays we are on top of the world ready to tackle it all, and some days going through the motions.  I feel now I am getting better.  Yesterday proves to me I am starting to get a bit of fitness back.  I was talking to some dude at  work Tuesday.  I told him to call Ken on the road to tell him we are not running tonight.  I told him weather is shit, and you know it is November.  I won't have any important races til April.  Who cares if we cancel a run?  I am on track still to have a good week though.  Jerry and I are planning on adding a little distance to our Saturday run, and a run to work today will get me in some good mileage for the week.  Good for November, and good for me.  I mean goal is to build slowly, stay healthy, and keep after it. 

I love days like this and mornings like this where I am "on"  I am ready to get after it.  Ready to get a good run to work, have a good day of work, and come home, make a meal, chill out.  I dunno I guess when we go through some rough times, when we reach the other side, the good side, it makes life so much sweeter. 

In other words, I don't have much to write about today.  Hope you all are doing great though.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  OMG I need a 12 step class for a girl in boots fetish.  I am helpless.  :)  LOL  

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D   -------xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

This Blog Shit Is Getting Boring...

Then again I have to be at work at 5:00 am, and I am up before 2:00 am.  What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck.  I know.  Pretty fucking weird.  Well where did we last leave off??  I have no idea.  Want to know something about me, I think is true??  Who can really tell what is true though.  I mean Friday, I am on top of the world, ready to achieve everything, and have a nice hard challenging run on Saturday, and BOOOOOOOOM!!!   Out of nowhere I feel empty.  I mean life fucking sucks rip roaring empty.  I want everyone to feel as bad as I do, and I want to tell everyone to go bite themself.  Fast forward to Monday, and things still are shit.  I run to work, and drive to bar at noon after work.  HOLY FUCKING SHIT was I down.  Why I know not??  Tuesday better, and today I feel great. 

So let's just say if I am going to kick ass this year like I planned, I will need some help not to feel like those last 3 days.  :)  How I feel on the inside can turn on a dime.  I trust most my days will be good, but maybe it is a good reminder how low I have been in periods of my life, and how great I have been blessed to feel most of the time.  I trust I am going to be mostly "ON" 

So anyway let me tell you some things.  I skipped last night's run, because of shitty weather.  Lisa was off, so I got an idea to make one of her favorite meals.  Enchiladas made with Tamale's.  NUMMY!!  I drank wine, and today I feel great.  So great, I am planning on running to work, and adding on 3 miles before my run to work.  Last night would have been a 6 mile run, and this morning will be a 6.5 mile run.  Yay Me!!  Go Me!!!

One other thing on this blog.  I think I am taking off any kind of censorship.  I will swear on this fucking thing.  :)  So there. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I got nothing. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these cococococococococococococococococo  ;)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

want to know something???  Sometimes I feel like it is stupid to give extras on top of the extras, and sometimes I wake up wanting to give extras on top of extras.  Isn't that strange?? 

Have a good day all.  I have a feeling it is going to be a good one.  MWAH!!!   :)  

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Friday = Not Friday = Different.

I have to say that was a different.  Let me tell you the positives of it.  It is really just minor minor things.  Now let's say normally, I would go out to lunch with Lisa, and have some beers, and boom, that is the direction of the Friday.  This Friday with this "new me" thingy I am trying ended up working an 11 hour day.  Instead of going out to lunch I bought something to cook at home.  So it is a money saving thing.  Now when I get home, I am tired, but I still do some push ups, and rode the trainer for 25 minutes.  I was going to go 30, but quit, because I can talk myself out of anything.  :P   SWEAT FEST!!!   So instead of alcohol calorie intake, I am doing better stuff.  Nothing huge mind you, but better than what I may normally have been doing. 

You know what I see??  In my head I am picturing a lean running Steve, and I know from past experiences, when I cut down on drinking, the weight just falls off.  Let me tell you too, I copy.  I am the biggest copy cat for the better.  Want to know who I see??  Our plumbing Asst. Manager Victor quit drinking, and he looks to be at a healthy weight.   I don't remember Nancy O Toole's previous pictures, but her last few pictures on Twitter tell me she has probably been living a healthier lifestyle.  I don't know crap about her really, but you can tell she had a healthy summer, because she looks great.  Also somehow somewhere Maggs got the bug.  The bug to make the most of this shit, and yeah,  let's have a good fucking year this year.  So you see out there people doing these things to improve themselves in that way, and it kinda gets you the bug.  Why not me???  Why not now??? type of thing. 

I have always done it that way.  ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS.  When I played soccer in High School, my best move, was a Jim Renny??  (name??)  fake shot, with a Evan Privett cut back.  Guys would think I am kicking the ball at their nads as hard as I can, and boom, I cross over and am running the other way, while the guys are holding their dicks.  :)   LOL   It worked.   :)


My thinking too, is a down year for me last year can be used as a positive.  Let's face it I had many good years building myself up, and yeah, a lot of shit happened last year, but maybe I am healthier, and hungrier now, than I would have.  Remember Jenny Harrison had her "light" year of mostly running.  I am sure that helped her, and I am going to predict this helped me.  I have a better vision of who I want to be this year.  Sometimes the batteries need to be recharged you know??  Sometimes to take a few steps forward you may have to take a couple steps back first. 

That is what I am rolling with.  I feel mentally willing, and able to be better this year.  Let me tell you too, it feels good.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I feel pretty fucking good to tell you the truth.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  Dontcha wish you were her.  :D   LOL

Luv Ya's!!!   MWAH!!!!    :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Friday, November 4, 2011

Good Morning Everyone Out There!! :)

I had to throw the out there in the title, because I used all variations up to that.  I don't really have much today, because Thursday = Friday, and I slept in.  :)  Some changes for me though.  Thursday = Friday, but Friday does not = Friday.  Been a while since I said that.  No drinking for me today.  I am on a new plan.  A new better training for me plan.  I won't be able to commute today, because we have to get new tires I think on the car.  Just the two front ones, or if were lucky we can just get the bad one fixed.  We will see. 

I did want to clarify something from yesterday.  It is all about getting to know ourselves, so I am not suggesting going out and calling everyone you don't like a fucker every time you see them, but I guess realize the "real"est part of the smile/fucker meeting is not the smile.  The smile is on the outside, and the fucker thoughts are on the inside.  The inside stuff is really who you are.  When you start looking at that stuff, you really get to know yourself better.  In other words we all really can be assholes, and we have to be honest with ourselves. 

Bike and run yesterday, but most importantly for me is Friday does not equal Friday.  Taking this shit for realzzzzzzz!!!   :)

Have a good one all!!!  :)

Luv Ya's!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am pretty excited about this new more serious training guy Steve.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Little gestures mean a LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT LOT!!  Thank you Jen Gray.  :)  xoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya :D  :D 

ehhh, what the heck.  extras for Olga.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   PLUS there are rumors of a soon to be Nancy O Toole blog entry.   :)   Yayyyy!!!   :)

Have a fab day and weekend all.  Luv Ya's!!!   MWAH!!!!   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Thursday, November 3, 2011

How Many Things Do We Not Communicate???

I am trying to think back to a long time ago, and I remember one thing I wanted to be.  I wanted to always be nice.  I always wanted to put my best foot forward.  I wanted to always be nice to my girlfriends whoever they may be, and always have a smile on my face, etc...  For me a turning point was Lora who I told the story about before.  Now this was during my bad time remember.  A lot of shit happening, and we became friends.  She just lost her 20 year old boyfriend or whatever to a car crash.  You know what I liked  loved about Lora?  That bitch was honest.  I mean she was a complete asshole fuckface of a bitch if she needed.  I was like damn, and I equated that with a bit of honesty you know?  When I made a bit of an internal turn of what is better nice or honest??  As it turns out honesty is better than nice, because we have more control over that.  "Nice" can be really fucking fake if your smiling with your mouth, and in your head you are saying What a complete fucker that person is.  Do you have any Lora's in your life??  You know the people who are able to express what they think, that you admire, when inside you think, oh man I wish I could do that??

Damn!!  We have been doing this shit a while huh??

Let me tell a couple things.  People don't communicate with me too well.  I don't understand that.  Do you want to know why Olga gets a ton of xoxoxoxoxoxo's and Doreen too??  They communicate with me.  Some people I swear pretend you are invisible.  Who does that??  And perhaps more importantly why??  That shit is weird don't you think??

Oh well that is just some shit I thought about this morning.  Hope it isn't too weird.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

 xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  We got a lot of yard work done yesterday, but I think maybe today Thursday = Friday.  :D

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga  :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Barbara Davies.  She is a special person.  A great sense of humor, a ton of courage, and just a great outlook on life.  She just had a mastectomy this year too.  :)  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

You know why it is great to give Olga and also Doreen xoxoxoxoxoxo, and Barbara Davies too??  Trust,  I trust them, and it is great to put them on here, because as I told you before,  trust is pretty dang important huh??

Maybe, and I just thought of this.  Maybe people are feeling things inside them, and want to let it out, and bare their soul, but are afraid to.  Afraid we'll ridicule you or something?  Maybe you feel vulnerable, and hmmmm,  that must be it.  We want to show our strong side always, but afraid to show our soft unprotected side.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  for all people feeling like that.  I hear ya. 

Now for really really really cya cya cya cya   :D   :D   :D 

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

OMG My Arms Are Sore!!!! >:/

Wanna know the big chest workout I did with my push ups.  3 sets of 10.  :)   OUCHIE!!!  :)  WHAT AN IDIOT!!!  *head punch*  :)  I never did get downstairs to do pull ups, but I will add those to my repertoire. 

Here are some things I am grateful for.  I feel the fire is burning bright inside me.  I want to get out and work hard.  Of course within reason.  Staying healthy is always part of the plan obviously, so I have to do what my body enables.  Yesterday was definitely a good start.  I rode the bike to work and back, and when I got home I rested.  I wanted to get some stuff done around the house, but was too pooped.  We then ran.  Jerry and I did our 6 mile loop, and I think the conditions were absolutely perfect.  The temps. throughout the day were low to mid 60's.  We ran as the sun was coming down, so probably getting  a bit cooler.  We did the 6 at around a 8:47 pace give or take, and it was just perfect.  We probably won't have too many more "perfect" running days, but really if you are able to get out and run then maybe all running days are perfect. 

I don't really have a ton on my mind right now, but a friend of mine, and really a friend of my brother Jim, Sam Middendorf lost his Mom yesterday... maybe the day before.  That is something anyone can relate to.  I thought him just being an Astros fan was hard enough.  He is probably the absolute funniest fucker I have ever met.  Just silly silly silly silly.  He would always have everyone in stitches at the get together.  For those of you who have ever heard the Jozin z Bozin video, that is where it came from.  He found that, and we all watched that at one of the get togethers.   He will have some hard days, and  one of the great things of a sense of humor I think is it helps us all get through shit.  Maybe that is one of the gifts of life.  The absurdity of life can be looked at in two ways.  As something that might be depressing, or perhaps a never ending well of silly funny shit to look at, because we all need it.  We'll all have enough of the other shit to look at. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  yay Pub Crawl.  :) 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for my friend Charity who will be going in for back surgery in a day or two.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Beau too, because he'll have to do all the housework.  ;)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Extras for Olga too.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all.  :)   Luv Ya's  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo

 Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Looking... What?? When The Hell Did I Use That Title Before???

So anyway, I may have come up with a new idea.  The pieces of the puzzle need to be redone I think, all after I get my coffee of course.  :)  So here is my thinking.  I noticed yesterday my jeans appear to be a bit tight.  A down year of biking, and riding will do that I guess.  Now life is something I would like to enjoy, and me having fun and enjoying life can come in many forms.  One of the forms would be to get better at running.  Running improvement comes from many things.  Staying healthy, being lean, and running.  Ehhh,  well 3 things I can think of.  I am thinking if I can find something more useful, and more productive to do on my time off during the week, then that would help. 

I am thinking of more reading, and more movie watching, and more push ups---  been a while--- more pull ups too.  Really less drinking.  Drinking is a fun past time, and that is why those who partake do the partaking in it.  I think if I did it less than that will help my running.  At least in a weight control area.  I mean I am not fat, but I def. have a bigger belly than last year.  Maybe it is time to get in a little better shape.  I will still drink, but maybe just do the Thursday = Friday thing, and maybe like Saturday night, or something.  We'll see.  Just food for thought.  It is about time for me to have a good year running though you know.  Time to get back in shape again.  I'd have to say the last time I was in shape was the last Riverbank and Bayshore pacing... I guess I was in shape for my last G.R. marathon, but didn't know it because it was so fricken hot that summer.  I couldn't run for shit, and was pretty fast doing the 1000's before the marathon. 

I got some goals, and maybe it is about time I start taking them a little more serious.  I guess it got to a point that improving became so fricken easy, that I forgot I have to do a little more than go through the motions.  Let's hope we can keep this flame lit.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  ooh, I got time to do push ups this morning.  Going to be sore tomorrow and the next day.  Why do I stop doing those??  I am such an IDIOT!!!   (Does Chris Farley head punch)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D  

Have a good one all.  :)