Wednesday, June 20, 2018

We Turned The Air Conditioner Off.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. The heat broke so I turned the air off.   What you notice about central air is no matter what it doesn't run all the time like a window unit. Little things I know, but I am happy with the investment.

Lisa bought a new grill yesterday, so I assembled it, and we had burgers. Our other one was just about dead. Too much rust.

That was about the extent of my day besides work. Can't ask for much more I guess. I did officially put my two weeks in at the  grocery store. I'll be down to two jobs. Sunday will be a sleep in day,  and Monday will be too. I am excited about that. Not that I really sleep in much.

Life I guess is pretty easy. Work,  come home, and do stuff for a few hours, eat a meal,  and repeat the next day. I guess it helps knowing there are no great things one must do before we die. The highlight of life is the meal at the end of your day. If you are looking for something better, you'll be disappointed.

You ever see those commercials of people on a secluded tropical island?  Doesn't that look awful?  Skimping around in bathing suits pretty much doing nothing. No thanks. I can't think of something I want to do less. Cooking burgers on the grill, having a cocktail to end my day is all I really want. It's something worth looking forward to. I don't have to take any pictures to show people how great my life is, because it just is easy. I don't need others to validate what I know to be true.

So today will be a day. I'll pick up my truck after work, and all we know is at  some point there will be a dinner. At some point there will be sleep too.

That's it.

Guess I got time to run.

Laterzzz.    :)

xxoo.   :)

xoxo.   :)

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Back To Work.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I think I slept pretty good. Yesterday was a day off, and 2nd Monday in a row I had to be somewhere at 8:00 AM, or meet someone at 8:00 AM. Not really a big deal, but I think on my day off I want to start it at my leisure.  One week we got the French Door in, and yesterday we brought my truck in to get the bed sprayed with Herculiner or whatever, and the bottom undercoated to prevent rust. So actually important things to get done, but still.

I went to the laundromat to get all our winter blankets, and whatnot cleaned. I also finished my book, and got the next in the series at the library.  I napped some too. In my mind are all the things I still have to do.

So anyway my life goes on. Not much to it. Just days that go on. I've been catching bits and pieces of the World Cup. It's about the only Soccer I watch.

I really don't have much on my mind it appears. Not really much going on in my life either.  Nothing really significant at all. So, I am glad to go back to work again. Days off can be tiring.  :)  all of a sudden though I feel recharged, and ready to get back to work. I have decided pretty much yesterday or this morning to put my two weeks in at the grocery store. That way Sunday all I'll have is the bakery. Only one job/day with Monday off. That makes Sunday a sleep in day too.  I got a $1/hr raise at my Saturday job, and I just got a raise at the bakery for the same, so I'll still make good money compared to my outflows. A little more time for me too.

So that is pretty exciting. In just one stroke I'll make my life a little better. I did like working at the grocery store. I always liked stocking shit, and making displays, but one day one job for me.

This is a ridiculous update, but I will publish for your reading pleasure.   :)

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Friday, June 15, 2018

The Dual At Castlerock

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday I had a pretty normal day. Got most of my exterior wall done. I have just a little bit left. Basically I tackled something I've never done before, and it is coming out pretty good. I walked in blind not knowing how to do it at all. For the record I don't really enjoy doing this shit at all. It was a total honey do list item. I do want to get the house painted though, so that will be nice. Zillow currently has my house appraised for twice the amount it was appraised for before the housing collapse. That is ridiculous, and I don't count on that one bit. I do own the house though so whatever I can sell it for is mine. I have no mind to sell it anytime soon.

Other than that not much. Just living out my days as usual. I had a meal last night, watered the garden and yadda yadda yadda.

I didn't think of anything too significant. I am happy I pay zero attention to the news. It makes me not really angry at anyone.  Who wants to take time to have what other people's views, shape you into anger?  Seems dumb right?  People who pay attention to the news are being moulded by suit wearers. Their heroes probably wear suits too. I have no time for those people.

I don't particularly like angry people in general I guess. So I do my day to day. Work, eat, sleep. No one really affects me. I am happy everyday to go home, and do my thing.  My thing isn't anything significant at all. I ain't changing the World, and it isn't in my job description anyway. These days my job description is who knows?  Whatever is being done is not by me. Like if this thing here serves any purpose it is news to me. I still do it though if I don't sleep in. I don't really have much to say though.

I know people rarely blog anymore,  and I guess because like me we have nothing to really say.  Our lives are pretty meaningless, and isn't that what a blog is about anyway?  To show everyone how meaningless our lives are?  

I wonder why I even started?  It just kinda happened I guess. I suspect it mostly was a type of running blog at first,  but it was about life too I guess. I "met" a lot of people online I, and lost touch with the vast majority.

My day to day goes on, and I am happy and content with it. If I lost touch with the vast majority I don't lose any sleep over it, and frankly don't even really care I guess. My thoughts don't change in the least I guess. I guess no one is so important they will affect my life. My story was a solo one, so I am good solo. I am never lonely, and I spose more often than not my house was open to help those less fortunate.

As time goes on I guess I let people be themselves. You'll never change anyone so live and let live I guess. That too takes anger away I spose.

So since this once was a type of running blog,  guess I'll take the Hopester. I spose if running was an important part of this blog it didn't endure really did it?  The blog did though. I don't run as much as I used to, and I currently have no races in mind, but my life goes on. Running didn't make me the way I am, and either does races. I wonder if that means something? 

I don't know. 

Gotta run though. 

Til next time. 

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Laterzzz.   :)

Thursday, June 14, 2018

There Really Isn't Much To Say.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I was thinking about this blog thing, but I sure don't have much to say.  Life keeps moving. Day after day of this thing. I work, do my little projects,  have a meal,  and start again.

It's fine by me. It is simple really. I don't really have much to stress about really, so simple is good.   I don't place too much importance on my day to day either. I just live out my days in a relatively easy fashion. Sometimes I look at old cars, and old people, and I wonder when they call it quits. We go on for years and years. I've been relatively healthy my whole life. I guess we all age, but I feel like I can do anything at 51 I could do at 41. At 41 you pretty much do everything. I wonder when I'll  feel like I lost a step. My Dad has lost a step at 83, but I don't know what he was doing from 50-80. He still thinks he can find the fountain of youth though.

Yesterday I saw the Fed raised rates, which is fine with me, cuz eventually banks have to pay interest when that happens. When you have cash, and no debt that is a good thing.  

On the other hand borrowing becomes more expensive, and that has its own problems for entities that need to borrow. On the other hand an Economy is just shit people made up,  and you know in the end it will be fucked up.

I saw a kid riding a battery operated car. That's progress?  Propaganda takes hold of everyone. Anyone whose ever taken a Stats class knows the idea of your vote matters is nowhere near the truth. Now if you got 10 people to vote who might not vote,  and had them do the same, then maybe you make a bit of a difference. Do you actually give a fuck? 

Who has the time, and desire for such nonsense?  

I just do my day to day. I have a meal, and the important people can do whatever the Hell it is they do. A bit strange I guess, cuz the important people aren't really that important. None of us are, but in our minds I guess we think different.

Life is filled with years, and we don't make a difference in the fabric of mankind.

It is best if you know the true nature of your life, but I guess at first it is kinda sad I guess. I don't really remember. This shit is too easy for me I guess, and I have no interest in the marks you think you are making in the World if you think such stuff.

From the outside our lives are pretty boring. Mine has to be I bet. I just am not bored, I have stuff to fill my time, and I am so cool with my lot. No biggie to me.

Gotta run.

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Seems Like It's Been Forever.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. We've been pretty busy, but I am doing good. We got our French door in on Monday. I did some calling around,  and the one we got goes for ~$1200. We got it for $100. I did spend some money getting it installed,  but it is in. It is a wood interior door, so it is heavy,  and sturdy. I had to cut the grass yesterday, and trim plus water the garden etc...  today we'll finish my last row of the exterior wall we added new cedar shakes to. You start a project,  and 20 more pop up in place.  Nothing seems to go as quick as you imagine. Lisa and I work full time, so we are busy anyway. I do like the French door though.

Other than that not much. We still have to get some stuff to my Dads storage unit. My to do list keeps getting stuff added to it.

I don't have any great thoughts or anything. I am not out living some remarkable life in any way. I guess we all can add our name to that list. I just do my day to day. I am fine with that.  I don't need anything else really.

Let's see. What else?  I gotta say nothing really. I have a full day planned today. Just getting more shit done I guess. Life sure is busy, but I think it is better that way. At least for me. I had Monday off, and I was ready to get back to work on Tuesday. It's just the way I am.

Anyway, til next time. 

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Friday, June 8, 2018

On A Winters Day, In A Deep And Dark December.

Well, I just deleted that entry. It was probably my best entry I ever had too.   ;)

Oh well,  I can try again. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I finished the trim yesterday for the exterior side we are redoing. The end is in sight. Two rows, and a couple top sections. The top sections will be a little challenging,  cuz of angle cuts, but it is almost done.  I was so tired yesterday after work, I sat and watched tv for a while before doing the trim pieces. I woke up early today,  so I feel I am well rested.

Other than that not much. Just doing my thing. Living out my days in the way I want. Work, eat, sleep. I feel I am pretty lucky living my life as I do. How you feel about life comes from the inside. I don't have to change or fix anything, cuz I feel good on the inside. It does make me wonder of others. I know why I am the way I am. It isn't cuz of great exercises or a great discipline that makes me feel this way. It is a gift I received for taking the path I went.  I cannot labor to make me the way I am, and I cannot sacrifice anything to make me the way I am.

In this way you have no idea about me. You cannot walk in my shoes in the least,  and I am glad I don't walk in yours. I would have walked in yours if I didn't change course decades ago.

It seems strange now too doesn't it?  From the wilderness to the dead years to heimleblog plus. Now we are here, and I don't know why. Are we accomplishing anything or just passing time?  I feel we are just passing time, but who knows. I suspect me being how I am must be strange. No amount of labor or sacrifice makes me this way. 

I remember in my college years I always wanted to be in a good mood,  and always have fun. At some point I realized I couldn't fake my way through that type of existence. Too much acting I suspect. We can't always be on, but now I find myself to wake up every day being on.   Happy and content with the way things are. It isn't cuz my life is perfect I spose,  but rather my heart is content with my lot in life. Work,  eat, sleep. 

I guess what we really want is to feel life is generally okay. We think it is something we must create for ourselves,  but really it is just how you feel on the inside. I didn't make me this way, but it is how I am now.

I suspect I've been this way a while. I stand alone which is cool. I am strong on my own. I have nothing to prove, and I don't feel I miss out on anything in life. I don't strive, and I dont search, cuz I lack nothing. I miss out on nothing, and that is a gift from the path I took.  Not something I created on my own.

It is where you and I differ. You cannot walk in my shoes,  and you cannot comprehend how I am. I  know your shoes, cuz I walked in them. I unknowingly left them when I went the way I did decades ago.

So here I am doing my day to day.

It's pretty easy.

Anyhoo,  I guess that's good. 

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.    :)

p.s. I see some if my original entry is here still. Weird.   Oh well.   Cya.   xoxo.    :)

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

Early Morning Coffee

Good morning. How's it going?  Me. I am fine. Just having an early morning coffee pondering what to put here. Some days I have no idea. Maybe most days.

Yesterday I got some more done on the house. I have a little tricky section around a window to do today,  and then it is clear sailing. I have one of those dilemmas I seem to have a lot. If I drove to work today, I could just get supplies I still need right after work. I still typically take my bike though. I am leaning toward biking today too.

I am excited about getting this done. I will probably start painting right after. It does seem like you make progress toward things, and then you realize you still have a ton more stuff that can get done. The way things are I guess.

We've been having pretty nice weather. It isn't too warm at all. Yesterday I don't think it reached 70°, but it felt like it in the sun.

Basically just another day I guess.  The week kinda flies by when you have Monday off. 

No major thoughts yesterday about anything. I did catch a glimpse of how I was compared to others. Normally I just do my thing,  and it occurred to me people are into life for themselves. It is all about you. I find that to be a sad existence.  Maybe life in general is a sad existence. Maybe people fool themselves that what we do is important, but it really just boils down to day to day. I tend to think people take in too much stuff. Seems to be natural. I wanna do this and this. I want to learn about that and that. I will spend time with this stuff. Add in the I've always done it to the equation,  and more stuff gets added then gets taken off. On my list of things to do is nothing. Work, eat, sleep. If I do other stuff along the way, cool. No one or anything dictates to me what I should do with my time. I am held accountable to no one. I am into the wild so to speak, and I am nowhere near Alaska or Walden pond.

We crave freedom, but life tangles. We dont really no how to go about it. Reason being is it isn't in our power, just like having a content heart isn't. Life is a web, and a trap, and there is only one way out. We all were born into it, and I found the way out. I wasn't even searching for that really. I just wanted a better version of myself, but so much more got thrown in the way I went.

Anyway, I know you have absolutely no idea how I came to be how I am. We are separated by many miles. You cannot see things the way I see things. It still is very dark inside you. So what are we even doing? 

I have no idea. I just do my thing, and I have no clue about you really. That's fine though. I am good as I am.

That's it for today.

Til tomorrow probably.

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)