Friday, November 24, 2017

A Pretty Good Day.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was a pretty great day. We got our leaves done, which is nice.

~late in November some of the most fiercest battles take place vs. 2 worthy opponents.  The competition is fierce in the Midwest during this time.  Yesterday in this time honored rivalry between man vs. leaves, MAN WUNNN.   :)~

(Spoken in the best Possible NFL sportscaster voice.)

So that was nice. I went through the car wash with my truck. A truck of mine hasn't seen a car wash in 15 years before yesterday.  :)

We went to Myrna's for thanksgiving dinner.  That was actually pretty fun. Food was good,  we had a couple drinks.  I don't think I ever met Cathy's family before,  but they are really nice. Her daughter is already a cancer survivor,  and I doubt she is even 10. She is a cute girl, and Charley, Cathy's husband,  let me know kinda what that is like to go through.  Wouldn't even want to imagine.

I had fun.  :)

I had to leave at an early time, cuz some of us work on Friday.

Other than that not too much. Today it is supposed to be ~50° I think, so should be a good day. Can't really get any better than yesterday though. That was a fun day. 

Anyhoo,  I really don't have much else. 

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.   :)

Thursday, November 23, 2017

The Days Of Future Passed.

Whatever the heck that means.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. Yesterday was pretty okay. We got our furnace in, and it seems to run a lot. Not sure if that is normal or not. I think the guy said when your furnace runs, you want it to run for a longer time.  I think it does that. Whatever. I have him coming back to put in a humidifier,  and reroute a heat run. Next year I'll put in an air conditioner.

So,  anyway. Not much going on with me. Yesterday was a pretty easy day. I met up at a local place, and had a couple beers.  Lisa, and I went out to dinner,  and then I crashed. I slept in today too.

There really wasn't much on my mind yesterday. I basically have two months, and all of a sudden work will be like one mile away from me.  Having a Southside location can potentially make our jobs much harder. The population base on the Southside is much larger. Not to mention the excitement of a new established business opening up a whole new base of  operations always adds a buzz of excitement. I am not sure how the schedules will go, but I might have to get rid of one or two part time jobs.

Today I'll be able to finish the leaves,  and take Hope. I work tomorrow morning. I also have Sunday off too, so that will be nice.

Really life just goes on. Nothing too crazy goes on with me. I am confident, strong assured, and all those things. I don't really have a worry I don't think.  In the game of life I win. I won it. When seeking out a purpose I was led in such a way that led me to where I am. It just so happens the place I currently am at you are not.

Your life is whatever you created.  It just so happens all our self created paths are not built with perfect vision. It's just stuff you do.  Back during the journey I really wanted perfection, cuz I was tired of being scared. I hated being judged.

Perfection ultimately is the end of this story.  Faith is believing when spoken to, and being obedient.  I've done that. Faith is not being perfect, but the end of my story is where Faith and perfection meet. It just so happens my path was filled with a lot of judgement. Prior to overcoming the 2nd time that bugged me. Judging people makes them not want to be open and honest. Eating the Apple brought judgement into the World, and that is why we all want to hide our flaws.

I never hid anything from my help, cuz that was my strength. People could judge me, but I still was always open. Able to be seen. Now it appears I cannot be touched. Unaffected anymore by anything. As I finish up this current version of me, I just get stronger and stronger. That's what it seems like anyway.

I remember earlier saying people should jump on board sooner rather than later, cuz it is going to get harder. Just one of those things I felt, and it seems to be true.

Part of the problem is as time goes on I realize how very little I can do. I've played the fool a lot, but I wasn't the foolish one.

To be strong, assured, and content is a good thing. Especially since I have no hidden agenda. I seek out no profit in what I do. I just live out my days doing this. I do probably have quite a bit of profit stored up is my guess, but that is elsewhere,  and out of my hands. It doesn't even matter though,  cuz the important part is just feeling as I do now.

What more could one want? 

Anyhoo,  I guess that's good. 

Have fun.  :)

Kill an Indian.   :)

J/k.  

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Randomness.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was okay as far as days go. Pretty similar to most others. Worked, got a few things done, ate dinner,  and went to bed.

By the time I get home our new furnace will be in. I don't think our old one was too bad, cuz our gas prices never got too crazy as some have, but it is an older one, and new high efficiency beats that.

For Thanksgiving we are going to Lisa's side of the family. They are dying off at a pretty good clip,  so I think Myrna wanted to have a gathering. I suspect it seemed like a good idea at the time, but closer to the day she is probably wondering why even?  Too much goddamn work.

Early on in heimleblog this whole thing started out with a death for those who may have been around. Myrna' s husband.  A good amount of the people I was acquainted with have since passed.  Ones who were there I mean. Blogging wasn't always about P.R's back then. I guess it surely isn't now either.

I asked if I should even go to the thing,  cuz things got weird way back then. Whatever made me what I was back then slowly is draining out of me.  There was probably quite a bit more give a shit back then,  even when I, out of the blue,  would take on people's sadness and horseshit.  Baggage I guess you'd say. 

I thought if there is any significance to any of this,  and I don't think so. It will just be another day. You may remember there were four bloggers +1, and the +1 will not be there.  I don't even really know too much about the 4. Becky I see some stuff on Twitter. Beth blogs like once a year. I think I am friends with Barb on FB, but I never see anything, so she may have defriended me. Maybe not too. There was an Audrey too, and no clue about her. I don't even know if she blogs anymore.  Probably not.

What does that all mean? Nothing too much. Those people once were pretty important, and we all lost touch kinda. If they wanted they could probably catch up on my day to day. Not sure why they would. I like doing this, and obviously I still do it. It mostly is fun for me, but that doesn't mean it is interesting for others.

I don't mind either.  I am happy and pretty lucky.  I seem to stay the same day after day year after year. I don't have really any anger in me.  No regrets. I don't feel like life screwed me over in any way.

It is good to be me so to speak. I'd rather be me than you that's for sure.   :)

Anyway, just some stuff.

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Here We Are Again.

Good morning.  How's it going?  I am fine. I feel this is kinda my normal. I don't really think I have anything to blog about, but I've done this a while. This probably has run its course, but this is a thing I do.

Yesterday was a pretty okay day. I biked to the bank after work to deposit my check. It was against a pretty stiff wind. I biked just to get that little bit more exercise. I took Hope for a long walk too. You kinda feel good when you do right shit sometimes. Healthy stuff anyway. Our vehicle situation is finally getting under control. The truck we'll sell on Craigslist. The one junker we'll scrap, and Lisa's brother can use the white car. 3 drivers for 3 vehicles.

All in all things are going good. We have 2 good vehicles,  a new roof, and soon a new furnace. We are finishing up the basement too this week. Maybe by next week. We bought the shit for the walls, and ceiling. Everything was cheaper than we expected.

It still is life though. Nothing too crazy. We all know someday we will view our last days on Earth. I know people are missing out on stuff,  cuz that is how life is. In life you have questions,  and we all lack answers. As long as this thing goes I feel those with less questions are the ones who are more lost. Those who "know" they have the answers are farther away. Those who try and wear Saints clothes are in trouble.

I can't help anyone either. It's your road,  and you are the one who has to find the answers. I tried leading you in the right way for years, but that fell on deaf ears. Your hearts are hard, and that blocks your hearing.  You cannot feel words like me. I cannot walk in your shoes anymore, cuz I am too far removed.

You are just a person born into this World, and that ain't such a great thing. What everyone says is a blessing is probably more like a curse. Life is the real deal. A pretty significant thing you were born in. You didn't do it perfect just like anyone, but you still have to deal with that.

If you have the courage. There is help for the meek. The arrogant are very far away.  The Saints are very far away. Those already with the answers are very far away. We are brought up to find ourselves very far away. Just cuz the World is wrong, and it teaches us to lie. The World has no use for the truth.

Anyhoo, I guess that's good.

Laterzzz.    :)

Monday, November 20, 2017

I Spose.

Good morning. How's it going? Me, I am fine. I have a cup of coffee, and I am ready to start my day. Yesterday was a pretty okay day. Work went smooth. I met up with my brother who was in town visiting friends. I recommended meeting at an Irish pub for the heck of it.  They have Bodington on tap, and that's what I felt like. He's doing good,  and debt free. His life is pretty easy I'd say, kinda like mine.

Lisa and I did a little shopping. I bought a new pair of work/walk Hope shoes.  My old running shoes are toast. She had a credit of $37 or something at Shoe Carnival, so my new shoes and inserts cost like $26 or something.

We also bought new sheets, and pillows for our bed. We needed new pillows, and got sheets too. Our bill was just over $100, and our savings was like $180. Pretty sweet.

We did a few things around the house, and then relaxed. Just a pretty good day. I made a foccaccia bread, and it came out good. It is amazing basically adding tomatoes to fresh baked bread is soooo good. I used stewed tomatoes with Italian seasoning. I added more spices,  and a bit of shredded stinky cheese. It was good, and easy to make. I did it by making a sponge,  and have it sit overnight in the fridge. I let it sit out a couple hours at room temp before prepping.

Other than that not too much. Furnace guy comes tomorrow to prep everything. Wednesday he installs. My brother gave me a check for $2000 in extra cash he found. We split it, and we each gave my dad $1000.  That extra $2000 pays for my furnace,  even though I didn't need it. Crazy right? 

Today will be a day of work,  eat, sleep. Not sure what to do for dinner.

Not really sure why I'll hit publish.   :)

Anyway, have a good one.  :)

xoxo.    :)

Saturday, November 18, 2017

If You Have A Day To Sleep In.

Good morning. I slept almost to 7:00 this morning. Making use of my sleep in day I guess. I never really feel tired during the week, but maybe sometimes I have to play a little catch up. Not really sure.

There was one thing I thought of yesterday. We have enough money we could do whatever we wanted last night. I used my canned tomatoes,  and made home made spaghetti. We watched tv. That is all I wanted to do.

The Mexican Italian baker made this awesome bread yesterday. A Foccaccia bread with tomatoes,  spices,  and olive oil. It was so good. It looks pretty easy to make, so I'll pick up some yeast,  make a batch, and let it sit overnight,  and bake it tomorrow. I mean it is ridiculously good. I think you can make like a pizza bread out of it.  Add cheese, and pepperoni.

I took Hope for a  long walk yesterday. I didn't see anything too interesting I don't think,  but I still like walks.

All in all I think yesterday was probably a boring day looking from the outside,  but I wasn't bored. I pretty much did exactly what I wanted. That may be the difference between me. There isn't much I want to do, and I am content.

I guess the questions one has of life, for me have been answered. Anxiety about the future I don't have.

None of that I did myself. I know you cannot walk in my shoes,  cuz this has been a pretty long story in the making. While others /All were out making their story,  I endured the story intended for me.  It wasn't my story, but it was mine to live if I was willing. I was.

I learned at an early age everything else didn't matter.  I was given a good set of eyes,  and it helped lead my way.

I didn't look to dreams, I just looked at the unadulterated bitter truth.

One is better than the other.  I'll let you be the judge of that.  If you are so willing. 

Ok,  I gotta go.

Cya.    :)

Friday, November 17, 2017

Slept In A Bit Today.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I slept in a bit this morning, so gotta rush one up. I do realize I have had nothing of interest to put up here this week, but I hit publish anyway. My day to day has to be pretty boring to read. I am cool with it though. I am fine with my day to day.

I don't think about too much during the day I don't think. Not a lot on my mind. Yesterday I came home, sat down,  and basically started getting dinner ready. I had a couple drinks for the heck of it. Dinner was good,  and I feel great today.

I am probably about as interested in people's lives as they are in mine. The end of the day all this still will seem insignificant. As you face your final days you will wish you did different things. Funny thing about the turn is you are not sure what. No clue,  you will wish you did things better. Facing our end us inevitably sad. A lot of sad history really.

I am not too concerned about too much tbh. I've done what was asked of me. It didn't go as I think it was planned, but it wasn't my fault. I still wait patiently for the end of this current story. If others seek out the significance of their lives I can lead you to a short cut.  It isn't.

People are such a way they can't really face the truth. I didn't know that. My path was totally blind. I was broken, and this life meant nothing as far as I could see. Turns out that was the correct vision. I seeked out meaning where there was none, and you still think there is some.

The end of the day when it was my turn to labor, I was led down that path. I had no sight,  and it pretty much was a path of suffering so I could see the truth. I was accepted as an imperfect creature when I overcame the 2nd time. When I saw how this story would go, it was always about #3. That is what I wanted. Mostly for security, but I have security now. I had no clue that was possible.  I've been pretty blind the whole way. I know the end of this story,  but I don't know how the days look before this happens.

I guess it's why I am so cool with work, eat, sleep. I have help with how I am.   My heart is not the same as the one I was born with.  Pretty much nothing is.  I am a strange creature past what I was born into, but not yet who I will ultimately be.

There is no manual for how my path was, but I made it anyway.  I was blindly led, and I blindly followed. I was way ignorant in how my story would play out.

With help it all worked out anyway.

Anyhoo,  I guess that's good.

Have a good one.   :)

xoxo.    :)