Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Sore-Tired-Bad Audit Bad Audit

O.K. it was the 2nd day after Beach Volleyball.  Oh dear!!  I got done with my 10 minute break, sat down in Lisa's chair, and I was toast, sore, in agony.  It was the point where all the pain finally reaches the surface.  My arms, back, shoulders, everything was sore.  I know myself well enough to know I will probably dive all over the place next weekend, so next Monday will be a treat too. 

I slept bad Sunday night...stupid nap!!  I was tired on Monday.  We had our audit so a tired Monday also coincided with an 11 hour workday.  The 11 hour workday also coincided with a failed audit again.  Let's face it my most important job for me is to pass these stupid things.  I failed 2 in a row.  It is a hard time of year, as it is right after Memorial day.  The month leading up to Memorial day is loading up the shop with everything we are going to sell in the summer.  Not really enough time, I don't think, to have everything the way we would like. 

I can do better, I think.  Maybe send more e-mails when I see shit that looks bad.  A lot of times I try to correct shit myself, but you know what??  I can't correct everything right?  Who has the time?  We will see. 

Of course when I point shit out to people anyway, I don't think they ever pay attention anyway.  :)  I have a lot of pull!!  :)

Okay so tired day = nothing done on Monday.  I was thinking of cutting the grass, but no way!!  I knew on my ride home against the wind, I was doing nothing.  I sat outside with Lisa a bit, had a couple drinks.  We cooked out some chicken breasts on the grill.  I then crashed.  I feel better today.  Sleep rocks!!!  Sleep is the best healer, and don't you think activity is the #2 healer.  Being active = good sleep.  Hmmmm maybe I touched on something.  Maybe that is one thing I learned.  oh well... I guess I am just rambling now. 

I guess that is it for today.  I am going to do either my 4.25 miler, or 6.2 miler now.  I like the Tuesday morning run before the Wednesday evening track work.  It works for me.  Tonight Lisa and I have plans to do some shit around the house.   I think I'll work late.  ;)   Ha ha!!  j/k.

Hope you all have a great and awesome day!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!  :)

Oh yeah, we go back to the track on Wednesday!!  800's.  I forget I have some races coming up.  One is a double.  I don't think I will be able to p.r. the 5k, Because there is a 10K following.  10K I can p.r.  I don't have a sub: 50:00 10K, and pretty sure I can do that now.  That is the goal anyway.  Should start looking up to see when my races are!!  :)  Ha ha!!  Hope it isn't this weekend.  :)  

I M a nut!!  :)  cya!!  time for me to run.    

Monday, June 28, 2010

Questions Answered

It was really a good weekend this weekend for me.  I had a lot of fun.  I was pretty productive for me.  My typical weekends are Saturday long run, and Sunday long bike ride.  I woke up Sunday, and it was dark and stormy.  I checked the weather out, and it said it would be cleared up by noon.  I definitely wanted to get out before then, and I had a window.  I got out relatively early.  I was planning on doing a 50 miler give or take.  Well, probably at least 50 miles.  I never did get to 50.  I was at 42 and something and it started to rain.  I thought of turning home, because I was just going to finish up with a 10 mile loop.  The sky flickered.  Was that lightning??  nah!!  Thunder!!!  That was definitely thunder.  I turned for home, and called it a day at 43.  I got off the bike, and realized I was pretty darn sore from volleyball.

Didn't do much else the rest of the day.  I listened to music, took a nap.  When Lisa got home I took her out for ice cream.  Just wanted to be alone with her away from the crowd in this house.  :)

I guess I have a couple other things.

I had one question answered, and it answered more than one.  I am happy about that.  Clever.  :)

WOAH!!  Journey threw me.  I like it.   :)

I want to get a 100 miler on the bike this summer.  Sometimes my knee hurts after the miles pick up.  I'll try and work my way slowly, but I tend to try to do it right away.  We'll see.  I am not fast, and that will be a long day.  :)

I am thinking of doing ab exercises and incorporating some stretching into my routine.  I may even start doing push ups and pull ups again.  Back is jacked for swimming, but I can still do the upper body stuff.

I think that is about it!!  :)

Hope you all have a great and Awesome day!!!!   :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!  :)

planning on Beach Volleyball and cooking out again next weekend.  Looking forward to it.  Is it Friday yet???  :)

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Better Than Planned

O.K. I am getting a late start, but I slept in, til like 5:30.  I really wake up early don't I??   Trust me though, I don't really stay up late, so my sleep just comes at different times than most.  Anyway Saturday is long run Saturday.  I thought, I'd run, and perhaps get a bit something done around the house, and then just chill.  Well as the title suggests my day was better than planned.

First off the run was pretty good.  My legs felt pretty good.  It wasn't really warm, but it sure was humid.  I don't even bother wearing a shirt on days like that.  No reason it is just going to be a drenched ball of sweat anyway.  Not much to comment on the run just 12.7 miles @ 8:43 pace.  Legs felt good, but I was getting tired at the end a bit, due to the humidity. 

I was tired after the run, but I was destined to find my wallet, which was lost for two days.  So I pretty much cleaned up the whole house, folded laundry....yes folded laundry.  Amazing!!!  I changed the sheets, in case it was in the bed.  Cleaned the couch, looked under every nook and cranny.  Was just about to vacuum, and I found it.  It was on our breezeway!!!  Needless to say I didn't vacuum.  :)   Work stopped!!!

I then did a little grocery shopping, and came home.  I was just going to chill out the rest of the day, but got a call to play beach volleyball.  I went, and man is that fun.  I forget I am 43 years old, and shouldn't be diving all over the place.  ummmmmm....................SORE!!!  :)  It is a blast too.  Our team won a best of 3 series.  We then went back to Beau and Charity's.  We cooked out some food, had a couple drinks.  I went home early, I was tired, and that  was the evening.  Fun Fun!!!

I got home in time to watch via the web gamechannel the White Sox finish off the Cubbies 3-2.  Konerko had another 8th inning jack to finish off those lovable "winners of not much"  :)  Ha Ha!!  Glad I am a Northwest Suburb guy who likes those guys from the South Side!!!  Good Guys Wear Black!!!   :)

That is it!!

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I can not stress enough Beach volleyball is fun fun fun!!! 


Saturday, June 26, 2010

Not Much To Blog About!!

You know what that means... gonna just go, and see where it takes me.  :)   I kinda like these type of posts though for some reason.  I mean when I have no idea what the heck to put for a title, and actually no idea what to put for my first sentence, I figure it is going to be a rough one.  We'll see.  Gotta get me some coffee.  brb... oh yes I am blogging in bed again too!!  :D   @ Lisa is in Chicago!! 

O.K. brb for realsies this time.  Ha ha!!!   realsies.... what a putz!!!!

So this is the 2nd weekend in a row without @ Lisa.  We don't do this a lot, and as a matter of fact if there is one person going to be gone it typically is me.  I used to go to I.S.U. once every year for a weekend... then for Saturday.  We switched it from Friday and Saturday to just Saturday.  We got older, and who the hell can drink like 20 year olds???  surely not I.  I fall asleep!!!   :)

The Saturday ended up being lunch... beer.... golf.... beer....Doug and I basically try to kill each other on the golf carts.... beer..... finish golf for the golfers.... take back golf carts.... usually almost always with the carts still in pretty good shape...surprised.....back to bar......beer.....shower.....beer......out to bars.....for dancing.....beer....and just having fun.  Who can do that crap two days in  a row???  20 year olds.  We start drinking early!!  :)

As a matter of fact I think last year.... I didn't go.... we were planning of riding our bikes for like 50 miles while the golfers golfed.  I golfed a lot in College.  $50 unlimited golfing on the I.S.U. course.  I could drive straight as an arrow, but could not do crap with the irons.  I should have taken lessons.  I got worse and worse.  That is too expensive of a sport to do crappy!!  :)

As to the I.S.U. thing (Illinois State University) let's say we started doing this 1989.  22 years of that tomfoolery.  Wow!!  I think this year they may just trek up to Michigan. We will see....or over to Michigan I guess I should say.  Really around. 

Okay don't know what made me think of that, but no biggie.  Thursday there was no workout, you know how tired I get on Thursday.  Friday, I was teetering on doing my 27 mile route again.  I left work late, had a couple errands to run.  I drove yesterday, I was running late.  I came home, and just decided to chill. 

Today I run long.  Not really sure how far.  I get 2.7 to and from the High School, and I assume 10-12 after.  Probably 12.  I love long run Saturdays!!  What a great way to start off the weekend.... not if you want to get stuff done around the house though.   :D   Ha ha!!

Soccer, White Sox, and chilling on the docket after.  Probably get some stuff done around the house.... but make no promises!!!

That is it for today!!!

Hope you all have a great and Awesome day!!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!  :)

Friday, June 25, 2010

The Thing About Blogging Every Day!!

If you wake up late, you feel the need to tell people why you are not blogging!!

I fucking overslept!!!   :)

Have a great weekend...oops  and awesome weekend!!!  :)

xo's!!  :)

Love You all!!  :)

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Day Off!!

I can go in any number of directions.  I will start with just what I did yesterday, and may end there.  We will see.  Yesterday I woke up early, did my blog thing, and went back to bed til like 7:30 or so.  Our power was out.  YIKES.  I took the day off to watch soccer.  No power would be bad.  I was already planning alternative houses/ bars to go to, but Lisa called said it was pretty localized.  I went and got coffee, saw the repair truck, and wasn't worried.  Did you know when you have no power you cannot make coffee?  I figured that out yesterday.  Did you also know when you have no power your fridge and freezer don't work?  This is the type of important shit I can learn on days such as yesterday.  Ha!!  We never lose power for extended periods.  I think this is only the 2nd time since we moved here 1999.  We moved here after we got married, I think it was 1999.  Lisa knows, but I am not going to ask her right now.  It has been a while, so at least you get the point.

I watched the U.S. soccer game.  Now in a typical World Cup I will tape and watch every game.  Same as the Tour De France, but not really into watching that much t.v. these days.  This was an important game.  I don't even know if people know this, but I played soccer since I was 7 through H.S.  Our teams were pretty good.  Always ranked in the top 5 in the state from what I can recall.  I was o.k. but got injured for a couple games my Junior year, and also Senior year for several games.  A bad back.  The very one I would have surgery on.  Junior year was shin splints.  Can you believe that?  Shin splints are basically the beginning of a stress fracture, and  once it gets bad you have to take time.  At least for me.  It is my #1 running injury I get.  Kept that sucker at bay though since Illinois Marathon a year ago last spring.

U.S. game was great.  I was angry about another disallowed goal, but we scored the winner in stoppage time.  How exciting.  Now we get Ghana, and Germany plays England.  How about that Germany/England game??  How big is that?

After the first soccer games I jumped on my road bike, and got in a 27 miler.  I didn't push really, but it was windy.  You know what I noticed?  I don't remember it being very hard when I was going against the wind.  It seemed the wind helped me too in 3 of the 4 directions.  Oh if only every day was like that huh??  Ha Ha!!!
Good legs!!!

I then watched the Germany/ Ghana game, and switched back to the Australia/ Serbia game.  That was a good game too.  I then took a nap, and did speed work.  I know I know nap??  I guess the 27 miler took a bit out of me, even though I got way more sleep than I normally do.

Speed work was hot and humid!!  Boy oh boy.  We did the hills again.  Alan said 6 or 8 hard ups and slow downs.  None of us did 8, we did 6.   My sort of running partner from last year showed up, so that is cool.  Jerry and Jim don't do the fall session, so I am pretty solo, although the man with many first names was back, so that is good.  He still looks like he is going at a good clip.

The numbers:

warm up/ cool down   2.77 miles @ 8:18 pace
hard up/recover down  4.5 miles @ 8:03 pace

All in all a pretty good training day.

I guess that is about it for today.  The White Sox are on a roll.  I told people at work, (Tiger fans) I still have faith, because of the starting 5.  We go 5 deep.  We have 5 experienced starters.  5 good starters.  Teams to beat us have to have their good offense with them.  I felt we were good enough to go on a 20/22 stretch or something crazy like that.  We may not do that, but definitely on a good roll.  Different people pick us up on different days.  Our back end of the relief corp. is basically 3 closers too.

Pretty happy about them Sox.  I got a secret to tell about my weekend, but I will wait til the weekend.

That is it for today!!!

Hope you all have a great and awesome day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love you all!!!   :)

p.s. from what could be seen from the people outside, I deserved to be in the hospital.  It is what was going on the inside that was the truth.  Looks are deceiving.  Our truth lies within us.  No one sees that.  Only God gives us the vision for us to actually see it. The mirror!!  It is our journey.  It will all come out, and you will get to know yourself, and so will others.  :)

Have a good one all!!!   :)

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

No Coffee For Me!!

It is 3 in the morning.  I have the day off.  I am going to watch soccer on the boob tube.  (boob tube lol)   My game isn't til 10:00 am.  I am going back to freaking bed after I am done with this?  Why do I do this?  Not sure. 

You wanna know something about my summer of discontent?  I woke up very very very early every morning.  I worked second shift, and still woke up really early.  I bet it was 4 or 5.  I don't remember the time, but working 2nd shift at the hospital... the one I would soon be spending 6 days in, not of my own decision.  I remember in the hospital being chained up to the bed.  I knew I was going to die, but didn't want those damn chains on me that is for sure.  They may have been straps.  I asked my brother Jim if they could take these off.  I am not sure if they ever did or not, I eventually fell asleep, and to my utter amazement actually woke up.  Jim, had a dream.  I have never said anything of the dream to people, because I don't feel it is mine to tell.  Jim and I talked about it.  I reacted wrongly about it.  Arrogantly if you will, and God was angry at me, but we have one who intercedes on our behalf. 

Anyway as I was walking several, several, several miles every day before work... reason you ask?  Cat!!  Every morning my I woke up with my cat.  I had a parable I used.  A cat is curious, but he never comes to any understanding, because he is lazy.  I wanted understanding.  I may not get it, but it wasn't going to be from lack of trying.  So my summer was not fun.  I ended up probably eating one meal every two days or so.  I got down to 130 lbs.  I kept getting judged every second seemingly of every day.  There were no good days to my recollection.  I didn't drink at all....heck I barely ate, but I walked and I walked and I walked.

As I have said before, the hospital was for a reason.  It was 1 of 3.  The journey was 2 of 3, and this fall is 3 of 3.  I don't know all the things I do, although I know they will all turn out for good.  The summer of discontent all my days were bad.  This summer all my days seem relatively pretty good.  I will suffer this fall.  I am willing to do it,  understanding comes through suffering. 

hmmmm,  didn't think I'd write that.  Oh well.  It is the truth, so I will not be afraid of it I guess. 

Yesterday 4.25 miles 5 seconds quicker than the last time I did that route.  That amazes me.  4.25 miles and the times were basically the same.  8:43'ish pace I think something like that.  Now that is crazy!!

Ha ha!!

I forget the order I do this. 

xo's!!!   :)

Hope you all have a great and awesome day!!!  :)

Love you all!!!   :)

speed work tonight!!  I am planning on biking after the game too, we'll see.  :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Going Off The Deep End!!

That is how I feel sometimes.  I am not always very normal, but really so is no one else.  Our lives all have these little flaws and imperfections.  You know how no grass blade is ever the same as another, or snowflake, or anything really.  We are all the same way.  We are all different. 

I misunderstand things all the time.  I believe in my promise given all things will work out for good, but I don't want to cause un-needed hardship that is for sure.  I hope I don't do that.

So it seems when I have hard days/ nights it takes a lot out of me.  I am emptied, and seems I may be vulnerable to misinterpretation.  Like I said before sometimes my world is BIG!!  Sometimes I think everything is about ME!!  It really should be anyway, but it isn't... for some reason.   j/k.   Ha Ha!!

My imperfection drives me up a wall!!  Thats what makes God great though.  He works through all the good and the bad.  He makes it all good.  I see rainy days for some, and better days for others.

Here is hoping for some sunny days for all!!

xo's!!!  :)

Oh wait two more things.  I am hoping to get a little 4 miler in this morning, but as I say this it is pouring.  We'll see.   Stay tuned.

I took a vacation day Wednesday to watch Soccer!!!   :D

One more thing....

Hope you all have a great and awesome day!!!!   :)

Love you all!!!!   :)

Monday, June 21, 2010


The Weekend is over.  I'd like to say yesterday was an easy day, but it wasn't.  I did get a bit of a run in.  I just did my 4.25 mile route.  I didn't log it, but it was 37:15 whatever that comes to.  Pretty standard run.  I realize when you are down training takes to the backburner.  Work doesn't, cause you always have to show up for work, whether you want to or not.  At least I do.  That which we do for fun though definitely doesn't seem so important.

I ran a couple errands with my bike too, and made some dinner.  I watched most of the soccer games too.  Luckily the White Sox were on some screwy Washington station I get, so I watched them sweep the Nats too, while Brazil was kicking the heck out of Ivory Coast.

Today is the 2nd time in a relatively short time I have to semi-dress up. 

Lisa had fun this weekend, so that is good.

I called up my Dad too to wish him well on the Hallmark Holiday!!

xo's!!  :)

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Lost Weekend

Big plans very little done.  I started going on my run.  I overslept the sleeping group.  I watched the first game of soccer.  It was the Netherlands, and I know some people who really root for them.  As a matter of fact the owner of the indoor soccer arena in Holland is from the Netherlands, and he also is a DeBoer. 

I was going to stop by Beau and Charity's to see how things were, but they weren't home.  So I kept running.  At 45 minutes into the run, I decided to walk home.  I would have had bathroom emergencies.

I don't feel like doing anything today.  I am really down.  It is the history.  I didn't know their Dad at all, but I know them.  I hung out with them last night, and I saw their faces.  I did not want to know what they thought about when they were alone.  They just lost their Dad.

When I got home I thought of what they thought about when they were alone.  I cried myself to sleep.  We have a lot of History, and we go way back.  It sucks knowing they are hurting.  The 2 brothers and sister are very close.  They each own houses on the same block.  I don't know how many times we have all hung out. 

I am down about it. 

For positive thinking though, I am looking at it as a down week.  I am going to train for a marathon, and I haven't had any down weeks running wise.  Don't remember my last less than 25 mile week running, so I'll not force the issue.  I am down and I am sad.  Tomorrow is another day, and I will go to the visitation. 

Maybe I'll try and get a run in Tuesday Morning, and then we'll see.  Bike Tuesday evening??? 

Today not much planned!!


Saturday, June 19, 2010

Blogging In Bed

O.K. hold on, before I start I am going to get my coffee.  I am tired.  I feel like I can sleep, but have just been tossing and turning anyway.  O.K. hold on going to get my coffee... brb.

I noticed a couple of things this morning, which may be obvious to you, but wasn't so obvious to me.  I go to bed early.  Hailey usually uses the computer after I go downstairs.  Lisa for some weird reason is usually sleeping when I wake up.  Not sure if I'll ever understand that.  ;)  j/k.  When both aren't here, I can blog in bed.  Pretty fun huh??  Dogs don't seem to mind either, so that is cool.  Bug on the screen likes the light too, so we are all very happy here.  :)

Yesterday was pretty interesting. Wanna know something about me?  I have no idea how my blog updates will be taken.  Last summer I was sad almost every day.  This summer not really.  I have moments, but typically only when someone is going through a rough patch.  I always hope people take my humor in the right way.  I am just a smart ass plain and simple.  Like I have said before I am really not that competitive, but I trash talk like I am.  The only thing I really take hard are White Sox losses.  They make me mad.  By taking hard, I think about it for a minute or so, and then am done.  162 games you know?  We will lose some.  :)  

No workouts the last couple of days.  Well, besides the bike to work and back.  I didn't even bike back yesterday.  Me and @ Lisa picked up my road bike.  I cooked my salmon with asparagus, mushrooms, onions, celery and potatoes.  I like salmon from the Pacific.  Just cause the Atlantic seems like such a dirty ocean.  Blah!!  Pacific was $30/lb. and the Atlantic was like $9.  Have I ever told you how much I like Atlantic salmon??  mmmm   mmmmmm!!  Who the hell buys salmon at $29/lb??  What the hell is a sockeye anyway??  pffffffffft!!!

Plan today is 4.25 mile loop before the group.  Run to the group and back is 2.7.  Run around Eldeans I think is 8-ish.  maybe more, I'll map it out later.  15-16 miler today.  I love that!!  Not sure what I will do the rest of the day.  A good friend of mine just lost her Dad yesterday, I will have to stop by there.  I am friends with the brothers too.  55, skinny, now dead.  quite a shock.  I'd use the names, but not sure how public it is, and not sure who reads this dang thing either.  :)   Believe it or not I do respect some privacy I guess.  Ha ha!!  :)

I don't really have anything today really.  I am excited to run.  I feel like I accomplish something when I do that.  I typically feel lazy the rest of the day though, as I don't typically want to do much else.  :)  I hope Lisa has fun.  I know she will.  One thing I love about Lisa is when she is paying attention to someone, or watching a concert or something.  She looks sooo happy.  She is quiet, but she gets that little look of contentment.  I love seeing that.  I can see it now.  :)

Don't tell her I say these things.  :)  j/k  Ha ha!!!

Hope you all have a great and awesome day!!!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

Love you all!!!  :)

Friday, June 18, 2010

A Taste Of My Own Medicine

I have nothing really to write.  Yesterday no update, and today nothing really on my mind.  Well a lot on my mind I guess as always, but I feel it would be boring for people to read.  I told someone before, or maybe a few people just write what is in your heart.  It won't be boring, because it is about yourself, or something like that.  So that is what I'll do.  Besides you people would miss me terribly if you didn't have a blog update to read.  ;)

Ha Ha!!  j/k

I don't really pay too much attention to the news anymore.  The Gulf thing is bad.  I don't want to see pictures.  I still don't know what the heck caused the big leak.  I assume lack of regulation, meant shortcuts were taken.  YAY!!!  We iz so smart.  Deregulate everything, what bad can happen??  Have faith in the decency of man.  Tell that to the Indians, or the Jewish people from 1939- 1945.  Oh YAY!!!  We are in an economic slump, and we are talking of balancing FEDERAL budgets.  YAY!!!  That brings us to 1937 if Krugman is correct, and Atrios tweets are correct.

We haven't even started with Hurricane season yet.  YIKES!!  What if we have a few major ones, or fires in California.  A lot still goes on.  I watch the market.  I am waiting for it to crack.  No I don't know for sure, but have a feeling.  As far as who we have in office it doesn't matter.  Obama or Bush right now cannot do much to help things.  What is going on with these wars?  Why are we killing people??  9/11?  What year was that?  Did we get those what was it 11 of 13 Saudi people??  zero- Iraqis??

Is it all about oil??  Well, it appears there is plenty floating in the Gulf!!  Blah!!  Why do I even write this stuff.  I just let it all slide.  What can I do right?  I watch, but more importantly I run, and I bike.  I drink, I listen to music.  I read blogs, and I write.  I laugh and I have fun.  That is what I do.  I look at flowers and I look at trees.  I don't look at the new guy at work, cause he is fucking a creepy fucker!!!  Ha Ha!!  j/k  I sometimes have to look at him.  :)

@ Lisa is going to a country concert this weekend.  We cannot afford it, but who knew?  She planned this months ago, and we have negative saved since.  Ha ha!!!  :)  I'll miss Johnny Garcia's 2nd pro fight this weekend in Chicago, but I will run long, and I will bike long!!  Woo Hoo!!  I will be flying solo, so I am thinking of buying myself a big steak, Porterhouse, and a big Salmon.  One for each night!!  Maybe I'll be sociable too, who knows?  I know it will be a good weekend.  I will have fun.  I will think, I will look, and I will laugh!!

Wanna know one of the things I am very thankful for???

I am thankful I want to write the following every morning early'ish!!!

Hope you all have a great and awesome day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love you all!!!  :)

p.s. Pirates SUCK!!!!   ahahahaaaa!!!!

Have a good one.  You all are in my thoughts a lot!!!    :)

wanna know what else I am thankful for???  @ Lisa is one of the best people I know.  She is one of the nicest people ever.  Everyone who knows her would agree!!!  She is great!!  pretty too!!  :)

Oh Dear Lord, don't tell her I said that though.  ;)   lol

Thursday, June 17, 2010


is what I got today!!  :)

Good workout though, a bit sore today!! 

Hope everyone has a great and awesome day!!!  :)

xo's  !!  :)

Love you all!!!  :)

yes I check the baseball scores!!!  ;)

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

The Talk

Lisa had the talk with her Mom.  I guess that is how it was supposed to go.  I said a prayer a while ago about being honest in a nicer way with Jackie.  We had that talk, and she didn't listen.  Lisa had the talk last night.  I am assuming Jackie will listen to Lisa.  She must have a guy issue.  I don't know her history or anything as a child. She was adopted.  All we want Jackie to do is what she can.  When she lives here she does less than she can.  We don't want the impossible, just the possible.

Me??  I try to push the envelope.  I see how far I can go, what I can do.  I am not done building, and am not done improving.

Yesterday  6.2 miles@ 8:47 pace.  The 4 kids gave me a weird look when they saw me running at 3: 10 in the morning.  That kind of crap gets me motivated.  The stick I tripped over got a swift kick, but I was fine.  Lisa is going to worry about my late night/early morning runs now, but ohhhhh well.

I'll be more careful.  :)

Those Tuesday morning  runs are good, cause it gives me a whole 1-1/2 day to recover from the run.  That is nice.  Speed work tonight.  Same hill I did speed work on at 2:30 am a while ago.  Start with hills to build strength.  That is how Alan does it.

Yes I am stoked baby.  Marathon training starts up now!!!  WOO HOO!!!

That is it for today!!!

Really glad Lisa had the talk.  I feel better about it all.  At this point a talk from me or Brian would not help at all.  We are fucking truck drivers.  So is Gina.... one of the reasons I like her.  :)  Unfortunately so are my brother's kids Brandon and Marilynn.  Not sure if John likes it so much, but we can throw a couple crappy words around that is for sure.  They seem to like the "F" one quite a bit.   :)

I'll try to keep this "G" rated, but there will be times.... I may not too.  We'll see!!  :)

Hope you all have a great and AWESOME day!!!  :)

xo's !!!  :)

Love You all!!!  :)

almost forgot.  My road bike is fixed.  Pro-style... whatever the hell that means. I know it means $20 more!!  :)  glad to have it back though.  My Sundays are not complete without a good looooonnnnnngggg ride!!  :)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Monday Blahs

I had a blah day yesterday.  I was at work, and putting in the time, but I swear I did not get hardly anything done.  I don't know what is up with that.  At work, I work.  I mess around and talk shit a lot, but just felt like I wasn't concentrating.  Oh well whatever right?

Anyway here is our life right now.  The mother-in-law is back with us.  YAYYYY!!  not.  It isn't just me.  She is a buzz kill for her whole family.  I just don't personally have much in common with types like her, and in all honesty have nothing to talk with her about.  I ignore her most of the time.  That is how I deal with people.  I ignore the ones who really just annoy me until it is too much.  Then they usually get a nice heaping helping of my dickness.  :)  No middle ground with me.  That being said if she was funny or something then that would be something.  She isn't.  For the life of me I can't remember anything she has ever said that ever interested me in any shape way or form.  She has no humor.  Gotta have humor, it helps kill a lot of ills.  I told her as long as she is able she can stay here, but you know what??  Her daughter doesn't want her here.  She is alone in her own little world. 

Any point here?  no not really, just explaining things I guess.  Yesterday, like I said,  or think I said.... don't remember and don't feel like proof reading.  :)  I was off.  Finished work, biked home, and cut the grass.  I beat the rain... it never came.  ;)  I just sat outside, and chilled.  Looked at all the green.  I then ate dinner, and went to bed.  I was so blah, I just didn't feel like being awake anymore. 

That being said, going to bed so early means I am up so early, and I have time to get a 6 miler in before work.  I had my eye on the 6 miler before I went to bed last night too.  I thought if I by chance wake up before my mental 2:00 a.m. wake up, then I can get the 6 miler in before work.  Woo Hoo!!  That is what I am going to do now.  :)

cya!!!!  :)

Hope everyone has a great and awesome day!!!  :)

xo's  :)

Love You All!!!   :)

Monday, June 14, 2010


Mother in law is coming back today. I have nothing nice to say about this!! She will not make Lisa unhappy!! I will not let it happen.

Many of you know the story. Her family is being honest with her now. Brutally honest. She needs it, because she doesn't listen.

My computer doesn't turn on. For some reason. :)

Phone blogging!! :)

Hope everyone has a great and awesome day!! :)

Xo's :)

Love you all!!! :)

P.S. 3.14 miles @ 9:09 pace. Legs were sluggish.

Cya!!! :)

computer works now.  Glad it shut off.  My original draft had a bit more colorful language than needed to be.  :)  I work at a lumberyard, and I have the 2nd most colorful language there.  The English dude kicks my ass as far as that is concerned.  He is angry though.  I am just gifted!!!  :)

Sunday, June 13, 2010

I Am So Smart Aren't I???

I had my plan.  I was going to stick with it. Ummmm, when it is humid out, throw everything out the window.  What I learned yesterday is if you go out a little too fast on a humid day you cannot recover.  I know when it is cool out I can tweak my pace a little down to recover pretty quickly, or tweak it up a bit if things seem easy.  When it is humid out there is no recovery.  I kept trying to tweak it down-down-down .  No recovery in sight. 

My first mile was 6:58.  It didn't feel too bad, but I wanted to feel better at mile two, so I started tweaking my pace down.  I never started feeling that much better.  I hit mile 2 at 14:21.  :).  I still didn't feel all that great.  I kept tweaking down, because I knew the course had a 1/2 mile straight away, and I wanted to push hard there.  No recovery at all.  I pushed the last 1/2 mile, because I honestly wasn't sure if I could hit sub 22:00 or not.  When I saw my clock hit 22:00 I slowed down for a bit, and then sped up again and finished it.  22:19 was my official time.  My alias was Mike Harju.  He's got some work to do if he wants to P.R. a 5K now.  :)

I ran with Mike, who's alias was Dan B.  I'll save that name to protect the innocent.  Mike did great.  A sub 9:00 pace, which is slow for him, but his "running" training is off this year due to Hockey, work, injury.... you name it.  I think that was a hell of a race for him all things considered. 

I learned something about racing in humidity.  It sucks!!!  I did the best I could for the conditions given.  Not too disappointed at all.  It is just a race anyway right??  I napped a bit after my 5K which means the effort was definitely there.  Then I had a lazy day of watching Soccer, and the Sox beat the Cubs again.  U.S. tied England in soccer.  I think we outplayed them, but they are a dangerous team.  They can counter quickly.  Rooney was non-existent, and their goalie let in a softie.  :)

That is it!!!  Pretty fun day for me!!!  :)

Hope everyone has a great and awesome day!!!  :)

xo's  :)

Love you all!!!  :)

Saturday, June 12, 2010


That is the game plan.  I had a sub: 22:00 5K on Thanksgiving.  Which by the way I remember was another tough time.  I was writing the Journey at that time.  Anyway thoughts for another time.  I remember that race thinking I was going waaaay toooo slow to get my 22:00.  I kept the trust, and was going to let the chips fall where they may.  I think I was 7:10 and 14:20 at the 1-2 mile markers, and had plenty of kick to incrementally up the pace.  Course was shortened, so it wasn't a true 5K.  The Diemer course has been the same since they have done it, so no mistakes.

I am just going to trust my pace.  Realize I am probably going faster than I think I am.  I will listen to my breathing... perhaps with the music going at the same time.  :)  Sub 22:00 for me is all about what happens from mile 2 on.  I need to get to mile 2 comfortably uncomfortable, and feel like I can push a bit.  Those splits at mile 1 and 2 are important, but feeling good at mile 2 is everything!!  Sub:22:00 is all about  mile 2-3.1.  In my honest opinion.  That is my plan anyway, and that is how I am going to race it!!!

It will be fun, it will be exciting, and I will be determined.  To me the 5K is soooo hard to P.R. cause it is short, and the pace is fast.  Marathon is probably harder just cause the distance.  It is an easy pace, but the problem is all kinds of crap can go wrong once the miles start adding up.  I know all about that.

Guess that is about it.  This one is really going to be a hard one for me.  I will do my best though.  I will stick with my plan, and see what happens.  There always is that Blueberry Fest 5K in August.  That is a pretty easy course too.   That being said, I am still determined to do my best!!!

That is it for today.  It is game time now, so a bit more serious, than my normal looney self.  :)

Hope you all have a great and AWESOME day!!  ;)

xo's  :)

Love you all!!!  :)

Friday, June 11, 2010

A Quickie!!

What???  Oh dear Lord,  A blog update!!  Pathetic!!!  You people are really pathetic.  I am going to have to keep my eyes on you folks.  SHEESH!!!

Lisa picked up a late shift to help someone out or something, so she went in late, and I still left early.  I had the house to myself.  I sat outside, listened to music, and burned my dinner.   :D

It was great!!!  Well, except the house smells like shit now!!!  HA HA!!!

Hope you all have a great and AWESOME day!!!   :)


Love you all!!!!  :)

White Sox take 2 out of 3 from the Tigers.  Now let's clobber us some CUBS!!!!!

Have a great weekend!!!!  Racing in the heat!!!  YIKES!!!!   :(

Thursday, June 10, 2010

Not So Good

First off here was my workout.  You will notice the times are not what I would have liked.

Mile warm up.  8:56


A couple notes.  I didn't go all out on the track.  I didn't kick in my last 100's or whatever to try and get a good time.  I was just trying to get a pace.  I know I need to be at like 14:14 at the two mile mark at least, and have some left for some kick.  I haven't checked the weather, but I heard it is supposed to be warm.  You know what?  There was never any question in my mind I would break 22:00 at the Diemer.  That workout has me wondering.  Should be fun though.  We'll see what happens.

Same old thing.  I worked on concrete floors all day, and ran 3 days in a row, and 4 of 5.  27 miles or so in those days, so now I will have two easy days, so the legs should feel o.k.  To be honest they felt pretty good last night.  We will see!!  FUCK!!  I may be nervous for this race!!  Ha Ha!!  I always knew the 5K is the hardest damn race!!!  :)  Should be fun!!!   :)

Other than that, Marathon training starts next week!!  Woo Hoo!!!  Work will mount and so will the miles.  That is the one thing isn't it??  Being in training.  That is the best.  Races are fun, and always fun to have your eye on the race you are training for, but it sure is fun being in training... at least for me!!

Okay, I guess that is about it today!!

Hope you all have a great day!!!!  :)

xo's!!!  :)

changing some shit around to keep you on your toes!!!  Ha ha!!!

Really though, hope everyone has an awesome awesome day!!!

Okay Okay!!  Love you all too!!!!   :)

p.s.  Good to be a Chicagoan.  We may have made a bit of news last night.  Now on to the White Sox!!!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Got A Run In

Title means once again not really sure what to write.  So let's start with the run.  Well wait, let's start with the bike to work.  It was actually pretty chilly out, I wore a windbreaker to work.  The sky was clear, and there was a crescent moon I could see clear as day.  That was pretty cool.  Anyway the clear skies made me think nothing of rain, but it did rain a bit yesterday.  Not a ton, but a real light rain.  A light rain I biked home in, and a light rain I ran in.  Now today I am doing track work, so I just went for a short 4.25.  Hold on let me log it.  I have absolutely no idea the pace yet.  brb.  Map my run was weird so took a bit longer than usual.  8:48 pace.  I know I know why do I go through the trouble of saying pace???  No reason,  I have just always done that.  Method to my madness???  No!!  No method just madness.   Ha ha!!!  just kidding.  :)

So things really seem different to me now then say a week or so ago.  No clue why it happened, I go on my promise from my post yesterday, and don't really stress about it.  I mean many of you know a lot of my story, so all my days have not been sunny days that is for sure.  Now I have a promise, and I just see where that takes "us"  :)

Thoughts aren't totally clear on everything, so I don't stress about it.  I wait and see what happens.  No use forcing the issue.  Gonna enjoy my time as much as possible.

Okay just a few more things.  I said I was going to run with the Tuesday night crew last night.  After work, I was like screw that.  I can get my run in early, and be done with it.  Lisa and I relaxed the rest of the evening.  Her = sleeping relax.  Me = listening to music relax.   Me = love Avril Lavigne right now.  :)  She rocks!!  After I am done with this I am   going to listen to some of her youtube videos.  Don't try and stop me!!!

Only thing today is track workout.  I will probably do the same one as last week.

That is it!!!

Take Care!!!!  :)

Almost forgot...... EEEEEEEK!!!

Love you all!!!

xo's!!!  :)

Have a Great Day!!!   :)

p.s. I never know where I am going to put my smiley faces on my signature line!!!  Just do whatever I feel.  Ha ha!!!

Have a good one!!  Oh, and no way in hell am I even going to think of doing a 200!!  another day.  Probably embarrass all of you anyway with how fast I am.  Ha ha!!!  j/k

p.p.s  Had a couple glasses of brandy post-workout.  part of the relaxing.  :)

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Bad Blogger Bad Blogger!!!

Not really, but I blog almost every day, and I missed twice I think last week.  Yesterday was due to the Blackhawks.  I don't stay up and watch the games on tv, but  I woke up during the 2nd half, and was kind of glued.  No reason, we started the 3rd period up 5-2, and I stayed up and watched.  Flipped back and forth to the NBA game too.  Pretty exciting. 

I am different now.  I was different last year.  I know this, because I did not watch every single second of the TDF.  I already know I will not watch every single World Cup game, I can get on my tv.  I am happy to check yahoo sports in the morning. 

That reminds me of a time pre-hospital.  Everything was great for a time.  I was on top of the world, and then boom, I was brought low.  It is one of the things that make me different.  I have been different for a long time.  Different since before the hospital.  I see things different and I think about things different.  I think spiritually all the time.  My eyes are in my head.  I am observant to my surroundings, especially with everything... how do you explain.... on high alert. 

I still see many robins... my bird of faith.  It still makes me feel good.  I think I misinterpreted why the robin was the bird of faith during my summer of discontent  (pre-hospital).  I only know the real reason now.  I only shared with Gina.  Let's just say we see things similarly in a way where not all would understand, and perhaps many would think we are nuts!!  So I don't share everything, but as you can see a little is coming out at a time.  I thought I needed the bloggers to help me with this, but guess not. 

My truth is a bit different than yours.  Mine was my journey pre-hospital.  When I was angry, and told to go solo, I asked why.  I got the answer, and that is what this time is for.  We each continue on our way.  Enjoy it as much as possible, and realize God is overlooking so what bad can happen?  There are tough days I guess, and it makes it seem like God isn't there, but he is. 

Good luck, we each embark on a journey now.

Oh yeah, yesterday 6.2 miles @ 9:01 pace.  legs felt a bit sluggish, but I am going running with the Tuesday night crew on Lakeshore.   Final pre- 5K speedwork tomorrow too.  Busy Busy.  House is a mess too.  Amazing how that happens.  :)  @ Lisa and Brian, and that whole side of the family have stuff they are dealing with now.  Health in both parents is not good.   Hailey just graduated H.S. sort of,  (still has to do a month of stuff  #skinofherteeth)  :)   has a boyfriend, and she is dealing with more health issues from her real father's side. 

I don't know everyone's journey like I said, but I know my ending of this particular part.  I have known it since well before the hospital.  I wasn't really sure how to get there, but all the seemingly bad things I did in God's eyes were for a reason.  It was for the hospital, last summer, and this summer.  My righteousness in his eyes comes from my faith, not actually any righteousness of my own.  With help I overcame right after/ before the deleting of the Journey.  Now my final one I give up all for God.  I have help, the one who overcame centuries ago.  He overcame so my journey is assured.  Takes a lot of the stress off.  Especially the promise that all that happens will be for good.  I received that a month or two ago, so I don't stress about too much.  Let's just say that.  :)

Like I said good luck.  Learn a lot, see a lot, and may you have many many many sunny days.  You will have some rainy days.  Sorry about that, but those are necessary.  Realize I have had my fair share, and yet I still laugh a lot.  Wish I could make them easier, but they are for the greater good.  :)

best wishes!!!  :)

Love you all!!!

xo's!!!  :)

Hope you have a great day!!!  :)

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Rainy Day, But Not A Personal Rainy Day!!

So, I don't always know what I am going to write.  Today is no different.  Maybe I shouldn't write anything today, because honestly I have no idea where this will lead.  Let's see!!

Yesterday after my blog entry I realized I felt a lot better than the day before.  I still have no idea why I was so tired on Friday.  I slept enough, but was just off.  It was really weird.  Yesterday was full.  Came in touch with a bunch of people who really are a part of my life.  A part of my history.  I said on a H.S. friend's wall, I think God gives us a billion things to look at each day, and if we are lucky we see 1-2, and think about it.  It was one of those days for me, but it was a sunny day for me so I wasn't too reflective.  Rainy days make us reflective, and more open to listen to God's voice.  Hmmm!!  God's voice is kind of a scary thought huh?? 

Yesterday was sunny for me, but I came in contact with a bunch of people.  On my 12 mile run I stopped at Beau's about 2 miles into it, as I realized I did not have enough water for 12 miles.  We talked a bit.  His daughter Jill was there, and Seth's daughter Maleeja too.  No idea how to spell that. 

About 5 miles into the run I saw two ladies from my tri- swim thing from last summer riding their bikes.  Nice ladies.  About 9 miles into the run I stopped.  I never stop on solo runs, but I thought why not.  I stretched.  I did the downward dog... thought of Yogini blogger... Ha ha!!  I stretched hammies, groin, calves you name it. 

When home I cut the grass.  My brother and his kids are in town for Hailey's graduation.  I then sat outside.  Jacob stopped by, we had a few beers.  He is realizing how Fatherhood is changing his life.  A little less freedom.  Fatherhood was never my thing, because freedom was my thing.  That being said Hailey had a pretty easy life growing up with Lisa and I, because we love each other, and we never fight.  Our few fights were really about her anyway.  I mean we have had financial troubles, but I don't really stress about that stuff. 

My good friend Rick owns the house next to us.  He lives in Florida now, but his ex-partner David came by, because some work needs to be done.  He stopped by for a bit, and we talked.  He didn't have time for a beer, but it was good to see him.  I gave him a hug goodbye. 

Jeff Stark and @tandumrider stopped by with Dan and Linda for a cookout.  It rained.  It was a nice rain.  We listened to youtube videos out in the garage while the non-tweeters were inside.  :)  O.K. Brandon doesn't tweet!!  Ha ha!!

Life is full of stuff.  Some good some bad.  It is good to see it all.  The rainy days are hard, but it helps us hear, and helps us see. 

My wish for all is the rainy days are few.  I hope you all learn a lot, see a lot, experience a lot. 

A full day yesterday!!!  Who knew???   :)

Love you all!!!


Have a great day!!!!   :)

p.s. 12 miles @ 9:05 pace   :)

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Friday = Friday

I was absolutely beat yesterday at work.  I have no idea why.  I mean tired-tired.  It was A Thursday = Friday tired from after a hard track workout and 37 seconds of sleep to recover from it.  No idea why that was.  Sooooooo  needless to say I have to cut the grass today.  :)   I swear I will get it done don't you worry about it one bit.  Consider it basically done!!  I think my brother is coming up, so I'll have his son Brandon do it.  :)  Hee Hee!!  I'll then make Marilynn clean the house.  John I'll just have him pull his hair out, as I have Fox News parental blocked on my TV.  HAHAHAHAHAA!!!

So Yesterday since I had absolutely no energy, and didn't want to take a nap, I bought a little bottle of Brandy, listened to music, and hung out.  It was really like a Weekday in February kind of day to me...except I hung outside instead of inside.  Just one of those days I guess.  That stuff happens though, so I guess we just deal with them as best we can.  :)

Today is coffee, 12-miler.  When I am not really training for anything long I like to keep my long days at least 12 miles....for whatever reason.  Marathon training won't start for a couple weeks.  I'll already be at 16 miles for long runs!!!  WOOT!!!!   I have a pretty good base I think, as I have run a lot (for me) this year, and the legs feel great so we'll see what happens.  I am one week out from my 5K.  I am pretty stoked about that, as it seems I may get that little dragon off my back!!!  :)  Rest of the year is pretty easy.  I need to P.R. a 10K, shouldn't be a problem.  I may pick up a 15K in Muskegon.  I'll have to check and see when that is.  Then the Marathon.  Oh yeah a half marathon too, but that will be part of the training, so that shouldn't be a big deal.  Marathon pace the first 10 miles, then attack!!!  :)   SHIT, I am going to do the Bix 7 too.  7 miler P.R. too.  Woo Hoo!!  Only did that race once and was behind a bunch of walkers, so that should be easy.

Hmmmmm  my Saturday seems brighter already!!!  :)

Love you all!!!!  :)


Have a great day!!!!   :)

Friday, June 4, 2010

Not Much On My Mind

Really there isn't, but I blog almost every day anyway right, so guess I'll just see where this takes me.  I follow my heart.  These days I trust it.  If it is anger, if it is happy, whatever.  Whatever my heart feels I feel that is a good direction I am in.  I don't tell all things about myself.  I don't tell all the things I think about, but who does right?  I think of  a lot of things. 

Here are some thoughts.  The American dream is false.  No such thing.  Our Economic system is set up in a bad way, although I don't know a better one.  A mixture of socialism and capitalism would be the best I assume.  A balance between the two.  Side too heavily on capitalism, and you end up with a depression.  We started siding too heavily with Reagan... again.  Not that he is at fault, but an inertia develops, and the people don't know what they started. 

I think we think men in suits must be smart right?  They start wars though.  They must know better right, but God allows you to find wisdom in nature.  You can be wearing flip flops and shorts.  That which we see deceives us.  We can deceive ourselves.  There is truth in nature, for this is not man made.  Even an atheist trusts in that which can be viewed in nature.  Our Economic system has us thinking of paying bills, getting ahead, etc...  In these trying times one must be careful right?  We learned via Enron, and the bust of 2000, and the bust of 2007 a lot can be lost very quickly. 

A point?? not really.  I have worked hard at my job, since 1994.  Tough to get ahead, and you realize it does get harder to make ends meet.  Expenses go up, but wages don't keep pace.  I am not whining, I really could give a crap honestly speaking, but it is the truth.  People these days are enslaved to crappy jobs, and houses under water, and making ends meet.  A lot don't have time to enjoy the world. 

You know what marvels me the most?  In our neighborhood you rarely see people outside.  Give me a beer, some music, and let me look at the trees.  I'll find some solace outside.  I'll think of funny things, sad things, but I will see things I cannot make myself, and that no man can make.  Pretty neat I think. 

Well whatever,  who knows what the heck I am writing about.  I am reading "The Catcher In The Rye" again.  It is funny as hell, but I feel sad for the main character his brother died at a young age of leukemia.  You can see him dealing with it in his own way.  I think perhaps it is autobiographical, but not 100% sure.

Okay, whatever, I am just rambling on probably.  :)

Yesterday 4.25 miles @ 8:31 pace.  Today I will just bike some, and have to cut the stupid grass.  It is like 1000 feet long due to the rain.  I may be getting close to see what are weeds and what aren't in our garden too.  I'll have to check it out. 


xo's  :)

One more thing I thought of yesterday.  My world around me is pretty big.  The world revolves around me in my mind.  I am arrogant.  I know I really am just a particle of sand in this universe, but my mind isn't there yet.  I am not perfect I know that, but I believe in my direction. 

Okay guess that is it. 

Thursday, June 3, 2010

We Are Different

I want to see how.  I don't want to know what you think people would like to view you as, I wanna know who you are.  That is what being open and honest is.  It is throwing yourself out there. 

Who is Joe/Josephine Normal I should be like them??  There is no normal.  We are all different.  We think about different things, and we see different things.  We are all unique flowers in God's eye, so let the uniqueness out. 

Through all our differences we will get to see some pretty cool stuff. 

I get irritated when I read stuff you think people wanna hear. 

Wanna know what I want to read again? 

"A Catcher in The Rye"--  It was all that.  It was funny, it was crazy, it was sad, and it was life.  best damn blog I ever read... except for mine.   Ha Ha!!!  j/k

Track Workout last night:

400-400-400-800 @1 minute rest-- Repeat 2 times

My Times:

  1. 1:41
  2. 1:39
  3. 1:39
  4. 3:28
  5. 1:42
  6. 1:42
  7. 1:41
  8. 3:32
  9. 1:41
  10. 1:42
  11. 1:40
  12. 3:35
The last one was a little off, cause my mind was elsewhere.  I was thinking of doing a 200, cause I never did one before, so I was looking for the lines.  It was a crappy track as far as lines went.  Once I finished the final 800 I said Fuck the 200!!!  :)

I walked around the track once, and rode my bike home.  I get lazy with my warm ups and cool downs, when I don't run with the group.  I did do the mile warm up though.  9:02 pace.

That is it!!!


xo's!!   :)

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

8 = 4.25

Woke up early yesterday, as it was a Monday.  I was getting ready to run, and realized I am tired.  I went back to bed til 9:00 am.  Gotta like Holiday Weekends.  I am anti-war as almost anyone.  Memorial Day Weekend??  Well we have soldiers who gave their lives, and so do other countries.  I personally don't think an American life is worth any more than a Saudi life, or a Pakistani, or whatever.  We all choose our professions, or are led in certain directions.  I am sure I'll step on some toes here, but I am glad I have been led in such a way as to not give "The Man"  any say in when I can and cannot die.

History is ugly with war, and I don't like any of it.  In our history we thought the red man was less than deserving of any kind of life and we really didn't think the black man was all that great.  A lot of U.S. citizens aren't too fond of the brown man, and the overseas brown man.  They all must answer to God.  I many times  am thankful I don't have to answer to many people, as God doesn't judge me, although people sometimes do.  I judge myself.  I have judged myself many times in my life.  I judge myself guilty of all.  I am as unrighteous as anyone.  I am faithful though.  I was faithful before the hospital and faithful after.

As with Adam and all the prophets it was faith he reckoned as righteousness, not righteousness.  We all fail, and we all fall short.  Me as much as anyone, and really even more so.  A man or women's righteousness is nothing in God's eyes.  His or her faith is everything.  I believed before the hospital, and the 18 or whatever years after.  There was a little dead time.  Not much going on.  I believed still.  It started up last summer, and continues til this day. 

I could show you all with the Bible, but I don't use it for that purpose.  God doesn't want me to.

I shortened my list!!

It was so freaking hot out yesterday when I ran, my intended 8 miles = 4.25.  around 8:40 pace I think.  Today I take the day off from running.  Tomorrow is a hard track workout.

That is it!!

cya!!  :)