Saturday, December 31, 2011

300 For The Year and FTW

Well it appears this little blog update took a while to get around to Something is wrong with the hard disc on my computer.  That sucks.  Oh well, at least I can still do this. 

I don't really think there is much on my mind, but perhaps a look back at the year.  A horrible training year as injury after injury popped their ugly head.  We did have some car problems early in the year though, so I tried something new.  Biking in the winter to work, and also running to work.  I turned those into a staple of my life.  Try and get to work without driving, even in the snow.  I don't do it every day, but yesterday was the first time I drove in quite a while.  I don't remember the last time.  Helps we haven't had much snow yet.  Helps our car was in the shop too. 

My brother Jim died of a massive coronary, just as he started to fight his way out of his preconceived notions of his life.  If there was ever a person who wanted the stress free life, and pretend his was stress free, it was him.  That kind of dishonesty with oneself leads to all kinds of bad things.  He was a manipulator, blamer, eater, lazy dude, who felt everyone owed him some kind of life.  This was a huge shock to me, but I blogged earlier about what it meant.  What his life meant, and what his final journey entailed.  My Uncle told us at the visitation thingy on one of his last days he was listening to a Cubs game, and you know that was a good day for him.  No matter our circumstances I would hope we all have good days.  I would hope they outnumber the bad ones, because life should be on the whole more fun and funny, than the other side.  Only way to that I think is to be real, and honest, and stuff.  Deal with life as it hits, because to be less than honest with ourselves is... well nothing good comes from anything dishonest.  Nothing bad comes from the truth.  There are lessons all over about that stuff. 

As Fall approached I found a bit of health, and now I can start training.  You know Saturday long runs are really long runs.  Get back in the swing of things. 

Any goals this year??  No not really, just keep plugging along, and hope to do good with my running.  That stuff takes care of itself though with keeping at it.  Sometimes I wonder why I do marathons, I mean wouldn't it be easier to train for 5 and 10's???  Who knows, it is what I do though. 

I keep doing my blog thing, and step in and help support when people need it.  Life is fricken hard, and our own vision of how we think life should be kind of poisons us, because we always feel cheated.  Too bad history always tells us of these great people who seemingly lived great lives, and doesn't tell us about the other 99.99% of the people who toiled anonymously, but still had family and still had friends, and still had lives that mattered. 

On that note I'd say we all matter.  Our lives to us are big, but in relation to the world and universe, and the other people who walked the earth, it would be very easy for us to live a life of anonymity. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Holy shit did I sleep yesterday.  I was fricken tired. 

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Thursday, December 29, 2011

No Matter What...

I think no matter what we do in life there are struggles.  There is no golden brick road to "the good life"  There is no such thing as "the good life"  Girls get older, and they don't always feel good about it, because there is always another hot 14  ughhh.   18 year old to take their place.  :)  All your life there is nothing but challenges with school, surviving puberty, decisions of what to do after H.S.  None of which are easy, and somehow we are supposed to have everything figured out by the time we are 18.  I guess we think society will lead us in the way we need to go.  Do this, and this, and this, graduate college, and boom, enter the good life.  Well, it don't really work that way does it??  No matter which avenue, or which direction we go we have challenges.  Not every day will go as well as you would like, and your life may not go as well as you like.  Then you add in your own insecurities, and imperfections, and that is a lot to worry about in one day.  Some people don't think about these things, and sweep it under a rug, but this is real life.  There are a billion things to think about in a day, and a billion things to ponder. 

So I think it is a good idea to accept life as a challenge.  Face it head on.  You will not win at life.  It will try to beat you seemingly in every direction, so stay strong.   Ride the waves up and down, and realize we all are headed in a good direction. 

Well, I really don't have much today so I will tell you a story.  It is a story of when I used to work in the hospital.  I was going home for a wedding, and this mind you was a time of much thinking, and feeling pretty low.  I already made the turn at this point, but was waiting.  I went home to a wedding, where I would see a bunch of my H.S. friends.  I was a college graduate who just went through some things, which have been documented, and I was cleaning floors and bathrooms at a hospital.  Now my eyes saw things, and they saw Khien the guy who escaped the North Vietnamese jail.  There was no one more meticulous in stripping and scrubbing floors.  No one who took greater care in doing a great job in his seemingly menial tasks day in day out.  He was my supervisor at the time.  My eyes saw, and I came up with a certain logic.  Mind you, I have no  idea what I want to do with my life.  Life steered me in a direction where I wanted to matter, but didn't know how.  I am just this dude sitting on an island in my own mind by myself.  I thought, well you know I could do this stuff.  If I did my job to the best of my ability, no matter how dumb it seemed, then maybe I would be recognized, and then maybe even I would be asked to do it for the President one day.  Not high goals in a manner of speaking, but striving to be the best at whatever it is I do.  Now mind you in my heart was a desire to work at this stuff.  Everything I did at work I did to the best of my ability.  No job was too dumb, and no effort wasted, because everything was important.  My heart was all in. 

Now that has to be reconciled during my year after the hospital when I had that physical depression.  My heart wanted to be in like it was before.  The energy, and the desire, but it was a lost year.  As I was buffing a floor up somewhere in the hospital the lost year ended.  I knew right when it happened.  I was like WOAH!!!  I am back.  I was like a child at recess.  I had the blessing, and nothing I could do is wrong.  No matter what I do it will lead in a good direction. 

During some of my hard days I endured during Heimleblog and Journey I forgot this, but was reminded I think early on in the wait. 

Even last night when I was watching a movie, and I was a bit nervous, I even had other reminders, which make me remember. 

Does this mean anything to you??  I don't know, but it is my story.  It is me, how I came to be here, and how I came to do this. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  ran to work, and Lisa and I saw a movie, and had dinner.  A pretty good day. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D  

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

Guess I Better Get In The Swing Of Things.

Well, as we approach January, I guess I am approaching that 16 week period of where I should actually be in training.  I have to look up some type of plan, and go from that.  I already know my plan will consist of Tuesday's 6-miler.  Wednesday's speed work, and Saturday long runs.  For no reason whatsoever my Winter runs I try to add shorter distances more frequently, where in the Summer I always tried to add a Monday run of 10-13 miles.  Ummm, I haven't run 13 miles in a while, let alone 10.  :) 

I don't really feel I have been putting my best foot forward this winter at all, but I was thinking I have done some stuff.  I built up at least a bit of a base, and 16 weeks is a long time to stay focused.  Let's face it, I have other interests. The best thing of running is it takes not that much time,  all things considered. 

I am a do as I please kind of person,  so some days I will watch movies, or read, or drink, and listen to music.  Whatever hits me that day.  I am directed by how my heart is, and I am so so so lucky.  Lucky to have some of the nutty stuff happen to me that did.  I can trust my heart.  Let it take me wherever it goes, because, I know I am headed in a good direction.  I guess I have peace of mind a lot.  Especially when I wake up, because at the end of the day I do not 2nd guess anything.  Even if I feel bad about something or another, I just see how it works out.  I have no need to manipulate anything, and I have freedom to do a lot of stuff.  In my heart is to try to help support people as they struggle through this thing called life.  Struggle when we feel not so confident.  Struggle when we look a the meaning of it all.  I think deep down we try to manipulate our relationships.  Take a view of ourselves, and judge others accordingly.  Truth of the matter is we all are imperfect in ways, and always not truly happy with how we are anyway.  We all struggle with more shit than what we are perfect with.  We all are riding the emotional waves of ups and downs through this thing called life, and trying to find our way.  I think maybe what I say is depressing, but my heart is upbeat, so I don't think it is.  A lot of the shit out there is pretty fucking stupid. 

Everyone has to find their way in the world, and the people who do the most damage, are those following people who have all the right answers.  Those right answers typically are our misery is the fault of these guys.  It is why wars are started and stuff.  How many people died due to the ideology of the Truman Doctrine.  I liked the guy, but that sure was poison.  The Marshall Plan of rebuilding, is probably better than the Divisive Truman Doctrine.  So I would say the more we realize we are in this together, the better off we'd all be.  The people who divide though have a loud voice, and they sound confident, and anger and hate is a great motivator. 

Oh well, today I will run to work, and after work Lisa and I are going to see "The Girl With The Dragon Tatoo"  Should be a good day. :)  Jerry and I ran 6 miles last night.  I didn't time it, and I felt sluggish.  Probably from watching movies all day.  :)

 Have a good one all.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I love bundling up and being warm in the Winter.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    ( good luck on your MRI)   :D

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

300???

Well, this happens to be blog #297 for the year.  Can I make it to 300?  Last year I did 289 + whatever I did in January and February in the Journey.  I think I was well over 300 in 2010.  I have been such a slacker this year.  :)

We are approaching the end of the year, and remember all the goals we had at the beginning of last year?  I didn't achieve my goals at all.  A pretty bad year as far as that is concerned, but I am ending on a high note.  I am upbeat.  Ready for a new year and new challenges.  I don't really feel that way I guess, I guess I am ready to continue doing what I am doing. 

I have stuff on my mind, but not really sure if I want to share.  I will say one thing my friend Hank said last night.  He heard something about to be happy all you need is like 3 close friends.  I know what it takes to be upbeat.  Feeling kinda shy to share stuff right now, but it has been hinted in the past. 

Let me tell you a little something about me.  My schedule is so rock and roll for me.  It keeps me in a good groove.  Wake up early, get to work somehow, hopefully by not driving.  Get home from work someway.  Workout someway if it is on tap, or just chill and hang til bed.  Days off from work, can kinda make be lazy.  :)  That is me.  That isn't you, or anyone else, just something about me. 

You know that though.  I will tell you one thing though, and I don't know if it is true or not, but are people trying to hold onto something from this world???  Like if I do this it will make me a better person??   I think the truth is hard, because it is not all pleasant.  Not all things are nice in this world, and as a matter of fact most of it is kinda shitty.  People have shitty jobs.  Spend too much time trying to make ends meet.  Can't understand the fricken tax code.  Murder is bad on an individual level, but on a National scale it is great.  The highest most bestest thing you can do??  Don't worry about our U.S. led Revolutions that brought people like Pinochet into power.  The lives that regime took don't matter, because U.S. Corp. were able to make a lot of money.  That protected our way of life, so if you bought a house 10-12 years ago, you are sitting pretty ugh,  I mean you're fucked. 

You have been blinded by the wisdom of man.  He hooked you into your society, and you never stepped out to make sure you weren't born and raised in a racist society.  Still gotta do it.  Find your own way.  Who wants to follow blindly the wisdom of man?  Especially since there is a whole world out there. 

Look and believe.  Trust your eyes. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  movies today, and running tonight.  I have the day off.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Sunday, December 25, 2011

On This Day...

Why not start thinking outside the box.  There is a whole big world and universe, and things so small as atoms are important, and can pack a whollop of energy.  You will not understand everything, so why not step outside your comfort zone, and say maybe everything I believe is wrong. 

Maybe there is a fork in the road here.  Maybe you can hold onto your same old dogma that society has taught you, and you can stay in that and be not the best you can be.  Maybe there is another way too.  A direction that is less traveled, because it takes COURAGE.  Step out of everything you have been taught, and see if there is something else.  A higher knowledge and a higher wisdom. 

A life's journey should be nothing but seeking out the truth about ourselves.  I guess I was going to say it ain't that hard, but it is,  you have to humble yourself, and realize you don't know it all.  I tell you one thing if there was one thing I could do to make myself the best person I would do that with all my might.  I did it one summer.  I walked, and walked, and walked, and walked.  I didn't drink anything, and I barely ate anything.  I think I got down to like 130 lbs.  It didn't mean shit. 

Do what you do, but be open to all that is being shown you.  Have the courage to take the path less traveled, which is one of humble ignorance, and trust it is a good way.  To seek out your truth remember a couple truths.  A butterfly does not come about without much suffering.  A rainbow does not come before a storm.  To see your own beauty you will have to endure your own pain.  You will have support though.  :) 

We got this!!!

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Dragon Tattoo,  maybe Mission Impossible, and Bulls today.  Oh, and we ran 6 miles yesterday with Jim and Jerry.  Jim's last name is Stark too.  I sure know a lot of Starks.  :) 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D  

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Fuck Sticks and Apple Corns.

For the record this here will be one of them title first and go from there type of entries.  Yesterday was a fun day outside of work.  I left early.  I finished at a good spot, and didn't really feel like starting any projuects.  Lisa wasn't ready to leave, and I didn't feel like biking home, so I went to New Holland, and had a couple of beers, and picked her up.  We drove home, and then she went shopping.  I had some Brandy, and fucked around a bit on line doing my normal silly shit, although I guess some stuff is important. 

Some people are out trying to show their fake ass fucking Fairy tale life, while others are down and out.  Wouldn't you know it those down and outers need support.  You fake fuckers make everyone's path harder, because You are not fucking perfect, and yet you try to pretend to be.  For that I say FUCK YOU!!

Be real you ass nips.  I am here to support, not pretend to be something I am not.  Grow Up FUCKERS!!!

Merry Fucking Christmas too!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Fuck YOu !!!   :)   j/k.   xoxo

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Friday, December 23, 2011

Yay For Friday.

Actually I am pretty tired.  It is Friday, and it is the weekend, and XMAS is this weekend, and I took Monday and Tuesday off, and have a 4 day weekend, which means a 3 day work week next week.  Now that is doing XMAS right. 

BTW we don't do much around here for XMAS.  Probably see a movie.  I think that is what we mostly do.  We just chill, and don't do much.  As to the fuss and stuff for a Holiday, I could give a crap.  It is a paid Holiday, so that is the best thing I can ask for.  I am not really Bah Humbug, but I don't give a shit about Holidays.  :)

As you can tell there is not much on my mind.  I loved my post yesterday though, it was one of my favs.  I didn't do much yesterday.  I biked to work and back, I ran a little 3 miler with Hope, that had to be slow, because I felt my legs were going slow.  Then I had some drinks and putzed around. 

I don't have much to blog about to be honest, so have a good Holiday all.  :) 


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  ran in shorts yesterday.  How cool is that?? 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Oh shit, definitely seeing the Girl with the Dragon Tatoo this weekend.  fo sho!!  :) 

Luv Ya's  :)   MWAH!!!    :)

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Our Past!!

Do you ever think about how you were in the past?  Have you changed at all in the last cuppla years??  Do you think it was for the better, or do you think you maybe were a better person a cuppla years ago. ?:)  BTW, I think cuppla is my new favorite word.  :)   HA HA

I think we do change.  We, in my opinion are not the same person day after day, and we are not the same person year after year, although we may be doing the same things. Jen Gray just had an update where her friend Maya called everyone a snowflake, which is so awesome, because I say the same thing.  I say we are all a unique flower in God's Garden.  :)  Our beauty he tries to show us, but we are afraid of our beauty, because we are afraid of our flaws.  God doesn't see flaws.  The sword is used to point out flaws, but there is a higher learning, and a higher understanding than the written word.  That is what he tries to teach, and he does it on a unique journey.  A unique journey only you traveled.  Of all the people who walked the earth none have stepped in your shoes.  None have stepped in Hitler's or Stalin's or Ghandi's or anyones.  The path is hard, because you stand on your own.  Fear is a great crutch, because it keeps you humble, and it keeps you on the right path.

I remember after I suffered through some unimaginable things, and I was as low as low can be.  Unhappy, doomed, and wishing My life never existed, I was picked up.  I was as full as can be and happy.  I waved my sword around, because my sword I thought was pretty good.  Little did I know... All was taken away, and outside the Bromenn garbage room, I was told I was the worst of the worst.  (Scribe, Pharisee, and Hypocrite)  My sword sucked in other words.  I was told to do something, and I decided to do it.  I was pissed though, and I asked why???   Anyone remember the answer??

So I was led on a journey.  The Journey led to a blessing, right before it led to the hospital.  The blessing may have been the same day I went into the hospital.  If it wasn't it was pretty close.  How excited was I??  Not at all.  I didn't care.  I was seeking something else.  Can you imagine that wait??  The early 90's til the start of the bloggers and heimbleblog.  I knew something was going to happen, but I didn't know when.  I knew almost right away though when it started happening.

Look how everything is happening too.  Look at all these great people I have met.  Bloggers, and other people.  Doreen, and her family,  Fremd people.  People from Steve R's thing.  people at work etc...

I know this is a weird blog, but I expect a ton of comments on this update.  :)   HA HA   j/k.  I expect zero.  :)

I am adding though.  Nikki and Kyle Vanden Heuvel,  Brandon Crabbs, Erik Mayer, and Kristen Martinez get added to xoxoxoxoxoxo.

Hank Haringsma gets added to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo


So does Donna, and Kim, and Kelly Stark get added to xoxoxoxoxo


Mike and Ami Harju too get added to xoxoxoxoxoxo

Sam Middendorf too.  of the ICBL league

Hal Goeking and his wife, and his whole family.  :)

All bloggers on my RHS too.  They get added to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo  too.


Melanie and Stephanie get added too.  :)

Because we all need support, and I like to do my small part. 


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I ran to work today, and came home and drank wine, and chilled, and Lisa napped.  I think that is my favorite day.  Get a work out in early, and work, and come home and relax, and have some cocktails and a meal.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


Extras for Mindee Elam, because she had a great pic. ,and she is pretty.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxo


Extras for Jen Harrison,  Julia, W, Mary Tanner, and Pumpkinsdiary girl.  :)   because I read their blogs.  They are xoxoxoxoxoxo  people, and they commented on Beth's blog, and I read Beth's blog, and I love seeing that shit.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga, because of trust.  I love her to pieces.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  I am adding her to xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  too, cuz she is the #1 person along with Doreen.  :)  

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Well, I decided to get something down for the title, just so maybe I could get something down on this blog.  Let me start off with the workouts and go from there I guess, cuz doubt I have much of anything.  Yesterday once again I did no push ups.  :)  LOL.  I biked to work and back, and ran 6 miles with Jerry.  Not much on the run, although we did see Amanda my kinda running partner from a couple summers ago walking her dog.  Haven't seen her in a while.  It snowed a bit, and I timed it, and it was 9:00 pace. 

Not much else going on that I know of.  You know what I really got nothing so maybe I'll make a list. 


  • We had Chicken noodle soup for dinner last night.  I love soup in the Winter.  
  • I had one of those days at work where I looked at my watch, and thought it was noon, but it was 1:30   SCORE!!!   :)
  • I think I am going to take Monday and Tuesday off next week.  
  • If I can finish this blog on time I think I will run to work.  :)
  • I am interested to see each day how things turn out.  Things be interesting...
  • I am thinking wine tonight.  :)
  • I really got nothing.  Oh well, til tomorrow probably.  :)  I'll have time to run to work too.  

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I fricken need a haircut BAD!!   Not that I give a shit how I look.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

The hardest thing in life is to be open and honest.  Why???  Cuz we all are fucked up in some way or another.  People a lot of times are enslaved to their appearances.  How you want others to view you, but really that don't mean shit.  How are you really??  Oh well, see you laterzzzz gaterzzzzzz.  

Luv Ya's MWAH!!!!    :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Tuesday... Gotta Be Better Than A Monday. :)

Well first off I did not run yesterday.  I got home, and I was tired, and I was feeling kinda Monday'ish anyway.  I could have run tired, and it wouldn't have been a big deal, but I sat on the couch, and thought, this is comfortable.  :)  I know we all run when we are tired, but I just decided not to.  It would have just been a little 3 miler, but Lisa and I just chilled.  I cooked dinner, and that was it.  I went to bed really early. 

How is my life going?  I think pretty good.  I am mostly in a pretty good mood I think, I like to joke around a lot, and I feel I mostly do whatever the heck I want.  I have this dumb old blog I do for whatever reason.  It must do some good, because I do it every day almost, and WOW, I have been doing it a while huh.  Heimleblog, Journey, and The Wait.  You want to get a glimpse of my year, or the last 2 years??  You'd have to read my whole blog.  LOL.  I wouldn't want to do that.  HOLY SHIT, it'd take forever.  HA HA HA. 

I really don't have much to blog about today.  Some days I guess just not much on my mind, and I think yesterday was kinda a heavy one anyway.  I guess it hit the nail on the head though huh??  I cannot remember, but I believe most of us in our mind have a feeling we are going to live forever, and we are not.  With that view you get a more realistic look of life.  I know I said it before, but look at Anne Frank's life.  She seemed about one of the best girls ever, and things outside her control made it seemingly a pretty bad life.  Can you imagine the pain of the Father??  He did survive.  What do you think he felt as he read the Diary??    Why does stuff like that happen??  Why does 9/11 happen??  It is a shitty world out there, and you cannot protect your loved ones 24-7.  Bad shit happens, and you gotta deal with it.  I think having a realistic look on life makes you stronger.  The Journey we are all on is just a journey of truth.  For those who believe the Bible it says the Truth will set you free, and those who don't believe the Bible you cannot ignore the simplistic beauty of truth,  although our mind is many times clouded to the truth.  That is why it is a journey.  Whether you believe there is one pulling strings to teach you or not, you are still being shown stuff.  You are being shown your life, and a lot of times it is sad.  Sad because remembering stuff always is done with a bit of sorrow to days gone by. 

Maybe we thought our life was better at a time past, but it wasn't.  Your best days are ahead, cause we are moving in a good direction.  What better blessing can one ask??  We are moving in the way we are intended.  We are moving together too.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I have been forgetting to do my push ups again.   SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!   :)

Love you all xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Monday, December 19, 2011

Happy Monday. Wish It Was February. ;)

I don't really have too much on my mind to be honest, but I think I will get some coffee, and see where this goes.  I was thinking of something a friend of mine Jeff said in jest.  Making a joke, he then said it was all about me.  Our life is all about us.  Like I said before we will all breathe our final breath at some point, so it ain't such a bad thing to be a little bit selfish about the things we do. 

Let me go back to the boxing night.  There was a blond girl who was well endowed in the bosom area.  She was the card girl who pranced around with the big sign saying which round was coming up.  I was getting a beer, and there was a girl who was a bit big, and she said, "damn I wish I was that fine I could walk around like that."  That made me think people want to be noticed.  We all want to stand apart a bit, and have people think we are all pretty good and decent people.  I think the best way about doing that is showing how imperfect we all are.  Why put up a front??  The appearance of how we want people to view us don't mean shit.  The appearance of how we really are means everything. 

Our lives are all poisoned by some fairy tale in our mind of how life we think is "supposed" to be.  Well your fairy tales are bull.  Accept that shit, and move on.  There is a higher truth to life, that is being taught to you.  The lessons ain't easy, but it leads you in the right direction. 

Life has hard shit in it, especially since it ends in a bad way no matter who we are.  Trust the little ones too, because they are actually better able to cope with shit then the older ones.  Our natural tendency is to bury shit.  The older we get the more shit we bury, and that adds unhealthy stuff to our souls, and makes us worse people.  In other words we all are human, and we all are imperfect, and in things pertaining to life and death everything is pretty dumb.  Who gives a shit about that North Korean dude.  He is dead, and I am alive.  Fuck him, at this stage I outrank him.  :)  LOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  In order to be strong you have to accept the truth which will make you feel very much not so strong.  Truth is a bitch, but it leads in a good direction.  (that is a p.s. p.s.  )  This is the other kind.  :)   xoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Run And Fight Night

Well yesterday was Saturday, and it was my long day, although I really haven't been running too long.  I haven't used an alarm in forever, although my watch does beep like 5 times at 2:00 am, every day.  Last night I went to bed at midnight I think, so not sure if I even heard that little bugger.  :)  Why the heck I am up before 6:00 I don't know.  Nothing major on the run.  I took Hope for a 3 plus miler, and then met Jerry and Ken for a 6 plus miler.  Legs felt good, and I am feeling stronger on the hills.  I know when I feel strong on the hills when I want to up my effort going up them.  That just means I am getting in shape.  BTW if I run 3 miles, which I will run at least that much, that will give me over 25 for the week, which is pretty much what I am shooting for before real training starts.  So feeling pretty good about that stuff, plus I still ride my bike to work and back on the days I am not running.  For me I need to stay injury free. 

Then Johnny had his fight last night.  It wasn't really like the Rosemont Horizon, it is definitely a smaller  venue.  I was thinking it was a different place, but it was still fun, and plenty of energy.  Johnny knocked the dude out in the 4th round.  This dude ain't no slouch either.  He put his time in the gym.  He didn't have a 6 pack ab, he had like a 24 pack ab.  Johnny was way too quick, and his punches hurt, and he hits the body, protects himself, and when a combination is thrown by Johnny, it looks like that shit hurts.  :)

Boxing is putting time in the gym, but also being good at your craft.  There is definitely skill involved.  You have to be smart, and quick, and in good shape.  I think it helps Johnny he travels a lot to Chicago, and Detroit to spar with some good boxers.  He'll go 3 rounds with some dude,  3 rounds with a fresh dude, and 3 rounds with another fresh dude.  Something like that. 

Looks like he can eat McDonalds breakfast for a while.  :)  I had 2 Big Macs when I got home.  :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Do you sometimes wonder what each day may bring??  I sometimes do, like right now.  Life is pretty fun sometimes when you get past all the boring stuff huh??   LOL 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Betcha Expecting Something Major.

Nope, this is just my dumb old blog.  I can go in any direction, but I am going to go in the direction of coffee, so brb.  :)

I really don't have much to say.  I have a lot to say, but I don't want to go there.  I don't want to bring a bunch of heavy stuff to the table.  Let me give you a tale of two stories.  One is my Brother-in-Law Brian.  Although he lives in paradise his life this year has not been all that great.  Him and his partner broke up.  It was one of those where his partner was not happy, and he left.  It is hard for Brian, because hard not to take that personally.  I know Mike Brian's ex-partner, and it probably wasn't Brian at all.  Michael just wasn't happy in general.  You live a life, you do all the tough stuff.  He is gay, so came out of the closet to his parents, and you live a life where you are bound by nothing.  He moves from Missouri to Seattle, to Maui, to Oahu.  Meets the funniest mother fucker in the world Brian, who is  a good looking male with a great personality, and a strong person.  You have a great house overlooking Diamond head, great neighbors, and great friends.  You see happiness is a feeling on the inside.  It isn't what we acquire, or where we live, or what we do, it is how we feel.  You ain't going to feel it 100%.  When your fairy tales come crashing down, there is an empty sadness that remains.  We all need good friends, and we all need support, because there is no heaven on Earth so to speak.  You will not find perfection in your friends, partners, your life, or yourselves.  Life is full of hard shit, and that is why we need support. 

So there is that, and Brian's friend Greg.  BTW Greg, and I, and Lisa, and Lisa's mom were a support for Brian when he came out of the closet.  We were like I don't give a shit.  I was a bit shocked, but I wondered at times.  I could give a fuck what anyones sexual preferences are.  Just be glad you are not a Dahmer or some weird fuck like that.  Anyway Greg and his wife got their divorce finalized a day or two ago.  That was a necessity.  Staying married for the wrong reasons is never right.  It will just lead to unhappiness, and anger, and all kinds of crap.  Whatever brought them together in the first place was long gone.  They are two different people.  Greg is a colorful person with a great sense of humor, and a free spirit.  His wife is a complete keep up with the Jones'es person.  Not a good match.  So Brian is probably down on his split up, Greg has to be relieved.  This will be better for the kids too. 

At the end of the day you gotta be friends, and that is why Lisa and I work so well.  We enjoy each other's company, and we let each other do whatever the fuck we want.  :)

This blog ain't no great thing, it is just life. 

I am adding Greg and Brian to xoxoxoxoxoxo, because their life has just had a big change, and even those two guys need support.  Surfing ain't a cure to all life's ills, but it don't hurt.  :)  Same with alcohol.  It ain't a cure for anything, but it is fun, as long it is not used as an escape. 

I am adding John Miller and his whole family to xoxoxoxoxo.  Laura Miller and Jim were good friends here and there in their life.  John Miller's mom read some poem at the visitation thingy, and John is like the King of Fremd support, and get togethers.  Sadly I seem to only make the sad ones.  :) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Blackhawks are on a roll. 

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Christine McCarthy, she is a great girl.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Friday, December 16, 2011

Happy Friday Everyone.

Don't know much about history
Don't know much biology
Don't know much about a science book
Don't know much about the French I took

But I do know that I love
you
And I know that if you love me too
What a wonderful world this would be

Don't ask me why, but just now those lyrics popped into my head.  I do have some news.  I am adding Christine McCarthy to xoxoxoxoxo.  She went to my High School, and  was my brother John's age.  I met her again the night before my brother Jim's visitation thingy.  Now that was a great night seeing a bunch of old High School/ new FB friends.  A couple notes about her.  Her Dad died of cancer a few years ago, and from what I remember she has a couple kids I think.  I think she is a single parent, and what struck me that night was her talking how much she loved her kids.  I am pretty sure she is a private person, but in the right atmosphere you can tell she wears her heart on her sleeve.  Lisa remarked how beautiful she was too.  Lisa is cool like that.  She sees someone pretty she says it, and she don't care if I say it either.  :)   Everyone needs support, and I would like to do the little I can.  :)

Not much else happened yesterday.  I ran to work, between the rain.  It was fricken 50-something degrees.  I was dressed for December 15 not 50-something degrees.  :)  Ha Ha.  That was about it.  I actually did some laundry, and dishes, and stuff, and chilled the rest of the night.  Only thing I regret is I forgot to do my push ups.  I'll do them this morning, since I have like 2 hours before I have to be at work.  On another note, I am going to run to work again today, because for some reason my legs are feeling good, although that will be 6 out of 7 days.  Gotta love it.  :)
That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Johnny Garcia has another fight this weekend.  It is in Grand Rapids at the Van Andel.  He is the main event.  The Van Andel is kinda like the Rosemont Horizon (or whatever bailed out Insurance Company the new name is now)  He is pretty excited and pumped.  

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 
 

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Well Good Morning All. :)

Yesterday was not an exceptionally great day for me.  It was one of those I ran the night before.  I didn't sleep all that great, and here is a weird thing.  I woke up when I did, and I was up.  I was not going to be able to go back to bed.  That is the strange secret to me.  The waking up early.  I hit no snooze, although sometimes I just stay in bed.  I have a feeling this little blog I do is helpful to people, although I feel not many read it. 

It seems I have been on a crusade of sorts to get people out an about to comment on blogs.  I think I lost that battle.  :)  Maybe it is just a natural tendency that if people are down, and feeling alone, and not happy, and bad stuff happen, and they spill their guts, readers step in.  They don't stand on the sideline.  I guess what I said before is true.  The race of life is not won without support, and like I said yesterday, you will not escape the spirit shaking things that are normal to every life.  It is then when we must step in. 

The easiest way from point A to point B is a straight line- the truth.  Here is mine.  I want to help support people, because everything in life is not easy.  You'll have to excuse me if I am a bit nutty, cuz I am.  I am just like any of you.  I want to have fun.  Life has enough serious shit, because we all have stress, we all are headed to  a final breath at some point, and we all fuck shit up. 

Oh well, I am just getting a little something something down for the heck of it.  :)

Have a good one all.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)  [ I am hearing rumors again.]  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Richard Hamilton on the Bulls.  Suck it Detroit fans.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Strange Days Indeed.

I am someone who at times struggled with this dumb old blog.  I do it though, almost every day, and you wonder why?? Me too!!  I don't know why I wake up most days, and feel like doing this.  It seems kind of crazy huh??  I also wonder why I like to comment on a lot of blogs.  That seems dumb especially if they don't get published.  Who doesn't like comments??  Is this too racy??   I guess this blog gets weird at times.

Am I mean??  Am I jerk??  I don't get it.  You ask me to stay away I do.  A lot of people don't trust me for some reason, although I don't remember lying to anyone.  I try not to be sneaky about stuff or stealth about stuff.  I am just here living a life, and having a couple laughs along the way.  Unfortunately since it is life, there will be some tears.  Life really is made up of two parts.  The wacky, zany, crazy stuff, and also the real stuff that can shatter our spirit.  The real stuff is hard.  It isn't easy, and I'd love to help support people with that stuff when it happens, because that shit is the hardest.  You also will not escape that shit either.

Be courageous about life.  Be thankful much of life can be done in a spirit of a good sense of humor.  Be real about life though.  We'll all have down days, and we'll all feel the internal rainy days. 

I try and be as real as I can on this thing.  I have documented much about my life too, and you see the daily ups and downs for those willing to look.  I guess looking at life with a real pair of glasses can be a downer, because there are some real downer things out there huh??  Guys and girls are different.  If you girls realized the stupid shit we talked about you'd think we were crazy.  Us guys probably don't want to know the stupid shit girls talk about either.  :) 

Oh well, have a good one all.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Did our 6 miler last night which may be a 5.8 miler if those satellite watch thingies are accurate. 

Love You All!!!   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Have a good one all.  :)   Luv ya's!!!   :)

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Good Morning From Michigan!!! :)

When I do a title of good morning, I have to think of creative things to add so it isn't a title I used before.  So good morning all.  I almost wasn't going to get up, but I decided to, because I saw some people updated their blogs.  I am going to get some coffee first.  Hold on. 


I am going to tell you a story of a friend of mine.  I moved to Michigan, and most of you know the story.  The only reason was I was sick of people moving away from me.  (College Town)  I was tired of being sad over that, and darnit, I was going to make people sad.  So I put in for a promotion, and became a Plumbing manager.  I did the Manager thing for like 10 years, and it was great at first.  I could work hard, and be creative, and make some money, and I felt I did a good job.  As time went on the work became harder, as the company started pinching payroll pennies, so we ended up having to do more work with less people, and our bonuses were even smaller even though our Departments were so much more profitable.  Business Majors screw up the economy more than help.  :)  Anything taken to an extreme let's say is probably bad, and if you focus on labor expense cutting (the whole world) you take a chink out of the most vibrant part of the Economy.  Consumer Spending.  2/3 of the U.S. Economy is us little pee-ons spending our money.  If we don't have it the Economy shrinks. 

Anyhoo, I visited my BIL in Hawaii.  I was 217 lbs.  A fatty.  I was in shape before, and worked out before, but the Back issues were with me for a couple years, and after the surgery I didn't get back into it.  While in Hawaii, it appeard it was time for me to get in shape.  People all looked healthy, and I was like What am I doing??  I got back home and stepped down from my Manager position, and we who were not getting ahead were getting less ahead, BUT I was enjoying life again.  I started getting in shape with an exercise bike, and eventually was going to try to run a few miles.  I went one mile, and it was the hardest thing I ever did.  I knew people ran marathons, and stuff, so I wanted to try to do that.  I eventually crawled up to two milers, and eventually was able to find out how to run slow, so you can go far.  (Slow is all relative, but run easy-talking pace) 

Anyway the story of the friend of mine.  He took on a 2nd job and worked for me.  A super nice guy.  Always came in was very polite, and did his work.  He knew a lot of stuff too, so he could help people with any of their home improvement needs.  BTW, I can probably do a lot of stuff too, but I hate doing it.  :)   LOL 

He eventually stopped working, but would come in several times each year, and I would talk to him.  He was a lot like me in he would start projects, but not always finish them when he started.  Lost the mojo so to speak.  Anyway after all these years I'd still see him here and there, and I found out yesterday one of his sons took his life.  Pain medications.  A month before or so his son's girlfriend died in a car accident.  He was shaken, and he is going to have some tough times, because when those memories come back they will be painful.  He was dealing it as you would expect too.  I did the dishes today, and that is about it for today. 

That shit is hard, and I feel really bad for him, because I have not met many nicer people than him.  His name is Dennis, and I used to call him Big D from Dallas for some reason whenever he came in.  Hey I used to work with another guy who I called Rob Roy, because I could never remember his real name Doug.  That kinda stuck too, because the store manager was known to ask him questions, did you have anything to add Rob Roy??   LOL   HA HA HA  

We may have the best laid plans, but life will still happen.  When it does, we all need support. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  A friend of mine Leigh who is one of the bloggers who doesn't blog had a baby yesterday.  She has been through a couple spirit shattering miscarriages, but now has another baby to go with Liliana.  I know some of you can relate to that.  :)  I am sure they are thrilled. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I'd offer extras for Dennis and his whole family.  Doubt they read this, but I am thinking of them, just so you know.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all.  :)   Luv Ya's.   :)   xoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Monday, December 12, 2011

Hello!! How ya folks doing??

Just a rhetorical question.  :)  One that doesn't need to be answered.  :)  I slept like crap last night.  Sleeping in + not drinking = hard to sleep.  I feel o.k. though, so shouldn't be a biggie.  I had a crappy run yesterday, but it was a run.  I took Hope out.  I wanted to do 4 or 6, but ended up doing 3.  I am pretty sure the crappiness of it was 9 miler on Saturday + drinking = not the best way to do it.  I really should just stick to maybe some Coors Light's if I am doubling up on the weekend.  Not that I will, but I SHOULD. 

I really don't have much else today.  I did do my push ups, and pull ups.  Push ups are getting easier, Pull ups not so much.  That is kinda strange, because the last time I restarted, the pull ups were easy, and the push ups were hard.  Go figure.  If I could figure why that is I could be a good coach.   ;)    LOL. 

Today is a run to work day, and a bike home, unless I have to pick up the car at the shop, then I may have to drive one of the vehicles home.  We'll see. 

Here is something I will say to you.  In blog land I will always treat whoever I read with respect, and courtesy.  I joke around a lot, so I might do that too.  If things are rough I will be there.  I love it when people can be happy, but realize none of us are 100% of the time.  I am kinda a nut, because why not?  but when the chips are down I will try and be there for you. 

I try and have fun in life, because that is what it is all about.  So much of civilization is based on a ton of shit that isn't fun.  So many fricken hoops you have to jump through just to try and get by in this world, and most of us would just like to feel pretty good about ourselves, and smile a lot and laugh a lot. 

I am not perfect, and I don't profess to be.  I don't even want to be, because why strive for the impossible??  I do like challenges though, and that is why I like to try and get to work without driving a car as much as possible.  I have learned over the last year that I can do a lot more in the winter than I thought.  Just a challenge for me I like to take.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Bears suck, I am officially a Giants fan now.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for me.   Nah Nah!!!!    :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Have a good one all.   Luv Ya's.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Sunday, December 11, 2011

WOAH!!! Did I Sleep In!!!

I guess I'll get something down, because I am as free as a bird.  I wake up early a lot to do this, but today I am waking up late to do this.  Why you ask??  Because this is what I do.  My bucket list in my life is pretty non-existent.  I kinda wanna be a better runner, but my bucket list of all I want to do I gave away when I made the turn.  Look how much fun I have.  Look how confident I am, and look at me.  This is not the shy little 6 year old who wanted to walk 80000 miles instead of showing up late to first grade is it??  This is not the long haired soccer dude who was pretty good, but more than anything wanted to be a meek person, because I thought they were better.  I wanted to be a good boyfriend, but wasn't perfect.  I wanted to be a good person, but wasn't perfect.  I wanted to be a good son, but wasn't perfect.  I wanted I wanted, I wanted, and it got me nowhere.  I hit a rock bottom of sorts, and eventually through some tough times I realized I WANT TO BE BETTER, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW!!  I want my life to matter, but what is a person to do??? 

You know what you do when you make the turn.  In a way you act in faith, because you cannot see anything.  You say I give up my eyesight in hopes you can make a better story for me.  Trust me, he can make a better story.  Look too, I work, I run, I would have done tri's if I could swim.  I was asked to do some things I would not have done on my own, and I had some low spots.  Spots where I would have wished to never be alive.  OR BORN for that matter, but my strength is not my own.  With all I have help. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  a slow 9 miler in the books yesterday.  (ur a strong person.  betcha don't always think it.)  xoxo

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Julia, because she is going through a lot with her hubby, yet she takes time out to support other people.  I told you before there ain't many better than her.  So extras to her and her hubby.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Coffee Is Done, Let's Get This Show Goinnnnnnnn!!! :)

Lemme get some of the so called coffee.  :)  My blog is a mish mash of all kindsa things.  I cannot paint myself into a corner.  I am not the same person every day.  Somedays I am shy, somedays I am outgoing, and happy.  Somedays I am reflective, and somedays I am silly.  Somedays I am super motivated, and some days I just wanna sleep.  Some days I wanna say I Luv Doreen out in the open, and some days I just think it.  :)   LOL.  Some Days I even get called out on a blog.  LOL 

Do you wonder why I give a lot of love to the bloggers I read??  Cuz what they do isn't easy.  They are honest.  They are not painted in a corner.  Sometimes they are mad, and sometimes they are sad, sometimes they are motivated, and sometimes they aren't.  Sometimes they are funny, and sometimes ... well they are people.  They are not the same day in day out, and they don't hide their lives.  They are living their lives, and showing their lives.  So many people just want to show their good side, but we are made up of other stuff.  Life many times is hard, because in our mind we have a view of what a good and decent person is.  We try to be like them, but we fail probably every day to live up to our own ideals. 

Everyone's life is a personal journey of sorts.  We try and find our way through this thing called life, and not everything is easy.  I think I have hinted at this before, but the best you can ask for in life is a lot of zany Joseph Heller days, but you will still have to endure the Howard Zinn days.  Life is fricken absurd so laugh out loud.  When the rains come, look though, and those are the days you have to endure.  That is the hard part of life the rainy days.  As I said before though they are necessary, because a flower isn't pretty unless it gets it's rain.  :)   xoxoxoxo

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen, cuz she might get embarrassed  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jeff Stark, and Kiet, cuz I like guys who like xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo's   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  for Olga too.  MWAH!!!!   :)

Extras for Christi too, cuz she like 'em too,  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 

Friday, December 9, 2011

I Am Sore!!!!

Well first off I did my pull ups.  I started off with 3 sets of 3.  Eventually I will get up to 4 sets of 6.  I am sore from the push ups.  The price of stopping doing them.  Eventually you get to where you can do them every day.  Hold on I am going to get some coffee.  I will brb. 

Yesterday it was just Lisa and I so we decided to go to the grocery store, and see if there was anything to make for dinner.  We picked up some sun-dried tomato and goat cheese raviolis.  MMMMMMMM that was good.  I decided I wanted some wine too, so I drank some.  I wasn't sure of my run, because I fell asleep waiting for Lisa to get off work, and meet me in the truck.  As luck would have it right when I got home, I realized I do have energy, and I do want to run.  It was sunny, and I even decided to wear shorts.  It was cold, but my legs don't get cold too often, so it worked out pretty nice.  I just went on the 3 miler with Hope.  Another one of those non-timed runs.  I didn't care.  Just getting out, and getting some miles.  I did stop after a couple miles to walk Hope, so he could smell and go potty if she needed.  Then I just chilled, and drank some wine, and Lisa read.  I ended up drinking about half as much as I normally do on a Thursday = Friday.  That was good. 

Other than that not much going on.  Friday is an off day, so I won't do much.  I'll take my bike to work, and back, and do some push ups.  Maybe I'll take Hope for a little run.  We'll see. 

Not really much on my mind.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I love coffee.  (yup, pretty much got nothin)   :D

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Thursday, December 8, 2011

I Followed 3 Blind Mice, Now Look Where I Am At!!! :)

Well, I have to get some coffee, and I am out of milk.  I like milk in my coffee.  You can imagine my horror when I looked in the fridge this morning.  Hold on brb.  :)

This is totally going to be a stupid update I know, but what the heck.  I was going to tell you I got some coffee yesterday at the gas station, even though I already had two cups at home.  I accidentally put some flavored creamer in it.  Vanilla something or other.  That shit was good.  WOAH!!!   I can see how people can get addicted to that stuff.  I figured that would be boring, so I am not going to tell you that. 

Lessee, I guess will go with the day, and go from there.  Work went good.  I felt not tired yesterday at all, so that really helps.  I was in a good mood too.  I rode my bike home, because I left it at work the day before, and drove home with Lisa.  Our run got cancelled so I decided to take Hope for a little run.  A couple notes on my run.  I mostly have been doing a 3.13 mile route, and usually after a couple miles I would just stop, and let Hope Smell and Pee  catch my breath, and stuff.  The last two times my route ended up being the 4.25 mile route, and there were no stops.  That tells me I am getting in shape.  I love stops when running.  :)   I didn't time the run, because I didn't want to.  As I was leaving the driveway the thought entered my mind, but I really didn't care about time.  I just wanted to get a run in.  That was all.  It was a good one too like I hinted at, although the wind was surprisingly cold.  I didn't expect that. 

I also did some push ups.  Starting off slow, because I was not sure how sore I would get, so I don't want to overdo it.  I ended up 3 sets of 10, and the final two sets were really easy.  You know the goal is to get up to 4 sets of 25.  Arms fully extended on the up, and touch the top of my chest on the way down.  Those are harder.  :)  I still have to do pull ups, but I'll do them this morning.  I have to go downstairs to do them.  :)

I then had a couple drinks, and listened to music.  Today will not be a Thursday = Friday though, as the last two days = that.  Not sure what I'll do today.  I may get a little run in again.  Just the 3 miler I think, nothing too major, and then we will see. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  xoxoxoxo   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Feeling kinda shy about giving extras on top of extras.  Sometimes I think it is silly, but if I wasn't shy I'd give some to Doreen, cuz she gets my sense of humor, and I'd give some to Olga just cuz.  I wuv dem bofe.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Sad Music Changed My Day!!

First off I did get a new blog follower.  I don't always give them folks credit, but I love blog followers, so thanks to you all.  Special thanks to Kiet who is the new person who followed my blog.  I followed his back too. 

Anyway yesterday I was tired all day.  I napped during both my breaks.  Not really a big deal, but just something I noticed.  I did ride my bike to work yesterday, but that ended up being it.  A strange thing happened to me yesterday toward the end of my shift.  The music became sad.  That is nothing new, but I don't remember it happening in a while.  Maybe it was to the extent it made me feel the way I did.  I thought about my post yesterday, and I hope it wasn't too bad ass.  I am a runner, and that is what I do.  Not everyone can be a runner, and not everyone can do what I do, and I hate hate hate when I feel maybe I am calling people out for being lazy.  I am not doing that.  This is just something I am interested in.  I always feel a person should be active.  Being outdoors in most cases is better than being inside, although us in the Midwest spend a great deal more time inside this time of year.  I think if you were given two options.  One to sacrifice a lot to train a lot to do races and what not, or to have compassion for those less fortunate, the compassion side is the way more better thing to have, and to be.  That is not man made either.  So if you train, and do all kinds of hard stuff to be a good racer, you haven't done anything nearly as good as taking a minute out of your day to help support a person who is down on themselves or whatever. 

I also think it is not such a bad thing to be down on yourselves a bit either, because none of us are perfect, and none of us have all the answers.  If being down on yourself a bit keeps you from being angry and judgmental toward another then maybe that ain't such a bad thing. 

Anyway that is what I thought of when the music turned sad.  I hoped I wasn't all bad ass on my last post, and people took it the wrong way.  That being said there are choices in life.  If you are healthy and stuff and are able to be active you should be.  If there is a choice to be active or lazy, it don't take a rocket scientist to figure out the better way.  Not to mention people who aren't lazy tend to be respected more than the others.  You only have one life, and much of the shit we do is stupid, but no need to be lazy.  I mean even active people spend a good amount of time doing nothing and chilling.  There is always time for that.  :)

Anyway the sad music changed my day too.  Since real training hasn't started the Tuesday night run can be flexible, since we aren't doing speed work on Wednesday.  So I called Jerry, and we are running tonight.  I went home, had a couple drinks, chilled and was lazy.  :)   LOL 

Have a good one all.   Luv Ya's!!!   :))

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  All blog followers get added to xoxoxoxoxo.  So you all get mentioned every day, even if you don't get mentioned.  :)  and even if I don't read your blog.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Much Ado About Nothing...

Not really a lot on my mind this morning, so we'll just start with the workout and go from there.  Workout wasn't anything major.  I biked to work, got chased by two poodles who scared the crap out of me.  So much so I had to get my bike up to 80 mph to get the hell away from them.  ;)   Totally red-lined it.  Couple that with the adrenaline, and my bike to work was pretty hard LOL.  Legs were shot.  Those little yippy fuckers.  :)  Nobody really expects the little demons from hell to be barking at you at 4:30 am.  HA HA HA.   Little Fuckers.   :)

I ran home too, and my legs were tired.  I don't know the pace, around 9:20.  I then napped and read, the book I got from the library.  Mostly napped.  Today will be a rest day until our run too.  6 miles tonight, and a good 4 day stretch to get these old legs used to running some miles, with some of them of the tired variety. 

Let me talk of my year here, because I have a history.  I do not put a ton of pressure on my Illinois Marathon, because if it is a race that ends up being not so good, then it still is good training for the fall marathon.  Also it is good training for the Riverbank 25K.  That is my favorite race, and a race I P.R. a lot.  Sometimes even when just doing the route in training.  I'd love to get another P.R. in that.  Also to get that sub:22:00 5K.  So a lot on my mind this year.  I wonder if people look back at their past years if they feel they have been motivated more some years than others?  Do people feel they were mentally "on" some years more than others?  I would imagine so.  I don't think we are the same day in day out.  That is probably one of the things that drive us all crazy a bit.  We want to be consistent in how we feel internally.  I mean we can be consistent in training I guess, by doing things the same week in week out, but don't we all want to feel great inside too.  That is what we all would like I bet huh??  To always feel good about who we are, and what we are, etc... and always feel happy, and stuff.  Ehhh, just thinking out loud.  :)  

Anyway I did want to leave a link for any couch potatoes out there who would like to get their butt out and about, and lose some weight, and take on a challenge.  Jen Harrison has decided to team up with Beth Shutt again to get your lazy butt's off your ass.  They might not word it like that though.  :)  LOL

Check it out here.  Free coach, and Dietitian as you train for a Marathon.  Couch Potato to a pretty cool medal that you will deserve, and you will work for, and that they don't give away. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I was just thinking of how my year is shaping up to be a pretty good one, and you are going through an injury.  When things are going good for me, it sometimes makes it hard to think of others, but I know it sucks.  :(   xoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Monday, December 5, 2011

Eeeeeek Don't Have Much. :)

I really don't have much to write about today, I don't think, so I will start with the workout, and go from there.  If you remember yesterday I jumped up my normal 6 miler to a 9 miler, and on Sunday I jumped up my normal 3 miler to my 4.25 miler.  Just a little step up, but that is 13 miles in 2 days instead of 9.  Legs feel good too, so I plan on running home from work today.  I'd have to say little by little I am getting in pretty good shape. 

I do want to say I definitely want to start doing push ups and pull ups.  I let those go, as I always do, but I want to incorporate them in my thing.  It is dumb for me to stop I know, but whatever.  I did stop, so I will have to rebuild that too.  No biggie.  I haven't been timing all my runs, but I believe I have been usually in the 9-9:15 range for the ones I have timed.  I haven't really pushed any runs, but our Saturday run is a hilly run, so we definitely get the heart rate up a few times on Saturdays.

Nothing else really going on past that.  I watched the stupid Bears play yesterday, and I am so over that now.  I like my Chicago teams when they are good, but if they suck, I am not going to waste my time.  How many people watched the Blackhawks when they sucked??  I will say I am excited for the NBA season, just cuz the Bulls are good.  If they sucked I wouldn't care.  :)  I always like my Chicago teams besides the Cubs, but if they suck they suck.

Well, I really don't have much else.  :)  I am up though, so I do it.  Hope you all are doing good.  :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Yay it is Monday.  One of the 7 best days of the week.   ;)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Feeling shy for giving extras above the extras.  :)   xoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Getting Kinda Motivated.

I don't think I really have much, but I'll put a little something down.  I woke up early yesterday, and I won't lie.  I drank a lot Friday night, but I felt fine.  I did my blog thing, and relaxed a bit, and ended up taking Hope out for a 3+ mile run.  I then met up with Jerry, and we did our 6+ mile run.  I decided I wanted to start getting a little longer on my runs due to a marathon being early.  I have to look up the date, but it is sometime in April.  By the time January rolls around I want nothing shorter than 12-13 mile runs for my long runs.  Normally that isn't a big deal, but at my stage now it is, because of the injury riddled year I had this past year.  That being said I feel hungry.  I feel like I want to improve, and I also feel for me to improve I just can't go through the motions.  Remember I had that stretch where everything was a P.R. and improvements were fast and furious??  Now I want to do things more correctly.  I don't know if some people don't drink during training, but I do.  I just don't need to do it so often.   ;)  I want to do that for myself too.  I also want to eat better.  Not that I eat horribly, but yesterday Lisa went to McD's for lunch, and asked if I wanted anything, and I thought about it and said no.  In other words my training is something I think about besides just the running part. 

That I think is one of the positives of an off year.  When you have a year less than what you wanted due to injury and whatnot, perhaps it makes you hungrier. 

Life can be strange, and life can be unpredictable, so I like running and training to keep things on a good note for myself.  Life isn't always fair, and that is one of the unfair lessons in life huh??  People are sick, and people have illnesses, and sometimes we feel we live under a gray cloud, but ya just gotta hold on.  If one thing about life is true is that everything does change, and those gray clouds leave.  Remember I lived post-hospital for like a year under a gray cloud.  All I wanted to do was sleep.  Natlalie got me on the exercise bike, and I started reading more.  That helped take away some of the wanting to sleep  1000 hours/day.  Yeah me, if you can believe it.  Then the sun came out, and still I have some rainy days, but mostly I am in a pretty o.k. mood.  Easier to stay in a pretty o.k. mood if I stay in my comfort zone too, and there is no reason I have to do anything other than that.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Hope you have a fun day today.  :)  xoxo

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  and Jules  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Going to add Beau and Charity to xoxoxoxoxoxo, so they don't defriend me.   :)  

Shout out to Naomi too.  I don't know her well, really just friends of friends, but she is sick, with something or other.  Going in for  a big surgery, and maybe some cancer involved??   Not sure of the whole story, but she weighs fucking 88 pounds.  I don't think she ever feels good, and she has a young son.  Count your blessings you are not going through the shit she is.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Today Is A Run Day!! yay

Well, as I am starting to get myself in shape, and getting a base you may think I have some big marathon goal I am going after.  Nope, not really.  I don't have a time I really want to hit.  My first Marathon goal was sub:4 hours, and I did that twice.  I'd love to get back into 3:35 shape.  I was definitely that fast once.  Not for a 26.2, but I could pace a 1/2 at that pace.  That must have been the fastest I ever was.  That only comes about with miles, and miles, and miles, and a little more discipline.  ;)  Really it is about having a plan, and my plan will not start until January.  I feel I am in a good place health wise though, and I feel like my legs can handle running.  I think I could run for days and days in a row, so definitely getting my running legs back.  :) 

Oh, and I do have two new bloggers I picked up.  I don't know them much, but one is named Kiet.  I have seen him around commenting on some sites I read.  He seems like a nice guy, and a Libby B.  I don't know much of her, but I loved her last update.  Just making some changes, and thinking, and looking.  It was really a great update. 

Other than that not much going on.  Hope you all are doing good.  :) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen.   for no reason.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D