Friday, June 29, 2018

This Could Be Nothing.

Good morning.  How's it going?  I am fine. I don't have anything on my mind as usual, so we'll see about this thing.

One thing I did yesterday was make pulled pork in the slow cooker. That isn't anything out of the ordinary, but we made our sandwiches with cole slaw.  They always do it on the cooking shows,  and I can see why. It was purty darn good. That  might have been the highlight of my day, and I am not against dinner being the pinnacle of my day,  so I guess it was a good day. Work went fine, and I slept good last night. I always go to bed before ice cream, so I miss out most times.

I don't have any major plans this weekend. Saturday it's supposed to be like a million degrees. Glad I have a new air conditioner. I don't work at the bakery on Sunday night, and it is my last day at the grocery store so no two jobs in one day for me anymore. Sundays after this Sunday, can be a sleep in day,  and Mondays too for the most part.

So as you can see nothing too exciting going on with me. I guess in the end this really is what life is like.  I bet all along we feel maybe we are missing out on something. We aren't. The grass isn't greener anywhere. Life is mostly how you feel on the inside, and I feel pretty good,  and it wasn't me who made me this way. It is just part of my story,  I had no idea would happen. I definitely walked blindly,  and my heart yearned for things, security mostly I guess. I lived in fear a lot. Terror really,  but you cannot walk in those shoes. I guess things are just good. Also unspectacular too, because in the end life surely is that.  

Anyhoo, I guess that's good.

Today is a day, so I guess I better have one.

Til next time.

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Thursday, June 28, 2018

When You Realize You Got Nothing To Say.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I am drinking my coffee,  and I guess I'll give this a whirl. I don't have anything to say however.

I an getting ready for a bit of a heatwave,  so not sure how productive I'll be outside. I won't be painting that's for sure. Just water my garden probably. We've had a lot of rain this year though, and I've done very little watering.

Let's see, what else?  There really isn't much to a life is there?  Living with my Dad is kinda a trip. I think the older we get at some point the less we are able to figure stuff out. He's having a hard time figuring out how not to get lost in Holland. I think that has come on just recently.

He'll bring out things from the past that is of no significance to me in the least,  but it is his last remaining memories of something significant?  I already know there is nothing significant about our little time here. It matters not one bit.

It's probably where I and everyone else differs a bit. We are just living out our days. For me I guess I am mostly good,  cuz I don't want much. Another difference is in life I guess it would be wise to do what you want. My heart is content in whatever I do is fine with me. I don't have to seek out what I want. Whatever I do is fine with me. I wake up every day with no remorse. I don't miss anyone,  and I just am generally pretty good.

I don't have to prove anything to anyone. I guess for a long time I said I was strong, and that just continues to ring true.

Anyway, today I'll have a day. I expect it won't be much different than others.

Til next time. 

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.   :)

Tuesday, June 26, 2018

Doing A Day Off.

So before we can paint our house there were a couple things we needed to do. A couple things that were pretty much outside my comfort zone out of things I've done before, but surprisingly I got it done. Not too bad either. So we have a little scraping,  prime the board of t1-11 I replaced,  and spot  prime areas we scraped, and we can paint. We are going to rent a sprayer I think. An airless one. Get it done in one day. I am toying with buying one too, although we don't have a big use for it. We'll see.

My uncle's town house closed yesterday so we will get our final chunk of money.   I have a good chunk left,  and a house that is  paid off, so we'll invest in a safe investment. I won't get a big return on investment, but I won't lose anything. I lived through the dot com bust, and the 2007 stupid shit,  so I don't trust risk at all.

I do feel good getting a lot done yesterday. Dishes, laundry, grocery shopping, and getting the house ready to paint. A productive day, and I am ready to start today.

First I think I'll rest a half hour before I get ready for work. 

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Thursday, June 21, 2018

The Shroud That Got Lost In The Temple.

I have no idea what a shroud even is.

Anyway, how's it going?  I am fine. The same as usual I guess. The weekend approaches, so work can get busier, but I feel we are a bit ahead maybe. Nothing sneaking up on us anyway.

I got my truck yesterday. The Herculiner is great,  and the undercoating is worth all the money spent. We get a lot of snow in Michigan, so rust prevention is a good idea, especially if you plan on keeping your vehicles for 20 years.  I couldn't be happier about that.

I was tired after work yesterday. It was one of those 13+miles of walking, plus the biking and whatnot. I didn't do shit after work, and I was cool with it.

We had dinner, I crashed, and now I am up. There is nothing significant going on in my life, and nothing significant for me to tell you. I know at one time I compared this blog to a mirror. It makes me think like me, perhaps you see our existence here means nothing. It's not important in the least. We aren't at all.

It makes you think of wars and stuff. So many people die,  and they are all nameless. No point to it. You go on social media, and a lot of times people are posting hate posts toward some political bullshit or another. Hate is alive and well in this World thank you very much.

As a matter of fact I think we are much better at being angry about something than anything else. If this thing does resemble a mirror than you know none of us are perfect.

We were led to believe that doesn't matter,  but I learned it does. It also isn't in our power to be perfect,  so that is a dilemma.

Also you get no points for political arguments or trophies, or efforts pertaining to Worldly stuff, and points matter too. Those too are not in our power to get either.

What does that mean for you?  I have no idea. Where you stand I no longer know. I don't know where you stand in these things. I am of no help really. It is like your story now is up to you.

Your Instagram pictures will be of no consequence when everything is said and done. The wilderness has no use for cameras. Your perfect life you want to show = zero points.

Almost all avenues lead to a harder life probably.  Your heart probably yearns to do more and more I suspect. Why yes, I think I will add that to my list of things I want to do, or spend time on.

I guess I am content cuz I don't believe in fairy tales.  Happily ever after is false just like humans are capable of unconditional love. If this is a mirror I suspect people can see selfishness in themselves. That too is a thing we are good at.

Anyway, I think I'll finish my coffee, and start my day.  It got down in the 50s last night.  Good tweep~a~das.

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.    :)

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

We Turned The Air Conditioner Off.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. The heat broke so I turned the air off.   What you notice about central air is no matter what it doesn't run all the time like a window unit. Little things I know, but I am happy with the investment.

Lisa bought a new grill yesterday, so I assembled it, and we had burgers. Our other one was just about dead. Too much rust.

That was about the extent of my day besides work. Can't ask for much more I guess. I did officially put my two weeks in at the  grocery store. I'll be down to two jobs. Sunday will be a sleep in day,  and Monday will be too. I am excited about that. Not that I really sleep in much.

Life I guess is pretty easy. Work,  come home, and do stuff for a few hours, eat a meal,  and repeat the next day. I guess it helps knowing there are no great things one must do before we die. The highlight of life is the meal at the end of your day. If you are looking for something better, you'll be disappointed.

You ever see those commercials of people on a secluded tropical island?  Doesn't that look awful?  Skimping around in bathing suits pretty much doing nothing. No thanks. I can't think of something I want to do less. Cooking burgers on the grill, having a cocktail to end my day is all I really want. It's something worth looking forward to. I don't have to take any pictures to show people how great my life is, because it just is easy. I don't need others to validate what I know to be true.

So today will be a day. I'll pick up my truck after work, and all we know is at  some point there will be a dinner. At some point there will be sleep too.

That's it.

Guess I got time to run.

Laterzzz.    :)

xxoo.   :)

xoxo.   :)

Tuesday, June 19, 2018

Back To Work.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I think I slept pretty good. Yesterday was a day off, and 2nd Monday in a row I had to be somewhere at 8:00 AM, or meet someone at 8:00 AM. Not really a big deal, but I think on my day off I want to start it at my leisure.  One week we got the French Door in, and yesterday we brought my truck in to get the bed sprayed with Herculiner or whatever, and the bottom undercoated to prevent rust. So actually important things to get done, but still.

I went to the laundromat to get all our winter blankets, and whatnot cleaned. I also finished my book, and got the next in the series at the library.  I napped some too. In my mind are all the things I still have to do.

So anyway my life goes on. Not much to it. Just days that go on. I've been catching bits and pieces of the World Cup. It's about the only Soccer I watch.

I really don't have much on my mind it appears. Not really much going on in my life either.  Nothing really significant at all. So, I am glad to go back to work again. Days off can be tiring.  :)  all of a sudden though I feel recharged, and ready to get back to work. I have decided pretty much yesterday or this morning to put my two weeks in at the grocery store. That way Sunday all I'll have is the bakery. Only one job/day with Monday off. That makes Sunday a sleep in day too.  I got a $1/hr raise at my Saturday job, and I just got a raise at the bakery for the same, so I'll still make good money compared to my outflows. A little more time for me too.

So that is pretty exciting. In just one stroke I'll make my life a little better. I did like working at the grocery store. I always liked stocking shit, and making displays, but one day one job for me.

This is a ridiculous update, but I will publish for your reading pleasure.   :)

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Friday, June 15, 2018

The Dual At Castlerock

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday I had a pretty normal day. Got most of my exterior wall done. I have just a little bit left. Basically I tackled something I've never done before, and it is coming out pretty good. I walked in blind not knowing how to do it at all. For the record I don't really enjoy doing this shit at all. It was a total honey do list item. I do want to get the house painted though, so that will be nice. Zillow currently has my house appraised for twice the amount it was appraised for before the housing collapse. That is ridiculous, and I don't count on that one bit. I do own the house though so whatever I can sell it for is mine. I have no mind to sell it anytime soon.

Other than that not much. Just living out my days as usual. I had a meal last night, watered the garden and yadda yadda yadda.

I didn't think of anything too significant. I am happy I pay zero attention to the news. It makes me not really angry at anyone.  Who wants to take time to have what other people's views, shape you into anger?  Seems dumb right?  People who pay attention to the news are being moulded by suit wearers. Their heroes probably wear suits too. I have no time for those people.

I don't particularly like angry people in general I guess. So I do my day to day. Work, eat, sleep. No one really affects me. I am happy everyday to go home, and do my thing.  My thing isn't anything significant at all. I ain't changing the World, and it isn't in my job description anyway. These days my job description is who knows?  Whatever is being done is not by me. Like if this thing here serves any purpose it is news to me. I still do it though if I don't sleep in. I don't really have much to say though.

I know people rarely blog anymore,  and I guess because like me we have nothing to really say.  Our lives are pretty meaningless, and isn't that what a blog is about anyway?  To show everyone how meaningless our lives are?  

I wonder why I even started?  It just kinda happened I guess. I suspect it mostly was a type of running blog at first,  but it was about life too I guess. I "met" a lot of people online I, and lost touch with the vast majority.

My day to day goes on, and I am happy and content with it. If I lost touch with the vast majority I don't lose any sleep over it, and frankly don't even really care I guess. My thoughts don't change in the least I guess. I guess no one is so important they will affect my life. My story was a solo one, so I am good solo. I am never lonely, and I spose more often than not my house was open to help those less fortunate.

As time goes on I guess I let people be themselves. You'll never change anyone so live and let live I guess. That too takes anger away I spose.

So since this once was a type of running blog,  guess I'll take the Hopester. I spose if running was an important part of this blog it didn't endure really did it?  The blog did though. I don't run as much as I used to, and I currently have no races in mind, but my life goes on. Running didn't make me the way I am, and either does races. I wonder if that means something? 

I don't know. 

Gotta run though. 

Til next time. 

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Laterzzz.   :)

Thursday, June 14, 2018

There Really Isn't Much To Say.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I was thinking about this blog thing, but I sure don't have much to say.  Life keeps moving. Day after day of this thing. I work, do my little projects,  have a meal,  and start again.

It's fine by me. It is simple really. I don't really have much to stress about really, so simple is good.   I don't place too much importance on my day to day either. I just live out my days in a relatively easy fashion. Sometimes I look at old cars, and old people, and I wonder when they call it quits. We go on for years and years. I've been relatively healthy my whole life. I guess we all age, but I feel like I can do anything at 51 I could do at 41. At 41 you pretty much do everything. I wonder when I'll  feel like I lost a step. My Dad has lost a step at 83, but I don't know what he was doing from 50-80. He still thinks he can find the fountain of youth though.

Yesterday I saw the Fed raised rates, which is fine with me, cuz eventually banks have to pay interest when that happens. When you have cash, and no debt that is a good thing.  

On the other hand borrowing becomes more expensive, and that has its own problems for entities that need to borrow. On the other hand an Economy is just shit people made up,  and you know in the end it will be fucked up.

I saw a kid riding a battery operated car. That's progress?  Propaganda takes hold of everyone. Anyone whose ever taken a Stats class knows the idea of your vote matters is nowhere near the truth. Now if you got 10 people to vote who might not vote,  and had them do the same, then maybe you make a bit of a difference. Do you actually give a fuck? 

Who has the time, and desire for such nonsense?  

I just do my day to day. I have a meal, and the important people can do whatever the Hell it is they do. A bit strange I guess, cuz the important people aren't really that important. None of us are, but in our minds I guess we think different.

Life is filled with years, and we don't make a difference in the fabric of mankind.

It is best if you know the true nature of your life, but I guess at first it is kinda sad I guess. I don't really remember. This shit is too easy for me I guess, and I have no interest in the marks you think you are making in the World if you think such stuff.

From the outside our lives are pretty boring. Mine has to be I bet. I just am not bored, I have stuff to fill my time, and I am so cool with my lot. No biggie to me.

Gotta run.

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Wednesday, June 13, 2018

Seems Like It's Been Forever.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. We've been pretty busy, but I am doing good. We got our French door in on Monday. I did some calling around,  and the one we got goes for ~$1200. We got it for $100. I did spend some money getting it installed,  but it is in. It is a wood interior door, so it is heavy,  and sturdy. I had to cut the grass yesterday, and trim plus water the garden etc...  today we'll finish my last row of the exterior wall we added new cedar shakes to. You start a project,  and 20 more pop up in place.  Nothing seems to go as quick as you imagine. Lisa and I work full time, so we are busy anyway. I do like the French door though.

Other than that not much. We still have to get some stuff to my Dads storage unit. My to do list keeps getting stuff added to it.

I don't have any great thoughts or anything. I am not out living some remarkable life in any way. I guess we all can add our name to that list. I just do my day to day. I am fine with that.  I don't need anything else really.

Let's see. What else?  I gotta say nothing really. I have a full day planned today. Just getting more shit done I guess. Life sure is busy, but I think it is better that way. At least for me. I had Monday off, and I was ready to get back to work on Tuesday. It's just the way I am.

Anyway, til next time. 

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Friday, June 8, 2018

On A Winters Day, In A Deep And Dark December.

Well, I just deleted that entry. It was probably my best entry I ever had too.   ;)

Oh well,  I can try again. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I finished the trim yesterday for the exterior side we are redoing. The end is in sight. Two rows, and a couple top sections. The top sections will be a little challenging,  cuz of angle cuts, but it is almost done.  I was so tired yesterday after work, I sat and watched tv for a while before doing the trim pieces. I woke up early today,  so I feel I am well rested.

Other than that not much. Just doing my thing. Living out my days in the way I want. Work, eat, sleep. I feel I am pretty lucky living my life as I do. How you feel about life comes from the inside. I don't have to change or fix anything, cuz I feel good on the inside. It does make me wonder of others. I know why I am the way I am. It isn't cuz of great exercises or a great discipline that makes me feel this way. It is a gift I received for taking the path I went.  I cannot labor to make me the way I am, and I cannot sacrifice anything to make me the way I am.

In this way you have no idea about me. You cannot walk in my shoes in the least,  and I am glad I don't walk in yours. I would have walked in yours if I didn't change course decades ago.

It seems strange now too doesn't it?  From the wilderness to the dead years to heimleblog plus. Now we are here, and I don't know why. Are we accomplishing anything or just passing time?  I feel we are just passing time, but who knows. I suspect me being how I am must be strange. No amount of labor or sacrifice makes me this way. 

I remember in my college years I always wanted to be in a good mood,  and always have fun. At some point I realized I couldn't fake my way through that type of existence. Too much acting I suspect. We can't always be on, but now I find myself to wake up every day being on.   Happy and content with the way things are. It isn't cuz my life is perfect I spose,  but rather my heart is content with my lot in life. Work,  eat, sleep. 

I guess what we really want is to feel life is generally okay. We think it is something we must create for ourselves,  but really it is just how you feel on the inside. I didn't make me this way, but it is how I am now.

I suspect I've been this way a while. I stand alone which is cool. I am strong on my own. I have nothing to prove, and I don't feel I miss out on anything in life. I don't strive, and I dont search, cuz I lack nothing. I miss out on nothing, and that is a gift from the path I took.  Not something I created on my own.

It is where you and I differ. You cannot walk in my shoes,  and you cannot comprehend how I am. I  know your shoes, cuz I walked in them. I unknowingly left them when I went the way I did decades ago.

So here I am doing my day to day.

It's pretty easy.

Anyhoo,  I guess that's good. 

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.    :)

p.s. I see some if my original entry is here still. Weird.   Oh well.   Cya.   xoxo.    :)

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

Early Morning Coffee

Good morning. How's it going?  Me. I am fine. Just having an early morning coffee pondering what to put here. Some days I have no idea. Maybe most days.

Yesterday I got some more done on the house. I have a little tricky section around a window to do today,  and then it is clear sailing. I have one of those dilemmas I seem to have a lot. If I drove to work today, I could just get supplies I still need right after work. I still typically take my bike though. I am leaning toward biking today too.

I am excited about getting this done. I will probably start painting right after. It does seem like you make progress toward things, and then you realize you still have a ton more stuff that can get done. The way things are I guess.

We've been having pretty nice weather. It isn't too warm at all. Yesterday I don't think it reached 70°, but it felt like it in the sun.

Basically just another day I guess.  The week kinda flies by when you have Monday off. 

No major thoughts yesterday about anything. I did catch a glimpse of how I was compared to others. Normally I just do my thing,  and it occurred to me people are into life for themselves. It is all about you. I find that to be a sad existence.  Maybe life in general is a sad existence. Maybe people fool themselves that what we do is important, but it really just boils down to day to day. I tend to think people take in too much stuff. Seems to be natural. I wanna do this and this. I want to learn about that and that. I will spend time with this stuff. Add in the I've always done it to the equation,  and more stuff gets added then gets taken off. On my list of things to do is nothing. Work, eat, sleep. If I do other stuff along the way, cool. No one or anything dictates to me what I should do with my time. I am held accountable to no one. I am into the wild so to speak, and I am nowhere near Alaska or Walden pond.

We crave freedom, but life tangles. We dont really no how to go about it. Reason being is it isn't in our power, just like having a content heart isn't. Life is a web, and a trap, and there is only one way out. We all were born into it, and I found the way out. I wasn't even searching for that really. I just wanted a better version of myself, but so much more got thrown in the way I went.

Anyway, I know you have absolutely no idea how I came to be how I am. We are separated by many miles. You cannot see things the way I see things. It still is very dark inside you. So what are we even doing? 

I have no idea. I just do my thing, and I have no clue about you really. That's fine though. I am good as I am.

That's it for today.

Til tomorrow probably.

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

It Ain't Nothing.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I had a pretty good day off. We got some stuff done, and more importantly got started on our outdoor project. First we were going to get our whole house resided, but we decided to just repaint. Our house is sided with cedar shakes, and we had to replace a small side that exposure just beat the Hell out of. Lisa got some cheap at work, and we started doing it. We should get it done this week. On Monday we are getting our French doors in, so slow progress, but progress just the same. Maybe not even slow compared to my regular speed in doing this type of shit.

So anyway progress. Life keeps moving, and really I don't have a lot of concerns. I don't get tangled in a lot of things. I don't have a lot of responsibilities. I don't feel I owe anybody anything you know?  I am not out making my life harder, mostly just keeping it the same.

I did think about this blog thing, and maybe sometimes I had an idea of the direction this thing went. I have no idea now.  I sometimes wake up and do it, and that is about it. It's not really doing anything, and I have no agenda with it.

At this stage maybe I am not interested in a lot of things. I have my day to day, and that is fine. Other people I do not know in the slightest,  and that is fine too. We kinda grow up not ever being known. I know myself, and I am known, and that may be one of the greatest things out there.

When I first started on my path decades ago I did not know myself. I guess I would have been surprised knowing then what I found out later. I wanted to be a good person,  and I didn't know what I wanted was out of reach.

Like anyone I was an imperfect vessel nowhere near perfection,  and I like anyone did not have the ability to change that. So blah blah blah I went my way. I lived out my story, and learned a lot about me, and in so doing learned a lot about others too.

It really was a crazy journey mind you, and it would take me a decade, and even longer of blogging to go into it.  ;)  Where I am now is this place less than perfect, but still secure. I really was after perfection for security, and I have security now. Eventually I have to give that up to do my final thing, but I had no idea I would have days like this.

Also too I have no idea what that means  for you, except we are in limbo not really doing anything. It is fine for me too I guess, cuz my life is pretty dang easy. Others, who knows? 

Anyway, just doing what I do. I guess eventually this may end too, but I don't know that for sure. I don't know how the day to day unfolds, but I am fine living it. No worries really about the future, cuz I am in good hands, and the future really is on my side.

Anyhoo, today I have a day to have. No clue what to do for dinner.

Oh well.

Have fun.

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.   :)

Monday, June 4, 2018

There A Week Went.

So in one week we moved my Dad here from the 'burbs of Chicago. The house is pretty organized. His shit is all set. We just have our stuff to take care of. It was much easier than I thought.

This weekend I mostly finished my garden. I still want a couple green zuchinni plants, but that is it. I am going to have a ton of green beans, but I am happy for that. For one I love green beans from the garden,  and two they are easy to freeze, so the more the merrier.

Today I have a day off, which is awesome. If you remember I took very few last year, and now I get one each week. I didn't even have to give up any jobs.

It would be nice to finish all our outside activities this Summer, because we did a ton inside in the Winter. Our house would be set then. Just regular shit we'd have to do.

I think I'll have another cup of coffee before I start today's projects.

In other words I got nothing, but I am alive and well. Waking up as I usually do.

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.    :)

Friday, June 1, 2018

The Operations Manual From Innotec

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. We got some more shit to the storage. One trip left, and maybe miscellaneous stuff after. I also got the lawn mowed, but not trimmed. I also got my haircut. At some point I looked at myself this week, and thought Holy Hell hair. It got ridiculous again.

A good productive day I guess. Today is garbage day too. It comes a day later on a Holiday week. We are overflowing.

Not much very important going on with me, as you can tell, and that is how life is. In the end nothing is really important, but one can do no better than accept it with a good heart.

I don't think I have much to write about. Another day here,  and another day gone.  I really don't have much to worry about do I?  I work, money keeps coming in. Yesterday I made Hamburger Helper for dinner. One doesn't have to spend a ton of money on food, so I think it is good to eat at home most times.  I don't really think it wise to eat out a ton.

I guess I feel pretty happy in a way. I have plenty of money, no bills besides utilities. Money keeps coming in, and I guess as far as that goes things are easy. I wake up pretty good most days. Happy to get a days labor in, and always look forward up the meal at the end of the day. I always hope to get a good night sleep,  and I usually do okay as far as that goes.

I have no idea how other people are, but I am fine. A-Okay.

On that note I really got nothing today, so I'll call it here. 

Laterzzz.  

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.   :)