Friday, December 31, 2010

WOAH!!! It Is New Years Eve...

Wanna know what we used to do on New Years Eve??  When we were younger.  Remember the movie "About Last Night" ??  Yep, we would go to Mother's in Chicago.  That is where Rob Lowe, Jim Belushi, Demi Moore, and whoever Demi's friend was, (I forget her name) celebrated it.  It was pretty cool.  It was pretty crowded though.  I remember one time our friend Dale was really really really really hungover.  It was the day of the Eagles Bears fog bowl.  We called him Zorcro!!   Lol, don't ask me what the hell Zorcro is??  Don't ask me what the heck heimle is either.  Just another made up word.  :)   One year my friend Doug and I kept eating the stupid plastic glasses, while yelling HEIMLE to each other.  WTF???   I am glad I have matured since those days.  ;)

Let me take a look at this last year, and see what has happened.  Perhaps a list:  :)

  1. I survived Weekdays in February, and Steve's Journey.
  2. I have been doing "The Wait" now since the end of the Journey.
  3. You do not know what happened at the end of "The Journey"  
  4. It is scary... crazy sounding... I knew good was done almost right away.
  5. Remember I started "The Wait" almost right after.
  6. I deleted "The Journey" like Heimleblog.
  7. It is still alive in my Reader.
  8. I don't know if Heimleblog is alive in anyone's reader.
  9. I commented a lot on 4 girl's blogs a lot.  
  10. At one point I thought Becky had Heimleblog.  When my comments stopped being posted. 
  11. All 4 girls had their day.  At least a day, where I felt really really sad for them... why I know not...
  12. I had for Barbara too if you remember.  That didn't end well...  Wasn't my fault though.
  13. Done for a reason though.  I gave up a lot on one of my runs I think pre marathon P.R.
  14. That you don't know.
  15. I remember on one of my runs I said, "My life is worth so very little do with it as you will"  
  16. I was soooo low.  Have to think I am in the best hands though huh???
  17. That post got a lot of profile page hits on Heimleblog... for some reason.
  18. I guess that is before this last year huh??
  19. Remember the guy who lost his wife of like 60 years or whatever...
  20. Remember when Milo our rabbit died, and Lisa was really sad...
  21. There were others, but I won't go into it.
  22. Even freaking Jackie, and I don't even like her.  The others I all like.  :)
  23. Not a lot more just a couple, I think...  
  24. This shit I remember.

Where Do We Go From Here??  Another list:   :)

  1. I don't know.
  2. I am pretty sure it is your Journey.
  3. It will hit you I guess, and maybe you should write what you feel.
  4. I think some stuff might be sad.
  5. You will still do what you want.  Race, craft, be with family, eat, drink, be merry, etc...
  6. There will probably be some sad days though.  I guess you need to show that too.
  7. I did, so you must have to too.
  8. Why I know not.  Goes with my belief that all sadness must be accounted for.
  9. Isn't that strange???  
  10. I had to take some of people's, because the shit is hard.
  11. I suffered through some stuff in life to be able to do that.
  12. I said a long time ago, I want a good story out of my life.  
  13. Ummm, I have a pretty good author huh??
  14. The one who leads my way...
  15. Whether you believe or not you are along for the ride.  A pretty neat ride too huh??
  16. Yes!!!  We Got This!!!!   :)
That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I don't talk to Gina every day, but I told her via text I love her.  She is really a great friend.  :)

Love you all too.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Apricot Baskets from New Delhi??? I need me some!!

Well, I have absolutely no idea where I am going with this.  I'll start with my dinner.  :)  I made a good one.  It is my world famous, and by world famous I mean the 10 or less people who have probably eaten this recipe.  Meatloaf.  Crushed flavored croutons, celery, and onion.  Garlic Salt too.  mmmmmmm.   Coupled with redskin mashed potatoes.  Mashed potatoes mixed with a full block of cream cheese, and wots and wots of butter.  mmmmmmm....mmmmmm.... and broccoli too.  mmmmmm mmmmmmm   good dinner. 

So, I was up at 2:00 am, and I woke up to a text from Brian.  It is 8:00 pm in Hawaii right now.  6 hour difference in winter, the opposite of the 6 hour difference in Poland.  :)  Hawaii doesn't do daylight, so it flips from 5 to 6 hours during our daylight savings.  Anyway Brian sent me a text saying the Bears haven't scored 40- points in consecutive weeks since like the Crusades or something.  Of course I replied... What???  Who gives a shit??  Ha ha Ha!!  Where the hell you come up with that stat??  So anyway we fumbled around a bit with our fat fingers, and he decided to call me.  He said Fuck this texting.  Why am I messing with this stupid phone when I can just talk to your dumb ass.   Or something like that.  :)  We had a fun conversation.  We talked of Jackie, and his friend Greg, and surfing, and him moving part time to the "Big Island" coming to Chicago this spring, us going out there next year. etc... etc... etc... 

Want to know what I am thinking right now though??  What is this blog??  Why do I do this??  Is there a purpose??  Remember this past Thanksgiving when I stopped??  Didn't it seem like some of you wanted to see updates from me??  From this spring I learned a lot.  One day while I was at Beau and Charity's I was tweeting about being over 2/3 of the way done.  I was also exchanging e-mails with one of my favorite bloggers.  So this blog is different huh?  Remember going the final stretch and we went into the Matrix zone??  I lost you there huh??  It was a hard turn.  That was my race though.  You guys were along for the ride.  Those reasons I know not why.  I think your blogs are important too.  What are you doing??  What are you thinking??  Why aren't you blogging??  Obviously new Nancy is, and so is Olga, and of course J.P.H, and even Audrey too.    I wonder about the rest of you.  Of course Of course I know, I am thinking out loud... so to speak.  The people I am thinking out loud about, not all even read me probably.  :)   Allow me to think aloud though. 

There is more to you than what you show.  It is hard for married people I know, because it is hard, but you know what.  You people don't know each other like you think you do.  The natural tendency is to hide the less than perfect stuff, and even the bad stuff. 

I remember thinking last spring too, that my blog took courage to read.  Now that is weird to me now, just cause I have been doing it a while. 

Oh well, thinking out loud thinking out loud.  I do appreciate you who read me.  Kim S., and Tia, I think as highly of you as anyone.  I hope you know that.  :)  I don't always say it, but I respect you two a TON!!!  Always have. (High School Friends)

So anyway, I have no idea what this blog is now, for some reason I think your blogs are important. 

I read Olga's 2nd to last post yesterday, and it hit me at the right time.  Out of it came two tweets:

Wouldn't it be something if everyone could see the dreamy side of life. Life is not ALL technical.

Belief is a wave that you know will reach the shore. In an ocean it takes a while. It will find it's destination
 
I'd give you the link, but I am a bit lazy.  :)

Well just thinking aloud...

Anyway yesterday like I said was a bike to work and back.  Pretty nice weather.  :)  Today I am running to work, and come home with Lisa.  I did my pull ups yesterday.  :)

Now everyone reads Jen Harrison.  She is your coach, whether she is or not.  She asked you a question.  What do you know for sure?  Did anyone but me take her up on it??  Not nice not nice.  She is Jen Harrison dontcha know!!!   :)

You people are so freaking interesting, why don't you want to show people?? You are funny too, and cute, and colorful.  Wanna know what I told Olga after her blog post yesterday??  I said she was a rainbow.  One of vibrant color.  So are all of you.  Have to get to the real stuff.  Try and ditch the stuff you think people want to see, and give us the stuff that is really there. 

"Catcher In The Rye" is probably my favorite book I read.  One of the best blogs everrrrrrrrr!!  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  gonna check some sports scores, and then gotta run.  Love you all!!!   :)

xoxoxoxoxoxo  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!  :)

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

A Lot To "Talk" About... My Favorite!! :)

Well first off most importantly I found me another blogger to read.  We read a lot of the same people, and we have a Michigan connection.  After me she commented on Alili's site, and Maija's site, and also Kim Kim Kim's site.  So I checked her out.  Yeah I know I know, another girl.  Don't tell my wife.   ;)  Anyway she spent at least some of her time growing up in Michigan, Central Michigan, and she has a good friend who used to live in Holland, MI.  A non-blogging friend, and she has been to Holland before.  She is nice.  :)  Not as nice as me, but who is???   ;)

Her name is Charisa Wernick.  I gave her a few reasons why I read her.  Here they are.  :)

I love you run to work sometimes?? always??

You bike a lot as a form of transportation. I love that!! :)

I love the way you pronounce your name. :)

You seem nice too. :)


Plus I know you are superstar awesome, but so are soooo many. :)
 
I love that Charisa runs, and bikes to work and back.  That is the bestest.  In her words she will bike there and run back, and then run there and bike back. She does it that way so she doesn't end up with 3 bikes at work.  :)   So I am pretty sure that hooked me.  The getting to work and back the green way, I guess you would say.  I do that a lot in the nicer temps., and this year I am doing it more when the temps aren't so nice.  I like it.  I love it actually.  Why not right??  Plus it helps get you in better shape.  YAYYYYYYY!!!

I am always excited to get another blogger.  I have to be careful though.  Like this morning I woke up, and there were 5 blog posts to read.  UGHHHH!!!  Luckily 4 of them were Olga's c'est ma vie pictures.  :)  Speaking of Olga, she is all signed up for the Cracow Marathon.  I think it is in like 108 days.  Good Luck to her.  Don't know what happened to her sister, she all but disappeared.  booo.  Oh well, what can you do right??

Other news, I decided to bike to work yesterday.  It hasn't snowed in Holland in quite a while.  Rare there are blizzards around, and Holland has just a couple inches on the ground.  I don't remember, but you know reading Charisa ride to work, and Maija riding in the mountains with cold descends may have given me that extra push to ride when it was cold yesterday.  Windbreakers rule.  So does a slow bike rider.  ;)  Wind doesn't kill me.  :)  When push comes to shove though it is excerciseeeeeeeeee!!!  It is all good!! 

Let's see, you know what I am going to tell you a funny story.  I have been friends with Lori Smith since I have been on facebook pretty much.  I am not sure if I told you this story already or not, but telling you again if I did.  Anyway we clicked right away.  She is nice, and funny, and all that stuff.  I didn't remember who Lori Smith was in H.S. but whatever, I have a bad memory, and we were probably close to 800 people in our class.  So we were friends on FB for over a year, and I really didn't know who she was until a brother of hers would post on her status update, and she called him brother.  Sujack???  wtf???  So I go to her wall, and there it is Lori Sujack Smith.  Lori Sujack I know who she is.  We were best friends... well she was my best friend, the summer before Junior year in H.S.  We talked on the phone EVERY day, and I am pretty sure we saw each other every day.  How weird is that huh??  I forget about that dang maiden name thing.  So after that summer the girl who broke my heart Carolynn,  (due to my immaturity btw) her and I got back together, and I spent every waking moment I could with Carolynn.  Lori, and I fell out of touch, but now we are friends again.  She is GREAT!!!  No wonder we clicked right away huh??  I mean we were best friends for a reason right??  I love that story!!  :)

Anyway, I guess I should start wrapping this puppy up.  Don't want to make it too long.  :)  My workout yesterday was a bike to work and back.  A real workout in the winter time, because it is more than what I may have done, especially in the winter, and especially on a run night.  I averaged 37 mph on the bike.   ;)  My run was 6 miles @ 8:57 pace I think.  My legs are a bit fatigued, but my times are staying in the low 9's at least, so maybe I am starting not so different than what I was last year.  I'd have to look it up sometime.  Helen was with her friend, and it was Jerry, me, and Bob.  Bob did 7 miles at lunch with some fast dude.  they did those at 7:00 pace.  he wanted us to take it easy on him.  Ummm, a tempo run for us would be taking it easy on him.  :)  It was a good run, and a good workout.  I will probably take it easy today, bike to work and back, do some strength stuff, and cook meatloaf!!!   :D

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I think it is going to be a good year for me, because I am wanting to do a lot.  There is a fire in me.  I did a lot last year, but I am not sure if there was that fire.  This could be fun fun fun.  Hope you all are doing Great!!  :)

xoxoxoxoxo


Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

??????

 OMG I thought about a title for like a minute and that was all I could come up with.  :)  Hope the blog comes out better than the title.  :)

Well I will start off with my workouts, and some thoughts.  Strange things that happened yesterday.  First off it wasn't a huge run week.  I don't even remember how much, I haven't logged my last two run yet, but it was low 20's I bet as opposed to jumping up to high 20's.  So it was a low run mile week.  Only because I didn't get out for a long one with Jerry, and Jeff (a.k.a. man with many first names)  That being said my legs were fatigued yesterday after my run to work.  Now that freaked me out.  I haven't been doing anything real crazy hard.  I wonder if it was my harder than normal trainer ride from a couple days ago.  It was pretty weird to me.  After work I rode the trainer for 40 minutes soft, as like an active recovery.  I think my legs are o.k.  Tonight we run on the snow melt too, so I really wanted my legs to be recovered. 

I love love the snow melt runs on Tuesday nights for a few reasons.  One it is a good 6 mile workout run not alone.  That helps sometimes, especially ... well for me always.  There is a good 1/4 mile incline you have to run up 4 times during the 4 loops.  Good training.  There are people around, and most most importantly, a lot of girls with boots.  I don't notice the boots, but others tell me the girls are there.  ;)  I am way too focused on my run.  :)

So I love Tuesday night runs.  Plus it was such a huge help for me last year.  I am not too disappointed in not getting my long run in last week, because training group starts after New Years.  Alan puts on a 5K on New Years Eve, and that usually draws like 600 people or so I'd say.  It seems a lot anyway.  It is a fun run not timed, but I have raced it the last few years.  I am not going to race it too hard this year.  I guess, I'd hope for a sub: 25.  Last year was 23:30 maybe, but icy conditions, and running through some sand like snow really slowed me down.  I'll actually be interested in seeing my time compared to my perceived effort. 

New Years is not a big deal to me.  I run the race, and try to stay up til midnight.  As you can imagine something I am not always successful with.  I am leaning on doing nothing this New Years, just hanging out with Lisa.  Her read, and me listen to music probably.  Me fall asleep around 10 or something, and her probably 11:00.  We'll see, I'll play it by ear. 

In other news, I am thinking of doing the Steelhead 1/2 Ironman this year.  No real race time goals, because I have no idea.  I think it is a good distance for me.  56 mile bike ride, and 1/2 marathon.  Those two I know I can do.  The swim I know I can do too, once I get back to swim training.  I am going to wait 4 weeks I think to start swimming.  For me it is the least important, because I am not going to get real fast.  I can probably make the most improvements on biking and running, so most time should be spent there.  Plus it is the cheapest.  Plus it is worth it financially for me to pay for a year instead of 3 months.  A big price drop.  This was a decision I thought about for a while, and everything seems to fit logically, so that is how I am going.

Man, I think I can write about me forever.  I find myself that interesting.  I'll spare you though of anymore.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I think I did 6 sets of push ups, but blew off the pull ups.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Monday, December 27, 2010

A List Of 40!! :)

Okay I got this idea from one of my favorite bloggers I read.  A list of 40.  She is turning 40 btw, so maybe I'll do 44.  Maybe I'll do 144, who knows?  I did disagree with something she had on her list.  Something about doing what you love, and the money will follow.  I don't agree with that so much, just because of all the poverty in the world, and companies like Enron, small businesses who went under due to the financial fiasco, etc...  So when it comes to money I don't put a lot of faith in the systems that are in place.  That is not a knock on her list, just an area where I disagree.  I love lists though, because they are honest portrayal's of people's thoughts.  Not everyone will agree with you anyway, and I don't expect people to agree with everything I put down. They'd be wrong, but whatever.   ;)

I'll call this 40 honest thoughts.... or maybe more than 40.  :)

  1. If you reap what you sow, sow in honesty, and truth.  I think it is in our power.  
  2. I think too highly of myself.  I think too much revolves around me in my own mind.  That is silly and arrogant.
  3. I don't have a lot of faith that I can get real real fast.  
  4. I can do o.k. though I think for someone with average ability.
  5. I don't think I work real hard, but maybe it appears so to others.  (compared to others) 
  6. A taste of success can feed a fire.  Help motivate.
  7. Anger and hate can motivate too.  See War!!
  8. When I first started at Menards I didn't own a car.  I walked 2'ish miles to and from work for over a year.  
  9. I took public transportation to my job at Wards while I was in college.
  10. If you hear stories of people walking to get groceries, walking to work, etc... I lived it.
  11. Just couldn't afford a car was the only reason, and didn't want to take a loan.  Didn't know how to.  
  12. I am running to work today, and it makes me feel tough.  
  13. That which doesn't kill us right??  I guess I believe that.  
  14. A lot of times I feel people dislike me.  Is that the truth??  Or Insecurity??
  15. I don't like talking of "organized religion" I don't go to church.
  16. I don't plan on going to church.
  17. I disliked going to the church classes when I got married.
  18. The preacher's son worked for me, and I bought him beer when he was underage.
  19. Pretty sure the preacher knew about it.  :)
  20. Are they even called preachers??  weird name.  
  21. "OrganizedReligion" in my opinion brings out the worst in people.  How many wars are started because of it?
  22. Both sides pray to the same God too.  :)
  23. I think a 30 minute run can energize, and an hour run can tire you out.  
  24. 5K goals are just as important and just as challenging as marathon goals.
  25. I told Olga that this morning.  :)
  26. Holy crap is 40 a lot.  I doubt I make it to 144.  :)
  27. I think some people judge me, and it makes me mad.
  28. Truth = judging is looking at others instead of looking at yourself.  The wrong path.
  29. If people judge me, and I get angry, I may judge back.  
  30. Even in despair I can look inside myself for strength.  
  31. I am pretty strong right now.  
  32. I am pretty surprised at how my life is right now.  Really had no idea it would be like this.
  33. Like all things, some is good and some is bad.
  34. Having said that it is fun most times. 
  35. I don't really have any goals this year I don't think, except to improve.
  36. That will probably change once we start speed work. 
  37. I took the puppy for a 2.3 mile run yesterday.  I wanted to beat the shit out of him at times.  :)
  38. We survived, and I went on and ran another 3.13 miles.  I planned on 6 more, but took too long of a break.
  39. My legs got a bit tired, so I cut it short, but I can run to work today.  YAY!!   :)
  40. "I have learned it is usually best to just keep my mouth shut 99% of the time."  snagged from JPH.  She is smart.  She has done that too.  I think everyone should read her.  
  41. Have I learned that??  I don't know.  I do this almost every morning for good and bad I guess.
  42. A lot of my friends have seen death this year.  Jen Gray's mom passed on Christmas Eve.  They were close.
  43. To look at sadness takes strength.  We may not always look pretty when we do, but it is important to look at it... for some reason.  How do I know??  Because I had to look at some people's sadness.  Plus I had to look at my own.  So this I know to be true.
  44. When you look at it, you are healed of it.  
  45. I think this is where we go now.  
  46. It isn't all encompassing, and life still goes on, and there are plenty of good days.  There will be some hard days/moments though.  You will be fine, all of you.  In that you can trust.  :)

With that I say that is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!  :)

p.s. I really got worked up during that stupid Bears game.  :)  lol.  Glad we won.  Offense coming around, defense kind of sucking a bit.  We can stop the run though.  We shall see.  It will be exciting.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

p.p.s.  I know some will hate me for my "organized religion" comment, but it is a true thought, and I one I will not hide from you.  

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Sweep!! :)

Wow, I  sure have been sweeping a lot on my 4 day little mini vacation, and the floors don't look any better.  :)  By sweep I mean sleep of course, that is why the floors don't look better.   :)

So yesterday was a chill day like I said.  I still found the motivation to ride the trainer for 50 minutes.  Holy sweat fest.  I increased the tension a bit.  OMG was  I soaked.  I think I'll decrease it again.   ;)  I also did pull ups, but never got around to push ups.  I am glad I did the pull ups, because those are the ones I would typically blow off.  Push ups, you really could do 1000 sets in a day, so I can do a lot today.  Maybe I'll do a set for each time the Bears score on the Jets.  ehhhh.  I said I could do 1000 sets, not 2000.  That would probably be a little over kill.  :)

Lisa and I did what we normally do on Christmas.  Hailey is gone, so we just did our own thing.  Hung out, saw a movie, and had a dinner.  Hailey goes to her dad's side of the family.  Only thing missing this year than any other year is Brian would hang with us also, but he has been in Hawaii for a long time.  I didn't even call my Dad or my Uncle.  Worst family member ever.  Not really, Pejchl men are horrible.  All the women have passed on, so it is just us loners doing our thing.  Uncle Bob is a loner too in ways.  I enjoy Christmas's I spend with Lisa though.  It is always relaxing.  :)  FWIW we saw "The Tourist" - it is a good movie.  I recommend it. 

Here I will give you a story I thought about this morning before I got out of bed.  It all started with Doreen wishing me happy holidays.  Doreen  I went to High School with.  I don't think we knew each other very well, but like Gina we became friends now this year, better than ever before.  Doreen was good friends with Steve R.  When she wished me Happy Holidays, I thought of Steve R.  Plus I was flattered too, because she is pretty, and very funny.  I am a sucker for that shit.  :)  lol. 

Anyway here is how life plays out a lot.  The times I saw Steve Rose in Holland, MI.  Now I moved up in Menards to Dept. Mgr. pretty quick, got married, and never really wanted to go any higher.  At that time, I'd be looking at a minimum of 55 hour work weeks.  Ehhhhhh no thanks.  This was past my first Hawaii trip too, so I was already stepped down.  So to see someone in High School like a Steve R, and tell him I was working full time in retail, was a bit embarrassing.  There is a bit of stature in what a person does, and well, my job did not take a rocket scientist to do.  He told me he was married with two kids working for his Dad's company.  Something with Security or something.  Wiring security systems or something.  It is all I remember.  He said he was in Holland, and we should get together for a beer sometime.  Damn if we didn't always play phone tag.  I'd say there were probably 5 times where one of us called the other.  I saw him in the store too once or twice more.  So my view of Steve was everything was fabulous.  I still did my thing, which is the same as I do today.  Workout-train for something-hang out. 

Little did I know not everything was fabulous in Steve's life.  Everything is not always fabulous in anyone's life.  Steve and I were o.k. friends in High School.  I remember I think we did Junior Year Homecoming together.  I was probably with Carolynn, and I have no idea who he was with.  Not a clue.  We hung at his house though, and drank etc...  I think.  It was 100 years ago.  I never knew who his closest friends were.  My High School close friends changed a lot.  I hung out with a lot of different people here and there, plus I had Carolynn who I hung out with A TON!!  Anyway I learned a lot about Steve at the visitation thing this summer.  I remember Russ Beaupre filling me in on EVERYTHING. 

Here is what I thought about this morning, and even earlier this year.  What if???  What if I knew his problems??  Could I have helped??  I could have got him a job, I know that.  Our store manager at the time would have hired anyone on the spot if I or Lisa gave a good recommendation.  Today we could give Jesus a good recommendation, and they wouldn't hire him.  I guess 35 years in retail shows bad judgment.  So the powers at store level don't trust us or something.  :)  That is now, but back then we could have for sure.  I will tell you one thing, that really really bugged me.  I guess I think about it now still here and there.  Then again, if this didn't happen, I would not have been as good of friends with Gina now probably.  Maybe I never get to know Doreen either.  I got to know her a bit better when she posted H.S. pictures of Steve on her wall after the visitation. 

So good can come from all, although at the expense of sadness sometimes.  I bet Steve's death brought a lot of people closer than they would have been if he were alive.  His struggles were hard, but someone- who I learned at his visitation- was a giving guy keeps giving even when his time is up.  It is a centuries old story, but we could all hope to have that legacy huh??? 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Look out Twitter, I am totally going to smack talk during the Jets/Bears game.  I hope there are no Jets fans out there.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Boring Update!!

I feel like this is going to be a totally boring update.  I don't think I have much to write about, but I will go on anyway.  I had a lot of thoughts early on in the morning, yeah I have been awake for a while  :)  I don't share everything.  Do you know how life is a race??  I guess this I am sharing.  The one sperm wins the race, and life is created.  Out of a lot one wins, and that is life.  That was kind of what I saw on Thanksgiving.  So I have seen life from the view of the sperm, and life from the view of the baby.  Separated by like 20 years of course.

I guess that is a pretty deep thing to share huh?? 

Ha Ha Ha!!  I am going to share a lot.  You want to know what I am thankful for??  Remember my post, if I never live another day, I have been paid the most bestest compliment ever.  Remember trust, the quid pro quo??  Olga sure has a high place of honor on this blog huh?  That might not mean much to any of you, but it means a lot to me.  She is my friend from Poland.  Remember she said, in a foreign language "I trust you, trust me. "  I thought of that this morning, and it made me feel good. 

I think you can trust me if for no other reason I show you a lot about me.  I am as honest as I can be.  I don't know if I show everything, but I think I show a lot.  So there is that.  I will not pretend to be perfect, and I will not pretend to be the best person in the world, but I will show you who I am, and what I think about.  I think sometimes we battle what we should think about, and force that, instead of looking at what we really think about.  Hide the real and force the "what we think we should be thinking about".  I guess at the very least only want to show what we think we should be thinking about.  I guess that is a bit of an internal struggle.  One you must win though.  Dat Shit ain't easy tho!! 

Sometimes my blog surprises me.  I mean I didn't even want to blog today I don't think, and it appears maybe I had a little somethin somethin anway. 

My workout was a 6.2 miler @ 9:20 pace.  I stopped at 28 minutes for a rest, and like 41 minutes for a rest.  No reason, just for the heck of it.  It was a nice run, and I really felt good at the 5 mile mark.  My legs are pretty good right now. 

Gonna have a chill day today.  My tent is big.  I have my beliefs, and I know you have yours.  You all are welcome in my tent, so I say:

Merry Christmas, Happy Festivus, Whatever Jewish Holiday goes on now. whatever.  Have a great day!!  Drink beer, eat a lot, laugh, and appreciate what you have, because some are missing important pieces from the past.  So many will be happy, but some may be sad.  Hope you all can find a way to laugh at least some today!!  :)  That would be my wish!!  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I think I want to be lazy and watch movies all day.   :)

now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Friday, December 24, 2010

I Had To Get Up And Pee Anyway...

So I guess I should blog.  I have absolutely nothing at all to blog about, but who knows maybe something will pop up.  So I will start off with my workout.  omg I had such a laaaaaazzzzzzyyyyyy day yesterday.  I don't get many days off during the week so I guess I lived it up a bit.  I spent 97 hours on the computer, before I got going.  All I did yesterday was ride the trainer for an hour, and did push ups, not sure how many sets, and 4 sets of 6 pull ups that is it.  No run, and no swim, like I planned.

I had a nice discussion with someone who was mad at me AGAIN!!  I hope she never gets mad at me.  I seriously don't do things intentionally to make her mad.  She lives in Poland.  I make a lot of people mad here and there.  Isn't that nuts?  The more I open up in stuff, the more I show people, the more they get mad at me.  Do they judge me?  A lot of times I feel people judge me, and that makes me mad.  I don't judge them.  I even told Lisa last night, "You know you point out my negatives a lot what about my positives???"  I mean what if she was married with any other guy?  I have things I can get mad at her about, but I typically don't.  I forgive pretty quickly.  I think she felt bad.

Oh well like I said I don't have much today.  I definitely have to run today.  I am going back to bed now though.  I hope everyone is enjoying whatever you may be celebrating.  Tomorrow Lisa and I are seeing a movie.  :)  We typically don't do much on Christmas.  She is going to bring her mom a dinner tonight.  I am not going.  She wanted me to go, but I don't want to so I won't.  Mean???  perhaps but honest.  That is how that works.  Why should I go there to bore myself??  No reason.

That is it for today!!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. yes the pull ups are up to sets of 6.  I won't go higher, and I rarely do a max set.  Once a year maybe if that.  Push ups the sets are about to jump up to 20.  I am definitely getting there.  I am going back to bed now though.  Hope you all have a great and AWESOMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEE  DAY!!!  :)

p.p.s.  I love love love the word AWESOMMMMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEE!!!   A WOT!!!   :) 

Thursday, December 23, 2010

I Am The Worst

So when we look at ourselves I guess we want to see positive.  Want to know what I always always see??  The bad.  I have been looking at it for a long long time.  Is that normal??  Do people typically only believe the good in themselves??

Perhaps A List:
  • I think I get angry more often than ever before now...
  • I think I suffered through stuff in life for a reason, and good should come from it.
  • The good takes longer than I thought.  
  • That is frustrating.
  • Am I impatient??
  • Are people afraid of what they see??
  • I guess it is hard not knowing what is going on with people.
  • I don't feel people are as open as they could be.
  • I am not sure why.
  • scared?? afraid??  
  • Show me someone who is tough in life.
  • For some reason I think you know this
  • You aren't acting on it though.
  • I think when you try to show all good, you show very bad.
  • All good is not real
  • Do you know this??
  • I am pretty shocked, and disappointed at some.  to be honest.  
For that I say I am the worst!!  I have always looked at my bad though, and have for a long time.  It was scary, and it was hard, and I was freaking like 24 years old, and I am 44 now.  20 years ago!!  I let you know all about a lot of stuff too.  A lot.  Some of you give me some, and I let you know via comment, and sometimes you give me nothing, and I let you know with no comment  (bloggers)

So yeah, I am a jerk, and some things frustrate me, but I don't sugarcoat it, unless you are real sweet.  :)  lol

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)


p.s. I have the day off, so I may go back to bed for a bit before coffee.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Change Of Plan

Sometimes the season is about this.  Regardless of your beliefs, which like I said before I could care less.  This season is about being with family.  Let's face it, you probably have work off, and you will be with your family.

The holiday season can be good, but let's face it some people will be sad.  One of the bloggers I read put her Mom in hospice.  A friend from my H.S. lost her brother this year, and that hurts.  It always hurts when you lose someone who had a tough life, but still brought joy to many, as selflessly as he could.  Some things we are not always strong enough to overcome.  Another H.S. friend Nate lost his wife, and I think that was pretty recently.

I know of loss around this time of year.  Now it is a sadness that has been dealt with, and I mourned the year after.  Remember the last time I saw my step-mom alive was x-mas, and it looked like her toughest battle ever staying alive.  Raising 3 kids as a paraplegic wasn't easy enough, but she did not want to die on X-mas.  I can tell you that.  Her face gave up the fight, but her will didn't.

So this will be a sad time for some.  I think that is important.

The good thing about grief is it isn't all consuming.  It is hard, and it is sad, but it is healing in the long run.

I had a good 6 mile run last night with Jerry and Jeff.  8:54 pace I believe.  Pretty relaxing.  I like the Tuesday snow melt runs.

I am on a little couple day vaca after today.  I think I might take the total day off from workouts.  Sore, and tired, and off tomorrow, so I can probably get a s,b,r plus other stuff in tomorrow.

I think Lisa and I are hanging out with Beau, Charity, and C.C. tonight too, so that should be fun.  :D  :D

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am going to drink coffee now again.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Woke Up Late Today!! :)

Well, yesterday ended up being a pretty good day.  I swam for the first time in a year... or a little less perhaps.  It wasn't too bad.  I was in good enough shape to swim for a long time, but my arms got tired.  I forgot about that.  It wasn't my cardio that made me quit, but rather my arms.  That is a good sign.  I don't think swimming is going to be perfect for me, meaning I will probably have to swim with a little pain always, but screw it.  I think I can manage it, without really jacking things up.  So like others before me I will have to do that exercise while dealing with a little pain.  No biggie.  I will get a membership, and start going a few times each week.

Do you ever say something stupid like me?  I said, "after further reflection I am not a white cat after all"  and then clarify it was a joke, just in case people think your nuts??  ahahahahaahahaaaaa!!!   I did that last night.  :)  That cracks me up.

So anyway I ran to work, and I bet the pace was like 9:40 or something.  I am not sure if it was the sore back, or the ice I was running on, but sure seems a bit slow... for me, but whatevs, it is still a bit of a workout.  I don't know how much I swam, 600-700 yards.  I didn't time any portion of my swims either, on purpose.  I didn't want to push, just wanted to see if I could do the dang thing.  I think I can, so I will like I said.  I did my little run, and did a lot of push ups.  more than my 4 sets, so a pretty good day.

I had no intention of staying up to watch the Bears, but I did.  That means I may need a nap on the hammock in Lisa's room.  ;)  Bears win the division.  I thought they would go 5-11, and they didn't.  I don't think the NFC has any real front runners.  I think the Bears could probably on any given Sunday beat any of the teams except the Saints.  Who knows?

I don't really have much else, so you know what comes next....

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love you All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am gonna drink more coffee.

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Monday, December 20, 2010

At The End Of The Day!!

It all comes down to this.  First off, let me start with a thought I had.  I only went back on 4 blogs, plus Jen Gray.  Isn't that interesting??  The original 4 I went back a long ways, and Jen Gray I went back and tried to read the whole thing.  That should count for something I think.  I just thought about that tonight.  The O'Toole's of course I started at the beginning, and also the new Nancy.

Anyway... well I throw names on here, but I will leave this one out.  One of my absolute favorite favorite bloggers had to put her mom in hospice this week.  So at the end of the day no matter what we do.  Whether we exercise, or do crafts, are rich, are poor, drive ourselves crazy watching cable news.  :)  It all comes down to we will see people die, and people will see us die.  What is your 10 year plan??  Probably cancer isn't in on it is it??  I doubt a heart attack was in Jim Fixx's plan for his running season. 

I remember some dude was in the lumberyard shopping.  I don't remember what he was buying.  Something really dumb.  This guy was probably 115 years old.  He was asking all kinds of questions or something, I was annoyed.  I then vented to someone and said, "Why the hell does that old fucker care about that, he can't possibly have more than 2-3 years left of his life."  Yeah a crude joke, but you know what can you do??  I still think farts are funny.  :)  I guess my point is we think life will always go on the same as it always will.  Things change.  There is so much you don't have control of.  I mean shit what if you were the model citizen, had a good paying job.  Your company had a great stock plan, and it was a great stock.  You got paid well, so you went all over the country running races, and doing fun stuff like that, and THEN,  the Enron bubble collapses and your fucked.

I guess with all things you have to think about it.  A lot of stuff is out of your control.  Why be so anal about stuff, you know shit is going to happen.  You cannot fend off all stuff. 

So on this day my thoughts are out to my poor blogger who what is a happy time of her life is now a sad time too.  Her heart is the biggest one out there too.  She cares more than most.  This will be hard on her.  It already has been.


Our run got canceled yesterday due to a Christmas party.  I felt that to be a good thing, so I can run to work today.  I am also swimming today.  :)  I am like Jessica, I am going to try and do at least one tri this year.  :)  It all comes down to the swim.  Can I do it without "f"ing up my back again.  Anyhoo,  that is how it is spelled btw.  :)   it was a high motivation day for me.  I was like YIPPPPEEEEEEE!!!  I don't have to run at 3:00 in the freaking afternoon.  I thought should I get a run in??  hmmm,  nah.  I thought of taking the day off, but what would my blog think??  :)  Trainer for 45 minutes.  Worked up a good sweat.  4 sets of pull ups and push ups, 5, and 15.  I added more push ups after too.

Like I said today I run to work, and swim.  Boy if I can swim again, that would be great.  I don't plan on getting fast or anything, but I miss swimming.  It really was a big part of my big year.  Pretty exciting.

In other news my brother Jim and I cleared the air.  He sees where I am coming from.  I think he thought I was living high on the hog, ummm no.  Here is my picture in my mind.  Lisa made a room for herself.  It is her reading room.  It is pretty.  :)  She has a hammock in there, and plants in the corner with two windows.  It is her crafting room, and my trainer bike room.  :)  I so so so so so so so want her to have that room.  I don't really want anyone else in the house.  She gets her room.  My Uncle owns two houses in the Suburbs of Chicago.  Pretty sure he only lives in one.  There are resources on that side of the lake, ya dig??  My thought of Lisa having her room just puts a smile in my heart.  She cut her hair short too, and she looks cute.  Don't tell her I said that though.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. if I am blocked on FB, there really is no point to even being friends on FB.  That is what you should have done.  It is what I did.  I am not a parent, and I really never was one.  I tried to lead by example.  I am a lot like my great friend Hal.  We work hard and we play hard.  We are such great friends because we picked ourselves up off the floor, and made something of ourselves.  That is why Jim is a disappointment.  He was in the middle of Hal and I getting the life thing down.  He never got it.  Never picked up from our mojo.  I mean we were as low as low can be, and found our way up.  I think he'll get it, he just needed a kick to the groin.  I was happy to do it... so to speak.   :)

Oh yeah I was blocked to shield kids from my swearing antics I guess.  Kids grow up, and they will hear swear words in school.  Think of that funny X-mas show with the b.b. gun.  I get the parent thing.  I know it is hard, and you care, and you want to hide all scary stuff, but I will not change who I am to protect something I have no control of.  I am out there, and I am wild, and this is what I do.  I am a crazy whack job, because why not?? 

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!  :)

almost forgot I did go back on Maija's a bit too.  :) 
Shit almost forgot Saturday's run was 7.92 @ 9:30'ish.  Most important part of my blog.  :)

Sunday, December 19, 2010

I Owmost Forgot I Work Today!!

So I am up early, as I always am.  I really don't have much to write about, but this is what I do.  I am going into work at 8:00 am btw.  To help a dept. do some stuff, which actually helps me with my job too.  It is why I do it.  :)  For the record my run to work is 3.5 miles to an area where I can map it.  The street to the entrance.  If I ran up to the entrance door, it would probably be maybe 2/10 of a mile.  I stop at the street, and walk tho, so I can get a true measure.  I am anal about that.  I forgot to stop my watch though, so when I tried to see how long it took on my Friday run to work, it said 5 hours.  :)   ooops!!  :)

Yesterday all I did was run.  I didn't do push ups or anything.  As a matter of fact I was pretty lazy yesterday.  I wanted a day off, so I just did dishes and stuff, and went to New Holland around 2 or so.  I then came home and listened to music. 

This is my life.  Exercise, work, blog, music, sometimes I watch tv, but not too often.  I like to have a beer or two time and finances permitting.  I will say for the record, I am loony with or without beer.  I have been hung over twice this year.  I haven't got sick off of liquor in I don't know how many years.  I drink, but I don't overdo it.  I am not a let's see how much we can drink til 3:00 am type of person.  Have a few, have some thoughts, and sleep.  It is how I do.  I have a lot of freedom in my life, because that is how it is.  I do as I wish, although I purposefully don't hurt people, we ALL do though.  I am honest about things though.  This is what I do.

As I told my brother yesterday... via message.  What I am doing is important.  Hanging out with me is not important, but this silly little blog is important.  I take it seriously.  Why else do I get up early ALMOST EVERY DAY to write this??  So yeah, I take this thing to be more important than most other things I do.  So there.  Just so you know. 

Some thoughts I have had recently is about an athlete and their coaches.  I don't have a coach, except for Alan, and our Wednesday and Saturday.  I go by feel.  I guess if I had something on paper to say I need to do this or that it would be easier.  Look at my to-do-list so to speak, and get it done.  Me I do as much as I can, and as much as I want.  Less than others and more than others.  So that means to me.  I definitely see the value in a coach.  Some of us are just out here though doing it on our own, and having fun, making friends, etc... 

Yesterday's run begins with my first ever season with the running group.  Remember I got down to around 174, and ran my first marathon.  Well, I got back up to 195 or so after.  I still ran, but I had an injury, and didn't do as much as I did before.  Now this time was pre-blogger time.  I ran the Chicago marathon that fall, and I was pretty big.  It was the heat Marathon, and I finished in like... you know what I am not sure what the time was.  I probably shouldn't have run it.  I think I was 2:10 at the half.  It was brutal.  Smarter people than me didn't run it, although they trained for it.  My cousin Rudy was one, and Barb was another.  I did go that far back yes.  :)  It was a long time ago tho. 

During my first season I ran with Nancy, and Carol.  I ran with them yesterday.  That was Nancy's first year with the running group, and my first year.  Nancy was a first time 5K'er to now a multi-marathoner.  Her carrot is Boston.  It is a tough little carrot for many people.  I had no idea.  I don't even know what my Boston qualifier is to be honest.  It was once something I thought about I guess, but not too much now.   I am in it for fun.  So little Carol is a trooper, and she got her Boston mark at Bayshore last year.  In the heat she got her little body to get to the finish in her time.  There were some remarkable runs at Bayshore.  Remember Rick somehow broke 3-hours at Bayshore.  He definitely is not the fastest in our group, but when it comes to race day he sure is.  I don't know how he does it.  Miles and miles of slow slow miles I guess.  Carol said yesterday on their Sunday long runs, they average like 11 minute miles.  UGHHHHHHH  wha???????  It works for him I guess, but not sure if I enjoy running that much to run 11 minute miles for 20 miles 20 weeks in a row, or whatever the heck it is he does.  :) 

So anyway it was fun to run with the girls yesterday.  They both did the Disney tri-fecta last year.  5K-1/2marathon-full marathon.  Their training would be a 10 miler followed by a 20 miler, or probably the other way around.  20 followed by 10 back to back.  Carol has her Boston, and Nancy wants hers.  Nancy has been running through pain for a couple years now though.  eeeeeek.  How lucky am I??  If I get injured it heals completely.  Even Jerry battles his hamstring all the time.  This is a tough sport.  Running is the hardest part, because it is the toughest on the body. 

Well these are just thoughts out loud.  I saw Amanda running yesterday on the ice melt.  I don't think she is training for anything, but she said she may do Riverbank.  A great distance.  Over a half and under 20.  It is always my favorite race. 

I have some thoughts surfacing.  Not to the surface yet, so this entry doesn't have much.  Like I said though this what I write here is important.  I hope it is entertaining, because well, just because.  So... as I said I don't really have much today, so you know what is coming up....

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am going to see if I can get some more sleep before I go into work.  Wish me luck.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Oh, and for some reason I think Olga is the best tweeter in the wiiiirrrrrrrllllllldddddd!~!!   :)

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Who Shielded Annies Eyes When She Was In The Concentration Camp?

Folks Folks Folks Folks.  The Germans were the ones who burned the books!!!!   Censor me?????????  Ooooh, bad idea.  "Friends" close to me tried to play that game, and now we are no longer friends.  Life is fluid, but I will not see them on FB... for now.  It may be a while.  I got to the point where there was truth, and there was anger.  Anger goes overboard, and I saw truth.  I looked at FB.  Anger wanted me to purge again, and then I realized I love all these people, but the two who censored me.  Soooo I got rid of them two.  Two more paid the price though, because instead of being up front, and honest about the stuff, they tried to play the Neville Chamberlain Diplomacy card.  Yeah, that doesn't work so much.  I would say yes to them if they want.  Hafta be strong folks.  Truth is truth good and bad.  There is no luke warm to strong.  Being strong is being strong!!  Trust me I have been doing this a long time.  It gets easy!!  It is a path, a route, a journey, and the first steps can be hard.  I doubt it was hard for Lora, and it seemingly doesn't seem hard for Gina, but Gina has her moments of weakness too.  imho.

So here are some thoughts I have.  After Bayshore I said everyone has a story let them blog, I'd read it right??  Well maybe this isn't for everyone.  Maybe I am good at it.  Maybe people want their story told.  You have to be out there.  You have to throw all your security out the window.  You need to be brave like the two Nancy bloggers.  I "talk" on my blog about the people I come into contact with.  Those who are out there.  You run with me you will have a story.  You hang with me you have a story.  Jerry, and Jeff will make it more than most, cause I run with them.  People at work will make it the most, cause I am in contact with them a lot.  Beau, and Charity will make it as they are my best friends.  Jacob, and Steph too, as let's face it I always love hanging out with them, although I don't as much as I'd like.

Ones on the other side of Lake Macatawa can too, but 2 have to be "all in"  The other 2 will have to be patient, because you deceive.  You were too smart.  You bluffed, and I called you, and I had all the cards.

Another thought I had has to be with the pedestal.  A scary position, because you know there is only one way.  A person doesn't always stay up there, but you can trust me, I am nice.  Some people went from pedestal to ground level, and it is a hard journey.  It seems they fought it all the way, and when they said "Hey look it is me"!!  I said, "Yep, and this is me, nice to know you friend."  :)  "I still love you."  :)

As you look at my life on the outside you see it isn't all fabulous.  On ALL the things that aren't really very important at the end of the day, I have very little.  Like my little Annie though my eyes don't need to be shielded.  I don't need to be censored, because I know the one who holds all the cards, and he knows me.  My strength  comes from within, because there was one really really really strong person who overcame all, and he never died.  He is still alive in spirit, and all.  That is not the story of Christmas, it is the story of Easter.  Whether you believe that or not is of no concern to anything at all.  It means nothing, because he will reveal himself to who he reveals himself to.

So I don't care about people's beliefs.  It is not something that needs to be changed, because what can I do??  I have these words right.  There is one who changes hearts, and minds.  Not in my power.  I am pretty interesting tho huh??  Even Victor says so.  :)   lol

I love Kim Stark too.  She is my fav.  I love all the Starks, because they are the bestest.  They are always in a good mood.  Even when they aren't.  Kim worked with us a long time, and she more often than not had a smile on her face.  She was fun to have around.  Now she is H.R. of one of the busiest stores.   She is pretty too.  :)  So all ya all.  Your story will be told.  I love you all.  :)  Especially the pretty girls.  :)   lol.   j/k  ya all are great.  I love my FB friends too, there were none I wanted to get rid of but 2.  I got rid of 5, but added my brother John back.  Or said yes anyway.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!  :)

p.s. I know I seem flirty on here, but it is in good fun.  I tell Lisa and she laughs, so don't take it all serious.  I am the freaking I love you kissing bandit anyway dag nabbit!!!  :)  Oh, and Jen Parker Harrison is the blogger with boots, and no pictures.   :))   lol

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Oh, I love Sugarleg too.  She is a great blogger.  Probably better than that Atrios guy.  :)  I wouldn't know I don't read Atrios, I just read his tweets.  :)

Friday, December 17, 2010

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO lolol lol :)

Well, I have absolutely no idea where I am going with this post, so bear with me.  :)  We have some family stuff going on over yonder across that big lake.  After talking to my Dad, I made a tough decision.  Well, it wasn't really tough.  I told my brother Jim he should stay on that side of the lake.  He is a bit like Jackie, and that will not work here.  There are resources on that side of the lake which can help him get on his feet.  Down on his luck so to speak, but much of his own doing.  He will just have to put his tail between his leg, and ask.

Some people hold onto so much freaking baggage,  I am like get over it.  Your life- be active do stuff to the best of your ability.  My Dad is active, still spinning, and playing handball, etc...  So I say again for someone as active as me it is hard to deal with the inactivity.  Not my strength.

In other news our car broke down, or is about to.  We have a mechanic friend who looked at it.  Tie rod ends are about shot.  :)  Lisa's best friend's husband is a mechanic.  He looked at it, and he is going to fix it.  Once we save up the money.  :)

In my life, how I am, this shit doesn't bug me.  Lisa wanted to borrow money and shit, I was like Fuck No!!  I didn't really say fuck no, but ... well maybe I did.  We got ourselves into this pickle we'll get out.  I am not freaking borrowing money again.  Unless I bounce a check/debit.  :)    This is just an opportunity for me to be active, show an example, and keep the sun shining in my life.

I missed my workout yesterday due to napping through it, so today I will run to work.  It is a little under 4 miles.  Why not??  People climb freaking Everest and K2, I can freaking jog to work at 4 in the morning.  That is who I am now.  Just freaking do it.  Whatever path we find ourselves in I guess there is hope knowing I can make this work, because others have probably been through tougher things.  Remember my witto sweetheart girl Anne Frank.  In other words this ain't shit to me.  Like I put on twitter, In my life I don't have obstacles just little detours that help make me strong.  Everything positive in my world folks, cause that is how I do.  I get an early workout in.  Wooooooo!!  I hope Katie is working tonight.  Still going there.  Lisa punched me when I told her.  :)   lol

So let's see, what else is going on in my life.  Oh, something funny happened at work yesterday.  I will leave the names out although Victor was in on it.  :)   Him and some other guy, I'll leave his name out, were talking about having a drinking contest.  A freaking drinking contest.  Work has become a freaking dorm room.  lol.  They were actually smack talking too.  I laughed my ass off.  The one dude was telling Victor, " You just don't understand, I am totally going to demolish you."  omg how funny.  Oh, and btw Victor is married with a child, and the other guy is a college graduate.  :)  Crazy kids.  I love it.   :)

So I found out yesterday there is a blogger who has been holding out on us all.  She has boots, and there have been no pictures.  What is up with that??  Who hides their boots when I obviously have a fetish with girls in boots.  Sheesh!!!  j/k.   :) 

As I look at myself, through my 3-D rainbow glasses I see a man who is immature'ish.  I talk of important things though.  I see the zany stuff Joseph Heller saw, and I looked at the serious stuff Howard Zinn saw, and take this roller coaster ride of life through the hills and valleys, already knowing this race I ran has been won.  I was sad when I won it seemingly, but now I am not.  We are on a journey, and for me this is fun.  I think some of you need to muscle up some courage, as I am free to do as I wish.  You bloggers are not open with your thoughts as much as you can be.  I see that.  I like Maija's last sentence in her last post.  I mean yeah who expects all to be perfect.  Be real.  Be out there.  Why not??  None of us think you are perfect, but if you show the bad we will relate, and it is in our faults where we find love.  Our world is not perfect, and our lives are not perfect.  This is life.  Whatever is true, and whatever is honest is a good thing... even if you think it is bad.

I write my thoughts here, and maybe you think I am a bad person, but you know what???  Your thoughts are not much better, you just hide them.  Judge me if you want, many of you already have, but you are no better, probably not worse.  :)  None of us are perfect you crazy goofs.  Although Kim Kim Kim is pretty high on a pedestal right now in my eyes.  What can I say I have rockstaritis.   When someone is talented, and nice, and appreciative, and everything like that then WOOOOOOOOO!!!  :)

You know silence is deadly in a way.  You hear nothing and you think people don't like you.  When people lie to me, it makes me mad at them.  When people are out there being themselves I love them a ton.  Be true and be honest.  Fake shit sucks.  No one wants to see that shit.  Just freaking be real.

Like Nancy said, (new blogger Nancy) I would put stuff out on FB, and no one would respond.  really??  Don't you people care about others???  This shit is done together folks, quit being so selfish!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a  Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)  :)  (put 2 smiles there, forgot one yesterday)  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Life-live it like you won it.  You did!!!   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Everyone give Jeff Stark a big shout out.  He kinda won the lottery.  Our store after this weekend will be clsoing at 9:00 pm.  He gets to close at 10:00 pm on Friday and Saturday. What a lucky bastard.  I wish I could be at the local lumberyard til 10:00 pm on BOTH a Friday and a Saturday.  Especially when the next time we'll be open til 10:00 pm is when weekdays in February are  in the rear view mirror.  I will be in mourning next week for 10:00 pm closes.  Especially on Fridays and Saturdays.  :)

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Random Thoughts.... I think...

Hold on let me get some coffee.  :)

First off I have another person I added to my right hand side.  She is a friend from our High School.  Her name is Nancy, and she is totally a natural natural blogger.  She is a great FB'er, so I knew she'd be a great blogger.  She really puts herself out there.  She has been struggling with some stuff, and posted on FB.  I said hold on, let me think about things, and I'll get back to you.  2 seconds later, I sent her a message to blog.  :)  Her first one is done, and she is a natural.  Here is her link if you want to check it out. 

As you know I am going to Chicago over Christmas.  I put out feelers to Nancy O Toole to maybe meet for a coffee or something.  She has no interest.  She probably doesn't read my blog.  lol.  SHEESH!!  Don't you people know how freaking interesting I am  >: /    lol. 

So I guess when people write something they like comments.  I will do my part.  Even for you who don't read me.  :)  Not that you will know, until you see your comments.  lol.  I once did get mad when people didn't read me, but now I could care less.  It is your life do with it as you will.  What makes me any better to be read than say anyone else??  Well for one thing I am a guy, and I comment.  I care what girls think, and what they feel.  Not a typical guy's strength.  Guys on average are pretty selfish.  Girls care more, and deeper than guys.  So ALL relationships will have rough spots I'd say.  Lisa and I do well, because we don't do everything together.  We see each other every day.  We both are pretty patient with people.  She really is nice to most people.  I typically ignore people I don't like.  People who are always in a bad mood.  I don't like them.  They typically are mean.  They blame their bad moods on others, instead of looking inside their own head.  That is what Nancy is doing.  (my new blogger Nancy)  she isn't out blaming everyone about her mood swings.  She is wondering what is it about me that causes this?  I think that is a route to find answers.  Look to yourself, and you can find bits of knowledge, and wisdom.  Those are things worth looking into.  IMHO.

Nancy O' Toole was/is really good at that too.  Throwing herself out there for the world to see.  She has been busy tho, so not much blogging or anything.  I like to put people's names on this thing, because I think of people.  I like people... well most people.  I like Nikki Vandenheuvel.  She cracks me up.  :)  lol.  I worked with her husband for like 90 years.  That was like 147 years ago tho.

So this is totally a random post.  My list is filled with a lot of women.  You know how I think.  I think women typically are better at this stuff than men, but the men I read seem to have gotten a bit better.  Looking at things different.  Looking for answers in the sky, and nature, in effort, in their heads.  Looking at everything.  Thinking of things.  As we look around we realize.  WOW!!  There is more to life than just the day to day. 

Oh, my workout.  1 hour on the trainer, and push ups and pull ups.  4 sets of 15, and 5.  I still have to find my swimming stuff.  I have no money til Friday tho, so maybe Friday I will try and swim.  I want to get to New Holland though.  I miss Katie.  :)   lol.  j/k.    kinda.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Why are their so many freaking fruit flies on my computer screen???  >: /

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Excited Bwog Excited Bwog!!

First off I had a typo yesterday.  DANG 3:00 am blogging.  :)  The new blog girl is named Kim Kim Kim, and you can check out her blog here.   She just finished an ironman, and did it in just over 10 hours.  Now that has to be DANG fast.  She placed really well in overall too.  Probably beat some pro racers.  SHEESH!!  So I am going to be a huge fan of hers.  A groupie if you will.  :)  lol.  Anyway I guess she is pretty small.  On her last post she had a picture of her and the pro who won the dang thing, and she was happy that the pro was small too.  Yep them little girls can move FAST FAST FAST!!  Knowing someone online is a bit different than knowing a person "in real life"  :)  We have our own little Cathy F. who is... well heck is she even 5 foot tall??  lol.  She can move though.  I marvel at how small people can move so fast, and I am sooo slow compared to them.  One of the great things about what I do.  I get to see all kinds of people, and marvel at their accomplishments.

I struggle to get my p.r.'s and at the end of the day they really are only important to me.  It is fun for me though.  Can I get better??  Can I improve??  Can I take some time off the clock from a previous time?  Along the way I get to meet different people.  Watch them improve.  In this game we do, we try to do a lot, and we try to stay healthy.  Now let's face it last year I was a runner.  The year before I was a runner/ tri-trainer.  As it would happen I didn't race any tri's but you cannot take the training away.  It is cross training, and it still is good.  I haven't given up hope to do another tri though.  I just have to get back in the pool.  This week or maybe next week fo sho!!  Maybe today if I can find my stuff.  :)  lol.  Not that I am not organized.  ;) 

So yesterday at work we had our first ever external audit.  It was from a C.P.A. firm who pick a few stores to check inventory for tax purposes.  A random sample of our inventory at our store.  They do that to a number of stores, and project via statistics the actual inventory of the entire company.  We did pretty good.  Nothing was way off, and no huge inventory $$$$ missing.  So that is good.  I wasn't really worried about it anyway.  The girl who did it was real real nice.  She had a sister who ran Boston, and she ran the Eau Claire half marathon last year.  When she told me I was like omg that had to be hilly.  She said yep.  She was like me too during her race.  CRANKY!!!  lol.  So she was really nice, and it all went pretty well I think.

On my workout I fell asleep instead of riding the trainer.  OOOPPPPSSSSSSS!!!  It was actually good though, because on my run my legs were shaking toward the end.  A little biking/running phenomena I guess.  My legs have to get used to biking and running.  Probably a slow process.  I showed up late to the meeting place, and accidentally for a while tried to play catch up.  I caught myself and slowed down.  I caught the group after the first turn, as I cut my loops short, and tacked it on at the end.  I just kept it nice and slow.  Even on the last loop when for some reason Jerry and Jeff sped up, me and Bob held back.  No sense elevating the heart rate.  My race isn't in February.  :)  I thought of doing 4.5 miles, but everyone was doing 6.  I still thought of doing 4.5 miles anyway.  :)  I did 6.  It was @ 8:59 pace.  A good workout.  I did my push ups when I got home, but not the pull ups.  Another week I think, and I'll bump the push up reps to 20... I think.

I think that is about it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Monday seemed like a strange blogging day to me... and yesterday too.  I like it.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

So This Blog Isn't For Everyone!!

Cool by me.  I have my list, and I am keeping it.  I comment almost always.  Sometimes there might not be anything there, but I still check it out.  So if you don't get a comment for one of the few times you may not, don't worry, just not much there.  I typically don't do picture blog entries too much.  fwiw.  :)  Well besides Olga's tumblr stuff.  She always has cute and funny stuff.  :D 

I like telling stories of people on this thing.  Now you all know enough about Gina how we really started becoming good friends right before Steve R.'s thing.  My niece Marilynn is going through some problems health related.  I guess dealing with stuff every day like Maija.  Hers is Type 1 Diabetes, and a whole slew of other stuff.  Like I have said before those with the name Marilynn Pejchl have had to deal with stuff.  She does it with grace and humor, but also tears, and fears. etc... Everything.

Gina has a bit of a gift.  One I don't think she likes to share with all, so I won't put it on here.  Her friend Paulette also has a bit of a gift too, and probably even more so than Gina.  I knew of Paulette, because on my 76 mile bike ride last Spring, where Gina "saw" stuff, Paulette was the girl she called.  Recently Paulette and I became friends, and she is really nice.  :)  Having said that, things are pretty normal now.  See I believe everything.  EVERYTHING.  Evolution??? yep.  World been around for billions of years??? yep.  Bible?? yep.  Wisdom of everyday folk??  yep??  I listen to a lot, and see a lot.  Big Bang???  sure why not.  Mercury Retrograde???  seems plausible to me.  Here is what I go by.  I think there is a little bit of truth in everything.

A little secret... you try to force yourself to believe what you think is right, but if you are open and honest about stuff nothing bad will happen.  Don't be afraid of your thoughts, just be afraid to be less than honest.  That really is the only bad thing in my opinion.  Like I said there is probably a little bit of truth in everything.  Don't hide from what is honest and what is true about yourself.  I guess it is scary sometimes, but we are all in this together.  You are not alone.  So be strong, and stay strong.

In my world strong = honest.  Don't worry about your shortcomings, we all have them.  All of us. 

oh, yesterday, my workout was 50 minutes on the trainer, and I cut my sets to 4 for strength.  4 sets of pull ups, and 4 sets of push ups.  Pull ups were 5, because I am going to change it to 6.  Push ups still at 15.  Easy day, and today is a run day plus more trainer time.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!  :)

p.s. the new girl I added, her name is Beth, and she seems really nice.  I like nice.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Winter Runnin

The thing about living in the Midwest and training for a spring Marathon is what we have to do.  We run in snow, in cold, in wind, you name it.  That is what we did yesterday.  What a good weekend workout wise for me.  I got everything accomplished I wanted.  I don't know if I ever feel I get everything done I want to get done, but this weekend workout wise I did.  You know how I go too.  I don't follow any specific plan.  I go by feel.  I try and take enough days off from running, and fill up those off days with other stuff.  If I get back to swimming this week, and it is successful.  (no back pain)  (going to shorten my stroke)  then there won't be many "total off" days at all.  Back in the groove so to speak.  That would mean last year, although I biked and ran more than any other year is a bit of an off year.  We have weeks, which are down weeks, then maybe last year was a down year.  A recover year.  A refuel year.

So after some confusion on the distance last week, we got the distance figured out.  It was not 8.84 miles, it was actually 10 miles.  A certain gentleman, (I'd put his first name, but I am not sure which name is his first.) messed up the mapping. lol  So it is a 10 miler.  This week's run was much better than last week's run.  At least in how I felt.  I felt strong toward the end, and we even gave it a pretty good kick the last 1/2 mile or so.  I didn't log the run, but it was close to 9:30 pace I think.  A good 5 mile stretch was against the wind too.  The wind was pretty brisk, but we really kept the pace nice and easy most of the way.  Jerry was doubling up on 10 mile runs, and I just did an 8.  Lets face it too, we are over 5 months out from the marathon, so we are just base building.  No need to kill ourselves.  There is always plenty of time for that.  :)  I really felt good after that run.  Nice to get out there.

That basically was it for the day.  I worked for a few hours in the morning, and relaxed before the run.  Lisa made lasagna for dinner.  Nummy!!  :)

Couple other things to note.  Don't worry Gene, I will blog.  It is what I do.  :)  Thanks for reading btw.  Oh, and you people probably don't even know.  Gene and I played soccer together ago like maybe 1000 years ago.  His Mom would drive sometimes, and my step-mom would drive sometimes.  I think mostly his mom did though.  We were little.  We both played through H.S.  I was burnt out of soccer.  Bored with it.  Did it too much.  By the time H.S. was done I was done with soccer.  I played a little indoor soccer at the Holland Soccer Spot.  Klaus DeBoer owns it.  Too rough on the legs for marathon training.  Concrete floor.  It is why I quit flag football too.  That shit beats the hell out of your body.  #YIKES!!!   :)

Also am a bit worried about the nice little blogger girl in Poland.  Something is bugging her, and I am a bit worried.  :(   Something has her down.  BOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Other than that the Bears suck.  I am going to catch all kinds of hell from John Q.  He is the guy who sold us our house.  He works at the local lumberyard a few days each week, as the housing market sucks.  Everyone has to make due.  Is that the proper term??? due???   He is a big New England fan.  Been that way forever.  He also is the absolute WORST FREAKING smack talker ever.  lol.   SHIT SHIT SHIT!!!   :)  FUCK!!

Oh well, ready to get my Monday game face on.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. the blog I checked out Saturday night, I commented on, and added to my list.  She is another Superstar athlete.  Sheesh, my list is attracted to them types huh??

Now for really really cya cya cya!!  :)

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Some Things I Noticed

Not Everyone feels confident all the time.  People who you think might be the strongest, most talented, most confident want to hear nice things once in a while.  They want to know people watch, and people care.  Sometimes people worry about what others would say or think. 

Here is how I work.  I write my thoughts, and hopes, and fears, you name it on here.  I let it all out, and then I worry.  :)  Not too terrible much, but I am honest on this thing to the best of my ability.  I call it as I see it.  I had a good "cyber conversation" with Sugarleg yesterday, and communications got out of whack.  She has thoughts about things, and hey I am with her.  Why not??  Not everyone is going to believe what she believes, but I say sounds plausible to me.  Beliefs aren't dangerous.  Being not honest is.  It is really the only dangerous thing I think.  Nothing good comes from it.  So if you had the opportunity to do something that is right 100% of the time, I would think to do that would be right. 

Here is the dilemma I think.  Perhaps we ALWAYS want to seem nice.  Do the nice things, but you know what, who is so perfect??  I do mean stuff.  I get angry, and I get bad feelings about people.  I know if I get angry at someone and am honest about it nothing but good will come from it.  Why??  Because an honest emotion directed toward someone will make them reflect.  It gives them a better view of the mirror if you will.  Don't you think? 

I think so.  I love it when people are nice, and do great things.  I checked out a blog last night, just based on a nice comment.  She was once again a successful triathlete, and she was thankful for all the well wishes from other people.  She posted it as a comment though instead of on her blog.  Maybe that is why I looked too.  :)

So anyway my workout was pretty successful yesterday as in I got done what I wanted.  I ran 7.92 miles @ 9:25 pace or something like that.  Pretty slow I know, but gotta believe in the process.  Others have done this more than me.  I went to breakfast at Deboer bros.  I talked to Jacob.  You know I haven't talked to him since the "bad night".  Told him everything was o.k.  I was a jerk, but I hit my breaking point.  Then I putzed for a bit.  Cleaned up the kitchen, and did some laundry, and rode the trainer for an hour.  Woo Hoo!!  Success Success. 

I ended up being tired, and was planning on chilling.  Those plans changed.  I ended up going to dinner with Beau and Charity, and C.C. and Seth.  :)  Ha Ha!!  Charity is so gay!!  :)  I had a couple beers, and went home after.  I was sooooo tired.  I realized I didn't eat enough yesterday.  Totally skipped lunch.  I was probably a bit dehydrated too.  Don't get real thirsty in the winter for some reason.  My ring could have easily fell off my finger.  It was fun, we had some good conversations.  You know what is weird about my blog??  I have hung out with these people for a long time.  C.C. is kinda new to the crew only a year or so. They never knew me like this.  We know some, because life does get talked about, but this is knowing me more.  I am cool with that.  I am still the same guy who likes to have his drinks, and have fun.  There is definitely more to me though huh?  There is more to us all.  Anyway pretty neat.  :)

Hmmm anything else???  Just one note.  I am running 10 miles today, but I won't be doing push ups and pull ups, because on my run yesterday my arms were so heavy.  I am not going to stop doing my strength stuff, because I will get better.  Oh, and my push ups from the other day were 4 sets of 15.  I successfully made the jump.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Going to be a good day today.  work, run, and stuff.  Woop Woop!!!   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.  :)

Saturday, December 11, 2010

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG

So you know I have this harmless crush on the pretty girl from New Holland.  The one who reminds me of Gina. Well anyways I went to New Holland AFTER MY 1 HOUR ON THE TRAINER, and push ups and pull ups.  I didn't see her at first, but then I did.  She gave me a big smile, and a big wave.  My heart almost dropped to my ankles.  I am in love.  :)  lol.   She even bought my last beer for me.  Maybe the crush isn't so harmless now.  Ha Ha  j /k.   :)  That was nice of her.  I told her I don't come in on Tuesdays cause we run on the snow melt, but she says she only bartends on Tuesdays and waitresses the rest of the time.  She likes waitressing better.  In other words I'll see her around.  That's cool she is really nice, and we even have mutual friends in the DeBoers.  Anyway her niceness made my night.  :)

So my Friday was pretty productive workout-wise.  Been a while on a Friday huh??  That is how it is going to be from now on.  I am starting to build again, and it feels good.  I still had time to have a few beers and stuff too, so a good night.  Friday isn't so bad for having a few beers, because let's face it the running group, which I am running with today starts at 7:30.  I'll be up for a few hours before that anyway.  I am wondering what I am going to look like as we approach mid February... let's say on  Wednesday the 17th.  2011.  Miles will be elevated running.  I hope to be consistent on the trainer, and push ups and pull ups.  I think I will be.  My outlook is very positive.  I will be in pretty good shape.  Maybe I will have quite the year.  We shall see.  It all is exciting.  This is the lifestyle I enjoy.  Active, busy, pushing myself, seeing people.  I like it all. 

So I am thinking of working Sundays now.  One of the problems I feel in our store is downstocking.  Not enough hours in the day.  I don't mind coming in for a few hours on Sunday to help out.  It gives me flexibility during the week, and the stuff I'd do on Sunday I'd probably end up trying to do during the week anyway.  I like doing it too.  I picked up a shift this Sunday btw.  Hardware.  :)  It works out too, because I don't normally do any Sunday workout til later.  Remember in the summer I bike in the afternoon typically.  I am going to upgrade my pedals this year on my bike too.  Do they call them peddles??  I don't know if there is a technical term or not. 

Maybe just maybe I might even jump in the pool this week.  See how the ol swimming stroke feels.  Wouldn't that be something.  To get all 3 going again.  WOOOO!!

So, I don't remember if I told you or not, but I am running with the group today.  Alan is starting early this year, cause he has several people running Boston, so need to get an early start.  That is fine by me.  So this weekend is a jump for me.  I plan on probably running 8 miles today, and 10 miles with Jerry tomorrow.  That will be a good jump for the season, and a good jump getting in shape wise.  Plus I will still have to do the trainer today too, and laundry, and cleaning, etc...  Lisa had pizza for lunch and dinner last night.  :)  I had beer and toast.  :)  lol.  and some eggs.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. The girls name is Katie.  I am going to spell it Katy though like Katy Perry.  Oh, and last I checked I was blocked on Twitter FWIW.  :) 

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

Friday, December 10, 2010

Run Very Much More Better Than Maybe Some Other Ones I've Had. :)

Today I will start with my workout.  Wednesday was not my happiest day of all time.  Some important relationships got a bit messy.  When they get messy .... ummm that isn't exactly starting with my workout is it?  :)

I didn't use the trainer yesterday... mostly because I didn't want to after my run.  My run was good.  It wasn't fast.  I think 9:25 pace or something like that, but it was over 2/3rds running on slippery snow.  You know how those are.  Those runs are no gauge of speed.  I am base building anyway, so not too concerned with speed.  I felt good the whole run.  I have a 4.25 mile route that can be shortened to 3.13 miles by turning at a hill.  I had no thought even of turning.  I ran up the hill, and finished my 4.25 mile route.  I know I know 4.25 miles big deal, but I really feel like I am starting to get back in shape.  From my non-November til now things are starting to get better.  I felt pretty good about that.

I didn't do pull ups, because I didn't feel like going downstairs.  :)  I did push ups.  I think I did 6 sets.  15-10-15-10-15-10.  I might have forgotten to do the last 10, but slowly the main rep will be 15 instead of 10.  Building up to 25.  Ideally I'd like to do 4 sets of 25 twice each day.  It isn't time consuming, but you just don't always get around to it.  My hour on the trainer almost every day is not close to being reached.  See zero minutes the last two days.  ;)  I still think about that shit.  I always put my workouts on this dang thing too, so if I fail all who read this see.  Really it comes down to there are only so many hours in the day.  I still have other shit to do a lot too you know??

So my niece Marilynn has a blog and Laura K started one now too.  Marilynn is in College, and Laura K. is a Senior in H.S.  I love blogs.  You know I read people who I trust.  I don't read everyone,everyone on my list tho.  :)  I read people who I feel comfortable with.  That has been pretty fluid.  Ever-changing in the past, but I feel it is pretty tight right now.  Meaning no changes unless I add.  I'd add Marilynn and Laura, but for some reason it doesn't read it in the reader, so tumblr adds tweets, so I see them that way.  :)

Well, anyway I don't think I have much to write about today so I will leave it at that.  You know running really clears the mind huh?  In the winter you always don't feel like getting out there, but it is ALWAYS worth it... at least to me.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Lisa has a lunch date with Helen, and a dinner date with Linda and Ami.  SHE IS ONE POPULAR MAMA!!!   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!   :)

UGH!!!  you again???  ^    :)

Thursday, December 9, 2010

To Blog Or Not To Blog

I have been toying about that.  Not forever, but just for today.  For some reason though, I think people want to see an update.  I don't think they like to see an angry one, but they don't mind sad, I guess would rather see happy, perhaps funny??  Not sure, I'd be the last to know.  :)   (just a joke)   hee hee

We got a card in the mail yesterday from Myrna with a little letter. That was nice.  Did we always get cards from her??  I don't remember.  Didn't I get a picture of Barbara's kids last Thanksgiving??  OMG that was such a hard day for me.  That was my 5K remember??  I posted On Dee's site I liked her picture, and something else anonymously, and caught all kinds of crap for that.  I meant well though, and let them see my story.  That dude from Minnesota too.  I haven't read him in like 1000 years.  I remember he was funny.  He had a thing on his website follow me on twitter.  So I did, and he didn't follow me back.  I was like screw that.  Why would you have a follow me if you don't follow me back.  I took it the wrong way, because I believe in me.  I am not glamorous, I am not rich, I am not fast, but I made a small step a long time ago.  I did not know where it was leading, but I did it.  Do you know where it leads???

It sets you free.  Unknowingly that was the path I took.  The one to set me free.  It even says so.

If one decides to check out my blog.  I am sorry for being mean, but I am sometimes.  When push comes to shove I believe in myself, and I have help.  When I read you all on your bad days I am there.  Maybe I can make you laugh a bit on your good days.  If you give me some I give you more.  I already have given you a lot.  I plan on giving more.  I am not mad.  It is all forgotten and all forgiven.  That is how I roll.  You know I would have never made it through Heimleblog without you.  You were my strength when no one believed in me.  I told you that before, and am reminding you here.  Yes tears are down my face as I wrote that.  So know you still are very important to me, and that ain't changing.  You are important to others too.  Look at Barb's post.  Look at Audrey's  Not the date one, but the one before.  A lot of people look to you.  You help them, and you don't even know it.  Maybe I do too sometimes when I update and comment.

I still love you !!  :)   I sometimes wonder between the two of us who is the more clumsy minded.  We are definitely alike in that way.  :)

Well anyways...

No workouts yesterday.  At work my hamstrings were a bit sore.  It would have been at max a short run, push ups, pull ups, and trainer day.  At minimum I would have not run, but done the others.  As is my case sometimes I did less than the minimum.  :)  I at least have that in common with some of the other bloggers I read.  Others are pretty much way much more better than that than me.  :)

So anything else???

hmmmmm.  Well, I do plan on getting my workout in today.  I kinda had a Wednesday = Friday yesterday.  So today I can get some work in.  I just listened to music and stuff yesterday.

Now I remember why my hamstrings were sore yesterday.  I bent down a lot.  You ever get that at all??  bend down a lot and boom the hamstrings are sore??  I know we do that when we plant a lot of flowers... usually some weekday in February.  :)   Ha Ha j/k.  We really do that in the spring.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Dunn and Konerko.  Go long on the Sox this year.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

UGH!!!  there it is AGAIN!!!   :)

Oh one other thing.  There is a pretty girl who works at the liquor store.  She dresses up a lot in the summer.  I complimented her a few times.  She really looks nice dressed up.  She for a while looked either mad or sad, so I didn't say much.  The last two times she had really shiny pretty nails.  I commented on them, and said they look nice.  They were Lee press on nails.  All she could afford.  I told her I asked my wife about nails.  Do they do more with them now??  They do.  It seems over the last year or so they made huge improvements.  I think that is one positive step for mankind.  :)   lol