A List Of 40!! :)

Okay I got this idea from one of my favorite bloggers I read.  A list of 40.  She is turning 40 btw, so maybe I'll do 44.  Maybe I'll do 144, who knows?  I did disagree with something she had on her list.  Something about doing what you love, and the money will follow.  I don't agree with that so much, just because of all the poverty in the world, and companies like Enron, small businesses who went under due to the financial fiasco, etc...  So when it comes to money I don't put a lot of faith in the systems that are in place.  That is not a knock on her list, just an area where I disagree.  I love lists though, because they are honest portrayal's of people's thoughts.  Not everyone will agree with you anyway, and I don't expect people to agree with everything I put down. They'd be wrong, but whatever.   ;)

I'll call this 40 honest thoughts.... or maybe more than 40.  :)

1. If you reap what you sow, sow in honesty, and truth.  I think it is in our power.  
2. I think too highly of myself.  I think too much revolves around me in my own mind.  That is silly and arrogant.
3. I don't have a lot of faith that I can get real real fast.  
4. I can do o.k. though I think for someone with average ability.
5. I don't think I work real hard, but maybe it appears so to others.  (compared to others) 
6. A taste of success can feed a fire.  Help motivate.
7. Anger and hate can motivate too.  See War!!
8. When I first started at Menards I didn't own a car.  I walked 2'ish miles to and from work for over a year.  
9. I took public transportation to my job at Wards while I was in college.
10. If you hear stories of people walking to get groceries, walking to work, etc... I lived it.
11. Just couldn't afford a car was the only reason, and didn't want to take a loan.  Didn't know how to.  
12. I am running to work today, and it makes me feel tough.  
13. That which doesn't kill us right??  I guess I believe that.  
14. A lot of times I feel people dislike me.  Is that the truth??  Or Insecurity??
15. I don't like talking of "organized religion" I don't go to church.
16. I don't plan on going to church.
17. I disliked going to the church classes when I got married.
18. The preacher's son worked for me, and I bought him beer when he was underage.
19. Pretty sure the preacher knew about it.  :)
20. Are they even called preachers??  weird name.  
21. "OrganizedReligion" in my opinion brings out the worst in people.  How many wars are started because of it?
22. Both sides pray to the same God too.  :)
23. I think a 30 minute run can energize, and an hour run can tire you out.  
24. 5K goals are just as important and just as challenging as marathon goals.
25. I told Olga that this morning.  :)
26. Holy crap is 40 a lot.  I doubt I make it to 144.  :)
27. I think some people judge me, and it makes me mad.
28. Truth = judging is looking at others instead of looking at yourself.  The wrong path.
29. If people judge me, and I get angry, I may judge back.  
30. Even in despair I can look inside myself for strength.  
31. I am pretty strong right now.  
32. I am pretty surprised at how my life is right now.  Really had no idea it would be like this.
33. Like all things, some is good and some is bad.
34. Having said that it is fun most times. 
35. I don't really have any goals this year I don't think, except to improve.
36. That will probably change once we start speed work. 
37. I took the puppy for a 2.3 mile run yesterday.  I wanted to beat the shit out of him at times.  :)
38. We survived, and I went on and ran another 3.13 miles.  I planned on 6 more, but took too long of a break.
39. My legs got a bit tired, so I cut it short, but I can run to work today.  YAY!!   :)
40. "I have learned it is usually best to just keep my mouth shut 99% of the time."  snagged from JPH.  She is smart.  She has done that too.  I think everyone should read her.  
41. Have I learned that??  I don't know.  I do this almost every morning for good and bad I guess.
42. A lot of my friends have seen death this year.  Jen Gray's mom passed on Christmas Eve.  They were close.
43. To look at sadness takes strength.  We may not always look pretty when we do, but it is important to look at it... for some reason.  How do I know??  Because I had to look at some people's sadness.  Plus I had to look at my own.  So this I know to be true.
44. When you look at it, you are healed of it.  
45. I think this is where we go now.  
46. It isn't all encompassing, and life still goes on, and there are plenty of good days.  There will be some hard days/moments though.  You will be fine, all of you.  In that you can trust.  :)

With that I say that is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!  :)

p.s. I really got worked up during that stupid Bears game.  :)  lol.  Glad we won.  Offense coming around, defense kind of sucking a bit.  We can stop the run though.  We shall see.  It will be exciting.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)

p.p.s.  I know some will hate me for my "organized religion" comment, but it is a true thought, and I one I will not hide from you.