Advancing Theories Of Transmigration

I've been doing some research into Transmigration. not. I don't even know what it means. You can't exactly have a post without a title though.

So,  how's it going?  Me, I am fine. I slept in again yesterday for as long as I could. I thought about getting up,  but I guess I was tired. I was tired when I got home too, but now I feel fine.

There isn't much going on with me at all. I guess in the end we just live out our days.   Life is strange kinda. Everybody is out doing their thing, but don't really have a vision of life really. Some people are out doing stuff they feel important,  and in the end it matters not.

You think about that crazy guy in the oval office. Maybe they all are who want to be there.  I heard he considers himself a genius, but he is like 70 years old right?  He isn't exactly living out his years, he is just making noise. Staying busy doing stupid shit. one day he will die, and in the end he does not matter one bit.

I think in the end people who find themselves in that position just tend to make their end worse. They don't gain one point, and all they can acquire is negative points. A no win situation. Left to our own devices I guess we're all in the same boat, but to a lesser scale. Our actions don't affect people to the same scale, but we all are false teachers. Born into it.

I definitely don't understand a politician. They wear suits. They have to be fake. They say shit they don't mean. I don't pay attention to them,  cuz they are probably beyond help.

The path I took is one of humility. I played the fool, and I know no one really feels great being humbled.

That was a long time ago I guess. these days I am just strong. I don't have much to worry about. I live out my days with a clear conscience I guess. I am not out to do the impossible. I am not out to make the World better in my own whacked out sense of what that would be. The World is beyond saving, but people aren't. My guess is people don't think they need it. Your eyes haven't seen what I've seen, but I guess long ago when I set out to be the best a person can be I couldn't do it.

that seemed a pretty quick step maybe. I had my past to look at. I saw death up close,  and I remember in the end truth and honesty was good,  even if it told me what I found out.

I ain't that fucking good. I wonder why that is such a hard thing for people to see about themselves,  and I think back to my story being solo.  I had me, and I only had to worry about me. Life is too busy for those getting up in age, cuz as you get older there is more shit for you to worry about.

I think people now just rationalize how "good" they are, but like me way back when our stories are the same. We ain't that fucking great. Grab the truth, even if it shows you scary stuff, cuz in the end that's all you have. Leave the suit wearers alone. They have enough shit to worry about. So do you.

Anyway, I guess that's good. 

laterzzz.    :)

Life Is Strange.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. An interesting couple things happened yesterday and today. Ways I am different now I guess. A guy at work noticed the vehicle I drove,  and asked if I got a new car. I told him, yeah we got two new cars, but neither is new. Still they are nice looking. My wife's is 2 years old, and was originally a low mile lease. So I told the guy my Uncle died, and left us a shit ton of money. It's all relative though,  cuz already things look different. My first check was $47,000, and that was exciting. Today the final $60,000 cleared from my latest check, and already I am over it. NBD anymore. The most exciting thing that happened to me is I may be able to keep my cleaning job. they will just have me come in on Saturday, and work in the areas that are open. It will be early, so my Saturday sleep in will be no more. I can adjust though. I think I can do my grocery job on Sunday, so I might not have to get rid of that. In a perfect World I may just put my hat in the ring to work every Sunday at the bakery, so I have every Monday off.

You still have to fill the hours of the day, and I might as well work as often as I can. Left to my own devices I don't always do productive stuff.

Today is a run day, so that's good. I ran Friday and Saturday, and my legs knew it. It is kinda strange rebuilding muscle memory. Patience is the key for sure.  4 miles in 2 days in the olden days are basically days off.   :)  not anymore.

I like the way my life played out.  I stay busy. I work. I don't like a ton of time off for whatever reason. I really don't make a shit ton of money either,  but for my lifestyle it is fine.

I guess everything is good on my end. 

Anyway, I'll talk to you later. 

Have a good one.  :)

Luv Ya's.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.   :)

laterzzz.    :)

MWAH.    :)

I Sure Do Sleep On My Fridays.

Good morning.  How's it going?  Me,  I am fine. Yesterday was okay. I got a run in. I assume most my runs will be in the 10:00 pace area to begin,  but yesterday was 9:30. I think Hope just pulled us along. my first week back I'll end with 6-8 miles on 4 runs. After February I will be able to sleep in on Saturday, and Sunday. Some Mondays too.

I returned my truck to the junk yard yesterday. A 1994 Ranger. I got $250 for it, and that excited me. I guess I was kinda attached to the truck.  My way of not driving in luxury,  but announcing to the World I am doing just fine.  It was a one of a kind. I now have a big F-150. Black and menacing looking. As far as those things can look menacing I guess. I cannot imagine how little I'll even drive it. we move to our new work location after next week, or the following one. Fat Tuesday is coming up aka Paczi day. (pooch key)  They'll have to make a million of those jelly filled polish donuts. How those are part of Fat Tuesday I have no idea. We either move before or after Fat Tuesday. Come March we will be filling two locations, and I think it may be nuts. We aren't really sure what we'll be walking into, but I think it may be a bit crazy. In a fun way.

Other than that not much. I took Lisa out for Chinese,  and went to bed early. I knew it was a good day cuz it was sunny, and like 50° on my bike ride home. We haven't made it to February, and already we are thinking of Spring.   There are cold days ahead,  but so far nothing too crazy.

Anyway, I have a day planned.  It should be good. I'll finish my coffee,  and maybe run now, or maybe after work. We'll see.

I'll see you probably Monday.

bye.   :)

A Thursday Movie Day.

I was able to skate out of work early, so I saw the new Jumanji movie. It was okay. I even got a regular popcorn,  and root beer that was only $14.  I can't believe people buy that shit. I came home and watched two more movies too.  I did pick up some 2x4s from Lowe's on my way home.

Just another day really. nothing too crazy obviously. perhaps the biggest thing out of the norm is I had trouble waking up, so I slept til I had to get up. I drove too.  :)  you never know I guess.

Today I have absolutely nothing planned outside of work. I don't know what to do for dinner either. I did take yesterday off from running. my legs were tired,  and a bit sore from two 1-1/2 mile runs on consecutive days.  :)  I'll take Hope in a bit.

My life is pretty boring like most others I suspect. It seems the World is going on. Bad things happen,  stuff makes the news, sportsing goes on etc...  I am pretty disinterested in the World I'd say. People want to leave a mark perhaps,  but we really don't. I don't want anything out of life I don't think.

I tend to feel people count up their points they have accumulated by judging others. the truth of the matter is judging is a negative point. We really should judge ourselves,  but we cannot really see ourselves. at some point approaching 3 decades ago I got a pretty good vision of myself.  Yikes. I surely wasn't that fucking great. It seems to me too that part of my whole story was to learn,  and accept the insignificance of me.

I learned it, and accepted it. I have no problem with that. I see the World holds no value to me. our deeds end with us. we are not doing any major things, and we leave no lasting legacy.

Lives are made to look perfect on the tv I guess, but all fall short. we were born here, and really got thrown into a life. Society took hold of us, and molded us into whatever. at some point life pulled everyone is my guess, it is there we were supposed to question. I think if we have all the answers there are no questions. Heroes are made too, and that puts stop signs in front of us too.

In the end it is just you. it's a big World out there,  and something is not born out of nothing.

Anyway, just getting something down.  I'll talk to you later. 

Cya.    :)

Do I Have The Winter Blahs?

I think I may be feeling a bit of the winter blahs. Maybe, I just don't have much to do. A lot of times when I run out of things I feel like doing,  I just cannot then turn on the tv. TV does not excite me. I figure I've been that way a while.

I did go for a little run yesterday. nothing too exciting, but it was a run. I breathed hard for a bit. My legs were still used to that kind of effort. I think probably cuz I walk so much every day just working,  and am on my feet. I rode my bike yesterday too, and of course it was windy as Hell, and cold on the way back. That usually isn't a problem,  but I dressed for milder weather.

I did clean the house a bit, and made steak fajitas for dinner. those hit the spot, but I guess they always do.

Maybe it was just the rainy Monday followed by the windy and cold Tuesday. I could handle a nice 35° sunny day. That is always better. I am not sure though. I don't feel excited.  That's the problem.  I imagine a lot of people feel the grind at times.

Anyway,  I am going to go out for another run. I don't have much planned today. I am pretty sure today will be a pretty easy day at work. I feel we did a lot Monday, and Tuesday. you have busy days, you just don't always know when you'll need to mix stuff. when do you run out?  we are  January slow now too. It makes you wonder how you even manage the busy Summer months. crazy.

I guess the good thing of an early morning run is you can check out the sidewalks.  We did get some snow. can I bike?  Should I drive, and maybe see a movie? 

I am making meatballs for dinner, I am just not sure what to do with them.  Sandwich, spaghetti,  or what.

That is pretty much my day planned. I have a basic outline,  but I am open for any curve ball I may want to throw in.

Anyways, I gotta go. I can't be wasting all day on this dumb blog.  :)

laterzzz.    :)

What Do You Know?

So I bought a pair of running shoes and inserts. I don't really know what happened tbh. At some point in time my running shoes were my work shoes, and I didn't have a replacement. The store I usually go to went out of business. I felt eventually I'd have to go to the running store,  and spend the big bucks.  I haven't walked for a clerk in forever,  and I don't know how I pronate.   It turns out I don't.  My feet are an 8, so I went with a 9. I even tried walking with 2 pair of inserts,  and one definitely felt better than the other. I don't have high arches.

I honestly don't know if it will turn into anything, cuz my knees stopped holding up in the past,  but what the heck.

Yesterday was one of those crappy rainy days. I went to a local place for a couple beers. I ran into Hawaii Greg, and shot the shit for a bit. I didn't do the bogo burritos, cuz I wasn't hungry. I came home, napped,  and had ramen noodles for dinner. I have been craving them for some reason. A perfect for me dinner, and an early bedtime.

I still am kinda sleepy for some reason,  maybe a lack of vitamin D. I finally have good bike riding sidewalks,  and weather,  so that should get me outside to help with vitamin D.

Other than that not much. Talking to Greg,  he works at Evergreen Commons. I thought it was an old people's home, but it is an activity center for the age challenged. Age challenged is anyone over 50. They have an exercise room, and pool, and stuff. I am over 50 too, so I thought I'd check it out. I may run into a lot of blue haired people,  but who cares.  I think it is relatively inexpensive.  I should at least check it out. I don't really know how much time I have to frequent a place like that. Maybe how much time I am willing  to give. It's worth a check out I guess.

Other than that not much. I have no plans for running at all. All my plans have failed,  so one day at a time. If for some reason I can successfully up my mileage who knows? 

Life is busy though.  There is yard work,  and house work.  Gardens need to be watered, etc...   life is busy, and we'll never get all the things done. Show me someone who succeeds in one area, and there are 5 they are failing at. They'll let you know about the one though, if they even have that.

There are probably ways to have a better version of myself, but perfection is out of reach currently. No amount of labor or sacrifice will take me there,  so all is vain anyway.

Sometimes I see people angry at others for the stupidest of reasons. Almost in a way, how can you do that?  Almost as if saying why can't you be perfect like me.

I think if you are angry at random people for stupid shit, that isn't their problem. It's your flaw. You don't enter into their equation at all.  Mostly these people should worry about themselves. It's not like they have some great redeeming quality. 

Anyway.  

I guess that's good. 

Cya.   :)

Sometimes I Am Dumb.

Good morning. How's it going?  I guess I am ready to start the week. On Saturday I caught up on sleep, and stayed up late watching Divergent for some reason, and went to work at 5:00 AM on Sunday. So dumb. I have been pretty disciplined sleeping early on Saturday for a 5:00 AM Sunday work for about a year or so. I worked a lot at the grocery store at 3:00 AM before that,  so I guess I go to bed early on Saturday. That does change in March. Either I will have Sunday off,  or work like a 2nd shift. 2-3:00- midnight'ish I believe. If I work Sunday, I'll have Monday off. I am mixed giving up the job, cuz it is good money, but I'll have Saturday nights for the first time in years really. Before the bakery I did night stocking at the grocery store.

I sure haven't lived a glamorous life at all have I?  You make due I guess. Is that how that saying goes?   If all of a sudden you wake up one day having all the money you'd ever need what would you do different?  For me, I guess I'd fix up my house to maximize value,  and we upgraded cars. Not new, just newer. When you drive very little,  you don't need to waste money on new. I'll put 1000-3000 miles on my vehicle/year. Maybe less now that my work will be 1 mile from my house, and my Sunday job will be no more. That is probably a 15 mile round trip.

Anyway a lot got done this weekend. Lisa and Hailey finished the basement, besides framing out the opening for a door. Brian is doing that. Which means I need to get 2x4s. I could probably do it myself I guess.  I do lack confidence in those types of things, but I did run gas line for the vent free heater, and I wasn't confident about that. I do have the gunshot bullets for the floor nails. We did some framing before when we added the bathroom.

Just days in this life I guess. I am glad I cleaned up the kitchen yesterday. I made a mess while cooking the night before.  I think in the end none of this is significant. Our lives aren't. If you continue to try and author your own story,  you will never live your best life.

At this stage I don't even know how you can make that change. I guess you bump your head against the wall enough,  you may think there just may be a better way.

Until then I guess you'll continue to get headaches.  :)  haha. Easy for me to say, since I haven't had a headache in years.

Anyway, this is pretty much about nothing. 

I'll cya.   :)

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

Catching Up On Sleep.

I don't know if I ever know if I am tired, but when I got home yesterday I knew I was. I could barely keep my eyes open. I probably dozed a bit, but never really napped. Really the only casualty was dinner. I didn't feel like cooking so we just ate leftovers. That is fine too, cuz we tend to waste a lot of food. I am the best leftover eater, and I only bring lunch on Sundays job. Typically I'll have a bowl of soup at work. I may snack on something else or have an occasional tuna fish sandwich. Sometimes I eat breakfast, and sometimes not. It's like coffee. You never know if I'll want a cup or not.

Anyway, I caught up on sleep last night. I love my regular sleep. I suspect everyone does. Yesterday was just another day. Nothing too crazy. Nothing out of the ordinary. I suspect today will be the same. I am going to try something new to cook though. Not sure what, I'll just go through the cookbooks. That is pretty fun for me.

Today is a day that will start the rest of my life. I am happy,  and content to live each day as I do. I don't need to reinvent myself. I don't really need to do anything different. It doesn't mean I won't. I am just a new pair of running shoes away from running. I can do that if I wish. It would seem to be a good time to try. It isn't February yet, but I think the harsh part of Winter may be over. Maybe not too,  but the 10 day looks good. That being said, I have nothing I need to accomplish.

I will for sure never bike the big miles. I don't think. Unless maybe I listen to a book while going for a casual stroll. I should look into getting a good bike for just getting out there. I mostly am a point A to point B guy.

Of course that doesn't even matter. No points come from any of that stuff. In life we all toil in vain. Out trying to prove ourselves.  In the end we all fail. Mostly cuz our hearts do not act  in accordance with how our minds think it should.

Does that battle ever confuse you?  Why am I thinking this way when I know it's wrong?  Anger pops up for no reason. Surely we don't give a fuck as much as we think we should. We speak what we think we "should" say, but our hearts feel different.

Yesterday I saw some HS girls eating breakfast I think before school. One girl was buying maybe a pastry or something.  They were saying good bye and stuff. The girl doing the purchase said "luv ya" with a smile,  and the smile was long gone even before her head turned back.  I kinda wondered at that time what is going through her mind.

These kids aren't perfect. They have a lot to learn,  and young people look like they are growing up, but they don't know shit.

In good news they will stay as fake in the future as they are now. They aren't changing in that regard. They may care less what people think perhaps,  but their Instagram accounts won't show anything,  except what they want people to see.

We all are born pretty fucked,  and we don't have the tools to make ourselves better. A long bike ride does not change who we are.

You is what you have to deal with. I know some things about you that you don't,  cuz I know why I am not perfect. I know why I couldn't make myself that way. I know what inside me over powered me.

Cuz at an early age, I made the turn. The World was before me, and I saw there was nothing here for me.

So here on Earth there was this one person who came to a fork in the road, and actually did take the road less traveled. It didn't make me perfect,  but it helped me learn. I had much help through much suffering, but that is no concern now. 

What that means for you,  I have no clue.  I don't even know people. Outside of what they want the World to see anyway.

Maybe that is a problem too. At the end of the day no one knows you,  and you don't even know you. I am known,  cuz I am open and can be seen. I am unashamed of being imperfect,  although perfection is the end of the current version of me.

I think the cause for sadness, at least one part, is not being known. With people we haven't even scratched the surface.  There is a lot that cuts off the vision to us. We all are blind really,  and part of the story is to help you see. Most choose the path most traveled though,  and the World just isn't a good teacher.

Anyway, I bet this is long. 

Sorry, not sorry.    :)

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Byeee.    :)

A Day Among Days.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I stayed up late. I got my check yesterday, Lisa got a new for her car. It was a low mileage lease we got for a good price.  She got a car she wanted. It is an  AWD, that gets good mileage,  and is a mini SUV, so it has good storage. A lot of bells and whistles too, which I guess is normal for new cars. Basically a touch screen computer that handles controls I guess.

The main purpose for the purchase is to sell our other car to Hailey,  and her husband, so one, or both of them get a license and run their own errands. Lisa has to do that shit for them, and she has been over it for about 3 years or 10.

So it was a late night doing that shit. We ate in Grand Haven, cuz that is where we bought the car.

Other than that not too much. Work has been pretty easy lately. It is a welcome change after the holidays,  and we never know what March will look like. Working to fill two locations instead of one promises to be challenging.

I think I just wake up every day happy about life, and excited for the future. Not worried AT ALL about my end which is something we all will deal with.  I dealt with life.  I faced the harshest fears. I am secure I guess, and that feels good.  

Anyway, not much else.  Today is a day, and looking forward to it.  I just wish I went to bed at my normal time.  

Oh well. 

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

The Snot Factory.

Man this week I've been a snot factory. I slept as late as I could yesterday. Nothing in my chest, nothing in my throat.  No headache. Just an endless supply of snot. I blew my nose like a million times the last few days of work, but today I seem better. I couldn't taste my dinner the other night.  I was told it was good.  I made banana bread that night too. I was told that tasted good too.  The highlight of my day is dinner, and I couldn't even taste it.

Today I have coffee, and my nose seems fine. I can even taste my coffee. My big check is coming today. Tax free. All the taxes will be paid in the probate account, which has its own fiscal year and stuff. I think that is September. Basically I think my brother will close everything out then. He'll probably plan on selling the townhouse whenever he has a good idea of where he will be going. There is a big asset, and a townhouse that remain. My check I get today is $65,000.  I already have a good chunk from the previous smaller check. Of course the smaller check was the biggest check I've ever received by a lot.

I paid off a little debt I had, and yadda yadda yadda. There are changes coming though. With the new bakery I will have to work 2 out of every 3 Sundays, so I'll have to quit my cleaning job. It kinda sucks, cuz I've been with them a while. They pay me well, and give me holiday pay if we don't work on a Sunday. I also get quarterly attendance bonuses,  and end of year attendance bonuses. It's a good stress free job. The owners are good people too. In a way that sucks, but I will have a day off every week. Either Sunday or Monday.

Plus working Sunday I will learn more baking. Running the ovens,  and making donuts, and different breads. So that will be good. I know Jacob asked me like a year ago, if I wanted I could take more of a supervisor role in the operations part. Maybe not operations,  but with the sales,  organizing, and merchandising aspect. At the time I wanted to learn more about baking.  Production side. Each had its challenges,  and honestly would be fun, but production suits me.

So, yeah in two weeks or so my commute will be like one mile. That is pretty exciting actually. My life is looking up I'd say. Especially since it seems the snot factory has closed its doors to business.

Other than that not really much. Just doing the day to day. Nothing to worry about that I know of.

Not even sure what else I got planned this year. Outside of work,  eat, sleep.

That's the way I like it. 

Anyhoo,

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.   :)

That One River... East Of Morgantown.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I did sleep in a bit, and also stayed up a little later than normal.

I didn't do much yesterday. Outside of work pretty much nothing. Lisa went out to dinner with friends so I made myself a homemade pizza. Loaded with veggies. My bil stopped by, and helped me eat it.

All in all it was a day in the life. Nothing too crazy at all. I suspect today will be similar. I have to run a few errands, so I'll drive. I did bike to work yesterday for the first time in forever. The sidewalks have not been good. They weren't great on my way home yesterday. They are not doing a good job this year keeping up. No biggie.

I don't have a lot on my mind, and I don't really have anything concerning me.  Just out living this simple life. Ya kinna want to grab the best parts of life. Unbeknownst to you, the best part of life is when you feel good on the inside. The best part of my life just so happened after I overcame the 2nd time.

I remember the drought years where I could barely blog. I was down and bummed kinda cuz I was getting nothing from anyone. At some point that didn't matter anymore. Your life, your decisions. You live with them,  and the consequences are not my concern.

If I remember correctly I think it used to help me when people blogged. I think it helped me blog myself. Now, no one has any say over what I do. People can blog or not it doesn't concern me. Mostly people don't blog much, for whatever reason.

One of the great things of being me, is being comfortable in my own shoes. I can take no credit in who I am now, cuz how I feel on the inside was not always like this. Before and after the dead years there mostly was fear. Living terrified most of the time really,  and than I was accepted. That is the best part. Security.

Now, you have no idea what I am talking about, cuz my shoes have never ever been near to your understanding. My path was solo,  and no eyes have seen it.

I cannot take you from point A to point B. How you'll even get there is anyone's guess. I pretty much am no longer any help.  You kinda are on your own. I have no clue your story either.

In the end our lives mean nothing, so really what are we gonna blog about anyway?  A day to day of nothing? 

Pretty much, I guess. I still wake up happy and content most days. I am grateful for that.

Anyhoo, gotta run. 

Have fun.   :)

Luv Ya's.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

There Is Still Time For A Pantomime

I don't know how many people know that. Most people think there isn't enough time. I am not sure if they heard it on Fox news or what, but nothing could be further from the truth.  There is Plenty plenty of time for a pantomime.  There got that off my chest.

Anyway, how's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was a pretty good day. On Saturday I went to see a movie. The Liam Neeson one. I like Liam Neeson movies. Afterwards I rented two more, cuz I was in movie mode. I went to the party for my Sunday job. I got $200 for perfect attendance, and a $25 gift card, I think mostly cuz I always show up, and do my job.  I also got a 3-pack of really good cookie sheets. You kinda randomly pick a prize that is wrapped up. That is what I picked, and it really is something we wanted. I didn't really feel like partying,  so I had 2 Coors Lights,  and a quick little drink before I left. I think I hoped it would make me sleep, but it didn't. I stayed up. I woke up early too, but was eventually able to fall back asleep.

Yesterday I put down the new flooring for my stairs downstairs. I repainted the risers too. It looks pretty awesome. We had to special order the stair nosing,  which sucks, cuz I want it done,  but it looks really good.  I fell in love with my table saw again. It has to be 15 years old, and still works like a champ. It made the job as easy as could be.

After that we watched football,  and had dinner down the street for industry night. 1/2 off. A pretty good day I'd say. I am not sure what I'll do today. I do have some more painting to do. Trim, and redo the walls going down the basement. Our house is really starting to shape up.

I'll probably get another big check this week too. About 1/3 more than the last one. So that's good too. Not that I need it, but we'll finish up the few things we have, and start setting stuff up for retirement.  I won't need hardly any return on investment, cuz our house will be paid off this year,  and we'll just save money, since we have few bills. If we save $30,000 or so each year for the next 15, how much do I need?  Couple that with a good chunk already, and I don't need much all things being equal.

I am going to run out of projects pretty quickly, so I'll have to do other things to keep me busy.

Anyway, this past year made a pretty easy life even easier. I was never one to worry too much about financial shit, and now I worry quite a bit less if it is possible to worry less than the nothing I worried before.

In the end you want to live a stress free life,  but that is impossible right? It is impossible, unless you took the steps I did.

Stress is not about having not enough money. Stress is being a slave to the World. Something we were all born into. You will never escape that on your own.

In a World where humans think they are marvelous, nothing could be further from the truth. You can't know that though. A path of learning you never set out to do. You only learn shit from this World. The secret learning comes from a different source. 

I don't even know how to help you along that path anymore.  You are lost, and I cannot help you. 

Anyway, I guess that's good. 

Have fun.   :)

xxoo.   :)

xoxo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)))

;)

A Time Capsule, But For The Little People Who Live Inside Me.

Good morning.  How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was another day. I did catch a fuck up on one of my doughs. I made sugar bread, and was getting ready to make the Pullman loaves, and I tried to think.  Did I put in yeast?  I don't remember adding it. I remember I needed to get it, but I never did. I looked at the recipe, and sure enough, I remember adding sugar, and salt, but no yeast. It's good I caught it myself,  cuz it would suck for the 3rd shifters trying to get the bread to proof,  but I had to remake the batch. That sucked,  but I felt my 2nd batch was the best one I ever made, so.

Other than that not too much. We went to my bil' s house for a dinner party get together. I made my stuffed mushrooms, which are actually quite good if I say so myself. It is green pepper,  onion, mushroom stems, and garlic sauteed in bacon grease. I drain it, and mix it with cream cheese, and bacon crumbled up. Cook it with a little water in the bottom til the shrooms are soft. Purty tasty.

Had some drinks,  got a bit silly, and came home at a reasonable time.  It was fun.

Outside of that not too much going on. I have 2 Christmas parties tonight. I am going to my Sunday job one. My main job scheduled theirs about 3 weeks after I already RSVP'd, so I can maybe show up for 45 minutes, but that seems strange.

Also I have another project. Stair treads for the basement stairs. I can do that today. What A difference that will make.

As you can tell, I pretty much got nothing.  

I think I'll make breakfast.

Have fun. 

Luv Ya's.   :)

xxoo.   :)

xoxo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

Time Keeps Moving.

I think the older you get, the quicker it seems time moves. I wonder why that is. More stuff to do?  Not sure.

Yesterday I was pretty busy at work. I ended up being pretty tired after. It was one of those 35° days, but it was rainy,  and so wet from all the snow melting. I really didn't want to go home. I stopped at a local place, and had two beers. Things looked up after two beers for whatever reason, and I was ready to go home,  and work on the basement wall. I got two more panels up, so I only have one left to go.

We have some pallet boards we'll use as trim. Lisa said she'd do that this weekend, and her daughter will paint the other walls. My work there is done almost.

Time to move on to the next thing,  and I don't really have anything. I guess we can ponder that later. I did make an easy dinner last night too. I made some home made biscuits too. They were pretty good. I always tweak the recipe a bit by adding some spices, but other than that it is pretty standard. I add some cheese always too.

So my life keeps going on. There isn't much to it. Just today I was thinking of skipping coffee, but I think I'll make a cup. I have time.

As far as this blog goes I don't know what this year holds. I never do. As time goes on this is less and less significant. Basically it is just something I do.

In the end the importance of me is basically null.  I am cool with that. Fine by me you know? 

I just do my day to day. No worries really,  and no concerns.  not even a clue what I'll do after work today. I'll finish the wall, but that won't take long.

Anyways, til next time. 

Have fun.   :)

Luv Ya's.   :)

xoxo.  :)

xxoo.  :)

Laterzzz.    :)

A Tuesday For The Ages. #mindblown

Just kidding. It was just another day. Anyway, how's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I pretty much didn't do shit yesterday after work. I did run the vacuum, cuz we have a new nice one I thought I'd try. Part of our $1000 Bed Bath & Beyond extravaganza.

I was kinda getting excited about finishing that downstairs room, thinking I'll be done for a while. After more thought I keep thinking of other shit to do. Like deep clean shit and stuff. Also it's a New Year, so we have two more dump passes at our disposal. Of course I could just rent a little dumpster for a week to throw crap out. Not even sure if I have much to throw out. Our basement is actually getting empty. I do secretly think about just throwing miscellaneous shit out though.

Lisa hangs all kindsa shit on the walls. I'd be happier with less shit. In the end it all is just fucking garbage.

I know she has a tiling project in the kitchen. Maybe I'll help tackle that. Sometimes you just gotta get shit done.

Anyway, I am just thinking out loud. No matter your circumstance you still have an infinite amount of shit you can do. No matter your circumstance you won't get it all done.

Life I guess is strange that way. You live here. You want your life to matter. It doesn't. You want to be special,  and find that happy little niche I guess.  Everyone is always lacking something.  A human heart is never content. A human heart we don't control. As a matter of fact our heart controls us probably. Leads us down various avenues. Our heart leads our thoughts,  and we battle ourselves cuz our wisdom says our thoughts "should" be such and such a way.

That is where fake smiles, and smile and say hi, and shit like that comes from. I was working at the grocery store on Saturday, and one of the lead cashier girls was having the meat counter people do something. Prices weren't ringing up buy 2 get 3 free. Anyway she smiled and said hi. It was a real nice smile, and it seemed sincere for a fraction of a second. The smile turned to something way less even before she completely turned back to the counter. I don't know her a ton, but I think she is just recently divorced.

That is shit that goes on in life though. There are battles in what we think, what we are "supposed" to think. How we are "supposed" to act.

I think maybe we all feel like we got the answers, and our intellect is pretty superior to like the mosquitoes and whatnot, but a human is a fucked up person. Society fucked everyone up maybe. Did cavemen smile and say hi?  Did they give a fuck?  They had their own shit to deal with.

One thing I learned at an early age is I didn't want to live with angry people. Life's too short. Negative people can be a drag. Perhaps I am negative, but that is just the truth. I am not unhappy. I am cool with my life. 

Today I am contemplating things I might do after work. I may not do a damn thing,  but make dinner. I am free to do that too if I wish. I'll probably do something though. 

Anyway, I guess that's good.  

Have a good one.  :)

Luv Ya's.   :)

xxoo.  :)

xoxo.   :)

Laterzzz.   :)

Winning On Monday.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was pretty okay as far as Mondays go. I was able to skate out a bit early at work. I got the floor done in the basement. We have one unfinished wall, and I got two 4'x sheets in. A couple more to go, and trim. I put weather stripping on around the pet door. No air coming in there. Made pulled pork in the slow cooker too,  which came out awesome.  I felt my barbecue sauce was a little too tangy, so I added some brown sugar.  Omg, it came out perfect. Of course I ran the snow blower again, but we are getting a lot of  snow melting.

So it was a good day. I am getting pretty excited about getting that room done. It is a 10' x 20' room. That is pretty big, and it has a bathroom with walk in closets right next to it.

Outside of that not much going on.  Duh. Just living out this life thing, which is pretty easy for me. I don't really have much to stress me out. Everyone at some time probably seeks out answers. I have no more questions. I don't need any answers. Most/all follow the path of their respective society, and I gather everyone wonders where in the heck is happily ever after?  Weren't we promised that? 

You'll find you have all kindsa shit poisoning your mind. Perfect spouses, perfect kids, perfect life. No such thing, no such thing, no such thing. The truth is a hard thing to come by, cuz since day 1 your mind has been poisoned with Bull shit.

Also there are things about us we don't understand. Lust, anger, jealousy, spite, envy etc...  if it were up to us, our thoughts would be perfect.  Whatever those would be.

In this World there are no heroes. Just us disgusting humans dressing ourselves to play the part of one.  I see through it all, cuz I found the answers I seeked.  It is pretty exclusive company to get this far,  but even that means nothing.

In the end I am not special, either is anyone else. Just flawed people we are with no clue why we are.  I know why.  Basically perfection is impossible for us. It doesn't mean it is impossible, but left to our own devices it is.

We don't amount to much.  Our worth is very small, and a coin doesn't expect happily ever after to be it's birthright. A coin is just a coin.  We are just one of a gazillion people who came before us.

Not that grand at all. 

Anyway, I guess that's good.

Have a good one.  :)

xxoo.   :)

xoxo.  :)

Laterzzz.   :)

A New Week

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am okay. It was a pretty good weekend. We finished for the most part our ceiling downstairs. It isn't a professional job in the least,  but it is fine. Inexpensive too. Lisa bought the flooring yesterday. Inexpensive too, and easy to install. We will do that today. I also installed the new pet door. It works fine. I think after today I am done. Nothing too pressing going on.  I'll have stuff to do in the Springtime, but I think just upkeep for the rest of the winter. I didn't even realize that til now.

I started another book by Greg Iles. It is a series of like 6 or 7 books. The first one was about a Civil Rights murder unsolved for 30 years. It was good,  so now I am on my 2nd. The lead character's best friend gets in trouble with a 17 year old girl. He is like a doctor of 40.  She gets raped,  and murdered, and the Doc is in a World of trouble.

In Mississippi statutory rape is under 16, but he is a doctor,  and the girl is under 18, and that is a different crime. He was seen being near the crime scene too.

It looks like it's drug related, and the drug dealer may be the culprit, but I still have 12 hours to go. It's entertaining. As far as I can tell I think Greg Iles  is a pretty good writer, and story teller.

We are getting a nice warm up this week too, so we can melt some of this snow. I guess I'll be able to relax and enjoy the rest of the winter. That is a good thought heading into a new week.

Other than that not much going on at all. Just doing this day to day thing. It is mostly easy and uneventful.

I think I'll take Hope now in this warm 30° weather.

That's it. 

Have fun.  :)

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Hey, I missed A Day.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I am having a cup of coffee in my new keurig machine. My last one wasn't keurig,  but Black and Decker or something. I didn't get the $140 one, I got the $79 on sale one. I think the $149 one does a travel mug size, and that's it. I never use a travel mug so. 

Brian helped us finish the basement ceiling yesterday. The hard part anyway. Hanging the 4'x8' pieces, and making the cutouts for the can lights.  It's all up, and good,  we just have to finish hanging the little pieces. A lot of cuts,  and shit. A lot of projects going on around here,  but we are actually getting stuff done too.

The percentage of households filled with unfinished projects is probably quite a bit higher than anyone would imagine. I have someone coming out to do an energy assessment of our house. Doors, Windows, insulation etc...  appliances too. The city of Holland will reimburse us up to $3000 If we do $10,000 of improvements toward energy efficiency. I totally am willing. I have some windows that need replaced. Also we were planning on getting a new dishwasher,  and stove too. Our gas and electric companies also offer us money for improvements. I think it's a win win, because the improvements we already want to do. We were planning on it too. I am actually pretty excited about it.

Today,  I have to work for a bit. I am going to put a new pet door in too. Our other one is missing one part of the plastic that keeps cold air out.   :)  we needed to replace that for a while. 

Things are going good I guess.  A lot to keep me busy. I have stuff to do every day.  Today I'll be making chicken fajitas for dinner. Finally am working tomorrow too. I've had the last two Sundays off.

I guess that's good.

Have a good one.  :)

Luv Ya's.   :)

xxoo.   :)

xoxo.   :)

Should be s pretty good day.  

Adding To The To Do List.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. So yesterday I shoveled off my roof.  Mostly cuz I have an icicle problem. There was close to 2' of snow on the roof.  I had no idea. The ice is pretty bad, so I looked up in the rafters, and I see i can pretty easily add insulation to most of the areas.  So I guess I'll do that today. That should help out.

My gas bill came, and as cold as it was in December, my bill is only $63. The new furnace is going to save me a lot of money over time. December was as cold I think as any month I've lived in Michigan. Bill normally would have been at least $100 with the old furnace.

My heart is doing good too I think. Shoveling is a very rigorous job. Especially 2' high on a roof.  I felt great, so that's good.

Other than that not much going on. I am excited about adding insulation. It will make a big difference. This weekend we get a bit of reprieve on the weather too. It should approach above freezing.

I like being excited about the day. I am going to slow cook a whole chicken in the slow cooker today too for the first time. It is supposed to be like a rotisserie style chicken when done.

Should be a good day.

Have a good one.   :)

xxoo.   :)

xoxo.   :)

Have fun.   :)

Luv Ya's.    :)

I Spose.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. My coffee maker took a shit yesterday, so I gotta get a new one. It was several years old. I bought it sometime when I still worked at the local lumber yard. It's been a while.

Holidays screw up deliveries, so I'll go in early today hoping our regular Tuesday shipment of pig meat came in.

Yesterday we got our internet fixed. The guy just ran cat 5 stuff instead of us just hooking in with a phone jack. Our internet will be pretty awesome now. Not that I need it, but my bil plays video games, so I guess they need bandwidth for that.  My on demand will probably kick ass though,  so maybe it will be good.

I finished the latest season of Game Of Thrones,  so I've seen season 1, and the latest.   :)  you can't read all the books, and you can't see all the shows.  Too much stuff out there.

I have a lot to do today/this week maybe.  I guess that's good. I guess we are starting out a new year. This year is starting out a bit different than years past I guess. The Holidays are done,  I spent a lot of money, and I am not poor.

I'd say the future looks bright, and encouraging.  Not for the long haul, cuz you know, we all are going to die, but for the foreseeable future.

Eventually it won't be freezing again. I guess you normally start out every year with good intentions,  and I don't think I really have any.  A continuation of last year. Do what I do.

I think I'll take the monster for a walk,  and get ready for work.  Gonna check the weather out first. 

I know I am 3 for 3 in blogging days this year,  but that is just cuz.  I am sure I'll remain around 200 for the year. We'll just see.  I have no plans to do anything different.

We will just see how my day to day pops up.  That's pretty much all I've ever done anyway.

With no great fan fare I say adios. 

Have a good one.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.    :)

A Different Day.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing fine. Yesterday was a bit different. We went out to breakfast, and afterward we went to Bed Bath & Beyond. We had some things on our wish list, and we bought it all. $1000 later.  :)  I mean really.    That was not planned, but what the heck.

I watched a bit of football,  and then we watched the first 5 episodes of Game Of Thrones season 7.  Or 6. Whichever the last season was. I stayed up way too late, and still am up early for some reason.

I checked the weather, and it isn't warming up above freezing for a while still.

We still have some stuff to do in the basement. I think we should get it done this week. Outside of that, nothing. I guess 3 or 4 more weeks my commute will be like a mile.

This year will be more of the same for me I guess. Cooking meals, working,  and sleeping.  

I have no idea if I'll be a better version of myself. I think maybe, but who knows. I can't say as I am any different this New Year, but I look forward to each day it seems.

Anyway, I am just getting something down I guess.  

Til next time. 

Stay warm.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Wow, I Slept In

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. Yesterday I installed a gas vent-free heater in my basement all by my lonesome. I had our furnace guy run a tee to our gas line with a shutoff that made it possible. It is running, and adding nice supplemental heat to our basement. 

I am not a plumber so that shit is always done with a bit of anxiety. I pulled it off though. No leaks,  no smells.  I sprayed a dawn and water solution to test for leaks. No bubbles.

I also ran the snowblower for like the 100th day in a row. I'll have to do the same today.  A pretty crazy winter.  I stayed up past midnight last night, which I never do. Still was a pretty good day.  So stoked about getting that heater installed.

It is a New Year, and I have absolutely nothing planned. No resolutions or anything. The only real goal I had in life will take place later.  It is unachievable really,  but not for me. 

Cuz I did what I did way back. 

You cannot walk in my shoes, and I surely wouldn't want to walk in yours.  One of us is right.  My money is on me.   :)

I am willing, and was willing.  You do as all others. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading !!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I want breakfast. 

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MWAH.    :)))

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Laterzzz Gaterzzz. :)

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