Wednesday, December 31, 2014

This Part Of The Day...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I didn't sleep enough yet, but I have no work today, so after this I can stay in bed for the next several hours if I want.   :) 

I warn you I have absolutely nothing on my mind, and I have no idea what the Heck will come from this, but I can always give it a whirl. 

Today I am pretty excited about my first 5K in forever, and a 5K where I am relatively in pretty okay shape, especially for this time of year.   I will definitely PR on this race.  I've done it a handfull of times before, but I am sure my best time will be minute(s) slower than what I will run tonight.  

As to PR'ing a 10K sometime this year, I don't even know what my PR for that distance is.  :)  I don't think I really give a crap about that stuff too too much.  I guess if I am getting faster that is all that matters.   I would really like to break 22:00 sometime on a 5K, because I have a handful of 22:0x 5K's.  I have a course shortened 21:xx 5K, but that doesn't count.  

Wanna know a secret about me that will astound you???  Breaking 22:00 on a 5K is the only goal in life I have not achieved yet.   Everything else I ever wanted to do has been done.   I guess you will call that a life well lived huh??   A lucky person.   I am who I am though, and I sure don't chase after wind.   A fool chases after wind, and a wise man is content in probably simpler things.  

You can quote me on that, cuz I just made that up.   :) 

Anyhooooo, I have today off, and tomorrow off, and I only work 7-midnight on Friday.   Then I have Saturday and Sunday off.   So that ain't too shabby.   After this weekend though it is back to work, work, work.  

I should be fully recharged, and I got big plans this year for running.   Running several days in a row, which quite possibly is the stupidest idea I have ever had.   :) 


Should be fun anyway.   :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.   I didn't do coffee yet this morning, because I may want to try and sleep a bit more.  I'll give myself an hour, and then maybe a coffee, and treat myself to lunch.   Sounds like a good idea to me.   Better than the running one anyway.  

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Why Didn't You Tell Me???

So, as I was starting this thing, I see yesterday was my 1300th post on this blog.   Ummmm,  you guys could have told me.  I know you keep track of that type of stuff.  

Anyway, I am up, and I figure I should start my day off.  I work both jobs today, and we are having tacos for dinner.   I am going to get a run in today, so that means I will be running over 365 consecutive days in a row, starting whenever my last day off was.   ;)  

Tomorrow I have off, and I am running a 5K.  I have absolutely no idea what my 5K time will be.   I am assuming the first 2 miles will be in the 7:30 range, and the last mile may approach the 7:00 range, and the last .1 being fast.  So it would seem 23:00 will be the time to beat.   I have no idea if that is how it will play out at all, because I am not sure what pace I will hold on my 5K.  So it is all just guesses.  

The weather should be perfect.  No snow and no ice.  It will be a bit cold, but that ain't anything.  I will just assume whatever I have is what will happen.  One thing is for sure is I will know how fast I am to start the new year.   :) 

As to the new year, I have absolutely no idea what I will be doing.   I will push for a 5K, and 10K pr somewhere, but I don't know about longer distances.  Not sure how much I will up my mileage.   That will be a wait and see, and I assume this weekend is when I will start to up my distances a bit.  

Other than that not a lot going on with me as per usual.  Just doing this life thing, and doing it quite a bit better than you.   :) 


So, coffee now to finish.   I have to take the Hopester for a run.   Not sure if I will run 2 or 3 miles.   We'll see.   It is a chilly 21 degrees outside, but that ain't horrible.   Ran in colder than that.  Then I will get ready for work.   I probably don't have a ton to do. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I got nothing for a p.s. and I don't have all day to think of something, so that is all there is.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Monday, December 29, 2014

Phone blogging cuz I'm cool like that.

Hello and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I was thinking about this past year, and how it compares to the end of this year.  Different huh??  I sorta know the reasons why. I'll tell you a bit of what I know. I'll try not to sound too nutty. It was my 7th full year of blogging, not all this blog. It was a year of drought so to speak, and there wasn't much for me to give. I gave what I could.

Anyhoooo that is that. I am sure this year will probably be better. I slept a ton last night, and it felt good.  :). Actually I am still in bed.

So anyway I also was thinking of the running every day thing. On a day off I could run my little 1.25 mile route. I used it before to do repeats on. I am sure I won't go the whole year running every day, but why not put a New Years resolution out there I am bound to fail at. Everybody else does it.  :)

Anyway I am just getting something down cuz I am cool like that. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

Xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  I feel today will be a lazy day before work. I gotta get a run in though.

Love  You All. Xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Rushing One Up...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I didn't sleep good last night, but that was kind of my fault.  We were just sitting down after dinner, and some Indiana Jones movies were on.  I just kinda wanted to lay down and watch them in the room.  We did that, I fell asleep, and woke up probably around 11:00 or so, and I didn't sleep much after.  :)  That was dumb of me. 

Although I didn't get much sleep, I knew when I got up I was going to have a good run.  I was in the mood to run, and I know I was going to feel good, and I did.  I never ever really pay attention to how I feel before a run.  I guess that matters.  I always assume a run is a run is a run.  Maybe they aren't. 

Anyway I don't have much on my mind, but I can typically always think of something, so I'll give you something I was thinking about last night.  My life and all my memories mean nothing.   They don't mean anything to me.   I kinda hold onto no part of my life.  My existence here is not really worth anything.   I know that sounds kinda like a downer, but it isn't.   I am totally cool with it. 

I don't know what that means, except maybe I know the true value of me, and what I am worth.  No misconceptions, and no false self worth.  Also I thought of something I wrote about yesterday.  It basically says I can put up with a lot of stuff because I am right.  That statement there signifies to me that is one of the ways I am strong. 

It isn't from arrogance I say that, but it is from, because I know.   I spent a life becoming me, and learning about me, and my place in this World. 

Just some things I was thinking about.  

Anyway, the reason I had to rush this up is I have to work at 7:00 AM.   We'll probably only work around 5 hours or so, but I gotta get ready.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  This week on my 4 days off I should try to be a little more productive.   ;)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Saturday, December 27, 2014

Ain't Stopping Now...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I slept a TON last night.   I didn't even know I was that tired.  I woke up pretty early, but there was a cat sleeping on me.  I probably would have gotten up, but I didn't want to wake the cat from her comfortable sleep.  :)  When she got off, I just kept sleeping and sleeping and sleeping.   I was surprised how tired I was. 

Anyway, you know the story.  I have absolutely nothing to blog about, but I am getting something down anyway.   For those who pay attention perhaps you wonder why I put up with things, and why I am the way I am.  It is because I am right, and people act foolishly.   I know people are foolish, and they don't.  It lets me be patient I think, although sometimes I may hit a rough patch, and I lose patience. 

People have to go their own way, but it will always lead back to the same place.  Maybe it is here, and this blog.   I don't know.  I know life can be busy, and I know our hearts aren't always that great.  I know there is anger in people, and hate, and bad things like that.   Things we wish weren't there.   We are full of a lot of anti-virtue really, and how do we battle ourselves and our shortcomings?? 

I know the answer to that.   It is impossible.   You lose.  You cannot beat you.  Your demons are too strong for you, and they tie you down.   There only is one way to victory, and I have been saying that stuff for a long time.  One of the more surprising things to me is how long this takes.   I had no idea.   :) 

It isn't my story though, and trust me I need every single gift I have to be able to do this.   It isn't me who makes me the way I am.   I can be a nut, and I can be a little crazy, but that is because of the promise I have. 

Sooooo anyway I have the day off today.  I am going to do laundry, and make dinner, and I am not sure what else.   I may run, or maybe just run tomorrow and the next day.  One thing I thought of is having been running only 3 milers for quite a long time, I bet I can run a little every day without taking a day off.   Wouldn't that be something??  

I won't, because I am injury prone and stuff, but something I thought about.  

Oh well.   :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.   I cannot believe how much I slept last night.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Friday, December 26, 2014

Very Much Betterererrr,,,

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I decided to switch things up a bit in more ways than one.  First I already got my run in, and it was a good one.  First two miles around 8:30 pace, and I added a little tempo in the 3rd one.  I am sorta thinking 7:30's may be my pace for my upcoming 5K.  Just a guess.  Also I switched my phone app thingy to just tell me my pace for each mile, instead of every 5 minutes.   Never thought of doing that before, but I don't want to hear that crap every 5 minutes. 

Yesterday I had my 2nd bad run in a row.  I stopped after 1.5 miles.   I have no idea what was wrong.  Anyhooooooo, today I work at 7:00 AM to 3:00 PM, and then I have tomorrow off again.   :)  Pretty good week I'd say.  We are working Sunday though, because of the extra two days off next week too.   it is like a vacation for me.  

I don't really have too much to say today.  I am glad I got a good run,  oh wait that reminds me.  I ran before I had coffee too.  Usually I run after coffee.  Just goes to show you how clueless I was as to why I had two shitty runs in a row.  I wonder if that ever happens to anyone else.   It seems I may have had that happen before, but can't recall. 

Anyhooooo, let me make a cup of coffee.   Okay coffee is brewing.   I really have nothing to blog about at all.  I think I've been on such a good roll of getting something down each day, that maybe I want to keep it going/ 

Yesterday was another lazy day, but today I work.  I got coffee on the way, and I will make dinner when I get home. 

I guess that ain't so horrible.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  time to drink my coffee. 

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Thursday, December 25, 2014

Finishing Up The Year Strong...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay.  I slept in this morning, and I feel sluggish still.  I may go back to bed after this.   :)   I have a coffee, and I should run sometime today, but we'll see if I can sleep more first. 

As is the case with me a lot there isn't a lot on my mind, and I don't really have anything to blog about, but my heart feels pretty happy, and a lot of times I can get something down when I feel like this. 

I think my blog can go along saying really nothing, but eventually a doozy comes out.   Yesterday was one of those.  A lot of stuff hit me though you know?? 

I went on a run yesterday, and I felt sluggish.   Odd since all my runs lately I have been feeling great.  I started off slow at the 5 minute mark, but my first 2 miles were a pretty normal pace.  About 1-1/2 miles in I slowed everything down.   I wanted the run to be as easy as possible, and my last mile was  a 9:11 pace or something.  I just wasn't feeling the run you know??  What can you do?? 

Other than that I was just lazy yesterday.  Lisa asked me what I was going to do, and I was just going to be lazy.  :)  I was, and I overachieved really in that regard.   :)  Today we were going to see a movie, but it doesn't start til 4:00 PM.  The other theater has earlier movies, but not the one Lisa wants to see.  Into the Woods or something like that. 

So that is my day yesterday, and today there is nothing major going on.  I should do some laundry, and maybe a little cleaning.

First I'll see if I can sleep.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   I wonder what next year is going to look like.   Should be interesting.  I hope it isn't more of the same.   I hope we get to better stuff, that is for sure.  

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Wednesday, December 24, 2014

So Many Directions One Can Choose...

Hello all, and good morning.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay.  I finally have a day off today, and a day off tomorrow.  It's been a while.  Once again I did my thing of coming home tired, and sleeping for 3 hours.   :)  I will take the Hopester in a bit for a run, and then we'll see what the day brings.  

Do you ever go back and see a baby picture of yourself, and then look at who you are now??   I look way different.   Somewhere over the years I got old.  :)   My brother John had a picture of the 3 of us brothers from back in 1969.  I have absolutely no idea what was going on with our family back then, but all 3 of us lived a life, and there is no way to predict what it would look like from the ages we were back then. 

Actually there is no way to predict how your life will look from where you stand now.  5 year plans and 10 year plans are the stupidest way for people to pretend they know what the heck they are doing.  If your 5 year plan doesn't have Cancer in it why not??  How the Fuck do you know??  Car accident??  Lou Gehrig's disease???  Anything??   Funny how the World threw one over on us huh??  We were taught we are smart, and we can do all these things, and you have absolutely no idea if you will be 6' under 2 years from now.  

The old life thing.   The two sides of us.   The arrogant side that knows damn near everything, and the other side that is really still just a kid.   Full of life's cheats, and hurts, and false promises of Happily Ever After. 

I figure most people are more comfortable living in the arrogant side of life, because it helps us feel "in charge" or something.  

It is the kid who wins the game of life, but you have to take off years and years of where we learned via society and stuff the Shit of the World.  

You need help, because the years and years of Bullshit have made you weak, and now you are overpowered by the World.  A slave really.  

The path to victory is what I have been saying all along.   I had to live a life to find it, and I had to struggle through much to be who I am today.  

It is my job to help you in this journey, but you have to be willing to go.   There is no staying on the sidelines.   What do you accomplish there??   Nothing. 

Hard stuff needs to be done, because it is a bad and Evil World, and people are probably some of the worst people out there.  The World has gone and taught all you people the wrong shit.   It is how things go. 

The truth is way different than what you think.  

I have been saying this stuff for a long time though. 

Oh well.   We'll see what today brings.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  I have to check the temps, but it was 40 degrees on my way home from work.   I may run in shorts on Dec 24th.   :)   That's a win over Mr. meanie Winter poopy head.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Tuesday, December 23, 2014

A Little Of This, And A Little Of That...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.  I don't know what is up with my morning sleeping.  I get home around 4:30 AM give or take, and typically I am tired.   I may grab a bite to eat, and can fall asleep almost right away.  I only sleep for like 3 hours though.   :)   I don't understand it. 

So I am going to go to the grocery store after this, and work a few hours.  I'll get a bit of a nap in later.  I have absolutely nothing on my mind today at all, but I'd thought I'd throw something down anyway. 

We saw the Hobbit movie yesterday, and it was good, and then we went out to lunch.  One of Lisa's friends texted her, and she met us out too.  She said she didn't want to be a 3rd wheel type of thing, which made Lisa and I laugh.   That shit don't bug us.   We aren't doing anything special that is for sure. 

Other than that I came home and napped, and worked.   I ran yesterday faster than I expected.   I didn't feel like I was going fast, but my 5 minute update was pretty quick, and so was my 10 minute update.   I decided I better slow it down a bit, and I guess I didn't.   I thought I was maybe going a bit slower on the 3rd mile, but I picked up speed toward the end, and kicked.  :)   Not a run I was expecting.  These days I expect to run close to 8:30's on a normal run, and yesterday I was closer to 8:00 for the first two.  Weird.  It is kinda neat that my legs take me pretty easily at those speeds.   That makes running fun, I tell you that.  

I've been on a pretty good blogging kick, although the last 3 days I haven't really said much of anything.  Just my normal day to day stuff.  There really isn't much on my mind though.  I am not concerned about the future, and I don't have much of anything to worry about, besides maybe the balance in my bank account. 

The thing about me and my life I guess is I have dealt with everything in my life.   I have no baggage holding me down.   My life and I have been accepted, and that gives me freedom, along with so many other gifts I've received. 

This is all a piece of cake really.   :)   I am one lucky person.  

Can't wait to learn about some of you people, as you come to terms with you and your life.   That will be fun, and very interesting.  

Anyhooooo, I don't have much of anything else.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  we are going to have a green Christmas, so that basically means only two months of winter this year.   After two months it is March.   :)

Love You All    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Monday, December 22, 2014

Coffee, And A Blog...

Apologies, I may have used that title before, but I am not going back to check the last however many years I have been doing this to see.   :)  How's it going this morning??  Me,  I am doing pretty good.  I got a good night's sleep, and the end is near.   I think I have worked every day for over 2 weeks straight, maybe close to 3 weeks, I am not sure.  I work today just my 8 hour job, and both jobs tomorrow, and then I have two days off.   :)   Plus I have Saturday off too.   WOOOOO.   :) 

So that is kind of exciting to me.   I can get a little recharged, although I usually enjoy going to work.   Not so much on Sundays though.  I would always like one day off at least you know??  

Anyhoooodles, what is going on with me??  Not too much.   I don't have much to blog about, but I a lot of times can throw something up.  I feel like I am getting in shape.  While I was running yesterday I was thinking about having another gear.   It has been sooooooo long since I ran a 5K, I decided I better re-learn that shit pretty quickly.   A 5K is a pretty choppy race.   For me I like to straddle the red line.   Go a little past, and slow down a bit.  Go a little below, and speed up a bit.  To me it is all about keeping it comfortably hard, but I don't want to go over the red line too much, because if your last mile isn't the fastest mile you ran a bad 5K.  At least for those of us who don't win races and such.  :)  So I did that, and I remembered those feelings, and how to straddle that red line.   I'll do it again a couple times this week I think.  I have no idea how fast I am, but if I break 23:00 I think that will be pretty good *for me* this time of year. 

As for plans this year, I am not sure how long of a distance I will be training for.   My knee isn't 100%, so after the New Year I will raise my mileage some, and see if it affects me any.  If not I can go for bigger distances, and if it does maybe I'll do a bunch of 5 and 10K's.  Things like that.   We'll see.  

Today we are going to see the Hobbit movie.   It is 10:00 AM start time, which is awesome.   I am going to run again today, because I work both jobs tomorrow, so it will be good to take that day off.  

Other than that not much going on with me.   :)   I guess sometimes stuff does come out with my blog, but really not too too much today.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.  I think I'll go for a 2nd cup of coffee.    :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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 Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D 

Sunday, December 21, 2014

Oh Boyyyyyy...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I am up early, and I have a cup of coffee.  I am going to attempt to blog, but I have absolutely nothing at all on my mind.   I slept good last night, and I think I will go for a run in a bit.   It will be my 3rd day in a row, but I feel pretty okay.  I had a good run yesterday.  I went a little faster than expected, but it wasn't too hard.  I am starting to wonder if my normal pace may just be about the same as my 5K pace.   Do I have another gear??  I am not sure.    :)  That would be funny.   :)

Anyhooodles I have to work today.   Due to the Holidays I have to put in 8 hours, so I will be working two places.   My regular place, and I have to train the new guy for the weekend thing too.   Probably 4 hours both places.  I am going in at 9:00 though, so I will be done by 5:00 give or take. 

Other than that not too much going on.   Just doing this life thing, and tackling each day as it comes.   Some good, and some bad, but typically I think I feel pretty okay most of the time.

Sheesh, I really have nothing to blog about today at all, so I guess I'll just put this:

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   LOL, this blog is probably a trip.   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Saturday, December 20, 2014

It's The Weekend...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, actually I am doing really good this morning.  I feel like a million bucks.  I was hoping to sleep for like 6 hours this morning, but only slept 3, which is pretty much what I was assuming I would do, but happily to report I feel like I slept 9 hours.  That means I will be able to have a pretty productive morning.   I can run, and get some stuff done like laundry and stuff, before I meet at noon for work.  I am going to train my replacement for the weekend thing.  That means this week, I can talk to the grocery store head guy about getting more hours.  I told him I can work whatever, but would like to have Sunday off, since Lisa is off on Sundays.

So what else is going on with me??  Nothing.  I have shared my life, and I have shared my story.  Life still goes on for me, and I still do my thing.   Work, eat, be a goof, run.  I've said a lot of things on this blog.  I don't even remember, but I believe it is over 1200 entries.   :)   HAHA.  I have been honest and forthright.   I have told harsh truths about life.  It makes sense though doesn't it??  I mean if our existence ends in death that there is a harsh truth right??  It also means that people we know are going to die.  That isn't easy stuff is it??

It seems to me life is hard, and there is hard stuff, and we as humans our first defense is to bury the past.  Bury the hard stuff, because it is too hard to deal with.  Also I think it is very very much human nature to do that.   It is what we do.  Then I come along and find out all this stuff we have to deal with.   We need to look at it, and process it.  It is what my Journey was all about.   I remember dealing with my whole life in the early 90's, and it was a major part of what I did back then.  I thought it was all done, but some stuff was left, and it was left for you people.   Why I don't know, and what it means to you I don't know.

Life has to be dealt with.  I have many examples throughout the years.  Whether it is the old dude, or the Iz song night, and many many others, and I don't even know if you know them all or not.   Geesh thinking about them I even forgot some of them.

Anyway this is life.   This is a part of life, and that is the good stuff, although it is the hard stuff.   You are given an opportunity to go on your own personal journey if you choose.  At this stage it is a choice though. Do you want to hold onto your life, or do you want life?

 I cannot help too much, but if the time comes I can help some.

 Anyway, just getting something down.  Seems like it will be a good day.  :)

 That is it for today!!!  :)

 Thanks for reading!!!  :)

 Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

 xo's!!!  :)

Love You All!!!  :)))

P.s.  I think i will have another cup of coffee

Love you all  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D    :D

Laterzzzzz   :)

Friday, December 19, 2014

More Of The Same...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay.  Not horrible.  I don't have much going on, and I don't really have anything to blog about, but you know the theme, I can always give it a whirl. 

It is 8:00 AM, and I got home from work around 4:30AM, so I haven't had enough sleep yet.   I wish I slept more in the mornings, but what can you do??  Anyway after this weekend, my schedule will be back to normal.   I do my M-F thing and that is it for my FT job.  No more working 7 days/week.  Then whatever I pick up at the grocery store.  I hope to work around 10 hours/week there. 

I am excited about the new schedule, and really excited for the next two weeks, because I will have 2 days off in a row each week for the Holidays.  I am running a 5K on New Years Eve too.  I have no idea how fast I am, but I am pretty confident I can hold 7:30's relatively easy, so I assume I can run sub: 24:00 minutes.  Not sure if I can run sub 23, or 22:00 though.  No clue.  My go out and normal easy pace is as fast as it has ever been that I know of, but I am only running 3 milers, and this pace I could easily hold in the past for 15 miles or so.  Not at all sure how it translates.  I guess we will find out, unless there is a ton of snow on the ground, than we probably won't. 

Other than that I guess there isn't much going on.   Life goes on.  It kinda moves at a snail's pace seemingly huh, and then you look up, and damn, another year gone.  People make their plans, and add some goals, perhaps think of bucket list stuff, and whatever.   Life is like that a lot. 

I many times think I have a negative blog, but also a realistic one.  The truth of life battles the World for control of the information people have.   Without help I believe the World wins.  A look at the History of the World, and the current state of things you wonder how the World wins huh?? 

What is good about this World??   What is good about people??  What are the good deeds we do that make any difference??  Think of all the tough things you've been through in life.  Everyone has that shit.   No one escapes it.   You have kids they are going to do the same thing.   I don't know about girls, but once your boys turn 12 or 13 they will have a boner to deal with like 95% of the time.  For no reason at all either.   Just sitting in the class room, and oh look the bell is about to ring.   SHIT!!!   I can't walk in the Hall like this.   :)   FUCK was that the worst.  

There is always peer pressure and stuff too.   Girl wants boy as boyfriend, and that happens, and how far is a girl supposed to go in H.S.??   The guy is a walking boner, and all he wants is sex, and stuff.   Should we try pot, and drink beer? 

What is this life about??  It isn't about noble deeds cuz those aren't ever done.   It isn't about displaying all our virtues, because those are not there.   What is it we do??   What is our lasting legacy?? 

There is no lasting legacy, because in the end all we are is a memory.  As the years go on and the heart heals the memories are less and less, and thought of less and less.  You do this life thing, and hopefully have some good days.  A lot of them hopefully, but you will have shit days, and shit periods too.  So will your kids if you have them.  There is no Heaven on Earth, and this place really isn't all that great.  That is the truth of life.

All these plans and all these deeds that will be done in the future by you.  Some will sacrifice this and that for some goal or something. 
There is a way though to a better you, and I would think that would be a priority.  I know it sounds crazy, but I had to find this way.   I saw my soul sitting in the depths of Hell.  I saw my destination.  I suffered a lot and went through a lot, only to see my journey has just begun, and I was worse off than if I never even started.   That was my story.   As it so happens I did find my way, although my path was paved. 

Me vs. the worst of the worst.   Him telling me I am bad and horrible, and I had no problem believing that, because I see a Human for how they are.   Not that great.  When it came time for me to save my life I put it in the hands of one better than me.   Not from my strength, but I was taken over to say the right things at the right time. 

I have no idea what #3 will look like, but I can tell you it isn't fun.  It is bad and horrible, but this time I guess I know I'll be taken care of.   #2 was a big one I tell you.  It lets me be who I am today. 

You have a journey to go on.   The journey of you.  Finding out who you are, and finding out your weaknesses, and taking a look back on your life.   With a turn you get to the good stuff.   Without it you get nothing, and you just keep living the same ol' life you've been living.   Doing this and doing that.   Thinking of this and thinking of that, and crap like that.  

Not very exciting is it?? 

Oh well, I am out.  I gotta get a bit of a run in, and then I don't work til 8:00 PM. 


Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Prolly Just Gibberish From Me...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay.  I only slept like a couple hours after work, and am up already.  Don't ask me why.   Not really too big of a deal though.  I'll get a little run in, and go work at the grocery store for a few hours or so, and if I am tired I can take a nap later. 

I have absolutely nothing on my mind, and definitely nothing of any importance, but like I said before I do this thing sometimes, so I can always give it a whirl. 

If you could look inside my heart right now do you know what you would see??  Me thinking life is kinda a crazy silly thing.  I think humans are probably the weirdest of all the species.  What do we do??   What the Hell do we do day after day??  Why in the Hell do any of us think any of the things we do is important?? 

Let's take a look at us, and who we are.  Why should anyone give a crap about us??  Let's name 5 redeeming qualities we have.  Perhaps a list. 

I think that is the extent of me.  Those are the only 5 I got.   :)

Anyway for me in my life there are two components it seems.   One is I have a realistic outlook, because that is what I have lived, and that is what I have learned.  The 2nd is my heart is typically pretty okay with things regardless of how much reality pops up in my life.  I am pretty cool with it all you know??

For people there are two components to you many times I think, at least when viewed from me.  One is your list of things you think are important in life.   Things you cling to as if I didn't have these I'd be lost, and doomed or whatever, or things that are so important to you life isn't worth living without it, so you sell your soul to whatever that is.   Only reason you would do that however is poor vision, and poor trust, which you have both I presume.

In our minds since we are just lowly humans, are some picture of what we think a good person would do.  That is a bad thing too, because that picture falls short, and chances are you cannot live up to it anyway, because let's face it.  We really are not that nice.

There is a big old thing called life out there.  It is staring at you in the face, and it is bigger and stronger than you, and you cannot beat it.   You are not good enough.  It is not within you.   The good we would really like to be is not in our power to be.

What exercises are you going to do to make it so you have a heart that gives a crap??  Mile repeats??  Squats??  Pulling trains with a chain??  

In the olden days people would use a whip to whip their own back to beat the sin out of their life.   :)  I think that might be a very good idea for many of you to try.   Please take a video though, I would like to see it.   :)    j/k.

Anyhoooo welcome to the World and welcome to life.   It is a losing proposition, but there is one, and only one way to victory.   It isn't the path of you though, and it is way different than your comic book version of Happily ever after.  

I've said it before, and I'll say it again, truth is the hardest thing you will ever do, and for a lot of reasons.   Maybe the first reason is it means you are not that smart.  You are not that great.   You don't have what it takes to make you into the kind of decent person that is possible to be.

Confidence comes when you finally take the right path, and go on the correct journey.   You gotta do some tough stuff, before you get to the good stuff.  

Trust me.   I've lived it, and I don't even have what I am here for yet.   I still wait for that, but with a peaceful, and patient heart.   One that lets me have fun many times.   :)

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  welp, now it is time to run, and then to work.   :)  Yay  yay.   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D  

Monday, December 15, 2014

Early Morning Blogging...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay.  I don't have hardly anything on my mind as usual.  Just some normal day to day crap.  Not even really sure if I feel like blogging, but it is something I do once in a while, so I thought I'd give it a whirl. 

Currently I am drinking coffee, and I will take Hope out for a run in a bit.  I tell you one thing about running, the more you do it the more questions you have.   Yesterday would have been a good day for me to do a track workout, but I had to do a little extra work, so it really didn't work out with my schedule.  I don't know how fast I am, and I know the track helps answers those types of things.  I have a feeling I am pretty fast for me, but not sure if I am as fast as I've ever been.  No clue.   I am not sure if I am a 7:00 5K pacer, or a little slower.  Doubt I am faster, but you never know.   Sometimes my phone shows me going in the 6:00's, but I don't know if that is really all that accurate. 

So I have a normal week this week of work.  I work every day, but after this week Lisa and I both have Thursday and Friday off for the next two weeks.  That should be pretty sweet.   The Hobbit comes out this week, so we will see some movies.  Typically we don't do anything.   Yesterday I sat on the couch and watched football, although I had no interest in the teams playing.  The Bears suck, so I have no interest in them playing, and actually right now I don't really care about the NFL.  I am more interested in checking in on the Bulls and Blackhawks.   Anyhoooo that was yesterday.  I was watching something I had no interest in, and Lisa read.  I really wasn't in the mood for a movie either.   I think I was tired, because I didn't sleep all that well Saturday night, but I did sleep good last night. 

My life is simple.   Nothing really hard about it at all.  I don't know where this blog is heading at all.   As someone who pulled on this thing so long, I don't know if I will do that anymore.   I pulled for so long, because I know it is right, and I really really would love to get to the bottom of people.  Find out who you are and what really makes you tick.  That is pretty impossible on your own, because help is needed.   The World, and people are too scary for people to open up.   Not to mention many things in life are hard anyway. 

So there is that.  Knowing some things of life is good in a way, but it would be way very much more better if people came along and learned these things too.  So much pressure to be such a way, and to act such a way though.

I don't really have these types of pressures.  I can be a complete nut, and I can be other things too.   I am as my heart dictates, and sometimes I like to have fun, and sometimes I am down.   Sometimes I care for people when I see they are down, and some people I just flat out like for whatever reason. 

I know that the truth is the best thing in the World, but the truth is a scary scary thing.   Mostly because we are not perfect, and our thoughts aren't perfect, and the World judges and people judge.   Easier to just hide everything huh??   Only show the good stuff perhaps. 

Our hearts aren't perfect, and that sucks kinda too.   Aren't we supposed to be nice???  Aren't we supposed to give a crap about people.   Love our enemy instead of hating them.  Isn't that what it says?? 

The truth of life is tough stuff, and you haven't learned it yet.   I suspect though you realize you aren't perfect.   One truth of life is "good enough"  is NOT good enough.  There is more out there, but impossible for you to see, because all you know is what is inside your little shell. 

We are not smart enough in our shell to see the big picture, because inside our shell the World is ALL about us.  All we know is what we can learn in our shell, and that isn't much. 

Anyhoodles, I guess I am glad I blogged today.   :)

Have a good one.   :)    xoxoxoxo

MWAH!!!    :))

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Phone Blogging??

Hello, and good morning all. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I have absolutely nothing of any importance to blog about today, but what the heck.

Today I have coffee, blog, run, and then work. I'll make dinner afterwards.  Life sure is pretty easy when you wake up like this. I have a very realistic approach. I am not out to do the impossible. Out trying to change the world or anything. That ain't happening.

I switched over to my laptop.  Anyway all of a sudden blogging is becoming hard for me kinda.  I have absolutely nothing of any importance going on in my life.   It is a work, eat, run here and there kind of life.

I don't do anything earth shattering, because there is absolutely nothing of any importance to do in life.  We and our lives are not important.   How can I blog when I know this??

Maybe I will try a list today.

  • I have a pimple on my ear that hurts
  • I have itchy feet a lot
  • I am good on 4 hours of sleep
  • my life is pretty simple.  
  •  I have a happy heart
  • You have no idea what kind of gift that is
  • This is basically the typical shit you will see if you could look in my mind
  • I am not important, and I am totally cool with that. 
  • I don't have an agenda except for what my heart feels like doing. 
  • I think teaching the ways of the World is an effort in futility
  • No one needs that crap.  No service of any value is being given.  
  • The World is full of hate, and anger, and killing, and every bad thing under the sun.
  • No wonder people want to escape.  
  • This blog update is dumb.   :)
  • So am I.   :)
  •  Even so, it is good to be me.  :)
Anyway, I guess that is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading this stupid update.   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   worst blog update ever.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D   

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Let's Try This Again... Starting the 2nd cup of coffee. :)

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay.  I worked a little over 12 hours yesterday, so I was a bit tired when I woke up.  Currently I am going to go make a 2nd cup of coffee.  :)  Hold on, I will brb.

I tried writing  a blog already, and deleted it.  It was stupid, and kinda like the same old shit I always write.  So I guess I'll try and write another one.   There isn't a ton on my mind at all.  My heart is at peace though.   No striving, and no worries, and no questions, and looking for no answers.  What do you call that??

Done??  I am done.  I've done it.  The game is over.   I've done the life thing, and I've won.  What do I have to show for it??  I am that wise man who stored his treasures where they cannot be destroyed huh??  Yep, I have done that, and  it all started with a turn.  I sure had no idea what my life was going to look like.  What a story, and what a journey.  There is peace in victory I guess.  The final gift in this form of me I guess.

There is no wind out there I strive after.  There is nothing I need to accomplish, and that I can imagine is the biggest disconnect between me and you.   I would imagine you cannot fathom how it is I am the way I am.  What I know of my story is you cannot be like this.   It is impossible.  I am the way I am due to things very very very much out of my control.

You are born into this World, and very much a part of this World, and there is no escaping that but one.   I was once born into this World too, and it took much to make me question things.   It took things outside of my control to make me different.

The eye of the needle is a rebirth, and it is what made me different.  It was part 2 of a 3 step thing for me, and that coincided with another thing that has 3 parts.   I am part 2 on both.  When part 3 happens that will be crazy.

 You are still part 1 of whatever your story is.  Part 1 sucks.  There is no rest.  There is no victory, and there is no peace, and there is no meaning.  Life is what everyone has always been doing right??

 Life actually is really what few thought to do.  it just so happens in me finding my way, I also help others, and that is what this has been about forever.  It only gets hard because people are people. Stubborn, and arrogant in ways perhaps, but you learn things on your own I guess, and at your own speed. I move at warp speed, and you want to slow down to check everything. Analyze everything, or whatever it is you do.

 Oh well, I gotta run.  I am finishing this thing on the tablet, and writing with the tablet sucks. I think my laptop is on its last legs.

Laterzzzzz    xoxoxoxoxoxo.  :)

Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Slept Like A Baby...

Hello, and good morning all.   How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I slept really good this morning, so I feel like a million bucks today.  I work both jobs today, and I don't run today, so I can run the next two days.  My day is set up pretty perfect.

Hold on a second.  My coffee is done, and I am going to get it.   I have absolutely no idea what I will blog about today either.   :)

Okay I am back.  Anyway since I know ALL of you are very very very interested in whatever the heck I do I will tell you about my run yesterday.  I forgot my headphones so I ran with no music, which means I can listen to ME better on my run.  My first mile was 8:33, and it was easy.  My 2nd mile was 8:23, and there may have been a couple *fast* harder sections.   The last mile was 8:07, and it was pretty easy from what I remember.   The fast mile was probably from the last straight away, I am guessing.  So 8:30 is a pretty easy pace.  I think maybe on Sunday I should go to the track and run some 800s, just so I know what my sustainable 5K pace is.   I have no idea.   (TEMPS will be in the 40s too)

WOW, I really have absolutely nothing to write about.  Isn't that crazy??  Maybe that is what is weird about this year so far.  In the past it seems I always had something to write about, and now pretty much the only thing on my mind is stupid day to day shit.  So this is how the rest of you live.   :)   HAHA   I keed.

So anyway have you seen in the news how the US torture people to get info??  I haven't, but I get my news from my twitter feed, and that is like only one person.  :)  I did check the google news yesterday, and there was a blurb on it.

Silly silly silly huh??  We are better, because??  The whole question of terrorism starts with the question why are they mad??  You can blame it on religion, but there is some things that probably have been happening for centuries in the Middle East.  It won't be anything you read in any History books in school or anything.  There is information out there being peddled which states we are bad.   One only need look at Vietnam to know there probably is truth in that.  One could take a look in Central America too to see maybe having a McDonald sign in our big cities isn't progress.

There is a common theme run everywhere which states we are good and right, and we wear a white sheet basically in all we do.  We are America the great.   That is pretty silly thinking.

Progress in the World is basically impossible, and probably at fault is any 'ism you can think of.  Starting out in life with the thought we are right is the easiest way to remain on the wrong path.

We as people, as family members, as a Country, as a Society are wrong.   The path to finding out what is right is to believe that, and strive for more.

The answers are not exactly what you think, but I can guarantee you right now you are not right.   If you were you would be perfect, and I know that ain't true.  One of the hardest things in life to overcome is you are right probably.  It is what we've been told since forever.  It is a lie too.  Our whole foundation is built on lies. Well intentioned perhaps, but us as humans are fragile. We are what we are read, and what we are taught, and we are filled with crap.

 Anyway I am just rambling.  it isn't too hard for me to see the truth, because I threw everything away a long time ago.  It is hard for you, because you cling to a bad foundation.

Oh well  I gotta run.

 laterzzzzz   :)   xoxoxoxo

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Not An Ideal Start To This Day...

So I have a busy day planned today.  I am working both jobs.  I texted my manager yesterday at the grocery store to see when I was scheduled.  She told me Wednesday, but I could also come in today, as someone who usually works the ice cream isn't doing it.  So I am totally going to jump all over that.  Only problem isn't I haven't been to sleep yet from when I got home from the other job.  I was in bed, but just not sleeping. 

I got a lot of sleep yesterday, so that was probably part of the problem, and the White Sox made a couple big moves yesterday that barring injuries really strengthens their ball club.  They picked up another top pitcher.   Head of the rotation guy, and a lights out closer.   The closer's stats last year were ridiculous.  Something like 66 IP/42 H, and like 96K/23BB or something stupid like that.  That is dominating stuff, so right there you strengthened a trouble spot from last year.  Coupled with some smaller moves earlier, and this is a good team. 

One that can go all the way??  Who knows??  SF and KC were not predicted to be in the WS, and they were hands down the 2 best teams in the postseason.  So needless to say I had visions of sugar plum baseballs dancing in my head. 

After this I am going to get my run in, and then go to work, and sleep when I am done.   I don't feel bad all things considered, but the stress of not sleeping is always am I going to be dead tired later??  Typically it never is as bad as you think it will be, but it is stress.   Those who cannot sleep good, I get it.   Luckily I typically always get enough sleep, it just isn't what you'd call traditional. 

Anyway, not really a lot on my mind.   I did actually jack crap yesterday, besides my run and work.  Work went well, and my run was fast.   *fast for me*  It is my new normal now though, that I just go out and run 8:25s as my normal go out and run pace.  I don't know if that will turn into a fast for me 5K, because maybe I am just running fast with Hope, but I feel I am getting in shape.   There is another gear inside me that I can seemingly use whenever I want.  I sometimes do at the end of my runs.  My final straight away has a little incline, and I like to run uphill. 

So really I guess this is my update.   Nothing really too too important at all.  

This year seems strange to me.  Different.   Every year as far as this thing goes is different in ways.  I don't know what it means.  Not too worried about it though. 

Oh well, I gotta run. 

Laterzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.   :)   xoxo

Monday, December 8, 2014

It Don't Take Much.

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me,  I am doing okay.  I am up early.  Actually I have been up a while, but laying in bed.  :)  I do that a lot.   Anyway, my weekend got all jacked up.  It don't take much to throw your schedule off does it?? 

Friday I should have run, but I ran 5 of the previous 6 days, and my legs were tired.  I know I know I am only running little 3 milers, but I thought to be safe.  I know Saturday I was not going to run, because I work Friday night, and Saturday day sometime, with a little sleep thrown in there.   I got out of work early Friday, and stayed up, because I didn't want to wake up at 8:00 AM.  Sometimes I'd rather work later on Saturday, because Lisa works til 5:00, so it makes sense to get off of work at the same time. 

Anyway we just ate a home cooked meal Lisa's friend made on Saturday, and watched one of the Harry Potter movies, and I COULD not sleep Saturday night.  I wasn't tired.  Lisa and I had Hunger Game movie plans. I woke up later than normal on Sunday due to crappy sleep, plus I had to work a couple hours, and there the weekend went.  :)  Like I said it don't take much. 

So I will be taking the Hopester out in a bit.  We will be going for a 3 mile run, and I have to do leaves, and maybe organize my clothes.  I realized yesterday I still have Summer clothes on my top shelves.  I should put them away or something. 

There are a lot of things going on in the World, and sometimes I am surprised/shocked at how much the World controls us.  I realize the truth is a bitter pill, but I didn't know how bitter, and how hard it was for people to swallow. 

You cannot imagine what it was like to see the World through my eyes during that bad summer so many years ago.  It was then and there I learned the truth of the World.   How bad of a place it was.  How tough the things we have to do are. 

It is all about learning our place I guess.  Maybe that is the whole journey too.   We are on this Earth, we consider ourselves good and decent people mostly I would gather, and we consider ourselves to be well-rounded and all these types of things, but the truth of us is we are not perfect.   Our thoughts on the inside are not perfect, and our deeds are not perfect. 

We judge ourselves based on people who we consider to be worse, and the truth of the whole World is we have no idea the lives of others.   We don't know what kind of learning/propaganda they grew up with.   They have to overcome Society, and parents, and teachers, etc... just like everyone else.  

Some people hold onto the World so tight, because without it there life is meaningless.   Remember those words.   "Do not fear I have overcome the World"   Guess what??  You haven't.   It is not in your power, because you are not strong enough for that.   Only one was, and you would need help to overcome.

So where you stand, and where I stand what can I do??  Not much can I??  Every life is personal, and I know deep down people have a feeling something is missing.   That is an easy statement, because I know life isn't perfect, and I know people aren't perfect.

So anyway, my weekend got jacked up, and I didn't blog, but I wanted to throw something down for the heck of it.  :)

Gotta run.   I got things to do.   Shouldn't you people be working anyway??


Thursday, December 4, 2014

Feeling Pretty Light-Hearted...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am feeling pretty good.  I slept okay this morning.  Not great, but not horrible.  I am going to go get a run in after this.  I paid bills this morning.  I have one more to go.  Money sure doesn't go as far as you think it will.  :) 

Anyway, I tried blogging yesterday.  My computer froze, I was writing stupid shit, so I just left it and ran.  :)  Today I am feeling pretty light-hearted like I said, and not a ton on my mind.   As I was thinking about that earlier though I realize I am still me.   Very much different, and still here doing my thing. 

What I do is very much determined on how I feel on the inside.   As you can tell mostly I feel pretty okay.  I have no questions and no worries about the future.   I guess that says a lot huh??  I am going to turn 50 in a couple years or so, and I don't mind.   I don't have worries about what to do for the next how ever many years.

When my life came to the important questions of what to do, I really took a look.   Plus at this very same time I threw everything away.   It is a World you know, and I have a life.   Why should I believe the crap that everyone learns, just cuz. 

I had no idea what my future would look like, but if I saw something, and it looked off, or yucky, or not great, I accepted it.   I didn't force myself to think something was good and true, just because everyone else did, or I always thought that. 

Look at your life.   What is expected of you as a person with people who you feel you have to answer to?? 

Grow up, and have a career, and family, and marriage, and whatever.  You look at people all over, and they are totally stuck in their life.   People depend on them for such, and such.  People expect such and such.   Then we also make turns, and decisions that paint us in a corner. 

Life is hard, and you are not always going to feel all that great about it, because you always always have a ton of shit to do, and it never ends.   Bills always come, and there is always someone expecting such and such from you.

It is life here you know??  You were taught since forever this is supposed to be fun.   This is supposed to be good, and truthfully it is like the worst thing out there.   It isn't fun.  It isn't good.   This is a pretty crappy place, and to get people to take off the rose colored lenses is like impossible. 

It is what is happening though.   Your lenses are being changed, and you battle against it, because you want that damn fairy tale.   You want this thing to be worth something, and it isn't.   People have been living this life thing for a long time, and who cares about them??   99.9999% of them are already dead.  

We will be too someday, and at that point none of this even matters.   :)

You may wonder how I can feel pretty good about who I am, and how I feel while I think like this.   Well, that is just part of the magic about being me.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   We are having some pretty nice weather this week.  I should do leaves, but I may wait for the weekend.   I am going to run, and then be lazy.   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D 

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

A Good Morning Sleep...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I had a good sleep this morning, so that has me feeling pretty good.   I sometimes worry I'll wake up after 3 hours of sleep, but I got at least 5-1/2 hours.  I can live on that, and I will still have time to maybe nap before a bit between jobs.  We'll see. 

Not much really going on with me.  I got a run in yesterday, and I keep surprising myself what my comfortable pace is.  It isn't 9:30 like it has been forever while dealing with injuries all the time.  My comfortable paces are closer to 8:30 so it seems.  Haven't seen that in years.   My little Fall plan of just running 3 milers til the New Year seems to be working pretty good.  I am getting fast, and I can later always add miles. 

Life still goes on though.  When I look around the internets I see a lot of times people don't feel right.  Something is missing.   I saw a guy I worked with a long time ago.   I have no idea how old he is, maybe late 20's or so.  You see the change in him though.  From the care free funny 18 year old to Life hits.   I could see it in his eyes.   The dude almost died where we worked several years ago.  Has some kind of screwy heart.   He then got in a car accident that messed up his back.  He was on pain pills, got addicted to them I think, and now even life still gets hard for him.   Mom dies, and Dad goes whack.   He has a job he likes, and they treat him well, and I could see in his eyes he was happy for something good. 

I like he could open up like that and tell me his whole story.   We exchanged numbers to keep in touch, which I am not good at.  I am turning into an old man.   :) 

Anyway I think it is completely normal for people not to feel 100% right.  Too many questions about life, and we want to feel good all the time, and we don't.   There is stress, and stuff, and work, and life a lot of times is filled with doing crap we really don't want to.  Monday mornings come to mind.  Who wants to do those??   :) 

Just to get to the truth of us is a struggle, because we get pulled in all kindsa directions.   How we feel.  How we want our life to  be viewed.   What we want people to think.  Somehow we are supposed to have everything figured out huh??  Have all the answers, and know we are on the right path. 

We matter, and people care, and when the chips are down, people will be there for you. 

I could say a lot of things, but we as people are not perfect.   A lonely existence in ways, because people don't really know us that great, because really we don't even know us that great.   What makes me tick??  How do I make the inside of me feel better??

So many questions, and I get it.   I see the sad existence of people sometimes, and I think about them a lot.   I don't know if they feel it, or if they cover it or what, but I saw our ending many years ago, and I saw the sad state of affairs. 

Our life is us, and we stand alone in this great World held accountable for us.   There are no plaques we hang on, and no diplomas, and no trophies or anything.   At the end we stand naked of all accomplishments, and hopefully we find a way to not be held accountable for our less than perfect deeds.   Those are with you, until they have been dealt with.  

The answer to life is forgiveness.   It isn't mental toughness, and hard sacrifices, and any other thing.   At the end it would be a good thing if we could be forgiven for our less than perfect self.  

That is a journey though.   From point A to point B.  It isn't some magic words, or some magic prayer, as some would have you believe.  

The magic stuff happens well past that.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.   Guess it is time to finish my coffee, and get ready for work.   It is sunny and 25, so almost perfect running, but I ran 3 days in a row, and this week is all mid to upper 30's, so there will be some good runs.   :)

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D      :D 

Monday, December 1, 2014

The Best Thing Of My Mondays...

ARE I GET TO SLEEP IN.  :)   I love it.  It kinda makes a Sunday quite the funday in my opinion.  I got my run in yesterday, and it was quite a bit quicker without snow and slush, and ice everywhere.  I then did my work thing, which I was not feeling.  I am glad that is almost done.  I don't mind working Saturday, but I want Sundays off. 

Anyway, that is about it for yesterday.  I watched Football and stuff.  We made tacos for dinner, and man did that hit the spot.  I slept in today too.  I am going to take Hope for a run in a bit, because I work both jobs tomorrow, so I probably won't run tomorrow.   I'll be rushing to get enough sleep, and a lot of times I'll only sleep for like 3 hours, and be up.  Actually, I will be working a couple days this week at both jobs, so that should be fun. 

What else???  Not much.  I guess this blog on any given day can go in any given direction.  I have things on my mind here and there, but a lot of times it may not be what people want to hear.  You want to go out and make you the best possible person you can huh??   It should be everyone's goal in life.   To be a better version of yourself.  

As people what is it we lack??   EVERYTHING.   We are nowhere near as good of a person as is possible, and the only problem is it is IMPOSSIBLE for us to be that person.   There is a way to get to be this better person, but you have to be willing to go "ALL IN" as they say.  

If this blog is any indication that surely is not something people are willing to do.  Too many important things to accomplish.  What is it you have accomplished in life??   What of any of these things would you consider a redeeming thing you have done?? 

You may have worked hard at such and such, but slaves in Egypt worked hard, and slaves in the US worked hard.  Jews lived in concentration camps, and for what gain??  People have had kids, and that has happened since forever.  Funny none of those 12 did though huh??  

Why, cause there is a different way.   A way that does not count on the wisdom of people for its strength, and it doesn't count on the efforts of people to become better versions of ourselves.   Nope it is a much much harder route, because it is not you who are the one in charge.   Obviously this is not something people are willing to accept, and deal with.  

It is a shame too, because there is a lot to do, and it has nothing to do with Worldly achievements.   That is just crap you do to fill time.  

Oh well. 

I gotta run.