Saturday, May 28, 2016

Another Day Down.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I've been up a while just putzing.  I don't really have anything to blog about, but whatever. I didn't do much yesterday. Worked, defrosted our freezer, and that was about it. I think I ran every day this week, and my knee is not happy.

I work today, and do that quick turnaround work at 3:00 AM. Covering a vacation. I'll have the rest of Sunday off, and all of Monday.  That's about as close to a full weekend I get. Looking forward to it too. Don't really have anything planned.

Anyhoo that's about it for me. Life goes on. Some things do baffle me. My life went pretty crazy after I graduated College. All alone in the World really finding my way. I had so much happen, and I found my way. To see things so clearly now is kinda nuts, cuz what can I tell you??  You are a product of this World as all the multitudes before you. You believe in this World, and you wrongly believe this World is great, and so are the people.   It's easier that way right??

I was thinking earlier this week why is it so hard??  You don't get any of the good stuff if you don't take the proper steps. Your hearts stay hard, and I am afraid who you are now is as good as it gets. Your bad stuff will hide in the shadows, because no one is courageous enough to live in the light.

Your time is right now. This is your life, and you are totally accountable for you. Unknowingly I took the right steps, and I was given good vision of me. This good vision showed me I deserve the thief's end. Personally that scared the crap out of me. This perfect person I wanted to be was out of reach.

So I overcame myself, repented, and went through the eye of the needle. I have become this mostly spirit hybrid that is no way like you. I've suffered much in hidden where only I, and the author of my story knew about. I am afraid you reject me, and my story who you really are rejecting is ... well you know.

My story is about forgiveness, not perfection.  Perfection is out of reach for now. It is also about strength, because my whole story up to this point is to walk in the light unashamed of my imperfections. Walking as ignorantly as Adam before the fall.

Now, where is it you are getting your points from??  In my book I say you are being shut out. Some probably sitting at negative points. 

At this stage you have done nothing. Your sacrifices are in vain, and the story has passed you by.

This blog is tough to read I know. If I am right than you are wrong. That means to this point you built your foundation in the sand, and how do you give it up?

Scary huh??  Yeah, well I dealt with that over 2 decades ago. Much of it took place in like a year. When life hit I didn't FUCK around.

How many years has just this blog gone on??  You people are running in place. You aren't getting better just older. You aren't getting stronger just hiding like you've always done.

Oh Well, I'll take the Hopester for a walk.

Laterzzzzzz.    :)

Friday, May 27, 2016

Time Is On My Side.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?,  I've been in a good groove of waking up early. I woke up early yesterday, but didn't feel like blogging. Sometimes it can feel like a chore. I don't know why. Maybe cuz so much of my life is boring,  so why talk about it?   I don't know.

Nothing really significant happened yesterday. Pretty much a day like any other. There are probably many things I can do to occupy my time, but a lot of times I am just not feeling it.

I kinda want to work on my grass, but that is a lot bigger job than you think. I want to read my book,  but I fill my time with other stuff. Every day I want to feel happy. I guess that's what you call it.

I reckon i am happier than most. Mostly cuz I don't have a ton of stress. I have no need to escape life. I accept life I guess.

I have no over inflated expectations of how life is supposed to be. I also don't have any inflated view of how I am as a person. Maybe that is the stuff that bogs people down. We are alive so life has to be awesome. We have to be special, cuz there is no one like us.

We are repeating the steps many have made before. Walking on this Earth doing stuff. We had mom's and dad's and family and friends. Important to us relationships, but life comes down to you.  Inside us all is a person we don't let other people know. Who knows the screwy shit people think about.

Who knows how we think others may not live up to our expectations. How much labor is done trying to help, and no one cares? 

I have a pretty good grasp of life. It helps me see through the BS. We are all full of a lot of it too.

Life is a question, and we want the answer. Unfortunately you kinda have to brace yourself for the answer. It is not what you expect, and you really have to be strong to accept it.

The fairy tales were just that. The truth of our existence here is pretty brutal. Here today, and gone tomorrow. Fucking up all kindsa shit along the way.  :)

Screw it, I am going for a little run.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I wonder what today has in store.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH. :)))

xxoo. :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.  :)

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Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Tomatoes Typically Are Round Shaped, and Other Phenomenon.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??   Me, I am doing fine. My early alarm went off, and I was in a coma. I was surprised. I got enough sleep last night. I thought about sleeping more, but got up instead.

Yesterday was just a pretty normal day. I worked,  and came home, and did a bit of yard work. Mostly just used a dandelion tool to uproot a bunch of dandelions. I think I want to do a little something each day. I am adding a bigger section of mulch in the back yard. Just more area to put plants, and more area to not have to cut.  :)

Lisa had her guy fix our truck. Sheesh. It is really fixed. 1000% better. He's also going to do our car, and for probably 60-70% cheaper than the shop we used to go to. Nice having a guy with no overhead.

That was my day. Lisa's brother cooked burgers on the grill, and then I slept. Today I have to cut the grass, and a little bit more to the yard. We lucked out with our vehicles. I wasn't really too stressed,  cuz part of the magic of me is whatever will be will be.

That is crazy speak too, I know,  but at my stage you have no clue how crazy everything really is. How crazy things can be I should say. After the eye of the needle everything is different. As with me too, there was no blueprint. No one for me to look too, and guidance was nowhere near really. There was the time way back when where a lot happened. The energy came back, and I had ~ 2 decades to live a normal'ish life. Then things started up, and the Spiritual World was open again always. For a time much was scary, and much was sad, but eventually I overcame with help the 2nd time, and the rest is history.

Those who may have been around a bit know I don't always know how these days will look. I thought twice I was on my way to do the final thing of the current version of me, but I wasn't. The turn none could make.

So still I remain alone, and anymore it is anyone's guess what the days will look like. I bike almost every day still, and run short when I wake up in time.  My knee often does not feel like it wants to do more than short, and I am cool with it.

Other than that just living out my days. I guess half my life I live out my days knowing I have more to do. For over two decades I've known my path,  and where I end, and the new me begins. I never knew the story was like this. The World teaches us everything is easy. The story is more about time than labor. I imagine things are pretty easy on the other side. Something is important I guess in keeping an enduring heart.

I take no credit in anything really, cuz I am not who I once was. I am someone who has reached a stage they never taught you in any writing.

Who knew??  The answer to that is no one in a long time. The answer was lost and hidden for Centuries. Pretty nuts huh?? 

Pretty ridiculous what humans turn religion into huh??  It isn't really their fault. No one is there to teach them any better. I think maybe before I was mad at their silliness, but now I guess it's sad kinda.  They have no idea where they stand. How do you overcome your lot when you are so entrenched?

The answer is pretty simple.  Few will, and that sucks too.

Anyways.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. time to take the monster/Hopester.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.    :)

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Up Early... I Spose

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing the same as usual. I don't really have anything to blog about, and not sure I even want to, but what the heck.

Kinna thinking how far we have to go, and how much needs to be done, and it is pretty sobering. In ways we are in the same boat. I cannot do for me what I will eventually have to do. So I wait. You cannot do for you what needs to be done either. One wonders if you know that stuff has to be done to you.

I reckon you and life will just keep knocking you down to where you yearn for more. What is the point??  Live some number of years til you die?? 

A path to a better you is pretty much everything. The making of a better you is outside your power. Your heart will always fail you. Anger shows up at the strangest times. So much of our inside us completely out of our control. Strange huh??  You do not even know all that makes up your inside. Hard to really tell what makes us these strange creatures who eventually turn into dust and ashes.

When we are young we give little thought to that stuff,  eventually death visits us in some form.

I don't know exactly what made me question things way back when, but I eventually figured out I ain't that fucking great.

I wanted to always be a nice guy. Always wanted to be in a good mood,  and I realize self deception is something I was very much full of. The truth was so very far away. Come to think of it the truth is outside our grasp too. Really kinda funny how very little we all can do.

If you currently think you are right now as you stand,  then I cannot think of a worse place to stand.

The story that should be being made will be one where you get taken off your pedestal. Beaten down. Humbled, in order to lift you back up.

People are arrogant though. It is how we were destined to be, and forgiveness only comes to those who are sorry.

Guess what??  That also is something we cannot make our hearts feel.

So my blog goes against people. I tell you how weak and hopeless we are in important things, and the World wanted to build you up. One of us is telling the truth, and one is based on lies.

One many will listen to, and one a few. I am on the few side, and that is the way it has always been.

The World is pretty strong you know. Only one was able to overcome, and you have no idea what your story can look like.

Your story the World  will make for you is the same as the multitudes. Do some shit on earth, and then turn into dust and ashes.

It is a sad existence really, and that is the truth.

Oh well. Today should be another day.  Fun fun.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. made steak fajitas last night. I think I'll make that a Monday ritual. Try to anyway.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.    :D.    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.  :)

Monday, May 23, 2016

On We Go.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I had another day yesterday. It could have been a bit better, but I was tired when i got home from work, so I pretty much did nothing. I did laundry, and that's about it.

On the bright side I slept good, and feel rested. It is as good a way to start a Monday as I know.

Other than that not much going on. I did listen to the Sox game yesterday, and that is fun for me. The weather is going to be warm too, so Spring has sprung.

Today should be a good day. Monday is usually my easiest day. It typically gets busier as the week goes on. Lisa is off, and the Sox play a double header. What's not to like?? 

I look at myself, and I feel pretty good. I think about how I once was, and how you are now, and it is kinda a trip. I never knew way back when I can be as I am now. My story has been told so many times I am not going to say it again.

I don't know how you feel totally. I know life isn't perfect cuz you are never totally on. Life is busy, and that pretty much sucks. Always on the go, and we wanna feel relaxed and care free.

The World is full of people saying this is good, and this is good. Do this, eat flax seeds, put this lotion on, hit a seal on the head with a hammer, buy these shoes, watch this program, decorate your cubicle with this poster. Where does it end??

How you feel on the inside says it all. You are lacking, cuz we were always supposed to question stuff. That's a good question. Why do you not always feel happy??  Why do you not feel perfect?? 

The answer is cuz it is impossible for you. All the things you really want you cannot do for yourself. Life is crazy that way. You go on thinking in some way your special. You've done unique things, but you stand as everyone else. Lacking something. People think they are these great beings, but we cannot give ourself what we truly want.

Where do we go from here?? 

I guess we'll see. Any journey starts with a single step. You should try taking it. It ain't too shabby. Way better than whatever it is you do now.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  gonna take the Hopester this morning.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH. :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.    :D.   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.  :)

Sunday, May 22, 2016

The Day That Was.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing fine. Yesterday I had another day. It was different than other days, but not by much. I slept in, worked. I listened to the Sox game, and cooked dinner. Had a little wine. Not as much as I normally do on a Saturday. Wasn't really feeling it. I ate some ice cream, and went to bed.

Pretty interesting huh?? 

Now is the time I go on a bit more although I have nothing on my mind really. I have to work in a bit. I'll take the Hopester before though. 

Life goes on, and can you imagine walking in my shoes that summer way long ago. The most important thing to me was to find my way. I walked and walked and walked. I was judged constantly as the worst of the worst was doing quite the number on me. You cannot currently be judged as I was back then. The spiritual World was alive to me as I already went through the eye of the needle.

Out of the blue though this kid who lived a pretty normal imperfect life got the whole World thrown at him. I saw the way of the multitudes. I saw how wrong everything is. I saw no true teachers, but all false teachers, cuz I am the only one who knows the truth.

Being judged rather harshly meant I wanted no more of it. Teachers are judged more harshly, than count me out.

You see my story is not of my making. Talk about walking blind??  Sheesh. I would never have put myself in the positions I was thrown in. No way. Too scary.

Anyway I have become what I wanted least. You may wonder how someone as imperfect as me can have the confidence to do as I do.

The truth leads you in that way. I cannot be perfect as I am now. I have something to do before I become the best a person can be. Before I am turned into the best a person can be I should say.

You and I are in the same boat. Not perfect,  I know the truth though, and I gather many assume they are good enough.

Humans are a nutty people, cuz the truth is scary, and they don't want to accept it. They don't want to face it.

This World is wrong and our deeds amount to zero points, and maybe negative points for some. Those who have been given good information yet continue to trust in their own understanding probably acquire negative points. Why??  Cuz few have been given good information. It's been Centuries. Who knew there would be a story, and it would get lost.

The story was spiritual, and humans cannot relate to that. No understanding. So I had to be changed, and become what I never wanted. I am confident and assured now though, cuz my work is done. I am accepted, and the rest will be done for me. I cannot possibly take myself to where I must go.

You on the other hand are dealing with life. You do so with a heart that isn't content. You do so without security either cuz that is how life is. A human always strives for wind, cuz their hearts are wrong.

You don't even know it. Perfection is out of your control. There are no sacrifices for you to make, and no labor. The answers have been given to you, but you are like the multitudes. You hardened your heart. Faith is strength, cuz the truth is harsh before it is your friend.

You haven't gone so far that you cannot be helped. The story was always about forgiveness, not about how great you are.

Anyways...

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Pretty excited for today.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH. :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.  :D.   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo :)

Friday, May 20, 2016

My Head Is Empty.

Who knows where this will go. As happens frequently I pretty much have nothing on my mind.

Yesterday I had another day. I ended up picking up our truck, and brought it to a transmission place. Some local company that has been around for a million years. The truck isn't worth much so we will not put a million bucks into it. We'll see today.

I was glad I did that. I was going to wait til Monday, but I passed the transmission place, and stopped in. He said they could look at it today so I picked up the truck, and brought it in.

That was the extent of my day. We ran out to a local restaurant near us, and had a quick dinner.

Another day down the drain. What do you make of it?  A never ending string of days. What's the purpose you think?? Atoms and molecules came together to create this mass, and people and animals were brought about to basically kill each other and eat each other?

Papers were created, and diplomas. Humans made up halls of fame. Coins and currencies were created. A short time we stand on this Earth. We keep busy at various things. Words like honor were created, and honor comes in dubious flavors. Words like virtue have been around, but who has any? 

Important things in life are you will not escape the grave. It is where we are all headed. What does that mean??  Why does the World dress itself up as this great thing when we are all headed to a not so good end?  

What is the point?? 

There are some things outside of your control. Death is one. You will not cheat it of its day. Your heart you cannot control either. If you could it sure would be a lot better than what it is. How you feel on the inside is out of your control. We sure would always make sure we were in the bestest mood all the time. 

So your stuck on this Earth and in this life. The days waste away. One after another.  What's the point? 

People accept all kindsa stuff as their truth I guess, but they never really look down the whole road. People talk of 5 and 10 year plans,  and when you die all your activities die with you. If you are in a hall of fame of some sort you will not care in your grave.

The thing about humans is they trust their heart. They trust their intellect. What if those things are overpowered by something that does not have your best interest at heart? 

There is a thing I call the best a person can be. Something we all fall short of. If that is the case than why even life??  

The answer is pretty surprising when you get as far as I am. The answer is no reason really. For the multitudes it would have been better if they weren't born. You have been born here though. You were born with no answers. Most think they found the answers somewhere along the way, but they haven't. I know this cuz I found the answer and the way. Your knowledge falls short.

I know that too cuz, well that is a long story. I had to go through a lot to where I am at. I had to go to where comic book understanding was not anywhere near.

I faced judgement, and my end. I was saved twice from the hands of the judges. The third time is for real. There will be no more comic book understanding in me. I am afraid it is all real at that point.

There will be some on my side, but not many. Those who chose the World will not be with me.

I don't have those answers either. We'll see I guess.

Life is a nutty thing, but outside of comic book understanding it is some serious shit.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading! !!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day! !!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. today should be a good day. 

Love  You All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo :)

Thursday, May 19, 2016

I Am The Walrus.

I have no idea what that means. Some Beatles song. I think it means something, but if I ever knew it I forgot about it.

Anyway life goes on. I've had some more days come and go. We currently need to get two vehicles fixed. I think the truck is just low on transmission fluid, so probably nothing. I haven't been driving, and Lisa didn't think to check it, and she dropped it off at a garage. That happened last night.

Other than that things are going fine. I sorta live a charmed life in I don't really have a lot of stress. What really bugged me early this week was my assholeness.  I don't want to be mean to Lisa, and I guess I can be at times. If I am mean to you people I don't care.  ;)  j/k.

I don't really have much to blog about. I realize life can be messy and busy. A lot of stuff to fill up our day. A lot of it not real important either. I really am work, eat sleep. I have free time from like 2-5:00 PM. Have dinner, and I will sleep shortly after that.

The days that fill up my life come and go. I have pretty good vision of what our life is made up of. I don't place false value on things. My life has all been gone through and all dealt with. That was what my whole way was about. I did most of this long ago, although a little was left to show people a few years ago.

What that did is help me stand alone. Free from undue pressure. I don't owe anyone anything. My life is very unbusy.

The plans for my future were dealt with long ago. An invisible security you cannot feel, and cannot know about. An ability to know my true worth as a person living in this World. An ability to know the true worth of all the things done under the sun.

Invisible lessons you cannot know. Invisible feelings of security you cannot feel. A care free way kinda, cuz I am free. I still am a person of this World, so I work and stuff, but that helps my days feel okay. I like doing labor throughout the day, and relax later.

Knowing things like I do is kinda nutty. A strange area I stand in.

You people too are kinda strange too. Partly, because it is hard to see inside your heart. You are torn. From how you feel to how you think you should feel.  Also how are you supposed to act and appear to others.

Life strangles us. People yearn for freedom, but life is slavery.

It's a pretty crazy existence.

People kinda want their Walden oond, or their into the wild, but those lead nowhere. What we really want we cannot grab. It isn't ours to take. Our arrogance blinds us from the truth. Our major mistake is we thought we were all that. It takes life to question ourselves.

Confidence and security are things we want, but all the best things out there we cannot grab.

That is a long entry. I didn't really have anything, but I thought I'd  get something down.

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading! !!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  gonna take the Hopester!!!    :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's  :)

MWAH  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo :)

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Guess I Can Do This

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me I am okay. Some things I learned about me are this blog probably isn't horrible. In fact it may even be nice to read, cuz I ain't perfect and I don't pretend to be. I read the book "No Country For Old Men"  I couldn't sleep on Saturday so I read the whole fucking book: less 20 pages, and I read that when I woke up. The author hit the nail on the head. This World is Fucked up. Perfection is a thing out there, but you cannot find it. Your life isn't perfect. You aren't perfect. I realized of myself the other day, I can be a real asshole.  Who knew?? 

I told my wife last night something about me. If I was ever diagnosed with cancer I would not seek treatment. I do not want to prolong my life. I told her it isn't about you, just about me.

Wanna know what else I think??  I think that is healthy. I think that is the right frame of mind. If you are not ready to die, than I don't think you lived.

I am ready. I've seen enough of this World, and I see what it has to offer. Nothing really.

People a lot of times will try to point out their "good" attributes to convince you of their Sainthood, but it's Bullshit.  Ya ain't perfect, and it ain't in your power. As a matter of fact you aren't even good enough.

Every Avenue of your life is filled with imperfection. That is the truth. You should come forth with this stuff, but it is beyond you. You cannot show us that cuz what would we think? 

Ya show me your darkside I'd hang with you. You show me your sainthood, and I'll probably hate you. Cuz we both would know your full of shit.

I was thinking I am not sure how much I'll blog anymore cuz it is nice to sleep in. :)  I'll try though, cuz you people need this.

I don't do much good, but I do this.

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. some of you have an important spot in this blog. It doesn't mean you are important, and many of you I am not even friends with. I put faith in people, and so far to little good. Time marches on.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo  :)

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

It's All About The Sleep

Hello, and good morning. I slept in the last couple of days. Monday I have no idea why. I can't remember. Tuesday cuz I slept like shit. Sleep a few hours, check the White Sox score. Keep checking til the game ends in extra innings. Check basketball, check Hockey. Don't sleep. Pretty ridiculous really.

Monday was pretty good though. We got a lot done. It wasn't hugely warm by any stretch so we chilled in the breeze way, and I made steak fajitas for dinner. Then I didn't sleep enough. Last night I slept good. As a matter of fact I was just laying down from 2-3:00 AM knowing I was done sleeping, but just relaxing.

So there you have it. A couple more days done with my life. 2 more days closer to the grave.  :)

I don't really have much to blog about, but I did think of something the other day. Our life is a short time compared to how long we will not be alive here.  We act like our time here is long cuz it is how our hearts are. We are a child of this World, and that is what we do. By we I mean you, cuz I am no longer that person. I am something between what I once was, and what I will ultimately be. You are who you always were. You have no idea how I am cuz you cannot walk in my shoes, although it is where I try to lead you.

Being human is hard. Perfection is out of grasp. Try not being pissed about some type of other people. If you could look at your thoughts what don't you like??  Pretty impossible to change that shit too huh??

Being human is to fail. There is no route to perfection you can make. No labor, and no sacrifice. Your good deeds you think you do fall short. The bad parts of you remain.

How about that answer though?  Perfection is out of your hands, and mine. It is my future though. To become what I cannot make myself. It was the path I had to take. My whole life was for this. Little old me to set the record straight. The record that hasn't been set straight for centuries. Why I know not??

It isn't my story, and it isn't my plan. I am a vessel to be used for a purpose. My life is no longer mine kinda, but I can do as I please. There is no labor for me to do from how I am  to when it comes time to do the 3rd and final thing.

I write here occasionally. Typically whatever is in my heart.

You on the other hand. What is it you actually do??  What are you accomplishing??  The answer to those questions will probably surprise you. It is why your hearts are torn too. You want something to mean something, but it seems out of grasp. You seek any and all avenues, yet only one works.

If you are angry about that it isn't my fault. A person's anger is their own to deal with. Sure the World can be ugly, but you are not going to change it.

Now is the time for me to leave this thing here, and take the Hopester.

That is it for today!!?    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)
   
xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Your best avenue is the truth. The truth is we are far from perfect. Nothing will change that.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D     :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzz.  :)

Aloha.    :)

Xxxxxxxxx Ooooooooo.   :)

Gonna finish my coffee first.  Have a good one.   :)

Saturday, May 7, 2016

Another Week In The Bank.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good I'd say. It seems this week it was annoyed a good portion of the week.  Maybe just weather related. I am done with 40° I guess. Other than that everything went pretty well. Work was busy so I got a little overtime for next week's check. We have tulip time, Mother's Day, and the local college graduates this weekend too, so it is a Perfect Storm of tourists, and downtown being busy as snot. You won't catch me anywhere near there. :)

The last two days have been warm. I cut the grass, and had a little time to enjoy the sunshine. I have to work for 4-5 hours today and tomorrow, and then just hang out and eat I guess. I'll take Hope in a bit. My hip is fine now, but my knee is a bit gimpy. So my running is all short, cuz my body is not into long distances that is for sure. I don't care either. It may have been important to go after PR's before, and get better and better, but it's not going to happen for me so big deal.

Life goes on. Nothing really is THAT important to me, cuz this whole existence is temporary. We judge certain things to be significant, but who says they really are??  Us??  How do you know??  Cuz that's the way it's always been??  Who says any of this shit is actually right??  Society is just a bunch of hand me down ideas from people no better than us. These ideas gain traction. They become accepted as truth, and it cannot be budged.

The Country I live in people deify a bunch of slave owners who wrote some words on a piece of paper. Part of any Country's beginning is people willy nilly accepting the idea of private property. Who the Hell made up the borders???  Who says that is right??

Being born into this World is accepting A LOT of stuff just cuz. You really have to step out of all the Bullshit you learned and look at the World objectively.   This existence is temporary so throw away your heroes cuz they aren't. Don't base stupid shit on words some slave owners wrote.

It is your life, and you are held accountable for you. What your Country does is not your problem, unless for some reason you are in a plane bombing Dresden. What Countries ask of people is to kill.  In our Country people kill to supposedly protect a piece of paper some slave owners wrote.

You really can learn a lot from two WWII soldiers who flew in bomber planes. They realized they were killing civilians, and for what??   (Joseph Heller and Howard Zinn btw)

The History of the World is a history of death and killing. It isn't a good history either. It is pretty ugly.

So it is you, and this whole big World. You accepted a bunch of shit just by being born here. I've already did my hard stuff. I started over 25 years ago. The funniest thing about this whole thing is after overcoming 2 of the 3 times I have to, I finally realize nothing matters. It is just life, and I am firmly on my path.  I cannot be moved from it.

You on the other hand have much to do.

Anyhoodles, that is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Hope I wake up to my early alarm more next week. Don't know what was with me last week.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxz

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D     :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Xxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo

Good I typed that shit out today so I don't forget it. It's been a while.  :)

Laterzzzzzz  happy Mothers Day too.  :)   Haha


Thursday, May 5, 2016

I Am So Inappropriate.

Hello. You may have noticed I haven't blogged in a while. I haven't felt like it. I had nothing to say really. I turn off my early alarm, and happily sleep til my late alarm. No biggie to me. I thought of doing the same today, but I guess I am done sleeping.

Yesterday was just a horrible weather day. I rode home in like 45° rain with plenty of crappy wind. It is May so you can expect anything from 40°-70°. I just am more inclined to want the 70° days.

So what has been going on with me??  Things have changed. I used to open up FB in the morning, but these days I am not interested. I don't particularly want to see what people have to say, and I gather cuz people have not much to say. Not even checking if anyone blogs. Not really interested. That's a change.

I would consider that to be a significant turn.

I guess life goes on. We continue to pile on the days that have ended. We continue on a crash course headed for our death. The one thing we will not escape. It just so happens that pretty much all the stuff that happens before we die is trivial. A human considers much to be important and significant, but the World dresses things up like that. Meanwhile people hide behind all the pageantry of life cuz inside us all lies imperfection. Society will accept you, as long as you hide everything. I am accepted elsewhere cuz I hide nothing.

I don't tell you everything cuz people have treacherous and judging hearts, but people generally seem to like honesty better than Bullshit. Just not their own.

Fear will doom you. Hiding your coin in the ground due to fear is how many perish. This is some serious shit we are doing, and you receive a failing grade.

The truth of life is not a happy song. It is a sad song, but some days can be filled with laughter. If you wanna go in with your day to day that means absolutely nothing, than you miss out on the best part of life.

I cannot help you with that either. Either you want to be someone, or just continue down the same path the multitudes have always followed.

Guess I'll take the Hopester now. Kinda been battling a left knee right hip thing. Not from racking up too many mikes either. Feels okay today though.

Laterzzz