It is 3 in the morning. I have the day off. I am going to watch soccer on the boob tube. (boob tube lol) My game isn't til 10:00 am. I am going back to freaking bed after I am done with this? Why do I do this? Not sure.
You wanna know something about my summer of discontent? I woke up very very very early every morning. I worked second shift, and still woke up really early. I bet it was 4 or 5. I don't remember the time, but working 2nd shift at the hospital... the one I would soon be spending 6 days in, not of my own decision. I remember in the hospital being chained up to the bed. I knew I was going to die, but didn't want those damn chains on me that is for sure. They may have been straps. I asked my brother Jim if they could take these off. I am not sure if they ever did or not, I eventually fell asleep, and to my utter amazement actually woke up. Jim, had a dream. I have never said anything of the dream to people, because I don't feel it is mine to tell. Jim and I talked about it. I reacted wrongly about it. Arrogantly if you will, and God was angry at me, but we have one who intercedes on our behalf.
Anyway as I was walking several, several, several miles every day before work... reason you ask? Cat!! Every morning my I woke up with my cat. I had a parable I used. A cat is curious, but he never comes to any understanding, because he is lazy. I wanted understanding. I may not get it, but it wasn't going to be from lack of trying. So my summer was not fun. I ended up probably eating one meal every two days or so. I got down to 130 lbs. I kept getting judged every second seemingly of every day. There were no good days to my recollection. I didn't drink at all....heck I barely ate, but I walked and I walked and I walked.
As I have said before, the hospital was for a reason. It was 1 of 3. The journey was 2 of 3, and this fall is 3 of 3. I don't know all the things I do, although I know they will all turn out for good. The summer of discontent all my days were bad. This summer all my days seem relatively pretty good. I will suffer this fall. I am willing to do it, understanding comes through suffering.
hmmmm, didn't think I'd write that. Oh well. It is the truth, so I will not be afraid of it I guess.
Yesterday 4.25 miles 5 seconds quicker than the last time I did that route. That amazes me. 4.25 miles and the times were basically the same. 8:43'ish pace I think something like that. Now that is crazy!!
I forget the order I do this.
Hope you all have a great and awesome day!!! :)
Love you all!!! :)
speed work tonight!! I am planning on biking after the game too, we'll see. :)