Sunday, January 31, 2016

Gotta Finish My Month Off...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I am done with my 3:00 AM  Sunday shift. For today, and for good. So now all my jobs will be during normal hours. I have the next two Saturdays off, and after that I'll have every other Sunday off. When I clean on Sundays I'll probably go in at 7:00 or 8:00 AM. So that is pretty good. Good hours at all my jobs.

Other than that not much going on with me. My cough is doing much better, so I probably will start running again soon.

Actually I think I'll take a nap. I am only blogging right now, cuz I had a pretty good month of blogging, so wanted to finish it off.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

And all that other stuff. Too tired now, so gonna nap.

Luv ya's.  :)

xoxoxo.  :)

MWAh.  :)

Laterzzzz.  :)

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Standing In Your Shoes...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Yesterday I had just a normal day. I worked, and came home and relaxed. If I wasn't sick I might have tried to do stuff around the house, but I decided to sit on my ass.

I don't really have much stuff I look at. I look at FB, Twitter, and read blogs. Not a ton of people blog, so I don't see much there. I follow like 60-something people on Twitter, so I don't really see a lot there, and FB many times people re-post news shit that no one cares about, or try showing people how "important" their lives are, so naturally I don't see much there either.

I rarely look at the news, so you can just imagine I probably don't see much throughout the day. Sometimes I wonder about people, and this morning it occurred to me.

I sorta walked in your shoes. Saw the World threw your eyes, and I get it.

You have to matter right??  You gotta be special in some way right??  I mean life is too fucking hard for this not to matter right??

It's like I said a long time ago You all went your own way. You justified your life by saying I will show my worth by what I do. Some people labor a lot, and many don't do shit. You all are equal.

The equation is submitting your lowly self so one can show you what he can do. Cuz really you cannot do much. The World, and your life overpower you. Your inner demons overpower you.

You tied yourself to various groups whether it be family, work, hobby, and your life is only about you. How to make the most of it.

To make the most of your life your insides have to be changed, and you cannot do it. I don't care how many pictures you post wherever you just are not capable of much.

That's just the truth though. The truth is hard. Living a lie seems easier, but it leads nowhere, and what you want most is to be happy. Happy= a hard trail. Only the tough are willing to do it. Others will be too afraid.

I may be the only one. Right now I know I am the only one. I thought more would follow, but maybe not. It's your choice. I know currently you aren't happy. Don't you want to be??

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. Today we are going to have home made pizza for dinner.

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Aloha.   :)

Friday, January 29, 2016

Where To Begin...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going.   Me, I am doing pretty good I'd say. Every day my cough is getting better. One thing about me is when I get a cough I sound horrible. I have a cough that makes it sound like I am dying. Pretty nasty bug. Pretty sure I got it from the bakery cuz people have been dropping like flies. A lot of call-ins the last couple weeks. Maybe I could have called in to stop spreading it, but it is a few day thingy, so not really going to call in a few days in a row.

So whatever. I haven't taken any medication in forever, but I have been taking stuff for this sucker. I was worried about it turning into pneumonia more than anything.

So as I settle down a bit trying to get healthy I am sure my calf is getting healthy. Actually it feels good. I haven't been taking Hope, so hopefully all will be better soon.

Anyways I was thinking of our lives, and things that make up our life, and the truth of all this stuff. The truth is very far from you, and the truth ain't no joke. How you are now you feel like you deserve something:


  1. You suffered this in life so you deserve
  2. You labored hard in this so you deserve
  3. You sacrificed time, and do church shit all the time
  4. Life threw you a shit ball so you deserve. 
  5. Life threw you a shit ball, and you made lemonade, so you deserve
  6. Any number of things. 
The truth is you don't deserve shit. There is no amount of sacrifice of anything you can do to make you the best a person can be. There is no labor under the sun you can do. There is nothing on your own that you can do to make you the best a person can be, and you are not the best a person can be. 

Your heart falls short. Whatever in your mind you think a perfect person is, you are not that. 

The truth is a bear, and who can stand up to it??  I can stand up to the truth cuz I've been accepted. I am not the best a person can be, and I cannot make myself that. I don't know if anyone remembers in the journey, but I could not handle judgement anymore. I wanted to be right. The wait is all about being right before being the best a person can be. I wanted so many things, but really I wanted the security I have now. I have strength, and trust. I have all the good things one would want. 

It isn't riches of this World, but I guess I also have a pretty good name too. 

Man, it has been a long ride living this life I've lived, who knew the days could be so good when I still haven't even got what I ultimately wanted. 

I've been given a lot, and I am thankful. My walk was very hard, but totally worth it. 

Geesh, I guess I've been given wisdom too, to not put value where it doesn't belong.  

Well, I guess that is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyonr has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. What do you know, it is Friday. 

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Thursday, January 28, 2016

Theories From The Sawgrass Convention...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  We got our truck fixed yesterday by a guy Lisa knows. He did some community service at her work for his latest DUI. So now he doesn't drink, and he works on cars on the side + whatever else he does. He is very conscientious, and does more than you ask him too. Itemizes his invoice and everything. Really professional is how he takes care of his side business.

Him having no overhead to pay for means we turn a $4-500 job into a $300 job.

The guy is probably my age, and you may ask why the DUIs??  My guess is after work he would stop by his watering hole, and have some drinks. He isn't married, so maybe just wanted to hang with people he knew. Beats being bored and lonely at home.

Nice enough guy. The World will throw the book at this guy for being reckless, and make heroes out of people who start wars and kill people. Lisa's guy major crime was loneliness. The other crime is just plain stupidity. You all bought in to the BS History you were taught as kids. They got you when you were young.

So you are all hooked into the World, and not near strong enough to stand up to it. You do know who you are right??  You are from that parable which states you were scared, so you buried your coin for safe keeping.

Yeah, you'll need help. None of what needs to be done is in your power. I told you the way, but???

Reason 1??

Reason 2??

Reason 3??

I used words like courage, strength, and trust.

You'll need way more than what you have now. Right now you will barely have enough to overcome you, and that is just the beginning. You have more than just that.

You have a lot to do, and all the things you can think to do with your life = zero points. You'll want points by the end. Those who are dead it is too late. Best get these so called points while alive. Points come from a story of you, not made by you.

Your story will be of strength, trust, and meekness, unless you are more interested in following the path of the fabulous.

Anyway, I think I am getting better with my cough. Seems like it is getting more productive.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.getting sick sucks. Limits you to what you can do.

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D       :D

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Aloha.    :)

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

Actually Taking Care of Myself??

So anyway, I did end up getting a bit of a cough, and I did buy cough medicine. I don't know the last time I took any medicine. 10 years or more??  I really don't know, but I figured a cough thing I better take care of.  It is in the chest so. I still feel fine. Energy is fine, and I am not achey or anything like that, and I still have a good appetite, but still don't want to fuck with a cough.

Yesterday when I got home I did nothing. Lisa went out with friends after work, and I watched a lot of season 5 of it's always sunny in Philly. That show is so funny. I lol a lot watching that show.

I assume today will be pretty much the same. Not a lot going on, and me being very very low key. Having a cough now will keep all thoughts of running out of my mind, so maybe I can finally heal up my calf. It seems to be getting better so that is good.

So yeah. As you can tell there ain't much to this life here, and that is a good thing. There was though, and all the hard stuff was done long ago.

Anyway, I don't really have much else. Coughs are pretty annoying.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Lisa is taking the truck in today to have her guy check out the problem. Really seems to me to be a starter going bad.

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

A Cough...

Hello, and good morning.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I have picked up a bit of a cough, and that is strange. For one thing I haven't had anything in forever, and this is like the 3rd time this year I picked up a lil something. When you approach 50 you think about that shit more than when your 12. I'll pick up some cough medicine on the way to work. There is a CVC on the way.

Lisa is going all crazy not wanting me to ride bike to work. She also thinks I should call in and drink lots of water. Take advantage of working at a place that won't fire you for being sick. I feel fine though. Like a million bucks, but I have a cough. I'll drink a lot of water at work.

It was a funny discussion. Lisa telling me to drive, and me laughing, cuz I am riding my bike. :)   I couldn't stop laughing.  :)

So anyway what is going on with me??  Not much. Had another day yesterday, and it was just a regular one. I was tired when I got home from work so I sat on the couch. I didn't turn the tv on or anything. Just sat there. Probably checked the social networks I use, and don't remember seeing anything that significant.

So I just sat. Thought a bit about my day, and there wasn't anything that important.  Made Lasagna, and went to bed. How grateful I am to be as I am. I accept life for what it is. I am not missing out on anything, cuz there is nothing to miss out on. The grass is greener nowhere cuz I see the shoes that all walk in. Those am some crazy lonely/boring shoes. Gosh Gosh Gosh, how I am you cannot be. I cannot help you become like me. I can do very little cuz I can do very little to make me, me.

I can kinda seeing you trying to grab something. Find some meaning somewhere, and the only meaning you will be able to find is if you give your coin to someone who knows better than you what to do with it. It is the ONLY answer, and he may test you. I know I was tested. I passed the test with obedience, and all I can say is just hope you are given a strong heart to pass the tests of obedience. I suspect many will not, but that is just a guess.

That is a bit of a disconnect I guess. You cannot fool me. There is nothing you can do to make me think your life really is that significant.

That too is strange, cuz you want it to be, and you want to do it with your own "special" attributes.

The strangest thing we can ever know is that we are one coin of the trillions who walked the Earth. All wanting to matter, but worth is made when we give up our coin so a better one can be made.

I know I know.  I see you. I can see your heart. I told you this was hard, but it is good.

Trust me.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. I think it might be raining so maybe I will drive.

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Now for really really cya cya cya      :D     :D

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Aloha.   :)

Monday, January 25, 2016

Another Weekend, and 2 More Days Of My Life. :)

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Yesterday was pretty okay. I had to do the frozen load and the dairy sale display yesterday, which could have been Hell, but the frozen load was small so it wasn't bad. It was like 1/2 the load from the week before.

Anyway I got home a little before 10:00, and checked out movies. I decided to see "The Revenant".  I heard it was good. Lia thought about it but decided against it, so I went to the 10:30 movie. It was only $4. It was a good movie.

When I got home I did dishes, I took out some garbage, and Lisa left the lights on in the truck. The truck acts weird when you do that even for a couple minutes. No clue why. I think it might be the starter, cuz the battery is fine, but we get that clicking noise. I fucked around with everything. Tightened the battery cable. It started then not. Had Lisa try starting it, while I tapped on the starter, and that worked, and then it didn't. Walked out later, and it started right up.  :)

We'll take it in. The starter hasn't been replaced in like a decade so. I am over 3 months since my last oil change, and put on like 500 miles. :)

Anyway, not much going on with me. I have one more Sunday morning thing at the grocery store, and I am done with that. I'll still probably work Saturdays. I switched my cleaning schedule so I don't work next week, but the two weeks after, so no more 2 job Sundays, and I can sleep in on Saturday, and Sunday, not that I sleep in much.

So there you have it. A weekend in the life. In other news life goes on.

You know what the craziest thing in the World is??  The thought that something has to be special. There has to be heroes right??  There are no heroes. There are efforts given in various things, but we all end up 6' under. So what does one do with life??

We all have plans, and we all follow our own direction. A lot of what we do is based on what it seems everyone else does. Get married, have kids, get a career. Buy a house, and whatever.

Surely there is points to be had in that right??

You'll find in life (although you don't believe it now, or are too afraid to accept it) there are no points to be had in life. Points come from different things. We aren't special. We are sorta unique kinda, but not special. Kids are all going to deal with the same shit you did. An imperfect World made up of imperfect people. You as parents are imperfect, and there is not one thing you can do about that. There are no amount of pictures you can take that will change that.

Life is imperfect as all of us are. Unfortunately nothing really amounts to anything no matter what you think. You still have to do stuff for now, and it is good you do. Just know what it all means though.

Know you are flawed and imperfect. Don't deny it, cuz we are just lowly humans.

There is a way to a better us, but you still think there are heroes, and your current life actually means something.

Yeah, I told you this was going to be hard. It may be scary, and I warned you the truth will be the hardest thing you ever do. The truth is scary, until you get to the point I am at. It took a life to get where I am. My life was set aside so I can be a fisher of people. Obviously that is all from my help, cuz I've been given everything to do that. There was a short time long ago where I thought I had everything, and then I learned the truth.

Now I am an imperfect vessel being used to do this, cuz I have no interest in the fabulous, cuz those people lie. The can't accept the truth. I am an imperfect vessel trying to help the imperfect people. The fabulous don't need help. They have all the answers.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I woke up way before my alarm.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D   :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Since I Am Up...

Hello and good morning. How's it going??  Me I am doing okay. I am up, so I guess I can do this thing. Anyway I re-aggravated  my calf. I was just running every other day short mileage to see if it was coming around. I could feel it a bit after my runs, but after a day off it would feel great. I'd try and take a tennis ball to my calf, but it is hard to hit the spot, and it isn't like I am good at doing that stuff anyway. Yesterday my calf seized up. I stopped running, tried to stretch, and walked home. So now I know. I'll take maybe up to a week off. I am not too terribly upset by it, cuz it happens. Especially to me it seems.

Anyway other than that not much going on with me. Just working. Still doing push ups and pull ups. Every other day, and maybe sometimes more frequent. I am not riding my bike too much/at all, as there was too much snow on the sidewalks.

I am not doing much of anything. The last few days I've been watching it's always sunny in Philly. A pretty ridiculous show, and I like ridiculous.

Sometimes I think how I  am compared to you, and I guess one thing is I will not be disappointed in life, because there is nothing I expect. I've gone down my path so far that life is just this thing I do. My path is pretty well lit, although I cannot see really too far. I know the final point of the current version of me, but little else between where we stand now, and that point.

It is a strange spot where I stand. I know a lot, and you don't know a lot of things. You don't even know you don't know these things. You are still 100% a product of the World and Civilization you were born in.

I went a different way, and I was taken out of that day to day stuff. Learned many harsh truths, and learned all about me. To know how utterly useless and pathetic I was, but also to be used with help to lead others in the way they should go.

So I gave up my coin really, and it was turned into a better one than I could have made. I have become really what I never asked for. Perhaps too in my younger weaker years I would have asked to never become what I am now. I am strong now though. I know my place, and I know my job. I just don't really know what the days will look like from this one here til when I do my final thing of the current version of me.

I know a lot of the hidden things that one does not see with their eyes. I feel how different I am, and that my friends is as real a feeling as if you pinched your arm. I am no longer trapped in the same flesh and bones you are trapped in, cuz I've been made different. Part of my path. My life was set aside for this.

You don't know what the future version of you is yet, and I don't either. You cannot even fathom how I am at all, although it will be in your future. I can walk in a good portion of your shoes cuz I was once like that. The worst part is I know how doomed of a walk that is, and you don't.

That is pretty strange thing to know about you.

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Psyche. No pictures for you.  :)

Hahaha. I make myself laugh.

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I think I'll have a cup of coffee than plan my morning fun fun.  I don't work til 9:00.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D     :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Friday, January 22, 2016

Weird Morning...

Okay so today is the 2nd day I thought ehhhh, just stay in bed. Sleep a bit longer who cares about this stupid thing??

The year started off pretty strong, and now I'm like whatever.

Life is pretty boring I'd say, and that's a problem. There is no euphoria, and that's a problem. People want to show they are "right" when they aren't that is a problem.  People are afraid of the truth.

What can I do??  I cannot do very much. In life I am not interested in much. Life is a tangled web, and you are a slave in this World. You went down your own road just like everyone else. You did a lot of what you thought you were supposed to as far as society teaches. Yeah, we've all done that.

Have you ever questioned things??  Is there more??  Does life get better??  Can I get better as a person??  Is there a way to a better me???

The answer is yes, but not if you think you are "good enough".

You really should question things, and you should really look at what your heart tells you. I can't know all of how your heart is, but I know a lot.

I remember how it was to be like you. Anger, hatred, lust, whatever.

To be human is to be a pretty lowly species. What makes us really gross is all the false teaching that has been handed down for generations. Be fake. Smile. Act nice. You are good enough, and all that is untrue is all we have to unlearn.

So I guess well eventually get to the better parts of you, which are probably the parts you are most scared to show. How, and when who knows??

By the amount of blogging going on I guess we'll just stay in this holding pattern of nothing.

Anyways I finally got rid of my Sunday early morning shift. A person from inside the store is taking it over, so it won't be a new employee, it is one who is already there. That will make everything just about perfect. I'll be able to do extra stuff on the Sundays when I clean, cuz I won't have 5-6 hour of work already under my belt before I start. My schedule will be perfect.

Anyways,

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. You do know you have to get yourself fixed before you can help others like kids right??  Also your job would have been easier without kids, but there is nothing you can do about that now, except do you now, so you can help others. The original path taken by the 12+1 did not involve families or kids. They were asked to drop everything and follow. You won't be doing anything that tough, but it will still be hard, cuz eventually you will show people you just are not that fabulous.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya      :D     :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

A Day Without Rain...

Hello and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I have been a bad doggy daddy. I haven't taken Hope for two days, so I am definitely going today. Actually this morning.

So what is going on with me??  Not much. I had to drive to Allegan yesterday, which is a small town South of us. A sheriff for some reason was in Holland, and I slid through a stop sign. He pulled me over, and I didn't have my license with me. He lectured me on that like I don't know maybe that was as bad as shooting a cop??  Anyway he gave me no ticket, but said show proof of your license, and it will be cleared up. You may have an administration few to pay. Ha!!  Michigan is broke so there are no waiving fees. The lost souls working at that county courthouse need to be paid for sitting in their cubicles whilst looking at their computer screens. The 1960s decorated cubicles are a cheery reminder of how fun being a State employee can be. I also saw a slick fashioned young lawyer dude. My God how awful. I hate his life just the way he asked "where is the prosecutors office". Is this your World??  How many fucking 'i's do you have to dot to live here??  I was sickened by the whole scene. Don't ever join up for society. It is the worst club with horrible slogans. "Smile and say hi". And bullshit like that.

Probably the best slogan should be "shut the fuck up you piece of shit".  :)

Hahaha. I make myself laugh.

Anyway this World is fucking gross. Too many goddamn rules and shit. I hope none of you are out to try to make this some type of paradise, cuz that would be dumb.

Anyhoooooo I get to work today. I'll take Hope and we'll have a meal. Lisa was kind enough to leave work early to drive with me to Allegan, cuz I had no idea where that fucking place was.  :)

That is it for today!!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Having a cup of coffee today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.    :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D       :D

Laterzzzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.    :)

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Nuthin About Nuthin...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I got a good night sleep, I got some stuff done yesterday, and I had fun.

I don't really have anything on my mind this morning at all. It seems I can always find something, but if yesterday was any indication maybe not.

One thing I think is kinda funny is my wife is on FB so now she can see all the stupid and goofy shit I do. I took a goofy pic yesterday of my stupid pants I was wearing and my hoodie cuz it looked ridiculous, and I am pretty ridiculous. She asked me why I did that?  Ha!!

Lordy Lordy.

Yesterday I got home from work, and was pretty motivated to get some stuff done, and I did. Nothing major. I did dishes, folded laundry, did a batch, shoveled the driveway, and think that was about it. I did some push ups, and pull ups, and then just had fun the rest of the night.

What do people do for fun??  I have a couple drinks, listen to music a lot, fall asleep early, sleep good, and wake up early.

That is kinda a reason I try not to be a pos when I get home. I really don't need to go to bed til after dinner. 7-8:00 is fine for me, so staying busy til 5:00 would be optimal. So yeah typically 2-3:00 hours of down time would be good enough for me.

Then again I don't really have anything to plan for. My life is basically done except for the living part.  If society says I am supposed to be a certain way, and live a certain way it doesn't speak to me. That imperfect regulator and molder of people does not hold any weight for me. The thing that overpowers you does not overpower me. I don't need it's rules, and I don't need it's regulations cuz they are flawed. The strength in my heart is what makes me happy.

All who I am is not because of me save overcoming myself way back when. I had no idea what I was doing, but when I looked at the World I didn't see any life. It was filled with death, and imperfection, and everything was dirty. My turn = if there is some reason I am here, let me do that instead of anything else.

That is where life lives. In a simple turn. Well, maybe not simple, but that is the answer. It isn't 42 like we were led to believe.

I can tell you things the turn does not turn into:


  • Church going will not be in your future
  • That is where Satan lives
  • Those are his teachers
  • Society will not be your master
  • That too is flawed  
  • You will get to know you. 
  • Deeper than just day to day bs. 
  • This is where life lives. 
  • Throw your play books away. 
  • Cuz we all are wrong. 
  • There is a way to make you right though. 
  • It is a story of acceptance and forgiveness. 
  • Cuz that is possible. 
  • Perfection is too, but not before acceptance and forgiveness. 
  • The only true teacher in the World teaches in this blog. 
  • Everything else is bs
  • So take off your fake halos if you wear one, cuz I see through it. 
That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!     :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Gotta check the temps, and take Hope. Pretty sure I am all healed. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Monday, January 18, 2016

Finally The Weekend Is Over.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me I am doing okay. Lisa had a project she's been wanting to do, and it involved me taking the toilet out, and putting it back in. I knew well enough to buy a new wax ring and floor bolts. I forgot I should probably replace the supply line, which we needed, and it also turns out I needed a new fill valve too. It works it's done, and finally the weekend is over.

So we now start a Monday, and that is typically my easiest day. I think this week we are painting the bakery too, so we'll be busy. I think today we have shit weather, but then it picks up.

So anyway I had a pretty busy weekend. I got a short run in on Saturday. It didn't go horrible. I was way too busy yesterday, and since today is shit weather I think I'll wait to run tomorrow. It's nice coming back from an injury. :)

Anyway I really don't have anything else. It was a busy weekend, and that's about it.

Guess I better do the same day different year thing. Maybe there is something interesting there.

That is it for today!!!     :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s. I am hungry this morning.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.    :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D      :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Saturday, January 16, 2016

WOAH!!!

Holy cow did I sleep. I woke up at 3:00 AM and thought I could get up. Next thing I know it is 6:00 AM. Didn't expect that.

Anyways not much going on with me. I did a little stuff around the house yesterday. I saw a little corner two days ago in the basement. I has no idea what it was. As I was organizing my work bench I realized I can get rid of a lot of this shot. The corner might be some shit from Lisa's mom, and maybe Christmas bs too. So really not a lot of this is crazy hoarding. Some shit we can easily get rid of.

I felt pretty good about that. I started looking for something else to do. I threw out some leftovers, and decided to clean the fridge. Damn do those things get gross. I like doing some things around the house when I get home. I bet we can always have a clean house. Lisa really needs to go through her clothes. I bet she has stuff she hasn't worn in years, and stuff she probably doesn't remember she has.

I know doing this stuff will simplify our life, but my life really is simple enough.

My life is pretty simple, because I am at peace with myself, and I am at peace with life. Being who I am now has been a long time in the making. I had no idea a person could feel like this, but I suspect it is what everyone seeks. Really being like this is enough, but I still have to go farther. It just so happens my wait is done feeling relatively pretty good all the time.

I know you people still seek something. Something that always makes you feel good. So you find some avenue, and sometimes you do feel good, but sometimes I know you want more of something. More fun, more happy, more better, more give a fuckness, less stress...  Hmmm, maybe you want a lot. Maybe I already have it. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Gotta do my same day different year thing. Think I'll change the laundry, and make a coffee first.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.    :)

Friday, January 15, 2016

All In A Day...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay. I don't really have anything on my mind, but you know, I can always give this a whirl. So it seems this year has started out pretty good for me. If I lived with a cloud over me for a bit in the last year or whatever it seems gone.

I wake up generally in a pretty okay mood. I always have a job to go too. I look forward to getting my work done, do something around the house and chill. I also look forward to a good meal. I sleep pretty good most nights too, and it helps me be on a good schedule. I stay relatively healthy too. I am able to relax in life, and enjoy it I guess.

As I was organizing my clothes yesterday I realize I have a lot of things that need to get done. I foresee a pretty good year. You look around your house once in a while you may notice your wife accumulates a bunch of shit. How much of the shit in our house is just junk??  Life goes on and on and one day you wake up thinking where did all this shit come from??

Crazy.

Anyway I think it is good I have stuff to do. Today I don't have much planned, but I will bike to work. We had a pretty good melt off yesterday so. Leaning toward running after work, cuz I may nap a bit after this.

Other than that I really gots nothing.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Oh yeah I gotta do that same day different year thing. I almost forgot.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.   :)

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Gotta Rush This One.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. It would have been nice to wake up early today. Well I did, but was tired so slept til my early alarm. I gotta get out and take Hope for a walk, and shovel the driveway. We got hit pretty good yesterday afternoon.

I had a short run yesterday, and will plan on another short run tomorrow. Doing it every other day til I feel confident. I felt something toward the end of my run yesterday.  Nothing major, but I don't want it to escalate.

My schedule got out of whack yesterday. Worked a little late, picked up some groceries, went on my run, then all of a sudden it was past 4:00. So I walked around looking for something to do. I didn't want to do my major bedroom organize thing, and was blocked from other things. So I chilled for an hour, and then made dinner.

See how silly my life is??  Pretty crazy. Anyhooo not much else going on with me. The frozen person already quit, so my weekends will be busy still. No days off til whenever. That is fine though. Just deal with it. As you can tell anyway I don't have a lot to do outside of work anyway. The little I come up with keeps me a bit busy after work.

So I guess I'll be a busy boy for a while. Nothing wrong with that.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I'll check out my same day different year posts, and then take the Hopester

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.     :)

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Is It Clear Or Is It Fuzzy??

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing okay. I had one of those wake ups, where I thought I might be wide awake. Actually these days my wake ups aren't ooohhhhh I get to sleep this much longer, they are more what can I do before work??  I was able to fall back asleep pretty heavily for a bit, and woke up right before my early alarm.

So anyway I did more pull ups and push ups yesterday. Pull ups were hard, so I think I short armed my pull ups earlier, and that made them easy.

When I got home yesterday I shoveled the driveway, plopped down on the sofa, and realized I was tired. So I got up and did the pull ups and push ups, and that was all I could think to do. The weather was so nasty I did not want to go outside. I put on warm Jammies and chilled the rest of the night.

Anyways that took a long time to write about nothing. :)

As to my title I kept thinking this year everything looks clear. Now I am not sure if it is fuzzy. Part of the way I am the wind can change how I see things. I am not sure if I am seeing things more clearly or more fuzzy. :)  regardless I see without understanding, and that was the goal long ago. I thought understanding was security, and I guess I had to learn trust. With trust comes security. I have a promise, and I have this heart that is in good hands.

So understanding is something I will get in the future, and that is the best a person can be. Right now I have a promise, and that makes me strong. I have trust which makes me have no fear. I am very far along on my life's journey. I did the things I was supposed to. I gave up my coin long ago, and was taken so far down I didn't want the coin anyway. I wanted security. The security that comes with understanding, but security comes before understanding. Who knew??

So there is me, and my story, and we will not get to yours unless you take the proper steps. Life is a tangled web, and everybody is kinda like Steve Martin in " The Jerk".  I don't need anything... Anything besides this ball point pen. That is all I need. Well  besides this paddle ball gAme. The pen and paddle ball game is all I need...   :)


What can you learn from me??  You are as I was.  You think you know what you need, but you don't. Don't trust in your own understanding, cuz your life is going to be way different than you think. Trust, because, oh man trust is hard huh??  Following the path of trust takes courage, cuz you will not be taking your pen or paddle ball game.

All I can say is this is the best and only way. It isn't the easiest, but in the long run it is the smartest. Every other way is foolish.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I did my same day different blog entry already.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya. :D    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Just Plugging Along...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I got a good night sleep last night, and I am up before my alarm. Anyways I got off work early yesterday, which I like to do on Monday. It is typically my easiest day, and it is Monday so you know. I bought a new pair of running shoes yesterday, and I ran. I am not sure if my calf is 100%, so I'll probably try to run tomorrow. Looks like we got a good amount of snow, so I'll be driving to work again. I'll take Hope this morning, and we'll see what non-pos I come up with in the afternoon.

So really I don't have much on my mind at all. It is Jenny Parker Harrison's birthday, which is my favorite birthday of the year. Probably cuz the 40th was such a big deal. Girls being how girls are, well at least her for sure, I think it funny she is a year older.  :)

I don't know who reads this thing, but someone whose blog I read Michelle S has been running a lot, and blogging a lot, which I like. Anyway she has a marathon in 5 days and she just got sick. That is pretty crappy.

Other than that really not much going on. Goals today are work. Pick up something for dinner. Maybe just stuff for tacos. Do some shit at home so I am not a pos. This morning I'll check my same day different year blog entry,  walk Hope, and maybe shovel.

A day in the life.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I gotta check the temps. It was pretty cold yesterday.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

I'll give extras to the birthday girl.  :)    Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo and xxoo.  :)

For really now laterzzzz.  :)


Monday, January 11, 2016

Up Before My Early Alarm...

Hello, and good morning.  How's it going??  Me, I guess I am doing okay. I woke up before my early alarm, and that is good. Actually it still hasn't gone off yet.

I don't really have anything to write about, but that doesn't ever really stop me. I walked Hope yesterday, and there was no pain in my calf. I may try running later today or tomorrow. We got some snow so it will be a soft cushion. I think running in the snow may have messed up my calf in the first place. Maybe I just upped my mileage too quick. Who knows??

Yesterday went okay. After work I did some more non-pos stuff. Nothing major. Folded laundry, cleaned stove, did dishes, stuff like that. Not sure what I will do today after work. I then watched football, cooked dinner, and fell asleep. :)  a day in the life.

I think this weekend went pretty good. We didn't spend a lot of money on anything. I worked, and ate, and wasn't a complete pos. :)

Other than that knock off a couple more days off my life.  :)

Really I don't have much else. I am kinda interested to look back at my blog to see if I posted anything interesting on this same day another year.  :)

So, I'm gonna do that. :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day !!!  :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Kinda interested seeing what non pos stuff I'll do today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Time 4 A Quickie...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I have to go to work in a bit, so only have time 4 a quickie.  Yesterday was pretty good. Did some more non pos stuff. I am happy I am doing it too sometimes I am tired when I get home though, so it does take some discipline. Usually I feel better when I do stuff though.

Last night I made a tex me soup that came out great. Lisa said I could make that again. I bought a 8" pan and made corn bread. I could have used a double recipe, cuz it was a bit short, but I can do that next time. I bet I could buy a cake mix, add blueberries, and/or raspberries and make a quick bread. I make something like that at work a lot. I bet I could make my own real bread too.

Anyway that was fun. Actually yesterday was fun. Today I gotta work, shovel, may go get some running shoes. Maybe Lisa and I will go to lunch. We have a $25 gift card to BWW we have to use.

I don't know, but things are looking up.  :)

Getting excited.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Gotta get ready for work.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras if these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Saturday, January 9, 2016

What Am I Going To Do This Morning??

It occurred to me before getting up I will not be running this morning. So I'll take Hope for a walk, but then what?  I am not particularly hungry, so don't really feel like breakfast. Hmmmm.

Anyways we'll figure it out. I had another pretty good day of not being a pos yesterday when I got home. Nothing major, just little stuff. I have to work today, but it should be pretty easy.

Really after that not much going on. I am kinda ticked at my calf. It should be better in my opinion, but it still lingers. I am much better than the week before though.

So I sit here with my cup of coffee. My heart is pretty content. Nothing really weighing me down you know??  If I were to ask myself am I chasing anything??  I can't really think of anything. I have everything I need I guess. I have more than you, but you don't know what I have. I couldn't even begin to help you understand.

What is it that makes you not content??  What is missing??  The World has a lot of things that pull people, so on any given day you can be missing out on any number of things.

If I were to say what is the best thing for a person to do??  What is the answer??

For me it is to live my life the way I did, and to be who I am now. The route I took blindly took me to where I am now. You have no idea how lucky I am.

It's pretty good. Today will be another day, and tomorrow I only work one job. 2 weeks from today I'll have Sunday off. :)

So... I guess,

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I might have a 2nd cup of coffee then take Hope.  :)  I know I know, I'm all over the place.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)  (told you I'd remember).  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.   :)

Aloha.  :)

Friday, January 8, 2016

Another Day Older...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Today I decided to not have coffee, so update your spreadsheets. Yesterday I had another pretty good day of not being a worthless pos when I got home. Folded some laundry, took Hope for a walk, did the dishes. That may have been it. I am really liking this. Such a simple thing.

Anyway not much going on with me. Day after day after day of life. Gosh, I really have nothing in my mind.

Perhaps a List of things I saw yesterday:



  • I saw a happy black lab being walked by a big lady
  • I saw two pair of Jr. High girls running
  • They were awkward looking. 
  • I saw two chipmunks playing. 
  • Hope saw them too, and tried yanking my arm off. 
  • The chain fell off my bike on the way to work. 
That's about it. Not really much to life is there?   We just go on doing what we do. Day after day after day, and one day we will die. What is the point??  What is that one song??  Your a slave to money and you die. 

I found the choice really by chance way back when. Blindly followed steps that were in my heart. You can follow the path of collecting coins made by humans, or you can deny yourself. Give up your coin, and take a different one not made by humans to wherever that may lead. In human life you may not be doing anything different than what you do now for the time being. Other things will be different. Your heart will be different, and your eyes will see you better. 

One is a path of slavery to the World, and the other is a path to freedom from the World. One is hard, but worth everything, and the other is just a life of misery til death. 

It's your call. Everything about you is known. The web of life you are trapped in is known. 

The World is made up of man made rules based on all kindsa things. There is a better option, but it is your choice. It is a blind choice, and all you have is me. I didn't have me. I am telling you the way, when I did it blindly. 

Anyways,

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope  Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Sheesh I've been having to dig for stuff the last couple days. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D   :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Maybe I Will Have Coffee...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Today I decided to have another cup of coffee. I originally wasn't going to, but then I decided what the heck.

So yesterday was a pretty good day. I had another day of not being a worthless piece of shit when I got home. I really like it. I haven't been doing anything major, but little stuff you know??

I saw a note I wrote, and it must have been right before I started heimleblog.  The first of my 3 blogs. I did have a blog called the outside corner. I did the HTML myself, and blogged everyday, but it was pretty much left wing political stuff.  I really wanted it to be about funny sports stories. Oh well. W pissed me off, and screwed up those plans.

These days I try and sit out of the political arena, cuz all I see is angry people adding fuel to the fire. No one really accomplishing anything. Maybe pointing out how everyone and everything is wrong keeps the mirror off themselves. Who knows??

Anyways it was a good reminder of how this whole thing started. I became friends with people I thought were better than me I think. I felt comfortable with 4, although 1 of the 4 seemingly hated me. I read their stories, and knew parts of their life. We all have changed a bit. I still am here blogging, and the 4 I pretty much no nothing. Beth updates once in a while, and Becky I may see something on Twitter once in a while.

I now feel comfortable with more than 4, as this thing has grown. Like I say it was good to remember.  

So you see people with goals. Families, busy lives, jobs, homes to take care of. I didn't really think of anything, but is it worth it to be so tired??  I am not saying anything is wrong, but it surely isn't 100% right. There has to be some guilt in things, cuz you are cheating something.

Life is a crazy thing, because we don't do everything right, and when you add more you cheat other things more. Being right is different than you think too. Being right is more about knowing you better and accepting yourself and being accepted. Being right has nothing to do with a competition of squeezing more in your life than other people.

It is why some people seem tired, and their voice isn't happy.

Many times you just end up living life. You have a set of people who do similar things so you figure you are good. Maybe take a step back, and ask what if all this is wrong??  I know you've never done that cuz you never asked the tough questions. You've just been going on and on.

Kinda crazy. :)

Like I said though me not being a worthless piece of shit is going pretty good. Trying to get better at it. With my calf the way it is I've been walking Hope after work. It is getting better, but not 100%. Stupid injuries.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!     :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

 xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. Wanna know something of me??  I cannot do anything to change the events that will happen although all my thoughts are seen. When I am the best a person can be I will be able to, now I can only support as my heart dictates. I don't pray for things, but everything about me is seen and so are my thoughts. It is what living in the light is. You have no idea what that is though, cuz it is impossible for you right now.

Love a You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.    :)




Wednesday, January 6, 2016

The Worst Update Ever...

This is going to be the worst update ever, cuz there is pretty much nothing on my mind. Today I made a cup of coffee, and yesterday I didn't. Coffee doesn't really do anything for me, cuz out of nowhere I always wake up with energy. I know how, and why. It is a little beyond too crazy to tell you though. Of course I've known this for decades.

Anyway, let me get the coffee. I'll brb.

Okay I am back. So it is a pretty strange spot I sit in. Knowing too many things is good I guess, but can drive you a bit crazy too. I know people a bit, and they don't really know themselves as great as they think. Whatever your weaknesses are, you are not sure why. Anger??  Why is it there??  Why can we not rid of the things inside us we don't want??  You know like hate, and judging, and jealousy, anger, impatience, whatever.

If you put your best you can be on a shelf, why are you nowhere near that??

That's what the mirror is for. Without a mirror we would think we are good enough. With the mirror we can finally ask some hard questions about ourselves, cuz the mirror don't lie, and it shows us our inside.

You may think I am so smart to ask for this, but the most important things I ever have done were put in my heart to do it.

Oh, it is a crazy story for sure. If you know the whole truth of me you would realize I never did anything on my own, but I am a vessel that can be used and is.

I am way too complex for you to understand, cuz you've never even heard of this story. Either have I. Talk about a long time in the making. Most of my work has been done while I was made different than you.

My labor here has been long. Outside of the drought year it's been pretty okay though.

As just a little side thing I have this goal that I wanted since the ending if last year. It is basically don't be a complete worthless piece of shit when I get home. It is working too. I like it.

Oh well...

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I was reminded yesterday a pretty important birthday is coming up. I normally don't give 2 shits about birthdays, but this one is special. One cuz the person is getting older than snot, and two she likes her special day. Fun fun. Funny I get excited for this one.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Back At It...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. For no reason whatsoever I had a great day yesterday. I mean most of my days are good I'd say, but yesterday went a step further. No clue why.

Anyhoo. What should I write about today??  I'll be taking Hope for a walk in a bit. I am still limping with my stupid calf. Luckily I can still bike. My switch is turned on though, I actually want to get back in my running routine. My switch has been off for a couple years. This alone makes me think of others.  If my switch can be on and off, then is your switch really on??


There is a difference between going through the motions, and real desire. Don't think I ever knew it until now. How many people are going through the motions ?  I would have no idea, but I currently have understanding between desire, and going through the motions.

Anyways that is just stuff. There is so much more that needs to be done. We have a lot to do, and we aren't doing it. I really need to get to know people. You are lost and don't know it. The worst thing is I know how you are. I know how dark it is inside you, and you have no idea what the light is.

You lived your life, and outta nowhere I came along. A person who was once like you, but am no longer. I did my tough stuff, and with little support. A comment on a blog goes a long way when people are in the dumps.

I wish people were better at that. A comment goes a long way even on just a regular update.

The updates have been lacking, besides a few.

The rules you can throw out. I know the shortcomings of my blog, but most are probably guilty of something. I have a story, and it's been told. You have society so I guess you are "supposed" to be a certain way.

I have assurance. Built by a turn, and a very hard route. Currently you pretty much have nothing. You do have the mirror though, so you should see your inside a bit.

It is showing you are lacking.

You know so very little, yet you think you know so much.

You are all crazy yo!!   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love a You All!!!    :)

p.s. I just can't believe how great yesterday was.

Love You all xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D     :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Wanna know something of me??  The triple smile yesterday was for seeing Damie around supporting. That shit is important. She gets it. Our story is about us, but it is also about others. People talk of going out of their comfort zone, and in blog land that is something. You comment somewhere and in many cases people can see your shit. At least those of is whose blogs are more than race reports and such nonsense.  :)


Haha.  Luv ya's.  :)    xoxoxo




Monday, January 4, 2016

My update.

I am going to sleep til my late alarm.

Cya.  :)

xoxoxo. :)))

Still a bit tired. :)

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Breaking The Rules...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I worked job #1 already, and will leave for job #2 in a bit. As to the rule thing if I don't blog when I wake up I don't blog.  Today I am. :)

Anyone remember way back when I always trusted the early morning. No matter what I woke up strong. I can break my own rules, because I am right.  It doesn't matter really.  Also I have no idea what you people think about a lot. Pretty weird.

Anyway, I got some good news. My early Sunday is about to end. The new girl starts this week. I'll go in next week to give her a hand on Sunday. The Sunday after that I do the Dairy island. That is really easy. Easier then the frozen load anyway. Then I'll just do the cleaning thing every other week. I'll have every other Sunday off.

That is exciting. Pedro my cleaning Supervisor just texted me, and said I'll be doing something different today. What I will do is fun. Swing some areas. So that's good.

Yesterday I did do something to my calf. Slightly pulled it, so I am limping around. It isn't anything serious so full steam ahead still, once I can run again. :)  I went out yesterday, and it was tight. I figured it would loosen up. I actually had to stop a few times to stretch, but it was still right. About 2-1/2 miles in Hope and I jumped over a snow mound. I landed in my leg with the sore calf, and that hurt. My run was done shortly after that. I tried to use a foam roller, but I was gimpy yesterday, and still am today. I am pretty sure it is nothing major. Just a slightly pulled calf is my guess.

Anyways, I am just touching base. As always not much going on with me, but I did get some good news with my work schedule.

Sooooooooo

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Lol  I think sometimes how I am, and how you are. We are far away from each other. FB is kinda crazy. Besides a few people many people just want to show pics of how perfect their life is. It isn't, and you can't make it that way. One thing I thought of a day or two ago is if people knew their end they would have done a lot different. Maybe people try to prove they are right, but they aren't. I am right cuz I traveled through my own condemnation to get this far. I couldn't save myself, and either can you. I just happen to know it. You don't.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

I added someone yesterday, it was a weird fluke thing too. You remember I once had a rhs and I don't really now, but like 2 people. Anyway I checked out another rhs to get it. I remembered she had one, and there were a lot of people on it.

So that is how this person got added.  :)

Fun fun. :)

Laterzzzzz.  :)    xoxoxo. :)


Saturday, January 2, 2016

Just Another Day...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I don't remember what time we went to bed, but I am up by 3:00 AM. That is good, cuz I have to work at 3:00 AM tomorrow. :)

Anyways yesterday was another day. I got a pretty good run in. It was only 3 miles, but that is fine for me right now. I kinda tentatively planned on joining the running group again this year. I didn't even really think about it til yesterday. I figured I ran ~9 miles one day last week, and was no worse for the wear. My schedule is good to do that. I really was kinda planning to run Hope basically, then I thought maybe I am healthy enough.

My favorite race was always the riverbank. It is a 25K distance race, and I like it. I always remember when in good shape you keep it under control for about 8 miles, and then you can take off on the hills, and pass a lot of people. The distance is long enough though you have to worry about your calves tightening up.

Anyways that race is the 2nd Saturday in May, so I thought why not. If I can stay healthy for that than maybe another 26.2 in the Fall. I am in pretty good shape having run many days the last couple months, and actually biking too.

As someone who likes to do miles before the miles, and a lot of times wants extra, I think I'll do less. :)

Other than that not much going on. I got all my laundry done, and the kitchen is clean. Lisa and I went out for lunch yesterday, and I made a pot roast. Today I'll work, and now I am drinking coffee, and will take Hope in a bit. I'll scout out the cook book to make a dinner too.

Fun fun.  :)

That us it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. I think I've looked at the hard part of life, but now I feel I see the good part of life. Cool by me. :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D

Laterzzzzz Gaterzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Friday, January 1, 2016

Now I Am Kinda Screwy...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good, but my sleep is jacked up now. I finished work early, so I went next door to have a few beers, so I could go back to a little yearly party thing they have. It was fun, and I had a good time. When I got home I slept though til like 7:00 or something. We ate, and watched a movie that was 4 hours long. It must have been a mini series. It was Stephen King's "Storm of the Centuey".  I ended up staying up til 11:30. I could have actually stayed up til midnight. I am too old to really give a shit about that though.

So the day is done, and we start a new year. Who knows what this year will bring. I am here, and alive. I know there is a little barrier between many and me. I don't know how you cross it, cuz my heart does what it feels. So there is that.

Last year ended pretty good though. A lot of adds, and more to my signature line.

So we'll see what this year brings. I feel this is probably the more important part of me, cuz my life is really relatively simple, and plain. It is mostly fun too, cuz that is how my heart is. My heart is just in a good mood a lot.

I know the story of me, and I believe it is important for us to get the story of you. Why else would I do this so many years??

Haha.  :)

That is it for today!!?    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am just getting the blogging part of the day done. I am going back to bed, and I'll take Hope later.  I also have the full day off today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)