Hey all, good morning. Yesterday started out okay, and I was doing my thing. Read a blog, blah blah blah, went to so called blog, and out of the corner of my eye I noticed, oh, that person doesn't read my blog anymore.
Then I thought oh geez, what did I do now?? As someone who does this a lot, and not with a lot of thought, I could only guess. Then I start thinking of everything, and figured hmmmm. Everybody is mad about something. No one reads this stupid thing anyway, and my first reaction is SCREW EVERYONE!! Fuck 'em. I don't need 'em. No one reads this stupid thing anyway, and who cares.
I kinda have been looking at the tally of my posts, and I knew I was going to need to have a strong finish to hit 300. It wasn't a goal for the year at all, but I remember it being a big deal for me at the end of the year, and I was a bit surprised I am not going to hit 300. Where do the days off come from?? I know last year the days off came from bad days, I don't remember a ton of bad days this year.
Maybe there were some tough days. Getting ready for my 2nd 20 mile run for the Spring Marathon, and quitting after 6 miles due to injury. Another year of being slow, missing the Riverbank. I don't think I really care about that shit, but who knows?
You know the death of this blog is when I feel no one reads it. Then I am like screw it. Why that even matters I don't know. I don't even think this thing does anything for me.
The blog is fun for me though most times. I have fun in life. I live it my way, and have always stressed being strong, being honest, Who knew it was so hard for people to be strong?
I also said to trust too, because we all are fucked up in ways. When I get a little whacky just hold on. It is all part of me and this blog. Whacky is fun. Life is Joseph Heller funny right?? Funniest fucking book I ever read Catch-22 It was silly and funny, but important. Important to see how fricken stupid Society and all their rules are. Also how stupid it is if you just cling to those, and don't seek out other truths.
I am going to have fun in life, but I will do the serious shit too. That is why trust.
Also for me to get how I am, and the start of my journey, I had to question, and doubt my religion. What is so scary about that?? Your thoughts don't save you, and your " I appear to be this way" in front of people don't save you either. People will judge you and it hurts, but it don't count for anything except shit against them.
To be strong you have to accept and overcome judgement I guess. None of the judging matters either, because there is only one's judgment that counts. We all are judges anyway. We judge the SHIT out of everyone. Especially those who don't think like we do. Those people are easy to judge, and easy to hate.
So anyway that is what got me yesterday. FYI
That is it for today!!! :)
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p.s. Running this morning. Not sure if today is the long day or tomorrow is. Running both days though, so I guess that is good.
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