So yesterday on my post about pretty much nothing, I said this blog was weird this week. I guess I want to clarify that. For a long time, it seems this thing was getting pretty heavy, and now it really isn't at all. The thing I thought about this morning was this blog was really pulling hard in a way, and now it isn't. What does that mean to me?? It means we have time. I guess I said that before.
Did we pull in vain?? No, because this is going to work out. Life goes on. As you all know life has some hard stuff to deal with. That is what we do. we deal with life. We don't pretend everything is always great, because we are living this thing. Not all things we go through are easy, and we don't always fell all rah rah.
Sometimes we do though.
Want to know some of my motivation problems?? I can boil it down to one little statement. At the end of the day (life) nothing really matters. All we strive for doesn't mean squat. Now that is a tough pill to swallow. It was a tough thing to learn, and the thing Solomon I don't think knew, was it doesn't have to be a sad thing. Maybe he did know. He did say eat, drink, and be merry, for that is your lot in life.
One of the hard things in life is us. Trying to figure out us. There is who we want to be, and who we want people to think we are. Then there is the real us, the one we battle. I am this way, but I don't want to be. In other words you don't accept yourself. You are not who you want to be. The best thing about my journey to this point here, is I accept myself. I am going to be made a certain way, but that is after this thing I have to do.
This is good enough for me. The way I am, I am not afraid to show who I am. All the dark little secrets that make up who we are, I am not afraid to hold up to the light. It seems like such an easy thing huh?? That is the journey though. Us holding the darkness within us to the light. The darkness is afraid of the light. Why?? because there is this great sword. We cannot survive the sword can we??
Rock, paper, scissors, Forgiveness beats the sword.
Complicated huh?? A lot to get through huh?? Yep, none are smart enough to make their own path. Many haven't even taken the first step. We have a long way to go on this impossible journey, but the lesson of the camel through the eye of the needle is all things are possible. :)
That is it for today!!! :)
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p.s. I got a little run in yesterday, and some pull ups. Pull ups are hard again. ;)
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