Saturday, January 15, 2011

What I See

Well here is what I see.  Yesterday my wife and I went out to lunch at Applebees.  I decided to not get a book at the library, because I was tired.  The common thread this week huh??  So I had a couple beers, and lunch.  Our waitress was pretty.  Not in a knock out body pretty, but a great smile, and her eyes sparkled.  Lisa and I both noticed.  She seemed really nice. 

There is a tired theme going on these here parts.  I picked up some Coors Light on the way home, and the pretty girl who does her nails was working.  I could see she wasn't her same sparkling self.  She still had pretty nails.  I asked if she was tired.  She said "yeah for some reason."  For us in West Michigan we get a lot of gray days in the winter.  Now if it is cold, and you don't feel like being outside at all, it makes one tired, and droopy.  Not to mention your Vitamin D is probably out of whack too.  I mean even I was tired this week.  Me???  lol.  

I walked briskly to work yesterday.  The good thing about walking at 4:00 am is I can walk on the street, and no traffic.  Sidewalks weren't plowed yet.  About 1 mile or so into my walk, some plow pulled up beside me and asked if I wanted a ride.  I was like no thanks.  You know at that point in time there is nowhere else I'd rather have been.  I was doing what I wanted.  I can drive the truck every day, but I choose not to.  I am always hungry too, at the time I'd pick up Lisa, so I could eat a lunch too.  I choose to do this.  I could be smarter about things in my life, but I choose not to.  At least in things pertaining to how one is "supposed to live".  Been there done that, and it lead me nowhere really. 

Here is me in a bit of a nutshell I guess.  I will put forth good effort at work.  I will put forth good effort at my hobby of running.  Luckily my hobby is one that keeps me healthy.  I will put forth good effort at fun.  As it so happens, I enjoy my job most times.  I enjoy running and training, and I enjoy having fun.  So yeah, I am kinda living the charmed life huh??  I don't think I will ever be like the 3 running-blog girls, although I was for that one year kinda.  I think I am more like "A1"  lol.  Not the steak sauce.  She is more talented though.  :) I still want to get back in the pool though, and I think Steelhead may be something I'd do.  Maybe I'll find a shorter distance one.  We'll see.  The distance doesn't bug me though, because let's face it I am always focused on distance huh??  While trying to achieve long, I hope to add some short.

I am well rested today.  We have more snow on the ground, so going to be a yak trax run fo sho!!  I may cut it off at 10 miles, because it might be a hard one out there today.  Not to mentions switching from 10-12 = a hilly beast.  Maybe I'll go early and run 3 miles early.  I think that is what I'll do.  Add 3, and that gives me flexibility to turn back at 8 for 11, or go 10 for 13.  Oh well never mind that.  Just thinking out loud so to speak.  :)

I think I will share my comment with Jen Gray.  She has spam problems with comments so you pretty much have to e-mail her.  I share, because it really is something I have been through, and how I feel, and what I feel to be true.  So here it is: 

Time does heal loss.  You are very early, and your heart is very big.  As time goes on the healing does too.  You are strong though, because you look at it, and you deal with it.  You will not be at your best at a time like this, but you know what you cannot see is how you are 1 year from now.  You will have a different viewpoint. 

I cried 1 year after my step-mom died.  I am not sure if I ever told anyone.  I cried for her, and Jesus, and one of my favorite people of that time Harry Truman.  I cried their lives were so hard.  I wish they weren't.  I think it was healing.  That would have been Christmas night/early the next morning.  1991???   Harry Truman died on the 26th of December too. 

I have nothing to say to help, but time does heal.  God's way.  You know faith is all about time.  Abraham was given a promise, and he believed.  Remember how long he waited.  Faith is time related, and so is the healing of grieving.  You will have a much more colorful vision 1 year from now, and you will still have fond memories of your mom. 

xo!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

 Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  The xo's are not for Avril Lavigne, I was just pointing it out, that she uses them too.  :)  fwiw.  :)  lol

Now for really really cya cya cya.

Love You all  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

long run Saturday wooooooooo.  No idea what I am doing after.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

and as always some extra xxxxxxxxxxxxxx's just to be safe.   :))

Have a great day all.  :))))))))))   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo 

1 comment:

Anonymous said...


It was December 26, 1990. This day is etched in my mind because it was in 1991 Marilynn was born...just 3 months later. I just look at Marilynn and see the strength and humor of Mom in her...have a good one.