Thursday, January 13, 2011

Missed A Speed Workout???

Wow, I never do that.  I missed the first one.  I overslept when I took a nap.  Weird huh??  I don't use an alarm to go to work at 5:00 am, or write my blog, but I overslept an afternoon nap.  Why???   All for good.  I don't know.  Nothing for me to worry about.

I was thinking of something Kim Kim Kim tweeted last night.  What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.  I have two thoughts on this.  One is a guy in a concentration camp I read about.  I think it was in a book called "Jewish Literacy".  I forget the author, but he is pretty famous.  There was a gentleman in a concentration camp surrounded by people who were basically being worked, and starved to death.  Through chains, and fences, and all things one equates with non-freedom he found freedom in his mind.  As death surrounded him he was able to view peace I guess within himself.  I guess if you let go of everything a freedom remains.  Letting go is the hard part huh??  That is where my journey ended.  I let everything go... again.  Thanksgiving you must have seen something.  This shit is normal for me.  I looked at the Journey a bit last night.  Hard to tell what you think.  That is the overcome isn't it.  To let go of everything.  All the "security" you feel you have.  hmmmmmm.   All I can say is "You Got This"  Perfect decisions come from perfect vision.  Trust in the one who can see that far.  That is all I can say.  Won't steer you in a wrong way.

That which doesn't kill us makes us stronger.  The path is filled with little things that help make us more strong  oops I meant to say honest.  To overcome the one who would not like honesty to be a part of your tool chest.  :)  Within your power.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  My gift is a heart that is cheerful.  It wasn't always this way, as a matter of fact I lived through despair where I had a heart that was full of judgment toward myself, and others probably.  I tried to keep my mouth shut about that, but who is so perfect right??  After the Journey, and after Thanksgiving I now have a heart I can trust.  A promise, and a heart that is always cheery.  A promise that all I do, even if it seems bad will come out good.  That is why this blog is scary I bet.  The promise.  I stepped up a few days or so ago, and acknowledged it.  I have known it since before the hospital.  I am nothing special, but I was cast aside for something is all.  So have all of you.   :)  I had the same fears, and doubts, and everything you all feel.  I overcame though, so you can trust.  You see me. 

Thanks, and love you all. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.  Welcome back "Panders"  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxo  Check out Alili's last post.  She overcame peer pressure to be herself.   :)  That takes courage from some of you people.  A lot of you have already overcome the peer pressure aspect, but not all.  Good luck.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.   cya.

I gotta run so I am not late.  My sleep yesterday was so jacked.  I have no idea what I am going to do workout wise today.  I am all jacked.  :))   xoxoxoxoxoxo

Did you know Avril Lavigne's signature is xo.   I love her.   :) 


1 comment:

GoBigGreen said...

Ha, glad you are "still here!"
Have a great weekend! YAy FRIDAY!