Good Morning all, how's it going?? Me, I am doing pretty good. I was just looking at the clock right now thinking, hmmmm.... perfect timing. I am up early enough to get all my stuff done before going to work. Yesterday I did nothing at all. I think it was a good idea, because I was perhaps a little tight from push ups and pull ups, so a day off is good no matter what the heck you do I think.
So, anyway I am going to get some coffee, and I will brb...
Anyhoodle I was just thinking how easy my life is. You would think I am some kind of genius to have little stress that I do. You have no idea how lucky I am to live the life I do. To get to this stage where I am now. A story that really started with... Hmmmm, you know who knows who or what I would be, if I did not have the help I had along the way.
I guess I really always had a pretty good set of eyes. One that looked to see what other people were doing. What is a good way to be??? In High School I had a love/hate relationship with myself. My Junior year in Soccer, it appeared I was pretty good. I had this long blonde'ish hair, and I liked scoring goals, and running fast away from people on a breakaway. To see the crowds yell. WOAH!!! I did that?? I wanted to be meek though. I definitely had a sword inside me way back then.
Always a battle to be a good person. When my H.S. girlfriend and I broke up, I threw everything away. One of those blessing in disguise things. I was out to make myself the perfect person, and that was not the path. I went away to College the next year. My next 10 years were in Normal, IL. I had to hit a rock bottom to try to get back up. I did with hard work. I graduated College to have my step-mom die shortly after. Grandpa died 8 months after that. Katrina and I broke up on my Birthday. All alone in the World with this College Degree. What do I do??
Well you know what I did. What is one to do with one's life??
I made a turn in life, and you would think all good things would come from it. Well, I am here to tell you a lot of suffering went with it. That was my path. My path was a very very hard one. I had to go through things I wish no one would ever have to. I was picked for it for no reason.
I don't know your stories, and I don't know what your paths will look like. I do know you cannot make yourself better people on your own. I am a testimony to that.
We will see the direction you go.
The thing is as hard as the stuff I had to do, right now it seems like nothing. That is one of the great things I guess. To be how I am now. I still have another thing to do. I am not afraid to do it, although it may be the worst thing I will have done. Others have gone before me though, and I will have the help of the only one who overcame all.
I know people want to find answers to a better life. I see how the answers were played out in my life. Inside we think it is something we can attain on our own. We have a brain, and we are smart, we should be able to figure it out.
You know the story, and you know the way you need to go. That is all I can say.
That is it for today!!! :)
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