I was asked by my brother title first, or title last. You know? Mostly title first. I really have no idea what I am going to write. I get ideas from the bloggers I read, FB, and every day life. Things I see day in day out. I have an idea of what I am going to write. Throw down a title, and go to town. :)
Okay I was going to do this write up about yesterday. I will just say two girls I worked with opened up to me a bit about their life. Not all things are always great with them, but they both typically smile a lot. I think they both are great. Going, or have gone through some tough times though.
hard blogging while making weekend plans at 3:00 am. I think all the fucking Pejchls are up still. Hey?? wth?? Pejchl gets a red line? stupid blogger!!
Okay off track. looked at my title, so that is what I will write. My favorite time of the day is when I wake up. My thoughts are clear??? perhaps, who knows. I worked 2nd shift at the hospital before and after I went in the hospital, so I always got a ton of shit done before work... except for that year or so of physical depression I went through. Physical as in my energy was non-existent. More than anything, I think I would have liked not to live to be honest. Life seemed so stupid. Natalie my friend at the time got me exercising. That helped a ton. One night while I was up in a surgery room I believe, my energy was returned. I don't know really why I had to go through the physical depression. I guess I did some things wrong pre-hospital, but God knows I didn't know what I was doing. I survived it though. Yes, I knew the exact moment the energy came back. I was excited, I was back to my normal self. Wow though. What a journey. Summer of 92 all the way til now. That is a long time huh?
Ha!! It just came to me. I didn't do anything wrong. It was the old lady in the old people's room. The one who told me to have the patience of Job. I was angry at God for sure. I wanted to die for sure, but I didn't curse God. I did last summer though. I was as low as low can be. I thought I have hit my breaking point. I cursed God for making me alive to see such days. He lifted me up that night, and took my heart. Yes a vision. I was awake. There is a vision too of the eye of the needle. Eye of the needle is birth. That is what it looks like from a babies perspective. The lesson of they eye of the needle??? With God all things are possible. :) That is what I had to learn. That was the end of "The Journey", and the start of "The Wait"!!
Anyway off track again I guess. Working 2nd shift meant I wake up and do shit before work. I kept it that way, even when many times my job meant I came in early. I wake up 3 hours or so before work since I have been working at Menards. Even now that I work at 5:00 am.
I drink coffee and blog now. I used to clean the kitchen and read. With the computer and online, I would do shit online. I used to even workout. indoor bicycle for 72 minutes every single day almost. That was before I started running.
Yesterday bike to work and back was it.
That is it for today!! :)
Hope you all have a Great and Awesome Day!!
Love You All!! :)
p.s. blogger Barb is great!! :) Ha ha!! so are all the others, but wanted to say that. :)
How about them White Sox!! Woo Hoo!! Twins could start losing anytime. Tigers suck. Tigers suck, mostly cause of injuries. Need to have a good bench. Ozzie's secret? He has two. He always always always uses bench players. Everyone gets to play. Makes the game fun for everyone. 162 is a long time. People need days off, and people like to play. Ozzie lets them. Our pitchers stay healthy for the most part. Seemingly better than other teams I think.