Hello, I am up, because I went to bed early. I will write this dumb ass blog, even though I think blogging is boring, and it must be as boring to read this as it is to write it.
Answers answers and answers. As my life goes on, and I throw myself out there I realize I am alone. I use no one as a crutch, except one. The one thing I always wanted in life I guess was not to be alone. Not to be the only one, and now it doesn't matter.
If this thing gets weird, and yadda yadda yadda, I don't care. I need none of you. Maybe that is what life is all about. Being able to stand on your own two feet. I guess I realized it yesterday without realizing what I was realizing. :)
Really this thing could have been fun, but I guess blogging isn't everyone's cup of tea. It isn't anything anyone wants to get involved with. Cool with me.
Anyway answers answers answers. This will be weird, but like I said I am on my own two feet. What you people think I could care less now. After my night in the hospital, my brother Jim had a dream. Me not knowing what was going on, I said "yeah, well I overcame." Now you remember I overcame one thing, and the rest was basically done for me. I remember I was arrogant'ish in my response. So much so I was going to be cast away. I would have been cast away to, but one interceded on my behalf. I interceded a few summers ago on another. I said if this one person cannot go, I don't want to go. I believe it was the same time on my long'ish run when I said "My life is worth so little, do with it as you will." Can't remember exactly, but pretty sure it was.
Also I remember at some point I was told, the walking meant nothing. I never understood what that meant really, but isn't that what yesterday was about?? I trusted my energy, and the energy is a gift. That is what those 3 days were about. To realize, the energy isn't anything I did.
So anyway, life is something you have to be tough in. You people don't appear to be very tough.
Today is a day of me. Read, movie, etc... I am not working. Didn't appear there was a ton of stuff to do when I left Friday, so today is a day of me. YAY!!