Monday, April 25, 2011

Some Changes

Hold on, lemme get some coffee first. 

I reduced the number of blogs I read a bit more.  I creeped around a bit to some of my old familiar haunts, but really didn't feel like adding.  It doesn't really matter.  One thing I realized over the last couple of weeks is I get my ideas from life.  I used to get my ideas from blogs, and stuff, and I don't really do that anymore. 

I laid in bed this morning, and was thinking of things, and ya know I felt kinda at peace.  I had some thoughts about my brother Jim, and actually of Steve Rose too.  I felt peace for them.  Life was really hard for them, and I know Steve R. struggled a lot his last couple years.  I know he was kinda losing it, but I think he had those moments where he was able to do all he needed to do.  Jim too.  I know Jim, because of the Iz night.  There is so much hidden from what we can see.  Yesterday was Easter, and all that.  We know that story.  Everyone knows it.  You want hidden stuff I'd like to know??  I'd like to know what the thief on the other cross thought about before asking forgiveness.  I guess from when his sentencing was done to cross time.   I would have to say he thought about his life.  You know kinda how I wanted to know what Abraham did from the time of the promise, til the fulfilling of the promise.  No record of that is there?? 

So, anyhoo this morning I wake up, and I feel better.  I think I survived the last week or so, and am in a better place.  I am sure there will be still some reflection, but perhaps all the really really hard stuff is done. 

Anyway, I think my blog is getting boring.  :)  I like reading about people and their life.  I swear I think some people all they do is eat sleep and drink training.  It is just a way of shutting people out I guess.  Afraid to let people see the real you. 

I don't know how much of me is left.  How much do you not know of me??  Isn't it kinda strange people wanted me to tell their running story even though my brother died??  Don't you think that is pretty important??  This blog is strange, I know, but it is what I do. 

I want to thank publicly here Jen Gray, and Mindee Elam, and Jen Harrison for letting people in.  Letting us see you.  You have a way of letting people view the world through your eyes.  It is why I think you are great. 

I want to thank both the O'Tooles too, because they are so fricken honest.  I think we kinda know each other too.  They trust me not to be a pedophile.  :)   lol.  

Christie has her moments too.  I know she has stuff she wants to get out, but is having problems doing it.  Her training is going great, I can tell there is something in her, she wants to get out, but is having problems.  Good luck with that.  You'll be fine, and I'll be here.  :)

Sugarleg is great too.  Very honest, and just let's stuff out.  Leigh hasn't blogged in like 5 years, but she is very honest, and very strong, and her blog is about Liliana and her, and Chris and family, and she is losing that time.  When you write about stuff that is important to you, don't you know real stuff about you comes out? 

Panders is great, she is honest and tough, and all that stuff.  I think she is a year younger than the O'Tooles.  She has been on my list forever.  How's about that????

Also Boston Kim, she cracks me up.  She is funny, and all that stuff, and I have a feeling we are a lot alike.  Like to go out have fun, but still deal with the other shit life is made up of in a healthy way.  Head on.  We don't use our hobby to hide from all we are.  We use it as a hobby.  That is what I think. 

Julia too, I think she is very gifted, but you almost get a picture of the little girl inside her trying to get out.  Everything in her life is great, but you can kinda sense a bit of sadness in it. 

Well, whatever.  I am weird, and I try to lift people up with this thing I guess you could say.  Even when I am down and holding onto the ladder of life with all my strength, I still try and lift up.  Just how I am now.  What a turn this blog has made.  Hmmm.

I guess that is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Blackhawks push it to a game 7 Yayyyy!!  White Sox suck.  Go Cubs!!!   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'all are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for the bloggers named above   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Beth Rose Mickel, Tia, and Kim Sheridan  3 girls I respect a ton.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Oh guess what???  I lost my fricken wedding ring.  fell off my finger sometime.  I never take it off either, so who knows where it is.  I guess I'll use a rubberband.  Our anniversary is the year of rubber anyway.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :D   :D 

I swear sometimes I don't want to add the extra xo's, because it seems so strange to me, but I still do.  lol.  :)

cyaz later.   :)


IronMin said...

Thank you! I know what you mean about getting ideas from life. I am very inspired by people too - by what they can teach and what they have seen, and how much they can share.
Your blog is honest. It is refreshing to read such honesty...

Kim said...

just catching up on your blog steve! thank you so much for the shout out. i agree, swim/bike/run does NOT define who we are. the sport is an outlet. for the most part we like/love training/racing. but it is NOT who we are. we are realistic... we like to lead a healthy normal lifestyle - maintaining and trying to balance LIFE. it's hard, but we get it done. still thinking about you with your brother. wishing you wonderful memories.