I told this story to Lisa's side of the family via e-mail. Myrna, Brian, Barbara, and Cathy. I figured I'd tell it now. First off I want to apologize for my Steve Rose funeral thingy anger post. Anger is irrational. A lot of times you don't know what causes it, and you go overboard. That happened on that post. Obviously Steve Rose's death is a big part of all of our years, and I would love to see everybody who was there and more. It is our life. Some people like John Miller were real close to the situation, and real close to Steve. I would like to give a special thanks to Russ Beaupre who filled me in on the whole story. I am glad to have met Jen Gray there, and Faith, of course Gina and I talked a good portion of the time. I talked to Joe Stacy for quite a bit of time. Wish I could have talked to everybody, but I didn't. Most importantly if you read this accept my humble apologies. Oh, I met and talked to Tammy S. too. One of the Kmineks. :) Everyone there was great. Some good speakers like Steve R's Dad. I remember looking at Beth Rose's Mickel's face, and know that was tough on her. Once again my apologies. I can't keep anger in too well, it festers. Damn thing is so irrational too.
Oh yeah, no way for me to make the dang soccer game either. I still have no exhaust on the car, and I am not going to drive that piece of crap to Chicago. :) Once again, I guess Marathon training supercedes Soccer playing. You know me anyway, I would have gotten injured. Probably pull 15-20 groin muscles. :)
Shit, look what time it is. Gonna have to rush this one. After the hospital remember Natalie and I became friends, and she got me riding the exercise bike. I went from 130-170 lbs. in a quick time. Physical depression. Sleep, work, sleep. Exercise helped a lot. Natalie helped a lot. This empty feeling I had (physical depression) made me jealous for the first time ever in my life. Natalie and I became more than friends. I was jealous a lot. Weird. First and only time in my life, I can recall. I was head over heels with Natalie. Then she went to Denmark to study abroad, and that just killed me. I wrote her letters every day, and she wrote me once each week. That killed me too, because I couldn't stop thinking about her. My first time of blogging every day. I guess not everyone does that. :) I surely didn't understand the lack of letters at the time.
So anyway I was working at Menards at the time, so this must be summer of 94, perhaps fall. We drove to Eau Claire, Wisconsin on a work related thing. We took the company car. What happens when you have 4 guys on their own with nothing to do? We go drink at a bar. I meet this pretty blond girl, and we talk. I found out she is Nannying in the States, and she is from Norway originally. Norway close to Denmark we click. I get her number, even though I was only in town for one day. Eventually I get her address, and we become pen pals. We only ever saw each other one other time. I sent her money to take a train?? bus?? to Chicago, so she could see the Windy City. We hook up with my friends Doug and Ellen, and Mike and his wife, forget her name. Haven't seen Mike in a few years, and his wife longer than that. So we do the Chicago thing, and drink the night away, and have fun. It was strictly a platonic relationship.
Sometime after that Chicago trip, must have been Spring of 95, we lost touch. She went back to Norway, and started her life again there. Last summer I found her on FB. She isn't on it much, but that is her story, and that is how I have a friend from Norway.
Is it a big deal?? Not really, but you know she is an important part of my life. When I was down, I had someone to write to, and call. She is great, and really nice. She dresses up as a clown for kid's birthdays. Her husband seems funny too. Once again, he is never on FB either. Oh well. :)
Things with Natalie and me didn't end well. She made me mad. I told her I'd call her later, and I did.... a couple months later. I'd like to apologize to her. She snapped at me when I called, and I didn't take it well. I was angry, because for the first time in a longggg longggg time, since before the hospital, I felt good. Spring of 95 probably. I wasn't going to let anything bring me down. I was a jerk. I really did love Natalie, but perhaps we didn't communicate very well. We never let the other know what we thought. Oh well, I apologize to Cathrine for losing touch. My fault I bet, and also Natalie for being a jerk.
Life really is full of stuff.
Sometimes I am a jerk. :)
That really sucks!! :)
That is it for today!!
Hope you have a Great and Awesome Day!! :)
Love You All!! :)
oh yeah perhaps you don't like seeing your name on this blog??? Too bad!! If you are on my mind you might make it on the blog. :) Deal with it!!! :)
p.s. I got another blog to read. It is a running blog. Link was given to me by a friend. If you read the 2nd post you will see it is right up my alley. A running blog about life!! Woo Hoo!! :) It is the Sugarleg one for those interested in those things. :)