Good morning. How's it going? Me, I am doing okay. I don't really plan on doing this early Sunday morning, but I am done sleeping. Yesterday was okay as far as days go. I took Hope for a walk, I had time to chill before work. I worked, and saw the Get Out movie after work. It was good.
I came home, and started laundry, we each made our pizzas, and that was about it. Lisa watched a movie, and I fell asleep through it. Today isn't going to be a crazy day. I'll work, and then we'll see.
It is a pretty simple life I lead. I don't have any huge plans, but I do typically count on waking up early every morning, and I count on feeling pretty good too.
I really know myself I guess, and I know my life. There is so much I know about me, and i guess that is a spot where you and I differ. While I was out learning about imperfect me I learned about others. I learned why we aren't perfect, and I know why on our own it isn't even a possibility. I also learned that matters.
These days I cannot really say anything, cuz it's all been said. I just do my day to day, and I guess others do to. Another slight change is I am cool with my day to day. I don't expect anything else out of life. I guess I know the worth of the path of this World. I went a different way.
Due to being pulled, and wanting to matter, and stuff like that. I guess the funny thing is I learned I don't matter. I wasn't worth anything really. I had to learn that hard lesson. In the end I guess I wanted a good ending for myself. That comes from overcoming 3 times. I have one time left. A little secret too is I am not strong enough to overcome. I am taken over and made to say the right things. These days I know I have the best help. The one who overcame will do the same again using this vessel.
I will have worth, but none of it will be from this guy who was a kid born to this World. My worth will be given. Earned in a way as I had to endure my trials, but really given, cuz I am overtaken to be able to overcome.
I know you cannot understand these things. I am different. Having been through the eye of the needle makes me different than a person born in this World.
I can't help you understand that either.
I have to check out another Pendergast book. I will finish my current one sometime during work.