I really don't have much to write today, but I'll start with ... well not sure. I'll start with something after I go get my coffee. :)
Well my blog took a drastic turn this week huh?? I sure didn't plan on it. A day like Sunday I have had before, I never know the time or place. This here is the tough part for you people to get. Maybe this is why this blog is scary. I said if there is some reason I am here, let me do that instead of anything else. I was given a promise, a promise I would rescue you out of any circumstance you got yourself into. Now that isn't a financial mess, or anything like that, but if definitely is flipping the car outside of St. Louis like 6 times with no one seriously injured. More importantly it is little traps that make me do what perhaps is wrong in his eyes. So outside the hospital garbage room when I realized I was as bad as bad could be I was angry. I did what I was told to do. I stopped hanging around with Lora, and I searched for what I needed to find. Being dumb like I am, I found it, and kept searching, and kept trying to make it happen. These things I did were just to help myself. I was scared, and I was terrified. So I went up against some scary shit, and was saved, not by anything I did, but what was done for me. After Jim told me of his dream, I said yeah I overcame, and got in trouble again. The promise was going to be thrown out, because of my arrogance. I had one intercede on my behalf, and he used the old forgive him Father he knows not what he does. Ummmm yeah. I'd say so. Still don't. I don't plan anything I do. Sunday no, all the other days??? no. It just shows up, and I do whatever is needed. Not by my plan and my will, but just kinda it is done for me, through me.
I fuck around a lot, to have fun, but if something needs to be done, I am taken aside, and it is done. Not by my plan like I said. That was the hard turn I made too, the one where I lost you. Wanna know why I received that promise?? I asked if it was because I walked into the job promotion interview, was obedient and said no, I will not interview for it. I told them why too. I told them I was asked to say no. Boy did I feel foolish, as you can imagine. Khien always wondered wth??? He said no it was a different time. The time when I was praying to get the job. You know way back then it would have been good money, and Katrina and I would have lived pretty well. I forgot what the hell her major was, but we would have been o.k. I prayed I really really really really really want this job. I want I want I want, but I battled and battled my desires, and my wants, and I said your will though. Only if you want it for me. Huh. I was surprised by that. He said since you did that I would rescue you out of anything.
That is why this blog is scary. Things are a lot easier if you believe one line or something, and then say let's try our best huh?? Well shit we all try our best, and you don't believe anything different than Satan believes anyway. It is o.k. to be on the wrong side of right, because it is really really a simple thing to be saved, although it seems impossibly hard for us, and terrifying. There is one who is powerful to do all kinds of things. Just some things to think about, because you want to make sure when we hit the 7th day we enter into his rest. :)
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)
p.s. I ain't singling out anyone.
You all are the best. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. :)
Shit, forgot the most important part. I ran to work yesterday. Probably 9 minute pace, 3.5 miles. :)