Saturday, March 31, 2012

Truth Is A Bitch!!

Damn, can you imagine the gift??  The gift of putting down what you want, and knowing it will turn out good??  I mean gosh, I kinda felt like I threw the hammer down yesterday, saying we are all pieces of shit.  Maybe it ain't such a bad thing to hear.  We are brought up supposing to *try and be nice* all the time.  Moms and Dads are supposed to make the kids feel special.  Kids are supposed to share and say thank you.  All these fucking rules on how to be decent people, and you know Anne Frank had nice fucking manners. 

I guess I am saying look.  Look at everything about you.  Life isn't a Hitler did this, and I only do this.  Hitler survived WWI, and was pissed they lost, and then Germany went through a horrendous Depression.  You add that to a hatred of Jews, and everything, and add a taste of power, and then success, and Boom.  You got yourself a Grade A Asshole.  Life is about you.  You, and when you boil that down to what that means then maybe it is scary.  Are you who you want to be??  Do you think if you just put your mind to one thing, and do that with all your might you'll somehow end up a caring loving individual??? 

Hold on I am going to get coffee.  Now I go about doing this thing, and many times I have no understanding, and I am sometimes amazed at how bad people are at communicating.  No wonder everyone gets divorced.  They don't communicate, and if you are a couple that does everything together you are doomed to hate each other.  Guys aren't always interested in what girls do, and girls aren't always interested in what guys do.  If you pretend to be interested, than isn't that just pretend anyway?? 

Real is so straight forward, and so simple, and truth is too, you see how fucking hard it is??  Truth is daring to do what you think may not always be nice, but how about the promise.  If there is one thing you can do and know it is right 100% of the time it is being honest.  Honesty takes courage, because the truth can be seemingly mean. 

I can bitch about all kindsa things, because some people just make me sick.  I am an asshole that way.  :)  So much shit in this world is so stupid, and people are so fucked up, and they place importance on some of the most stupid shit ever.  Like this 90 year old couple buying all kindsa cleaning stuff to keep their house clean.  I mean  Puuuuhhhhleeeeezzeee.  When they are dead in a couple years no one is going to care if their house was fucking clean.  Live life a little FFS. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Oh shit, you know what I am kinda a runner.  One thing I noticed not training for a marathon, I ran Thursday and Friday, and those have been days off in prep for Saturday long run.  Today I plan on running to and from work.   Woo Hoo!!!   :)    xoxo

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Friday, March 30, 2012

Pullin Away...

Here is something about me.  People are people.  I know some people are still struck trying to make a name for themselves in this world, as if it matters somehow.  Like people will be reading books about it or something.  We are people, and I guess I wanna say we can be pretty o.k., but it has nothing to do with how fucking great we are.  We are not that great.  You want to show how great you are show courage.  The ability to put yourself out there for all to judge.  Not many have that do they??  You don't want to show flaws do you??  In your mind is a picture of how you think people perceive you.  That is a false view, and that is full of shit.  You need to throw that crap out, it does you more disservice than good.

I hate seeing shit where people *pretend* they are like the best family guy ever, when 1 year ago they tried killing their ex-wife with a pillow.  I mean come on.  Is that your idea of being a good parent to your kids??  Killing their mom??  FUCK THAT!!!

Being real is being honest.  It is showing all the shit we don't wanna show, cuz you Mother Fuckers are better at judging than better at being decent fucking people.

I don't judge the dude who tried to kill his wife, cuz I know some of his struggles, and it was a 2 way street, and his life he pictured, was a fairy tale, and when it blew up he snapped.  I judge him for pretending it didn't happen.  You gotta deal with the shit that makes you that FUCKED UP!!  That bullshit that made you do that is still there.

Everyone you have to ask yourself why you judge people??  Oh people believe this and believe that, and their beliefs are wrong.  Can't wait til they burn in hell. as the holier than thou fuckers are surfing porn and jacking off to who knows what???

See this path is fucking hard, because the world judges, and you have to be honest with yourself.  Being honest is being honest to everything about you.  All your hates, and judgings, and hangups.  All the stuff that makes us assholes is stuff we need to deal with.

When I say you ain't that FUCKING GREAT that goes for everyone, except maybe Doreen.   :)   I luv Doreen you know.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  You are pretty great too.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

What Do I Bring Today???

This is going to get weird I bet, and I am going to explain some things.  I don't go back and read my shit a lot, because sometimes it is just plain old boring to me.  Once in a while though I'll go back, and think hmmm.  This ain't such a bad blog. 

Things that have always been hard for me to understand is why people sometimes read a blog, and don't put down a little remark about what they think about a post.  It helps offer support, and let's the person know they don't do this in vain.  I know the norm is not to do that, but the norm for me is to do that, and I forget. 

Now those of you who have read this know I have been adding extra xoxoxoxoxo's a lot for Olga, and she gets my last line.   :D   :D   What does that mean?? That means trust right??  The quid pro quo.  Trust we are heading in a good direction.  Without trust you got nothing.  Without trust I'd throw anyone to the curb.  Frankly my life is pretty fucking good, and I don't need to do this one fucking second, but I do. 

My life right now is I can do anything I want, and not do anything I want.  I give up my time to offer support, because what I told you Life does not work without it.  I don't give a fuck if anyone reads this or not.  If you don't cool.  I could give a fuck.  If you do and tell me you don't.  That is a lie you won't get away with.  To get a little weird at some time I will know, and the negative comment is one of the worst things you can do to me.  A negative comment is a lie, and lies are fucking bad, because the hardest ass thing you will do in your life is be honest. 

I know you know my story, and what I went through this past year, and I don't give a shit.  I am over it.  In my life I am led to deal with shit.  Get over it, and move on.  You may think I am some strong ass fuck face, and I am, not any of my doing.   I told you my journey, and what I have been through.  Honesty takes fucking courage, and I hate half ass attempts at it.  Do the real fucking thing!!!  

This is life.  We all ain't that fucking great.  We all are pretty fucking disgusting if you think about it.  Where is the glamor of shitting on the toilet.   :)  Where is the glamor in picking a booger out of our nose??  We dress ourselves in clothes, and it makes us look pretty, but let's be honest.  much of ourselves is pretty fucking disgusting.   I think a lot of you girls look cute though.  ;) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Trust me folks.   :)      xoxoxoxo     :))

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D   :D  

Extras for Doreen and Jules.   :)))    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

MWAH!!!!    :)

Monday, March 26, 2012

Where Did The Time Go??

Holy crap it is already quarter to four.  I don't have too much time to blog, but I guess I'll get something down.  Lemme get some coffee first though o.k.   :)

First off I worked for around 4 hours yesterday.  I had an idea of what I wanted to get done, and I got it done.  :)  yay.  I came home and relaxed a bit, and went to the trail.  I did my 4 loops, and just to let you know how hard those loops are, my legs were wobbly as I finished.  When I am done, I have to climb back down the 200 or whatever stairs, and I thought my legs might not hold me.  :)  I swear when I am on that back half in my mind is dread.  There is no full recovery, and there is climb after climb after climb, ending in a very steep hill.  BTW when I finish that steep hill, I stop running and recover for a bit.  It is like a little gift I give myself.  :)  I don't have to, because I know I will recover on the 2nd half, but I have been doing it.  :) 

Then we just chilled.  I listened to a bit of music.  Lisa was outside reading in the back, and I was outside in the front.  Really it was just a great day.  Nothing too major, and just enjoying the little things in life.  :) 

Today is Monday, and I am feeling pretty peppy about it.  You know Mondays are always a hit or miss as to good mood/bad mood.  I think it will be a good one for me.  Hope you all have a good Monday today.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Dammit, I think I wanna read the Hunger Games and see the movie now too.  :)  CRAP!!!   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for you ALLLLLL   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH!!!   :))

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D   :D 

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Oh Crap!!

Not much on my mind as usual.  I had an pretty good day though yesterday.  First off I worked like 7 hours I think.  This time of year like I said before there is a ton to do, and it is work I like doing.  It isn't rocket Science what I do, but I like doing a job that keeps me busy.   :)   I don't like doing shit around the house so much, but I like doing stuff at my job.   :)   I am a nut like that.  Some dude came in looking for a furnace filter yesterday.  I showed him where they were, and he told me, "I work harder on my house than at my job".   Well I am different than that, but I don't really consider changing a furnace filter hard work.   ;)  

I came home and napped a bit and got a bit of a run in.  The challenging trail.  I was going to do 4 loops, but had a poopy issue, and only did 3 loops.  It was challenging.  That trail is tough, but I was much better on it this time around than last time, so I feel I am ready to tackle that bugger now.  One thing I noticed too is how much better my legs felt on the trail.  I don't think I could have run on pavement.  My legs are beat up, but on the trail everything felt good.

Beau, and I went out for a couple beers, watched a bit of Basketball, and that was it.  Nothing too major.  Same old thing today.  Work for a bit, hit the trail again, and Lisa and I have to do some stuff around the house.  Yard work and such.  :)

I have a pretty good life I'd say.  It ain't real complicated, and I am allotted a lot of freedom to do as I will.  In my heart is to be pretty upbeat most times.  I don't have a ton of goals, and really my running is to see where it leads.  I want to do shorter higher intensive training than long slow stuff.  I can always throw a long'ish run in here and there.  Long being 8 or 10.  In an effort to stay healthy I will concentrate on shorter stuff.   :)

And yeah, why not try new things.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  time for some coffee, and head to work.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for you all.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH!!!   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxo    :D   :D   

Saturday, March 24, 2012

Morning All. :)

Sometimes I don't have a title, and I really have to think of something creative.  :)  Anyhoo, not much going on.  I woke up late today, so I will not make it into work by 5:00 am.  I'll get a little something down though.  One of the things of life I sometimes forget is people have stress.  Sometimes not life and death, but also just living life stress.  I see that, and it makes me wonder what people think of me.  I am not rich, far from it, you know that.  People have financial stresses though.  Life has become so hard.  It is so busy.  Some assholes are making a killing by being fine print specialists.  Who the fuck thought life needed more horseshit??? 

I mean seriously, we as people are really not that far evolved.  Life many times is just money in money out, and give me an hour or two here to do something fun.  Society and all its glamor is still nothing but a piece of shit.  Oh the suit wearing mo fo's will fake you, but they don't know how dumb they really are.  See what I did when I graduated from college a lot have not done.  Who knew???  I threw everything away.  Threw away my upbringing, my learning, and started anew.  I did not want to be that Southener who grew up with racist parents, in a racist town, and be that narrow minded guy.  We all have been brought up with thoughts and reasoning of narrow minded people. 

There is only one who teaches above those teachings, and he does it in your life.  Your thoughts will lead the way, because in us all is a bit of sunshine.  It is a light, and it must overcome the darkness we all possess.  You fight a battle within yourself.  The light in us is the truth, and it overcomes the darkness within us and sets us free. 

Faith in life is a time thing, because what we cannot comprehend is one who is not limited by time.  Throwing everything away takes trust.  Trust you are in good hands.  :) 

Trust is what it is all about.  :) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  3 of 4 Final 4 teams still alive.  Woooo!!   In case you missed it Johnny won his fight.  Split decision, and sounded like it was close.  He told me he was going to knock him out too.  WEAK!!!   :)   j/k.   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for you all  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH!!!   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    xoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :D :D 

Friday, March 23, 2012

To Blog Or Not To Blog...

Well, I really don't feel like blogging today, or didn't.  I have already taken two days off, and that is a lot for me.  Is there something wrong??  No, yesterday I had absolutely nothing to write about, and today is the same... I think. 

Is there a lot going on??  No.  I have been getting some runs in, and I feel I am slow, could be the heat.  My leg is iffy.  I ran 3 days in a row, and I need to take today off.  I have decided to switch gears.  I am not training for long distance now, but shorter distance, which gives me an opportunity to run more, with less volume.  Running is not worth it to me if I break down, so I will concentrate on shorter distances. 

One of the good things about me is life is never so involved with what I train for I cannot switch gears.  I thought of that a couple days ago.  You know I don't have to train for long distances.  I can do my own workouts, and some of those can be Sanctuary trails, which is a great workout.  I am thinking of trying to get 5K fast and such. 

It is life though, so I am going to have fun.  My fun may be different than yours.  Doesn't mean what I do is worse or better than you.  It means nothing at all, except I do my thing you do your thing.  When you are feeling down though I will try and be there... especially bloggers.  Why bloggers???  Not sure.  They play an important part though. 

Who knew support was so important??  We are learning new things every day, and I am not the teacher that is for sure.  I am just someone who does what is in his heart, and that heart is in good hands. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Michigan State is out, so that is good for my Final 4.  except Marquette is out now too, and they were a Final 4 team of mine.  Boooooooo.   I had Wisconsin beating Cuse too.   Booooooo.   1 point.   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for you all.   :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.   Especially for the one I took flower pictures for, but haven't uploaded yet.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo    :))

Luv Ya's   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

High Of 84 Today???? Holy Balls!!! And not the shit ones. :)

Hi,  My name is Steve, and I live in Holland, Fricken Michigan.  It is March, so usually this time of year I have just survived two months of gray cold fricken weather.  Now I am happy every day is mid 30's or higher, and maybe approaching 50 on some days.   Ummmmm a high of 84 fucking degrees today.  :)   WTH????   Now that is nutsssssssssssssssoooooo!!!!   :)   Also the 10 day is showing nothing under 60 degrees until next Wednesday.   Wowsers.  I wonder what that means for the summer.  Hot ???   Cold????   Nothing???   I am guessing nothing.  I think typically bad weather in the summer stems from storms starting in the Atlantic by Africa, and hitting warm waters either around Florida, or the Caribbean.  Unseasonably high temps. in those areas can bring nasty weather.  Holland??  Doubt it does much, but Lake Michigan will be warm this year, that is good for boaters I guess, as long as they don't mind paying for the gas.  Longer season.  

Anyhoo, not much is on my mind so you know what that means.  This is bound to be a doozy.  :)   I went on a little 3 miler yesterday after work, which would have been all I would have planned anyway, with going 6+ tonight.  I really enjoyed it.  It was warm, and a bit humid, but I liked it, and it felt great.  I know I should have gone outside and enjoyed the warm weather, but I really just wanted to relax.  So I watched a movie, while Lisa was outside napping.  Ate a little dinner and went to bed.  :)

I think I will tell a story, and I am pretty sure it made my other blogs at least once, and maybe even this one before.  Now you know I know a couple Kmineks.  Leigh who is a blogger is married to Chris.  Chris is a twin brother to Tia, and we all knew each other in H.S.  Tammy Sopper is also part of the family, but I think as a half sister or something.  Anyway the other person in the equation is Mary Rae.  I am sensing a desire of people to show how healthy everyone is.  How great they eat, and how the strive for perfection is going.  What does that mean for you??  Cut yourself some slack sometimes.  I know it is hard to show our bad side, but you know life is full of stuff you cannot plan for.  Mary Rae was on her way to start a new job in California as a Gymnastics coach.  She was a 9/11 victim.  I am sure she ate healthy, and lived a healthy lifestyle, but it didn't help her when it came to the unexpected stuff you cannot plan for.  Maybe you heard about the 4 Jewish people who got shot in France yesterday.  Life is full of ugly stuff, and Our enemies are not our enemies because they are all bad and we are all good.  People are fucking bad.  We do bad shit, and we hate all kindsa people because most "isms"  are shit.  It is a fucking world made up of imperfect people, and no Nation is all that fucking great.  There are no heroes in this world.  None of us are that fucking great.  You listen to someone who says he/she has all the answers, and you know they are full of shit. 

We don't have the answers, but you are getting them.  You are getting them as you are living your life.  Answers are not coming from me, but I do help support.  I will not support when you show me just the shiny white fucking fence bullshit you know??  We are people.  We suck.  We fuck things up, and we are selfish, and much really is just about us.  Ya dig??  We ain't that fucking great.  :)  

That is why I love you.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  LOL  I like these kind of updates.  :)  

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D  xoxo

Monday, March 19, 2012

EEEEEK!! I Slept Late. :)

Morning all, hope you are doing good.  It is Monday now, and I slept late.  :)  I wanted to get something down though, because well, I like to if I can.  Yesterday was a pretty good day, as I worked.  There was a lot of work, and the work I do on weekends is really pretty easy, stress-free, and keeps me busy.  :) 

I worked for 4 hours, and toward the end of my shift I felt my leg that has been bugging me.  I work on concrete, and I walk fast.  :)  So, I left a message with Jerry's wife telling him I am taking the day off.  No reason for me to be the tough guy, and back to back it.  I wanna stay healthy more than anything.  I wanted to run to work today too, but like I said I woke up late.  :)  I'll get a little run in when I get home.  :) 

I want to give a little love to my blogger "friends"  You all make this thing work, and some of you are friends, and we don't even know it.   :) 

On a personal note though, my friend 'lil Cathy just lost her Father in Law.  I met her husband, and he is a great guy.  They had us over for bagels and coffee one time.  I also met him at Bayshore the year I helped Jerry run.  That is a tough thing, and life is full of that type of stuff, which I am sure you all know. 

I haven't been doing this in a while, but I know Cathy reads this most days, and I wanna add her and her hubby to xoxoxoxo.   That is tough stuff, and they bought the farm they live on from Cathy's husbands mom and dad when they retired.  Just to let them know they are important, and I know they are going through a tough time.   :)   As always my best to them.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am still in first place in the basketball thingy.  Kicking butt I may add.    ;)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    xoxo

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Morning All!! :)

Hey, how goes it??  Me??  I am doing good.  I am going to get some coffee, and pretty sure I gots nothing, but we will see.  :)  brb.  

Well, yesterday I did get a couple runs in.  Still a little lingering soreness, but I am running today, and we will see how that goes.  I have a plenty big base, so I'll see how this week goes.  I may take one more week off from long run Saturday, but we shall see.  Since I am not doing the Marathon, my big race will be the Riverbank, and that is only 15.5 miles or whatever, so not worried about the distance.  Being healthy would be more important. 

Other than that not much going on.  I worked yesterday, and I plan on working today.  Always good to add some extra hours.  Lisa and I went out to dinner last night.  It was fun.  I had a couple drinks beforehand, and ordered this huge beer.  I barely took two sips of it.  Wasted the whole damn thing.  :)  

So really there is not much else on my mind.   :)   So maybe I will dig for something.  Hmmmm. 

Well, I guess I'd just have to say things are going pretty good.  I don't know what you folks think of me, but I consider myself a pretty normal person.  I know I am weird, but that is not my doing.  I don't think too highly of myself, and I guess I don't think too lowly of myself.  I am well balanced in a way you know??  I am pretty confident in who I am,  or really confident I guess.  I don't get too high though you know??  We all are these gross people walking the planet, but we dress ourselves nicely.  There is definitely more to us on the inside though you know??  Our flaws are really on the inside, and I think they have been hidden throughout the centuries.  You know we see the really bad people like Hitler and Stalin, and John Wayne Gacy, and other people like that, and think I am not so bad.  We have been living the life under those types of thoughts probably, but the truth of us has nothing to do with those people.  The truth of us is only the truth of us.  Nothing else. 

Who knew the key to life was getting to know that person??  That is why life in many ways is a personal journey.  It is one with you, and you have help.  You are shown things in life every day to help you get a view of you, and the world, and your place in it. 

Oh well.  Not much else to say.  Just watching and waiting and seeing.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Looks like next weekend we start getting down to normal temps in the 40's and 50's.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D    xoxo

Saturday, March 17, 2012

Getting Healthy...

Well, yesterday was just  a pretty good day overall.  On my feet at work, I realized my leg did not hurt anymore, so I am getting healthy for running again.  Several days off does wonders.  I think I see part of my problem too.  My old running shoes hurt my heel.  I like to use my old running shoes for work shoes, and whenever I wore those my heel would hurt.  I think that pair  was a little small, or maybe just a faulty shoe.  Who knows, but I am healthy to run.  I am not going to go crazy though.  I am not going to jump into a long run today.  I decided to ease back in.  I am just going to run to work today, and maybe run back, and well yeah work.  If I ain't running long I might as well work a few hours.  It is our busy season, and I gots tons and tons of stuff to do to keep me busy.  :)  (apologies to Christi for talking about work) 

I go through my mind about running like how serious am I about it??  I like to put forth good effort I guess, but it is all relative.  More than some less than others type thing.  I am not all that competitive about it, and I don't have any real big time goals.  As my life goes on and on, a lot ain't a big deal to me.   I know I know there is so much about me that seems weird, like how??  I hope I ain't a downer to some of you.  You have goals, and I know a lot of them.  Go for it!!!   :)   There definitely is more to life sometimes, and we sure can get blinded by our focus, but there is always things that bring us back to reality, and the world. 

Maybe I do that sometimes with my blog, or maybe you just see stuff out in your normal day to day.  Anyway, I don't really have much.  Just getting a little something down.  As this week heads on, I realize people are starting to trust me.  I keep coming back.  This blog goes on, and to get a little weird, I will be taken over if something important needs to be written.  I don't always know when that is.  A lot of times if I feel I have nothing, and boom a big write up on something that is a good hint for me I guess.  A lot of times when I wonder how it hits people.  I think I throw a doozie down, and then who knows. 

I have a couple rules, and please please follow.  It makes things easier.  That is what we all want.  Trust is the thing.  This thing keeps coming back, and we will always get back on course. 

Other than that I guess that is it.  I am in 1st place in the NCAA thingy, and btw it is the anniversary of the 5K race where I saw the old dude who lost his wife of a bazillion years.  My first place looks pretty good though, as I had Duke going out next round, and Mizzou too.  Not too shabby.  Still need the Final 4 teams though, so I am sure I will find my way back to last place.   :)   HA HA. 

You will never guess who else is in that tourney thingy.  :)   Not going to tell you.  Thanks to Beth and Oscar for inviting me again.  :)   You don't have to comment, just cuz I put your name on here.  :)  Just saying thanks.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Gotta go.  Have a great day everyone  :)  

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Thursday, March 15, 2012

Pretty Sure I Gots Nothing.

Morning All!!  How Goes it??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  Today I peddled through most of the shit you see on FB.  Anyone else hate like 95% of the shit you look at??  Not to mention the 95% of the shit you don't even look at??  Holy Crikey.  You would think everyone is fucking fabulous.  Fakers.  

Some days you would just assume do without that crap.  Me anyway.  Anyhoo, like the title says I am pretty sure I gots nothing, but I will get some coffee, and see where this leads. 

You know there is a big chasm between showing how great our life is, and the truth.  Those who pull nearer to the truth are on the right path.  That is the story of Tiger Woods right??   Remember how fucking fabulous he was??  Even Lance to an extent.  We believed he was super human, and he still is gifted genetically, but he used help that the rule makers said was not fair. 

We want heroes in this world, but they all shit in toilets, and they all put their shoes on one at a time.  We ain't that fucking great.  That is a part of seeing life.  Seeing it for real you know?? 

Boy today is a struggle.  Folks we always gotta keep it real, and this thing keeps going.  You shovel in shit, you get nothing you know, you shovel in truth and honesty you get the good stuff. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Good luck on your picks, and thanks for the comment.  :)  As always.   :)  xoxo

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Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

You too Laura.   :)   xoxo

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Acceptance...

Kinda what I was doing yesterday.  Bracing myself for this year.  Really bracing isn't even the word, because I am like it is just life... whatever.  If my leg still hurts, I will work Saturday.  We are hitting a busy time of year for us, and there is plenty to do.  I did a little jog in the grocery store yesterday, and realized it still hurt, so I am taking more time off.  I notice when I am not really running, I get more done around the house.  :)  

I have already decided to not do the Spring Marathon.  I have enough miles I can do the Riverbank if I want, and if I get better, I can at least help Jerry do some 20's, which he will start next month. As you realize it isn't all that important to me.  When I was working on Saturdays last year, and doing little runs here and there, you know what??  That was pretty o.k. for me too. 

I guess when I look at my life so very little is important.  I like to have fun, and that can take place in any number of ways, but I guess mostly it is feeling like I do every day.  I never think boy what if I did this or that.  I am content on life, no matter where it brings me.  If I go to bed at 7:00 I don't wonder what I am missing, I just figure I am going to feel good the next day. 

That is something about life too isn't it??  We wonder what are we missing.  There is so much out there, and the grass is greener in so many areas, but like I said before living in Hawaii is not paradise, because paradise in life is Hawaii living inside you.  Who and how we are is how we feel on the inside, and that can change from day to day. 

Anyway these are your stories, and I am just watching, and waiting.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I was going to do some research for the College Basketball thingy, but realized, I think I come in last place each year anyway, so who cares??   :)   My final 4 is Kentucky, Marquette, Ohio State, and Kansas.  I have Xavier beating Duke early, and that is my big upset. 

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Tuesday, March 13, 2012

This Weird 'ol Blog...

This blog sometimes is so fricken weird to me.  Like yesterdays post.  I had absolutely no idea what it would mean to people.  I have no understanding.  You know that was the whole goal anyway right??  Understanding.  There is knowledge, wisdom, and understanding.  Understanding is what I wanted most, and I tried to force my way into it.  It is a gift though.  I knew what I wanted, but I had to learn many things.  I had to learn to put my trust in nothing, but one.  Sounds like it is so simple right??  It isn't, because there is a lot out there that pulls you in this direction, and that direction. 

I was given things too, which seemed to put me on top of my game, and it was taken all away, because of the same reason.  You can see how good things can be, but those are gifts, and I had to learn my place, and really as of now all things are done for me.  There is bad in us all, and the worst of us is the parts that judge others.  We all do it, and that is the worst thing we can do, but we cannot control it.  All of us are filled with angers, and hatreds sometimes.  No escaping it. Also things we try hard at, we judge the ones who don't try hard at.  Everything about us is flawed in ways.  There is no working toward perfection.  You wouldn't even know where to begin, because what is perfect anyway??  One of the lessons of life is even Hitler was not so far away to ask forgiveness, but like I told you that is a path less taken.  It is one few have taken, because the world is full of stop signs.  You have done enough. 

I told you the path, and it is the one we are taking.  It is a path of thoughtful days, and maybe even some pain, and hurt.  I see it in a lot of you.  There will be a lot of good days, and you know I may not be there for that, but I will definitely be there on the down days and the hard days.  That is when we need support, and I love seeing it out there. 

As to my running, I am not sure.  Leg hurt still yesterday, so we shall see. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  doing the basketball thing today.  :)  got lazy yesterday.  :)  (everyday??)    :)

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Monday, March 12, 2012

No Coffee For Me!!!

I am kinda a nut.  I noticed this last week, and didn't really think of it too much, but since it happened again this morning, I thought I'd mention it.  Some mornings I wake up, and I don't want coffee.  This is one of those mornings.  I am so anti-headache, I don't even get those caffeine headaches.  Kinda nutty huh?? 

Now I know I had a big post on Saturday, that was probably horror movie type stuff.  All that stuff happened a long time ago, and I knew the reason why, but boy was it hard, up until when my energy came back.  Then things were fun, and I lived a life.  I learned some things, and made a lot of mistakes.  I trusted things like hard work = more pay, or getting ahead.  Being super organized.  Life is too fricken busy though to do all things right.  I was living a life though, and then Heimleblog started.  That was after I started reading blogs for the first time.  At some point in time I knew things started up.  I didn't know where it was heading or what it was doing.  I knew the one thing I had to do, but I didn't know when or anything.  I had a taste of how it would be, and it happened at work.  So much stuff happened at work, and people would have no idea.  All hidden stuff, and I told you some stuff, but I didn't tell you the preview of how this thing is going to work.  I am not going to tell you here right now if ever anyway. 

I didn't have a true grasp of the situation until after the Journey anyway.  Then I knew.  All my uncertainty left, and why it has to be the wait who knows??  Not my plan.  I guess maybe because the turn is so hard, but it wasn't for me, because maybe I was just a little more broken on life.  You know so much happened in that short period of time, and I had a sour taste in my mouth due to my outlook on life.  Not really suicidal type things, but maybe deep down I wanted what we all want.  I wanted to matter.  To make a difference somehow, and what better author is there than one who can be the author of our life huh?? 

Do I matter??  Maybe the end of wisdom is no not really, but I can be used for a purpose, and I was willing to do it.  Many parts were hard, but I was given strength, and even taken so low to realize, it is not my strength that wins the day, but my help.  He is willing to do it too, even when I gave up, and couldn't go it anymore. 

So you Read Solomon, and you fear my destiny is sadness and despair, but the secret to Ecclesiastes, is there is one who can control your heart, and keep it happy most times.  :)

Every point in life can be a struggle, because the Journey to finding out who we are is hard, but we have help with that. 

I just throw stuff out there, and you all really work it out on your own. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I have to do some College Basketball Research when I get home today.  YIKES!!   and ZOIKS!!

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Sunday, March 11, 2012

Now What???

Well, eventually I get it.  It doesn't come right away.  I am usually at least a few weeks late, but maybe all runners are.  I am injured.  I should have known when I was not recovering from my runs.  I have a rule that if it hurts to walk it probably hurts to run.  I don't listen to it all the time obviously.  The clincher was the 6 miler on Tuesday.  Every step hurt on my right leg.  It hurt to walk in the store on Thursday, which means it probably hurt on Wednesday too.  4 miles into my 20 miler yesterday I realized I am injured.  Every step of the 4 miler hurt, and I thought to myself... what am I doing??  Eventually... for me... I stop doing what I am doing, and actually listen to what my body is telling me.  I am injured.  Me keep doing what I am doing is not going to make it better.  I think it is probably just a stress reaction of some sort in my leg.  I should take some aspirin for it, but I haven't taken an aspirin since sometime last year.  I have no idea how many months ago since I have taken a pill.  May have to buy some.  The problem of never getting headaches or anything is I will never remember to take aspirin, because I never take pills of any sort, and I'll just forget probably.  Oh well. 

Anything else going on??  I went to lunch yesterday with my friend Beau.  We don't hang out so much in the Winter, because... well who the hell wants to go out in the cold?  Just catching up.  He is recovering from pneumonia... pretty much recovered, and you know things stay the same. Just kinda waiting for grilling and the yard games that bring out the tourettes in me.   :) 

I did get to thinking though.  I become kinda focused when I run.  Especially in marathon training.  Like I said, I don't know the last time I ran under 30 miles, even when I have been only running 3 days each week.  It kinda takes over the life.  All my thoughts seem to be on running and getting in shape.  When I was doing the running 5 days in a row, I felt invincible.  I was never ever going to get injured again, and I am going to kick ass.  Now under a new perspective... I wonder what next week will bring.  What will I feel like Wednesday when I try and do a little 3 miler to work??  I was doing this stuff, and hills were easy.  I needed to pick up some speed, which was getting hard with skipping Wednesdays.  Now I am back to square 1, and see what Wednesday looks like. 

Big changes in life bring a new perspective.  Even if it is something seemingly as small as an injury, but when the injury is something that prevents you from doing what is a major life thing for you, that still is something. 

What the future holds past this week only time will tell. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!!   :)

p.s.  going to work for a few hours today, and Lisa promised me I will be doing housework today.   ;)

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Saturday, March 10, 2012

Big Day!!

Morning all.  Hope you all are doing fine.  I may have some stuff, and I may have little.  Not really sure.  I am gonna get some coffee though, and I will brb.  :)

I just followed a blog a bit ago.  It is a girl named Sarah Marslander.  I never knew her name, but just saw it was posted on her blog.  :)  See I am nifty like that.  Anyhoo her update I think is a must read for everyone.  She nailed it.  These kids are living the Anne Frank life all over again.  Under no power of their own were they born in that country.  It wasn't the kids plan, and they did not choose to live there, but that is what they are going through now.  Mom, and Dad's plan that stuff sure, sometimes, but you'd be nuts to think people aren't sexual beings anyway. 

What I have been saying is life is a serious thing.  Some kind of shit is going to happen at your end.  You won't plan it, and you have no say in it, unless you pull the trigger yourself.  Life is nutty, because really so much is stupid and crazy.  We all do some real stupid shit.  The powers that be dress up in nice suits, and have nice smiles, and try to look all smart, and stuff, but they have no idea what the heck they are doing.  You see you get a strong voice, confident person talking to you.  Give them the backing of a lot of money or whatever, and they can talk you into doing stupid shit.  I guess that is why antitrust laws aren't enforced.  Wealthy people in nice suits are hard people to stand up to I guess.  I guess they are pretty high on a perch, and it would take a strong person to tell them they are wrong. 

You see the world is screwed, because we put so much respect to people of wealth, and power.  Even if they are ciggarette CEO's or were an owner of a cotton plantation in the South in say 1855. 

Anyway I saw a lot of good things yesterday.  Life takes courage.  Being honest is hard too, because it isn't always self evident between who we are, who we think we are, who we want to be, and who we can be, and once again who we really are, and what shortcomings we are doomed with.  I had a long long journey, and what I have known a long time, was a way to be right.  It will not be of my doing.  It will not be of my timing, and it will not be me who does it.  Just like the 6 days I suffered with the worse suffering ever.  Real life judged every second of every day.  Not eating, and not sleeping.  I had the worst of the worst in me.  I was scared of him for a bit, but I learned a lesson.  There is one who has complete domination and power over him.  The whys and hows are comic book understanding for me, but his reply to Job, were you there when I??? 

Why me??  No reason.  Just cause...  Why you???   just cause... 

Like I said I saw a lot of good things yesterday.  Keep it up.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)  xoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  20 miler today.... WOOOOOOOOOOO

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Friday, March 9, 2012

Happy Friday

Morning all, hope you are all doing fine.  I realized while walking into work that not running Wednesday was the right decision.  I was walking across the parking lot limping, and thought to myself, I was going to run last night??  So I definitely hit a phase where I am not recovering from my runs as well as I'd like.  I am still able to pull in the long Saturday runs, follow with a Sunday, and Tuesday.  You think too, I was running 5 days in a row not too long ago.  Not much I can do, but hope this week is better. 

Other than that not much going on.  I am at a loss for words???  WOW!!!   :)

I wonder why that is??  You want to hold onto something don't you??  Afraid of letting everything go.  You wanna say if I do this, or if I do that...  You have no idea how strong you can be, and it isn't your own doing.  You are asked to make what seems like a huge leap to you, but it isn't.  That you don't have the eyes for yet.  That is accepting, and trusting. 

As you are finishing your 3rd lap everything hurts.  You wanna stop, and you wanna feel better.  In life you want to hold onto this or hold onto that, but do the seemingly big (but really little) thing.  Deny what you want, and say I got this!!!  

ya dig??

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I don't mean to be a dick, but that shit was easy for me. 

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Thursday, March 8, 2012

I Slept In...

Hello all, how is it going??  Me, I am doing good.  I slept in today.  I skipped speed work again, and I didn't really plan on it, but I kinda decided right when I left for work.  Lisa wanted to get something for lunch, and I was really kinda unhappy with how my legs felt on the 6 miler on Tuesday.  They really didn't loosen up.  It was really windy, and whatever... last minute decision.   I am not sure what the wind gusts were, but 40-50 MPH wouldn't have surprised me. 

Anyhoo, I still had a good day, and sleeping in today means I am in a good mood today, and still on slate for long run Saturday, so all is good.  :)  Yay!!   :)

Luv Ya's   :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  LOLz,   life is fricken funny sometimes....  just a p.s.  p.s.   xoxo   that is the other one.   :)   LOL

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Have a good one.   :)    MWAH!!!   :)


Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Morning All!! :)

I am pretty sure I have nothing to write about, but we'll see.  I am going to get some coffee, so hold on.  I will brb.  :)

Oops, coffee maching was unplugged, it is getting ready now.  I can give you some crazy stuff.  A lot of times when I write stuff, I have absolutely no idea what it means.  Not a clue, although I guess it can mean different things to different people. 

I got a little taste of what some of the points of my life meant.  Remember when after the hospital I went through that physical depression thing??  Just an energy drainer, and man did that suck.  You have no idea how I hated life during that, but you know Natalie got me hitting the exercise bike etc..., and at least helping out in that way.  Then the energy returned.  I knew the exact moment, and I lived a life of Jospeh Heller for a while.  Just a nut, going crazy.  I was out of jail type of thing, and man I was going to have fun with life.  I knew I had some stuff to do in my life, and it would happen.  I didn't know when or how or anything.  Who would have thought it would be this, and my life here and now, and Heimleblog, Journey, The Wait?? 

Anyway on that summer day during Heimleblog when just like that I was taken down.  Low Low Low.  I hit my breaking point.  I cannot do that again.  I cursed, and said WHY??  Why do I have to live this fucking life.  What a piece of shit.  So there I am with not a hope in the world.  Not wanting a hope, and yuck.  You see there was nothing I did to help myself.  I could not have done a thing.  That is a hard lesson too.  We want to think we are good, because we do this, and we do that, but really there is only one good, and we don't even really know what that means. 

I think I know what my posts the last few weeks have been doing.  They have been pulling hard at you I bet, and you all probably have thoughts and stuff about your life.  I guess we are making the turn, and I didn't know it was hard. 

That is trust though.  Trust in what you think you want or trust in the one with the best vision.  This is your journey and your battle.  Just think too, after I made the turn, I suffered.  I suffered for knowledge and wisdom I guess, and figured out that just because I made the turn, it still didn't mean I did anything good. 

In my heart was belief in the future days coming, which started out with Heimleblog.  Even when I lost hope, and my heart was dead, he took it, and keeps me going so to speak. 

Coffee is done.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.   oh.   o.k.   :)   thought you didn't like me anymore.  :)   xoxo  Good Luck!!  :)

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Oh, Jerry and I ran the 6 miler last night.  It was warm out, and a lot of people out and about.  There may have been some cute girls too.   ;)

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Gotta Rush This One

This may get a bit nutty today, because it can get nutty any day.  Like I said before I don't put a lot of thought into what I write, but trust my heart to be in a pretty good spot, and if not really that good at least honest.  Let's face it too honest is better than good, because we have control over that mostly, although we don't always want to do the honest thing, because really there is a lot to us we would rather just keep to ourselves.  Not to mention do you ever wonder how bad we are as communicators??  Many times we just internalize stuff, instead of expressing our displeasure and stuff. Some people are the opposite too, where they are just bitching all the time.  I guess I am glad I have a pretty good easy going personality.  Riding the wave of life I guess.  I don't get too high and I don't get too low. 

In blog land I haven't always been too good at these big changes that happen out of nowhere.  You know  my heart has been stabbed though at other times.  To the point where I was as low as low can be, even where I questioned the reason for my existence.  What a fucking waste, but with help I always got back up.   I even got to the point where I said no more.  I am done, and I couldn't have lifted one penny of strength to help myself.  That night I was lifted up.  I went through some more hard times, and then I went through the Journey, and boom right after the Journey starts "The Wait"  Do you wonder how I came up with the title??  I have absolutely no idea.  I just woke up one morning, or whenever I did it, and started it up.  Who titles their blog "The Wait" ??  I mean I obviously know why it is called the wait, but sometimes I am taken over to go in this direction or that direction. 

There is a plan, and it will work out, how I don't know, but We got this... ya know???

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  thank you Damie and Angela for the comment yesterday, and thank you Boston Kim for not considering me a VIP to invite me to ur blog.   BOOO on YOUUUUUU.   still luv ya though.  :)

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MWAH!!!  

Monday, March 5, 2012

This Thing.

Boy, I tell you sometimes I don't always get this thing.  Yesterday I woke up, and read the blogs in my reader, and normally blog after, but it felt like it would be a chore, so I was like screw it, I am going back to bed.  Even today, I don't really feel like doing this, but I am up nearly 2 hours before I have to go into work, so I guess I will do it. 

I do want to explain some things about me.  This goes back a long time ago, but I am insecure in ways.  I was never good at asking girls out in my day, because I hate, and fear rejection more than anything.  It may seem I am a blunt asshole, but really I protect myself from rejection. 

People always misunderstand people.  It is human nature.  We tend to put higher and better attributes on people, because we want to see the good in the World, and hope for good stuff.  People are not perfect.  Our thoughts are never always pure.  All of us.  If you are looking for perfection, and a perfect life, and perfect everything you won't find it.  Accept life for the good stuff, and accept life for the shit that is bound to come your way.

I did have a successful training weekend I think.  I got my 20+ on Saturday, and let me tell you it was hard.  20 milers are always hard anyway, but we had to deal with a 5.5-6 mile stretch against 20+ MPH winds with 30+ MPH gusts.  I mean really, like a 20  miler isn't hard enough.  I had 6 miles in when we started, but we were running toward my house, so I didn't have to go all the way back to the bike  shop.  I could finish home.  I calculated the distance, and it happened Jerry and Cathy could get 16.  They got 16.5, and I got 20+ when I ran home.  Cath had to finish her route downtown, but we could all run together.  I thought it might be a lonely run early, because Cath and Jerry put a gap on me, but Cathy had to tie her shoe, and we ran together the rest of the way. 

Like I said the wind was brutal.  When we stopped for drinks, we couldn't stand too long, because we were getting really cold.  I don't remember getting so cold so quick before.  It really was tough conditions.  Even when I made my turn for home a gust of wind hit me, and nearly knocked the wind out of me.  It was really a crazy 20 mile run.  The end of the day you are glad you got it done, and you know that is a run that will help you in the future. 

Jerry, and I followed with a 6 miler yesterday, and we started off ouch ouch ouch ouch, but things loosened up, and got it in. 

That is about it I guess.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  one thing I learned yesterday about my run is the ouch ouch ouch to the things loosened up.  On Wednesday if I am feeling a bit beat up, I can do a longer warm up to loosen up, and I don't have to go all out 5K speed.  I can ease back.  That is  my plan anyway.  :)

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Saturday, March 3, 2012

Any Which Way But Loose...

Well this blog is definitely a go in any way at any time.  Today is no different.  I was seeing myself with a clear eye this morning, and kinda chuckled a bit.  Maybe not chuckled, but thought how strange this thing gets seemingly.  I know what this blog does, and what it is.  It kinda is a mirror huh??  You can kinda get a look at yourself through this thing.  We've been doing this life thing for a while, and following along and following along, and I come along and say stop!!!   Isn't this shit stupid?? 

What are we doing?? 

I think staying inside society helps mold us into cookie cutter people, and it is there where we are not happy.  Society is imperfect, and the design of imperfect people.  Life is so much more than the stupid bullshit we do day by day.  When we are 6 feet under all of the shit we have done is pretty dumb.  We won't think about any of it.  We all have to live in the parameters of society.  Follow laws etc...  Luckily for most of you you don't like doing gross things to farm animals on the corner of city streets.  Those of you who do I wonder about.   :)

Life is a Bitch.  You are going to die sometime, and that is the truth.  I think I said before a long term view is a good way to make wise decisions.  Decisions based on certain future events.  The stock market always rises is not a certain future event. 

Life is something to think about, and I don't think following society down it's dead end path is really wise, ya know?? 

20 miler today, and I am still undecided how many miles before the miles I will do.  I will run to the meet up place, which adds 2.85.  Maybe 4 before that.  Why the miles before the miles???  Cuz I don't like running to Mexico to get my 20.  I'd just assume stay close to home.  :)

Have a good one all!!!   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am a fricken hipster ain't I???   :)   LOL

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Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Friday, March 2, 2012

In Case Ya Wondering...

I am having another off week of running.  Things have been achy a bit here and there, and if given the choice... speed work or long runs, I'll take long runs.  Also after last year's shit year, I don't want to do the injured thing, so I am taking days off.  I love epic 20 mile runs, or high teen runs in shitty weather.  That shit helps me feel alive on a Saturday morning, only to feel completely drained the rest of the Saturday.  Doesn't matter.  I dig that shit, and I don't dig injuries. 

I sometimes think my body is in tune with me too.  When I am really active, I eat a lot, and am always hungry.  Since I didn't do much yesterday I ate some peanuts, and then had dinner.  Not as a diet of any sort, but I eat as I feel.  I'll eat a million calories in a day if I am hungry, and 14 calories if I am not. 

So this week when my legs felt not so great on the concrete on Wednesday morning, I decided to skip speed work.  I train for fun.  I am training for the Lansing marathon, and not even sure if I'll run it.  I like the training, and the race whatever.  I'll definitely do the Riverbank, cuz that is my fav race of all time.  This year I go by a philosophy of less is more, if it keeps me healthy and running.  

Ya dig????


That is it for today!!!    :)

thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I almost wasn't going to blog, but decided to.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

Love Ya's  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxo   MWAH!!!!!    :)