I Know I Know What the heck???

I really have skipped a lot of blogging days for me.  What the heck??  No reason really.  I overslept one day, and yesterday I really didn't feel like blogging, although I kind of did anyway to a friend.  A friend who her and I have been on a bumpy ride, but now I feel we are like sister and brother.  So really thankful for that.  Another one I think we already cleared the air.  I think maybe at times she is like me too... insecure at times, and needs to hear some things from me once in a while.  So on that side I am pretty happy.

Hold on gotta get some coffee. 

So let me say about that again and again.  I am very thankful for both them.  It wasn't pretty all the time, that is for sure, but we were honest with each other for the most part.  We were ugly to each other at times, but now we.... in my mind.... are like family.   I cannot express how thankful I am for that.  :)

The thing with me skipping blogging is I always have so much to write the next time.  DOH!!!  :)   My friend from work Brian came over and taught Lisa how to use a router.  She wants to make kitchen cabinet doors sometime.  :)  I don't!!   that is fo sho!!

I am going to tell you a bit about Brian.  He is sleeping on the couch right now.... He drank a lot.  I did too I guess, but I fall asleep early, especially when I don't eat a lot... like yesterday.  We hang out like maybe once every couple months or so.... maybe even less.  He has a rough exterior.  He gets angry pretty quickly, but once you get past that he is a real guy.  When we hang out we always seem to hit the real life stuff.  Childhood stuff, hard things that happened in our life.  Things in our life that shaped us for better or worse.  So he is real like that, and I guess I am too.  It is probably why we get along.  One thing he told me unknowingly is people REMEMBER the few times I get mad.  I do get mad, but usually I don't very often.  If I am in a bad mood, I typically keep it to myself.  If I do get mad, and my anger explodes people do remember.  :)  One of my friends Jason remembers when I went off on him like 10 years ago.  He still teases me about that.  Only time I went off on him.  :)

I went on a bit of a run yesterday.  I didn't map it out, but I have a feeling it was like 2.4 miles.. maybe less in 21 minutes.  My lungs burned like I was out of shape.  :)    My leg hurts a bit today too, so that probably means no 5K on Thanksgiving.  That also tells me something else, but I don't think I will say that. 

A lot of you trust me.  Some of you don't.  You'll have to.  Hiding is not security.  Hiding is fear.  Hiding is not strength.  Taking a step is scary, but it is brave.  Some of you who hide hold others back.  This all works together, not apart.  Remember my blog is the wait.  You know my steps I have gone through from childhood on.  Last February my blog switched from the Journey to the Wait.  I am not waiting for me.  ya see.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)


p.s. Gina dropped her phone in the toilet.... BOOOOO!!!   no texting???   :(

Now for really really cya cya cya!!!   :)