So, I Turned On The TV

Good morning. How's it going?  I am okay. We got our couch and bed yesterday. Our window was between 2 and 5:00. They got here around 5:00.  :)

While waiting I didn't do anything. It seems there was some Supreme Court stuff going on, so I turned on the tv. I could only stomach it for about a half hour, and turned it off.

I didn't see the girl speak,  and I did see the guy speak for a bit. So as of right now I don't know the guy or girl. Not one bit.

I do know guys. Guys of HS age with alcohol in their system is not the best match in the World. Guys my age with alcohol in their system isn't a great match. You probably don't really want to know  the truth about guys. We can dress up, and play nice,  but I'd say that thing between our legs sure has a mind of its own.

You put my life up for screening in front of the tv, and you'll see a lot of B.S.  I didn't rape anyone, and I didn't do anything illegal, but I am guilty of letting that thing between my legs guide me. It's just me too.  I am kinda normal'ish. I know no guys are Saints. If our whole life was viewed by others it really would be a trip. What porn did we watch? Who did we  fantasize over, and how many times?  99% of the shit we fantasized about is hidden from all sight except our own kinda. Not really though either, cuz all is known about our deeds and thoughts.

It might not make it to the tv, but it is known. Just not by people.  I will not throw my hat in the ring for anyone,  cuz I don't know them. Guys I kinda know, and we are disgusting. Unable to control ourselves either. We can keep ourselves respectable, but if people knew the shit we think about, and how often they'd be surprised.  HS boys forget about it.  A goddamn walking boner is what they are.  Add alcohol to the mix=yikes.

So no one is a Saint. You cannot even play one on tv. What's it mean?  I got my day to day. I am not a Saint. I've posted here, and previous blogs things I did I was ashamed of. The person I really wanted to be is out of reach. Still to this day,  but it won't be this way forever.  Honestly too I have no clue how the final version of me will be. I don't know that person very well/at all. I know me, and this guy ain't no Saint.  I know what side of the line I am on in that regard.  I know what side you are on too.

In that regard I guess I know you better than you do.

I'll have another day, cuz it is my reward for my labor to date. 

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.   :)

The newsy people still have no affect over my life.