Saturday, July 30, 2016

A Different Friday.

Yesterday was a different type of Friday. Fridays for as long as I remember were drinks, eat, sleep.  This week I decided to take drinks out of the equation, and see what life looks like that way. What does one do on a Friday?? 

I went and saw the 4:00 showing of the Star Trek movie, and rented some more movies. We also had some coupons for Arby's, so we did that for dinner. Tonight we are going to a baseball game. The bakery got some tickets somehow so we figured we'd go. It is a Minor League Detroit team that plays in Grand Rapids. I think AA, but not sure.

That was the day pretty much. Also I slept like a rock.

So there. Life goes on, and tally another day on my board.

What else??  Not much at all. We got some rain. Today is another day. I will work some in a bit, and we'll see.

Now is the time I dig to see if there is anything else,  and there isn't much. This is the time I usually delete my entry, cuz it's dumb.  :)

Life is kinda cool being free though. I know society says you are supposed to act a certain way, and be a certain way, and whatever.

Society is full of shit. Paints false pictures in our heads since we are young. Life is "supposed" to be a certain way, and what I found out it isn't whatever we grew up believing. The pictures in our mind are flawed.

There is something more to life, but it is out of your grasp. It isn't in your power at all to be the best person you can be. As you want to think you are all powerful you aren't. There are no deeds that put you on a pedestal higher than anyone else. That will be hard for you to accept.

Actually the truth is hard for you to look at, and hard to accept. The truth states you are just a small little thing in this big World  no matter what "great" things you think you are accomplishing. You don't have a perfect family,  and either does anyone else. You aren't content, and that is not in your power.

Many try to remain busy, so they can show their greatness by out busying others. In a a world of you vs. everyone else,  it really is you vs. you. It is the story of David vs. Goliath told all over again. How can David beat Goliath?   You'll need help cuz the part of you that is of this World is way more powerful than the important part of you.

Destined for failure without the proper steps. The World has been propping you up, and those who win will have to be humbled.

The path to your best life is way different than you think, cuz you have no idea what it looks like. You seek for it in the ways of the World. It isn't. The way is inside yourself. That imperfect person who was once just a kid.

Anyhoooo, as we've been doing this a long time, we still haven't made one step.  :)  when it comes to the race of life you guys are the worst.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. wanna know one of the reasons I drank alcohol most days??  Cuz I could with never getting a headache or hangover. One would be silly not to huh??  Now I am trying other stuff, cuz it loses some of the fun.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

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Thursday, July 28, 2016

Lido Missed The Boat That Day.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had another day yesterday. It was pretty uneventful. I worked,  and got a few more movies from the library. I made dinner, and that was about it.

I did make chicken enchiladas, which I've been meaning to make.  They came out good. So I have another Mexican meal to make.

So this week I started trying something new. One week does nothing make,  so I have no insights to any major changes. I'll know more next week,  but life really "should" be about majing changes at all times without worry. People are tied to jobs though. Health Insurance makes people immobile is my guess.

In this Country there is an election going on. You will hear the word freedom much is my guess, and people aren't free at all.

Few can go "into the wild" if they want. Few can say "Fuck this, I am doing something different."  You have one life, and the World dictates much of yours.

People want the best things in life,  but no one really knows what that is. Millionaire stars are always getting divorced and shit, so money and fame can't be all that. Sports stars are always doing stupid shit, so that isn't the yellow brick road.

The most important thing of life is how you feel on the inside. You can usually tell exactly how a person feels on their inside just by watching and stuff.

Everyone lacks the perfect life. Partly cuz we don't even really know what that is. We want to have fun, and we want to feel good,  but we really also want to matter. Few people will accomplish more than Napolean, and he is dead so what does any of that matter? 

Solomon foresaw all this in Ecclesiastes. None will ever do more or be more wealthy proportionally than him, and he saw everything was folly. Better off are all those never born is what he said.

He was able to see the labor later on a few would be asked to do. A grievous task he saw, and it is. Not sure if he knew a content heart was available even during the wait time. The end of his days was bitter, cuz he saw it all doesn't matter.

All the activities mean nothing.  There is a hidden way that means more.  There are hidden tribulations that need to be done. Right now you are asked to be the thief. Look at your life, this World,  your death, and see how it all stacks up.

I am far along in this path of life. I have freedoms you don't comprehend,  cuz nothing in this World is about personal freedom. Inside all people lack something.

You are here for how ever many decades,  and then you are gone. You want to matter, but the truth says you don't in the grand scheme. In a numbers game you cannot fathom 1 trillion. There have been that many who walked the Earth like you. Nameless faces, as we all are in the long run.

No matter what you do all your activities still end in you dying.

So where does happiness and freedom come from?? 

If only one could teach us the way.

Anyway, That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. Remember in your younger years how life was supposed to be this great thing??  It didn't really go wrong. Life just isn't ever right.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya       :D       :D

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Aloha.  :)

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Wednesday, July 27, 2016

While Time Was Moving, Another Day Past.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I had another day yesterday. It was slightly different in I rode to the library after work,  and rented 2 movies. I watched them, cooked dinner. The 2nd one i watched during and after dinner.

I went to bed later than normal. I probably got around 6 hours of sleep trying to catch up from like 3 hours on Monday.

So that was the day. Today I might get a couple more movies from the library.

A day in the life. So anyway. The truth of life is kinda trippy.  At least from where I stand.

Picture yourself a young man with the  World at his feet. Alone, and able to do whatever he wanted for the rest of my life. I wanted to be important. To make a difference. What does one do? 

With a good set of eyes I was able to look at the World. I saw death in my life, imperfection in me,  and imperfection in the World. Is there any good avenue?? 

So I found the only Avenue that means anything. It is an avenue of humility,  because our life should seem pretty important to us.

What I've been taught is our lives are not as significant as how you see it now. A lot of people have done it. Who knows what all wanted to accomplish?? 

I get so far along in my path where all the worries are basically taken away. This thing is kinda fluid as life does go on, and I have learned things while the wait has gone on.

Anyway people's lives have been going on. Some people try and make a name for themselves in whatever way. Try to do significant things. In our grave our activities are over.

Napoleon is dead. Who gives a fuck??  Stalin, Hitler, Churchill are dead. Roosevelt, Truman. You name it.

So I come and tell you hey there is this way to a different you. There is a better set of eyes available, to show you this World is not really worth anything.

Information is everywhere in every Country. You cannot take the hate out of people. The information is us vs. them everywhere cuz it can give purpose.

Life is supposed to be happily ever after, but that group over there Fucked everything up.  Let's kill them.  Their lives are beyond salvaging. If we kill them we finally will have peace.

Every person was once a scared kid.  Every person was taken by their society and filled with info. People formed groups. There is security in numbers.  Like minded individuals make us all seem right.

Life is about you and the end of your life. There are no points for belonging to a group. It is just you, and how you stack up.

There are no heroes cuz we all fall short. Life, death, and this living being who will not be living someday. The World is busy, and keeps us thinking about everything BUT.

From where I stand things are kinda silly in a way. We were born destined to think our lives were significant. We were born to believe, and cling to a lie.

The truth goes against the current, cuz few believe, and are able to accept it.

So anyway, I guess today will be another day.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. ermmmm.  I got nothing.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.   :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.    :D

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Tuesday, July 26, 2016

No Clue.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing fine. I didn't sleep enough, but whatever. We stayed up and watched a movie, and I read a bit last night.

Anyway I drank a little too much wine on Sunday. Part of my whatever though is as usual I wake up feeling fine, and no headache. Lisa was mad though.

I didn't think much about it, but I kinda figured why not just not drink anymore??  I thought why not??  That would leave me with no vices at all I know of.

So I am getting my Game of Thrones books all lined up. The first one is almost done,  and I have 2,4, and 5. I just need 3.

I don't know what my life will look like from here on out. Yesterday we bit the bullet, and invested  $2800 on me. Some will be financed,  but at 0%  not a car, but getting my teeth fixed. That will be done on my first day of vacation. Around one month from now.

I am glad I kept my 3 jobs, cuz if I am not drinking anymore I might as well work.

I like the idea of not drinking anymore, just cuz. It'll be a new way to live,  and that is one thing I can do. Find different things to do.

So that is just silly life BS. Living out my days, and really not many cares in the World at all. No false expectations of what life is "supposed" to be like. Just working, eating, sleeping, and that's about it.  I may read more now, and watch more movies. May do more around the house too. I have a distinct feeling I will probably only need 4-5 hours of sleep if I have no cocktails before sleeping.  :)  I guess I can stay up later now too.

I think when I first started blogging there was always a gray cloud over my head. Couple that with not being completely secure,  and you have quite a mix. Obviously everything changed after the journey. I overcame the 2nd time, and I was on good footing.

Anyway I was always kinda waiting for my final thing. As I approach 50 years old I am in no hurry anymore. I am cool with life, and it doesn't have to be sooner rather than later. Whenever.

A content heart is a pretty good thing. A whole new World has opened up for me, and I guess we'll see.

As to people I know they still have a lot of stuff to deal with. It is pretty dark in most people. I gather most think they are right in some way, but you haven't even experienced any part of the hidden side of life.

I fought my battles. More like endured them as they took place. A life of learning.  A life where I surely didn't pull the strings, and I did not author.

In the end I owe the World nothing. In the end I owe no one anything. Free to be me I guess, and as it turns out by the time I am 50 that will be a pretty fucking boring person. I won't be bored though,  cuz a content heart is just basically pretty happy.  :)

Anyhooodles,  That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I got time to take the Hopester.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.    :D

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Aloha.  :)

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Sunday, July 24, 2016

Coffee, and A Blog.

Seems like old times huh??  I am on my not drinking coffee again. Not for any reason,  but I don't feel like it. Today I think I'll have one. First one this week I think. Well, I didn't have any last week.

Yesterday was another day. I worked some, and not much else. I made dinner, and had a bit of wine. Probably less than I might normally have.

Anyway out here in the wilderness there isn't much of any value. All our deeds can go unnoticed, cuz they don't really mean anything. I've been through the wilderness before. Not a fun place. We definitely see our true worth here. We see what life is really like.

Life is time. Lots of it. Life is dressed up. A lot of anger in the World. Probably like that every year there is a Presidential election. I will not vote in this election,  cuz it doesn't interest me. I just don't care about it.

A lot of stuff comes from both sides. You would think people got better stuff to do, but then again. What else should one spend their time? 

Anyways my days are mostly the same. A little work, some sleeping,  and some eating. You don't really get any points for any of these activities, but it is what one does to live.

Points come from hard things. Things not seen. We are nowhere near there yet. You are still a product of this World. Not your fault.  All people born here are a product of this World. As you look back at your life you can see a lot of imperfection. The natural tendency is to throw that under a rug, and forget about it.

That shit is still important. Life has to be dealt with, and all of us have some BS in our lives. I know the way to bridge the gap from where I stand to where you stand. You do have to come my way.

I cannot take your steps for you though. That is your battle. You vs. You. You the GREAT vs. You that person who was once a kid. One of you is looking for accolades,  and standing ovations, and things like that. The other will find forgiveness, and the truth.

One way there definitely is humility before honor. That is the hard way though. Few in the History of the World find this hidden route. I found it in my earlier years. It was locked inside me for a long time, cuz it had to come out at the proper time.

Not my story, and not my doing.

Just so you know though. Inside this World there is no meaning, and no value. It is just life. People have been doing it for billions of years. Not any better than you either.

In a World where you want heroes you can be assured there aren't any.

So it is just you this World and life. No points in this World either. No points in groups either. Even the ones who reach the pinnacle of whatever they spend their time on.

The truth is tough. It shows how powerless you are,  when we all want to feel empowered. That comes later. Humility before honor.

Anyways that is it and all that.  :)

Have a good one.  xoxoxoxoxo

Byeeee.   :)

Saturday, July 23, 2016

A Week Done.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??   Me, I am doing good. I slept in today, and I took Hope for a walk. I don't remember the last time I blogged. Not sure if I did all week. I slept late a lot this week it seems.

Not much happened this week. I worked, ate, and slept.

It's been a while since I've done a list. How about a list of the important things I've done this week :

1. 

There. Probably the easiest list I've ever made. I know your list is the same as mine, but one thing I am not sure of. Do you know your list is the same as mine??  That is the question.

I saw a,Quote from Mark Twain yesterday while watching a movie.

"It isn't what you don't know that gets you in trouble,  it is what you know for sure is so, but it ain't.

That is people in general. Something in this World is right. There has to be good somewhere, and something must matter.

Life generally is like 75-80 years give or take. What activities will you take to the grave?  What is in your ledger of good deeds that matter??  What collectibles will you take with you. Furniture??  Will you remember all the TV shows you watched?? 

The funny thing of life is people are generally right. We are smart, and we know shit, so we can figure it out. It took a lot for me to learn I was on the wrong side of Mark Twain's quote. We all start out that way, but few get past it.

I was lucky I did. Unlucky I guess though cuz I lived to tell about it.

Oh the cruelty.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  today is another day.  Yay.   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.  :)

Monday, July 18, 2016

Another Day Done. Closer To The Finish Line Of Life. :)

Haha. That's one way to look at it I guess. Anyway how's it going??  Me, I am okay. I got a good night sleep. I know this cuz I am up before my early alarm. That means I went to bed early, and Lisa is probably mad at me for going to bed so early.

Our plans got cancelled yesterday cuz of wind. Surfers like surfing when there is heavy wind. Lisa went out to see someone's baby, and I just chilled.

That is all fine with me. I like hanging out with myself. I get a few hours each day to do whatever I want, and usually that isn't much.

As to my blog you never know what direction it will go in. I thought about last week, and the wilderness is alive and active in my heart. I see it come out at times. I never really know how this thing will go. That summer way long ago I lived in the wilderness every second of every day. Add in continuous harsh judgement,  and me fully aware as I stand now I am condemned. All I wanted was not to be that. I was different though.

Funny how for a short while I thought I was the best a person can be, and then knowing I am nothing special.

I just wanted to be secure. I knew the consequences of where I stood.

So I seeked, and I would have given everything away for security. Sacrifice everything you know.

It wasn't mine to take. There was nothing I could do to get me what I wanted. Up to the judges, and all I seeked for I gave away. I could save myself, but at the expense of others. I said "God's will"  I knew what that meant. He'd save the others,  but I am condemned. Also added was this the final night of my life. The end would not be without pain.

I woke up the next morning shocked at being still alive.

The road did not get much easier. Physical depression for like maybe a year.

In the end there is nothing special about me. My path was for me to learn the true value of me. It isn't much. I am one coin as all of us are. I did switch my one coin to 5+5. Now I am doing whatever is after that.

A long and hidden story.  A part of life that remains hidden to all who walk the Earth. I just happened to be singled out/stumbled onto the truth.

How we bridge the gap from how I am, and what I know to how you are currently, I have no idea.

It's life though so we will see. Today will be another day done, and another day closer to the finish.  :)    yay.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s. I am ready to take Hope already,  and my early alarm hasn't gone off. Lisa is going to kill me.  I must have went to bed really early.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

xxoo.   :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.    :D         :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz. :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.  :)

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Yesterday Was Better.

So anyway I woke up way early yesterday, but I never did get tired like last week. So I actually got some stuff done. Weeded my little garden. Way overdue. Folded all my laundry too. That is always a hit or miss if I do that. I should organize my clothes better. That shit gets jumbled over time.

I made a roast with fresh zucchini. Had some ice cream and went to bed.

There is a lot of ugly in the World. People killing people all the time. Everyone is mad about something. Information is everywhere. News outlets, conspiracy theories,  most things are bent to make people mad. Anger is good at bringing about hate. I imagine most anger comes from people feeling life cheated them somehow.

You were never promised anything in life. None of you are better than Anne Frank is my guess. If you read her she wasn't angry. She kinda just wondered why.

It was the people in power that cause war,  and stuff. Wars get started cuz people feel cheated. Some kill in the name of religion til this day. Hate is alive and active in this World. In my opinion if you are a news junky than you are probably an angry person. I don't think anything good comes from watching a person wearing a suit or uniform talking.

The religious give you a false message, and the news people are tilted toward anger. One can learn from Anne Frank. Her life was in her head. She thought about a lot of stuff. She wasn't necessarily a creature created by society. Her society hated her cuz she was a Jew.

Anyway. Hate is alive and thriving.  Anger is everywhere. Ya kinda wonder where did it all go wrong??  The history of the World is it never was right. It all went wrong cuz it's always been wrong.

Anger comes from a person who just isn't happy. People aren't happy for any number of reasons. To find the reason for their anger they seek a scapegoat. Maybe all people are angry,  and an angry person can watch the news from any side and find their scapegoat. A better thing to seek is oneself. Why is anger here? 

You'll eventually find the anger melt away, cuz you will finally deal with your life. It is your undealt with hurt that causes anger.

No matter what you gotta deal with life. No one is a Saint.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. today is work, and the gonna hang with Brian and Lisa's friend Greg. I ran into him at the grocery store.  Have a few beers and cook a few burgers.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.   :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.  :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.   :)

Saturday, July 16, 2016

My Day To Sleep In And I Am Up An Hour Earlier Than Normal.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing pretty good. I was hoping to sleep in today, but no such luck. Oh well.

Yesterday was a pretty okay day. I had a ton of energy. I was hoping when I got home I'd get some stuff done. I sat down for a bit, and almost could fall asleep. So I did less than I wanted. Afterwards I hung out back with Hope. After that I made steak fajitas for dinner.

That was my day. Other than that not much going on. I probably had a couple crazy entries the last few days, and it is sorta funny. How can I explain anything??  Pretty impossible huh???  Yep yep yep. It sure is.

Nothing much I can do. If this thing is kinda a mirror though than you should be able to see your inside. My inside is open. It can be seen. You on the other hand it will take a bit. If this blog is kinda swordy than it should be able to penetrate. 

Eventually we will get to your story or this really is a waste of time.  :)  That would be funny.

It is a hard thing having the truth of life just put on your plate all of a sudden.  It is something I've lived with quite a while. When it came time for me to tell my story
it fell on deaf ears. Fitting. I guess it helps me know how the World has always been. Also, I have no idea how it would be if the roles were reversed. I never had anyone when it was my time to search.

I was alone though, and I was only after a good version of me. Boy oh boy did that take me down a crazy path.

The mirror is really for one thing and one thing only.  You. It isn't about how your great ideas are gonna miraculously change the World. It isn't on how dumb everyone else is. It is just you. How do you stack up against how you think you really should stack up. I know the answer to that. Are you afraid to look??? 

Better than Hitler doesn't mean shit. Your life is you. How do you measure up?? 

I know the answer to that cuz everyone falls short. So why judge others? 

Hint:  you cannot help it. As you are now you will always judge others being worse than you.

The truth is a bitch, cuz the  world has been telling you how fabulous you are. It has given you lessons in politeness and etiquette. It never told you that maybe you are a bit messed up.

It never told you there is a way to a better you. It never told you very little is in your power. It told you you can do anything.

It never told you all your anythings don't mean anything.

The truth is for the strong. The weak will cling to the World,  cuz???   Because the truth is fucking scary.

The truth states as you are now you are Fucked. More than you know. There is a way though. A better path. Truth of the matter is life is too busy.  Too many bells and whistles.  There are parades to be had, and holidays. Weekends and vacations. Bills to pay and any number of things. In your effort to reach the pinnacle of life you never asked the one tough question. What of any of that shit matters??

The truth is a crazy thing. Hard to tell people about it too. Not really sure why.  I found out the truth a long time ago. It was kinda just shoved in my face.

For me to have to do this is way more impossible than I thought.

Oh well.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  not sure what to do for dinner tonight. I think I'll look in the cook book. Make a good new meal. That should be fun.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these xoxoxoxoxoxo

Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.  :)))

xxoo.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya.   :D.    :D

Laterzzzzzz Gaterzzzzzzz.  :)

Aloha.   :)

Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx Oooooooooo.  :)

Friday, July 15, 2016

I've Never Seen A Porcupine... to my knowledge.

I don't even know where they live. Pretty crazy.

Anyway, how's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I did some stuff at home yesterday. A guy from work gave me some free little bottles of wine. You know those ones that fill up a half of glass??  Anyway I had 6 of those little bottles, and it zonked me out. Pretty crazy. Didn't expect that. Maybe I was just tired.

I did think of my update yesterday. It spoke to me. I remember that rich guy parable. He was asked to give everything away, and follow me right??

That is what I was asked to do too. I give everything away with my blog, and in the end I too am following.

If I was secure and rich in spirit, before finding out my path there is a good chance I do not follow. Even outside the garbage room what would I have done?   I already had a pretty good opportunity to be disobedient. It wouldn't have been hard for me to get angry.

It is not an easy thing I do. I had to always have my heart be willing to do the right thing. I had to be led in the ways to go, cuz on my own = impossible.

So that was that.  Other than that not much going on. Living out my days. Work, eat, sleep.

I assume most others do the same. Living out your days. That is what everyone does. How is life for you??  Everything you expected? 

Do you think it is fun or boring??  If you could do what you want what would it be??  Would you try to go into the wild to see what that is like?? 

I have no idea how people think. Personally I am getting everything out of life I want. My heart is typically pretty okay. The only things I guess I want is my days. A little labor. A little hanging out. A dinner, and sleep.

I don't really have anything in life to accomplish. It doesn't matter.

Eventually I guess we get to your stories. My guess those aren't even open to you now. Life is zipping on by, and all the important hidden stuff remains hidden. 

Whatever though. Today is another day for me. I will work. Hang out, eat something,  and sleep.

That is my reward for my labors by the way. Eat drink and be merry. That is all. What else do you need?? 

People probably think they need much more, but hearts strive for wind. They never catch the wind, and are never content.

Anyhooodles

That is it for today!!!    :)

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p.s.  Remember how I told you I thought being full was security??  I was tested, and I was led in the right direction. Now I am very close to empty, yet fully secure.  :)

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Thursday, July 14, 2016

A Westerly Wind Does Not Always Come With A Warning Label.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. I thought of some things yesterday. The difference between you and I is staggering. How I am you cannot even remotely understand, cuz this World is not open to you. When I was like you I didn't know, how I am now, was a thing. So yeah I had no one to show me the ropes.

I can give you some of the sword. How it sounds to a human, but really the Spiritual nature of it.

The rich man parable. How that sounds to a human is one thing, but it really is another. Kinda like he who lives by the sword.

A rich person is one who is full. A poor person is one who is poor in spirit. A rich person will completely lack the fear needed to stay on the path when it gets hard. Blessed are the poor in Spirit.

I know during the hard times fear was my friend. I didn't have much, but I did have fear. That was a pretty good crutch, cuz of the great promise of it will go well for those who fear. Fear as a human is probably not a thing either. The World has to be opened up for you to have fear. From what I remember anyway.

Anyway that is that. Kinda a tough thing huh??  You have no correct teachers. People always argue sides, and their side is wrong. History doesn't teach. Society doesn't teach,  and religion doesn't teach.

We enter this planet lost.  There is no real way to be found either. We are at the mercy of much, yet typically we believe in our intellect and stuff. We are smart. We can figure it out.

One thing that is impossible for you is to open your eyes so you can see the sword as it is. One thing impossible for me is to get understanding. Without understanding the sword is of little use.

So, I have a pretty crazy story. It is a story you cannot even remotely understand really. How I am you currently cannot be. Really I guess for a LONG time I have been trying to bridge the gap, but that struggle is quite a bit more than I thought.

Life goes on though. I know the truth of life,  and it really makes much silly. The things people cling to in the end don't matter much, but who can let go of life??  Who can trust that much??  In my story I had no idea what I was doing. I just didn't see much in life, and what I wanted most was a purpose.

I do live out my days with a purpose. A purpose that hasn't been terribly successful thus far, but victory was never up to me.

Standing where I am now I see I am just a vessel. Other than that I am little use.

The work I do is not from me. I had to learn a lot of life,  and I guess it ain't a horrible thing to stand where I stand. There always is the final chapter of the current version of me, and the beginning of the new me.

At that point the World will hate me, cuz it will know I am it's enemy. Currently I am not that person yet.

I am afraid at that point the World will be on a crash course.

Anyhoo

That is it for today!!!    :)

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p.s.  I think today should be a pretty good day.

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Wednesday, July 13, 2016

The Start Of Another Day.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I slept good last night. It is always good when I am done sleeping when the early alarm goes off.

Today I have absolutely nothing on my mind, but that doesn't always stop me. Yesterday was hot,  and the last few days we have done a lot, so I didn't do shit when I got home.

Another day done, and the start of another. I was thinking a bit when I woke up as to how empty I am. There is pretty much nothing inside me. Everything about me can be seen, and it just so happens there is really not much to me at all. In my early years after going through the eye of the needle it scared me. I was vulnerable, cuz I had no security. I thought I needed to be full to be secure. I don't. I am so different now than before.

That being said I still have to go up against the judges. I don't know how exactly that will go, but it is not fun. This part of the World is not open to you right now so you have no idea. It is not a fun thing. I have to go through the worst thing imaginable. I know my path. I know what I will do, but I don't know yours. I don't know your place in all this.

I also thought about my emptyness, and what is inside you. It is hard/impossible to see what is inside you. The spiritual eye is at the top of your head. My eye is clear so I can be seen. Your eye has the so called spiritual log blocking it, so you cannot see. The only way to remove the log is to go through the eye of the needle. Obviously that is not within your capability to do.

As with the case with me it didn't guarantee anything. I still had to be obedient. Sometimes that was actually to my shame too.

My heart was always strong enough for my path, but I surely was not without fear. Fear was my friend for a long time.

I've been in the wait mode for a long time though. I can see clearly back to my life, and honestly it ain't no thing anymore. I did it, and it is done. Yeah I still got one more thing to do, and you have your story.

Whatever it is I don't know, but it is more than you see now, cuz you need help. You need courage for your heart, and you need better vision than what you have now.

In the end if your life doesn't really matter that much, is it a big deal??  If the truth of our existence ain't this great and grand thing is that really a big deal?? 

It really isn't. People get tied up in numbers, but they never look at the numbers. How many people have lived on the Earth??  How many/what percentage did you know?? 

You heard of George Washington, but who cares about him. He is dead.  To be known ain't no thing either,  cuz you'll still end up as dead as the others.

Life is a thing to ponder,  and society, and family, and many other things always get in your way. Remember those 12 dropped everything.

That is,a thing to ponder too, cuz you would not be able to in a billion years.

Anyway,

That is it for today!!!   :)

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Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

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p.s. think I'll rest up for 45 minutes or so.

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Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Taking A Look Back

Do you ever just kinda look back at your days, and realize life is filled with a lot of days. Day after day after day.

My life on the whole is pretty uninteresting. Actually life on the whole probably is. I am more than happy with my little routine. Work, eat, sleep. Who knew?? 

That is what life boils down to. There are no points for working, eating, and sleeping. That I know of anyway. It is just what one does to fill the time.

I guess in our younger years maybe we had big plans to do something major. Turns out there is nothing major to do under the sun. You are just living life as an imperfect creature.

Many have different personalities, but none are perfect.

A lot of tough questions in life. Is perfect a thing??  Are there really no points for all the activities done under the sun?? 

If our hearts are hard, and we,are arrogant, how can that change?? 

Life is a thing we do. Eating has always been a part of life. Sleeping has too. Millions of years ago maybe hunting was the work people did. Not sure why killing ever came around.

You place borders on the Earth, now all of a sudden you have something to kill to protect. Not sure who made the borders. Not really sure when people started being brainwashed it is an honorable thing to die that way.

I know one came Centuries ago. He brought the sword of truth with him. He had to overcome, so others could follow in his footsteps. As to coins/life he said give Caesar the human made coins, but the other coin is for elsewhere.

Somewhere the story got all messed up. Killing, country, and religion became all the things this man taught against. Even til this day men wear robes, and the coins they collect are human made coins. The truth got lost.

In my life I found this so called truth. It took some life, some soul searching, and maybe I was picked out to be shown the truth of me.

I wanted to be good, but I wasn't.  I didn't see much out in the World so I thought I'll just be the best at doing floors at the hospital. I'll just be a good worker.

It was with humility I told people going back for weddings and stuff that right now I am just trying to be really good at doing floors. Now that I look back though what does one do with an undergrad degree in most cases??  Cubicle??  Cold calls??  Retail?? 

Anyway, that didn't last long. A lot was going on with me at the time. In my effort to be the best a person can be it seems I kept falling short. Then I thought I was, and it was all taken away.

I had to learn the real truth. It is a pretty exclusive club. Who knew the whole World was wrong?? 

The story got lost as the people became lost. The History the past several Centuries are cruel,  but the writers made heroes where there were none.

So I guess in the end my quest was to become the best a person can be. I had to learn the way though.

You'll see most stories start with a promise, and a wait. I didn't really have a promise, but I was given a picture of my story. Hit the serpent on the head 3 times, and then it is done.

It would have been a lot simpler to just be the thief huh??  That was my brother's end.

Anyhoo, I am just thinking out loud.

That is it for today!!!    :)

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p.s. today I plan on having another day.

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Sunday, July 10, 2016

Life Keeps Moving.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I feel like I slept good, but like maybe I could sleep more. Maybe cuz I have to go to work in a bit. Yesterday was my sleep in day, and I didn't sleep in. I woke up wide awake, but was tired right before I had to go to work. That was like 6 hours after I woke up.

So anyway yesterday was a day. We got some stuff done. I watched sorta via the Internet the SOX win, and cooked a meal.

I didn't do anything terribly important as is how days mostly go. The important things I have done in life are hidden. As I've said before you cannot walk in my shoes. The World that was and is opened to me is closed to you. You can't see it, and you can't feel it. The only World open to you is the one you were born in. The imperfect kid you were born as is now an imperfect adult.

I too am imperfect,  but I am not afraid of the light. You hide your imperfect thoughts,  cuz they are "wrong"  all my thoughts are known, and all seen. Who I am is known, and I am not ashamed. I know my place in this World,  and I know the value of life.

I don't seek out impossible goals like changing the World,  or making people stop hating. I do try to do the impossible. Lead people to a better version of them self. It is what I am after.

People have their lives though. It is important to them. We were all born in this crazy place.  Destined to be lost. We followed the path of family and society cuz that is what we were "supposed" to do.

None of us ever dreamed this World is a mess.  A trap. We were trapped when we were born here, and I stumbled on the truth. I found my way, and lost it. Now that I think about it I know how I lost it. I thought when I was full the sword was the way to victory.

The sword became my enemy. It did nothing for me, and I could not use it. The sword which was my friend became my enemy. I haven't picked it up since.

These are impossible things for you to know and understand. You are still always who you were. That imperfect kid you once were did not grow up perfect.

Everything about you is still lacking stuff.  I have a courageous heart, that is not my own.  I overcame the judges twice,  which puts me in a pretty good spot.

I know where all humans stand, and they don't. I know the World is not very good. Nothing about it is worth saving really.  Either are we really. I know me, and it never really was that great a person. I looked at all things objectively,  and my heart was "able" to accept harsh truths.

We have a long way to go, and much to do. We still haven't even started. Crazy huh???   After all these years.

One of the building blocks is patience. Steadfastness, endurance, diligence,  I never ever really always remember the 5th. Perseverance. I remembered.

I was asked to walk one night. I walked around the track.  Those words were given to me, and it was healing to every bone and joint in my body.  It was that Summer though. The worst of the worst was inside me, and he used the sword. So it lasted a short while.  I tried to keep walking, and walking. I fell asleep outside,  and walked home to my shame. The building blocks were what I was out to get, and I was done.  I didn't know I was done.

Anyway I had to overcome that Summer. So crazy how dumb I was back then.

I had no teacher to look to though. My path was just a difficult one, cuz... just cuz.

I had no idea what I was getting into. I learned much though, and I guess the wait has done pretty good as far as those building blocks go. I guess I have too, but my heart was changed for the better a long time ago.  Just waiting to do that final thing on my list that makes me the best a person can be.

Now that is a long entry.

Sorry.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

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p.s. guess it is time to get ready for work.

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Saturday, July 9, 2016

That Was Different.

So I guess there is a lot of killing going on. People seem surprised. Killing is the way of the World. That will not change.  Those who will fill your timelines with rhetoric about whatever are not changing the World. They labor in vain.

In more important news, yesterday at work they were filming a new reality show. I think it was day 8. They planned this a few months ago. I didn't really think anything of it. The day came, and crews were setting up lighting, and there is a lot of crew involved in these things. They were there for like 7 hours or something, and they probably aired 10 minutes of what they filmed there.

I might not even mention anything cuz it all seemed dumb. When the players were actually at the bar with cameras all in their faces, I guess that was pretty cool.

Then a funny thing happened. I kinda looked to see what was happening, and I saw a pretty cute girl in orange shorts. I was like DAMN!!  The guys told me she was nothing.  "Did you see the girl in the blue pants?"  I said, "no"  I was showed camera footage from some of the guys.  :)

Anyway the contestants started figuring out the clue. I ran to try and get a last look at the girl in the orange shorts as she left.  :)

The girl in the blue pants and her partner were the only ones left. It took them like 2 hours to figure out the clue. In the History of the World there has never been a pair of yoga pants that flattered a girls backside than those blue ones yesterday.  Guys had their cameras out. It was so funny.  You really couldn't keep your eyes off her. It was so funny and ridiculous. Think of a group of 8th grade boys looking inside a women's locker room.  That was us grown men yesterday.

So Oooooooooo funny.

That pretty much made my day.  :)

Hahaha. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I have no idea if that show will take off. It's called "the runner" and it airs on the go 90 verizon app.

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Friday, July 8, 2016

Another Day Down.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going?? Me, I am doing fine. I got a good night sleep, but yet again fell asleep past my early alarm. I had one of those wake ups at 1:00 AM where I thought wow I have 2 more hours, but I felt like I could get up. I fell asleep again pretty hard though.

So yesterday was a day with little to it. I did a few things after work,  and then had a couple cocktails. Just enough to get a pretty good buzz. Eat dinner, and crash. Pretty much that is a normal/perfect? Day for me.

Life is kinda a trip. Especially when you get to the bottom of the truth. We spent our whole life thinking our life is important. We seek out fun. At some point most realize we have to work, and put effort in stuff. Death will eventually find us.

The longer you live the more you see death. You start to see people die indiscriminately. No rhyme,  no reason.  As time goes on their lives mean less and less.

It is a cruel World. Just by living here you'll go through some stuff. Just by living here you will give false value to things. A human is not really inclined to deal and accept the truth.  Many will get so tied up in the World the truth will get farther and farther away.

It is an impossible job I have to do. I don't really do anything, but this.

Kinda a trip though.

Okay, I am going to rest up for an hour.

Laterzzzzzz

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Back To Normal.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good. My days are back to normal. Work, eat, sleep. I just realized when I take a day off the work part is missing.  Makes sense.

Anyway yesterday I had a pretty normal day. I worked a little longer than normal, but no biggie. I biked home, and I felt okay. I plopped on the couch, and felt like I got hit by a mack truck. So I rested for about 20 minutes, and hung out with Hope. I really was nap tired.

Today I start with a cup of coffee, and a blog. I thought of some things yesterday. One thing I thought of is we are in the wilderness. That is where I spent my bad summer. In the wilderness there is nothing good about life. You can see all the fake Bullshit people do in their lives.  Life is filled up with things that don't matter, and in the wilderness you see none of the shit matters. It's all fake Bullshit.

I think the wilderness is a horrible place to spend your time, but still it is better than living a life of lies.

Your politics don't matter. Going on vacation with kids don't matter. Spending your whole life being angry at the "other" side is dumb. Our lives are really dumb, and I guess the wilderness helps you see that.

All your goals you have no one cares about. You are in the wilderness. Nothing matters, but finding your way out to a better place. Going back to the fake World is not a better place.

There are no heroes in the wilderness, cuz you can finally see people are not all that. No one gives a FUCK about halls of fames in the wilderness. Chances are you won't be going to any anyway.

Your life is worth one coin in the wilderness, cuz the World is seen as one big lie now.

The wilderness helps your eyesight to life,  and this World. It is a horrible place to be in, but necessary.

The truth ain't no joke. It's a bitch at the best of times. In the wilderness we find out we are only humans. That ain't that great a thing.

So expect a bumpy ride. Everyone is off their pedestal in the wilderness. I guess with help I will lead you out of the wilderness,  but I have no clue what I am doing. This isn't my story,  so really it is someone else leading the way.

I can't see past today.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

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p.s. I kinda like this entry.

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Tuesday, July 5, 2016

I Don't Know How To Day Off.

So, I had two days off, and that seems weird. I stayed up later than normal. I drank beer. I rarely drink beer. I didn't really feel fresh when I woke up. I didn't really get a lot done with the house. I wanted to read my book, and I didn't. I didn't even watch any movies on Netflix.

We did see the a Tarzan movie yesterday, and it was good.  One of the community service guys from Lisa's work fixed our table saw, so we can do the counter top. That is lisa's project. We have the plywood ready, and we will need two cuts.

Yesterday was a Holiday, and it is just as dumb as all other Holidays. People have to place importance in stupid things, or else they would have to come to the realization life is dumb.

I didn't even blog on my two days off come to think of it. Not that I had anything to write.

I was asked to go in an hour early today,  which ain't no thing. I have no idea what I'll be walking in to. What I do can be done at anytime,  so not sure how me going in early helps. We'll see I guess.

I guess it is back to work for me. I had two days off, but I don't feel out of it. I am ready to go back to work, and I don't have that I was a complete lazy ass on my days off feeling.

I didn't do much.

Anyway. That is all she wrote for today.

I could totally delete this, cuz it is dumb.

Whatever.

Laterzzzzzz.    :)

Sometimes I look around and think, am I the only one who realizes everything in life is dumb?? 

Here today, and gone tomorrow. In the meantime people never ponder the truth. Any of the isms are horse shit. Parades are dumb, and so are holidays. 

It is life. One day we will die, and in the meantime when will any of you ask the right question?? 

What if everything is wrong??? 

It's a good question,  cuz everything is wrong,  until you are made right.

On our own we are Fucked.

Now for really really later later later.  :)

Byeeee

Saturday, July 2, 2016

You Would Have To Be Crazy.

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am fine. I got a good night sleep. I woke up an hour ago, but stayed in bed.  A luxury I have on Saturdays.  Actually it is a luxury I'll have the next two days too, cuz it looks like I'll have the next two days off. Those will be my last days off til vacation August 20-something. I'll get a full week off then.

Anyway my first thing I thought of this morning was you would have to be crazy to read this. I wrote something yesterday. Actually read something I wrote the same day last year I think.  It was the same thing almost.

Do I ever even say anything different??  My days don't ever feel real different. People may be different who I am around. Good mood, bad mood, crabby. Whatever. People can be a little different every day.

I am way different today then I would have been if my life was different. I am not enslaved in life. I don't place too much value in things that aren't really that valuable.

In a World where people want to differentiate themselves so to show their value is higher than others,  I have no need for.

I know the true value of life, and I am cool with it.  There is so much that makes me different, and none of it was my doing. It helps me do this never ending job that shows very little to no success and still keep an upbeat heart most times.

Outside of this blog though who knows what happens.  I keep to myself, and just live life. I don't do anything special, but really work, eat, sleep.

I thought of how impossible this task is. Who knew??  It is the worst job in the World. I don't recommend it,  cuz people are way too trippy.

I know I know you think your life is important. I know I know you must be special in some way. The one thing I learned from overcoming the 2nd time is that everything is vanity.

You can labor every second of every day. Sacrifice everything, and it still doesn't mean a thing.

The story is about humility,  and forgiveness,  and people want the story to be about how great they are.

What I learned is no matter what, it is not up to you. You are at the mercy of the one who can save you from the judges. He doesn't have to. I know most/all think they are deserving,  but without the proper steps the truth will forever be shielded from your eyes.

Impossible impossible.

Anyway I have to work for a bit, and we are going to a shindig my wife's boss is throwing for her daughter. She just graduated HS.

That's about it.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Pretty excited about two days off in a row. I know I'll still wake up way early,  but I'll be well rested.

Love you All xoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya.    :D.    :D

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Later losers.   :)  j/k. 

Friday, July 1, 2016

I Am Up

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing good I am rested, and ready to start my day. Yesterday was pretty uneventful as most days go.

I had to stop by the Mexican store that is on my way home,  cuz steak fajitas were on the menu. I just had to have everything done by the time Lisa got home. Did that. She was going out to a movie,  so I went to bed.

That was it. Work, cook, eat, sleep. Today will be very similar to yesterday. I should get a haircut,  cuz my hair is ridiculous. Like 3 weeks overdue ridiculous. I bike to work though, so I probably won't. I would if I drove to work, but I don't wanna. Who gives a shit anyway? It's just hair, and mine is gray as Fuck.

So there.  Another day in the life. Nothing too significant happening, and nothing really significant to do.

Life is kinda a serious thing, cuz we will all die. It is also kinda silly, cuz look at this World. Who can make sense of it? 

Why life if the end is death??  What do we do that really matters when we eventually will just be 6' under.

Say life gave you a couple uppercuts like it did me a few decades ago. Now that I look back it really wasn't any great knock out punches. It was pretty significant shit to me at the time though. I was young, and really hadn't experienced much of life really til that point. Anyway say you said screw it. I am going to make me the best person possible.

I can tell you that is out of reach. There is always some shit we cannot live up to. The turn way back when was cuz there was nothing in this World for me. I didn't see anything.

There was no blueprint for me. I really had nothing to go on. I assume I had a little small voice in my head I was able to listen to. The noise of life was pretty silent to me. I didn't have a lot of responsibility save me and life.

Still til this day to be the best a person can be is out of reach. That is something for the future. The plan for my life I don't know it all. I surely don't know if what I do does anything.

I think I was thinking the last couple days me getting up to do this really is labor.  I've been doing it a long time.

I think the World pulls in one way, and I pull in the other. The World will entice you with all the things you can accomplish. I pull in the other way. Happiness is found when you drink the Kool aid kinda. There is a better coin than the one you have now. It is for you.  Where you stand now it does not entice, and it may not look better. This story was always about trust.  The quid pro quo.

Your answers come after.  You get very little before, besides this blog.

The fork in the road is hard I guess. Everyone always says they would take the path less chosen. The Worlds path is the yellow brick road.  The less chosen is the wilderness.

One looks fun, and one looks scary. You don't know fear yet.

Anyway, I am gonna take the Hopester.

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