Can I Freak You Out??

Perhaps I can.  Did you notice though we were getting a bit heavy, and now we dropped off?  Is it me??  No not really, I just go with how I feel inside.  When we start this thing it is going to be heavy, and I will be led with how I feel inside.  I am not sure why it is this way, but you have seen twice how it works, or how it is going to work.  The first one was for me.  The 2nd one was a trial run, and I guess the 3rd time will be the real deal.  We will worry about that later when it pops up.  We got a while so no need to stress about it. 

Want to know something crazy??  Something I think is true but will totally sound whack to you??  Last year we failed our first two audits, and passed our 3rd.  That is how I think our thing is going to work too.  We sorta failed our first two audits.  No one was ready, but I have been ready since before the hospital remember, and I still am.  I have help with that, so don't think I am all strong and shit on my own.  I try to think back to my time a long time ago, and I think it was hard.  A lot of inner turmoil.  I'll let you guys worry about yourselves though.  You all have your own story, and all your stories are different.  You all know that.  We all are different.  Some people drink, some people are vegetarians, everyone has different interests.  Was there a time when you tried to be like someone else, or something??  Do you feel like everyone.... or most people..... are really becoming their own person.  I guess I really like individuals.  People who are different.  You ain't like me, and I ain't like you, and I dig it.  :)

So anyway just so you know, I added Maija back to my list.  I miss her blog, and it seems silly not to have her in my list.  I don't take changes unexplained well.  I have a history of where that does not turn out well.  Maija was a very important blogger I read, and she was def.  one of my fav bloggers.  I even read Adam's blog, and I like most of his posts.  He really thought a lot about stuff.  I have no hard feelings to what transpired.  I felt I was treated unfairly when it happened, and I exploded, and was a prick, and a dick.  I apologize publicly to Adam.  I was an asshole, my only excuse is I don't take these sudden changes unexplained very well.  It is like an attack to me, and really I deal with enough shit.  You all know my only intention is to help support, and yeah, I know I give out a lot of xoxoxoxo's  even to married girls.  Ha ha ha.  :)  Remember the quid pro quo.  Olga O'Toole.  "I trust you... trust me." Remember what I said after that???     "If I never live another day I have been given the most bestest compliment ever"  Something like that.  :)

I am unhappy this week with my running distances.  I love running to work, but not sure if I want to double up on 3.5 milers a lot. I want most of my runs to be more than 3.5 miles.   Today I am going to run 2.3 miles.  A loop around my house, and then add the 3.5 miles to work.  That gives me a little under 6 miles, and tomorrow I will add another 6 miler.  That should put me close to 20 for the week.  I really want to get closer to 25 minimum pretty soon.  I'll let you know how it goes.  I haven't logged my last run, but it was probably close to 9:00 pace.  I am sure you are dying to know.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I kinda like the p.s. thingy I have.  I can send little secret messages with it.  :)  LOL  Usually I send nice things, I should do a mean thing.  Hmmmm.   I hope you have to poop next time you run.  :)  Ha ha ha.  

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Christi who is dealing with an empty nest thingy.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jilly Tots who calls Melly- Melly Welly.  She is recovering a post surgery infection.  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras for Barbara Davies and Ceri who also went through a Mum Daughter cancer thing too.  :)  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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