Tuesday, September 27, 2011

What I Thought About This Morning...

Hello all,  I am going to get me some coffee, before I start this thing.  I warn you too, it may be boring, cuz I really don't know if I have anything to talk about.  brb.  :)

Anyway I was thinking I sure blog a lot.  I looked at my total for this year, and I would say it will probably end up somewhere around 300 posts, and last year was 289, and I am sure Heimleblog, + Journey year was the same.  Dang, that is a lot.  Do I really have more stuff to write about??  I guess I probably do, but I'd never know it til I write it I guess. 

You want to know where I feel most comfortable??  Commenting on blogs.  Isn't that strange??  You want to know what I don't remember what feels like??  I don't remember what it feels like not to feel comfortable, although I know I did at one time.  When I first commented on Dee's site way back when, and that was right before my shortened 5K sub:22:00 run. 

Remember I would add people, and comment, and then all of a sudden something would happen.  I'd feel a bit foolish, and get rid of some people.  I would eventually add them all back. 

Let's take a look at this past year.  Due to ugly shit in my life, I lost some readers.  I had a bad night, a really bad night with the Iz song, and that was for a purpose.  Same as that old dude who lost his wife of however many years.  Funny how weird I am huh??  Funny I have to mourn people's deaths for others huh, and like my brother I had to mourn his life. 

I remember one time in the Journey time thinking sheesh, I wish I could take people's sadness for them, and then I got a close look and thought, Oh man.  No thanks.  That shit is hard.  I caught a glimpse of one person's sadness, and I thought oh man.  Who knows what a person thinks about in their quiet time, but I know the absolute horrible question one must answer.  Is this it??  I think a direction we take at that point would be a bury that fucking thought, and show everyone how fucking green our grass is. 

It is these kind of thoughts that make this blog weird I bet, and yeah I know.  I do really want to thank Heidi Austin for two things.  She knows both.  :) 

Want to know a secret??  I think in the Journey I used analytics to see if people read the dang thing.  I don't use that shit now, and don't really pay attention.  In my mind I try to pretend a billion people read this.  :)   LOL.  During the Journey though I would once in a while get hits from The University Of Pittsburgh.  In my mind I try and guess who that is, and I have drawn my own conclusions.  :)

So anyway, just some thoughts. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I have to be productive today, and do dishes, and laundry, and all that fun stuff.  Boooo meeeeeee!!!   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for everyone on top of those too.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

You know something??  It really isn't how fast you are it is how courageous you are.  I think Heidi, and Angela Kidd, and Julia are pretty dang courageous, and Kim Kim Kim has her moments, and so does Christi.  just a fyi.  :) 


1 comment:

Christi said...

I read your journey everyday because I can relate. You say the things we all thing but are too afraid to put to words. That takes guts my friend!