Some Things Don't Change...

Now as you know I have been doing this a while.  I wake up early, and write whatever is on my mind.  Maybe it seems like I am really strong, and honest, and maybe at times I need to be.  Maybe I am like a pit bull.  I can be nice as heck, but cross me somehow like lie to me or something, and I can be the biggest dick in the world probably.

You know my story.  I am not perfect, and I don't pretend to be.  I offer support as much as I can for those willing to share of themselves.  Now I do have a strength in me that basically says all will turn out.  That gives me confidence.

I trust my heart.  I trust it to steer me in the right direction.  That is why I do this like I do.  I don't put  a ton of thought into what I write, but I figure some good comes out of it, because I have been doing this soooo long, and it keeps going on and on and on.  Like I said before I think it offers support.  Maybe more important it helps open your eyes too to what life is about.  Maybe we all have been skating by thinking life is just this job/off time/ tv/family, etc...   And life very much is about you.  There are a billion things out there in the world, and you better damn well think you are an important part of your life.

You aren't perfect like me,  you don't have all the answers, like everyone.  There are things in life we must think about, and you know we don't always control what we think about.  If your thoughts are headed in a certain way you don't want do you ever just not block it, and accept hey this is a part of me.  This is shit I think about. 

What we show is one thing, but what we think is another.  hate, jealousy, lust, love, compassion, etc...  All that is a part of us.  We show so very little of who we are, because honestly we would probably be embarrassed and ashamed of some of it.

What we show isn't the real stuff.  What we are is the real stuff.  Probably don't want to show too too much of that huh??   :)

In your own personal time you cannot take that out of the equation of you.  That is you, and you have to be real and honest about yourself about that.

See what I mean???  Being honest will be the hardest thing you ever do, because  being honest is being honest all the way through.  It goes way below the surface.  See what I mean of the turtle coming out of the shell???

This is me.  I have no shell to protect me.  Would you still accept me???   If you showed your dark side there is one who would say "yes.  I accept you."

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  6 miler last night with Jerry and Ken.  Nothing major.  We were just being guys.   :)   We saw the cute little runner girl too, and of course she knows Alan.  I think everyone does.   :)

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Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

Have a good one all.   Luv ya's   :)   xoxoxoxoxo 

SHIT   I forgot to add this picture of Lisa and I at the local lumberyard.  Brian and Greg's friend stopped in.  Him and his wife and his 2 grown kids are going to visit Brian for like 13 days.  WOOOO for them.  :)

I need a fricken haircut again.   :)

Eeeee Gads

OMG, I seriously have nothing again.   Like yesterday I am up, and this thing does serve a purpose I guess, but I don't always feel like it.  Sometimes I guess in life we think what we do is dumb, and no one pays attention, but maybe it is just the little things we do in life.  You know we look at the grand gestures of people who walked on the moon, and invented this or that, but maybe Anne Frank's life was more poignant.  She didn't do anything, but live a shitty life, but left a record.  A blog if you will.  I don't remember any grand gestures being in it, but just some day to day stuff, and really you saw her life.  It was filled with love, and hate, and jealousy, and dreams of better days, and loss, and happy times, and laughter, and learning, etc...  Her shitty life was still full. 

You know my job is not who I am, my blog is who I am, because I let you see me.  The inside of me.  I am happy a lot, but I still have Mondays where things kinda suck.  Lucky Monday is a low training day, so I can have a coupla drinks, and that makes things a bit better... sometimes.  Not as an escape, but we all do stuff for fun.  I don't watch tv for fun, the shit bores me, so I like to have a coupla cocktails, and listen to music.  It helps me think of things.  Remember past times sometimes with a different perspective than I might have. 

Maybe that is saying something though.  Your job, and training is not all who you are.  Your kids, and your day to day is not all who you are.  Sometimes you have an epic training thing, but sometimes training is a p.s. in what was a full day of other things in your mind. 

I think that is part of a problem here huh??  Your lives are so busy, that many times you don't take time out for yourself to see who you are.  A busy life is not necessarily a better life.  Maybe blogging is kinda important in that way.  Taking time out to share a bit of who you are.  I think it is good for you.    When we share who we are, we can be a mirror for other people to view their lives.  You will see people can relate to you, because we are not perfect, and we will all fuck shit up.  Sometimes our imperfections are funny and people can relate. 

Life should be fun many times, but like I have said before, none of us will escape some of the shit that comes.  Part of life.  We gotta deal with it. 

Guess that is about it. 

Have a good one all.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I am going to run to work today, and do a double.   :)   Go Me.   :)

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Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Well I Am Up...

I seriously have nothing to write about, and almost don't even feel like blogging, but guess I will anyway.  Don't you sometimes just feel like throwing your damn blog away, and say screw it??  Just go on..., but this is what I do... for whatever reason. 

I'll get weird here, because if this blog is anything it is weird.  It all starts with that old dude who I met who lost his wife of like 50 years or so, and I saw his face when he couldn't remember the name of his neighbor of like 9000 years.  That is what I thought of when I returned from my 22:06- 5K.... or thereabouts.  I have had other episodes where I took people's sadness, as it was too much for them.  It usually ends in a bad night.  Drains me of everything, and it is then when I needed support, and never got any.  When I get empty like that I get angry, and hate just about everyone.  I remember the night of the Iz song, I was like what the hell??  What is going on, and the next day on the blog I bitched.  What the fuck is going on??  It took everything from me, and I didn't know why... and then I did. 

This shit bugged me for a while, but I think I am over it.  We are on a path where everyone is going to get a little bit wiser.  You are on a path to learn about you, because it is what we all desire, but it is hard, because you go through your whole life, with all the sadness it entails.  The past is filled with sadness for some reason.  Perhaps we think it is better days gone by. 

Like the song from the Goo Goo Dolls "Iris"   and I don't want the world to see me, cuz I don't think that they'd understand.  A kinda if I show you my dark side what would you do??  

The race of life is hard.  You have to step out of your comfort zone, because there is security in not showing your dark side.  Bringing the dark to light is what it is all about.  Love lives in the light, and doesn't know darkness.  With this we have support.  With this we all need support.  

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  We got our 6 miler in last night.  We may have dropped Jim on the hill on the way back, and he threw in one of his mile fartleks and  was a good 5-10 paces ahead of us.  We decided to go slow the last 1.4 miles, which wasn't slow.  I think Jim and Jerry race each other, and make me suffer through it.  :)   LOL

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Some Days You Have Some Hard...

Well, I definitely had a bit more than I expected on my run yesterday.  Like I said before there was snow, so footing was probably going to be an issue.  It was a bit, but not too bad.  What I didn't know was there was wind.  I knew my route was hilly, but I didn't realize the wind.  The wind made it cold too, although the temps were pretty good.  I originally planned on just running 12, but with the car in the shitter, I had to run to and fro, so I ended up doing 17.7.  Not much on the run.  Just getting it done.  Jerry and I ran together, and Lil Cath had to run with Sarah, so she got a little speed work in.  :)  

When we finished our run I still had 2.85 miles left.  I stopped in the bank to take a rock out of my shoe.  Oh,  guess it was a blister.  :)  Probably from the wet socks.  The run home I went slow.  All kindsa things were hurting, so just getting myself home.  I ran on the sidewalks which were covered in a bit of snow, so it was cushioned running.  :)

I was pretty lazy the rest of the day.  I was having that drained feeling of being tired, and not napping.  I played some solitaire, and that was that.  :)  I putzed around online for a bit, and went to bed.  :)

Would like to make a bit of an announcement though.  On that one morning when it came to running an early all out mile.  Only Johnny Garcia and I showed up.  That was the day Johnny on his 4th lap said I got this.  I think he ran a 5:28.  Kim Sheridan's son Cole just ran a 5:15 yesterday.  Now that is a feather he can put in his cap.  Hope you all have showtime.  Johnny's next fight will be on Showtime.  Two undefeated boxers go head to head.  I think he is fighting a Cuban dude who medaled in the Olympics.  It will be too late for me, so I may miss it.  You party animals can watch it though.  :)

Have a good one all.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All !!!!    :)

p.s.  a little under 18 yesterday means only 6 today.  The hilly 6 at Jerry's house.  WOOOOT  Been a while since I felt those hills.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

MWAH!!!    to you all.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Crap We Got More Snow...

Well looking outside it looks like today's run will be a challenge.  When I went to bed everything looked good, but now it appears we got more snow, and the plows probably haven't been out yet. 

I am going to get some coffee... hold on. 

This blog goes in many directions.  I think it really goes only in one.  This heads to the end.  The end of you.  We plan our lives, and we think what will make us happy.  There is so much out there, and so much to do, and chances are maybe you think you have wasted part of your life.  Could have should have would have???

Our eyes are on forever, and we think maybe life is this grand thing where there is nothing but happiness and joy somewhere. 

Let me tell you about me.  Now maybe you know this story, I think I have said it a lot. This was a long time ago.  External events were happening in my life that made me look at things.  I had a good set of eyes, and this was well before I knew anything of good sets of eyes to see the world through. I looked for good, and saw none.  There was no good.  This is a time where I was graduated college, and trying to find my way in the world.  I was pretty alone at this time, and you know our lives really are alone.  Even if you are married, because your spouse doesn't know you.  You have to be honest about that.  You have different interests.  No one is the same.  Anyhoo, I didn't see any good.  Everything seemed pretty dumb, and you know what I did then.  Not having any kind of idea what it would mean.  It meant a lot.  It meant everything.  At some point in time I knew what it meant, and I didn't really accept it.  I just didn't care to know.  If it is just me fine, I don't care.  Not a biggie.  I could care less.  All I am is how I am made.  I ain't no great person, if I do good it is how I am made. 

I know I must be different, and you must wonder...  How??  I know you have a real set of eyes.  Life must be hard for you right now.  Going through some tough personal times.  Maybe you have a battle.  How great can my life be with these dreams of mine??  The dreams are a fairy tale.  You know how you feel inside, and that is the path you are on.  Be real about it, and accept it. 

It is o.k. if life sucks.  It is just a silly little world, where maybe the best thing in it is people, and we hate most of them.   :)  LOL

Oh well, today's run is going to be a challenge.  We have to take our car in so I will probably add 3,4,5 miles to my 12.  Not sure, I'll have to map it.  I did add another blogger too.  I forget her name.  I have seen her around a couple sites though. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  wahhhhhhhhhhh, where did she go???  

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D    xoxoxoxoxoxo

Well It Is Friday... Yay!!! :)

Hey all How's it going??  Me, I am doing good.  I am going to get some coffee real quick though, so hold on.  :)

Well, I slept 11 hours yesterday.  WOAH!!  I know I know the guy who sleeps 6 hours each night or so, even if he had a couple drinks slept 11 hours.  :)  Not sure why.  I am a bit banged up from running, and my wife has been dealing with a cold all week, so maybe my body was fighting that bug, even though I have no symptoms.  Regardless if I sleep 11 hours, then I probably needed it. 

I know my last post was a doozy, and it says basically be prepared if the future sucks.  Things will probably get worse and not better.  Leave us humans to our own devices and we'll fuck things up.  That is something you have to accept too.  We are imperfect.  I know this thing gets a little weird sometimes, but we will get where we need to go.  We are getting places too. 

I don't really have much today to be honest.  I am a bit banged up from running, so I took Wed, Thu, and today off from running.  I am going to do a 12 on Saturday and follow with a 10 on Sunday.  Why???  No reason.  My reason is why not??  I follow no plan, I just kinda wing it.  This shit is fun for me, not important for me.  You know it is kinda nice to just be able to run these kind of miles.  Ya feel like you are doing something ya know?? 

In my life's journey I have traveled many miles in my mind.  The end of the line is life is pretty fricken dumb.  It was a long hard and scary journey, but at the end I was given this happy heart.  It is pretty happy most of the time too, and I have a lot of energy, which is a gift, so it is good to be me. 

I also am able to help support people too, and that is fucking pretty dang good too.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a  Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Next week I hope to not be so lazy riding my bike to work and stuff.  ( I have been lazy this week)   :)

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Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Jeff Stark, cuz he likes 'em.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Extras for Christine McCarthy, and Karen Kroll.  I love them girls.   :)   They the best.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   you all are the best though.   :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga, because  it is Olga, and I love her.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Taking my wife out to lunch today.    :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

People Aren't That Fucking Great...

As a matter of fact, I 'd have to say everyone is fucked up some way or another.  The World is fucked up too.  Laws are written on pieces of paper, that don't mean shit.  Antitrust???  Collusion??  Terms like free market are thrown around like it is something that actually happens.  How are 4 banks a free market make??  What is there like 3 insurance companies to choose from??  The U.S. is bullshit, and you may as well acccept that.  I see people want the rich to pay taxes, I think we'd all be happy if Corporations did.  Direct anger where it belongs.  It belongs to a fucked up world, where imperfect people have been pulling strings in their ignorance for short-term gain for themselves and their friends.  It just so happens those people happen to be rich.  They became friends with people who smile, and talk pretty in front of people and in front of the camera.  We spend how many trillions of dollars to help find better ways to kill people, and how much do we spend to try and cure people??  Our health care is so fucked up, it gets paid by insurance companies, and hospitals charge and try and get what they can from insurance companies.  You want to fix the prices?? Say fuck insurance and do a cash as you go.  Let's see what prices get charged then. 

Hold on I am going to get coffee. 

Is this the best we can do??  Accept the status quo where we are enslaved to jobs to varying degrees.  Gas?? What may go up to $5/ gallon pretty soon??  We don't do a ton of driving, so I don't really notice the gas prices.  $20-$30 lasts a week or so.  Yesterday I put in some fuel additive into my fuel, and I was going to fill the truck up with premium.  I stopped at $40.  I couldn't put any more in.  It didn't seem right.  What a shitty world, and too bad greed, and short-sighted tomfoolery pretty much fucks things up. 

I had to give an I.D. to buy Lisa some Sudafed yesterday so they could make sure I wasn't making meth.  I think they should worry more about people who wear nice suits, and have nice smiles, and try and gouge the Government for every penny it doesn't have.  Defense Contractors, Bankers, etc... come to mind.  Getting rid of the meth heads won't create a better world.  Getting rid of the "real" problem makers just may.  Not that I have any hope of that every happening.  It is easier to blame people who wear towels on their heads.  A common perceived enemy goes a long way to uniting a people.  You just have to find one.  It worked under another regime with a guy who had a shitty looking mustache.   You are naive if you don't think it can happen again.  Especially if everything goes to hell if gas goes to $5/gallon. 

Good times.   :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  6 miler last night with Jerry, and that was kinda how our conversation went, plus bitching about a few other things.   :)

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Oh, we also see this little girl running on Tuesday nights.  Maybe 30'ish??  She bops around, and is so light on her feet.  Always passes us.  She is doing the Riverbank.  Last night she 40 minutes was on her schedule.  I love watching people run who look like they walk on air.  She is cute.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

Let Go...

Well, you get a glimpse of people.  You think they are strong, but in order to be strong you have to let go.  That ain't easy is it??  Let go of everything you believe.  That takes trust huh??  Holding on is not a sign of strength that is for sure.  You have to dare to walk a path that many have not.  You know if you were born in the olden days you may have been a serf, and that was your life.  No hope for anything better than that.  An honest look at history states life pretty much has sucked forever, but that takes a good set of eyes to see that. 

You keep striving for the golden years, but there is no such thing, because once you reach the golden years you are old.  The things that were once fun may not be as fun anymore.  Your friends are all dying, or you are losing touch with them.  Not to mention all the illnesses that come with older age. 

Truth and honesty is truth and honesty.  That also is a skill, because truth and honesty has some bad stuff, and that is the stuff we bury.  Pretend it isn't there.  Just because it is buried doesn't mean it isn't there.  Serious people who try to bury stuff really do the world a disservice. 

I don't know.  I guess I don't have much, but we definitely have a long way to go.  Some people are pretty disappointing.  You think you are getting somewhere, and boom, you realize we were just running in place this whole time.  SHIT.  We'll never win any races like that. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Jerry, Ken, and I ran our 6.4 miler, and it was easier than last week, even though I ran 18 the day before.  Guess I was tired.  Today is an easy day, just a little 3 miler. 

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Solid...

I would have to say my run yesterday was pretty solid.  I jumped the long run up to an 18 miler, and I have to give myself passing grades.  We had a good group yesterday.  Cathy and I ran 6 early before the group started.  We had a good turnout too for Saturday's run.  Ganzi, and Matt (forgot his last name).  Matt ran with us when I first started running.  He was one of the original fast track guys of the group.  He lives in the outskirts of Chicago now so only runs with us when he visits on the weekend.  He runs Riverbank and Bayshore too.  As to my original running group days we all have come a long way.  I remember being one of the slow people along with Nancy W., and now I am middle of the pack.  Nancy will be running her first Boston Marathon, but she is banged up, and has been for at least 3 years, but somehow keeps running.  Not sure what her long runs are now, but nowhere where she wants them.  She ran the Disney Tri (5K, half, full) though so she is used to a lot of miles, so hopefully Boston won't be too hard on her.  Some marathons are just about getting them done though.  Boston was her goal so she can enjoy her day, even if she'll suck by her standards.  :)

Good thing about having Ganzi run is he knows how to go slow.  He can run at any pace.  A couple years ago he broke 3 hours on the hot Bayshore day, and he has no problem running 10,11,12 minute miles on the slow long days.  So we had a big group for our standards who ran together.  Rick talks a lot, and so does Cathy, so there was plenty to listen to.  Rick is doing Comrades again this year, and yesterday was a 12 miler for him, and he'll follow that up today with an 18 miler. 

Nothing much on the run, but I felt good the whole way.  I forgot to eat breakfast, but that doesn't usually matter.  I took a Gu at mile 9, and one at mile 13, and my mind was sharp the whole way.  My legs were getting a bit fatigued, but that is normal.  I ended with the group.  I felt pretty strong the whole way.  I didn't have too many down periods.  The hills seemed a heck-u-va lot easier too.  I swear when the Riverbank comes around we will be ready for the 2nd half.  Hills are getting easier.  I remember talking about how hilly our winter route is, but now you barely notice it. 

Running is crazy like that.  Remember just a short while ago my long runs were 6 milers???  We have upped that a bit.  Glad I took the easy week this week, because I feel pretty good.  I took a few steps forward, and last week, I took a step back, and hopefully now I can go forward again.  I will still be at 36 miles or so this week, and will probably break 40 next week.  March promises to be a big month for me.  A lot of miles.  We have been lucking out with the weather this winter.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Jerry, Ken, and I will be running 6.4 this morning.  I may play a lotta solitaire after.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

WOAH!!!

Hello folks, how's it going??  Hope all are doing well.  I am going to get some coffee.  I bought some hazelnut coffee at the local lumberyard yesterday, and trying it out.  How can it be bad right??  BRB. 

So anyway, I was kind of chuckling a bit yesterday about my post.  Like I said before I have very little understanding to what I write, and that is a weird thing about this blog.  If people lie to me this thing will get nasty.  Worse thing you can do to me is lie.  There is one who lives on lies.  He is the father of them, and that is where he lives.  He lives in shadows, and he lives in deception.  He believes good comes from the appearance of things, and shields and hides all things from the truth.  There is only one who came, and overcame all the lies and deception. 

Truth is fricken hard isn't it??  You want to believe in good out there.  A greater good in this world, but the greater good really is nowhere to be found in this world. 

Well anyway what I was chuckling about was me thinking I wrote a couple doozies, and I caught a glimpse of my post yesterday, and that was doozyish too.  So I LOL'd at work.  There is a plan, and the plan will be done.  I don't know how it will come out, but you all are on your own personal journey, and your walk is yours and yours alone, but many of you are strong enough to do this, and also help support people.  You are a light kinda for all the world to see.  A light isn't about being right, a light is about being honest.  Honest about the hardships of life.  Life, has loss, failure, shame, all kindsa things.  We are imperfect, we are jealous people, we are hateful toward others.  We want to be good, and do good, but you have to learn what that is. 

Oh well anyway just touching base.  Gonna be running 18 miles today.  I have my Gu's so I don't eat anyone's head off at mile 14.  :)   LOL  I am kinda excited about it, because my legs feel pretty good.  We are running 6.4 tomorrow too, so that should be interesting.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Got our other lap top back yesterday, and it has my good i-tunes on it.  Yay!!!    :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D    xoxoxoxoxooxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH!!!   :D

Morning All. :) Luv Ya!!! :)) LOL

Hey, how's it going??  Me??  I am doing pretty well thanks.  I had a pretty good day yesterday.  Actually having a pretty good work week.  Work is going good.  I stepped down a bit from my normal running load this week, and that has my legs feeling better, so I will be able to tackle the 18 miler tomorrow. 

I had some friends stop in work this week.  Clay Trapp, who I worked with before.  I got to know his whole family, his wife, his Dad and Mom, and his brother, and sister, and I even got to know His wife's family too.  His wife is a fast runner, and so is her Dad.  It was nice to see him and talk some shit.  He is a funny guy, and one of those strong people that seemingly don't give a shit what people think. 

Jacob also stopped by yesterday, and I know his whole family too.  He brought us some doughnuts from the bakery, and we shot the shit.  All is going well with him and the Trapp's so that is good. 

I don't really have too too much to say to be honest, and maybe that ain't a bad thing.  I have a feeling I have been bringing some real doozies, but honestly I don't really know.  Like I said I don't think too much what I write, and just plop it down.  I have a feeling My heart is steered in the direction it will go.  Maybe even sometimes we all get a bit off course, but there is no off course really, because I have a promise that all is for good, meaning we are doing good.  We go through hard stretches where we wonder about stuff, but that is to make us strong.  Hard stretches help our eyes get a clearer picture.  So some stuff is necessary.  Like I said before the Howard Zinn days are important.  The Joseph Heller days are important too, because as much as possible life should be fun.  Hopefully we can all laugh a lot about stuff.  Remember though we don't always laugh about stuff though.  Be honest about those days, and endure those days, and learn from those days.  Trust always, always always hold onto trust, because that is a great crutch.  When you feel like you are in despair trust helps us hang on.  We are not alone, and we all really have support. 

Oh, I did forget I did add another blogger.  I don't know her name at all.  It comes across blogger jmarslander or something.  She teaches in Kuwait I think, and is originally from Wisconsin.  I checked her out before here and there when she would comment on Jessica's site.  She also comments on Angela's site too, so I added her.  She seems nice.  :)

Guess that is about it today.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)  xoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Time for me to get my coffee.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga, cuz I love her.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for the rest of you too.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  Especially Damie.   xoxoxoxoxo


Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

And All Was Well...

Boy I tell you in life it really sometimes can be just simple things that can change our mood.  You see everyone looks for these grand gestures, and really life is about the simple stuff.  A real pair of eyes is a thing to hope for.  Throw away all garbage as much as possible.  Our heart strives for this and this, but just maybe... just maybe consider what is in our heart is garbage too. 

Like Solomon said, "eat, drink, and be merry for that is your lot in life"  The rest is all folly.  Why, and how could he say that??  From a pure heart.  That too is one of the Beatitudes too right??  Blessed are the pure in heart.  We definitely are not born that way, that is for sure.  In our heart is to strive for this and this and this and this, but with a pure heart comes the wisdom that so very little really matters, especially when the worms are eating our bodies.   :) 

I am not going to tell you what turned around my mood though, although a hint maybe???....   (Namaste)    :)

Track last night.  I knew going in I did not want to push.  Maybe I never do, but I think I was a bit tired too.  We ran 3-10:00 min. runs.  Just under 8:00 pace for me..... UGH!!  It was a doable pace.  It was our first 10:00 min run, and 10 and 12 minute runs are really hard on the track, and I could have done another, so the track won't kill me this year, but I definitely have to get faster. 

Couple notes Sarah is flying now.  Holy crap.  I told Jerry to go his own pace, and he did the final one.  As I suspected he is faster than me now.  Ganzi made it back to speed work, and as all first speed work sessions go.  OUCH!!!    :)

I realize you cannot get faster without the track.  I have built up a good base though, so the legs can run, and Cathy and I are going to tackle 18 miles on Saturday.  Now the shit gets real.  This spring is about getting in shape.  I don't see any great marathon for me this spring, but look out fall.  Fall marathon is what I am gearing for, and an early spring one helps me with that. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  we did run in shorts last night, and we ran on the track in February.  That ain't too shabby.   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Love/Hate

I sometimes have a love hate relationship with this blog.  I wake up early to do it, and some days like today I would rather be sleeping, but my internal time clock went off, and I was up.  Even if I am tired.  So today I am thinking I have absolutely nothing to write about.  Why in the heck do I do this??  Then I remember.  Even if I have nothing to write I still offer support.  That is probably why this blog is so weird too... or at least one of the things.  How???  Why???  etc...  I know this is weird, because I do know what it is like to be normal.  As a matter of fact I was pretty normal when I lived in Normal, IL   :P  

Internally filled with unhappiness at times.  Life wasn't perfect, but I wanted to be a nice and good guy.  I wanted to be a nice and good guy, but I didn't know how.  Trust me my biggest goal in life was to be nice.  I wanted that, but I really was so imperfect.  What a strange time my changes started happening too.  A lot of external events help shaping how I think.  I had some real life non comic book version bouts of suffering too.  Things I could never tell anyone.  I can  tell you all kinds of things that I saw.  That was a solo journey.  Me being shown things for whatever reason. 

I try to get a feel for what people think, and it is hard.  I have a feeling the truth is breaking you down a bit.  Internally I would have to guess most of us want to be pretty fabulous people, and you think it is within your power.  Slight change here, and a slight change there, but also you are on your own personal journey.  You are being shown things, and you are finding out a lot about you.  Don't worry if you don't like everything about you, because you are not perfect.  We all have bad shit in us.  Remember I said the hardest thing you ever have to do is be honest.  You would think something like that would be easy as hell, but it isn't is it??  Internally we always judge ourselves against Hitler, and other people like that, but the avenue is to just judge yourself with the mirror.  That is it.  Your path is a personal one, because none have walked in your shoes.  There is no, yeah but he did that and he did that.  Yeah, he did do that, but you never walked in his shoes.  You never saw his quiet moments when he was 16 wondering his way in life??  It is easy to judge at what a person does, but his actions have a story.  The story is his life. 

It really is hard to focus on just us sometimes, because the world can be a pretty busy place, but it is a good thing to do.  You will remember stuff when you need to.

I am adding again.  I am adding Teaching Melissa to xoxoxoxoxo.  She was an important part of my story.  If you remember a vacation a couple summers ago.  This was during a rocky time with Nancy O'Toole and her.  It made it a hard time for me too.  She is a Twitter person I follow who doesn't follow me back.  You know that doesn't usually sit well with me, although I have my favorites like Avril Lavigne, and Atrios.  Why Teaching Melissa???  On the strength of Olga she is an Atrios or an Avril Lavigne to me.  Trust goes a long way huh??  A powerful force that can strengthen relationships huh??

Never underestimate the importance of Olga.  Out of the blue comes the quid pro quo, and look how far that has taken us.

and now for something completely different...

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Ken, Jerry, and I ran our 6 miler last night.  We asked Jerry how he liked his fast Sunday run.  LOL.  We laughed, he really had a nice tempo run.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D  

Oh Gawwwwwwwwwwwwdddddddd!!!

I have absolutely nothing to write, but guess I will anyway.  Going to get coffee first.  Hold on...

I have been thinking about my last coupla posts have been doozies, and I think it helps with our vision.  Our vision of what our life really is about.  All our life we relied on some type of fairy tale or other to always strive for.  Work toward this and this and this and this, and the next thing you know your 60.  There is security with having money in the bank, but how much is enough??  There never really is enough is there??  I mean we are born with that little flaw, of always wanting more.  Do you ever see some of the shit people buy??  Some guy was telling me he had a client who wanted a round vent for their rangehood, because it would look better aesthetically on his/her house.  WTF????  Who are these fucking people??

I think your vision improves as you can see down each path a little farther.  All paths lead to one area.  Something we all have in common.

An absolute search for the truth reveals imperfection in us all.  There is no perfect career, job, spouse/significant other.  There is no perfect life.  I think the truth eventually breaks you down, in order to build you up.  It is a journey, so it takes time.  Life has a bunch of shit in it.  Being raised by imperfect people adds to it, not to mention our own imperfections anyway.  Life is hard.  Shit ain't easy, and eventually I guess you realize all we strive for is vanity of vanities.  All pursuits lead to the same place, and maybe that is what Solomon saw.  No one did more in his life than him.  He had all the honor of wisdom.  He achieved much in building all kindsa things.  Had his pick of women.  Everything, and he realized he had the best life, but still most of it was pointless.  There was no reason for it, and eventually someone came and offered hope.  Hope of a better way, and a better future.

Let me tell you too.  You have no idea what it entails, but it is nutty.  He even saw more than what you can imagine.  That too is nutty, and you think why???  Why do I have to do this hard shit???  Why must we suffer soooo??  The answer is you don't understand.  It is a higher knowlege, wisdom, and understanding that leads the way, and your cartoon-like understanding cannot attain to those heights... yet.  I am in the same boat too.  Things seem fricken nutty sometimes.

I press on though, always hoping people will show courage, and honesty.  Open up, and show the strength of character that does not show being right, but shows honesty, and courageous, and truth.  Being right you cannot attain too,  being honest you can.

I don't suffer fools well, and those that lie are just that.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Decided to take yesterday off running, and I am just going to run 6 tonight.  I was a bit beat up after my last few weeks so stepping back a bit.  Plus we are doing 18 this weekend, so I feel it is a good idea.

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D   :D 

Something That Makes Me Happy...

Want to know something that makes me happy??  Course you do.  :)  Now this blog can go in any number of directions, and it probably will, but this year, we will be able to save up some money (not spend every cent we have every week) and let Lisa take 3 weeks vacation, and still pay ourselves $250 for each of those weeks.  Lisa loves vacations.  Stay at home, and do stuff around the house.... or nothing.  That shit drives me crazy, and I hate taking my vacations alotta the times, but she loves them.  That makes me happy.  :)

Work is all relative in anything we do.  Lisa works 8:30-1or 2 in the afternoon most M-Fs.  She works some weekends here and there, but even she gets burned out.  That she gets to take 3 weeks off this year like I said makes me happy.  :)

Hold on I am going to get some coffee.  We ran yesterday, and let me tell you again how happy I am to run on Sundays with people.  I am going through a bit of a dead leg time, so it was good to run with people, because solo dead leg runs usually = 3 mile runs, and we did a 6.4 mile run.  Ken and I ran together at our own leisurely pace.  Jerry brought some friend of his, and they went like a bat out of hell.  I don't know about Jerry's friend, but it was definitely like a 5K pace for Jerry.  I kept thinking omg that cannot be a fun run for him.  He will pay for that effort somewhere down the line.  I don't know what that was about, but ouch for them.  My legs on our run felt like cement again.  As we were running down 8th street at our ending I could see my gait by looking in the windows.  Even though it felt like my legs weren't moving, they were still moving pretty good. Ken and I both doubled up 10 milers with a 6.4, so not a bad weekend. 

Today is Monday and an easy day.  I may have Hope take me for a little 3 miler when I get home from work.  :)

Anything else????   nah not really.  No heavy stuff.  I never know when I bring the heavy stuff, but yesterday must have been one of those days.  All your life you think you have control over your destiny, and your future.  The lesson of Anne Frank huh??  Also the important lessons of the fabulous.  Hollywood shows the life of the rich and famous.  The most glamorous lives still do not lead to the happily ever after fairy tale.  We all have our ending too, which is definitely not glamorous. 


Food for thought I guess.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  This thing goes on and on and on and on huh?? 

Love you All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Not My Best Day...

Yesterday we did the cross.  I was going to show the elevation, but it must have been on a post a couple years ago.  I looked at the entry from a year ago.  I said the same dang thing.  I forget how hard the cross is.   LOL.  I was thinking all day yesterday I did not have my best running day.  My legs were tired, and I never felt that great.  I know when I feel good the final leg home of the cross turns into a tempo run.  I didn't tempo this run home. 

Just some things I remember, the first leg to the cross is hard.  Out to the 2nd leg isn't too bad, but what you go out on, you have to come back on.  We come back, and our final climb is a roller coaster hill.  OMG, did that hurt.  You keep looking where is the end....UGH.... that far still.   Climb for another minute or so.... look again.... UGH  am I in the same spot???    :)  Out on leg 4 is pretty easy, but like I said what you go out on you have to come back.  Leg 5 I got dropped like a bad habit by Jerry.  That is the hardest leg.  A lot of climbing, and not enough recovery before the next climb.  You never feel comfortable.  To be honest my legs felt like crap the whole day, and I never felt really good.  One of those days?? or just a bump in the road.  I'll know more today when we run.  If it is just a bump, I'll plan on doing a  double on Tuesday.  If I am still sluggish, I will just run the 6 on Tuesday.  We will see.

Anyway I was just thinking of something.  As you know Whitney Houston just died.  You wonder about life huh??  Here is this girl who has all the fame, all the admiration, and all the money, and all the talent.  She is on top of her game, but yet she still battled through all kindsa things.  Many of us will never know what it is to reach the pinnacle.  All we desire, and all we wish is many times  a life like Whitney's.  There are soooo many stories of people like her.  It makes me wonder of that triathlete who is taking a year off.  She has achieved everything she wanted, and yet it appears she wants more to life.  It isn't all about training, and racing.  There is something more for us to seek, which will bring us fulfillment.  There is more to life than what we think we want in other words.  Don't always trust our own understanding, because trust me, there is a higher knowledge, and wisdom, and understanding, and the funny thing about it is it is within your reach.  It is a Journey though, and a Journey takes time, and security is having and knowing things now, but taking time helps develop trust, and trust is important, or time wouldn't be something he uses to such a degree. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I like coffeeeeeeeeee.   :) 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D  

Blogging With My Computer!! :) YAY!!!

Hello all, how's it going??  Me??  I am doing pretty good.  I am drinking coffee right now, and I will be running the cross in a couple hours.  Good times.  I don't really have too too much to say. 

Well, let's go through with some good news shall we??  I got my computer back, and it works fine.  It has a new hard drive, so like brand new.  :)  Also getting the old one fixed.  It is another laptop with the screen demolished.  It is a weird size, so an expensive fix, but figured we might as well.  We were in Best Buy picking up our fixed lap top, and looking around at all the electronic toys.  We were like...oooooh, maybe we should get this and this, or that, and that.  Nah just fix up the old laptop, and get 2 new tires on the car.  :)  That my friends is the life of a Rock-n-Roll star.  :)  LOL


There is a lot to life, and none of it is easy.  We all would really like a stress free life, but there ain't no such thing.  Sometimes we want our life to appear to be all that, and none of our lives are all that.  There is plenty of shit in life to go around, and it does go around.  Systems are set up by imperfect humans, and the systems are pretty fucked up, because Greed trumps all.  Revolutions don't answer any questions, because Greed trumps all.  Unhappiness is easily transferred into hate, and Killing people seems like the best answer.  Our lives would be so much better if those fuckers weren't alive.  :) 

Sometimes we think the x people overseas are really fucked up.  They think weird.  Truth is if you were born in the country of the x people you would think just like them.  The x people think us people are weird too.  They are not blind to our greed, and our motives.  We are, because our information comes from us.  We like us.  We don't see too many faults with us.  A wise path is one where we seek a higher knowledge, and a higher wisdom, and a higher understanding, instead of holding onto the crap that has been handed down from generation to generation.  (x people does not mean xxxxx people)   LOL  x=you pick the country

I look at the pieces I get of people's lives, and I see shit is hard.  Answers are not right here where we want them.  The thing that drives us crazy, is we want answers now, but answers take time.  Faith and time go hand in hand, and that what makes faith so hard.  Faith is all kindsa things.  Trust being very important.  It is being humble, because we have to accept we really are not in charge of our destiny, and our route really, as much as we pretend to be.  Strings can be pulled to keep us on the right path, and to open our eyes, and our ears.

The journey is hard.  I surely am not perfect, and sometimes life drives me nuts too.  I hate seeing shit where people pretend their life is so great.  Yeah, a lot of us have some great stuff, but a lot of it fucking sucks too.  We all are in the same boat as far as that is concerned.  It is about being real.  Being humble, and realizing we all are in this fucked up mess called life.  Our ending is with the worms too, and it don't matter how pretty we are.  :)  (me being the most pretty of course)   :)


That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  There really are two avenues.  Give up, or press on.  In life it is all about pressing on.  We can always pick ourselves up at any time, and press on.  Even if before we have given up. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Christi who got laid off yesterday, and she is probably hung over today.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Extras for me too.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   HA HA HA 

Olga too.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D  

Morning!! :D

Hey Folks, how's it going??? Me, I am doing good. I sure haven't blogged much this week. Been in a bad mood a bit I guess. Who knows why?? Feel pretty good today though!! :)

I have been a bad blogger for me. Haven't commented on many blogs, and may have pushed the mark as read button quite a few times. I really have not been interested in many of your lives this week. Wasn't really very interested in mine really too much!! :)

I did get in some pretty good training though. We had a track workout, and since I haven't been timing things, it appears I forgot how to use my stopwatch!! :)

I still have some paces to gauge my speed on. For February, I think it is o.k.

800-- 7:30

3-5:00 runs were in the 7:35-7:40 range

Last 800 was a 7:06 pace I think.

Maybe a look at my running goals:

Sub: 22:00 5K-- on track

3:35 marathon pace to be my marathon pace-- need to work on that.

Sub: 2:05 Riverbank!! (25K)

A good block of training has me thinking, I may have a good year in the running area. Mileage is growing, and legs are recovering overnight. I finished a 5 day stretch of running every day, while getting 40 miles in. That is pretty good for me.

We shall see!! :)

Any words of wisdom??? Nope not really. I keep going on, and just kinda see where this life thing is heading. Now I am going to drink some coffee!! :)

cya later!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Our computer is done, but I cannot find our reboot disc!! :) have to order a new one I guess!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya!! :D :D

Super Bowl Sundayyyy!! :D

Good morning all!! How's it goin??? Me, I am doing good. We ended up doing a 16 mile run yesterday. It is our hilly route. I'll tell you about it, but lemme get some coffee first!! :)

First off Jerry, 'lil Cath, and I did 4 early miles. Our Winter route is a 12 mile route max. It is very hilly, and challenging. If you want to add miles, it is best to do it early, unless you are disciplined enough to add after. I like getting extra early, because I know I very well may not add later. Cathy did the first 5 miles with Sara?? I think her name is. She is one of the fast feet. Then she doubled back up to meet us. Sara was only doing 10 miles. Us three added the challenging 2 mile stretch with a Gatorade/water break before, and after with Alan. We shoot the shit a bit at these breaks. I love breaks!! :)

Anyhoo, we doubled back. By the time we hit our last hard hill, I was falling back a bit. The hills were taking their toll. For the record, after next week, I will bring nutrition. 16 miles with no calories is hard!! :)

We hit a flat/ easy downhill for a good stretch, and the legs were turning over. The last mile plus, I was falling back, but caught up toward the end. I was having several ups and downs!! :)


That was it. We are following yesterday's 16 miler with a slow 6+ miler today!! Getting the hard stuff done feels good!! :)

Other than that not much going on. Well a couple things. 16 miler yesterday was hard. Add 10+ miles, and you have a marathon. The tricky math. It is early Feb. Though, and I will get stronger from here on out. That is the plan anyway!! :)

Thanx all for the comments the last coupla days!! I usually don't get a lot!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!! :) xo :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. I have tomorrow off work. I will be rooting for the Giants. Forgive me if I get a little excity, and sweary during the game!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. :) she needs 'em sometimes!! :)

Extras for everyone too!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!!! :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Happy Long-Run Saturday!!! :D

There was a lot on my mind this morning, should I bare all???

I'll go through some things... Maybe in a list'ish way.

1. I wonder about Nancy O'Toole. She has made my blog for as long as I can remember. Does she lack confidence??? She is a great and honest person. She is strong, but I think it is a shell. Perhaps she doesn't feel so strong. She wants to be right, and do right. She wants the answers to life. If I do this, and put all my effort into this, than that is the way. We are not afforded that luxury. A life's journey involves time. Only one is comfortable with time. Only one can use it, and it is one with perfect vision. Want me to make a confession?? One of the things that saddens me a bit, is me and her are not open friends like Olga and I. One other thing about her is she has two blogs, so she gets double xoxoxoxoxo's every day I write!! :)

2. I need to get some coffee!!! :)

3. I got some coffee!!! :)

4. I followed 2 bloggers yesterday. One was a different Nancy who went to my H.S. She was one of the people I left for a bit. Also a Laura girl. I don't know Laura, but she is from Northern California, and she runs. Good enough for me!!! :)

5. This week did not go as planned via running, but after next week shit gets real. 18 plus milers, and stuff. The fun part of Marathon training. The days we see what we got!! :)

6. I think I am going to buy a new desktop next week. We'll see.

7. Our bills are caught up before profit sharing. We took some 401K money to catch up the mortgage!! :) we don't do smart!!! :)

8. Today we are running between 15 and 16.5 miles. Jerry, I, and lil' Cath are meeting early.

9. Oh one other thing. I thought of the way of a flower garden. There are weeds. They are a dime-a-dozen. Nothing special. Big deal. There are flowers. They are unique, they are pretty, and the perennials come back up the next season with little babies. Our Journey is to be a flower. To stand on our own, in our unique way. It is scary, because none are strong enough, or confident enough to stand on our own. With help all is possible!!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's. !!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Laura is now a xoxoxo person!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Olga... It is all about trust!! :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. I trust more than just Olga, but it is Olga, and I luv her!! :)

Now for really really cya cya cya!! Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo. :D :D

Fridayyyyyyyyyyy!! :D

Good Morning all. How is everyone?? I had a couple great comments yesterday, one from Christi, and one from Damie. The story you are looking for is your story. Don't look for another person's story. Look for your own. This is hard, this blogging thing, and Damie reminded me. When we do this you can judge our asses. You put yourself out there, and I believe I will help support and tell the Judgers to go Fuck Off!!

Hold on going to get some coffee!! :).

All we do is a distraction really. Your Journey in life is to find who you are. You are not a diploma, a profession, a career, you are a person. We all do different things, and are interested in different things.  

Want to know something of me?? I was bored of blogging. I prayed let this be done!! I don't want to blog anymore, but here I am up every day before I need to be. Even when I go to bed later than normal. I think in some blogs people confuse what they do, with who they are. 2 different things people. Use your alone time to find out who you are.
Training can be alone time, but it is just dead time if your mind is empty. Trust me no one is going to give a shit about any of your races when you have been dead for one year. You won't either. The most important part of you is you...not anything else. I don't give a shit what you do!!  

Be the ball... Grasshopper!!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!!! :)

p.s. Damie is like the most impressive person I have "met" in a while!!! :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya!!!! :D  :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I Hate Blogging!! :)

I don't put a lot of thought into what I write on this thing. Sometimes I feel it is important to do this (people read it). Sometimes I think, what's the point??? (People don't read it)

It isn't just that either. I think we look for the good ones. The best people. The best people are not the ones who do everything right, they are the ones who don't pretend to do everything right. Any of you have FB or read some blogs will know what I mean.

Being honest is better than whatever version of fake good you try to be. Honest is achievable. You'll fall short of your version of "good". Your version is different than anothers. There is a mountain of information out there, and you will not possibly know everything.

I know we want our Saints. We want someone out there to look up to to say I will follow him/her. They know what the fuck they are doing. Fuck that!! Take the path less traveled. Follow yourself. Fuck everyone else. It is your life, do what you want.

I hate to be a buzz killl, but very little of the shit we do in life really matters in the Grand Scheme of things. Human life is like the worst invention ever!! :). LOL

Everything is fucking stupid, but people can be pretty o.k. Just be real, and be honest. Don't look for perfection in others. You won't find it. Don't pretend perfection to others you'll look just like an ass face!! :)

That is it for today!!! :)

Thanks for reading!!! :) xoxoxo

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)

Xo's!!! :)

Love You All!! :)

p.s. Speed work cut short, cause I had to shit!! FUCK!! Think I will run to work.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras to some of the married girls tooo!! :) xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya!! :D :D xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

MWAH!!!! :)