I seriously have nothing to write about, and almost don't even feel like blogging, but guess I will anyway. Don't you sometimes just feel like throwing your damn blog away, and say screw it?? Just go on..., but this is what I do... for whatever reason.
I'll get weird here, because if this blog is anything it is weird. It all starts with that old dude who I met who lost his wife of like 50 years or so, and I saw his face when he couldn't remember the name of his neighbor of like 9000 years. That is what I thought of when I returned from my 22:06- 5K.... or thereabouts. I have had other episodes where I took people's sadness, as it was too much for them. It usually ends in a bad night. Drains me of everything, and it is then when I needed support, and never got any. When I get empty like that I get angry, and hate just about everyone. I remember the night of the Iz song, I was like what the hell?? What is going on, and the next day on the blog I bitched. What the fuck is going on?? It took everything from me, and I didn't know why... and then I did.
This shit bugged me for a while, but I think I am over it. We are on a path where everyone is going to get a little bit wiser. You are on a path to learn about you, because it is what we all desire, but it is hard, because you go through your whole life, with all the sadness it entails. The past is filled with sadness for some reason. Perhaps we think it is better days gone by.
Like the song from the Goo Goo Dolls "Iris" and I don't want the world to see me, cuz I don't think that they'd understand. A kinda if I show you my dark side what would you do??
The race of life is hard. You have to step out of your comfort zone, because there is security in not showing your dark side. Bringing the dark to light is what it is all about. Love lives in the light, and doesn't know darkness. With this we have support. With this we all need support.
That is it for today!!! :)
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p.s. We got our 6 miler in last night. We may have dropped Jim on the hill on the way back, and he threw in one of his mile fartleks and was a good 5-10 paces ahead of us. We decided to go slow the last 1.4 miles, which wasn't slow. I think Jim and Jerry race each other, and make me suffer through it. :) LOL
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