I love the triple smile. Best thing I have ever seen. :))) HA HA!! So how's it going everyone?? Me pretty good. I had intentions of doing a lot yesterday, and did most I guess. I really wanted to read the Hunger Game Book, but the weather was so fricken nice out. After I cut the grass, I just sat outside, read a little, had a drink or two, while Lisa putzed with the flower garden. Do you ever get that feeling of cutting the grass for the first time, and just love being outside. I saw a lot of robins, which is awesome, and the trees are coming alive, so there is just so many greens to see. If that ain't what life is about I don't know what is.
I looked back at my FB update last night, and I saw I said what we do, and who we are is not important. I remember this one time a long time ago. I was on one of my Monday long runs after work. Probably a 13 miler or so. I tried doubling up Saturday long runs, with a Monday long'ish run for Marathon training. I felt something was not right with me. This was during heimleblog time too. Something was off, and mind you I woke up every morning strong, but was terrified throughout the day. Heimleblog days had a lot of bad days. Although I offered support to 4 bloggers, I had to suffer through a bunch of shit. Hidden shit, that no one knew about. Some days were really fucking bad though. Anyway, I remember running back home on my long'ish run, and the feeling finally hit me. "My life is worth so very little, do with it as you will." I remember thinking man our lives are so huge to us, but in reality we are such a small and insignificant thing in the grand scheme of things.
I can get really weird on this thing, and I guess I will again. I remember talking to Russ Beaupre at Steve R's thingy, and some of Steve's struggles. He drank a lot, and could never control it. It controlled him you know?? I always thought that was impossible, but I never really got addicted to anything. I chewed tobacco for a bit after H.S. and quit like that. I smoked ciggarettes for like a year and quit like that. I drink, and choose to do it, but It isn't like I don't wake up early without my alarm clock anyway. I also am not one of those drink til 3:00 am types. Well, I won't get into the really weird thing about Steve, because it is really weird. I told Gina a long time ago. I had to take some of his craziness, so he could process through his life. I guess I did tell you. He was having struggles with being paranoid and stuff like that. I took that from him, because that shit don't overpower me. Not because I am strong on my own per se, but I am well looked after in a way.
I remember saying when I heard about Steve that we'll use it for the greater good, whatever that meant. Steve's death has been put to good use on this thing though huh?? A lot of people added, and some I don't even know. :)
Anyway I guess what I am saying is our life is really small, but our false view is how big it is. One of the many things we have to overcome I guess. Isn't that what Solomon was pointing out to anyway in Ecclesiastes?? He was shown what was to be done, and he knew it was a grievous task. A lot of hard days I guess, and I know it, and the beauty of all the struggles since I started blogging is I wake up every morning ready to go.
Goals??? nah, not really. I guess I just want to enjoy my life. Luckily I like running, and I love my job most of the time, and all kindsa things. Why??? Because it is in my heart to be that way. How much of how we feel, and how we act do we have control of?? Can you make yourself be very happy every second of the day?? Can you make yourself a nice person every second of every day?? Wouldn't you want to be the best person ever??
Yesterday was strange in ways. I don't do strange well.
That is it for today!!! :)
Thanks for reading!!! :)
Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!! :)
Love You All!!! :)
p.s. Planning on running tonight, so I will be able to get a lotta reading done. :)))
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I am going to try and add a triple smile every day if I remember. Just another way of me to add Damie. :))) She wonna the best. :)))
Laterzzzzz all. :)))
Now for really really cya cya cya :D :D