Change Is For The Young

I don't know if any of you people read Kelly Dunleavy's site or not, but her last post said unemployment in Spain for people her age is 40%.  I assume that to be 30'ish.  So people in Spain of that age are screwed.  So many people, "Everyone" puts so much faith in society, and you know of those 40% are some hard workers.  Some people who if given the chance would do a great job.  Things outside of their control have made their life hard.  We also tend to put faith in people too.  Dress them up in nice suits, and they have these great smiles, but even those on the highest perches when they fall turn into just little human beings like we all are.  See pictures of Gadhafi, and Hussein after their fall. 

I think anyone can follow society off the cliff.  What was the correct and right thing to do if you were a German of the age of 30 in 1942.  What was your job??  What if you were a police officer in Mississippi in the 1960's.  What did you do??  I think there is a higher wisdom, and a higher knowledge than having the best budget, and the best groceries.  It is a shitty world out there in many cases, and that is truth.  We tend to get blinded by the people in suits who talk to us on the tee vee.  We also tend to get blinded by the people who are in suits as they make speeches. 

Inside us all though is a bright light called the truth, and it is within our grasp, and within our reach to find it and look at it.  The truth you see is not all fun and games.  Within the truth are some harsh and hard lessons.  Truth you see is not for the weak, and timid.  Nope, truth is for the strong.  I guess in a way there is some security in not looking at the truth, and get wrapped up in some other stuff, but that won't lead to happiness.  Happiness is found by getting to know yourself.  It is by getting to find out who you are, and what you are in relation to the world and all.  All this can be done throughout the day doing whatever it is you do.  You see the Atheist is just as close-minded as the religious.  Their closed minds make them hate each other.  The light and truth is inside them both.  They have that in common.  In other words we all have to find our way, but with that we have help.  Just gotta find our inner light/truth. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  just a bike to work and back, and a short run, that was shorter due to poopy issues.  ;)   Can anyone relate to that???   :)   We are doing our longer one tonight.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

I Am Such An Ass!!

Ha Ha!!   I don't really have much today I don't think, but yesterday was a pretty good day.  I woke up did my thing, and instead of getting ready to run to work, make my lunch, etc... I got tired again, so slept in.  No biggie I just decided to run home from work.  That was great btw.  I feel like I am getting in shape, so that is good.  I really didn't want to do anything, so I really relaxed the rest of the night.  I read a bit, and paid some bills, and glam stuff like that.  It wasn't too bad for a Monday.  Perhaps I turned a corner, because some days I get home, and I look out the window, and grab a drink.  Not this Monday so that is good.  I felt pretty good. 

Maybe I should tell you some things about me, which you probably will never guess.  I don't do rejection well, and it is not like I can go bopping around being the most confident person in the world.  If I feel weak internally, you know like people don't like me or whatever, I shrink my little world into more comfortable surroundings.  That is with wife and close friends, and that is trust.  The ability to go out and support is really based on a confidence, and a trust in myself, and my surroundings, etc...  I sometimes feel like I am an ant.  I am building this thing up, and sometimes something will make me feel low, and the thing I have been building gets crushed.  But being the good ant I am I start rebuilding right away. 

In other words I am not that strong, although I believe in myself.  I am not always outgoing, although I always feel confident.  This thing has come a long ways too, because I have been sharing about me for a while. 

Anyway wanna know something I am thankful for??  Let's see, I am thankful I am healthy, and that life every day is a new day to reinvent yourself, or be active or start new things.  This year got sloppy at times, and none of us were perfect that is for sure, but I feel pretty good now, and hope you all do too.  :)  Been a pretty good year huh??  Got to know a lot of people, and hope to continue on that path.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Tuesday is a run night, and another 4 day in a rower.  I love it.  :)  plus I'll bike to work and back.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

I Didn't Forget. :)

Well first off I am adding another person to xoxoxoxoxo.  It is a person I work with.  errrrr worked with.  Her name is Latoya.  She has one of the BEST personalities ever.  As good as Doreen, and Olga, and Jules etc...  Really really one of the best.  She has a great smile, and she is as fun as they come, but also like "all" people has her quiet time where she ponders life, and wonders about things.  Everyone has these things, but you can see it in her.  The serious real side of life.  There ain't anyone stronger than her, and yes even she needs support.  If an Olga, Doreen, Jules need support then even she does too.  I love her tons for all the realness she brings to the table.  :)

Other than that I ran yesterday, and watched the Bears lose.  I don't take those losses well, and end up being an asshole.  :)

Life goes on though, and today is another run day for me.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  A person who had the best life seemingly killed himself the other day.  He was a National Soccer coach for Wales.  People suffer from depression, and not feeling all that.  EVERYONE DOES!!  Don't fucking pretend you are always on, cuz none of us are.  Like  Kelly Dunleavy said you fakers do more harm than good. and your assholes deep down, because you are liars.  That was just a p.s. p.s. btw.  :)   This one isn't   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo.   MWAH!!!   :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras for Doreen cuz I love her.   :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga cuz I love her :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Jules cuz I love her.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Latoya cuz she is strong and honest and real.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Olga's twin sister for the same reason.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   HA HA

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D  :D

A Day Unplanned...

Well on Saturday there would only be two things planned.  The run, and the Michigan game.  Michigan played their arch-rival, and Michigan hasn't beaten them in a while.  I didn't really plan on watching the game at the bar, but I thought I'd go there for atmosphere.  Lisa had to work.  Michigan finally won.  One thing about being at New Holland, and I didn't think of this til later.  When I was leaving I told Katy good bye and I luv ya.  I mean it was the most natural thing in the world, and she said it back.  I thought of it later, and thought hmmmm... maybe not everyone does that.  :)   LOL. 

On the run not much to note, other than it felt like a good one.  We ended up doing the 6+ mile route, and I have to say I felt pretty good on it.  I really feel now like I want to want to get in shape.  We talked of marathons, and those things seem to be crazy things.  It has been a while since I have run long, but I remember how when you are in the swing of it 16 miles doesn't seem like a long run at times.  I am not there yet obviously, but I will get there.  That is pretty exciting.  For the record Jerry, Jim, and Ken went with on the run.

After New Holland I stopped over to Beau and Charity's to shoot the shit for a bit to see how they were doing.  I didn't really feel like drinking anymore so I went home, and watched t.v. napped, and watched t.v.  :)  Just laying low.  I'll have to get some shit done around the house today.  Not much, but just laundry and stuff.

Nothing real heavy on this post.  :)  You know I never really know what I am going to write anyway, I just pop it out. 

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Johnny won his fight, beat the dude in the dude's home town.  That is a big win for him fo sho!!!  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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I am adding Mindee to the Michigan girl thing.  She had a year a lot like Alili, not all fun and games, and hit some low spots.  I like her a lot.  :)  I don't know why I didn't before.  She is funny, and has a great personality, and also has some hard stuff she has been dealing with.  Not to mention she moved from, Wisconsin to NYC.  Even things like that are stressful.  Just want to add her to xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, cuz she could use support too, and like I said I like her a lot.  :)

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D

I'll give extras for Doreen, cuz I love her.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   :)

Let's Talk About Football!!

Well, my blog got all messed up again.  yay.  So I will have to fix that.  Shouldn't be a big deal, because I trust everyone that was on my list,  just went through another bad spell, where I think people misunderstood me, and meant they did not trust me.  The problem with it too is it ends up doing more damage.  We've done this long enough, that I think you can trust this thing to get done right.  Remember though I have a bad little voice in me that CAN VERY EASILY make me think the worst. 

People struggle with stuff, and a lot of you people are really important people.  I like to put names on this thing too, and some people lack confidence, and I'd like to couple them with confident people so they know they are important too.  People don't always feel great about themselves, and it is nice to know some of us think about you, and think you are important. 

This blog is going to get weird time to time, because that is part of the plan, just like me doing this blog is part of the plan.  I have been doing it a while, so sometimes I am shocked that this seems weird to people.  :)  I guess I have said some crazy things though huh?? 

Oh shit I was going to talk about football.  I just want to say here and now I think this year has been great for College and Pro Football.  I think I have enjoyed it more than most years.  You really cannot tell who is going to win on any given day.  It makes it fun to watch. 

You know what is kinda great though??  I have no problem adding everyone back.  I feel comfortable with them all.  So that is good.  :)



That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Johnny Garcia has his biggest bout to date.  He is fighting in Cincinnati against another undefeated boxer who is from Cincinnati.  Think positive thoughts for him.  Remember he has that extra gear.  The I got this gear.  I don't have that gear that is for sure.  I have a It got me gear.  :)   LOL

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D  

Some People Lack Confidence!!

That is what I notice sometimes.  I guess out in the world people dislike all kinds of different people.  Many times internally going down some slippery slope to think the most ludicrous things of people.  Republicans and Democrats have the potential to hate each other so much in our country we forget we are all just people.  I know in my life as I was looking and looking, and this would have been early 90's btw.  I was looking what is a good thing to do with ones life??  Now my life was being steered in a direction.  A direction in which my vision was not liking what it saw.  Do you know what happened on my birthday on a August 15th.  My girlfriend and I Katrina broke up.  She did it.  Now my step mom was already dead.  I had a degree in College.  It was a B.S. in Business Administration, and yeah I def think the B.S. part is quite aproppos.  :)  I don't know if you remember or not, but I was relieved.  I am on my own, my own life to do my own thing.  So I worked, and read the bible every day, because I wanted to be a good person.  My Grandpa died a couple days later the 18th of August maybe.  I was like hmmmm.  I got in trouble for not telling Katrina.  She was mad.  I told her well we were broken up, I figured you wouldn't care.  Us guys are dumb.  We don't understand the capacity of women to care for people.  We don't understand, cuz many times we are not the most compassionate/ caring people. 

Anyway, what I noticed is I was not becoming a better person.  I had a "view" of what a good person is, and I failed.  I looked into the mirror, and judged myself into what I felt a good and decent person is and was.  If there was a way to make a person into a good person, I was all in.  That is what I wanted.  We all are in the same boat.  Everyone in the world.  I don't care what country you are from, you are going to fuck up, and you aren't perfect.  Killing brown people overseas is pointless, cuz they are imperfect.  Brown people killing us on our own soil is stupid too, because we are imperfect.  Like the lesson of Noah too, if God wanted to kill people he don't need our help.  There are no holy wars so to speak.  Although the lesson of Noah also was he wanted to save people, not kill them.  Not many believed though. 

Anyway since it is Thanksgiving I wanted to mention something about my own little special Thanksgiving blogger Dee.  I think she is  brave, and honest, yet inside at times feels not so confident.  She doesn't get a lot of support either I don't think.  No one really understands her complex personality.  She wants to be skinny, but struggles with diet.  Are 90% of girls  like that??   I have no idea what she looks like btw.  She it seems to me is a 100 percenter.  She would love to boil her life to just focus on one thing 100 percent of the time, and give it her all.  Many athletes are like that.  Trying to find the path that leads to happiness is really what we are all about.  Not all life is happy though. 

Oh well just blogging about.  My Signature line is to help build up o.k.  If I use your name in this thing then in my world that is an honor, cuz not everyone makes it on here a lot. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Enjoy your day today everyone.  I hope some of you have to work.  ;)   j/k   :)  Ha Ha 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

I Did A Little Math!!

Okay Okay, so I gots me this here crazy little blog, and like I said this is what I do.  I wake up early, and do this for whatever reason, and I have been doing it a while.  As a matter of fact it is my 3rd blog, because I deleted the other 2.  When my stuff came out, there was no support, and no blog, and a shortened list of who I read.  Yet I still survived, with help.  How I started back up after heimleblog, I have no idea.  I still needed to get stuff out, and there came the Journey.  I many many days during both those blogs would feel bad throughout the day.  I mean actually horrible about myself, but always always always woke up strong the next day.  I think it helped to have Becky write every day.  I have absolutely no idea what the hell is going on with her either.  She had a kid what a year or so ago??  Probably still cheering for her Shitty Jets team.  :)  Does she still work out 8 hours/day???   I have no idea.  We communicated via our blogs kinda every day as friends, and now nothing.  Life goes on, but I sure haven't thought of her in a while til now.  Oh yeah, I forgot.  That I blog almost every day mentions her.  No one is as consistent as her, but no one is as crazy either.  :)   j/k.  Life has many changes huh?? 

Anyway if any of you noticed the little change yesterday you will notice there are two people lumped together in my signature line.  Steve R's thing,  xoxoxoxoxoxoxo,  and Blogger on my RHS.  Yep,  Leigh is still on my RHS, and Jen Gray is the only other person to be like that.  I kinda like that.  :) 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  just ran to work and rode my bike home yesterday.  It still was Monday.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D