The First Day.

I guess we can call yesterday the first day of Sober October. I got sick I think, or maybe I've been a bit dragged down. On vacation I was more tired than normal. Thursday night I puked twice. I was making chicken noodle soup,  and my stomach turned.  As someone who never pukes that was surprising. I slept for a bit, and felt better.

I was tired after work,  so Friday I just read my book, and slept. Can't say I felt really energetic at work Saturday.  I watched football,  and eventually had a couple drinks.  Ate a very small meal. Sunday, I slept a lot for me, after waking up for a while at stupid o clock. I was able to fall back asleep. I got my Sunday shit done, and ass pissed all day.

My appetite is back, I was starving at dinner. I feel fine this morning. My sleeping heart rate dropped 3 points from my norm. Probably,  cuz my body has no alcohol in it. Also I weigh 164.4 to start Sober October. I never hardly weigh myself so I decided I better before I forget. I wanna see what my weight does in October with no drinking. 167 is my marathon P.R. weight, so I am not heavy at all.

Outside of that I am going through books. I am on the last Harry Potter book. I have to finish it in a week, cuz the last one I got from the library. After that I am going to do the Dark Tower by Stephen King. I read the first 3 a million years ago, but never went any further, since he didn't write the 4th one til 20 years later or whatever. Also I am almost done reading the golden compass trilogy.

That's about all I got. Sick, sober, football,  and books I guess. Lisa spent the whole weekend cleaning the basement, which is awesome. It's a big project I knew we had to tackle. She did it with help from her daughter. We are going to the dump today too, so that will be done. Sober October is starting out pretty good, and it isn't even October. Outside the ass pissing and stuff.

Outside of that not much. When you don't think your healthy you think of healthy people. Also you think of those who aren't healthy very often. I am always healthy,  so it's pretty major if I am not, just cuz it, basically is uncharted waters.

I live an okay lifestyle. I am pretty active all things considered. I am giving up my one vice for a month. Maybe longer too, who knows?  As someone who has been down that road before,  a sober person thinks a drunk person is ridiculous. A drunk person has no idea how dumb they are

A drunk person wants to feel good. That is what I am shooting for being sober. To feel even better than I do normally. Like this morning I can tell I didn't drink, just how I feel on the inside. It's different.

Anyway, that is it for me. Obviously not much going on with me. Just a start of something new and different, for a month or so.

Laterzzzzzzz.    :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeeeeee.       :)))

Back.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. I am back from my little trip. The trip was fine, but I gotta say I like being home better. It's just more comfortable for me to be home. Maybe that is just how I am. Maybe when you feel you aren't missing out on anything in life, then you have no need to see all the things. Also if you are happy and content at home, then you really don't need to travel.

I may want to check out another place late Winter, early Spring,  but I am fine at home. The weather has been pretty good. I haven't worn socks since I last worked. Almost a week ago. I way overpacked.  Ridiculously so. Anyway we saw all the things. Our last full day we sat on the beach for a while. It was like 75°, and sunny.

We ate food obviously,  but who can eat the full portions we get for our meals?  In the end we definitely throw a lot of food away.

Sober October is coming up. I am looking forward to it. I am not sure if drinking is still fun. It will be different I guess to do other stuff.

I didn't really think of much while I was away. We ate lunch at a place. The guy says he drives 45 minutes to work each way. He was a server. It's such a touristy place I am sure he makes good money, but the drive. I don't particularly like driving so much. Michigan in general is pretty much not developed. A ton of forest land, and so much property doing nothing. I think that's good. A lot of fresh water. A lot of forest, and MI is just a big State. The majority of it I'd say is scarcely populated.

There are two pretty big islands off the coast by the sleeping Bear dunes. North and south Manitou islands. Unpopulated except for a ranger station. Can you imagine?  2 islands on Lake MI not being used for anything.

Beer making took over Traverse City. Also wine making. It also is the cherry capital of the World to my knowledge. Plenty of fruit obviously. Grapes, peaches,  etc... 

You have to pretty much drive everywhere in Traverse City. The main street next to the water was very trafficy. We went to the downtown shopping,  and restaurant district. I never go to downtown Holland hardly. I never go in the shops, and I assume locals are the same in Traverse City. I am curious now though. I wanna go to one of the hotels, and see what the pamphlets say as to what to see in Holland.

I guess when you travel you are supposed to try and see all the shit the locals don't care about is my guess.

Anyways I guess I'll take the monster Hope. She's been shooting me some silent but deadlies.    Stinkies. 

Til next time. 

I guess one more thing. I've said it before, but as to life. I'd rather have mine than anyone else's.  Everyone else seems like it would be hard. 

Laterzzzzzzz.     :)

xoxo.      :)

xxoo.     :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.      :)))

One More Day.

So after today I am officially on vacation for 5 days. I am kinda excited about it. Typically I am pretty relaxed in my day to day. I enjoy my routine. My life is a vacation, but all the same I think it will be fun. I'll get back from vacation, pretty soon it will be the weekend already,  and then sober October. Fun fun.  :) 

Yesterday was just a normal day. I didn't do anything crazy. It was warm in the afternoon again. I am spending time outside as much as possible. Of course it ain't no thing for me to be outdoors in the Fall either. Life is good in any season. For me anyway.

My routine always stays with me, and I like it. My house is comfortable. My life is easy, and yadda yadda yadda. I know people think the grass looks greener elsewhere a lot, but for me the grass is greenest in my life. I look at others and pity others really. You ain't got what I got. You went out to try and make your best life,  while I was given the best life. I could have gone your direction, but life pulled me toward a turn. I did it not knowing where it would lead me. It led me to live my best life. By taking all the falseness of the World away from me. No fairy tales for me. No heroes, or false truths.  My heart was strengthened to accept harsh truths.

Everything is just easy. I don't waste time on  empty pursuits. My day to day is pretty full. I am going on vacation to recharge from my vacation'ish day to day.   :)  I regularly feel recharged every week, or every day. I do pretty good in the mornings. I typically am a good sleeper.

Pretty sweet huh? 

Anyway I spose. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.    :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeeee.       :)))

I Think I Got Time To Rush One Up.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I slept in this morning. I was more tired at 2:30 AM than 11:30 PM. (Random wake up time)  I've run 4 days in a row anyway. I don't run long at all, so I can do that. I don't have to workout today,  so I'll have time after. I felt sluggish yesterday, and better today. I did get my full workout in yesterday, which is always awesome. I sat outside in 80 degree weather too. Oh, I ran the robot too, and we made tacos. That's a good day as far as I am concerned.

2 more days of work then vacation. I didn't think of too much yesterday. Nothing really on the mind.  Life is just this thing I am doing. Nothing really for me to stress about. People can make their own mistakes, and it isn't my concern. I am not held accountable for what others do. That's their issue. I don't feel I have a job to do as people go.  I don't worry about other's lives at all. I have my own life. It's simple. 

I don't carry around any slogans. I just am, and that's good enough. I have no heroes before me. I have the best life. I am secure, content,  and strong. These are the best things one can feel on the inside. It's what you need to live your best life.

You don't need recognition, millions of dollars, a mansion, or whatever. What I have is what you want. These things come from the heart. I had to do my story to finally get these things. My life is like Job's in his final years. It's just my story isn't over. I didn't know I could be like Job, before I did my final thing.

Remember I told you, probably in a previous blog, but back in the early 90s, I was cleaning an old person's room, at the old people's home. The lady told me I needed to have the patience of Job to do my job. It was a double meaning. Cleaning poop off the floor, and a foreshadow of what was to come.

Shortly after that I suffered like Job for 6 straight days. The worst of the worst persecuted me relentlessly.  I couldn't sleep,  I had no desire to eat. I lived the hidden part of life. I was picked up after those 6 days. Made full for a short while, and shortly after that the wilderness.

The wilderness led me to overcoming for the first time. I was living the last night of my life, and going to Hell. The judge said I could save myself at the expense of my friends. I said "Let God's will be done" thereby assuring my place in Hell. The judges play God. I was judged. I woke up the next morning though.

Anyhoo, I don't think of those things often, but I did have to have the patience of Job to live like him in his final years. I have to go the final step though. To be the best a person can be.

Also at that point the World will know me, and I will be it's enemy. These things I've known a while. The timing ... not so much.

Now I just live my life. At some point I'll have to overcome the 3rd time. I don't really worry about that though. It'll happen eventually. When the story teller decides it's time. That ain't me. 

Anyway, I spose. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.     :)

xoxo.      :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeeeee.       :)))

A Day.

That's pretty much what yesterday was. I did my typical thing. After work I got a few things done. Did the dishes, filled up the yard bin with more branches and stuff, picked tomatoes, and ran the robot. Little things like that actually mean a lot to me. Just getting stuff done. I had a couple drinks,  and Lisa just picked up dinner. I was too tired to cook.

I slept early, and woke up early. I toyed with sleeping til 5:00, but I was done sleeping, so i figured I'd get up. The benefits of running Hope now are better than laying in bed for no reason. It's a workout day too, so I am not coming home straight from work.  Outside of my workout I don't think I have much to do. After yesterday I guess I decided to clean the house in October. Organize, get rid of shit. We still have another dump pass we can get.

I am so looking forward to October for some reason. I don't know why. I think not drinking for a month will be easy. I never really ever wanted to quit before to my knowledge. I've wanted to drink less I guess, but I really now want to take a month off. The stars just aligned right for a try at Sober October. Alcohol is probably one of the easiest drugs to quit is my guess. It seems to me anyway. It's the only drug I take. Some have to give up alcohol and marijuana. I think those who consistently take marijuana will struggle more. Alcohol will be easy to quit. Marijuana maybe not so much. I'm just going by what others have told me. I've probably smoked marijuana maybe 5 times in the last 30 years. Just not my thing.

Anyway, not much else. I have vacation coming up. One that's my speed. 4 nights away. I don't like long vacations as you know. I pretty much like my routine a lot. It will be nice to get away for a bit. We will just do some sightseeing, and eat, shop some. Shit like that. I do wanna check out any local bakeries while I am there. See what they have and stuff.

One thing I like about vacation is an early morning run, coffee, and read. Probably running coming last, as better to run during daylight in an unfamiliar town. Pretty soon after that it will be October. October is no drinking, and then November. Thanksgiving and Christmas to soon follow. All of a sudden it will be January. Then February. It's not too far away is it. 

What will my life look like then?  What challenges can I have before me?  I will worry about October first I guess. I am so excited for it in a strange way.

Outside that not much. It's hard to find challenges for a 53 year old guy huh?  We are past our prime. My legs no longer stay healthy for running goals. I don't have the desire to be a huge workout guy. Good thing I like my routine. At the end of the day I like my life.  I have nothing to escape from. I can handle life head on, because my life is easy. I have no fear or anxiety toward the future.

I've been given the winning ticket in life. It isn't grand accomplishments,  or big time popularity. I am just cool with stuff. I am not really very sociable I guess outside of work. I don't need to be. I am fine at home doing my own thing. I am never really bored. I am busy with stuff, and I generally feel pretty good.

Anyway, another update about nothing. 

I am sure it's a fun read.    :)

Laterzzzzzzzz.    :)

xoxo.       :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeee.      :)))

A Day Was Had.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I am going watchless for a while, as I lost my charger. It should show up sometime or I'll buy a new one. I am going to not use my watch til after vacation. Gotta clear up a yeast spot I am sure. My hands are in yeasty doughs pretty much 5 days/week, so I am going to get rid of those stupid spots the doughs stick to the watch band, and if you are not careful that can happen. Lesson learned.

Yesterday was okay. I got my full workout in, and I ran the robot. It's no big thing to run the robot, but you can forget some days. Afterwards the floors look so clean. Without it we would vacuum our house once/week if lucky. Never under the beds either or couches and stuff. If you have the means I recommend one. Especially if you have pets.

Yesterday was fine. I wasn't super duper productive after work, but I did get some shit done. I did finish the 5th Harry Potter book. 2 more to go.

Not much really going on with me. Going about doing my day to day. I really need to come up with a plan for October. Some special activity or challenge. Maybe I should take up fishing or something. Super duper clean up the house?  I am still pondering. It's like my whole life can open up to something new, and I am not sure what that new thing will be. I want to do something useful though. Not learn to play the guitar or anything like that. I guess I should take fishing off the list too. That's dumb.

What else?  Ermmm, not much. Life continues to move forward. Obviously I don't have a lot to stress me out. My life is pretty simple. I am active which is simple. I regularly use a lot of my muscles, so that is a positive thing. I don't have some great time consuming workout routine. Maybe 3 hours of running/week, and 3 hours resistance training. Roughly 10 miles of walking/day besides Sunday which is usually less. Its simple. I make no great sacrifice to be the way I am. Going to bed early isn't a sacrifice, and either is waking up early. Just my norm. Biking to work isn't a sacrifice, and either is running. Perhaps the only thing considered a sacrifice is biking away from home to work out 3 days per week. The positives totally outweigh the sacrifice. In life I am super lucky. My work keeps me active. It's easy. Also my heart is pretty cool with how my life is.

I don't yearn for better things. I guess my life is fun. I like it. I really wouldn't change a thing. I am lucky to have my heart as it is. I know it's different than if I went my own way. I know you aren't as I am, and sometimes I think... well I am not sure. I don't know how you are. I just know you aren't like me. You missed something along the way huh? 

Life is hard unless it is made easy for you. My life has been made easy, but my path wasn't. Its so long ago though I don't  even remember how hard it was. Someone dies eventually you don't think of them. Same with the hard parts of my journey. Its History. Don't care anymore.

That's our legacy too. We'll be in the ground for a while,  and no one gives a fuck after a certain point.

Fine by me. I feel I have the best part of life. An accepting,  and content heart. I don't yearn for stuff. Not much for me to worry about either.

Anyways. 

Laterzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeeeeee.      :)))

It's Monday.

That's all I have to say about that. I am up early so that's good. I slept for 5 hours and 43 minutes. Not great, not horrible. Yesterday was okay as far as getting my Sunday shit done. All my laundry is folded and put away. I bought tide pods which were on sale. I've always wanted to try them. I use a similar thing in my dishwasher so.

I was done early as expected. I watched football too. The games were pretty exciting. Personally I think there are football teams, and then there is another team with Patrick Maholmes as QB.

I was thinking about October coming up, since I am not drinking I should also add another goal or activity. I am not sure what though. Obviously nothing to do with running. I'll keep my short runs with Hope. I'll think about it.

This morning there is very little on my mind. I got ready to do this thing, and I knew it was going to be a struggle. Yesterday was pretty okay actually. I really got a lot done before noon. I didn't read my book, but did listen to a lot of my Harry Potter book. Only 1-1/2 hours left.

I have to workout today, and not sure what to do after. I am thinking read, or watch my show, but what I feel this morning does not always mean I'll feel the same when I get home. I don't really have anything pressing to do. I feel pretty relaxed about stuff. I'll get a good little run in soon, which is always a good start to the day. I used to think with running more is better, but now I think running short is fine. You don't need a million miles/week to get good benefits from it. I don't time my workout sessions, but I bet all parts take less than an hour. So maybe I exercise like 6 hours/week. I don't really consider bike commuting exercise, but I guess you can count that. I've been doing it so long, I just consider it standard transportation. That too does start off the day in a good way.

I guess what it means is you can do healthy shit, and it won't take you all day long to do it. I am lucky I'll typically have 10 miles in without exercise. Just by living. I guess in my life everything is simple. I don't have to reinvent the wheel or anything. More accept my limitations I guess. Also don't add too much stuff you'll burn out. Keep things at a sustainable level. I ain't going to the Olympics,  which seems horrible when you think of it.

I guess in the end my life is pretty simple. I don't have much to worry about. I am healthy, going to get healthier. I stay active, cuz my life is that way. Every morning I got shit to do, which is great for me. My day is filled no matter what pretty much. I like it that way too.

The only thing left is what to do in October. I'll think on that. Hopefully something comes to mind.

I really got nothing like I said. Maybe this year is pretty much about nothing. I don't feel we are in the wilderness anymore, but more in an in between place. Not the wilderness,  but not where we are going. Of course maybe we still are in the wilderness, but it doesn't affect me at all. One thing I know is this blog is pretty much my day to day/nothing.

I spose.  

Laterzzzzzzz.     :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.    :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.      :)))