Til This Day I Am A Dumb White Guy

Geesh, there are still a ton of protests going on. In my past I have been so angry that slavery existed,  and angrier still about words how great our Country is or was. Wealthy yes relative to other countries.  Great?  Um, no. Not really.  The Marshall plan was great. Truman doctrine,  not so much. Stalin was in power though how do you deal with one monster when you just defeated another?  Not through Neville Chamberlain type diplomacy,  that's for sure. In the end the Truman Doctrine cost many lives. Without it who knows what the late 40s and 50s would be like. 

Anyway about the protests going on I am dumb. I saw the cop in Minnesota, and it is disgusting. Also I  understand this is not an uncommon thing. It is bad. I remember facing this problem in a Law class. How can you make things equal for blacks?  

You can't. You are looking at what 160 years after the emancipation proclamation. Schooling for black people was no way equal in the south. North  either for that matter. You are looking at multiple generations of keeping blacks not equal. You don't fix that overnight. It takes

generations to fix that. As to the questions of equality no we are not there. 

I am a dumb white guy. I have no idea the black person's walk. They carry a badge as noticeable as a yellow star, cuz they were born with it. Can never take it off. I am a dumb white guy I don't know what that is like. How do you fix the inequity of 160 plus years, not to mention however long slavery was before that. 

The only thing powerful enough to overcome such injustice is forgiveness. Us white people,  well I'd say those of us who look at these types of things sure are sorry. We cannot fix the wrongs done. The power is all in the hands of the injured party. They've been dealt a bad hand. Us white people in america have been dealt a pretty good hand, and we didn't do anything great with it. I don't think peace is achievable for us lowly humans. We are not smart enough for such an enlightened way of life. 

So, I don't try and change the World. In the end I am not even powerful enough to change myself. A Saint I would have liked to be, but I am not able. I live in a World too where most/all think they are Saints due to some characteric(s) they may possess. 

So I work, eat, sleep. Tryna get in shape too. I gained another pound last week, and lost more body fat as a percentage. I've gained 5 pounds in the last 5 weeks, and lost 2 percentage points of fat. a pound each week too. I'd still like to be closer to 160, but I am active, and I spose I am building annoying heavy muscle. Also, I cannot stop eating.   :)  Last week I was at 79 miles. I don't see that going down anytime soon. 

Anyway it is Sunday. I have a lot to do. Today will be day 15 in a row of running. Halfway there. If you ever see someone do something for 30 days straight, and it motivates you to do something for 30 days straight.  Don't do it. Not unless you are the type of person who likes to wear a noose around your neck. I don't see many,  and actually any people doing that. Still though it's good for me. 

Remember when I was worried weighing 158. I am doing pretty good now. 

Laterzzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeeeee.        :)))

I Definitely Got Time

Good morning. How's it going?  I am doing fine. I am at 68 miles with another full day of work ahead. Plus another run. My run yesterday was better. I could feel the start of me getting in running shape. I'd say there was around a decade of me running distance, and wow, how did that work?  The starting runner cannot fathom those things. I don't even know where this is leading. I've run 13 days in a row no less for the ware. Is that the saying?  I do not kneel down as easy, so I really have to stretch more.  Remember how I started the year?  

I did an extra set of pullups,  and dips. I did the last set after 4- tens of the knee to chest. The last one burned. Doing better on form with the dips. Just go slow and steady. When you are a kid of 125 pounds or something it seems you just zipped them along. An old person of 165 pounds there will be no more zipping dips. at least for a while yet. Gotta get my muscles used to it. 

So, I am at the beginning of things. Beginning running, and the future is uncertain. Are greater, and better things in store?  Can I use my insane normal work activity as a stepping stone to bigger and better things?  That's the question we will answer as we move on. 

I don't feel I have the time to be a real exercise weenie, but when you resistance train that stuff gets easier,  and you can do more. My pushups were surprisingly easy yesterday. Actually the pullups were harder, and usually the reverse happens. 

As always when I look in the morning the future is unlimited. I am always ready to get after it. Fatigue does take away some of the sparkle I have when I first wake up. Really though right now I feel excited. I feel great things can happen potentially.  As far as me running, and getting in really good shape. 

Lisa goes back to work one week from Tuesday. She will get on a regular schedule. She really likes staying at home, luckily she likes her job and the people,  so it will be good. 

Outside that not much. The World moves on. We are in a stretch of good weather. I am in a good stretch of living. Being active. Starting next week I foresee 80 miles being my norm, just cuz we will be in full swing. Lisa picked up icecream from the bakery. I had her get me an ice cream sandwich. We are a bakery, and we make cookies. It is a good idea, and I had chocolate ice cream with two peanut butter cookies, and mini peanut butter chips sprinkled on the side. That shit will take off I feel. It was really good. 

The thing about it though is I make the cookies. Fill the bakery with cookies, two for each ice cream sandwich, also when funerals start ordering again, it is a lot of work. Plus getting the ice cream sandwiches packaged is work too. I won't be involved with that too much. It will take a while as most things do, but I feel it will take off. Can't wait to try the macadamia white chocolate cookie with strawberry ice cream. How good does that sound?  

Anyway, I guess things are going good. I feel pretty good about stuff. A lot of good things going on with me. There is even talk of another stimulus in late Summer early Fall. Can you imagine?  How did I end up so lucky coming out of this thing better off?  I doubt I am in the majority. I guess its good to be able to live comfortably on very little. 

Anyway, I gotta run. 

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeeeeee.      :)))

Sluggish

So, my 12th run sure was sluggish. The weather was fine too. I know you cannot take too much stock in me  running every day for such a short run, but yesterday sure sucked. I definitely expected better. Most runs are done having 10 miles in my legs which doesn't help. I guess I really want my easy runs to feel easy. My heart rate doesn't go up to extremes, but yesterday did not seem easy. 

It is this fact that starting to run at the age of 53 would be a tough thing to do for someone who hasn't run since high school. I didn't think it was easy in my late 30s to start. I'm kinda trying it again at 53, having taken a couple months off. 

In other news I still am eating eating eating. I swear I eat a banana, and I am hungry 30 minutes later. Eat a sandwich, afterwards I am looking for food in the not too distant future. Its ridiculous. I came home, and had two slices of bread and butter. Plus l ate cherries,  and a cinnamon roll. (Mini)  fruit salad after my run. For dinner I had salmon, baked potato, and salad. 

I switched my salad thingy. I'll make one big salad. One big salad equates to two work salads. That should last for like 4 dinners. At work,  I am going to make each day just a tomato,  and cucumber salad. Just cuz making that is easy. It takes no time,  and i love it as much as anything. So if i don't feel like making a big salad the night before work (always) i don't have to. I can make it as i am making dinner, and have it for like 4 dinners. I will be interested to see my weight this week. 

Other than that not much. I did do some weeding yesterday, and i have to do another spot too. Nothing real significant happened yesterday. I didn't think of anything real significant. Life continues to move on. I see the virus is taking hold in Florida, Arizona,  Texas, North Carolina, etc... South Carolina too. Pretty brutal this thing is. In Michigan we are letting down our guard, as our numbers are dwindling. Yesterday was over 200 though after probables taken into consideration. Texas is a big State. Very spread out. In Florida it is all old people,  so that may be troublesome.  What is it going to be like in the Fall?  How did China stop it so easy?  I saw it may be because it is so natural for those in the East to wear masks. There definitely is no push back when mask wearing is requested. America is filled with a bunch of cowboy wannabes. 

Potentially this thing can get bad again I think. Los Angeles still is horrible,  plus they had those protests.  This thing is a big deal.  We survived the initial outbreak with New York, New Jersey, and Michigan. It expanded,  and now it is expanding again.  It is travel season too, so that *may* be worrisome.  

We can say for certainty this thing is here to stay for a bit. 

Anyway, I gotta go.  

Laterzzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeee.         :)))

Time Keeps Moving

Another day done. It was busy, I was active. My run was definitely a struggle. It wasn't 94, but it was definitely 84, but

the humidity was through the roof. I felt like I was doing speed work,  and the pace showing up proves I definitely wasn't doing speed work. I did get it in, plus my resistance training. I am to my regular sets of pushups,  and have been doing the regular sets of pullups. dips went okay. The spacing is a tad wide to my liking so my dips are semi wide spaced dips.  I did my knee to the chest things. 7, but obviously I want to move up to 10 quickly. 4 sets. Maybe some Fridays I can do extra sets. Blow it up a bit with Saturday,  and Sunday off. Also I'd like resistance training to get easier. I remember when I went to the gym it did get easier. I want to increase reps eventually. 

Anyway besides that not much. I slept good last night. The weather today will be so much better for getting my run in. It is actually chilly this morning. Work will be busy. Thursday is consistently our hardest day. I have to get my run in, and that's about it. 

There isn't much of significance going on in my life right now. Just doing the day by day thing. I know at one point long ago I thought my life was hard. I was full of failures. and vices and stuff. I was just one person in this World, and I had to find my way in it. As we all do I spose. Maybe when we are young we are attracted to confident people. my college girlfriend Katrina was really hot, but it was her confidence I admired. I just figured that out. Afterwards I dated Natalie. I was at my lowest point. Remember I was empty,  and had no energy. I think I went from like 130 pounds to 170. 170 for young me was fat. 170 for old me is fine. Weird how the body develops. I fell for Natalie too, and as I am just figuring it was her confidence that drew me. Why?  Cuz we want to attach ourselves to something solid. Secure. Something with a good foundation. Cuz we want to feel secure. Security I have. I did attach myself to a good foundation. In the end it wasn't a person,  or money, or carving out an esteemed name in society. After living terrified I wanted security more than anything. Going through heimleblog days, and even Steve's journey I did too. I got it though. Overcoming 2 of 3 times I was given security. Then I wait. For what now I am not sure. Waiting for people to be ready for what's next I guess. How that works I have no clue. 

Anyway security is a great thing. A thing to be valued. We sought it out when we were young. We sought it out in personalities pretty much. Money was supposed to be security, but money doesn't have an end. True security has an end to striving as a sidekick.  Money can never have an end to striving as its sidekick. Those two things don't work like that. 

Wouldn't you like to be on the side of true security?  I don't even know how to bring you along. There  was a time I thought my blog had a purpose. I was doing stuff with it. Now I just do it. I don't think it really does anything. 

I still like to do it most days. Obviously I've been doing it a while.   :)    hahaha. I bet I am approaching 15 years soon.  Geesh.  

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.           :)))

  

10 In A Row

I don't know how hot it got yesterday. Did I see 94°?  Anyway, I got my run in, and it wasn't horrible. It was what you expect a hot, and humid run to be. Mine are short though, but they are helping me. I am 1/3 of the way done with 30 days in a row. Also 9 of 10 days not drinking, or 12 of 15. My resting heart rate fell another tick, and my BP is just a tad high. Today is workout day,  so I have just more to do. 

We did get a good shower yesterday, so I don't have to water anything. Yesterday, and today. I started watching a new show on HBO. Well, new for me. I read some of my book, but I really am tired when I go downstairs. Another 12 + miles yesterday. Life continues to move on. In a favorable direction as far as I can tell. I made a really simple meal last night too. It was an easy day I guess. Busy, active, and easy. 

Our Corona numbers are dropping drastically. 120 or something yesterday. Life is what it is now. Changed. Just move forward,  and make the most of it. I am lucky I know. My finances haven't really changed. My future outlook remains the same for us, and we even were recipients of a little windfall, is that the term?  Extra money not planned for?  

Also I cancelled some monthly fees. Got rid of the old people workout place yesterday. I wasn't being charged while closed, but I feel my power tower thing really helps give me everything I need. I still may get weights, but those are in short supply with shipping still jacked. Not sure if I should just get a curl bar. A bench, and dumbbells, or a full set. Not gonna worry too much now. I have a good circuit,  and if I really feel like turning into an exercise weenie, I can always add later. 

The thought of becoming an exercise weenie may seem like fun, but it is work. I don't dread my runs anymore, but I probably wasn't excited about my 5th one. Also my jump from pullups to dips to pullups to dips was challenging. A circuit with little rest is work,  no matter how excited you are to workout. One  thing I noticed is I am eating a lot. Constantly throwing shit in my mouth. Not really shit. Fruits and veggies, chips,  and salsa,  pickles. Whatever, I constantly am throwing food in my mouth. 

So, life goes on. Another day starting today, and it should be fine. Life doesn't seem to different now that I am not drinking. It is still busy. I am not in a hurry to get my shit done so I can start having my drinks. I am probably slowly becoming more productive. I still go to bed around the same time. It shows how much I drank too. I get the same amount of sleep roughly,  and don't feel much different in the morning. Except my heart rate is way down,  so in that way I feel more relaxed kinda. My resting heart rate is down 13 bpms from when I drank every day. Honestly in the morning down 20 bpms at any one time. That is significant. 

I spose.   

Laterzzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeeee.         :)))

I Can Be A Number Weenie

Good morning. How's it going?  Me. I am fine. Yesterday was pretty normal. I worked, ran, worked out. Added to my workout were dips,  and the ab knee raise thing. 4 sets of 5 dips,  and 4 sets of 7 knee raise thingies. I'd like the dips to move up hopefully,  but that was my first time. I gotta make sure I get my form down too. There is a little balance, and stuff at play in dips. it's been a while. I had a dip machine at the old people's work out place, but it's different. 

I watered my plants, went shopping after work. I cooked steak and potatoes on the grill. watched my HBO show, and read my book a bit. My  blood pressure was 138 this morning. I'd really like it to be lower. My resting heart rate went down a couple ticks. Normal, and busy day I guess. 

I don't know what is going on with the covid numbers in Michigan. Looks like Louisuana had their day yesterday. It seems there may be probable cases in the past the cdc and Michigan Dept. of Health and Human Services might not agree on perhaps. our numbers the last two day were in the 100s. Looks like cdc added them both yesterday, but unassigned. No clue. Our daily numbers are down,  but no clue what the 5500 Sunday numbers come from. Like how long ago?  I'm a number weenie, and I am getting weird numbers. 

I wonder how the restaurants did yesterday. A lot of old people eat out for some reason. Like all their meals. Something with their generation I guess. I am not even sure how bars are supposed to work. I am not going to find out anytime soon either. 

Running is getting easier kinda. I wouldn't expect to see a huge difference til I get another 3-4 runs in. I'll be around the halfway point of 30 days of short runs. Legs are cooperating on the running part. 

Really nothing else going on with me really. Not a lot on my mind either. Just living life seeing how it all plays out. 

I guess people typically find themselves getting caught up doing more and more. Getting sidetracked with however many different activities. My life ended up being simple. One of the best things is owing no one anything. Not money, but I don't owe people my time, and I don't have to be anything to anyone. I just live out my days. 

I can't really explain it. I don't have a lot of stress I guess. 

Anyway gotta run. 

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.         :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeeee.       :)))

Something New

Yesterday I washed and waxed my truck. It's been years. Remember before my black truck, I had a '94 Ranger.  Obviously I never washed that thing. Also before Covid-19 I just paid for unlimited washes. We weren't sure of the working situation, so that is one of the monthly fees we gave up. We will do it again, but for Winter. It doesn't really take very long to wash and wax. 

I also ran again, and cut the grass did laundry. Instead of weights I bought what they call a power tower. I think that's what they call it. You can do pullups,  ab knee raises,  and most importantly dips. So for like $130 I can do more exercises. I like the idea of ab work,  but really it is the dips that I wanted. Lifting that body weight in a different way than just pullups.  

The cdc made some type of typo on Michigans covid numbers. They said our daily total for yesterday was like 5500 +, and it was like 140. Saturdays was like 200 and something. Our numbers should be ~58,000 according to multiple sources, and the cdc has it at 64,000.  So, I guess now we will get a day of -5000 cases.   :)   I did do a double take, cuz around us we had free testing. I was going to try and go yesterday, but didn't make it. Still though, I was like wtf?  

Oh, i went to amazon prime last night to look for a show. An amazon original starring Janelle Monét, however you spell it.  Um yes please.   ;)  I've had a crush on her since she did that video with Fun. The "We Are Young" song. 

I saw her in the movie Tubman I think, and maybe something else.  Pretty sure I am just the guy who can make her become straight.   It's a good show. Its called homecoming,  and it is based on a podcast. 

Other than that not much. My blood pressure read a little high. 143/85 i think. I am not worried at that number though. Yesterday was a non drinking day, and my resting heart rate fell back 3 bpm again. Really i do want my top number to be below 140. BP is weird though, I can take it now, and it might read 135/something. When drinking every day i think it was reading 160, and higher,  so I stopped checking it cuz i was afraid to see a bad number. When your blood pressure is high you can feel your heart beating. 

Restaurants and bars open up today, but from what I understand you can't sit at a bar, you  just sit at a table I guess. Not positive how that works. Obviously I won't be going to drink so it doesn't matter to me. I am not even going to go out to dinner. I don't do it a lot anyway. 

I spose I will have a typical day. Work,  run workout, not much else besides that. 

Laterzzzzzzzzzz.    :)

xoxo.            :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeeee.         :)))