Still Gotta Get That Sunday Thing Down.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. My Sunday was a bit whack. More like my day off was. I woke up at 2:00 AM, but just laid there for a couple hours. That is fine with me, cuz it's Monday, and I gotta get up early anyway.

I did the blog thing, dishes, started laundry. My Dad, and I finished pulling up the pavers. We made a paver sidewalk,  and patio,  which runs from our driveway to the French Door. I forgot Lisa's uncle closed in our breezeway, and put a slider there originally.

Anyway our concrete guy is coming out this week to cement our driveway, widen it, and cement the walkway, and patio. We are going to use the pavers to make a patio on the side of our driveway. It's where we sit a lot anyway with chairs, and we grill there now currently. It has mulch now instead of pavers.

Anyway we finally finished around 10:00 AM. The Sun was beating on us. It was kinda hard work. I totally felt like a beer. We had a couple strays in the fridge. They tasted like crap. I kinda felt like a Coors Light, not some hoppy beer. I dumped them,  and we did more stuff. I expanded our garden. Went out, and got 3 more tomato plants, and beans.

I skipped lunch, and by 3:00 I was famished. I ate two whoppers. 2. That's a lot for me to eat at once. It ruined my dinner, and I napped hard for a couple hours. Jurassic Park movies were on, so I watched them for a bit, and went to bed around 8:30 or something. The 3:00 PM nap cannot happen.

I didn't sleep all that great, and dreamt a lot. A lot of my dreams have me watching natural disasters approaching. Tornadoes,  high waves etc... creating havoc, and killing people. I kinda just spectate. Not afraid or anything just watch.

I have a shit ton to do today. I have to work out, and get some cash out of a couple banks to pay our concrete guy when he comes. I have to water the lawn, and tomatoes. Eat dinner too. Happy back to Monday working for me. It should be fine. I'll get a lot of steps in today.

Outside of that not much. Today is a day. I'll fill it with labor, and stuff. This is what I do,  and what I enjoy.

This is a dumb update I know.  It happens.

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.            :)

xxoo.         :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.         :)))

Sundays Off.

So this is my first regular scheduled Sunday off, which is now my new normal. It feels strange,  cuz I don't know how the day should work. I'll survive it though. ;)

I found out on Friday our driveway gets done this week. I am pretty excited actually. The last big project will be done. I had no idea I would be so excited.

Also the IT book I am reading is giving me insights to me as compared to you. I am the kids in IT. I already know and understand the impossible truth. You are the grownups. You cannot see anything. You would probably have to read the book to know what I am talking about. I find it interesting. I don't think it particularly helps anything. The impossible truth is pretty scary. I am not scared anymore though,  cuz I've overcome twice.

I would imagine you suspect there is something better. It's why you look for heroes. Try to find contentment somewhere. Is the meaning of life written somewhere?

How does one be happy, and content most times. Not wanting anything more. Not having to be angry at shit anymore? 

On our own we can't. We can try to excel in things to really differentiate ourselves. To prove our worth,  but that doesn't work either. You still won't be content. Our hearts are not perfect. Not made for feeling content. Too much stuff in the World.  So much to see, so much to distract us. For you to live your best life, you had to go another route. You weren't willing.

So now you are the grownups in IT. We only remember the kids, cuz they dealt with the impossible truth.

I had no idea about the impossible truth. It kinda got shoved down my throat. I couldn't tell anyone, cuz they would think me bonkers.

At some point the story opened up. I think  during the wait at some point. My story opened up, but I could not open your eyes. That is not in my power.

Where do we go from here?  Not really sure. Me, and you are different. I can't bridge the gap. You cannot be part of the Loser' s club. 

I kinda have to battle IT one more time. 3 times total is my path. I do it solo,  but with help. After overcoming twice already I have no more fear. I may be scared as the time approaches,  but not right now.

Right now I have my day to day. Today is a day off too. I am going to like my new schedule. For one I can plan on mixing with no down day of Monday anymore. Coming up on the busy season I think that will be good.

Anyhoo, I spose.

It's light out, so I guess I can't run in my pajama bottoms today.   :)

Laterzzzzzz.         :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeee.          :)))

Pluto's Great Stand.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was okay. I dropped down in steps a bit. My legs were tired. It was kinda rainy when I got home, so I read some more of IT. Also I rented the movie again and watched it. I will be ready for Sept.  6th when the 2nd part comes out.  You kinda forget how good a book it is.

I did think yesterday that maybe it says something about me I am really enjoying the book a lot. It is my 3rd time reading it.  Maybe it says something about my outlook though. Like I am enjoying this book so much cuz how I am seeing things. Way different than the 2nd time I read it. That is understandable. Remember though I could put the book down 1-1/2 years ago, and now I am obsessed. Just something I thought of.

I guess what I am saying is I look for clues I spose that this story is getting close to the end. My story not IT. I cannot in any way see how those days happen. So, I am content doing my day to day. Today will be another of those days. I will work tomorrow and have all of Sunday off. Like I said before I am excited for it.

Really outside that not much on my mind. More days than not I am the only blog I see uodated in my list. Others in my list may blog like once/ year or none. I don't really know why that is, but what I really wondered is how my blog works. I kinda figured it's probably good to see frequent updates from me. Maybe cuz my blog "voice" ain't horrible. It's all speculation on my part though.

When I first started blogging there were 4 bloggers. I felt comfortable with them. One didn't like me. Her name was Audrey I think. I remember she took a picture.  I saw something in her eyes. Like the window to her soul. She looked sad. It's like I could almost understand her. She took the pic down the next day. I asked her why she took the pic down.  Anyway she thought I was a total creep. I have no idea her last name. I think she ended up being a lawyer or something.  Got married too I think. The other 3 didn't hate me.

I eventually branched out. Usually from comments on top of my comments. I'd check out their blog. If interested I'd follow along. Most people added were comments on top of my comments on a girl named Maija's blog. She eventually thought I was a creep too. As far as I know she lives in Colorado with maybe her husband Adam. I remember she was divorced once before. I don't know her last name either. She was one of the Michigan bloggers,  and now there is no such thing.

I would read frequent updates from people like this. It was interesting. You know how time goes though. You don't miss it. My blog goes on. The voice probably not too different than when I first started. I am more confident, and much stronger now. These people may even check on my updates once in a while, but I wouldn't know. Don't know why they would.  Nothing important going on here you know? 

It was fun the days when people blogged. My life is better now though even though I am the only one who blogs.

Just a flash down memory lane. I do that every couple months or so. Wonder whatever happened to the old time bloggers. 

Anyway, I spose. I may try to run again today,  but my legs were fatigued yesterday.  It may just be a walk. 

Laterzzzzzzz.         :)

xoxo.           :)

xxoo.           :)

Byeeeeeeeee.          :)))

Relax...Dont Do It.

So we are approaching the end of another week. This week so far has been pretty good. I got back to the gym yesterday. I missed a couple days. Friday I had shit to do, and Monday it was closed. I got the home part done too. Hitting the gym takes discipline. It's good for me I know,  but it's not exactly fun. For me it seems like something I just gotta do.

So I hated my front lawn. I thought it needed a big repair, but it doesn't look bad. The rain filled in a lot of areas. I tilled  a square piece of bad area, and planted new seed. I put down some good new soil,  and starter. Now I just gotta water it twice each day. I was over 30,000 steps yesterday, so a good day was had. I didn't have time to read IT after work, I did read some before. I am totally into it. For some reason I can kinda get in the kids heads. I am really enjoying it. I am going to finish the kid parts,  and go back and do the adult parts. It goes kid adult,  kid adult. I am going to read kid, kid, adult,  adult. I am on the 2nd kid part.

Work will get pretty insane in a couple weeks, so I'll be busy. It should be a fun Summer. I can't tell you how good I feel when I hit 30,000 steps. It's a good day for me, and I've been productive. Typically I am more than ready for bed. Pretty early too. Of course I get up early too, but I feel like I've been doing that for years.

Not really much on my mind. Just in the middle of my day to day. I like it. It's easy. I am not looking for better days. These days are fine.

I feel I have a pretty good balance. I stay busy. I do stuff. I have time to chill, and I eat enough to satisfy me. I go to bed knowing a solid day has been had. I'll have Sundays off from now on. I am kinda excited about it. Don't know why really. Just am.

So today is a day. I think it should be pretty okay. Not really worried about anything. Just excited kinda. What is today gonna bring? 

Anyway this is how I feel today when I woke up. 

Laterzzzzzz.        :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.          :)

Byeeeeeee.           :)))

Therein Lies The Rub.

I Think that's a saying right?  I am not really sure what it means. Yesterday was okay. I took Hope early. I had no idea it was 97% humid out. I kept thinking how out of shape am I? Saw the humidity level, and realized the problem. It's like running and being waterboarded at the same time.

I got over 29,000 steps yesterday so a pretty good day. I cut the grass, and trimmed. Used my tiller too. It's 4 cycle, but just does a 12" area. It worked fine,  and it's all I need it for. Small sections. Gonna use it today too.  :)

I read some more of my book, made dinner, and went to bed super early.  I guess that's pretty much all I want in a day. Be busy, get shit done,  eat a meal, and sleep. It rained last... well it just stopped. It was pretty steady for an hour or two. Perfect for my lawn.

Everything looks pretty good. My life is settled kinda. Not really anything to worry about. It's good being like this.  I know some people probably have some stress. Futures are uncertain. There are illnesses to worry about. Living a healthy lifestyle, eating good. Keeping vices to an acceptable level.  One thing about me is I usually wake up like this. I am okay with my life. Content as it were. I wonder how weird that sounds to people. Content. Life doesn't need to be any better. My life is fine, but it is totally predictable,  and totally unspectacular.

My life is fun for me, although I doubt it looks fun  from the outside. I was thinking earlier of me looking at the World from the outside. Looking at Political arguments from the outside. I realized others cannot do it. I don't find it to be an exercise of great importance, but I can do it. I don't hold onto anything. Upbringing,  Country, Flags,  written words from people 100s of years ago. I am not a part of this World. Your unwritten rules of how you are supposed to be do not concern me.

I realized people cannot look at things from the outside if they never threw everything away at some point. You still are a product of upbringing,  society etc...   I don't even know how you could do it anymore. It's too late in the game you know?  You've been shutout. When it came time to choose a blind path of trust or hold onto your life, you held onto your life. You were supposed to meekly and probably with some fear and hesitation give up your coin. Turn what you knew was going to be your greatness, and whatever for the unknown.

The World lies, and that's what people hold onto. I do know this thing does work out. The story will be told.  I just cannot see how the days go. I don't know your place in them either.

Regardless I still have my day to day. I got stuff to do. Hope needs a run. IT needs to be read. Areas need to be tilled.  I have a life that needs to be lived, until it is time for me to do the final thing for the current version of me.

Anyhoo,  I gotta poop, and then run.

Laterzzzzzzz.  :)

xoxo.          :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeee.      :)))

IT

I was having one of those title things. Yesterday since I got up so early,  and pretty much just had laundry to do, I picked up the IT book again. I started rereading it for the 3rd time like 1-1/2 years ago. I put it down for a while, lost it, and refound it. Pieced together where I left off,  and started rereading it again. I don't really know how I put it down before. The 2nd part of the movie comes out Sept. 6th. I saw the trailers and it looks good.

All my laundry is done, folded, and put away, and all dishes cleaned,  and put away. We went to Lowes,  and used our gift cards. I got a tiller, and some other stuff.  Went to a cookout at Lisa's brothers house, and a day was had. I refertilized the front lawn too. It's actually filling in pretty good. It rained last night, so that's good.

So as you can see life as usual going on with me. I have a book to read.  Plenty to do outside,  I am on the 7th book in a series of like 27 or something. Those I listen to. I am on season 4 of its always Sunny in Philly too. I got stuff to keep me busy. Not too many days off to make me lazy. It's a good time I guess.

Not much else to report. Just going on with life. I enjoyed my 2 days off, but I am definitely ready to get back to my routine.  It's one of the best parts of my life. Wake up with a plan for the day. A day that will keep me busy. A day that will have me sleep good. A day where I will feel fulfilled I guess. I deserve a good meal after my day's labor. I deserve chill time too. I have more stuff to do than can be done in just one day. Keep plugging along. Plus you gotta do regular day by day things. Cut the grass, clean dishes, do laundry,  cook dinner.

It's All good with me.  I know politics just makes people angry. I tried to throw everything away to look at things objectively. I don't really know. Also,  I don't care. Outside of religious right silly arguments, I am fine. I have my day to day, and I'll keep with that.

I really cannot even imagine how you others feel. You are a part of the World, so you have plenty of stuff,  and stress to escape from. A lot of supposed to do in life. A lot of have to, and things like that.

I do as I want,  and I want to live my simple day to day. I have nothing to escape from. I am not ashamed of the less than perfect person I am, because I am on that path. It's just I am not powerful enough to make that change in myself. I knew the path like 27 years ago or so. I was willing to go. For the security. As you know now I already have security, but it is my path. I gotta do it. I will suffer for it greatly,  but I gotta do it anyway you know? 

Anyway, enough about me. :)

Gotta run.

Laterzzzzz.        :)

xoxo.       :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeee.        :)))

I Had A Lazy Lazy Day.

So I've been working Sundays for over a year I bet. Yesterday I had off, and I have today off too cuz of the holiday.

It is 2:44 AM, and there are neighbors still up somewhere. I can hear them talking.  :)  it is my next door neighbor actually.  I like sleep too much I guess. I don't mind being up at 2:43 AM, but only if I already slept.

Anyway yesterday was really lazy. I did do all the dishes,  and that's about it. As you know I usually am approaching 30,000 steps on any day I work. Yesterday I was at ~1500 at 5:30 PM. Most days I am way past that at 5:30 AM. So that's a lazy day. As I have today off too, I am fine with it. Why not have a lazy day? 

It is Memorial day so kinda the beginning of Summer. I have stuff to keep me busy. There are no great feats I will try to pursue. I am not a great person. I don't feel anyone is. Perhaps I know no one is.

It is pretty easy to look at my life and see perfection I did not attain. I don't even know how I could even compare myself to a Saint.

I don't believe running totals clear your slate. I've been married for 80 years so all my flaws have been forgiven. Umm, no.

I watched Wedding Crashers yesterday. It's a funny movie. Weddings are ridiculously expensive days. I stood up at a wedding. It ended up in divorce,  and I made out with the girl I stood up with. I was at the wedding with my girlfriend Katrina. The girl was hot.  Earlier I was thinking of maybe a 16 year old girl I had relations with when I was maybe 22. It wasn't intentional. We became friends. I drove her home after a work function. One of those things where it just kinda happened I guess.

A bunch of stupid stuff in my life. I didn't have remorse over my actions. Just living. Doing as I feel you know?  It's just my normal tendencies weren't always on the Saintly side of things. I expect most of us are that way. Just our thoughts are probably fucked up in ways.

I saw things of people over the age of 50 getting married for at least the 2nd time.  Why?  Who cares?  The feelings will change just like the first time. We all get infatuated. It's usually pretty powerful, but that shit doesn't last.

In the end you settle down. I never want to stay up til 3:00 AM on a holiday weekend. All things being equal that's when I'd like to wake up.

It's so easy to go on with life as the imperfect creatures we are. I guess I did look at things head on. I felt death, I hurt people, cuz my desires didn't always line up with a Saint's actions. 

I grabbed the truth and held on I guess. It told me this World is a lie. There are no heroes. None of us measure up. Counting stats or no.

I think I'll take Hope.

Laterzzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.      :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeeeee.        :)))