It Is A Gas Station Coffee Kind Of Morning...

Hello, and good morning all.   How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I had a day off yesterday so Lisa and I did a bunch of cleaning.   There is a lot to cleaning the house, especially in the Winter when you spend all your time inside.  Plus we have a bunch of animals.   Most of them are in serious training for the sleeping championships coming up next month.   ;)  

Anyhoo what is going on with me??  Not too much.  Lisa and I went out to dinner, and that was it.   I was planning on running this morning after this, but I may wait a while, as it is like -4 degrees outside.   Nasty North wind. 

I saw the reverse aging running guy I used to run with here and there.   He used to run anywhere from 60-90 miles per week, and he hasn't run in two months.   Knee issues again.  Seems like me and him have been battling injuries the last couple years.   Every time I see him both of us are coming back from injuries if we are running at all.   He said he put on 15 lbs. too.   It didn't really show, but he had a big jacket on.  15 lbs. for him probably means he weighs like 155 now or something. 

I had some strange thoughts this week somewhere.   I don't remember if it was at work, or while I was sleeping, but I think it was at work.   Out of the blue I thought about my brother Jim.  It was weird too.  I just had a thought he was once a young kid doing young kid shit, and now he is dead.   I don't know how to explain it, but it seemed weird you know??  Here today, and dead.  It may have been a little sad to think, but not too too horrible, because one of the things about me is I deal with the shit I have to.   It is how I am made.  

I also thought about other things like the "Iz" night, and that old dude who lost his wife of like 1000 years and stuff.  A lot of stuff like that actually.  Kinda weird to think that shit stays inside us huh, and we have to deal with it.   Probably the most important thing you have to do.   We were never taught this, and I had to live my fucking life to learn it.   People are searching for answers in accomplishments that mean absolutely nothing, and the answer is right here.  

You have to deal with your life, and the pointless shit you do, and all the mind numbing boring existence we have or you go to your grave with that bullshit in you.   Your ticket to paradise has nothing to do with whatever race, however many times you run/week.   How you looked in front of such and such people.   What kind of acceptance you received from Society.   There is nothing here for you to grab as a crutch.   This World means absolutely nothing.   Your activities mean absolutely nothing.   Our lives mean absolutely nothing. 

You hold on though.  You hold on to all that is false, and all that isn't real, because who wants to go to the other side.   It looks scary from here, and it looks sad, and it must be horrible. 

Oh yeah??  

I am living proof it aint.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)))

p.s.   Now I am going to finish my gas station coffee, and think about when to run.   hmmmm.   Sun is coming out.  

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Better Get Going...

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I didn't get enough sleep yet, but I can nap before work for a few more hours or so.  I have to get a haircut, and take Hope for a walk, and I am going to treat myself to lunch. 

We have a pizza place not far from where I live that makes the best veggie sub ever.  I am not a vegetarian by any stretch, but I do like a good veggie sub.   I have to work both jobs tonight, so I will have a pretty busy day.   Not horrible, but enough to make it a full day.  

There really isn't anything else going on with me.  I got a run in yesterday morning.   It was another 3-miler.   I was busy doing laundry, and cleaning up and stuff, and I sat down on the couch for a sec.  Hope jumped up on me, and my legs were sore.   You know that kind of sore where you just want to fall asleep??   So I took a nap.   I find it funny I was sore from running a couple 3-milers back to back.  I was walking like the old man I am at work last night.   :)   LOL   I feel much better today, and I will take Hope for a little shake out walk like I said. 

So anyway, I definitely think about many things throughout the day.  That this blog has been a certain way for a long time; well, who can make sense of it??  Why do I go on and on and on??  Surely there is nothing in it for me is there?? 

How about that??   Nothing in it for me.   So how am I the way I am.  What are things that motivate me??  You know I just am the way I am.   Being used for purposes that are not my own.   I don't have any purpose.  I like to help people out in ways, but people don't always know what is good for them, and what is the best direction for them. 

I lived those questions.   After College I pondered what to do.  What do I do with this life??   I am a College Grad, and I can do anything.   Life pulled me, and I listened, and I went in a totally different direction than I would have imagined. 

So I go through all these things, and live a life.   As normal as anyone elses kinda, except for the little extra things I had to go through that no one saw, but one.   That I am made into this person doing this thing for no benefit to myself is something.  

I have the freedom to do whatever is in my heart, because I can trust it.   I've mentioned that before.  Remember last year or the last two years where this blog was about trust, and strength??  You know what it seems to me this year??   I just be.   Do whatever. 

That is a bit of freedom huh?? 

I know it will lead in a good direction.   I trust my steps, and how I am, because it is not my story.   How does this blog help anyone??  I have absolutely no idea.   Doesn't seem like it does really, but whatever.  

It is a strange story, and I am a strange person for having to tell it, and to live this life of mine.  It is strange that I have to know about all these hidden things, and you have still to learn. 

Life many times is all about what we see, and what we are striving for, but there really is a lot more to us inside huh??   Inside we want to feel like we are made of rainbows and unicorns, and blue skies, and pretty flowers, and nice stuff huh??   We are other things though aren't we??  

Well, anyway.   Hope is on the couch looking like she wants to go on a walk.   Guess I better do that.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  well, nothing really for a p.s.   Hope this passes the test.   ;)

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Winging It... Part????

Hello, and good morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I have absolutely nothing to write about right now, and I am totally in the air about even posting a blog, but you know, it is kinda a thing I do, so I guess I can wing it for like the 900th time or so.   ;) 

So what is going on with me??  Nothing.  Not a damn thing.   Just doing this life thing.   I work, and sleep, and eat, and drink.  Work is going fine.  Keeps me busy.  I have a lot to do around the house today.  I already started laundry, and I have to clean clean clean.   I will have to take the Hopester for a little run in a bit.  Probably just a little 3 miler.   I ran 3 miles yesterday, and I am sore.   :)  It was at 9:20 pace, which is probably a little fast for running once in like 2 months or so, but that is the pace we ran at.   It feels good to be out of shape.   Where just a little run is work.   Been a long time for that.   I don't know how long I'll be able to run distance wise, because I am not 100% at all.   Things still bug me.   Nothing too horrible, but you never know what they will turn into.   Running many times is just a hope for the best.   At least those of us who tend to get injured. 

Anyhooooo, this year is way different than before.   This blog doesn't seem as important to me.   I wake up, and many times I am like ehhhh.   I can totally take it or leave it, and in previous years when I would wake up, I'd really want to do it.  What does that mean??   No idea. 

I would imagine eventually your walls and defenses will come crashing down.  It will have to happen you know that right??   All who you are on the inside will have to be seen, and there is no defense for it.   Oh people still try, but you try at holding on.   You try at keeping some kind of meaning and importance to your life, but the truth will break you down.   Your life will break you down, and eventually you realize there is nothing here for you. 

All the things you believe in that are good and decent and stuff about life is just a false vision.  A false vision you will have to overcome.   All that is false, and all that is lies is easy to find.   It is everywhere around you.  What is hard to find is the truth.   People want to believe in their better nature, but your better nature is not perfect.   There are no Saints to give you answers.   There are no books to give you what you need.   Nope the answers you need and want are hidden, and once you accept that I bet it will help you a lot.  

I mean you can look in your heart, and see it isn't perfect.   You can look at your life, and feel it falls short.   The truth of life is a feeling like we are missing something.   Shouldn't things have been better???   Shouldn't this Shit be more fun??   Shouldn't I feel better about myself????   Shouldn't I give a crap more about others???  

There is a way to a better you, and it is a choice.   So I guess people are being torn.   Maybe it is because the truth is kinda scary.   Do you want people to know your darker insides??  Your hate and jealousy, and vengeful nature??   Do you want them to know the demons you battle???   Very few do, because the story is the same.   You let people see you they will have ammunition to judge you.   They will, many of them too, I bet.  

So let us take a look at your life.   What are you accomplishing??   What is it doing in the big picture of life??  What path are you going to take to make a difference in anything at all??  

I have hinted at it before.  You aren't accomplishing anything, and you haven't yet.   Your just living this life thing, and there is not much here at all.   Do you believe there is a way to make you a better you??   If only we could work at it.  Boy would that be easy.   As my blog is the wait, and I started it right after I overcame the 2nd time, and why I called it the wait is anyone's guess.   It just hit me to call it that, and I have no idea why??   It came to me a bit later the why. 

It has been a long time since I have been over 2/3rds done.   That is one of the crazy miracles too, because all really is possible, and this thing should have been done long long ago.   It isn't done though, and that makes me wonder what this year will hold.   I have no idea. 

The funny thing about this thing here though is you as a person are going to get worse and worse.   You will be more angry, and more of almost everything you don't want to be.   Why??   As a person you kinda have to hit rock bottom I think.   Feel bad enough you are not the person you want to be that you seek out other answers, than what you have been doing all this time.   So there will be hard days, and that I fully expect.  

We shall see though.    Life goes on and so does yours.   Will you show the World your dark side, and your innermost secrets???   We all have 'em.   We all hide 'em, because that is what Adam did when he learned the difference between good and evil.   A silly person in the Garden of Eden is pretty dumb I tell you.   He doesn't know these things, and he doesn't know he is supposed to hide that stuff from the eyes of the World.   The light is the truth, and the truth is some crazy crazy stuff.  We are afraid of the light, because we don't want people to see, but we also do too, because we want to feel accepted and loved, and all that stuff, but there is no easy way is there??  

So anyway we will see what happens this year.  

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.   I think I am going to make pancakes for breakfast, switch the laundry, and then do my run.   It will be a recovery run, because you know.   I did run 3 miles yesterday.   ;)

LOL

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I Was On Such A Good Roll...

Hello, and good morning all...still.   I was really on a pretty good roll of sleeping really good after work, until today.  I slept like an hour, so I will need to nap before work tonight.  Hold on, I got some coffee, so I am going to get it.  I will be right back. 

I think of a lot of things.   I have this life that I live.  If you have been around these here parts you know a lot of it.  The story of me is like the story of you.   It is about our past.   You have been here for however many years, and things have happened.   Now I know, I know I have the ability to think of any number of things at any time.   It helps make my life not boring and not monotonous.  I have the ability to just be, and that is what I was kinda trying to say in my previous post.   I have an important position, and an important job, but not in the ways you think.   Not a job, and title of this World, but other things. 

I can just be, because my heart is in other hands.   I am tied up in good ways and bad ways.  As free as I am, I am not done.   My story is not done, and it is because many of you your story has barely begun.   You are tied to yourself and this World.   Looking to create a name for yourself or whatever, and you don't know what it is that causes you to be weak.  You don't know really the first thing about yourself, because almost everything has always been hidden.  

I know things, and they are not pleasant things.   They are ugly truth types of things, and these are things I tried to shelter for... well since the early 90's.   That I am the way I am, and able to live the life I am is pretty crazy.   I think why are people scattered all over the place.  I realized this morning it probably is much like my day outside the garbage room of Bromenn Healthcare.   Where I wanted to be was in a good safe position, and I was the farthest person away from that.  

I was led on a horrible journey.  It lasted the whole Summer, and the worst of the worst was with me the whole way.   That I was singled out to overcome 3 times is just another story.  There must be something to having everybody be scattered to help bring more along.   That was the answer I got that day way back when.  To be honest I was just searching for myself.  To live in fear day after day after day was horrible.   I am what I am now.   As empty as I was way back when, but not afraid of it.  I am secure.   I trust the right things, and I accept how I am.   Do I want to be a better person??  No.   I have nothing to prove to anyone.   Nothing to prove to myself, because I see what life really is.   I know what it is about.  

How??   That is my story, and that is my life, and that is what it was leading too.   A lot of years, and a lot of life.   As you can tell too nobody's life is more important than yours.   That is how you are, and most people probably don't care too too much about your life, and what you do. 

We are selfish.   We really only care about ourselves, and what is in it for me.   No one is out trying to help people.  Everyone has a story, and chances are much of it is sad.   Your hearts are too hard though, because you still value the wrong things too much.   You trust in the wrong things, and you have an unrealistic outlook on life, and stuff. 

Why??   Because you have to give up yourself in order to be on a better path.   The path of you is a blind path.  One where you miss out on so much of life, but you trust it now.  

Can you look out a window, and see how small, and meaningless just one life is??  Can you see the silly existence we live?  There is nothing in this World to accomplish.   The World is not meant to be made a better place, especially by people who do not have any ability whatsoever to accomplish any of that. 

If you can look into the sad eyes of a person in one of their quiet alone times, I bet you'd see life more clearer.   Look at that enticing path out there.   The path of you.   Look how enticing it is, and look at what the History books will say about you.  

Nothing really.   The World is the great deceiver, and we were never ever strong enough, or wise enough to see past it.   You were born into this World needing help, but most of yous is all growed up.   Able to take care of things yourself, but you have not seen what I have seen.   You don't know what I know, and that there is a great divide between you and I. 

Oh well.   I didn't get enough sleep, and I work tonight.   Lisa is doing a girls night out thingy, with Hotel room and everything.   :)   LOL.  

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!     :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s.  I was going to run today, but I will wait.  Weather is looking pretty good.   Funny how I think mid to upper 30's is awesome weather.   :)  What a Winter.

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A New Year, A New Blog, A New Me??

No, not really.  All is basically the same.  I have not been running all winter, and I think I decided this morning while cleaning the bank that next week I start up.  I am pretty sure the temps will start being more moderate.  I am healthy, so why not. 

Although I haven't run all Winter by all visual measures  I don't think I gained much if any weight at all.  I am probably somewhere around 178-180.  170 would be a fast weight for me. 

Goals goals goals.  You know when I played Soccer I used to score a lot of goals, but what kinda running goals should I have??   I think I will go for speed.   Anything under a Marathon speed.  I look at my Marathon "career" and you know a lot of crap had to go right.  I had one go right, and my time was like 3:47 or something.   Within me is probably a 3:35 marathon, but things would have to be perfect, and I would have to be in tremendous shape, and well you know.  My body and genetics will not do much better than that.   You know you can train all your life, and do everything perfect, but there are only so many people who will break a 4 minute mile, or a 2:10 marathon. 

I look at my life, and there isn't much here.   It isn't special, although I tell you what, I have lived a tremendous life really.  It is the worst life I know that anyone has lived, but I am where I am right now.   I get answers sometimes of me.  Why I am the way I am, and you know it always comes down to that Summer many many many years ago.   The only blogging people I knew were Beth, Barb, Audrey, and Becky.  I think the 3 B's liked me, and A hated me.   Still does for all the fuck I know, but I read their blogs.   Got a picture into their lives.  On That Summer day I gave up.   Could not do it anymore.   I was soooo pissed.   I went through what I needed to go through.   My life all added up to one thing.   Although I am King, I am not King of my castle.  The blessing I received is not because of a redeeming quality about me.   I am nothing really, but I was taken aside.   To live this life, and be a help to people.  

The crazy funny thing about my life is I never feel like I do anything.   When your path is paved for you though you can do no wrong.   All that is done will lead to good, and that is the craziest fairy tale you can ever imagine.  It is a fairy tale of strength and confidence, and being assured, and all those things. 

None of you have that, and there only ever was one way to get that, but that is your own journey.   You ain't going to live my life, and I ain't going to live yours.   Together we each can help each other out, but it is a together thing.   This isn't a solo thing.   I did the solo thing.   You don't want to do that, and you don't have to.  It is hard.   That was my path though, and I took it.   Yours should be easier, but it won't be easy.   Life is full of hard shit, and no way around it.  

Anyway just touching base.   :)   Not sure how often I will blog, but I will jot some shit down here and there.   If I didn't say it, I start running next week.   :)   yay.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I don't do FB Birfdays anymore, but yesterday was Charisa's.   You know I wanted to give her some Birfday love, but I am nothing if not disciplined.   :)   HAHA.   

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Can I Really Blog Right Now??

Hello, and good evening/early morning all.   How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good.   I am done with the bank, and am sitting up having a cocktail.  Typically if I write something I publish, not sure if this will be published or not.   Not because I have any great hidden thing I want to show you.   Obviously that shit is all out.   I just don't think I have anything important to say. 

I do think of running, and putting in effort.  My knee is really doing great I'd say, but I have a weird thing with my ankle.   Picture a pinched nerve in your neck.  Shit comes out of nowhere and lasts a day or two.   I did something before work to my ankle last night, and was limping ever since.   It feels much better now. 

So what was my day made up of yesterday??   LASAGNA.  I made lasagna for dinner.  Probably my best one ever.  It was so fricken good, and is there anything better in life than putting in a little effort to make a nice meal??  It is little things like that which are fun to me. 

What does my life consist of??  Not much really.  Simple things.   A simple saying says the truth sets you free, and isn't the truth a trip??? 

I have an area where I disconnect with people.   How I feel on the inside.   I know how you all want to feel.   Important, like you matter, like you have the right answers.   You all are missing something huh?  Life doesn't feel totally complete does it??   So you look out there and try and grab the best thing you can think of. 

If we have no redeeming qualities and we don't really matter, then what are we?? 

I think I know you kinda see this, and it is making your life hard.   Does it help to know this is good stuff??  Life is full of a bunch of hard shit we don't wanna do.  I am not talking about stupid jobs and shit, I am talking about taking the hard look at us.  These are the areas where I really like you.  

Anyway, I am up late, just fucking around really.  It is our anniversary today, and the bank had the date on their counter thingy.   I would have totally forgot AGAIN.   I don't think Lisa has a clue.   :) 

LOL we are unconventional.  

Later all.   MWAH!!   :))   xoxo

Seems Like Old Times...

Hello, and good afternoon all...errrr morning I mean.   How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.   I slept in pretty good today.  I woke up around midnight, and went in to clean the bank.  I came home and went to bed too.   Feels good to be tired enough to come back and sleep.  Today should be a pretty good day, because I work tonight, but then I have tomorrow off again.  So that is good. 

Maybe you want to know some of the simpler things running through my mind.  After all once upon a time this used to be a running blog.  Life always gets thrown in to what I write, because life is a real thing.   Life is something that happens.  Life is what goes on after we have dotted all our I's and crossed all our T's.  Anyhoo, I haven't given up on running, I just don't do it now.   Let's face it though the weather sucks.   I mean I used to be as hard core as anyone when it came to running in the Winter, and this year not so much.   It probably helps I crouch down a lot at work, and when I wake up from a sleep my knee hurts.   I am crouching much better now, and the pain is wayyyyy less than it used to be.   I have a feeling everything will start becoming good again when the temps hit 30 or so a few months down the road.  ;) 

So work is going well.   I like what I do in a fucked up kinda way.   Fucked up in a lot of people might not like what I do, but I enjoy it.   4 of the 5 nights I work are truck nights, and the other one typically Saturday I have plenty to do.  I like to work fast, so as to get everything done.   I am not one of those people who likes to milk hours.   I like to work fast in hopes I can get out early.  If there is a lot to do, I have no problem staying late. 

I work most weekend nights.  Thursday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.   I don't mind it at all.   I don't do anything on the weekends, and I pretty much just stay at home.   The highlights of my days are meals I guess. It is hard being me at times, because of how I am, compared to how other people are.   We probably think each other is pretty fucked up.   :) 

I am not though.  I am good.  My feet are planted squarely on the ground.   I know all about me.   I know what I have been through, although not all the reasons.   I know my direction.   My path is lighted, so I don't have to worry about things.  The World is a crazy place.   You can turn in any direction, and see it is wrong.   There really is no right way, and no right thing to do.  We are masters of justification though.  If I do this it helps people or the World in this way or that.   It doesn't though, and you don't help.  The thing about our life is we cannot even help ourselves to be better people.   We cannot make us into the perfect person.  We still fuck up shit, and probably every day.   These things many people like to hide though, because it is in our nature to wanna show the good and shiny side to our existence.   Maybe it helps keep the judgers away, but it is always the truth that was the good stuff, but the truth of all of us really isn't all that great is it?? 

Like I said before we don't have any redeeming qualities really.   Probably the most important vision of me I had was way back when.  I saw who I wanted to be, and I saw who I really was.   Now I tried very very hard to make myself into who I wanted to be.   I was willing to be a hermit if need be, but nothing worked.   I was not able to make myself who I really really wanted to be.  A better person than who I was.   I saw what that meant, and I saw what I deserved for being who I was.   The crazy story of life.   There is a way a life is supposed to go.   It has everything to do about the truth.   The ugly truth.   The ugly truth of us, the ugly truth of life, the ugly truth of this World, the ugly truth of our existence.   There is a path available that helps us through all these hard things, and funny we have to take such a tiny step.  (It seems huge I know), and everything will be done for us.   Perhaps the scariest thing of all is we are not in charge of us really.   We cannot control the smallest details of how we feel on any given day. 

That this stuff goes on so long I think is crazy.   Whatever though.   I feel pretty good.   I am confident in who I am, and I am assured of my steps.  Maybe at this stage that is the best gift I could have hoped for.   To be content in who I am.  Soooo anyway.   Just thought I'd get something down like in the old days.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!     :)

p.s.  One of the guys I work with plays candy crush on his phone.   I played for a while way back when.  I thought I'd give it another try, so I added it back to my phone.   Fun Fun.   :) 

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