Have You Lost Some Of The Magic??

Your heart does  not lie.  You are not perfect.  You hate people.  You hate people who do not agree with how you think.  You try and boil your life into a box, and say this is me, and all that does is make you miserable.  It makes you hate others who are not inside your box.  Others who do not try and be like you.  The magic in people is how imperfect we are, not how "perfect" you want to appear to people.  The appearance of how you want people to view you doesn't mean shit to who you really are.  There is no right answers out there.  There is no 100% I can do this, and it will make me a better person. 

Life is more like Mindee's update.  Tired as hell going back to work,  still getting a workout in... somehow.  ( I would probably nap first)  Falling down, because she doesn't mind laughing at herself, and thinking about a friend far away.  That is color.  Accepting life for all the angles, and shapes, and circles and everything.  Life is not one box.   Small box. 

Life is also like Jen Gray, who has gone through a lot with the passing of her mother.  Periods of where we may not be as good as we'd like, due to sadnesses, and dealing with personal things.  She has lost her magic a bit she feels, but she is a dealer.  It is o.k. not to be at your best, because life has a tendency to take stuff out of us sometimes, and you cannot escape that.  You have to deal with stuff though. 

Have you noticed how Mindee dealt with her past year though??  It seems it came to a head a few days ago, and boom, it let the color in.  Now the world is 3D through her eyes.  It is full of shapes and colors, and circles and everything.  Goodbye box, my house I call my life is made of color now.  I don't want to be a person who lives in a cardboard box. 

You cannot control your heart.  If you could you would be nice to everyone, and others would be too.  People are angry, and hateful, and all kinds of things, because they blame the stuff in their life that doesn't make them happy on others.  Life is full of unhappy things.  You cannot escape that shit, so life is always full of dealing with stuff.  No way to escape it. 

Life takes a lot of fucking courage too, like the pumpkinsdiary girl who says you know what??  I am trying something new.  I don't want my life to be just one thing, cuz that leads nowhere.  Embrace life.  Accept everything.  It is o.k. if you think the world is shitty, cuz it is in many cases.  Realize if you hate people it is just a way of blame for your less than 100% happiness, which we all are made up of. 

Answers in life will be found with honesty, and being real, and accepting the truth, even if it is scary, and even if we have to admit, we are not that fucking great.  :) 

With that I say Fuck all ya'all.   :)   Just kidding.   I wuv ya's.   :)   LOLOLOLOLOL

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Jerry, Ken, and I ran 6 @ 6, which really was 6 @ 5:15'ish.  I didn't time it.  :)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Extras of these.   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I haven't been giving out any extras lately, not sure why.  Haven't felt like it. 

I'll give some to Olga though, cuz she got some good news and can run again.  :D   xoxoxoxoxoxoxox

I'll give some to Doreen, Jules, and Brandy, cuz Doreen is going through menopause.  :)  j/k.   Brandy, because next Wednesday we start speed work, so this will be the last day I can drink Brandy on a Wednesday, and Jules, cuz she is great.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Jen Gray too, cuz she needs 'em.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Mindee too, cuz I love her colorful personality.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D