Something Is Different...

I noticed this the days I wasn't blogging.  It seemed like such a normal thing not to blog, and life seemed "normal"  I seemed normal, but I can always close my eyes, and feel I am different.  That being said I can sense there is not much to me anymore.  It seemed I had this endless supply of stuff to give, and now I don't.  What does that mean??  It means I need to get my coffee.  Hold on.  :)

Well let me give some thoughts and observations, because that seems like the best thing to do I guess.  On yesterday's post when I swear a lot, and I call you fuckers, and fuckfaces, I hope you know I am joking.  :)   I mean a lot of you really are fuckfaces, but I wasn't talking about you when I wrote it so don't take it so seriously.  :)

Lisa and I were productive little buggers yesterday.  We didn't get a ton done, but Lisa did some crappy shit that needed to be done, and I got some stuff done too.  Plus I took Hope out for a run in the sweltering heat, and Cammie for a walk.

Want to know something that happened on my vacation last week??  I noticed it has been happening slowly, but surely anyway.  Well you know Greg, and Brian live in Hawaii.  It used to be in years past when you talk to either of them it was always how great everything was.  They brought the truth out this time.  Meaning things aren't always that fucking great.  That just goes to show you, living in paradise is great, but still life still sucks at times.  The life sucks-- shows up in all our lives. 

Why???  There are pressures, concerns, bills, shitty cars, health, you name it.  You can have all the money in the world, and it still won't make you happy.  They get divorced just as much as other people.  At the end of the day no one really knows you, and maybe that is why there is unhappiness.  You know why no one knows you??  You don't know yourself.  Who are you?? 

Anyway something I was thinking about a couple days ago is our sight is cloudy.  We definitely don't have 20/20 eyesight into ourselves.  Our emotions on a day to day basis can be different.  Vision during a bad mood, sees things different than vision in a good mood.  We are not just one person to be lumped in some category.  We are many people, on any given day we can be a different person.  We look the same, but our thoughts are different.  You know how some days you can be a bitch, and some days not.  :)  I use the term you, because I am never a bitch.   Fuck faces.   :)

Anyway truth is a sword that cuts through all our bad vision.  A sword can be used in a good way, and a sword can be used in a bad way.  Truth when directed to ourselves is good.  A sword when directed toward others is bad.  It is the worst.  That is why it says a wise person's eyes are always in their head.  Looking at ourselves.  Why is the truth sword important??  Cause it cuts through all the crap inside us that makes us not see who we are. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  you hang in there kiddo.  A lot of us think the world of you.  :)  xoxoxoxo

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

extras of these  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I wasn't going to give extras out today, but I am going to give extras to Kim Kim Kim.  She is a very interesting person.  She shows all kinds of sides to herself.  The reason I am throwing extras to her, is I am going to add her to the signature line, but I don't know in what way yet.  Just my little way to show she is important in my eyes.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  (sometimes that shit is nice to know)  


Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D