Honesty

I am going to put this out here.  If you read this blog, and you didn't say anything to me when my brother passed, I think that is fucked up.  I think that is freaking weird of you.  So there.   See what I mean???  Shit gets weird on here doesn't it?  This shit is fucking hard enough to do anyway... well not really, but to try and understand this shit is something.   (new readers I understand)

I know I left some people, and some people left me, and that makes it hard.  Want to know something???  I think I leave some people when they have family stuff to deal with.  Also, I think I had to leave some people before my brother left, because it was really hard to even keep up with the blogs I continued to read.  I give as much as I can, and I only had so much stuff with my brother passing you know.  So, I am going to start adding back.  Charisa I am adding today, and I will have to add Kim Kim Kim back too, because she stuck with me even when I left, so I will add her back too in the next couple of days.  I have dealt with the stuff, and now I am stronger.  Yayyyy.  :)


Now since I have been doing this shit a while, it is pretty normal for me.  I guess we have to outgrow the desire to have our appearance of our lives all glam and fabulous and all that shit, and say hey,  shit comes our way.  We hafta deal with that shit.  Don't you see trying to make everything appear all o.k. is a lie.  A freaking lie.  The one thing our poor asses have the power to do is be honest.  It takes a deep set of eyes to look at our lives, and look at everything.   We have the ability.  Do you have the courage??  It ain't freakin easy.  Fuck no, this shit is hard.

So, like Jen H. says call a spade a spade.  If everything is perfect, than you are a liar.  The one thing you should strive to never ever do.  So let's face it, ya got some shit.  We all do, but you know what???  You ain't got anything worse than Anne Frank now do you??

With that note, I will say, I did get a run in yesterday.  A 3.13 miler @ 9:17 pace.  I think it went pretty good.  I am out of shape, but no lingering pain.  So I am happy with that.  I also did some push ups and pull ups.  It was the 2nd day after my start, so I was sore as hell.  I used it as an active recovery though.

It is good news for me to be exercising again.  I have no races I am training for really, but we will see.  I did toy with doing the Riverbank 25K again.  I thought piece of cake.  What is 15.63 miles??  A walk in the park.  Ummmm,  I guess not when you have been off for a while.  Rebuilding from scratch.  :)

That is it for today!!!!   :)

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p.s.  I also plan on adding back before a certain Pittsburgh marathon too.  :)

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