It Was A Day Anyway.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I didn't sleep for shit last night. I don't know why. Yesterday was a pretty awesome lazy ass day. I watched the  Ted Bundy 4 part documentary,  and binge watched a show called The Sinner. It's with Jessica Biel.  It was just a murder mystery type program. The reason I watched it cuz I thought it was Jennifer Beals of Flashdance.  :)

It was okay. I was entertained. The only thing I did other than sit on my ass watching tv, was prep the pot roast for the slow cooker, and ran the snowblower again. I'll probably have to do it again today after work,  and maybe again tomorrow.

It was okay binge watching tv. I realize I never do it. Last time I did it was when I was sick during Thanksgiving. I guess I am pretty busy doing shit. I never really think about how busy I am. I always have shit to do. Maybe I should try to watch more shows. It's kinda fun. Not a huge priority obviously.

I did catch a glimpse of me, and how I must seem here. Kinda odd in a way I guess. I found Ted Bundy to be an interesting character. Can't imagine why he felt the need to kill all those girls. How can you even come to terms with it?  He always put on a brave and confident face, but looking inside himself what did he see?  What overpowered his common decency to be like that? 

I know some stuff about him that he may have never learned about himself. I know things that overpowered him to not be as good of a person as he'd like. How he justified himself I have no clue.

We all have shit inside us that makes us less than Saints. I learned that long ago. Being alive is having all kindsa shit to be guilty about. I am sure we all have things about us we are ashamed of.

I have a huge list of not nice shit I've done. I never killed anyone or anything, but I ain't perfect. That's for sure. I did go out , actually was led in a direction to learn about me. What made me less than I wanted?  I learned who I really wanted to be is beyond my power. I found my path to be transformed into what I want. It's my story. I just have no say when it is. I tried going a long time ago, but the timing wasn't up to me. I thought several Thanksgivings ago was my time, but it wasn't.

I've been ready, but my blog is the wait, and I think I have to wait for others to be ready. Everyone is scattered so, I have no clue of much.

In the meantime I live my life. It's pretty simple. I don't have anything to worry about really,  except this snow, and the 3 days of 40°+ rainy days coming up.  It's gonna be wet. Hopefully not in my basement.

Other than that not much. Ted Bundy was not so far to ask for forgiveness. The scary thing for us is the light I think. We don't want our shitty  secrets known. God knows what people think about. Also people don't know what makes up their darkness.

You can't fake your way to sainthood. You ain't there either. You and I both have that in common. I know this truth about us. I suspect you probably don't.

The Ted Bundys make it easy on us to judge others, while taking the more difficult job of just judging ourself off the table.

In life we have to do hard introspection. You ain't gonna like everything you see either.

Anyhoo.

Til next time. 

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeee.     :)))

It's Nasty Out There.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. We have two days of cold. We are West of the Big Lake, so we won't be as bad as those areas East of the Big Lake, but we get the snow. Every morning these days you look outside, and the cars are covered in snow again. I have my 3rd day off in 4 today too.   :)  I don't really have a lot to do today. Some minor cleaning,  and that's about it. I'll work out too,  but only my home stuff. No need to go out if you don't have to.

Yesterday was a pretty normal day. Nothing too exciting. I don't really know what one should do with an extra day off,  so I kept my schedule normal. I just slept in a bit. Got another 7-1/2 hours of sleep.

I may watch Netflix a bit this morning. That's the only difference really. This cold spell is fine. I don't feel any different. Life still is the same, I feel the same. I wake up like this most days.  Not really worried about much. These days off won't affect my finances much. It's a nice little break.  I feel fine going to work though also.

I guess I just normally feel fine about stuff. A day off really doesn't make me feel much different than a day on. Days on probably just keep me busy longer. Plus I end up with about 20,000 more steps when I work.

Yep, that's about it. That is me these days. Nothing really on my mind. Nothing important to say.

I am fine. I feel good. Life is easy for me, and I have no anxiety about the future. I know why I am the way I am, so I know you are not like this. I wonder what it's like to be like you again. I don't wanna know.  This is too easy, and I couldn't ask for more.

Anyways, I spose.

Til next time.  

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.     :)

Laterzzz.     :)

Byeeee.    :)))

Another Thing Learned From My Phone Mishap

My alarms aren't set anymore. Luckily I typically wake up anyway close to when my alarms go off. So, I am up close to my early alarm.

Yesterday was okay. Nothing crazy. I had to snowblow a couple times. I picked up my Garmin for the car. I love it already. It's basically what we had in the rental car in SA. Pretty sweet. I also got the new shelf thingy put together for the bathroom.

My work out place was open. Pretty empty for a Monday. I totally forgot to do the home part of the workout.  :)   oops.

So, I have McAfee,  and Comcast internet, but still my Wi-Fi was compromised. The Garmin people actually fixed it for me, and added a firewall. I thought McAfee and Comcast would have their own. I don't know how that shit works, but I got rid of rundll.32 exe files. Those are bad. We had a lot.

A lot of stuff uses Wi-Fi. Computers, games, smart tv's,  phones, dvds.  Who knows?  I feel we are pretty safe now.   Not that I'd know. I rarely use the computer. I use my phone, and that's about it.

Other than that not much. Today is,a work day, and that is about it. Tomorrow is going to be cold as heck. We warm up this weekend though. We are close to February, which means we are closer to March.

Basically I got nothing going on. I think I'll take Hope after a cup of coffee.

This is like I thought the other day. I got nothing on my mind, and nothing important to say.

Haha.  I don't care though. I am fine with me. 

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeee.    :)))

Starting The Week Out Right.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine yesterday I had an unexpected snow day. No work. I got the call when I had everything done too. I went shopping for groceries,  and made dinner. It was exciting at first to be off work,  but I really didn't have anything exciting to do. I did sleep for 7-1/2 hours last night so my title.

Today I can clean,  and organize the tool area in the basement. Gotta build a bathroom thingy for the wife, and work out. Doing lunch with my brother, but I'll probably skip the beer part. Get something light too,  cuz I am making a pot roast for dinner. Oh I gotta stop by Best Buy too. I bought a Garmin map thingy. Our rental car in San Antonio had it, and we liked it. Not that we travel much, but when we do. I have a map thing on my phone, but it sucks up juice like no ones business.

So, that is my day planned. Nothing really exciting.  My life is pretty insignificant,  and I like it that way. I don't think anything would change how I live. I don't want to do anything else. I don't want a summer home, or any kinda toys. If I had all the money in the World it would be wasted on me. I wouldn't spend it. I don't like cars, or toys. I am not really into traveling much. When the grass is greener in your head than anywhere else, you don't need anything.

That I suspect is hard for you to comprehend. From what I gather people typically like to work less. For me, I am at a good balance. Like I've said before,  I am happy with my life. It is simple.

I know there still is a purpose for my life,  but it really seems insignificant doesn't It?   I guess when the time comes it may be a bigger deal.

I don't really have much else. A simple day planned for a pretty simple week I suspect.

Gotta run. Oh, it isn't even going to hit 1° on Wednesday.   :)  fun fun.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.     :)

byeeeee.    :)))

Strange Things.

So yesterday was kinda odd. For one thing I slept 9-1/2 hours.  :)  that was last night. At work though my phone automatically reset itself. Deleted everything, and restored it, except you have to download all the apps again,  and it doesn't remember all your usernames and stuff. Also I have no contacts anymore. 

The contact thing may seem like a big deal, but I don't really text much. Eventually, I'll get them back. You know you'll get a text,  ask who is this? Etc...  

I saw a bad movie. The favourite, or my favourite. It's up for Oscars probably,  so they played it here. I just wasn't interested  in the storyline,  and the ending was awful.  Don't even know what it was supposed to mean. The acting was good in it. Work went fine.  That was my day. It's cold outside so for dinner I had leftover pizza. Another day I may have gone out, but who wants to go out to eat when it is so cold. You have cocktails,  and you just get colder.

I've been thinking lately there isn't much on my mind. I got nothing really important to say. January is almost done, and then March is just around the corner.

Really Winter is just January and February. 2 months really. December is fine, and March is the beginning of longer days and temps. will probably start creeping up. I love the change of seasons. Everything looks different.

I've done this thing a while,  and I guess one could get to know me pretty good with this thing.  There isn't much to me is there?  Kinda a pretty normal'ish person. No redeeming quality really. My life I live is simple. Not a lot to worry about. What is kinda nice is there is not a lot of people I need to be in contact with. You know, my phone can be off, and it is no biggie. You sometimes see where people want to spend less time on their phone. Just something I thought of. I am not very important, so it isn't vital if I am accessible. It doesn't matter.

That is a quiet lifestyle I suspect. I like it. Today is Sunday,  which is one of my favorite days. I get stuff done, and then work, and have a day off. Starting my Sunday with 9-1/2 hours of sleep is pretty nice.

I have a pretty quiet life. One in which I don't really matter. I mean that in a positive way. It's free you know?  I like working so I do. I stay busy. Most work days are heavy step amount days, and I work 6 days/week. I like that too.

Everything about my life I feel pretty positive about. I've been led to a pretty easy life. Also my heart is such a way I enjoy it.

Can't ask for more than that.

Anyways, I spose.  

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.     :)

Byeeee.     :)))

Strange.

Well,  I feel well rested for a Friday. I only slept around 6 hours too.  Usually by the end of the week it's hard to get up at my early alarm. I felt I was going to have one drink too many too, but most of it was still in the glass this morning.

If I drink I typically want to have less than a pint. Usually I am pretty good at that,  but this week I seem to be getting closer to the pint. Probably from starting too early. If I don't have shit to do, I may start too early. It's why I like projects.  I'll have drinks til dinner than I am done.  I feel well rested and fine today though like I said.

We are in a pretty wintery stretch now. Below freezing as far as the eye can see. What makes it real bad is right prior to the freeze we had wet and heavy slush. So now basically ice on the sidewalks. I didn't take Hope yesterday because of it. I didn't ride my bike for the same reason.   I can hear the wind howling too.

Yesterday after work,  I aired up the tires in the truck. My '94 Ranger never had low tire pressure sensors.  :)  it's annoying. Come on people ignorance is bliss.   :)

So anyway not much going on with me. Work, eat, sleep. Today is a workout day. I am not tired so I suspect it will be a 4 set day. I'll probably attempt to take Hope after this too. I did think this morning there really is no reason I can't run commute. Work is only like 1-1/4 miles away. Not on my workout days though. I tried it at the old place of 4 miles away, but got injured, and never did it again.  Today I most assuredly will have to drive. I'll know for sure when I take Hope.

Nothing really crazy on my mind. I know politics is pretty crazy for people. Lisa watches msnbc,  so that is all I'll see except for social media stuff. I have no thoughts on it really. Oh one thing is the 60 threshold. You need 60 to overcome a filibuster. I would make people filibuster on stuff. Just cuz you don't hit 60 doesn't mean people give a shit enough to filibuster. Especially if the govt. is shut down,  and people are working with no pay. Seems easy to me.

What do I know though?  At the end of the day it's my life here. It is simple. I am fine with it. I am comfortable in my own skin. I got no worries. I work today. I have no desire to shop for anything. I can buy me whatever I want, and I want nothing.

So, today will be a day. It shouldn't be anything crazy. Omg it is only 3:12 AM.   :) 

I guess I'll make a coffee. My super power of feeling like running in single digit temps at 4:00 AM kicked in.

Yay.    :)

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.    :)

Byeee.     :)))

Some Days You Run Into Stuff To Do.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I slept in a bit today, so I'll have to take Hope after work. Yesterday I lucked out having stuff to do. I got out of work early, got my workout in, but had nothing to do. I could have treated myself to anything by shopping,  but I realized I didn't want anything.

So, I was tired and bored. Luckily the driveway needed to be plowed, I had to do dishes,  I brought some tools downstairs,  so basically there was some stuff to keep me busy. Then I chilled,  ordered a pizza and crashed. I got the home part of my workout in too.

I consider it a successful day. Hold on, I am going to see how much I slept last night. Almost 7 hours. All week I've been waking up at midnight, and not sleeping much after. Last night I woke up too,  but I felt like I crashed after. So, I'll be awake today. I haven't made coffee yet,  I was planning on skipping, but I'll make one after this. Basically I had a simple day, and I stayed busy.

The Bulls lost to one of the worst teams last night at home. Got crushed. As I felt a couple days ago this is not looking like a team that can be good. They should at least show the ability to be competitive.

So that's what I think about early morning. Today is not a workout day. So not sure what I'll do after. Maybe I can think of something I'd like to buy, and go shopping. I do have plenty of clothes though. A lot of tools. All the electronics I need. I should organize the tools downstairs. We will see.

As you can see my life is pretty normal. I like to keep busy to keep my one vice to a minimum.  :)  I don't have any challenges before me.  I really am glad I workout though. It gives me something else to do. 3 times each week, and it doesn't take me long. I ain't looking to do more stuff, but just stay busy basically.

There isn't anything I need to accomplish. Just do my day to day.

That's all she wrote. I pretty much got nothing.

That's okay too.

Til next time. 

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.     :)

Laterzzz.     :)

Byeee.     :)))