On The East Side There Is No Shame

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I slept good I think. I also got everything done I wanted yesterday. The front fascia is painted. All doors and trim are up and painted. I finished putting up the rest of the circular tiles above the garage. We ordered more to finish everything, and they'll be in soon. I have the East and West side peaks,  and the back fascia left. A project in its final moments.

I also finished my book. #6 in a series of like 25 or something. I've read the last two, so I may read these instead of listen to them. I have a 17 hour book on tap right now anyway.

So, I guess things are going pretty good. I am staying busy, and getting shit done. I had another huge helping of cucumbers and vinegar fresh from the garden. I am on a roll I guess. Fall approaches,  and everything will slow down a bit. I may even watch more than 5 minutes of tv at that point.

My life I guess is pretty easy. I do as I feel pretty much, and I typically feel like being busy. I don't have much/any anger toward anything. I don't blame any of my past toward some negative thing about myself. I take full credit for who I am. I was not slighted in any way. I am my own person so to speak as far as this World is concerned. I carry no baggage, cuz my life has been gone through with a fine tooth comb.

I live in the light,  and I can be seen. You have no idea what that feels like. It makes life easy. It makes you strong, and it helps you feel good.

I don't have any great deeds in my past. No special moments of such magnitude that makes my life quite unique. I have no redeeming quality either. I was not born on this Earth with special attributes, which make me better than others. I paid my dues though getting to know myself. I threw away all lies and falsehood so I could look at things objectively.

That which could have and should have shaped me I threw away a long time ago. I am not now who I would have been. You are however,  and you still carry a lot of baggage the World threw your way. We all are trapped into that existence. It takes a little on your part to escape it. You have to be willing though, and that is probably the hardest. As time goes on you become more entrenched in life.

In your walk, I am of no help. It is you alone on this Earth coming to terms with the truth. Family is of no use as far as this goes. In the end you have to deal with you. On that path you may get a glimpse of your shortcomings with others.

I really don't know if anyone is willing to take that walk though. The other path that lays everything else useless,  and without points. Yeah all our activities are vanity, but who is so strong to be able to view the truth. I am for one, but I did my time in the wilderness. I suffered through unseen persecutions,  and I accepted the worst judgements,  because I had help, which made me stronger than I could ever be on my own. I was tested, and with help I overcame. I was an ignorant vessel really who was used for this impossible tale. These days I feel are kinda like the dead years in a way. I know my path,  but it seems nowhere near.

I am cool with it though, cuz my heart is pretty okay about stuff.

Anyhoo, gotta run.

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

Some Times It Is Just Plain Silly Looking Back.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I finished painting under the eves, so now all we have left is white for the fascia, and a bit of trim. Painting a house is kinda a big ordeal. It takes good weather. We did the majority in one day with the sprayer,  and the other part takes forever. The detail work. It will be good to get it done.

I did think a bit about the past with this thing yesterday. Just a blog that pretty much is just my story I guess. I thought of people I became acquainted with this thing, and it seems pretty silly.

I sorta met a lot of people with this thing, and the majority are just nameless faces now.  That is fine with me I guess. It's how are lives are i guess. We feel we are important for a bit of time, and in the end we find out we aren't.

Our deeds don't really matter. We haven't niched out the perfect life. We haven't become perfect people. We all have that in common. Perfection was out of reach for us. The important things we occupied our time with weren't really important. Our hearts betrayed us, cuz we don't always feel the same day to day. I guess we want happiness, meaning, we want to feel good inside about ourselves.

I do feel pretty good inside about me. I don't feel I do anything important, but my way is accepted. I am accepted, and mostly cuz I was willing to not follow my own path,  also I was able to accept harsh truths.

I guess I was tested, but I had a firm hand leading me on the proper way. The sort of funny thing is this is just my story. No one was ever going to be so important they could change me. If you didn't stick around with me it isn't my loss. All along my path was solo. It made me strong,  and everyone else in the scheme of things not too important. No one had any say in my story. In that regard no one is that important.

I know what will be done through me, but how that happens I have no idea. I am not the maker of the events that will finish this story.  I wasn't the maker of events who shaped it to this point. I don't really know how the days will look as we approach finishing this tale off.

I am not too concerned either. I have my little projects to keep me busy. I have work to do, meals to eat, etc... 

I'll tell you one thing I am thankful for of many. Being strong and content. I guess that too is something we wish for. I don't need to be accepted by anyone, cuz my story already is. I wake up mostly as I did today. Feeling good about stuff, and feeling completely assured of my ways. It isn't in my power to be perfect yet,  but I still am accepted. I don't have to pretend to be perfect,  cuz that is out of reach right now. I suspect that is baggage a lot of people hold onto. You must look the look. You must play the part, cuz if you don't you can be judged. You'll learn you need help to be stronger than the World, and that is one of my gifts I guess. My help was strong enough to overcome. Way back when I guess I was strong enough to overcome myself. My life was before me, but I gave up one coin, and was given a better one. I was blind doing this. I had no clue where it would lead. It ended with me appearing to play the fool I guess, but I ended up not being foolish at all.

Anyhoo, I guess that's good. 

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.    :)

xxoo.    :)

Laterzzz.   :)

Sleep Sure Is Our Friend.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I slept in the last couple days. Slept in a bit today too. I think so many days off last weekend threw me off. I slept good last night though. Slept all the way through.

I just checked my bank, and my property tax check went through. No more payments to the house for a year. I worked on the house painting yesterday too. Just finishing the finishing touches, which take quite a long time actually. We get it done though, and it is done.

Also I tried planning our vacation. I think I am going to go to a travel agent though. I don't know enough about that stuff,  and I am going as a tourist. For some reason San Antonio has been in our head to visit. No rhyme no reason just cuz. There aren't many places I really feel like visiting. Vacation is pretty much how you feel on the inside, and I guess my life is a vacation of sorts. I have a pretty good feeling about stuff most times I guess.

I have more stuff to do than time to do it. No strict timetables though,  so nothing to add much pressure. It will be nice to finish the house though.

Other than that not much. I just do not have a lot going on. Work, eat, sleep is my motto. I am lucky I am sitting good financially,  and also lucky I like to work.  Also lucky I don't have any pride that I know of. I am not too proud to do any job.  I like the idea of working, and getting a pay check. I like the schedule of a job too. Filling my day with labor makes me feel fulfilled probably more than anything. I think I also am lucky to feel that way too. When I was at my lowest during the College years, getting a job was what helped me out. Learning to use public transportation helped too. Even as a College graduate my job was cleaning floors,  cuz I didn't know what I wanted to do. Turns out my Saturday job is cleaning floors to this day. I haven't entered into any path that says I am too good to do this or that.

The path I entered was not of my vision. It didn't make me better than anyone, it just helped me know the real truth of stuff.  My heart is more than happy to accept this too.

Anyhoo, gotta run. 

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

Laterzzz.    :)

So That Is What A Weekend Is Like.

Good morning. How's it going?  I am fine. On Friday we went and saw Firehouse. It is i thought an 80s hair band, but they started in the early 90s. They have a few songs we liked,  so when we paid off our house we figured we'd stay at the casino resort and see their show. It was a pretty small venue, which surprised me, but it was okay.

We dont gamble so we didn't. We walked through the casino. It was filled with mostly aged people, and it had the smell of cigarettes everywhere. A casino is probably the only place in the World you can smoke inside, outside one's home.  It is a good place to people watch.

Yesterday we went to a party at my Bil's house. I drank too much. I am not hungover, but just lazy. I did a shot of vodka for some stupid reason. Maybe 2. I have no idea why. Just in the moment it seemed like a good idea at the time. It was fun. We didn't get everything done with the house. I had to special order more curved tile thingies. They'll be in around 2 weeks from now.  It will look good. Still a bit more painting to do too, but it should be done tomorrow or this week sometime.

I paid our property taxes yesterday which equates to my house payment for the year. $1900 give or take. Our property taxes are pretty low. That's a good thing.  We dont have a municipal tax or anything either. A lot of lake houses though,  so I'd guess those would be high. Holland does offer a lot of services. I am Happy to pay my taxes for them too. From the library to road repairs etc....  they gave us money to upgrade our house too.

Other than that not much. Just doing the life thing. Not really a care in the World. Slowly but surely all our projects are getting finished,  and we can just relax, and have fun.

Anyhoo, I got nothing as usual, but I'll hit publish as I've been known to do for no good reason. :)

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

Getting Some More Done.

So yesterday after work, I finished all the exterior blue on the walls. Shortly this job will be done. 2 more windows to paint,  and a door. Have to do white for the fascia and peaks,  and trim out the French door. It may seem like a lot,  but really we can get probably it all done Monday my next day off. Actually I don't work Saturday, so maybe even before Monday. We are going to a concert Friday night. A 80s hair band at a casino near here.  Wake up early Saturday and drive home, who knows?  Today I am going to do the circular shingle thing above the garage. All in all it is pretty exciting getting a big job done. New roof,  house painted, all windows have been replaced. Not too shabby.

Other than that not much. I did go to bed early last night, just to get a really good night sleep. You pick your times I guess. Some people like to stay up,  and sleep as late as they can. I like to wake up early if I can,  and go to bed a bit earlier. Of course I have been doing it that way for years so that ain't anything new.

I do have to say I feel really good getting the house painted. I feel it helped motivate me, and maybe put a little pep in my step.

Life looks really good right now I'd say. At some point in the near future there won't be any projects. Real major ones anyway.

Basically I have nothing to blog about. I will have time to take the Hopester. Also on Sunday I went on a long for me run. It would have been better if it wasn't already 160° at 9:00 AM, but I'll take it.

Anyhoo, I got nothing.

I can still hit publish though.   ;)

Laterzzz.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.   :)

The Weather Changed My Day.

It was totally supposed to rain, or have a high enough possibility of rain yesterday. Said so all week long. Last week was hot as Hell too. We had a house that needed to be painted. I wanted to use our sprayer once, cuz I didn't want to clean it twice.

Anyway, I woke up Monday morning to a low chance of precipitation. Lisa, and I both had the day off, so I said let's get it done. We finished cutting in for the most part,  and got ready to spray. We got the sprayer ready, and practiced on a piece of wood. Then we got it done. The sprayer worked like a charm. It was definitely a team project,  cuz Lisa would use the shield in areas we didn't want to hit.

Instead of siding our house we painted. Saved thousands of dollars along the way. Today I'll have to use the brush for the final areas. We still got trim, and stuff too,  plus an area above the garage Lisa wants me to put a circular shingle thingy. She already has them prepped. I think she used stain for those. A big part of the job done though. I didn't think Mondays weather would let us get that done. So that was a pretty good day off. We went out for Mexican food for dinner.

Other than that not much. Just totally stoked to get done what we did yesterday. I don't remember last year so much, but I feel I am getting more done this year. Probably in a few weeks I'll be bombarded with veggies from the garden too.

Today will be a day of work. Some more painting. Dinner will be had at some point. There will be news on the t.v. and internets I will not pay any attention too. I find that to be the best way to keep the noise out of your head, and anger out of your heart. News is spin, and you let yourself get tangled in the nonsense when you pay attention to those spinsters   who peddle the news. Everyone has an angle,  you'd be wise to ignore. You ain't gonna change the World. You cannot even change you.

Anyhoo,  I feel yesterday was a pretty good day. Today shouldn't be horrible either. If I paint today, which I plan on, it will be a good amount below 87°. 

Gotta run.   :)

Have fun.   :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)

A New Day.

So this is my 2nd Sunday sleeping in. I was tired yesterday after work, but I still got a bit done around the house. Not a lot,  but...  I did go to bed early,  and woke up around 2:30 AM or so.  I did catch a glimpse of how people think at that point. I've been the way I am for a long time, so I've known things a while. You cannot see the things I see, and I rarely can see things how I was in my early to mid 20's.

I know no one is strong enough to stand on your own so you need society,  Country, other people.  You need a crutch to find a type of strength I guess, cuz if nothing is true about our life how do we stand? 

It's a good question I guess. There is you who were thrown in this life not of your plans and choice. Parents are all grown up'ish so they teach you their ropes they were given via Education, society,  tv, news, papers,  drugs, friends etc...  the stuff that helped shape you.

I threw everything I learned away in my younger years. I think I was led that way. My life was such a way, and I questioned. I found out this whole World is a lie. It's you here alone. Eventually you get to 6' under, and what is the truth of this?  Why?? 

As far as I can tell people believe what they do for any number of reasons. As far as I can tell they never really question what they believe. They stand their own ground by arguing the falseness of others. Clinging to their group of like minded people perhaps.

If the World is wrong then what is right?  If you are wrong who is right?  You'll find no heroes in this place. No one did things better than you, and you didn't do things better than others. You were born into this great trap called life. A night of passion was your beginning, and you believed everything the World threw at you so far.

I know inside something is missing in you, but you don't know what it is.  everyone wants a care free life, but how does one go about it?  It isn't in your power to create it, and it isn't in your heart to be that way.  Maybe you want to work or sacrifice toward it,  I don't know. We all are lost, until we escape the clutches of the World. So much is out of our power, and I guess humility is the first step.

These days I don't really know though,  cuz I've done this a long time, and nothing really even got done.

I've done my part I guess, and others were just unwilling. Not sure what happens now.  I suspect I'll just continue doing what I do, and we will see about you.

Anyhoo, gotta run.

Laterzzz.    :)

xoxo.   :)

xxoo.    :)