The Seal Ate My Golf Club.

Some days you can see a title, and it should be quite obvious someone; not mentioning any names, has nothing on his or her mind.

So we had a weekend. I don't think anything really major happened. I finished another Pendergast book,  and started another. The prior one I just finished, I read several years ago. When I started listening to books I just figured it would be something I do at work on Sundays, but I actually like it a lot. I am getting through 2-3 books/week. Otherwise I wouldn't read much. I can just sit and think of things to entertain myself. My
mind does not bore me.

The first two days of work this week should be pretty busy. Tomorrow is fat Tuesday so I'll be working both sides of the table. All hands will be on deck 3rd shift tonight cuz they have to make a million packzis. I don't really know why those go with fat Tuesday really. They are basically a Polish jelly filled donut. A local company ordered like 800 for tomorrow not to mention all the other orders. They made a million last year, and sold out by like 8:00 AM. So it is definitely a big day.

Not sure what I'll be doing after. I was kinda thinking of BOGO. We'll see.  The days turn over. One after another,  and we don't really know how much time we have. Are we healthy?   When will our end come?   You don't really know. People kinda assume you'll just keep going. I know from from personal experience one day I turned 40, and a couple weeks later I was 50. Next week I'll probably turn 60, and a few days after that if I am still alive I'll be 100. :)

Time Moves on. Chances are you have no idea what this life thing is about. I don't have such worries. I don't really worry about much I guess. I am not angry at anything really. I don't pay any attention to the news. I feel if people are so divided you can't trust what anyone says. Without trust there is no need to pay attention. Without trust you lost me.

I don't consider my days to be significant, although I know what the outcome of my story is. I don't think of it much, but I did yesterday, and it seemed a bit crazy.

My heart stays humble, cuz it knows the truth. That is a pretty good feeling I tell you. It puts me at peace I guess.

I know this of myself, and I can't not wonder about you. How much tension is in your life?  

As a product of an imperfect society no matter where you were born and raised,  you cannot be at peace. It isn't possible.

There isn't much you can do to improve that either. Your life kinda sucks, but you don't think there is anything better.

The gap between you and I is real, but you cannot comprehend. It isn't possible. You are lost, and you don't know it.

Anyway in this World there are no heroes, but you want them. I don't need them. My path helped me be strong on my own,  cuz I have help you don't even know is possible.

Anyway, I have a big day of work. I'll rest up a bit.

Have a good one.  :)

It Is Saturday.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I am up earlier than I need to, but that typically is the case with me anyway.

I found out yesterday we close on our refi a week from Monday. That is pretty sweet. We took out a little extra money to do our roof,  but we still are only taking out what we originally intended. So all we will have is the house payment,  and the car,  which is only  $100/month. Our lives just got easier.  Sorta easier, we do plan on doing a lot with the house this Summer. I actually feel motivated too, which hasn't been the case for a while.

Other than that not too much going on. I saw a movie yesterday, and I may see one today. I got a text yesterday too to try and skate out early from work today,  cuz it's been a slow week.

I guess yesterday was just about perfect really. Good news. We had a good meal. I slept good,  and I am in a good mood.

I have nothing really serious on my mind. I did think of one thing this morning. The fact I don't really know people. People may tell you some of their day to day, but what else? 

There are probably any number of things to worry about in the World,  and in our lives,  but I am not really concerned with too much.

As long as I've been doing this you would think you know me,  but really you can't. You cannot walk in my shoes in the least. You have no idea.

I guess in a way you don't have any idea what kind of shoes you are walking in. I sorta know,  but am decades removed so not really. I cannot bridge the gap between you and I.

One thing you can say is I am known,  and I am seen. Every little part of me can be seen. My thoughts and all. That gives me strength,  but still you can have no way to know of what I am talking about.

There is a gap between you and I. The truth of this gap is I stand in the better position.

Anyway. I doubt I show up here tomorrow,  but you never know.

Cya.  :)

Today Is A New Day.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. Today is another day. Yesterday was a day. Nothing too crazy happened. I worked. I was tired after work, but biking home woke me up. I cleaned up the kitchen, relaxed, and made an easy dinner.

The refinancing of our house is in the final stages. I knew the market was good in West Michigan, but our house appraised for much more than we thought. It's fake money, and we aren't taking any extra out, but it is nice. Especially since we are going to redo, and finish our basement bedroom and bath.  We will also redo our roof. It will be a busy Summer, but I am looking forward to it.

Other than that not much going on. I may go see a movie after work. I have to check times. We will then have a dinner, and chill. The days don't really change too much. I am on a schedule I am used to. I do what is expected of me,  and I am dependable. I am no great person,  and I am not really significant on my own,  but my story is in different hands, so my value isn't really about this person here. It's entirely something different.

I cannot imagine what it is like being you, while having someone like me around. I was not afforded that luxury. When it came time to find the answers to life I was all alone.

It wasn't what I thought, and I had no idea I'd have these days. At first I thought once I was changed that life was going to be good and easy. Then I saw life was bad and horrible. Nothing for a while. Things started up probably a decade or so again, and now we are onto these days.

Did not foresee any of this, but things are easy now. It is easy for me now. You just have to deal with the tough parts of life.

I guess that is what I wait for among other things.

Anyway,

Happy 1800.  :)

Cya later.   :)

1799, and Counting.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I slept in yesterday so I didn't blog. I napped,  which screwed me up. I stayed up late,  so just slept in.

I am approaching 1800 updates. I used to approach 300 updates/year. Haven't really been that frequent, but if I did, that would be six solid years of blogging. The wait goes on.

There have been different years, and different themes. At some point we went in the wilderness. In the wilderness life just doesn't seem as great as we thought it would be. Like I said before you don't beat the wilderness, you just get let out eventually. I was let out when I overcame the first time, but I went in different than you. I already knew the scary parts of life,  having endured tribulations already.

As this blog has kinda always been we hit unseen waters. I don't know your story from here on out. I have no clue what your life does from here.

I think a lot of people have disappeared from blogging. You kinda wonder why. Is it cuz of me in some small part?  I don't know. I once was called a troll. I had no idea what that meant at the time.

Whatever. I am me. Doing what I do. As I am approaching 1800 entries I guess this thing is still alive. Many people have fallen away for various reasons unbeknownst to me, but it had little to no effect to me. I am too strong.

I think I remember people should jump on board early, cuz it gets harder as time goes on. That was just one of those things I felt in my heart, although I probably didn't know why.

In this area is me. Something you can see, and read. Outside here I am work,  eat, sleep. I have a silly sense of humor that laughs at all things inappropriate.

Like I said before I am not out to change the World, cuz it ain't changing. I guess in a way I am out to tell people the way to be changed. For the better. The wilderness helps in that,  because it helps you see life for what it is. A never ending succession of days that ends in your death.

No matter what you do, how you fill your days will not lead you to Sainthood. To go that route is something entirely different.  In this area your day to day means absolutely nothing. It is why life has lost its luster for some of you.

You've been building your stairway to heaven, and really you are just an old man with a bundle of sticks on your back.

Your labor has been in vain. The story is about something else entirely different. In the real story we don't even matter. A coin among many others. Not special in any way. Now if you take the right steps your one coin can be turned into 5, but it won't be because your special. I overcame the first time,  and I was the lowest person alive. Not worth a weed in a field.

It wasn't by my greatness or anything. It was cuz I took the proper steps, and was obedient. Nothing special about me at all, and I am cool with that.

Cuz the heart given me is good. I am different today than I would have been left to my own devices. Not perfect yet, but I can still be used as I am.

That too is part of the story. Part of my trail. I was gonna have to do it this way. I just didn't really know how this all played out. I learn as I go.

Okee doke

I'll cya later.

Next one is 1800, not that it matters.

Cya.  :)

Some Days I Have No Idea.

Some days I...  scratch that. Many days I have no idea what will show up on here. Today is one of them. Maybe even more so, cuz I almost am not even going to do it. Not for any reason really,  except nothing really on my mind.

Yesterday was pretty okay. Lisa had a spot on her breast. They wanted to do another look. She had her mammogram last week, and they called her back. So she had that to worry about for a week. It's benign. Just a cyst that may just go away. They'll look at it again next year to see if it is still there.

I remember thinking early last week, we've been together for a long while. Her parents died 2 years ago. We worked for many years at various places, and someday it will end. We are not guaranteed some type of fairy tale end. I saw the totality of our lives,  and it seemed pretty dumb.

Years and years of pointless day to day stuff that ends with someone dying. So I see this, and if other people claim what they do and what they think is important,  I'm calling Bullshit.

If you think you are important I am calling Bullshit too,  cuz I know your end. I just don't know if important people will go before you or you before them. People will be sad. It may be you for them,  or them for you.

I guess that is the turn. You just are doing day to day shit like everyone else. It doesn't matter, cuz someone's gonna die. We just don't know who.

Anyway I guess I am glad I am me, cuz I learned what I needed to learn. I took the right steps. Now I just do life. Sometimes people will try to appear important with their ideas, and thoughts or whatever, but I can ignore mostly, cuz I see the end of the road.

No one really is very smart, cuz they cannot see the finish line. I guess in that way I am smart, but people take me as a fool. That is their mistake. Not mine.

Anyhoo,

This blog is weird I think, cuz just a couple minutes ago I wasn't even going to blog.

Crazy huh?

Okee dokee. I may see you tomorrow.

Bye.   :)

Spring In February.

Good morning. How's it going?  I can't tell if I am tired or not. I woke up a bit more than usual last night.

The weather is crazy for February. I saw  fishing boats on Lake Mac yesterday. I sat outside with Hope. It is going to be 61° today and 64° on Wednesday. It will throw things out of whack,  but I am not totally sure how. It was a few years ago in March like 90% of Lake Michigan was frozen.

Anyway,  yesterday was a normal day. I worked, finished listening to another Pendergast book, and started another. I am skipping the first two books, cuz one was Relic. They made a movie out of it. I think they did the 2nd one too.  I was thinking earlier why didn't they make movies out of the Pendergast books, and now I realize they did.

For dinner I made an oriental meal in our wok. I eventually fell asleep,  and eventually woke up a lot. A lot of Mondays I go get BOGO burritos and have some beers. I am skipping today,  just cuz. I think because I am tired.

Really I have nothing really planned today. I'll come home, and pretty much just wait to do dinner. I'll probably listen to my book.

Omg this update is so dumb. I don't have anything, and this is going nowhere. I could delete it, but whatever.

I'll cya later. Maybe tomorrow.

Up Early For a Sunday

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am doing good. I am up early for a Sunday so I guess I'll try this. I don't really have much on my mind though as usual.

Yesterday was okay. I cleaned the kitchen, and did laundry. We made tacos for dinner. I slept good too, since I am up early. We'll have good weather again today so it should be a good day. I'll get out of work around 1:00. We also have any number of things we can do for dinner. The day is set. Just not sure what we will do from after work til dinner time.

My life is pretty simple. There are probably things I could do different, but I think I am going okay.

In other news there is no other news. There is nothing really to my little life here. I am 50 years old, and I guess I am in my golden years kinda. Not really much to worry about. Typically life goes and ties people up, but it did the opposite for me. There is a reason for that,  and that is my story.

Such a simple statement the truth will set you free. Sounds good too, but in actuality you have to brace yourself for the truth, cuz it isn't what you think.

It is pretty impossible for a human to come to the truth, cuz our whole lives we learned other things. The World always lied. It's what it does,  cuz it doesn't know the truth.

I find it pretty impossible for me to help you get close to the truth, and maybe cuz you battle against it. Maybe we try, and try, and try, and eventually we break. Meaning you just cannot be who you really want to be.

I guess I was that way. When I found myself alone in the World,  and the World was before me, I tried to make me the best person I can be. It turns out I wasn't too good at that. That helped me see the truth. It helped make my heart right for what it needed to do. That is where you need to go.

For those willing anyway. So far I count zero willing, but I don't really know. Who knows what goes on with people?  Surely not I.

Anyhoo,  I guess that's it.

Have fun.  :)

Laterzzzzzz.  :)