Dumb Titles...

Yesterday's title was kinda annoying. Why not just A Summer Day ?  So dumb.

Oh well who cares??

Yesterday was pretty okay. Work went fine.  Worked an hour over. Today they are dropping a shed off at our house. Lisa is getting a good deal at work. It will actually be nice to have a shed, since we only have a one stall garage door.

Other than that work will be a busy one again today, and then it is the weekend. Life keeps moving. We are almost into August, and have we even done anything this year??

I know a lot about people, and there are two sides. The current version of us that lives life, and has good days and bad days. Motivated days and the daily grind days. The opinionated version if ourself, and really just the normal day to day version of us.

Then there is still the kid version of us that never died. A person all alone in this World, and maybe terrified if he asked the question what if everything is wrong. This kid may be even more terrified to find the answer is yes.  Everything is wrong.

We do day to day shit, because that is a part of life, but you gotta dig deeper for the truth, because to be human is to think we are right.

Perhaps you may notice my seeming hypocrisy, but I had my journey. After being severely judged after heimleblog I didn't want anymore. I just wanted to be right if you remember, and the assurance of right came, and the promise that all my steps are on good ground.

My work is done. I've been accepted, although I still have another thing to do.

The work that needs to be done is yours.

When that takes place who knows.  Maybe some will never get the courage. They will just hide their coin to protect it instead of what needs to be done with it.

You will fail because you won't have enough courage.

Some the weeds drown out your seed, because the World is way too busy, and you never graduate out of the day to day stuff.

Come to think of it you people need a lot of help.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I have a lot to do today.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D

A Summer's Day...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??   Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a good day yesterday. Work went fine. Actually work is pretty fun. This time of year I personally just try to get everything done on time. Monday is a pretty easy day, and the other days it isn't always real easy to get done on time. We stay busy the whole shift. I like that.

Anyways yesterday was a great Summer day. The temps were nice when I got home. I sat outside for a couple hours, and then we had dinner. I went to bed early, and now I am up early.

I like life this way. In bed early, and up early. I don't really know why. Maybe it is sleep security. If I am tired, I can always sleep more. I am really lucky to know me. I know what I can do, and probably what I shouldn't. Whatever it is I shouldn't do probably is not in my heart as something I want to do.

I have a lot of help and a lot of protection from any kind of day to day stuff that can get one in trouble. If I have vices they don't control me. They just supplement life. Make it more colorful.

A content heart is a really great thing, and I bet from the outside looking in at me you cannot comprehend what a content heart is. Why is that??  There is always too much shit in the World huh??

I should do this and I should do that. I should act this way towRd this person and this way to that person. I have emails to read, and regular mail. There are bills to pay.

Life is busy as heck. Where do all you busy people find time to take pics of your happily ever after?? Why are there not pics of your 47 emails that need to be read??  The 26 envelopes of bills and shit that came in the mail??

How about a pic of your budget you fuck up every month??  The high cost of insurance payments, and when do you have time to grocery shop??

Life is about balance, and there is no way that is possible for a human. It is why you cannot comprehend a content heart, cuz it is not remotely possible without help, and you have no help... Right now.

You are currently one of the billions of people walking the Earth. Living life, but not to it's potential, cuz you look for answers on the outside, and all the important shit is on the inside.

Many of  you act kinda weird too, because to be accepted by the World is more important than anything else??

Meanwhile today I plan on having another Summer day.  :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love you All!!!    :)

p.s. Had a blogger I read in the past blog again yesterday. My list sorta got fucked up, but I was really glad to see her in my list, and glad to see her blog. I read her only for a short while, but I know a lot about her already.

I think she called me a creep once. :)  I can usually overlook most things. There is a strength in knowing you are right. I have that strength.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.   :)

MWAH.    :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya     :D    :D

Life Is Always Near...

Life is so near, but still very far away. It appears our hearts blind us from life. We are all so busy doing day to day shit, and you add year over year of day to day shit, and it wraps a web around our heart.

Our hearts get hard, because it gets no oxygen. We end up being blind, because this is how the World controls us. It is the way of the World, and none escape it.

Why? ?

From what I learned is important shit was done, but we don't understand, because our minds are way too weak. It says do not trust in your own understanding, but how can a human not think he is the master if the Universe??

Our hearts are wrong, and there was never ever any other way that was going to come out.

So there is a whole story being told.  I know it doesn't fall on deaf ears, but the story goes against all we believe. We believe we are right. We believe we are good.

We believe all kindsa things, but the story is all about forgiveness. It isn't a story about how great we are, but just coming to terms with us. Our life, and the things that make us imperfect.

Having our hearts webbed up as they are by life it takes help to unwrap it, and clean it out.

All this shit is invisible to the eye, and that is the way it works.

Not all things were invisible to me, cuz I saw real stuff. I walked with the Glory of God in me for a couple hours before. Saw the World as he did, and you realize nothing is hidden. I had the Worst of the worst in me for 6 days doing what he does best. Judge, and persecute.

I lived in complete terror before, but it helped build trust.

There is a way to a better us, and it is worth everything. It is a blind step, and one I didn't think was so hard. If the wait is years in the making, well that is just crazy.

Kinda funny too if you think about it. It is just the truth. That is all. Why is that so scary??

Are you afraid if you???  Afraid of what you will see??

So we go out and try to conquer the World, cuz we are too afraid to see what is inside us that conquers us??  Now that is dumb.

That is it for today!!!  :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Think I'll take the hopester and have some breakfast.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.   :)

MWAH.    :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

A Lot About Nothing Probably...

This may be a lot about nothing cuz I really don't have much on my mind. Yesterday was a pretty normal day in I worked, and then chilled at home. I did grab my bike after work, and I had a flat. What to do??  Call Lisa to pick me up??  She was off. Walk home with the bike??  How annoying. Oh crap, the cycling store is right across the street. I forgot.  :)

(I bike to work using the back road with no traffic, so I totally forgot about that)

So that wasn't so bad. The guy asked me how long I was biking, and I told him like 4 miles. I told him I worked at DeBoer and was going home.

Those days of me biking for more than transportation are probably over. The days of what can I do are probably over. That spark is all but dead, and maybe that is how my life is supposed to be.

Why??  Who knows, it isn't really important anyway.

What is important in my life??

There isn't much here. I work, stay active, but just to stay active. I eat meals, and sleep. I sit outside a lot, and I sleep really good most days.  :)

I don't read much anymore. Occasionally. I don't watch much tv at all. I just live life day by day. Mostly boring stuff from the outside looking in, but I am never bored.

The World does not impress me. All the people we may look up to are just people. Imperfect people who deal with the same shortcomings everyone else does.

The one thing you can count on is there are no heroes. The World can clothe people in brighter lights than others, but they are still people.

As life goes on it should be easy to see that life should be more.  We should be more, but how do we make the inside of us a better person??

If only one could teach us the way.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!!  :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s. All of a sudden the Sox started another streak, and are in WC contention. Just to piss me off I bet, baseball can drive you crazy like that. At least me anyway. Glad I am not a Cubs fan. Things could always be worse.  ;)

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's.  :)

MWAH.   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D      :D

The Long And Winding Road...

Hello, and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. Had a relaxing day yesterday. Outside of work I have very little to do, so yesterday I watched movies. It was like a Winter day in that regard kinda. I am cool with it too.

This morning before getting up I was thinking about things. What I do a lot really. How I am like me, and you are like you.

It is soooo strange for me going through my things, and standing as I do now. I have a job to do, and I do it. I think how bad I must be doing, but really you have a job to do too, but you don't.

What is your job??   Your story should be similar to mine in you have no idea what it is.

You remember when I started decades ago I had no idea what would happen. Turns out I went through some very tough things. Learning all these things I realized the Whole World is wrong. All the people, and all the teaching.  Everyone was wrong.

That Summer I has to find my way. My heart was not in good hands, but I believed the things said. I was obedient when I found out I had to go solo.

The job I was supposed to do I knew would come at some point, but when the energy came back I was free to do as I choose, and I chose to be a nut.

Back then some things stayed with me. Once I found a good job I worked hard. That stated with me. I also back then read a lot. Anything from Robert Ludlum to History books.

I knew things no one else did. I must be special.

My 2nd trial and this whole wait blog taught me the truth. I am not special. Yeah I know stuff, but that is cause I am lucky to be picked out to do this job.

It is a hard position to realize the whole World is wrong. All the teaching is wrong. The number game is not a good one. I no longer have fear, cuz the time for me to fear is over. It never totally goes away 100%, cuz I am still just a weak vessel whose only strength comes from my help.

That being said though typically my heart is pretty okay, cuz I have the promise, and I don't need to 2nd guess anything.

My life is mine to live, because my heart is led in good directions.

You don't want to know the nutty things I learned, because it is really strange.

Anyway for me to be here as I am now is pretty remarkable. It is a good thing.

The life you sorta think you wanna have is out of reach. We are way too imperfect to make our "perfect" lives.

In making your own perfect life you will fail miserably.

There only is one way to the content life you should really want, and trust is key, cuz it is outside your vision.

Anyways, I guess it is time to take the hopester.

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for Reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love  You All!!!   :)

p.s.  This is too long to proofread.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's!!!  :)

MWAH!!!   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D

Saturday Morning...

Gotta like Saturday mornings. It is the day I can sleep in til whenever I want, and I slept in til after 4:00 am. I had a great night of sleep last night. I also am starting today with a cup of coffee.

So what is going on with me??  Not much, just living day by day doing my thing. What a thing it is I do too. Living a life, and doing a job I did not ask for. Life came at me full force. I was at the point in my life where direction was everything. As life came at me, and I watched people like Khien Pham I realized if there is some reason I am here, let me do that instead of anything else.

That is the turn. When life seems gross. The World is dirty. Everything under the sun is so way not perfect, there is only one way to go.

That led to a very hard journey for me. I went through what I thought all my life was, and started my solo track. I played the fool, I suffered, in the worst Summer of my life I received a blessing. It was definitely the Summer if fear, and the Summer of my death and condemnation. Then I woke up the next day alive. With help I overcame, cuz at the right time I was given what to say to the judges.

What is it??  "God's will be done".

When the judges have control of your heart you believe what they want you to believe. They judge, and they condemn. When I said "God's will be done" I knew I just condemned myself. I could not save myself, and this trial was all about building trust. It is the trials and tribulations that perfect our faith.

It sure isn't about going into the World , and doing whatever. The real us is on the inside. That little person in this big World with questions of why even life??  Wouldn't it be better if there was nothing??

It is a big deal this thing I do, because this is not really what I asked for, but I did. Let me do whatever no matter how small and insignificant really.

I was never ever strong enough or courageous enough to do what I do. Especially solo, but as I started blogging, my journey continued. I kept going and going and going.

I asked you to make a very important step. It took death and more pain, and more stuff for me to learn what needed to be done.

So I've traveled, and you haven't made one step.

Life is not as you view it. Your story is not what you think it is. I don't know what your story is post turn, but it is different than what it is now. Way better too.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Been blogging a lot, but typically not on Sunday cuz I try to wake up to get to work at 3:00 am without the alarm.

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's!!!    :)

MWAH!!!   :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya    :D    :D

On Pluto Chairs Are Round, and Other Ways Of Cooking Meals...

Hello and good morning. How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good. I had a good night sleep, and I am ready to start out my Friday. Yesterday for dinner we went to a place called Kozaks. They serve authentic Chicago stuff. I had an Italian Beef with giardinara, and a Chicago style dog loaded. That shit is sooooo good.

Other than that not much going on. Kinda enjoying the summer. It is still July too so that is good. All is quiet on the blogging front, and I think I know why. The blogs will go a certain way after a turn, but the turn has not been made, so the blogs are going nowhere, so there is nothing to write about.

Invisible to the eye is how they will go. Your hearts will be changed, and vision will be improved. Strength you currently do not have you will have.

It will come down to what I asked years ago. To be open, to be honest, and to show people.

Your blogs will all of a sudden be about your life. Deeper shit than the day to day. It is here you will do tough stuff, and that will help you get to the good stuff. Many if you have a following of sorts, and that will open stuff up to bring others along.

Simple formula huh??

No I had no idea this is how things would be, but if you go back to the beginning you remember how important the bloggers were in my eyes. My heart led me in the direction I go. Yours will too.

When will this happen??  That is entirely up to you. Do you want to feel better about you and life??  Do you want to figure out what life is??  Do you want answers??

All the good things are there for you, your job is to turn one coin into 5 or 10.  I've already told you that you are only one coin. You'll find you've been asked to do the impossible, cuz only one can turn your coin into more. It is nothing even remotely possible for you to do.

Other Worldly things are just that.

Anyhoooooodles,

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  I have to poop

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Luv Ya's!!!   :)

MWAH!!!    :)))

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D    :D