I Wanted To Sleep Later Than This...

Morning all.  How's it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  As the title suggests I wanted to sleep later than this, but I was up.  I typically know when I am up.  I know sleep will not be happening anymore.  That is this time right here, and right now.

I was just thinking of how much time I invest in this little thing here.  A lot huh??  Why you ask??  ummm,  Not sure really.  Is it weird for me to say this is something I am supposed to do??

You have seen me in all kinds of areas too huh??  Can this be done??  I don't want to do it anymore, but really on most days I do feel like doing this.  For whatever reason.

You have seen me be silly, angry, happy, excited.  You have seen me harp on how stupid life, but in a funny way, and typically in a pretty happy way.  I myself have been taken down many roads so it seems.  I have let you see how a guy thinks.  I have been taken to the depths of despair in order to help some people.

My whole life is and has been a learning process.  Really, it seems the whole journey was to show me all the things that are possible.  Show me really the miracles that are available, but to do it in a way where I realize I am not special.  I have done nothing to deserve who I am, and what I am asked to do.

Here I will get a bit weird on you.  I in the early stages of a new and transformed me was very full.  Secure in all things.  Strong in all things.  Full of joy, and I can not even explain to you.  This is after my 6 days of suffering the worst persecution ever.  So yeah,  I thought I was something special.

Then it was all taken away.  I was empty, and very very scared, because I did not want to go back to the place of persecution.  I had no security.  I was given a lesson though.  The persecution came back, and in it a teaching lesson. It was taken away like that.  It let me know who was in charge.  Who had all the power, and who controls things.

The journey was not to trust in my fullness, but to trust in only one.  I didn't always trust btw.  Remember my whole journey was trusting in my energy, I trusted in early blog times.  We trust in a lot of stuff, and our path we take is a hard one where we learn there is nothing on Earth we should trust.  You were asked to throw away your 5 year plan and 10 year plans, and trust there is a wiser course you will be led on.

You won't feel great about doing this btw.  You do have hopes and dreams, and your life is a big deal.  One of the lessons is you don't always do the right thing with a good heart.  "Those who loved me are those who have done what I say."

Crazy stuff huh??  Righteous isn't righteous is it?  Remember I wanted to be right, but I was supposed to be faithful.

I was too.  I did not do one dang thing to overcome what I have overcome.  Hospital, and the end of the Journey.  I still have one final thing to do, and I do not know when it is.  This year, next year??  Could be any.  I have been given a strong and courageous heart not to fear what I must do.

I have not done one dang thing.  All the good I have done has been done for me.  With a blessing too comes basically a Midas touch.  Right prior to going into the Hospital I was given the blessing.  It was something I knew, and something I felt.  I didn't care.  It wasn't that I wanted.  The blessing has made me do some things.  It has made me do hard things I guess.

Crazy things.  I hope that this isn't too hard to understand.

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Adding Cory Schroeder and his wife Tracey, and Johnny Garcia and his wife Perle.  They are strong people, and well, Cory and I go way back.  We have known each other a long time.  He is a Bears fan and a Tigers fan.  One of those half good half bad people.  :)

This is just an extra honest something something.  I don't really do baby announcements on this thing, but Beau and Charity had their kid a week or so ago.  I was in my own deal, and never congratulated them on the kid.  Reasons are many.  No one knows them two better than me, and really I was babied out anyway.  Between bloggers I read, and people I work with there have been a billion babies.  Me, I am not really into them too much you know??  

I am not perfect.  I am not always nice, and sometimes my life is about me too you know??

Love You All   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya!!   :D    :D

not really the direction I meant to take on this blog update.  Oh well.   :)

Have a good one all.   :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 

Looking Back On The Day...

Good morning all.  How are you doing??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  I just had a day yesterday that was just about perfect.  A day where I had energy, I was in a good mood, and I was full of smiles inside.  Just felt pretty good. 

I look back at what transpires on a day like yesterday, and I come away with some things.  One is in our life we have done a lot of stuff.  A lot of stuff is things we would just assume hide from people. 

Just yesterday, I publicly confessed my first sexual relations for all to see.  It was a one night stand at a party.  I was a sophomore in H.S.  I fooled around with a girl.  I didn't go all the way, because that I was going to save myself for.  I never did go "all the way" with someone until my H.S. girlfriend and I broke up.  I was saving myself,  which btw means absolutely nothing.

Saving yourself is all just part of the sacrifices we want to make.  Pretend a H.S boy doesn't have urges is pretty crazy, and pretty naive.

Yet these are things we want to hide, and what I have been dong all along is not hiding stuff.  Even in my darkest hours, when I feel judged by people, I can close my eyes, and See myself be open, and let myself be seen.

The path is crazy hard, because it is a strange one.  We want to show our worth.  We can work toward this or this or this.  There is one who does the work, but we have to let go of ourselves.

I did not know that part was so hard.

The World is a pretty crappy place with pretty crappy people.  We put a lot of faith in the World and ourselves don't we??

See what I mean, about spouses not even knowing each other??  We really don't want to show all the stupid shit that runs through our minds for people do we??  In our World we want to throw a sheet over all our ugly crap, and I have been trying to lift the sheet off.  That is where we really need help.  None are really strong enough to lift the sheet off themselves, because we open ourselves up to being judged, and who wants that???

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  Robin Ventura set up his rotation for the Tigers this weekend.  Liriano, Peavy, and Sale.  I was telling Tiger fans this week that this was their week to make a move.  Sox will have like 7 more home games than away games after this week.  So far we have gained a half of game.

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D   

New Day. Same Life... Not A Bad Thing. :)

Morning all.  How is it going??  Me, I am doing pretty good.  It is a Wednesday.  I am in a pretty good mood. so that ain't too shabby.  :)

I am going to gets me a cup of coffee.  I will pour two cups, but as is the case lately will probably only drink the one.  Hold on.   :)

I had a pretty good day yesterday.  I had fun.  I had a pretty good day at work, and as happens sometimes I felt overwhelmed.  So much stuff I want to do, and so very little time.  Oh well just plug along I guess. 

We paid some bills yesterday, and Lisa had to run some errands.  I was going to cook a special dinner, but Lisa had to go to the grocery store for her Mom, so I told her to pick up a few things for the dinner I planned.  She took too long, and I fell asleep, and dinner was ruined not cooked.  :)  Oh well.  Lisa had to go to a stupid work meeting at 10:00 pm.  Departments have to have a mandatory work meeting every month or two, so they can talk about nothing important and waste their time.  No one likes them, and everyone thinks they are a waste of time.  As with most things it is the direction from "the smart people" up top making rules for the "dumb people" below.  I am pretty sure all the "smart people" were Sociology majors.   :)

So today is another day.  I will bring my big cooler of ice water to work.  I have been doing that lately, and I love love love chugging my ice water at work.  I get thirsty a lot.  Lisa closes, so she gets to sleep in, and have a nice relaxing day before she has to go to work. 

Oh one other thing, I cut the bottom of my foot.  It is a pretty bad cut.  Probably needed stitches, so I am off of running for a bit.  It did feel better yesterday than Monday however.  Probably cuz I didn't run on it.  :)   I ran to work on Monday. 

Yep, this is my blog update, and this is my blog.  Pretty much nothing about nothing.   :)))

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)))

p.s.  Holy Hell I gots nothing for a p.s., and I don't have all day to think of one.  So there, that is the p.s.   :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D     :D

Have a good one all.   Luv ya's.   :)    MWAH!!!    :)   LOL  

Unplugged...

Good Morning all.  I have been a bit invisible for a while, and to be brutally honest, I was just living "my" life.  I really was not too concerned with what others were doing, and perhaps a bit of I don't care what others are doing.   :)     My life doesn't change too much.  I woke up early Saturday morning, and worked 7 hours.  I woke up early Sunday too.  By 8:30 am, I ate breakfast, lunch, did dishes, folded laundry, cleaned the kitchen, and had a really peaceful solo run.  The solo run was cut shorter than I wanted cuz I had to poop, but it was one of the most enjoyable runs I have had. 

My running season is over.  Like last year it was a whopping one race.  I am in my favorite running time I guess.  Keep up a base.  If my long run of the week is 6 miles.  So be it.   There are those of us out there you know.  When I first started running, I saw a lady run with a dog a lot.  After a couple years I actually talked to her.  Her dog passed, she still runs some days, and walks some days.  She is elderly, tall, skinny, and attractive in her own way.  (probably 10 years older than me)  She doesn't do races, she just runs.  When I saw her walking on my way home from Sundays run she had a smile on her face.  She was enjoying herself.  I think that is how I felt on my Sunday run. 

For the weekend we really didn't do much.  We cooked our meals, and I watched a lot of  movies, and was reading my book.  It is a Fiction book, and if you ever saw "Relic" it was from those authors.  Pretty entertaining, although I am taking my sweet old time with it. 

I also got my haircut yesterday, and ended up having a pretty good conversation with the girl who cut my hair.  I used to be a one girl guy with my haircuts.  I'd get a girl who cut my hair, and make an appointment same time 4 weeks later with the same girl.  May have been 3 weeks.  When she moved on, I'd get another.  I just remembered that yesterday.  I got to know these people pretty well.  The place I go to now is just walk in, and you get who you get.  It is always a girl, and typically they are not too bad looking.  Most of the time interesting too. 

Sometimes life is about the little things huh?? 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  When I do this as often as I do, and take a few days off, I realize the way this thing goes, changes a bit with my change in moods from one day to the next.  Time away gives a fresh perspective.  Wonder if that is true in all things in life???

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

Andrew Richards

There is no one who makes my blog with a title, unless it is I love Doreen.  Andrew made my title, because there is no one I know as strong and as honest as him.

He makes my blog every day now in the only way I know how.  xoxoxo

You all can do better.  You won't ever be as strong or as honest as Andrew.  He is special.


Later all.  :)


xoxo

Nancy Close makes it too.  

Sometimes You Just Gotta Sweep The Yanks...

Well yesterday was a different sort of day.  We were one day past our audit at work, so I was super motivated.  We have 3 audits at work each year.  It is an audit of inventory accuracy, and basically a snapshot in how I am doing with my job.  We passed the audit barely, so I definitely could be doing a better job, or keep a better eye on the departments who should be getting 90-100%, and skating by with 80% scores.  The hard departments I spend a lot of time in, and the easy ones I don't.  I put my faith in the easy departments to get their shit done, and they have disappointed this year.  So anyway, I will get my money, and I sent an e-mail to the whole store.  It was mmm  how do you say??   nice ...  diplomatic...   hmmm.  I think I made my point I guess I should say.   ;)

Our 2nd audit came at the very last dates to have them done.  One every four months.  Our first one was Jan 2.  This one was late August.  A big swing.  That means our 3rd one can be in a couple weeks time, so we can make a nice strong push to kick the 3rd one's ass. 

So anyway I didn't run yesterday.  I was up early enough to, but decided not to.  I tried blogging yesterday twice, but there was absolutely nothing to blog about. 

To be honest I am getting fed up with the blogs I read sometimes.  Blogging is supposed to be about life, and everyone wants to pretend life is something viewed through rose colored glasses, and that my friends is a bunch of BULLSHIT. 

If all you got is the stupid fake shit, then my friends you are running away from yourself.  That means you are weak.  It takes courage to look at yourself, and to let yourself be seen.  You need help with this, because from what I can tell you don't have what it takes. 

Just when you thought you were so fucking fabulous...  Oh well,  I can see right through you...

It is early, so maybe I will run before work.  Actually, I definitely am going to run before work.  Today is Thursday, so Lisa and I may be able to see the movie I wanted to see yesterday.  Sounds like a plan. 

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!    :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)

p.s.  Fuck a p.s.  we swept the fucking Yankees. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D 

Morning...

Hello all.  You know the routine.  Not much on my mind, but I do have fingers.  I have access to internets, and I am going to gets me a cup of coffee, and see where this leads.  

Okay where were we??   Oh yeah, this thing.  I don't have much as usual so we will see where this thing goes.  Yesterday was a Monday.  I don't know how most of you are, but many many many many times I wake up ready to take on the World. You know me early morning, I am full of energy zest, etc...  I go to work, and as the 8 hours winds down, I am not always full of zest and energy etc...  That was yesterday to a "T"  I came home, and felt like doing nothing.  Lisa has Mondays off, and she just had a nice relaxing day.  I love that she has Mondays off, and a day to herself. 

I sat and didn't do a damn thing.  She got off the couch, showered, and went to the library.  We had ribs cooking in the slow cooker all day, and I listened to music, and watched a bit of TV.  A day in the life of me.  A typical Monday. 

So anything else??  Nah, not really.  I do think there is a lot to us all, and we really want to have ourselves all figured out.  I know me, and here I am.  I have been saying you don't know you.  You have lived a life up to this point, and you still don't know you.  You try and find a type of consistency, and be able to show that person in public, but you never really are always the same day to day. 

You are a complex person.  You don't have you down, because we never really are as good of people as we would like.  We never are as strong as we should be or as we would like.  The tendency in us is to box ourselves up.  Here I am.  It makes it kind of easy if we can do that huh??  Takes the guess work out of us, but I guess you have to accept there is no possible way you can box yourself up.  You don't know yourself that well.  You have to accept that. 

See how complicated everything is??  The Journey to life, and finding out who we are is full of all kinds of things, and there is things we see day to day, a person as dull witted as a human cannot do what is necessary to figure everything out. 

So all our lives we are supposed to believe we are fabulous as people, and the World is a great place, and I have been saying just the opposite.  We aren't that fricken great, and the World really is a pretty shitty place. 

I have been through a lot for whatever reason to get to this point.  Stuff you have no idea, and why did I have to go through some crazy things like I did??  Not sure. 

It is what it is though, and here I am. 

Anyway it is Tuesday.  We are in a good work time now, as Lisa will be closing on Tuesdays after her Monday off.  She will be working more hours, and hopefully I will be able to still work on Saturdays. 

It is early, and I have time to get a nice run in, and that is what I think I will do. 

Have a good day all.  :)

Luv ya's.   :)

That is it for today!!!    :)

Thanks for reading!!!    :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!    :)

Love You All!!!    :)))

p.s.  ooooh.  Sox won last night.  Wonder who they played....    ;)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D    :D  

Later Gaterzzzzzzzzzzzzz    MWAH!!!     :)