Coffee and A Blog.

Well, I have absolutely no idea what I am going to write about today.  Why do I write so often??  I don't know.  There are a million different directions a life can take at any point in time.  You can choose to do damn near anything, and work toward it, but all plans can be shelved due to poor health. 

You want to know what I have been thinking lately??  I think I can write dang near anything on here.  I don't think too much about what I write.  Maybe me writing helps people think of stuff.  I do know the direction I took leaves me with a freedom now.  A freedom of not second guessing.  I still feel vulnerable sometimes, like after Saturdays post, but I never worry too much.

I guess I don't have to do anything.  I still am out there, being a bit crazy.  I am a bit wild, because why not.  I just don't understand a lot of you.  Who are you??  You know who you are??  No you don't.  You don't know who you are, and what you think about, and what you want to do can change from day to day.  I guess you seek consistency inside your shell, but it isn't there.  You seek for happiness with your goals, but it isn't there. 

The thing here is we are being led down a path.  Your lives will have stuff in it for you to see every day, and you are looking, and you are seeing, and not all of life is happy.  Not all of life is sunshine, and not all of life is predictable. 

In other words I have no idea what to write.  :)  still love you all tho.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  oh shit,  I got a picture of my room, lemme add it.  :)

Trainer ride anyone??  :P

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D 

No extras cuz it still is Monday you knucklheads.  :D   Have a good one.  :)   MWAH!!!!

I'll Take A Miller "LIGHT"

Well yesterday's post seemed a bit heavy, so maybe I will lighten it up a bit.  First off I ran yesterday morning, and ran with Ken from work. Ken is 65 I believe and ran the Chicago Full, and the next weekend the Grand Rapids half.  If you remember I tried helping him on long runs, but got injured again last year, and couldn't help him.  He did most of the training himself.  Solo marathon training.  YIKES!!  We did like a little 6 + mile route, but since I ran home from a spot my run was probably close to 8 miles.  I didn't time it, and I didn't check the distance.  Didn't really care.  I feel I am slow right now, but I am healthy, so that matters.  :)

Give you a couple things I was thinking about this morning, before I got up.  I am excited to getting back to running/riding bike to and from work.  It will be all part of my training.  A run, and a bike with a destination is good exercise for me.  Starts the day off right, and gets my work day on the right foot.  I like work.  It gives me a place to have to be, and sometimes as crazy as it may sound I dread my vacations.  :)  My wife thinks I am nuts, but work is a good routine for me. 


Anyway I guess that is about it for today.  I know life is so big, and so much out there, and dammit sometimes the grass is green in other spots, but the search is to find where the grass is green in your mind.  It is all about how you feel inside.  How do things look inside you??  How do you feel?   Paradise comes from the inside.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I thought for myself to set up my trainer, and get little 30-45 minute workouts in here and there.  Every little bit helps, and I cannot do the killer trainer rides the other ones do.  Too boring for me. 


Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Wisconsin football fans.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen too.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo


Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D 

The Fork Was North And South

That is the one less traveled.  Well here is what I was thinking.  The path less traveled is the one in where your spirit soars.  You shake off all the chains that bind you, because the chains ain't worth anything.  Quit holding onto stuff that really doesn't matter.  When you take the path less traveled you actually take the path up.  It is then when you let your color, and light shine.  I mean the easy way is to bury all who you are.  Don't show anyone, and you know that is an easy thing to do, but it leads to such unhappiness.  The shell is some form of security, but you will not find happiness keeping it on. 

I don't know that is what I was thinking.  My heart is full this morning, and it pains me to think some people don't have a ton of confidence.  So many people I think are worthy of all my praise.  :)  I tell  you one thing, I love that Charisa blogs almost every day.  I mean her life is a heck-u-va lot busier than mine, and she always gives us a little something.  She does it with humor, and style, and confidence, and well, ya know I think she is about as great as they come.  :)

I had a lot on my mind this morning before I got up.  Some of it of the nutty variety, but I don't really have a real train of thought, so I am just going to give out xoxoxoxoxo's  if ya don't mind.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I know I know it is 3:00 am and I am up doing this thing.  :)  Nuts!!!

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Extras of these.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Christie cuz she struggles with confidence in all kinds of areas.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo  Through our weakness we find strength.  :)  xoxoxo

Extras for Gina, cuz there is no one I know who wants to be loved more than her.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for Doreen cuz I don't know her story, but I know there is sadness in it, and I love her.  :)  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Extras for all the xxxxxxxxxxx people, because they are so open and honest, and they are the best, and I love them all.  :)  xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'd give extras to Olga, but she always gets 'em it seems.  Ehhhhh, what the heck.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I truly only do what is in my heart, and my heart is happy, and full like I said.  I know people are struggling with health issues, and wish I could be there more for them, but I do what I can with what is in my heart.  So just stay strong, and this is something I guess you will have to face.  I know it is scary, and I don't know your fear.  I know you feel alone, and I don't know your sadness.  All I can say Naomi is you are a strong girl, and even though you feel weak, you are strong enough to deal with all you need to deal with.  Even if you don't feel like it.  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

Important Public Service Announcement!!

It is 3:30 in the morning, and I am going back to bed.  Just want to say hi though, and tell ya you all are great.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!  :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Wanna know something about me??  Usually when I take a staycation I get lethargic, and get in a bad mood.  I think I have done pretty good on this one.  I am in a good mood.  I got a little bit done, and I am still looking forward to the weekend, and not dreading Monday.  Oh, and good news.  Monday is just around the corner.  :)  yayyy.  :)

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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 Extras for Gina and Olga, and I will tell you why.  We went to lunch, and the waitress served Lisa and I before.  The waitress is cute kinda how you would picture Olga being cute.  Contrary to popular belief, I barely even know what Olga looks like.  All personality driven.  :)  Anyhoo the waitress had some of the same internal health issues Gina was suffering with last year, and she looked miserable.  It made me think of Gina's struggles last year, and how she powered through, even though it couldn't have been easy.  Anyway that is what I thought of.  :)   xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Now for really really cya cya cya  :D  :D 

The Anatomy Of A Day!!

Well, I had my day all planned out.  For the record I didn't run.  I fell back asleep.  I did some general cleaning around the house, and that was good enough.  I prepped the dinner for the crock pot.  Which turned out great btw.  I then decided to do my haircut, and bloody mary thing.  Something was off though.  The great bloody marys at Phil's didn't taste all that great.  Instead of 4 I went with 2.  I was like blah.  So I went home, and made a drink, and listened to music for a bit, and was like blah.  Then I start getting the lows.  No one reads this stupid blog.  I hate FB, and I hate Twitter.  I turn off the music, and just sit there for a bit.  Not drinking, and not doing a damn thing. 

Then little by little things start getting better.  Starting with just a silly little Twitter update by Olga.  Yup you got it.  Why our paths crossed is nothing short of destiny.  Those who read this blog know she is an important person to me, and it must be the quid pro quo thing.  She trusts me through all the zany things I may do, and through the highs and lows.  Remember a long time ago when I said stupid updates are important, because life really is just absurd.  That is the true version.  The absurdity of it all.  I think it can be like Solomon in Ecclesiastes where it seems pointless.  Type of a FML type of thing, or it can be fun, if we just open up and show our crazyness.  Being closed is the path mostly traveled.  Take the path less traveled, and that will make all the difference, in the words of Robert Frost.  A little thread with Kim Sheridan, Faith, and Gina.  More important people in my life.  :)

You know when I get a little wacky the first person to step in is Doreen.  That my friends is the anatomy of  a day.  People are important.  It is important to step in when people are low, and it is a great ability if you can just laugh at the general wackiness of life.  Don't take everything serious, because you are not going to get out alive, and that you can trust. 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  Always give out a little blogger love, because a lot of the times we all think what we do here is boring and stupid. 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D  :D 

Extra love to you all  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxo  and xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx   MWAH!!!

Now for really really really cya cya cya cya  :D  :D  Olga is great.  :)  xoxoxo

Blogging Is Hard On Vacation I Think

You want to know why?  I think, because I don't see a shit ton of people.  I don't interact with a shit ton with people, and I think I get ideas throughout the day of things to write about.  I am not really sure if that is the case, but sometimes I think I look, and see all kinds of things throughout the day, and maybe it gives me ideas of stupid shit to write on this thing.  Not saying for sure for sure, but that is what I am thinking now. 

Not to mention what kinds of exciting things can happen at home??  I will tell you this.  Our gas valve on our furnace went out, and we got it fixed.  So now I have new batteries in the thermostat, a new gas valve, a new fuse, a new thermocouple, and a cleaned, and serviced furnace.  The guy said everything looks good too, so a clean bill of health, and no foreseeable problems.  Gotta like that piece of mind going into the cold months. 

Want to know what I feel like doing today??  Well besides a bit around the house, and a quick little 3 mile run.  I want a lunch with bloody marys.  Don't ask me why, but it seems like a good idea to me.  What are Wednesdays for??   :)

You know something I thought about just now.  Everything we do, if taken at face value can mean something.  In what ways can you be misunderstood?? 

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  I need a fricken haircut!!!   :) 

Love You All xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D  :D 

A Good Start

Well first off I guess I should say when I am on a vacation, I can get super duper oooper scooper lazy.  For me that does not work.  An inertia takes over, and I feel like I do nothing.  I need to have some type of work to do most days, or I feel like a blob.  I am not one of those people who can sit at the beach for days on end, and that is it.  Others can do that, I am just not one of them.  I feel better when I do stuff.

So I ended up getting a pretty fair amount of stuff done yesterday.  I feel better about myself when I do that.  I won't bore you with the details, but let's just say I feel pretty good.  :)

I thought of some bat shit crazy stuff this morning.  Real stuff that happened to me that makes me the way I am.  Do you wonder what kool-aid I drank that makes me this way??  Do you know what steps on my journey I took that makes me this way??  You know what??  You are taking these steps.  You are being led.  You'll try to hang onto some types of things for security, but don't worry.  You are being led, and how you feel inside can be changed on a dime.  Due to nothing you have done on your own. 

Don't worry.  I know the journey is hard, and why it has to be that way I am not sure.  Maybe, because it takes a lot of stuff to really overcome the false vision the world teaches us.  You can trust me though.  The Kool-Aid is pretty good, the steps are just not all that easy. 

Like I said before, I wish I could make things easier for you, but trust in the author of your story.  You are in pretty good hands.  :)

That is it for today!!!   :)

Thanks for reading!!!   :)

Hope Everyone has a Great and Awesome Day!!!   :)

xo's!!!   :)

Love You All!!!   :)

p.s.  That I p.s. every day is always always mentioning you, I just don't always have little secret p.s. messages.  :)   xoxo  

Love You All  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Ya'All are the best  xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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Now for really really cya cya cya   :D   :D 

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo   MWAH!!!!    :)