I Think About Sleep.

It is definitely something I think about. I woke up at my early alarm. Decided to just rest a bit. I fell into a deep sleep. A wake up wondering what planet I am on kinda sleep. It was only a half hour. I felt it could have been 5 days. I guess that's good.

Yesterday was a pretty full day. I had to work a bit late, I had to get a workout in, and I ended up over 31,000 steps. I made tacos, and that hit the spot. I didn't do much besides that, but I picked up the front yard, so I'll be ready to mow.   I was definitely tired at the end of my day. My meal really hit the spot. I guess that's how I'd like to feel at the end of my days.

Outside of that not much at all. I don't think about much stuff. I am pretty lucky just being me I guess. I have no idea what goes through other people's heads. For me I wouldn't want anyone's life but my own. I don't need to create some great life. This is it. This is fine. I don't think I really put too much concern in what people think of me. I wouldn't know how they think. I feel pretty good about me.

I can do this silly blog, and it ain't no thing. People can get a look inside me, and that's fine. I do know inside people is not the same as what I have. You cannot make that stuff. People seem to always be lacking something huh?  Not enough money, not enough free time, not time for travel. I am so busy at x at the expense of y. I don't know another's internal stress, I just know they have it. What it's about i don't know.

Actions in life have reactions. I don't know what another views as a perfect life. There really isn't such a thing. What everyone seeks for is contentment. Our minds think up some avenue for us pursue that.

What we want most we can't create. The grass many/all times looks greener elsewhere.

For me, I have my days. I have stuff to do. I look forward to a meal,  and sleep. I guess my message is a tricky thing. How can some invisible force create a different existence for us? One where we feel better about all things. Why can't we do it?  We are not invisible,  AND our thumbs are helpful the way they are attached.

Anyway, that is your journey. I took mine. You are just stuck with you currently.  Brutal huh? 

Anyway i spose.

Laterzzzzzzz.      :)

xoxo.     :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeeee.       :)))

A Rainy Sunday.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. I think I've been up since 11:00 PM just laying in bed. I guess I was just done sleeping. I did nap at some point in the afternoon for some reason.  I did get all my Sunday stuff done, saw a movie, sat in the garage watching the rain. I got over 10,000 steps in too on a day off.

One thing I've noticed about me is I don't really have any desire to sit at a bar. Yesterday would have been perfect,  but I didn't feel like it. It's been a while since i did that. Just not feeling it I guess. I don't think I really feel like eating out much either. Maybe I just like it at home.

All of a sudden I have a lot to do. I have to fill in by the driveway where the forms were. Either fill with dirt,  and plant grass, or maybe put pavers there. Either way I got some work. I have some gardening to do, and I am running my tractor sprinkler every day it doesn't rain. Not today,  cuz we got a ton of rain yesterday. I'll have to cut my grass probably tomorrow. It will be too wet today.

I feel the rain was perfect,  cuz it is good to water your freshly poured cement. It can make your driveway 50% stronger. I started looking at driveways when I am out walking, running, or riding. People tend to just let them go. Blacktop needs maintenance. You gotta do it. Cement it says maybe every few years. You don't want to overdue it. A lot of people probably do nothing.

Anyway i think today will be busy at work. I potentially may have a lot to do. It's Monday though. I'll do what I can. I have to work out today,  and work on the side of my driveway. I am thinking tacos for dinner.

Some guy asked me if the 80s were the best time of my life, cuz you know you are young having fun. The answer is an easy no. These are the best days of my life. My life is super easy. I guess it helps I have absolutely no questions about the future. No worries.  Not a lot of responsibilities.

People live their lives. It's not my responsibility to steer them in any direction. People make mistakes. Maybe not live as healthy as they can. That's not my responsibility. I live my life. I am not held accountable for others. I find you cannot really lead people anyway. They have their own lives filled with decisions. If you make poor ones that's their fault.

I guess what I am saying is my life is easy. I don't put on any extra responsibilities for whatever reason. I live  pretty comfortable. I am not an angry person.

Lisa's brother lives with us. It took me a while, but I finally realized he is unbelievably selfish. People would do him favors,  and he would never do the same. He is like a 40 something year old trying to live an 11 year olds life. Video games all the time. Since he is 40+ he is gaining weight at an alarming rate. He drinks maybe 3- 2 litres of sugary pop each day. Metabolisms don't speed up as you get older. He no longer trims his beard or gets a haircut. I am pretty sure he makes more an hour than me, yet his wages are being garnished. He smokes pot, and cuz of asthma goes to the ER for treatments. He has like no bills.

That dude ain't my responsibility. He'll die a young death. He actually is pretty disgusting. People make bad choices in life. You'll find you cannot save one.

So on I go with my day to day. I think I'll have a day today. For the most part I probably won't be disgusting.

Laterzzzzzz.         :)

xoxo.      :)

xxoo.      :)

Byeeeeeee.        :)))

9 Hours And 35 Minutes.

That's how much I slept last night. I was in bed around 11 hours. That's not exactly living it up before your one day off, but I guess that's fine. Keeps me in my schedule. I did some googling yesterday. I found it's best if I water my freshly poured concrete, so I did. A lot. It's supposed to rain today, so I probably won't have to today.

I must have been tired yesterday. When I was driving home from work I saw some activity going on by a park by the water. Looked like maybe the library was putting it on. Families with their kids and stuff. My first thought was that looks boring. Drove by the crowded farmer's market. I do like the farmer's market. Saw the boats in the water, and someone pulling a sea doo with their car. That seemed like a lot of work. So I was  in a negative mood.

I cheered myself up by doing dishes,  and watering the concrete. I was going to grill a dinner, but went to bed instead. I could have done whatever I wanted, and sleep was what I wanted most.

Today I am up early. Ready to start the day, and that is the way I like it. I may see a movie today, cuz of the rain. Dark Phoenix is out.

I think today should be pretty okay. Remember too, I get out at 2:00 PM every day. All days can be good on my end.  Best if I am not tired, but I like sleep anyway.

Laterzzzxzz.     :)

xoxo.       :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeee.      :)))

Finally Able To Get Up At The Early Alarm.

Good morning. How's it going?  Me, I am fine. Yesterday was okay. I was over 28,000 steps,  I chilled outside for a bit. I read some of IT, watered my tomatoes,  and watched a few episodes of its always Sunny. I had tears in my eyes laughing so hard at one episode. It was the year of 1776. Mac got wood teeth put in, cuz it was all the rage back then,  and when he talked he whistled.  It was so dumb, and I couldn't stop laughing every time he talked. I have no idea how they think that crap up. Hands down the funniest sitcom I've watched.

We got half our cement poured. Patio sidewalk, and single stall part of the driveway. The wide part of the driveway gets paved today. I have to work out, so I only miss one workout this week. I guess I had a week. Next week I concentrate on yard work. Doing a driveway tends to tear up your yard a bit. Also I got more gardening to do. I'll start watering the grass again on Monday.

Things will be busy, and I guess I like that.  Always have stuff to do. I like my balance. Work, stay active, do stuff, chill, eat, sleep. I heard about a guy who may be close to my age. He is in trouble skipping child support payments, God only knows what he does to make money. He was going to get married, and just said nah, I am out. The girl was hurt, but obviously lucked out. My age, and life completely fucked up. I'd want to escape that life.

I am just living my life doing my thing. It just occurred to me when I heard that, how some people's lives are fucked up. I've not been a Saint, but I have no baggage. Nothing that brings me down. Family,  friends,  society,  education have no say in who I am. Days in History hold no importance to me. No heroes in my World. That kind of thinking is poison, but most won't learn I guess.

You see, I have my day to day. It's easy, fun, and I suspect a healthy way to be. I wake up most days feeling pretty good. I am assured of my ways, cuz that's how it is to be me now.

I don't have any questions in life. No dreams of a better life. No questions in what I should do. My 5 and 10 year plans I don't even have to think about. My path is in good hands, and I have no worries.

It's early June, and I guess this is a pretty good and exciting time.

I am gonna take Hope. It should be a good one. I'll be able to read a bit of IT too. 

Laterzzzzzz.       :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeeeee.         :)))

A Day Came And Went.

Our driveway is almost done. They'll pour cement today. It's a pretty impressive job. It's part know how, and still part creativity. At least for ours cuz we have a sidewalk, patio, and flower beds. It's going to look nice. It's just a crew of two older guys. It's a good trade to learn I feel. I am impressed with the job they are doing.

I slept over 7 hours again. Slept past my early alarm again too. After today everything will be settled. I wonder if the excitement of the driveway getting done has me being more tired. You know excitement stress? 

I made brats last night on the grill, and grilled zuchinni. It was good. I went to bed super early. We were just chilling outside. I was about to go back out, and decided to just go to bed. Tired me =I may as well just go to bed.

I love sleep. Nothing like a good night sleep. I don't love it enough to not wake up before I have to though. I like getting up early too if I am able. I didn't take Hope before work the last two days, but I read IT. I am definitely taking Hope in a couple minutes. I've been driving to work too, so I can get the vehicle out of the way for the driveway people.

Next week everything will be normal. You never know how I'll do with the early alarm however. School is out now, so everything will just be a bit busier I guess. Luckily this isn't Derry,  so no group of kids will have to battle IT.

Assuming all the cement gets poured today that finishes all major projects on the house. Still some minor stuff to do. Fun stuff though. You know improvements,  busy, steps,  outside Summer stuff.

Lisa has a friend battling a nasty bit of cancer. Treatment is pretty brutal. Life looks different there. I am not in that place. Outside of an accident we will all visit that place. The unknown future. Inside I guess I don't really worry about myself. I feel okay. Cancer is so bad cuz it's invisible. You never really know.

Anyway, I guess I'll have a day today. Can you imagine my driveway will be done?  Pretty exciting.

I got really nothing. I have a day today. I am healthy,  so I might as well enjoy it.

Now let's get those steps. Only 21,000 yesterday.

Laterzzzzzz.           :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.       :)

Byeeeeeeeeee.       :)))

That Early Alarm Has Been Impossibly Early The Last Two Days.

I slept over 7 hours last night, and only 26.5K steps. I don't know why that early alarm has been so impossible.

Yesterday was a pretty good day. I took Hope after work. I got my final check, which covers my tax bill, and my property tax bill. I don't need to diminish my savings at all. That's nice. We got our driveway ready for our concrete guy. He comes today at 8:00 AM. The only downside is I'll probably miss my workout. I can do the home part,  but I'll come home to see how things are going.

I cooked ribs on the grill which came out good. Potatoes and asparagus too. It was a good dinner. Also a pretty good day I guess.

Not much else besides that. Usually I take Hope when it is dark, but yesterday I did it after work. I see Michigan beats up driveways. A lot of them around our house look old,  and beat up. Even the million dollar homes too. The freeze thaw thing I spose. Rarely do you see people do driveway maintenance though. Blacktop sometimes. Concrete never. I'll probably do some research on that,  cuz a nice driveway is pretty nice.

I have only 8 pages left of the kids part in IT, and then I go to the grownups.  Part II of the movie.

I was just kinda... well really an internal inventory popped in my head. I feel good. No stress, life is easy as always,  outside of not being able to get up for the early alarm. All is good on that front. I am pretty lucky to have that. Oh, also I have Reeses creamer for my coffee.

So basically life goes forward. Another day down,  and another one starts. Should be okay. Most days are.

Laterzzzzzz.        :)

xoxo.            :)

xxoo.           :)

Byeeeeeeeee.         :)))

Gotta Love Sleep.

I slept an extra hour. I checked my sleep figuring it was a lot,  but it was only 6-1/2 hours. I feel it was a good sleep. As I figured, my sleep was only 4 something hours the night before.

I did my banking. I am going to close my Chase account soon. Only reason I got it was to get $550 or whatever for jumping through a couple hoops. Deposit this much, and direct deposit from one of my jobs. I am past the mandatory amount I have to keep it open. I went to 3 banks yesterday. Grabbed money from here, from here, and from here. That's ridiculous. It was just to get cash for my concrete guy. I didn't want to take it from just one bank. Whatever.

Other than that yesterday was okay. It was sunny. I had a full day.  Nothing too crazy happened. I got my full workout in. I knew I was tired after work, so I just blocked that. I knew from my last workout I am pretty strong,  so I concentrated on that.

Today I don't have much planned. Just a meal,  and yard work when I get home. My uncle's estate is almost finished. Only one check from IL left. My latest checks will pay my income tax from the IRAs. Got my cash out for the concrete guy. I'll have a $2000 property tax in August I believe, and then we just save money. Nothing big  needs to be bought.

I live a pretty simple life huh?  Nothing glamorous at all about me. I don't spend much money on travel. I don't really eat out that much, and not really expensive restaurants. It's good being 50. You don't need much anymore. I am as excited about sleep as anything else. I like working, having full days, and yeah that's about it.

I have no stress at all about trying to create my best life. It's here kinda. I guess mostly cuz my heart doesn't yearn for stuff. I have my simple day to day, and I can't dream of anything better. The only problem is I didn't make myself this way. If I was just the same old person who was born here I don't know what I would have become. It's hard saying. I tend to think my life was pulled aside before I even knew about it. You know how you learn lessons at a young age. Well College age anyway.

Pride left me early. Work while I go to school. Walk or bus to work. Also I realized when I lost my lumber yard job, I wasn't too good to work at a grocery store making minimum wage. I wasn't too good for it you know? 

Money coming in is better than no money coming in. I am not fabulous in the least. Even still my journey has left me confident and strong. I am not too good to do any labor,  but also no person do I look up to. I have no heroes. No life I'd rather live.

I remember for so long not wanting to be solo you know?  I didn't want to be the only member of the Loser's club, but now I am fine with it. Mostly cuz after overcoming the 2nd time I am no longer alone. I am accepted. Treated as an ally,  not an enemy. I am way too strong, but luckily I am slow to anger. I think I get slower and slower to anger too.

So, today I'll have a day. 73,5 miles last week too.  Should be okay.

Laterzzzzzz.          :)

xoxo.        :)

xxoo.        :)

Byeeeeeeee.         :)))